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Easter Passage Energies Of Death, Grief, & Rebirth

Published on April 13, 2022May 1, 2022 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kasha Rokshana

‘Easter’ Energy Update: The anxiety, the uncertainty, the doubts that surface at this time are as sacred as the moments of clarity, of surefooted-ness, and of deepening trust in the flow of what’s happening inside and out. Rebirth is sometimes glorious to be in, sometimes messy, and oftentimes not what parts of us expect.

To trust the ‘death’ processes and everything they come with is just as sacred as trusting the ‘rebirth’ that comes on the other side. We know in our souls that it’s inevitable that we WILL emerge from the darkness and the unknown and land somewhere necessary and even desirable, yet that doesn’t always help all parts of us or soul aspects to feel their trust in that in their own ways. They’ve witnessed too much of what they feel is the opposite experience and even timelines/lifetimes of persecution, of being condemned, of being alone, of being in an all-time low that seems to last forever.

The darkness has its work to do in all of this, especially as the times we’re in truly support us to feel how unsupported parts/aspects of us feel toward the Divine. The Divine doesn’t expect us to transcend any of this and instead offers us a place to land it all… every last worry, hope, doubt, fear, and desire.

I would love to say that we will absolutely land in the New/Golden Earth reality we all dream of in the next few years at least, yet the truth is, we can’t attach to that outcome and anything miraculous suddenly placing us there. Not while there are still parts within us and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes struggling to let in the possibilities, struggling to let in even feeling their mistrust, fears, anxieties, and allowing it all to move and be answered. The Golden future we all desire is a resurrection that takes root within, that flowers in resonance shared in our inner and outer worlds. Only then does it really feel possible to experience it in deeper and deeper ways, while acknowledging and flowing with the birth pangs that come with that ongoing process.

What I feel from the Divine is support to not look for a magic, silver bullet solution, but instead to feel the grief of the ideals of what was once good in our lives to whatever degree it truly was good, and to let go into this Great Unknown as we move deeper into this phase of Great Death. The tears of this process water the seeds of what’s becoming possible, even though the death sometimes feel far more real.

The darkness around the world seems to be getting darker… yet I feel a trust that everything we endure is somehow necessary for all of our individual awakenings, let alone the global one that is also ongoing. Even in that trust, however, I have to make space for my own doubts to surface that we’ll ever be truly ready in my own lifetime to embrace what could be. When I feel this, I feel grief like a lump in my throat. I feel the need to keep letting go of any pictures of what’s possible and be with what IS… the death and pain needs a lot of space to be felt, with no agenda, with no pushing to move beyond it, and no need to be ahead of it, while also trusting desires for what could be like a beacon leading me homeward.

The answers are unknown as to how this all resolved itself, yet there is an answer in the path of crying with those who cry around us, feeling love for those who are also remembering how to love themselves and others, remembering that our souls have not chosen by accident to be here now. We all have a purpose, even if it’s just to feel these waves of grief and letting go, in order to surrender deeper to what is and let in what could be along the way.

As we head rapidly towards ‘Easter weekend’ now, it’s the perfect time to feel the Death and Rebirth of our selves, parts of us, and all of humanity. It’s a powerful time to feel the Divine with us, in the forms/faces that work for each of us individually, such as Yeshua and Magdalene, who I can feel in their union holding us all so deeply.

I feel them offering, as I conclude this writing today, “May your sense of personal and global arising feel as real as the death and grief you also feel.

May your alignment with your soul’s heart deepen in surrender to the Divine that holds it all.

May your desires ripen, your heart open, and your love expand and fill every cell of your being, only to overflow in concert and transaction with those around you who also care so much.

Feel how much you are loved, even when love feels scarce.

In all of this and your sacred doubts too, the Divine is with you, always.”

Love,
Kasha

P.S. I would so love to hold 1:1 space for you, if you’re a woman, in your inner explorations of what was once true for you, what’s true now, and what you desire to be true in the future. My beloveds hold space as well in 1:1 sessions, for women with Jelelle and for men and women with Raphael and Gabriel. For more info, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Ascension Update: Intense Clearing Energies As Lower 4D Becomes The “Mainstream” Consciousness

Published on April 10, 2022October 27, 2022 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Ascension Update: Intense clearing energies as 3D ‘mainstream’ collapses, 4D Karmic healing intensifies & 5D upgrades come in. This is such a truly unique time to be alive here now with ALL that is happening on physical/emotional/spiritual levels for humanity both in terms of what is releasing, collapsing and what is upgrading.

You may be feeling these intense energies on the physical body level, prompting a need for fasting or eating very lightly. It can be of great assistance to put all of your energy toward this clearing/upgrading process rather than toward digestion of physical food. Eating just fruit (with high light/water content) can also be helpful. Being very sleepy, need for rest and long naps, passing out and going ‘off line’ are also happening now along with various aches and pains occurring too.

Chronic illness and deep toxicity may be coming up now too…feeling ‘worse before better’ as the cells clear it out and there is no longer need for it. Our immune systems are also being upgraded to ‘survive’ whatever is coming next.

What we are experiencing now since the C and V narrative began to accelerate two years ago feels to me like it is the 3D mainstream collapse that so many of us have been feeling will happen, yet in a different form than perhaps we imagined it would. I’ve been seeing ‘collapse’ scenarios for over ten years now. I was attached to the Lower 4D picture/program of industrial collapse for awhile… we even relocated to Mexico for a time to create a sustainable sanctuary to live on an off-grid ranch in community. We were motivated then by the sense that it would all fall down and wasn’t sustainable, sensing that it was being fuelled by energies that were more about control and dominance than they were about balance and love in tune with Mother Gaia.

Then, during my time on the ranch, I awakened to the false AI-generated Matrix reality that has created our 3D ‘mainstream’ culture for so long. I felt that it would collapse, yet I didn’t initially see the bigger and darker agenda going on around it at first that was actually controlling THROUGH the technologies and dependency on energy grids. Understanding more now about the motivations of the Cabal and how it connects to the overall Ascension process for humanity, I could ‘place’ it more into that picture with trust in the Divine plan around it all….and include support/technologies being released eventually from Star Beings as part of the solution to what seemed like insurmountable problems otherwise.

3D culture has created a numbed and drugged sense of false safety, where self preservation and material attainment are the number one goals. Social media, mainstream media, education, and easy streaming entertainment 24/7 lulls us into compliance, easily programmable by all that we watch and take in. It was hard to imagine how it would collapse without ‘pulling the plug’ of the electrical and technology grids that fuelled it.

Yet, C has been a mercy in that it has woken us up out of this slumber. It has interrupted the routines of eat/sleep/work repeat; threatened financial security (as the money systems need to collapse too); and put physical ‘safety’ and the fear of body death as the most pressing motivation for ALL personal choice and governmental decisions so we could reconcile and heal our fear of it. C and the ways that it has been created, used and leveraged by the Cabal has brought us into the Lower 4D, collapsing the 3D world that was an addictive dream one in comparison. The ‘true’ dark Lower 4D agenda of depopulation, AI-control, transhumanism and genetic/DNA modification is being revealed now…aided hugely by poisonous mass Vs bioweapons being pushed on us all.

Being in the Lower 4D reality now AS our collective consciousness for the last two years has dropped many awakening souls into deeper states of depression/suicidal temptation, ego death, dissonance with their families/friends, chronic illness/body toxicity, soul karmic bleed throughs, difficulties/separations in relationships, and overall despair over how it will all resolve. This has been so challenging to navigate.

Yet also there is a sense of liberation going on here as the Dark timeline gets ‘so bad and so obvious’ it finally motivates many more to change. Being tuned into the Divine Mother, I always felt it would be an intense death/rebirth process that would be necessary for us to wake up and choose New Earth realities. It would take A LOT of collapse and deconstruction for us to choose something that is unknown to us, unsupported by the mainstream, and draws so much resistance/fear projection from others. It felt important to stay soberly grounded in this, even as I experienced a lot of joy and bliss on an ongoing basis as I embraced this process.

Yet, also, in this willingness to die and let go of something old in order to experience something new….we are met with so much love and support from the Divine that it is always ultimately worth it. We are increasingly coming to trust that loss is part of the process of being reborn. We are able to grief and mourn as needed, celebrating the new as it arises.

This is then what the death of 3D culture, our rebirth out of the Lower 4D transitional grounds and into 5D New Earth realities from WITHIN us looks and feels like. The densities of 3D toxic living and eating need to clear out and be released; the karmic soul patterns and traumas need to be consciously connected with and integrated; the 5D and higher energies that most support our light bodies, our Divine Self to embody and our heart open/expand need to be brought in and allow for upgrading.

It is challenging right now not to get stuck in the sticky web of the Lower 4D as it moves into mainstream collective experience. This can lead to over focus on the ‘outside’ and what is happening or not happening. This can lead to engaging in battles over the old rather than focus on creating the new. This can lead to ongoing suffering over being rejected, misunderstood, and vilified by others.

Most souls are not yet able in this moment to be conscious of how this shift into the Lower 4D is impacting them; the timelines that are opened out and now bleeding through: the karmic patterns that their soul has engaged with life after life. They have gone to others, such as mediums/psychics/spiritual teachers/channelers for this ‘information’ about themselves with mixed results and sometimes abuses occurring as they hand over their sovereignty to others with more ‘awareness’ than them.

We are meant now to go within for this information about ourselves. We can lift our own veils. We can channel our own Divine guidance. We can connect to any lifetime and timeline that is relevant for us to know and feel. We can hold the space for our own healing. These awarenesses and this access is becoming more available to us through the activations that are happening on DNA/cellular/body/heart/chakra levels that move us into deeper embodiment of our sacred humanity.

Awareness of how our ‘base reality’ as a collective is shifting can help with navigating this. Finding resonance within yourself and with your soul family provides a support bubble (of the truly best kind) to buffer you as needed from the intensities going on while you access this information for yourself. Discovering ‘outside’ help that is in integrity and empowers your sovereignty can assist in reconnecting to your higher knowledge. Seek out temporary bridges as needed and models in human and etheric form as you are guided by your higher heart to.

Surrender to the overall process that is happening here and Divine love can flood into your being…offering the sense that love is holding it ALL and always has.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

We provide in our 1:1 sessions a bridging to and opening out of these awarenesses and consciousness states to allow a navigation of soul frequencies AS they come through, healing of traumatic patterns from this life and other lives, and integrate/reunion of previously very shattered/fragmented energies into wholeness. This space is held in collaboration with you, supporting your Divine Self to lead the way here on all levels. More info on a free intro and the sessions at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Pic is of 5D upgrades through sun codes coming through in a powerful New Earth grid here in Portugal

Photonic Light Transmissions Through Solar Activity Assist With Our Ascension

Published on March 31, 2022April 13, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

With the accelerated phase of Ascension toward New Gaia that began in 2012, a significant shift in the quality and quantity of photonic light available to us started to flood into Gaia from the Great Cosmic Sun. This photonic light is streaming in to assist our bodies’ transition from carbon-based cells to crystalline, which is a key component of moving into more 5D consciousness. We are moving into activation of our ‘light bodies’, which is a common thing to call it.

Many more awakening souls are becoming aware and interested in how these Ascension energies are impacting them on emotional, physical, spiritual, and mental levels. These energies are coming in to activate our previously sleepy strands of DNA, which were ‘put to sleep’ as an aspect of the veil and Descension into 3D. We will go from using two strands of DNA currently as 3D-anchored humans to eventually using all twelve (and beyond) as we express again our Sacred Humanity. The ten lost strands of our DNA that were previously active before the fall of Atlantis/Lemuria that have been labelled ‘junk DNA’ by 3D science are being activated back into use by these Ascension energies. An important aspect of our Ascension process is the reactivation of our galactic DNA that forms a bridge to our Star Family genetics and to the expression of our Star Being DNA.

The Great Cosmic Sun is one of the download sources from the Divine into our galaxy that brings in Divine Masculine/Father energies of activation. The main way these upgrading energies are provided is through our sun and solar activities such as solar flares, geomagnetic storms and high solar winds, coronal mass ejections, and more. Receiving energy downloads through the sun is a universal experience in which all of life on Gaia is dependent and biologically receptive. The degree and depth that we can receive these upgrades from the sun is connected to our personal awakening process.

Our sun provides important sacred masculine activations to us that offer a boost and healing to our healthy masculine energies of clarity, right action, and service of love. Healing of the wounded masculine is an important aspect of Ascension, for both women and men. The Great Cosmic Sun is the ‘upline’ for these codes, which are then delivered through our sun and downloaded into our Personal Sun Chakra or Stellar Gateway. This is one of the Ascension Chakras, located about two feet above the top of your head or Crown Chakra. The next one is the Soul Star Chakra, connecting you to your Metasoul and other lifetimes. The final one is behind your head and called the Causal Chakra. This one is a bridge to galactic connections, Star Family, and your Reptilian Self. The Ascension Chakras serve as upgrades beyond the 3D/4D energy systems of the seven Chakras. Ultimately, as we move more into a 5D light body, our Chakras become a swirling and churning ray of energies without much distinct definition.

Codes are frequencies of sacred human upgrades from the Divine and our Higher Selves to assist and support our ongoing Ascension process. Codes can appear in the form of sacred geometry, images/visions, number sequences, etc. Codes come to us in many ways, yet codes that are delivered to us through the sun are the most accessible, universal, and able to be received on a collective level by all souls, to whatever degree they can let them in.

We are in a solar minimum phase, which means very low sunspot activity that is a normal part of an 11-year sunspot cycle expected to end in 2025. Solar energy hasn’t been offered as much through solar flares and Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs), although we have had a few of those. The main downloads and activations have come through high speed solar winds (up to 700 km/sec at times) as energy streams in from ever growing coronal ‘holes to make us whole’ on the sun’s surface. These winds are becoming much more common, often sparking beautiful and vibrant auroras in the higher altitudes. The Auroras themselves also contain important activations as a bridge of the cosmic to the physical, whether taken in etherically or in person.

Rather than being afraid of ultra violet (UV) exposure and the sun as we have been conditioned to be in 3D, we are remembering now how vital the sun is as a resource for us and our ongoing consciousness expansion. Letting in the photonic light sun codes and the prana (life force energy) they contain is actually food for our light body, especially accessible and comfortable at sunrise and sunset.

The sun will be an increasing source of awakening as we proceed forward in the Ascension process, with many people feeling that a significant solar flare or CME energy wave (often felt as a ‘rainbow wave’) will be the ‘event’ that moves us all up to a higher consciousness level at once. I have been offered that Ascension is more of a gradual process, let in by each soul at their own rate and pace rather than a ‘one-time event’ that changes all of collective consciousness at once. There is no question though that the sun is shifting and changing as a planetary consciousness and is a major source of awakening energies for us.

Common experiences with solar activations on the physical body are disrupted sleep patterns bringing tiredness or frantic thinking, along with more dense feelings of 3D as it gets pushed up to be felt and released. High speed winds can also create an off-balance feeling as the geomagnetics increase, putting us ‘off center’. Emotions of irritation, rage, distrust, and anxiety can be triggered by the sacred masculine solar activations too as the wounded masculine flushes up and out to be felt and healed. Sometimes, the winds can lead to the thinning of veils between timelines and more multidimensional access/timelines bleeding through.

Assistance in letting in the Solar energies comes from connection with your inner masculine in order to receive and let in the sacred masculine activations from the sun. You can do that through identification of your Inner Protector and other masculine energies of your 3D and 4D self, creating an inner Sacred Union, bringing feminine and masculine energies into balance. It also helps to activate and clean your Personal Sun chakra in order to allow the flow of sun codes into and through your field.

This is an excerpt from my book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out available in audio, ebook, print and PDF versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books.

More info on 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, online community to lift the veils/remember connection to your Divine selves at soulfullheart.org.

Finding Your Soul Tribe

Published on March 22, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Do you see yourself in some ways as different and unique from anyone else you’ve ever met?

Have you ever looked out upon the sea of spiritual offerings and spiritual teachers and the people in those communities, and just honestly said to yourself, I just can’t see myself being a genuine part of anything I can see out there?!

I have.

Prior to that, I have also found myself in long term settings and groups thinking I was there for life. I’d found the truth and that felt good to be settled around that, until that ‘nest for life’ became evident that the mama eagle was again making the nest prickly, preparing me to make a do or die leap from the nest, into a new world of flight.

Belonging and being a part of something larger than just myself was wired in me. That part I didn’t question. What I did come to question in community experience very deeply was where was the transparency, the vulnerability, and sometimes just where was the garden variety honesty in everyday life.

I knew I was being invited to become more and more honest with myself, but I wasn’t so sure the group I was a part of wanted that like I wanted it. The culture that we had created up till then was a different kind of social contract between us, and now, I was the one seeking to revise the unspoken agreements and sub-agreements within our dynamics.

I knew all too well, just from looking within myself, that people who believe they have thee truth are set upon preserving that truth, exporting that truth, feeling good about themselves for having found such worthy occupation and even divine calling.

I knew I was breaking a contract. The words of ‘I’m here forever’ had to be revised to mean that ‘you are in my heart forever, but I am called to journey outside of this precious home that has held me and you and us so beautifully for the time that it has’.

Not one person from within my known world wanted to join me in that kind of exploration. They remained true to the culture we had upheld so faithfully. And It wasn’t their time, simply like how for me, in a couple decades worth of belonging within something, it hadn’t been my time to look beyond its comforting confines. I grew and bloomed where I was planted; until I simply no longer could.

What came next however, was a deep despair.

I knew that if I found anything that just felt real, really real, transparently real, I’d be wanting to be a part of it. But whatever I checked out in the worlds of spirituality that I previously felt were way off in my watertight convictions about what was really true, I came to feel that the same kind of hiding from my former worlds was going on relationally and emotionally in the social fabric of these communities I considered being a part of. The frequencies may have been higher, and more evolved, and more sophisticated, and even more resonant in many ways, but I was stuck on this inescapable bottom line point of that unless we get real, with ourselves and in turn with one another, there really isn’t any hope for meaningful change, or any hope for truly having any fun for that matter.

I thought about how it might look to go forward in life, without really being much a part of anything deeper community wise. I didn’t like that feeling.

That’s precisely when I felt called to lead something new and to be a part of something new. I was surprised by seeing my lifelong focus of finding the right group led by others, within which I could really shine, in someone else’s container, seeing that arrangement have to be let go of, in order to say yes to something new, in order to say yes to a calling. As destiny would so beautifully have it, I was given a mate, Jelelle, with which to share and fuel that dream, and things unfolded to today.

But back to you for a moment, if I may?…

Where are you at? What are you feeling in your truth as you so graciously take in my truth? What are you doing with your own version of feeling (if that is in fact what you are feeling) that you can’t find a place you could fit in, with your honesty, with your transparency, with your truth, with your feelings of having outgrown previous settings and previous ways of being? What is it that you really want? I believe there is something apparent to you that you really want, and that something answers the rest of the somethings that need answering.

I’m saying all this to extend an invite to you, but honestly, it’s not really an ‘everyone welcome’ sign like the one that so unconditionally lovingly sits out front many churches, communities or spiritual groups. I know too much about what can’t work for me to make that kind of invitation. Everyone is welcome in my heart as my equal, but not to have in my active connection as it’s only through shared resonance around shared values that makes for a real connection. My invite is more exclusive. All of us, I feel, kind of self-organize into where we find deep and true resonance.

My invite today is more exclusive to those who share this honesty piece, this despair piece, this yearning for something different piece. My invitation is to come in closer in deep resonance and transparency in community.

What could shared resonance in shared community look like for you? How could your sovereignty be enhanced rather than sacrificed by being a part of something meaningful?

I may well be speaking to a single soul right now. I know this is meant for someone and maybe some more ones beyond that. But one is really all that matters, because the all is contained in the one, and the one is contained in the all.

On one hand, I don’t need you to be interested in my offer, as I feel a deep trust in the divine within that this desire in me, is destined to continue to be fulfilled, but on the other hand, unless a you, if not you, shows up to play, I have less with whom to play. I can’t be fulfilled as an island to myself. I need you. I want you. I’m not complete without you.

Ok, this is getting a bit deep. I’ll try not to apologize for my passion, and instead simply ask you to check into who I am, who my wife and I are as a couple, what we lead and offer, and beyond to who we are as a community, to feel if what you’ve felt rumble and resonate in you in my words today has any legs beyond remaining in a distant orbit in our galaxy.

I really do hope you find where you are meant to be where you thrive, flourish and grow like a weed, but with the beauty and bounty of a rose. I hope you get smelled and appreciated often, up close and personal, for your true fragrance. I hope a year from now, that you and those around you hardly recognize you for the aliveness that’s unfolded in you.

But please choose. For your sake, for mine, and all of ours. Nothing changes the world like your choice does and ongoingly finding your place.

There’s a few places to check deeper into my world, here on Facebook, on our website, YouTube, group calls, etc. I’d be beyond delighted to hear from you personally and I promise most of all to be real, and treasure your reaching out!

Thanks for feeling this and allowing it to take you where it will.

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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“You are NOT Alone,”: Message From Your Divine Self & Soul Aspects

Published on March 16, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

These messages of support are coming through right now for those of us who need them! This one is from Your Divine Self, Higher Dimensional Soul Aspects, Galactic Aspects, etc:

We know it has been hard and IS hard in so many moments. Moments where you want to give up.

Moments where you want to ‘go home’. Moments where you are consumed by pain.

Moments where your heart feels like it is breaking. Moments where your tears fall and sobs shake your body.

Moments where the sky feels so dark and cloudy and overcast with unexpressed pains.

We feel you in this and we see you in this. We are with ALL of our hearts with you in this.

It has been so hard for you at times, this journey of forgetting, this traveling road of separation. This road has many curves and dips and turns.

We see all these with you, we witness how you crawl at times. How you lay low at times. How you feel like giving up at times.

Yet, your heart beats on. Your desire lives on. Your need for love echoes strong inside of you. You do not give up. Your soul carries you forward.

We watch you crawl through glass at times and yet you keep going until the way is clearer. You fight your way ‘back’ to your heart over and over and then, the fight rests and you are just moving forward because it is what you are called to do on your way to remembering.

We know that you often feel like you are alone. How you feel sometimes that no one else understands and no one else gets what is happening to you and how you are changing from who you used to be.

We feel for you and this struggle that you sometimes go through alone. We feel your loneliness and we ache for you in it.

Yet, this we offer……that you are NEVER alone. Your eyes may see no one else. Your heart may feel sad and alone. Your birth family might reject your changes and who you are becoming. Your friends may not come along. Your mate may not come along or get what you are awakening into.

But, you are NEVER alone. As we are always with you and we will NEVER leave you.

We feel how you sometimes think you are wrong or unworthy. How you feel that the struggle and suffering are what you deserve. And we want to offer to this part of you that this is NOT the truth.

You cannot do anything wrong. You cannot BE wrong. We want to offer to this part of you that you ARE worthy of love, you ARE worthy of awakening, you ARE worthy of connection.

We feel how you forget that you ARE love. You forget how you ARE infinite possibilities. You forget that you ARE infinite awareness. This forgetting was part of the process, the experiment, that we all agreed to.

We are here watching over you in the forgetfulness and we feel how you ache to remember again.

And, it is TIME for you to remember again.

If you are resonating with these words, then we invite you to connect with us. Reach inside for us. Find us INSIDE.

You don’t have to look outside of yourself. You don’t have to look to others, unless you feel that you want and need to. You don’t have to be at a special place of attainment or have special gifts. You are special just as you are. We are RIGHT HERE inside of you, ready and so eager to connect with you.

We are the aspects of you that you feel are ‘too much’ or you have forgotten or you have disconnected from. We are the aspects of you that are from and of your soul.

We are the multidimensional aspects of your BEing. We are your angel selves. We are your star BEing selves. We are your spirit guide selves. We are your Divine selves. We are your other lifetime-Metasoul selves. We are your shadow selves.

We are your councils of light selves. We are your star gates inside and your portals inside and your star dust selves inside. We are your crystalline body selves and your crystalline chakras merged into one. We are your merkaba and your inner gridwork connected to Mother Gaia’s new gridwork. We are your soul family waiting for reunion.

Connect with us and we become you. We merge into you more and more and in that merging the feelings of loneliness, the feelings of pain, the feelings of separation, the feelings of unworthiness, the feelings of despair and suffering, the feelings of wanting to die….ALL of it can and will move with this embracement.

And someday, we will become ONE, more and more, and your sense of you will keep changing and changing until you don’t really have a sense of you anymore as you just ARE.

You just ARE the Infinite Love and Possibilities and awareness that you were meant to be in human form.

We love YOU and we wait right here for you, inside you. Come and get us with an open heart and we will become one again.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info on 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, online community to lift the veils/remember connection to your Divine selves at soulfullheart.org.

A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

Published on March 5, 2022 by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

By Raianna Shai

This part of my “love story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Living Between The Time And No-time Dimensions

Published on March 5, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

I live in a village where church bells chime on the hour, every hour, reminding us of the dimension of time.

In time, there are many urgencies of what should and shouldn’t be. What would our lives be if it wasn’t for such urgencies? How could we maintain a sense of what life is and who we are without such parameters?

Outside of time, there are no urgencies, for all is both waiting to happen and has already happened. Both are equally true outside of time where all potentialities and outcomes equally exist.

If that’s true, and if it’s also true that you and I span the time and the no-time dimensions in the larger sense of who and what we are, then that opens up a whole other way of seeing and feeling our lives than we normally do in the more familiar time dimension.

Maybe the point of the things I want to do today in the time dimension, as well as the pretzel of sorting out what best deserves my time, and then sorting the next pretzel of finding the time and energy for such worthy doings; maybe all of that wants to be informed by the no-time dimension where it’s already all done, where doing doesn’t happen.

What we’d be left with would I imagine be something resembling play, like kids building forts with tea sets inside. It wouldn’t be a ‘real’ grown up house and a real grown up tea time, but as I recall, I never quite found something in all my adult years as simply fun and engaging as true play to the tune of what I did in childhood.

Maybe your and my inner child hasn’t actually become adapted to all these hourly reminders all around everywhere, the ones on our wrists, and the devices in our hands, keeping us here in the not so fun territory, in a world that feels overdosed on real.

Maybe it’s our inner children that hold the portal back to our essence and are inviting us into what they actually never lost, thank God, but only forgot, in our rush to grow up.

I recall the hour spent in church strangely as the most imprisoned and boring hour growing up, where time surely could not move any slower, like we needed to suffer in the time dimension, like we needed to shed a whole essence of our being and conform to something we were not.

Maybe we did need that. Maybe the church, like all of our institutions are still reminding us of how boring time is, when play is lost, how boredom is like a drill that bores vacuums in our lives that create space for new things to come in, which things are aching something out in us like a kid attempting to to sit still in church, an ache that precedes new creation.

How did we expect to find what we want if we didn’t encounter what we don’t want? Both are equally sacred and both took a lot of courage to choose. You are this courageous, for you chose to be here in both, both the longing and the realization of remembering and expanding on the divinity that you are, even through the comparison of discovering what it isn’t.

You and I are so surrounded by so much divinity on all sides that the things that don’t feel or look very divine are just dimmer switches and moderators allowing for the stuff we are learning and unlearning. This is all happening in the gap that is created in our perception between what is seen as divine and what isn’t.

I’m going to see if I can breathe in a whole big breath of no-time love from the no-time dimension side of my being in order to be with the time pretzels I feel around me in the time dimension, let the two of them get to know each other more.

Maybe as you and I figure this out, we solve this conundrum and deposit the answer/download somewhere in the no-time databank where it’s actually already solved somehow.

And here is where not only you and I get to be part of the deposit and the withdrawal from the time side of our experience, but so does everyone else get to be part of it. There is only one of us after all for whom all of this is and is being sorted out for.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Fogginess & Unknown Of Now

Published on March 5, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

We’ve had many beautiful, sunny, warm, and clear days here in Portugal all winter long. We’ve not been experiencing the amount of rain that the land needs, though. I’ve felt quite nourished by the sun codes but also the relief of the rain codes that offer much permission to stay indoors, warm and cozy, while the storm moves through and the thirsty land starts getting its fill.

The fog here, though, is like nothing else I’ve ever experienced. In this land that feels so Divinely maternal, so motherly, and so Magdalene too, I feel embraced by the fog even though it makes it impossible to see very far ahead. The mystical quality speaks to my Mystic within and feels familiar.

This fog this morning represents so much to me at this time… what is still working towards clearing on a physical level as I continue to heal from a UTI which has been helping me clear old energies, especially in relationship to the masculine through my yoni, but also in relationship to service on this planet at this time. I also feel the fog of not being sure what’s next on this planet or how to serve into the deafening lies, the beckoning out of anger, the sadness of people whose lives are not being considered or cared for. This isn’t only about the current war but also about the ongoing battle ground of the Matrix push and pull on the consciousness of so many still freeing themselves, one choice at a time, that has been intensifying over the last few years especially.

We are shrouded in a dense fog as we move past what hasn’t been true and start to let in what is. It’s like moving through molasses at times as we feel all the stages of grief which come with every deep awakening, and reunite with the Divine as our parts, Metasoul aspects/soul themes, Gatekeepers, etc all begin to feel more ready for that experience.

We don’t have concrete answers but we do have the invitation to continue trusting the Divine and looking inward too. We are invited to become love from the inside out, which doesn’t often result in a fireworks show of love and virtue-signaling. This process is often messy, foggy, painful, but hopeful, and above all, it’s very humble.

I’ve had rounds of anger and sadness both stirred in my heart recently. I’m feeling my inner process and the process of the planet and human collective I’m a part of yet also individualized from. The anger in my soul needs to vent at times and then the sadness comes up too. To me, there’s no hiding behind a veil of pretending that events in the world aren’t real while so many are being impacted. Yet there’s also no hiding behind conclusions made by those who choose to only see and experience one possible reason for things. I feel a nuanced sense about what’s really going on and surrender to the unknown more and more.

And then, I feel so humbled by that and somehow so held too, as I surrender my understandable feelings and invite in my own deep Divine connection to help me hold space for the movements.

The fog is clearing already here now. Maybe that’s another sign of the clearing to come. Not knowing or understanding the way forward or how and when it moves is as sacred as working hard to know or understand as much as we can. Parts of us can truly struggle with letting go of knowing and simply being in the NOW. They can feel restless while sitting in the mess as long as necessary until more understanding comes and the way forward becomes clearer. But the mess and fog is as necessary as the experience of clarity and opening of the hardened, sad, confused heart.

Much love to you and any parts/soul aspects of you that may be struggling while they experience this fog in their own sacred ways.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Sacred Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Founder/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with Kasha for women or Jelelle for women over 35 and with Raphael or Gabriel for men/women, free 45min intro calls with Kasha or Gabriel, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: 2/20 to 2/22 Offering Unification, Union & Feminine Codes

Published on February 20, 2022February 20, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

The energies this month have been INtense! They have been Inviting us into deeper inner spaces of our heart and soul for quantum healing at levels not possible before while still remaining connected to the body. All this “2” energy of unification, union, feminine frequencies and the portal of 2/20 to 2/22 feels especially powerful and important for this inner healing and transmutation.

You may be experiencing some body detox symptoms as these sacred feminine frequencies flush out whatever is needed, especially in the yoni and womb spaces for women. Period cycles can be heightened, yoni irritation/UTI like symptoms coming in and clearing as the feminine power centers are cleared and reclaimed. Men may experience these energies in their hara with digestive issues and not being able to eat what you usually can.

I SO needed some Divine Mother/Gaia codes as I’ve been in an intense ongoing karmic process with my medicine woman Metasoul aspect Ingrit from a middle ages timeline. She was both ostracized and ‘needed’ by the townspeople and eventually betrayed by them as well. These kind of persecution wounds are coming up now too for healing as the feminine empowerment activations occur.

We are blessed to live in a beautiful natural area in Central, Portugal surrounded by mountain ranges and rivers. Raphael and I went to a truly magical place today Fraga da Pena about 25 minutes drive from where we live…..a small gorge carved into one of the mountainsides here with beautiful, pristine waters flowing through it creating many natural waterfalls.

Waterfalls are always magical as the force of the water reminds us of the power within us that can also be given up to and surrendered to the Divine. These pictures capture the truly amazing light codes coming off these waters filtering through sunlight. These waters are full of quartz crystal rocks…very common here and why we spent three months camping right next to a river here last summer. I haven’t seen codes like these before in photos and the video in nature and it shows the high frequencies that are available to us in these magical places.

The energies were Pixie/Devic, Lemurian, Galactic/Arcturian…a heady mix of very ancient and cutting edge. Enjoy the transmission from them!

Oh, and you are invited to join Raphael and I today for our monthly group call transmission at 5:00pm GMT, exploring the separate wound and bridging to Unity codes from within…you can join us live and receive the recording! More info at soulfullheart.org to offer a donation of any amount to attend at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

The Portal Of Our Separation Wound

Published on February 17, 2022April 2, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

Deep, potent, powerful transformation is available to all of us, but this accelerated and conscious version of our growth, only occurs as we are willing to go inward to transparently and vulnerably feel our fears.

Growth and forward momentum is guaranteed whether we choose this accelerated path or not, as we are all immersed in the learning and growth vehicle we call life, and it’s wired for growth and the ultimate and ongoing reconciliation with the divine that we are. But some of us are just impatient!

We have so many levels of growth and learning that await us, but for now, our primary familiar level of conscious awareness on this earth plane is our gateway to the higher ones we crave and yearn for. If that’s true, then what you have probably felt was a hindrance to your awakening is actually instead the opportunity for it.

If we can choose a surrender over a success kind of mindset; reconciliation over attainments; stewarding over possessing, then we get closer to where what before felt like blocks, hindrances and missing capacities, are now readily transmuted into portals to the real and truer thing that’s underneath the attachments to the false thing. Here you are presented with what you really want.

This should be a big sigh of relief as you toss out all the technique based how to manuals that only ultimately helped you run out of gas for the self discipline (torture) picture of spirituality. Your time of slaving in return for breadcrumbs of your essence is over if you are ready for it to be over.

Somewhere next in here, you are faced with the challenge of having what you really want, which you before assumed was instant bliss, goodness and happiness and instead are surprised to see that even here, negotiation and adjustment are needed.

Parts of you are losing a familiar territory where they learned to live in some dimension of lack, and they need to be embraced and honored for the service they’ve given and the posts they’ve held. Their reactions are actually the keys to the portal through these reactions – reactions are movements, not something to be overcome or worse yet, ‘mastered’. The only place the word mastery deserves a place in your lexicon is the mastery of surrender, which is not the attainment of personal power over something, but instead the letting go of that now false, and maybe once treasured power, into the power ‘under’ something, the power that underlies and animates all things, that can’t be attained, only surrendered into. That’s good news because falling is a whole lot easier than climbing, yes?!

It’s crazy making to get so much closer to the bliss you wanted and chose only to find more formidable blocks that make you wonder why you set out on this journey in the first place.

I believe what you and I are carrying deep within us is 2 divine programs, if I could call them that. These are benevolent programs that we actually not only agreed to, but were also the creators of, and also the why of why we were willing to be individuated from the divine from oneness into this twoness/duality where we retained everything we once were, but also agreed to these 2 paths or journeys of forgetting and remembering in it all.

The forgetting and remembering that you and I are playing out, we are playing it out together, with each of us at different stages, but all dependent and connected to one another. No one arrives home until all arrive home.

The forgetting program involves a deep wound, an ache that calls for our attention. This wound is the separation wound, where both consciously, but mostly unconsciously, we carry and express an inner knowing of something lost, something so precious that we almost wish we never knew of such goodness, for the pain that a single ounce of this remembering piques in us.

But this program alone without a countering program would be pure torture. The other program we have and possess is the program to remember. I believe your and my full remembrance of everything we lost is not only baked in the cake, but this remembrance even excels the original state we forfeited and takes it into ongoing creative expansion of more. This is the what and the why our souls embraced this plan with such abandon.

We knew that for the divine to have the opportunity to meet and get to know itself for the first time would be a sacred union like no other. The divine couldn’t do this without forgetting and remembering, and it decided to do it billions of times over and over with individuated consciosness’s called you and me.

The heights of our tension though is at these crazy making points where our surrender into the crazy is asked for. This is the process of death and rebirth. Something that once lived, breathed and had purpose and meaning is dying, concluding, wrapping up, preparing to breathe its last and it needs someone to hold space, a hospice kind of space, an open heart space for it to wrap up. This is pieces and parts of you that are transmuting through death and rebirth even as your physical body and name address on the planet has continuity.

This is where time spent in palliative care and the nursery of your inner hospital often occurs on the same day as you participate in goodbyes and hellos to old you and new arising you.

I invite you to embrace the separation wound as it lives in you and however it is currently expressing in your life circumstances. Here you will find is where the remembering is also happening in the fullest swing you can self lovingly handle, where every piece has time and space to be savoured, honored and transmuted.

Here is your greatest service of love, which helps you recognize your unique youness, which is integral to reuniting fully with the divine without losing yourself in the divine. The divine wants union which is about 2 coming together, over and over again. This means you never lose your individuality. It only keeps shifting and changing into more. You’ll need more you to be in this kind of union.

We need each other to get on with this more and more as each of our attainments are a co-op kind of shared agreement of ownership. Your gain is mine and vice versa.

I hope this lands in you as an answer to some deep questions you’ve been asking. I felt some distress calls as I was writing this today.

Jelelle Awen and I are hosting a group call this Sunday to connect more around the separation wound which will get into more of this, in a heart and feeling space with others, where something magical always occurs for everyone present. I’d like to invite you if this calls to you. Details here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/events

And there’s also our free SoulFullHeart Portal to climatize more to these energies and fellow inclined people. You can join here:

https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Thank you for reading and thank you for connecting.

Much love,

Raphael

It even got cool enough this week to break out the toques, which has been a rare thing this warm winter here in central Portugal. This is at the Mondego river which runs through Coimbra city, Portugal’s third largest (if I’m not mistaken), a place we go for some adventure at times and new shoes, which we found for Jelelle!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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