Deep guttural tears. Floodgates open to let out what has been constructed to hold back the fear. The realization of the part of you that had been holding the interface to your relationship to 3D. It IS your 3D self. Trying so hard to manage and keep up a charade that it has grown so weary of keeping up with all the ways in which you were not fully in your heart, or expressing your needs. This personalized self that has been the default operating system for as long as you can remember. As long as it can remember.
But as the tide of Love`s widening and deepening reach makes its way to your shores, the outpost of your most defended heartland, cracks in the facade begin to take root in the foundation of your BEing. It come into your awareness over the course of time or hits you square in the gut in one fail swoop. This part of you, the one so trying to stay afloat above the fear and the pain of not being the real deal, of all that lies underneath in the murky depths of its existential quandary, has started to lose its grip and can no longer maintain business as usual.
When you have enough of a YOU there, this part can let go into that. Even if it is just enough you to lean into the Divine, something is being held in Grace. A container for which the matrix of the former interface can come undone. Undone from all the doing. All the pretending. All the trying. It is a shedding of an old and tired energy. One that needed a lot of propping up to manage its day to day survival. This only comes into awareness as the love inside you begins to feel the Love that is already here and has already won. It can not be ignored for it has already claimed you. You are just working your way there.
The increasing frequency of light is pressing ever so much into the crevices of your needed healing. Of what really needs to be let go of so that you can let in more. The more that wants to drown you in its goodness. But the Not Goodness needs to be felt first. But when held in sacred space, this pain is actually a relief. The part of us that has put itself up front to do life actually feels the blessing in it as the balm of your love and that of the Divine give the necessary medicine to heal and integrate.
As these days continue in their upward spiraling, the more you will begin to feel all that needs to be felt. This is why it is so important to have a way to hold this space within you. To feel yourself just big enough to hold the pain and the fear allowing it to have it needed time and space without becoming it. It is one that can be felt within yourself and within community. We were never meant to do all this alone even as this can be such an individual process at times.
As the dust settles, the digestion is made over due course, a new feeling of awareness and clarity of Self arises. Not that we are truly done by any stretch, but we are another step closer to BEing the love that we were always meant to be. To experiencing the true gift of our own inner union and sense of wholeness. To open up to new relationships and sacred romance that bring us new layers of healing and deepening the waters of our cosmic ocean of wonder and ecstasy. This part of us is forever honored and revered as it held what it needed to until it was no longer serving our inner rising tide of greatness. Days go by and it will feel like a dream. But for now, it is a sacred time of blessed messiness and coming undone in order to come home.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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