Pedogate: Reconciling Our Deepest Darkness

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By Raphael Awen

There’s no greater crime imaginable to us than the sexual abuse, rape and torture of innocent children, and then when you add in that it’s an interwoven part of governmental and religious power structures on top of all that, it’s completely insane.

It’s so off the charts that it elicits the strongest of our right/wrong reactions where we want justice, we want punishment. We want the ‘perpetrator’ to be ‘paid back’ and made to feel the horror they caused by their actions.

In all of this however, we are caught up in the same punisher-shame cycle that created the abhorrent behaviour. Pedophilia, along with the abuse of power, is not created in a vacuum, and it won’t be resolved in a vacuum. It’s going to take many more of us to open our hearts to really feel what’s going on here and why to shift this reality.

The behaviour is not okay and it needs to stop, but all the punishment and shaming energy that we project onto the perpetrators only serves to insure the underlying problem is left intact, leaving more children to suffer, while we rage at the insanity of it.

If a sinner can balance the scales through penitence and remorse, and paying society back, or paying God back, then the account is settled. …right? Wrong!

What the universe is now asking us to feel is how everything from swatting a fly, to ‘raising’ a pig in a meat factory, to grooming young children for sexual abuse and torture is all something we are being asked to raise our consciousness about. It is the taking of life without feeling is what is not okay. Feigning care when there is no care is what is not okay. Love is what is offended here.

But, the reason we are disinclined from feeling this, is that when you do open your heart to how much we crave and need love, we come to weep deep tears for not just the acts of the nastiest outright abuse, but for harsh words and edgy sarcasm, and missed opportunities that all are offenses to the reality of love, that we experienced and perpetrated. We come to see that any offense to the immensity of love cannot be graded, or even begun to be ‘paid back’.

There’s a deep penitence that we are all afraid of feeling, that it will somehow consume us and leave us no more and so we seek to escape this by finding a worse offender to project out onto.

We are being invited to feel what it feels like to be denied love and to feel what it feels like also to be the denier of love. There really isn’t a separation here. Love is equally offended.

This is the only place where any true change (I can’t bring myself to use that soiled word ‘rehabilitation’) happens.

What if all this 3D reality of this heightened duality is all something we set up to rediscover what love is and isn’t? We needed the backdrop of extremes, and of gradients, of things so horrible as pedophilia, a beautiful word meaning the love of children, turned on its head, to mean the opposite.

We created this reality and it is ours now to un-create and recreate, if we’ve gotten what we needed to get from it.

If we leave the domain of 3D perceived reality, we can feel parts of ourselves in other lifetimes who have played the perpetrator. The ones we are seeking the resolution for is ourselves, collectively and personally.

Now, we are about to dial up the public awareness of our greatest and most unimaginable sins thrown in our face as a society and what an opportunity this will be to truly shift the pain and horror to its intended purpose and awakening!

We are wanting to find a new ground based in real love for the society of self and the society of others, where we truly are all one. If one of us comes free, we all come free. If one of us suffers, we all suffer.

Only here will there be a true payback for the unimaginable suffering of innocent children offered up on the altar of us all discovering our essence in and of love, from the worst of us to the best of us.

(Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/6GBk31A_Dl4)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Halfway Between Base and Crest

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter, offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!  Go here to read or click on the image below:

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In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart facilitant Raianna Shai talks about a moment of clarity around the depth and breadth of this process. She describes the feeling of having journeyed to get from a low valley of pain to a higher crest of love and emotional healing through this SoulFullHeart process. She appreciates that it’s not just an uphill battle, but a constant rise and fall of going into the dark to reach the light:


“I feel so grateful for my journey at this moment. For my choice to realize that I’m even on a path to begin with. For my guides, who motivate me with their open hearts and genuine support. For the parts of me that have tried so hard to avoid the valleys, but learn to trust me and hold my hand as we descend. I can’t imagine a more dynamic and worthwhile life to live, this life of going in, going down, rising up and feeling whole.”

The museletter also includes beautiful and thought provoking writings from SoulFullHeart facilitators Kalayna Colibri, Gabriel Heartman and several from SoulFullHeart co-creators/teachers/facilitators Raphael and Jelelle Awen. Jelelle also offers a video extending her sentiments from her article “It’s Ok Not To Be Ok”.

The video recording of the livestream with Raphael and Gabriel on October 1st is included in the museletter. During the one hour plus broadcast, they talked about the 3D/4D/5D self, the SoulFullHeart process, and answered questions/responded to comments from viewers. Our next upcoming event is another livestream Q & A with Raphael and Jelelle on Sunday, October 29th at 11:11am CST.

We now offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offering. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest and support for SoulFullHeart Way of Life!

Here’s another link to this week’s museletter:

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Reuniting With The Divine: With Archangel Metatron

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By Jelelle Awen
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This is a photo taken by us here at the beach in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico…can you see/feel the angel embracing the heart of the sun? Such beautiful codes this day and this is what they had to say….

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You are made from and of angels. Remembering your wings, how you can fly, how you can soar……IF you want and WHEN you want. Your angelic aspects are waiting to embrace you again, to guide you, to flood you with PURE love.

You are made from and of stardust. Your glitter and your glisten……your sparkle and your light shines when you reclaim your star origins. Your star family aspects are HERE to support humanity’s ascension, your rise UP in your body, to remind you of your connection to unity consciousness.

You are made from and of emotional heart tones. Your compassion, your tears, your BEing touched and moved…your capacity to FEEL and to HEAL yourself and others responding to the sufferings inside. Parts of you are waiting to be felt by you, opened out and transformed by your love.

You are made from and of the Divine. Your Infinite Awareness essence returns to you as the mind grids, the 3D matrix, lets go and you are expanding. As you choose love, your Divine self comes into your body, into your heart, into your mind, into your soul AND you become One yet NOT the same….reuniting with Source again.

The Divine waits for your choice, your ‘yes’ to the invitation, your letting in….patiently waiting with the reminder that you are not and have never been….truly alone.

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Archangel Metatron with Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess
More writings like this in my book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

The Ways We Relate To Our Pain

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Sometimes, when it comes to pain… there are those who soak it in vanity, in glory, seeking pay off, drawing audiences…

There are those who feel, want to heal it, want to move it into a place where there is only now more love, letting in the humility of deeply feeling and healing along the way – often without much of an audience, for there is no glamour really, to be had here…

There are those who want to avoid pain altogether, constantly rise above it, though the swamp below them deepens and reaches up to grab on, often eventually finding its way into the person’s body and life, though the heart of this person is not yet ready to fully feel it all.

And, there are those who feel pain on the surface only, blame all else for it, choose not to go inward, and may never seek bigger answers that actually must first be addressed within.

Amazing it is, to feel how each way of being with the pain inevitably brought on by 3D life as we’ve known and lived it, is sacred and held somehow as perfect for each and every heart and soul… for every single one is walking out and living out what it needs to most in this phase of their consciousness. Each phase is needed in order to graduate to the next one.

This is hard to let in in the moment, yet it feels true to me still, for the heart somehow understands other hearts, even if the mind can’t quite catch up and intuition can still feel the places where the pain has yet to be fully felt in others. It’s all somehow blessed, it’s all somehow good, and it’s all somehow exactly what we all need. 

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Be A Steward Of Love

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You have chosen to be a steward of great importance. What it is you are here to usher into consciousness is yours to bequeath and ours to behold. This stewardship starts off personal and evolves into the galactic. It can’t help but to do so if you follow its natural and arising course. This stewardship is one that is self-proclaiming and love-directed. You are the captain of your ship first and foremost. The passengers, the aspects and parts of you that you have picked up along the way, need your leadership and humbled sense of urgency to guide them into the new territory of your arising sacred humanity.  Outside of yourself, which is still arguably you too, are those that are meant to seek and follow your light and example. They are also your charges when the love from within is overflowing the bows of your inner decks.

This stewardship is a responsibility and an adventure both. A serious yet joy-filled exploration that seeks to find and integrate the long lost parts of your self spread throughout your emotional universe and star-filled multiverse. It is the single greatest purpose you have to offer the world. While Rome is burning in one timeline, you can be ushering in a new world that is centered in the Love that you have packed away in the hulls of your heart and soul. It is just awaiting your claim and sometimes difficult choices.

These choices are not meant to leave you in suffering. They are meant to pave the way into a greater expanse of ocean and air, both inside and out. If you don’t quite feel that expansiveness, or it waxes and wanes, you have your assignment right there in front of you. Take care of You. Feel those inner parts of your titanic heart. Connect with them and bring them aboard your UPward coarse. As each one begins to trust the Divine Heart within you, they can begin to shed the layers of the shroud that had them as good as dead. Transform that shroud to a cocoon and let the process of healing take root. From that alchemy shines a light of pure essence that lies within each one of them. They become the spark of light that fuels your ever lightening load that sends you farther into the mystic.

Use that glistening beacon to light the way for others to see and feel. Keep up the going IN so that it can go UP and OUT. The beginning is always the hardest. The most turbulent for there is a LOT to heal from in our 3D density. It is not a torture chamber but a birthing center. The pain gives way to infinite joy that provides the container to hold even more. So this stewardship is akin to birthing yourself and love into the world, where you are the mother and the child. The midwives are those that have been through the process and can hold space for this sacred delivery.

These are epic and glorious times you and I find ourselves in. We are not here by mistake and clearly by purpose. The events that are unfolding are calling us to go within and bring in the love that is so needed to turn this larger ship of our humanity around and back toward Divine Unity. Lean into the process, the turbulence, the birthing, and the service. It is all a part of what we chose to be a part of and couldn’t imagine doing anything else.

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If you are feeling resonant with the steward-ship of SoulFullHeart and are curious how it may serve you in your birthing and expansion, check out our website and request a free 30 minute intro session to learn more.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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As Real As Royals

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By Raphael Awen

You didn’t just come here to sail on placid waters, you came here to learn how to propel your growth and learning even through times of deep chaos and change.

All of 3D earth life is a very real feeling make believe reality that we made up that is as real as real can be. Real however is not as real as we’ve previously felt it to be.

3D life is like a very real feeling board game that we created inside of a larger reality. The stakes in the game and the rules needed to be sufficiently different to learn what we couldn’t learn while remaining insulated in our so called higher dimensional reality. It’s sort of like how Base Camp One is very different reality than Base Camp Four on a Mt Everest attempt, except in reverse direction.

Here in 3D, we experience a ton of things differently than we could ever experience in 5D reality. Here, in 3D, we experience much greater edges to our individuality, and so the social area of life is greatly exaggerated. We aren’t just bubbled off in blissful oneness. We also have way more density to our physical bodies, and so they become like dashboard indicators of the ease or dis-ease we are experiencing. Spiritually, we crave more less-dense experiences like a kind of homesickness remembrance that calls to us, whereas in 5D, we wanted and needed the forgetting in order to play the game with different rules, different awareness, different juice flowing through our veins. In short, we live in a constant tension of the difference of where we came from and where we are now. There’s a third and important element however to this tension and that is about the more we set out to be and become in leaving one domain in favour of another. What would be the payoff of all of this reality swapping, forgetting and remembering were it not for something more.

This demand for more is the stuff that is at core of the universe and as a result, it lives at core of every cell in your body; in every movement of thought and emotion; in every impulse we are capable of. The constant sacred call of more that can sometimes feel like a tyrannical ruler over us.

We can write nice platitudes about how being spiritual is about learning to accept what is and not grasping for more, but even this is a kind of reaching for more, isn’t it?

Learning to love life over things is a powerful example of our relentless pursuit of more. We can’t stop the pursuit of more, we can only come to deeper and more meaningful terms with what our personal and collective more is.

This puts us in the class of gods and royals. It’s interesting that the word real comes from the word royal. It’s the royals who determine reality. Like children on the playground, we have set up reality games for the fun and payoff of a defined goal of more. We want it all, and then we want some more.

So what’s brewing in your life? What’s brewing in the different areas of your life? Physically? Financially? Emotionally? Spiritually? Socially? Mentally? And Environmentally? These areas of our 3D life seem to be the key areas of 3D life as we experience it, with each area asking to be seen and felt for our deepest inhabitation of this game we set up and chose.

We didn’t come here to spiritually bypass or transcend. We came here to inhabit. We came here on a journey for more. Spiritual bypassing and transcendence would be settling for less. We actually want and chose the edges, the challenges and even the chaos of what’s going on in each of these 7 key areas of 3D earth life.

What would choosing that deeper look and feel like for you? Where is your current more going on place?

(Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/vbocOyF2QUI)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Choosing Your Own Timeline During This Phase Of Disclosure And Change

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By Jelelle Awen
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It’s a ‘choose your own timeline’ kind of reality in this now of so much transition and change. Choosing the timeline of 3D reality where life goes on as usual, with routine, without self or outer inquiry, with acceptance of what has been presented as truth without question….this is a choice that many souls are making for their own reasons, connected to their journeys here. Choosing the timeline of waking up into soul awareness, questioning what you have been taught and sold and conditioned into by 3D reality, reconciling what you have been programmed to be (by your soul’s choice) and who you REALLY are….this is the awakening choice that MANY more souls are making as the collective ascension process moves forward.

If you are choosing to relearn or really newly learn the conditions of the world and the power structures that are operating in the shadows….this can be a heartbreaking process to your 3D self to learn that the previously trusted leaders and government are playing out so much shadow, mostly coming from deeply fear-based and oppressive frequencies. REAL shock sets in as your eyes, heart, and mind open to the realities that mainstream everything has hidden from you. This is a phase of awakening, this truly WAKING up phase, and conscious disconnect from the collective fear-based matrix. It is messy with purges of OUTrage coming up and out, needing to be expressed, finding a voice for the parts of you that feel suppressed. This is a 4D phase as well and souls are also choosing to serve as leaders/healers/teachers during this ‘wake up and shake up’ to help others to integrate what they are learning.

As more global disclosure happens to reveal the shadow side of the 3D ‘power’ structures and also the Star BEing alliances that exist on many levels, more souls will be invited to move from 3D into 4D. They will be invited into the clashes of awakening, smashing against the ‘rocks’ of conditioned reality, and potentially guided out into the open ocean of their own sovereignty again. The Divine will be THERE to guide them, love them, feel all the parts of them that are in turmoil, disbelief, shock, shut down. Souls like me, my beloveds, and others will be there to hold space for the transition that we too have been through and are going through still…serving as guides, beacons, and support to navigate the reactions in the emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual bodies.

It IS a messy time ‘out there’. I experienced a touching piece of global ambassadorship work yesterday as I etherically connected to the ‘frontlines’ of what we could call the Cabal (fear-based power structure) versus the Alliance (previously fear-based power structure that wants to change, wants redemption.) I don’t feel there are any really ‘versus’ or ‘against’, yet this is the shadowy aspects of duality that we have been playing out for so long that to exit it is to go through it. There was the sense of much activity on the ‘frontlines’…no direct violent action, yet much tension between the two ‘sides’ as they sort through how to proceed with a disclosure process to a public that ranges from completely asleep to newly outraged to long disclosed.

I offered love, forgiveness, and bridge of peace to the leaders of these energies (their higher selves mostly) and felt some of it go in. I can’t kNOw that these etheric efforts ‘do’ much of anything but my heart felt lighter to have offered love even to the darkest of energies. When I have engaged in ambassadorship like this, always do the BEings/souls ask for forgiveness for their fear-based, violent actions.

The Divine response I feel inside to them is that they are ALREADY forgiven. I remind them that they are just carrying out their very difficult role amongst the grand playout and they’ve forgotten that they made this agreement. ALL of it has been negotiated on the soul level and they have chosen, for their own growth, to ‘play the role’ of the ‘bad guy’. It is profound to feel this message go into them, usually bringing up rare tears, and also out and through me as it always helps to ease any fear that might come up inside of me.

Whatever our choices during this time of intense transition, ultimately we ARE forgiven for them. We are always invited to choose the higher timeline, the love-based choice, and, yet, we all have our own soul journeys to go on. If you are called to serve love as your highest purpose during this time, know that you are DEEPLY needed right now. This service of love can come through most strongly when there is an overflow of self love from your healing heart/soul/body/mind. Choosing your own healing AS a service of love is also much needed and does seem to impact positively the collective too.

We are being offered the choosing of our own timelines…..I choose serving love. How about YOU?

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Sanctuary Of Heart

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The dizzying effects of world events that are upon us now are truly staggering.

Something so elemental as fire burning through entire neighbourhoods and lives in Santa Rosa, California; Nextdoor in Nevada, staged mass murder; Over in Hollywood, a Harvey-what’s-his-Stien movie mogul being taken down as a tip of the iceberg sacrificial offering of the paedophilia saturated power structure of the deep state; the US President referring cryptically to the calm before the storm; while the stock market mysteriously surges on it’s own happy way.

For some, there’s no shortage of stuff to upset and overturn the business as usual mindset we’ve been beholden to. For others, there’s the opposite; no shortage of stuff to continue the denial that anything out of the ordinary is going on.

When it shifts from denial to the shock of no longer being able to ignore the events and revelations, what biological life does in the face of death and rebirth like this is to seek safety and sanctuary.

For many, this will be going into emotional shutdown, unable to cope, simply flipping a self protection psychotic break with reality switch. For some, this will be numbing themselves into a ball seeking to enter nothingness, for others, this will be an acting out of all the unfelt insanity now being made conscious as a way of processing the shift, as they stir up as much destruction around them as they possibly can.

But what can you do? What will you do? Do you have a place you can go to?

What direction would this safe place be in? What would it have stocked in it and how would all of that be protected and hidden from the hungry hordes all around you?

Prepping, as it’s called, a physical sanctuary doesn’t begin to hold a candle to preparing an internal heart place you can go to. The heart goods you can lay up for yourself are gifts like Jesus said are ‘where thieves cannot break in to steal, and where rust cannot corrupt’ and I would add ‘where fire or public insanity cannot destroy’.

Our beloved 3rd dimension of perceived time and space reality here on Gaia are being subjected to a death and rebirth on a scale we hardly ever before imagined. What our hearts are wanting to feel and heal in all of the shakeup is the deeper reality of where we came from and where we are being enlarged to in our returning and remembering process.

Some of us may feel very awoken and can compare to our days of being unaware. On a personal level, this feels important and real. On a collective level however, none of us get to go home until all of us arrive there safe and sound. ‘We’ are only one. When one suffers, we all suffer.

This holds true for the saints of the Mother Theresas among us as well as the sinners of the Hitlers among us. Many are needing to unload huge guilt burdens that their souls dialled up as part of their individual learning. Their personal learning track is connected to all of ours however. We all co-created the ‘evil’ we see around us, and it is ours to reconcile with. The time of reconciliation is upon us, and thank god for it. It is what our souls have invested in.

None of it is actually ‘other’ or external to us. We are it and it is us. Each lesson learned is a deposit in the collective bank account.

It is time now to build your own personal heart sanctuary like never before, realizing that there is no greater contribution you could make to the all that we all are.

When one prospers, we all prosper!

(Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/awhvopkL3Ao)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Under The Ash Lies Our Truest Self: Death And Rebirth After The Unexpected

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I am from a smaller city in Northern California called Santa Rosa. I was not born there, but a part of me was. It was my heart home for nearly 20 years. Currently it has been experiencing an unlikely event of a spreading wildfire dropping into its core. The speed and breadth of the fire caused last minute evacuations as it rumbled and sparked its way across a major freeway and into residential neighborhoods that would have just as soon seen pigs fly as have a wildfire touchdown into their midst.

It is a scene that makes the mind reel and the heart sink. I feel connected because there is a sense of community that exists there and even though it has been 5 years since I have lived there, part of my heart still has a love for it and those that I experienced life with. I feel the giant collective, “What the f#$k just happened?”.  The 3D anchors of one’s life just went down in flames and the resounding question is “What now? I lost everything.”

While the stun and daze find their way into anger and despair, there is a moment where life is offering us something in a story. An event. What our 3D part has held so dear as a reflection of its normalcy, its safety, and comfort, are very fragile and temporal. This construction on the outside is just that, an edifice to something much deeper than the surface itself. The houses, the stores, the landmarks. When they just vanish like they did in an instant, the 3D self finds itself staring into an abyss of its world.  A matrix in shock.

If there were a more 4D consciousness that found its way into the din of the details, you might find a period of collective reflection. If the immediate needs of those effected were taken care of they could feel the deeper pain of this extraordinary occurrence and see what may lie underneath the rubble and ash. Gaia and the Divine just came with a powerful message and it transmits at the core of the heart. There is actually a gift in it that can only be felt when one is ready to let it in to that deepening place.  The one where Love is wanting us to go into.

Life is not meant to stay stable and constant. It is ever-shifting, ever-changing. The longer we continue to keep it the same, someway, somehow, the Phoenix finds us. I am taking that in in this moment. All that I “have” before me is not really mine. They only reflect a dimension within myself. They are not my ultimately reality. But to my 3D self they are. This is where we can arise in our 4D self and hold the death and rebirth process for our 3D self and let the fire of its alchemy take us to new depths inside of us. In the case of Santa Rosa, both individually and as a community.

I feel the devastation that is coursing through. My heart goes out to all that lost all that they have worked so hard to create and maintain.  To the lives that were lost tragically. The scene is being reported as feeling apocalyptic and while that seems surreal it feels like the most real thing imaginable.  What is truly real lies in this space before it all gets rebuilt and recovered. I hope that this is a moment for many that shifts something profound. It has done that for me with my personal connection. It is a huge reminder that what exists inside of us IS the essence of our being and the rest is an act of letting go in order to feel the truth of that.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Halfway Between Base and Crest

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By Raianna Shai

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I lay on my yoga mat after a relaxing bedtime practice. Meditative music plays in the background. I get this sudden feeling of the expansiveness of my soul. Of the other lifetimes occurring in the now that I have yet to connect with. I imagine a huge valley, a Grand Canyon of dips and climbs, all of which lead to my true essence of Divine light.

I realize something. I’m not at the bottom of the canyon. I’m somewhere in the middle, having hit my rock bottom only to choose to climb back up again. But admiring the journey ahead of me, I understand that it’s not a stairway up and up and up. It’s full of both ups and downs, pain and love, tears and laughter.

How could I know the entirety of my essence without dipping down into those low valleys? How could I appreciate the magnificence of the view at the top of a mountain without having started at its rocky base? And it’s not one big uphill climb either. I get to have these stunning viewpoints to stop and let in the beauty surrounding me, so long as I keep going to feel all of the other expansive highs and lows of this diverse landscape.

And I’m not alone on this journey. I get to know these different parts of me that I “collect” as I go. They become my companions, my students, and my teachers. We gain trust and understanding, a deeper sense of the love we have for each other. There are guides too. Human facilitators that are rooting for me on the sidelines, looking back at me from just a few miles ahead in their own journey. Etheric beings boost me over the crest of the mountains and advise my next move when I’m stuck or lost. Animals remind me what’s in my heart and instill in me a sense of purpose and passion.

I feel so grateful for my journey at this moment. For my choice to realize that I’m even on a path to begin with. For my guides, who motivate me with their open hearts and genuine support. For the parts of me that have tried so hard to avoid the valleys, but learn to trust me and hold my hand as we descend. I can’t imagine a more dynamic and worthwhile life to live, this life of going in, going down, rising up and feeling whole.

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