Discovering What Your Emotional Body Is Trying To Tell You Through Physical Ascension Symptoms

By Jelelle Awen

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Our body vessels are UPgrading in our every living cell from carbon, the ‘old school’ physical operating system of 3D reality, to crystalline or Christalline (as I like to call it). Crystalline is the ‘new school’ operating system of our light bodies whose fuel cells increasingly ‘run’ on energy. This process of transition from 3D carbon to 4D transitional to 5D light body has been going on for some of us for many years. Yet, also, our emotional bodies have been in an UPgrade process too, going from mostly unconscious or subconscious reality processing to CONSCIOUS feeling and healing of our this life and other lifetime emotional energies to really clear them and complete them.
 
This is new, cutting edge, consciously taking ALL our bodies ‘with us’ into higher vibrational frequencies of consciousness. We know the float out, astral self exploration, near death, being ‘out’ of the body in these moments of intense tunnel of light experiences. But, to remain WITHIN the physical body, which is the densest aspect of our BEing, is quite an undertaking. We’ve signed up for this UPgrade experiment collectively, led by those of us on the leading edge of the process showing the way, lighting the illuminating lanterns along the path for others to follow along.
 
The ‘ascension symptoms’ related to the body are vast and seem to be so unique to each soul, directly connected to what you’ve signed up to heal and feel this life from your Metasoul legacy that became triggered for you by this life experiences. The degree of experience related to body symptoms, I believe, is also connected to the emotional body conscious healing that you have engaged with AND Metasoul/other lifetime aspects conscious integration as well. The more lower vibrational, fear-based ‘stuff’ in your emotional body (which spans from this life to other lifetimes and seems to connect to the collective emotional body as well), the harder your body has to work to clear it from your cellular memory during the UPgrade process.
 
I actually feel that the emotional woundings ARE what is downstream of the body reactions. There IS a process of adjustment and ‘enlightenment’ going on with our physical bodies, yet I feel that many if not all of the ‘ascension symptoms’ can be connected to an emotional body root cause that stems from this life and other lifetime woundings. The body is ‘talking to us’ and pointing out what needs our attention from an emotional body perspective and parts of us express through the physical body with pain and suffering and discomfort to ‘get our attention.’ Any manifestation of pain signifies resistance to love, so I feel that experiencing pain while going through these body UPgrades is actually a sign of fear-based resistance from parts of us that CAN be moved and healed and even abated through conscious connection, negotiation, and love with them.
 
The next time you are experiencing a ‘ascension body symptom’ and would normally just see it that way with the usual way of ‘letting it BE and accept it as part of the ascension process’, feel into this approach instead. Connect with the symptom in a conscious way….let’s say it is ‘ringing in the ears’ as is commonly reported by many souls. Bringing in your most loving, caring, parental energy and opening your heart, write a letter to the body symptom and ask for it to share with you what its pain is about. Or you could connect to it during meditation with creative visualization, seeing yourself in a room filled with white light and the energy of the physical symptom ‘in the room’ with you. Ask it to tell you its ‘story’ and reveal to you the origins and reasons for the pain.
 
You might be QUITE surprised by what comes back to you! It could be access to this life memories stored in your emotional body (which doesn’t orient to linear time at all) that you had ‘forgotten’ about or, really, that part of you had blocked you from remembering (usually the Inner Protector) because it was too painful. It could open up access to a wounding pattern in your Metasoul connected to expression or repression of clairaudience abilities (in this example) and persecution experiences that your Metasoul/other lifetime aspects are experiencing in the NOW (because again there is no linear time, no ‘past lives’.) This exploration could reveal to you an aspect of yourself that needs your ongoing attention and love, such as your Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Protector, etc.
 
The ascension process is meant to push UP these woundings for us to feel, so that we can transmute them with love into higher frequencies. JUST looking at the physical body symptoms as ‘part of the process’ and treating them with remedies at the physical level (even if they are natural ones) actually screens out and blocks out a HUGE resource of information for us about ourselves and our soul legacies too. I also feel that this is why so many people experience looping patterns of body symptoms that can last for days, months, even years……which I’m feeling in this moment you don’t HAVE to experience it this way. Temporary physical discomforts and transitions that you then respond to with perhaps natural remedies and definitely some dietary changes is a self loving response to a process that you are holding as necessary, yet definitely transitory AS you dig deeper to feel and see if there is more going on at the emotional body level that can be cleared.
 
You may have forgotten how to be your own love detective, curiously searching for and finding clues to your own healing and transformation through EVERYTHING that happens within and with you. Looking ‘outside’ to others for resources on what this or that ascension body symptom COULD mean according to them is an example of forgetting your own love detective essence. Curious and compassionate self exploration LED by you allows you to move from victim to the ascension symptoms into self empowered collaborator who is negotiating WITH the physical expression at the emotional body level. You then have a ‘with’ relationship to what is happening to you on all levels, leading with trust that everything you experience is more data about yourself and your soul that ultimately leads to more experience of and service of LOVE. ~

 

Facilitators in our SoulFullHeart process (Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna) can serve you to make this connection inside, helping you to bridge your emotional body WITH your physical and your spiritual, during space holding sessions that offer then HUGE relief and even profound transmutation of previously stuck energies. More information about sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Going Into CORE Wounds In The Emotional Body, Metasouls

By Jelelle Awen

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Sometimes I share about current energies and it is a download from my higher self/angelic aspects/Divine Source that describes more of a collective experience. I am more like a NOW caster, sharing what MAY be happening for many souls on the ascension and awakening path at the emotional body, soul, and physical levels. With these messages, it is not always personally happening for me as I may have cleared those aspects in my Metasoul field already or healed it in my emotional body. It’s not that I am ‘done’ with healing, it’s just that I am in a different phase perhaps having been on this path for awhile and starting ‘ahead of the curve’ in some cases, signing up to be an early adopter.

Yet, THIS phase of where the energy seems to be bringing many of us, I AM also strongly feeling and experiencing myself. I spent yesterday in space holding for myself and some healing and BEing with one of my core wounds that I haven’t felt triggered in awhile yet life set up the perfect storm of situations for it to come up. I didn’t come to our group call yesterday to BE with me and the Metasoul aspect that seemed most connected to this wounding, Mareeka, who is an Atlantian aspect. Her Atlantis timeline and my current one are bleeding through to each other in ways that I have not experienced before (another aspect of what these energies are offering us.) So, the core wounding for me in my emotional body AND as a Metasoul theme for me is around ‘rejected daugher’ or ‘unloved daughter’ for which my soul gave me plenty of opportunities to feel this life…I have been ‘working’ this one for many years in many layers and ways and I was grateful to be able to move another piece of it yesterday.

Through my personal experience and what I’m witnessing in others, I feel THIS is a phase of going into these wounds in a more ‘real’ way than many souls may have before. I offer in the video below about how these high frequencies of photonic light, intense cosmic activities, and PURE love waves are pushing up woundings in our emotional bodies and Metasouls to be felt, healed, and LOVED and how to BE with all this through parts work.

This process is continuing and seems to be accelerating. MUCHO accelerating. CORE wounds are different than energy tones and that we might identify as emotional reactions or emotional moods. I believe they exist in our emotional bodies and our individual, personal Metasouls yet, also, in the collective emotional body and Metasouls.

CORE wounds run DEEP…..very deep. In my experience, they cannot really be made into a part or subpersonality as we do with other frequencies such as depression, rage, anxiety, control, etc. They are visceral, without language, they ooze OUT and WITH the frequencies for which they have been formed. They are beyond the mind, cannot be talk therapied or hypnotized or cleared through energy sessions (although these things can help.) The main way to heal them seems to be the continual connection to the outer and downstream expression of them, which is the persona aspects such as the Inner Child, Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, 3D Self, Inner Matriarch/Patriarch, etc.

It is connecting with these persona aspects and getting separation between them and YOU (your soul self, authentic self, higher self coming into body) through verbal dialogue, written journaling, creative visualization that then clears enough ‘out of the way’ for the CORE wounding to come up. This is the process SoulFullHeart facilitators bridge to you during sessions and the ‘work’ you do on your own as differentiation only happens INside you and not through others, although a guide through this murky and sometimes difficult terrain, who is going through it themselves, can be critical.

As this separation happens from these persona aspects…..THEN you can begin to feel the CORE wounds that lie beneath. Deep pools of oozing CORE unworthiness, disconnect, abandonment. These words don’t really suffice as descriptions, yet they are the closest that we have. When these CORE wounds finally come up after much self love holding space AND differentiation/negotiation with the persona parts, there isn’t much that can be DONE but to feel and BE with it. There may be stories and scenes associated with these CORE wounds coming up but, often, there is not. There may be connections to this life, childhood experiences with birth family and especially parents, but this often the surface stuff.

The deep dive into this CORE wounding is what we seem to be supported to GO INTO with these high frequencies of loving light. With a more palatable sense of our ethereal guides/aspects, we are able to feel more safety to go there then we have before. It was easier to be distracted before by the ‘surface stuff’ of reactions and triggers and projections. Still, many souls are being distracted by these things and NOT going deeper to feel how this lives inside of their emotional bodies. Yet, for those who are open to going within, THIS seems to be the time and phase to do so and there are MANY rewards for doing so, the biggest one being the OPENING of your upper heart to receive and give love with self and others.

I feel that these CORE wounds can be bypassed and often ARE by many, even those who are teachers and WAYshowers. And, that’s ok, in a way, because there is still service of love coming through the parts of them that are ‘in charge’ of the BEing and aren’t ready or wanting to go there yet. I’m just here to bring and offer a bridge through SoulFullHeart to these deeper spaces and especially to and with those souls that FEEL there are woundings in them that they want to FINALLY feel and heal in their emotional bodies and Metasouls and want to offer this healing to others too.  The feeling is usually that a ‘ceiling’ of some kind has been reached on awakening and especially related to the emotional body.

ALL this talk of CORE wounds does not mean that we are broken or need fixing. We HAVE wounds, yet we are NOT actually our woundings. It can SEEM that way when they remain hidden away, yet exist as an underground operating energy in so many areas of life, impacting so many areas of our lives. Our Infinite Love essence can illuminate and hold these woundings and invite them to integrate and into the light of Love that we ARE!

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sacred ‘Mess’ Of Your Healing Path

by Kalayna Colibri

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“Come follow me, and you will find your mess” – a biblical quote reframe, as offered to me by Yeshua

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There’s a light up ahead, held by someone who has done much work. Someone who beams a beacon of hope and love and possibility. Their energy invites you in and also invites you to follow them. They don’t energize being ‘better’ or ‘holier’ than you, they only seem to energize that they are somehow ‘ahead’ and want to vulnerably lead you into more possibilities, healing and growth for yourself.

Maybe you choose to follow because the warmth of the heart cord between you is incredible and familiar and not like anything you’ve ever felt before in this life. You want to be near this person, relate closely with them, and yet you can’t quite relate to them yet. They feel ‘close’ to you in a sweet sense, yet they almost feel like something that isn’t from this world. How could that be? They certainly seem human enough. You conclude that somehow they ARE human, just living in a different sort of dimension than you’re used to. Wow. THAT’S interesting because the dimension you’ve been living in feels old, stale, essentially loveless to you more and more these days as you continue to awaken to the universe within and outside of you.

As you continue to follow this person up ahead, you feel the infusions of light and love that they offer. You feel too, the realness they hold about their personal reality – how they or parts of them feel or are reacting in given moments. You can feel them holding this reality as sacred, though sometimes the energy feels intense to parts of you that you haven’t fully felt yet. What they offer to themselves and to you seems like ‘love’, but it’s a different love than you’ve experienced, as most of the time those around you refuse to be ‘real’ or current with what they’re feeling or experiencing. Or, on the other hand, they dump energy and emotion on you and in the space they hold with you, feeling like a victim and playing a victim’s role, effectively and skillfully drawing up a case that backs up their claim to perpetual victimhood. You’ve never had this contrast be illuminated for you before and it stirs something inside of you. Parts of you may start to feel victimized to this new frequency of love that is so illuminating, as it shows you too the ways in which you have been and held this same energy of co-dependently being in relationship with others and not deeply maturing emotionally, though you may ‘seem’ mature to most others in your life. You are experiencing how this love is holding up a mirror for you, and wow, there’s actually quite a bit of shadow there to feel!

This being you chose to follow encourages you to keep feeling it all. WHAT?! I have to FEEL it all?! You begin to feel a part of you is getting overwhelmed by the volume of what there is to feel, and you feel a bit surprised by what is still there that you thought you had healed by now. You feel the weight and the mess of it all… the entanglements within your relationships, past and present, the knots living inside of your heart and soul, the shadow pieces and parts of you popping up now to be witnessed, felt, held, healed. It’s a lot. Sometimes it feels like ‘too much’… and your new leader invites you to just ‘hold on tight!’ while the winds whip by and through you, inviting you to step into them despite the swirling chaos inside of you.

This is what it means to be on a path where you find that ‘mess’ within. That ‘mess’ that you learn to love as you trust that it’s leading you somewhere NEW. Amidst the mess, you get to decide whether or not you want to continue walking into it. You get to decide in every single moment, what you want next. And you get to decide whether or not you really trust this process and are ready for it.

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In SoulFullHeart, we don’t hold a grandiose or lofty picture of who we are as spiritual and emotional teachers, leaders and facilitators. The work we’ve done and continue to do is challengings and sometimes downright hard to be in, though the payoff is incredible, as the growth and consciousness expansion is exponential. If anything we are here to guide you if you can lean into what we offer and embody.

Choosing to be around us in any way or form offers some sort of challenge to your being, just because of this way of life we embody. Choosing to be with us here in community, well, that pushes up even more… yet your readiness is something you get to gauge in every moment, even as ‘mess’ comes up from within and seems to be playing out outside of you too.

Following any sort of spiritual and/or emotional healing path should push up quite a bit inside of you. Even if you are not drawn to SoulFullHeart, whatever path you may choose will very likely give you a lot to feel and heal. There is no way, in my experience, to avoid or fully transcend what we signed up to heal in this life. Embracing our messes, no matter where we are in our path or what teacher(s) or leader(s) we may choose to follow or learn from, gives us this gift of finding our way to deeper and deeper decisions about the playout of our lives and how and who we most want to be.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Raw, BEing In Our Emotional Body Movements

By Jelelle Awen

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Feeling raw in the moment…thought I would write when I am raw rather than when I am ‘clear’ and see what comes through. The rawness is the after effects of a deep emotional body movement yesterday. The rawness is how it feels after a purging that comes from so DEEP within that you wonder how could ALL THIS have possibly existed inside of me somewhere? It has been truly fascinating to me over the years HOW MUCH can actually be IN us, stuck in us, stored in us, and how deep and vast the emotional body and our subconscious actually ARE.

STRONG tears came through for me and I sent a lifeline request out to one of my most precious Metasoul sisters/guides to hold space with me for it. Her love, combined with my embodying higher self’s love, held the space while the pain moved through. When such strong tears come through….those body wrenching sobs, it is like when we throw up. It feels uncomfortable, uncontrollable, and we just want it ‘to be over’. We just want to be ‘on the other side’ and the mind is trying desperately to make sense of it all even as it COMPLETELY transcends the mind (as it is meant to.) We can’t contextual it, it doesn’t matter what the ‘energies in the cosmos’ are doing or not doing or what astrological sign we are moving through. The TRUTH is only in the tears and what is coming through and, in these moments, we are completely present to ourselves and this is the gift of them.

Life brought me recently the perfect situation and trigger to push this oil up, this residue of wounding from a chosen legacy of rejection by older women (starting with my birth mother) who don’t ‘see’ and also resist the LOVE that I am offering them and serving to them. This came to a head yesterday for me as I am bridging what is manifesting of my gift expressions in the virtual to the physical now. I could just be a teacher/waySHOWer, writer, facilitator remotely and virtually (so many are and this is good service)….yet I’ve known and felt for a long time that I am here to co-lead a commUNITY, to be IN relationship with many BEloveds, and to feel the specific love energy that we call SoulFullHeart to spread to many others. This invites others into my world and I am called to bridge where I am at in consciousness (which seems to be mostly anchored in 5D since the first of the year) with others. To allow the fluidity of our hearts and vulnerability to LEAD in every moment is the new paradigm leadership. I’m only qualified to lead in this New Earth energy to the degree I am willing to be vulnerable and transparent about what I am feeling.

I INVITE triggers into my life and emotional purges like this too. I WANT to feel ALL that there is to feel inside of myself. I haven’t had a big movement like this in several months as the goodness and flow of service has been my primary experience with seemingly not as much to feel on the emotional body level (after MANY years of focusing on this ground inside myself.) I felt something so GOOD about the movement and I’m sharing today because maybe it will inspire you to make SPACE for these movements in your life too. To work whatever triggers or emotional reactions life gives you and GO IN to feel whatever there is to feel with the parts of you that need that.

Our 3D culture is all about drugging and numbing these movements and our emotions. Tears are hidden and covered over. Being vulnerable is NOT acceptable and we are felt to be ‘weak’ if we are. Even in spirituality, there can be a push to bypass the ‘negative’ or darker emotions in favor of ONLY love and light and positive all the time. The problem with this is that we didn’t actually EXPERIENCE as humans here just light and love so how can approaching our own healing that way possibly heal what lives inside of us? Being open to ALL of it with love to hold it is the way I have found brings the most transformation, healing, openings, and death-rebirth DEEP transmutation. There are no rainbows without rain is the metaphor that comes to me in the moment.

I DO feel that a very important aspect of New Earth/5D reality is the complete embracement and healing of our emotional bodies, and the energies coming in seem to be supporting this exploration in a big way. We could see it as the ‘next frontier’ to our evolutionary path as moving into our sacred humanity. And this frontier is SO natural to us that once we stop resisting it, we receive the bountiful gifts that our emotionality has to offer us….and feel the beacon it is to ourselves and the entire Universe as well.

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Join us on saturday for a group call with me and Raphael Awen offering teachings about bridging to your emotional body and your spirituality and a guided meditation to connect with your emotional body (plus individual sharings): https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Arising Into Our Authentic Spirituality Through Our Emotional Body

by Kalayna Colibri

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There’s a way that I couldn’t find my sense of authentic spirituality and Divine connection until I started working with my emotional body, and allowed myself to be in process around everything I needed to feel.

Since beginning to ‘seek’ for something beyond the Catholicism I grew up in, at around age 14 (maybe a bit younger), I had a sense of what was beyond me and also within me. I could feel soul gifts coming forward and wanted them, ached for them, to be expressed in the world. I got some sense of ‘purpose’ then, though it was cloudy and a muddy most of the time without really having a specific teacher to lean into. I found different spiritual leaders and teachers to follow over time. I thought that my path was to become a psychic medium and be on stages throughout the world, writing books, speaking to crowds of adoring fans, soaking up love from my Divine connection and also with a Sacred Union mate. It was a grandiose, glamorous picture.

Though ‘my’ (more like part of me’s) dreams at the time were of fancy worldwide gatherings and beautiful clothing bought by book and ticket sales, it turned out that my emotional body was not dressed in sparkles. It was more like the beggar lady in a fairy tale, who often turns out to be a powerful soothsayer – a voice of truth and wisdom that helps to humble the prince or princess. It started to show me the mirror I most needed to look into. I was not yet compassionate nor was I coming from love or letting in that what I really needed was some kind of purification process for my heart and soul. At the time, parts of me were convinced that all I needed to do was keep learning and the being and becoming would come later. Well, there’s some truth in that, because our spiritual learnings and leanings do lead us somewhere, inevitably. Yet to be spiritual in the deepest sense, seems to mean embodiment and experience are more important than learning itself and the desire to perform often is just a desire for love. At least this was definitely the case for me.

Working with my emotional body has led me to more spiritual openings, realizations and LOVE exchange with the Divine than I can express through words. Words aren’t quite enough here! The toughest, darkest processes that make you feel as if you are going to die or want to die, are actually the ones that put you back in the arms of the Divine and really help you and your parts let in the support that is always, ALWAYS with you and within you. I’m not exaggerating here either, because this feeling of ‘wanting to die’ DOES poignantly come from parts of us who are nearing their collapse. They are at a tipping point of falling into love and letting the arising authentic YOU fill the space and lead in life more. In my experience and what I’ve witnessed in others, THIS is the most powerful ground to find and feel our Divine connection and access and letting ourselves in this way is an experience we can never forget but can always learn from and it is a space we can always return to.

Working with the emotional body is sometimes grizzly and also completely WONDERful. You are such an incredible mystery to yourself and as humbling as it is to step into, the process of rediscovering your own sense of connection to the Divine that hasn’t come to you from a priest, guru or book is your birthright and something you can powerfully claim that WILL forever change you and your life whenever, if ever, you are ready to say ‘yes’ to each step as it arises before you.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: Ascension Energies, Emotional Body Purgings, Need For Holding Space For Yourself (Video)

I’m sharing a video below talking about how the high energies we’ve been receiving are pushing up reactions in the emotional body….as they are meant to….and how to BE with that. This process invites you to have compassion toward the fear and resistance that is coming up, not pushing it away or bypassing it or ignoring it. The higher self aspect of you that is coming into the body and into your heart WANTS to hold space and respond to this fear WITH love. Wants you to hold space for the fear rather than go into distraction or diversion.

These ascension energies are offering a purging of the emotional body too…if you’ve focused mostly on your spiritual awakening and development, then you will be FEELING this coming up as, again, it is meant to. Your soul holds the space for the emotions that maybe you haven’t focused on as much. High LOVE frequencies are wanting to move you into choice points such as leaving relationships that you aren’t happy in and your soul frequencies aren’t matching in. This is an example of the kind of choice points that are being brought to you, along with geographic shifts, moving from occupations to vocations, etc.

If your emotional body hasn’t been felt in a deeper way, such as through what I feel is the most effective way…..parts work, then THAT is what is coming up around the choice points. On one level it is just a choice about leaving a relationship or job, etc. but on another level what hasn’t been felt in the emotional body is fixated around the choice point. Push-pull, mixed emotions come up then….if you can’t navigate with parts of you then you aren’t going to be clear. You CAN be clear. You CAN identify and differentiate. You can then go to the root of the feelings rather than being just in reaction about the situation.

ANY reactivity of fear is parts of us, not our essence, not our authentic self. This can really help with the feelings sense of “I’m going backwards” in my awakenings because I am feeling so much right now and reacting to so much right now. Rather, actually, the soul awakenings are making MORE safe space for the feelings to come up. You are getting bigger as a soul in the body so the Inner Protector and persona-based parts are allowing more parts’ feelings to come up and out.

There is always a ‘good reason’ for the resistance. As you become your own love detective, so you find this out for yourself what those reasons are and the WHY of them, which clears the emotional wounding and reactivity. Your capacity to show up for your process here is key and to reach out for help for bridging of this parts reality with YOUR reality.

More in the video below……MUCH love from my heart to yours and an offering of energies of trust in the process as it unfolds!

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: High Vibe Energies Bringing Us To Compression Points

By Jelelle Awen

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It’s a phase of compression points right now….not sure completely what I mean by that. I don’t think it is something that our minds can track at all, yet you may feel it on a physical and emotional level, especially, right now. The compression point relates to the high frequencies of love and light that I (and so many others) have been talking about, especially coming in since the beginning of the year.

High waves come in and if you are sensitive to energies and have awakened this capacity in your soul field, you become highly attuned to this happening. A ‘raising UP’ sense happens inside of you….your connection with your guides deepens. Your sense of being part of the All or Oneness expands. Your experiences during meditation are more profound and meaningful. Your yoga practice goes to a whole new level. Your relationships are becoming more soulful and vulnerable. Your leading edge of BEing is watered, lit up, and illuminated by these energies.

Yet, also, as these waves come in, they push UP lower vibrational frequencies and energies within you. They show you what in your life is still based in 3D frequencies of separation, fear, unfelt emotions, codependence.  Your trailing edge of BEing is watered too, by love, and so is what has been put in shadow. The fear-based energies that parts of you have taken in your whole lifetime here and from other lifetimes in your Metasoul line too are starting to come through and are leaking out. That which has been previously felt too ‘painful’ or repressed or suppressed in your emotional body can now receive the air of your consciousness to BE with it as your growing soul and heart hold the space for this exploration.

The compression point is the shifting that happens as you’ve maxed out on the lower frequency energies and the new, higher ones are still finding their grounding inside of you. The higher frequencies haven’t quite integrated, so then you may be feeling like you are being compressed by this shift. Like it is pressing DOWN on you from above in some ways. You haven’t quite completely turned over into the NEW, AND you are feeling the OLD coming UP to take some space too. BOTH of these movements are going on at the same time, which sort of drives the mind crazy (in a good way) as it cannot track what is happening nor is it meant to.

These compression points can seem to trigger then cellular memories in your body too, that flush out toxicities stored there and present in ‘ascension symptoms’ ranging from headaches to hot flashes to nausea to deep chest coughs and colds. The body is sort of ‘stuck in between’ in these moments, it feels like, as it transitions….one cell at a time…..from carbon-based to crystalline. The body then is like a vehicle that is in the ‘shop’ getting upgraded and fixed up with all these new gadgets and, really, a whole NEW operating system. Light body is going to probably eventually run on whole new fuel sources too, going from food to more love and light frequencies.

Surrendering into these compression points seems to offer a way to move through them with more ease and grace. Surrendering relates to a sense of trust that comes from your higher heart or cosmic heart that is BEing activated and opening during this process with more connection to Divine Source. This higher heart consciousness can bridge to the parts of you in your emotional body that are scared, resistance, and fearful of the process. You can BE with these parts of you, especially your Inner Child and Inner Teenager, to hold their hands through this process. You NEED them actually, as these energies are a very key aspect of your 5D sacred human ‘violetprint’ coming into BEing. If these energies and parts inside of you are attempted to be bypassed or dismissed as ‘too negative’, they will anchor your frequency with unfelt emotions, undigested ‘past experiences, and in many other ways. You will mostly see this manifestation in your physical life that may not match in certain areas what your soul most wants to express and BE in.

You BEcome a bridge for yourself during these compression points, from you to ALL aspects of you. These points seem to be a necessary aspect of the process as SO MUCH foundational change and transformation is happening on so many levels right now. Yet, becoming your own bridge from your heart to your fear…… rather than resisting resistance that comes up…..does seem to lessen the experience of pain and trauma during it. You can receive so much support from your higher self, your angelic guides/aspects, your ascended teacher guides/aspects, who are there to provide support on ALL levels as you undergo this process. They cannot rescue or save you from it, yet they can BE there to witness and guide you through, as you tap into your soul’s wisdom and love and, therefore, embody and BEcome these frequencies more and more. We also provide supportive space holding through private and group sessions, plus community, in SoulFullHeart. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Compression points are a sacred aspect of the journey and if we can hold them as such and respond with love, so they move through watered by this love that just wants to return us to love again!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

We Chose To Forget In Order To Re-Member

 

By Raphael Awen

We chose the veil. We chose to forget.

But why would we do such a thing? The answer to that question is something that is now coming clearer and clearer in our dawning awareness.

What we are coming to realize now is not only the fact that we chose to forget, but even more importantly is that we knew that the process of re-MEMBERing would be something hugely MORE for us, something MORE for the universe, something MORE for the infinite love that we actually are. This ‘greater glory’ was so apparent for us, that even the giving up of our present glory and entering a path of suffering was something we were willing and ready to chose. Only a powerful being fully in charge of their will and sanity could and would make such a choice.

Each and every one of us are being ‘re-membered’ back to our to our essence as we live into this soul choice we made. This is an essence that you never lost actual possession of, but only willingly gave up your conscious awareness of. This was the chosen forgetting. Your subconscious essence however fully retained this awareness of essence and it never forgot the resulting mission of bringing remembrance back to our conscious awakening selves.

This essence was never a static or finite amount of essence, but is rather an infinitely expanding, super-intelligent, magical mystery tour of life itself.

The awakening life you presently live and the consciousness with which you presently live your life, down to every single wanted and unwanted detail and emotion is ALL part of the sacred remembering of yourself into conscious awareness of this infinitely expanding love ‘essenceness’ that you are. You are literally becoming consciously that which you ALREADY ARE subconsciously. THIS is the whole purpose of this ‘life’ story you are living out and the chapter in the story that you are currently at. You chose the power of story to transmute your way back into remembrance, one piece at a time.

The minute details of your present life and what you feel about them are all a part of your sacred remembering. Not one of the details of your suffering or your joys are in any way more or less sacred than the other in your chosen path of experimenting with experiences and experience itself in your awakening process.

It all hinges on feeling. And feeling all hinges on choice. What are you ready and willing to feel now in this process of making known consciously what you’ve only known subconsciously up till now? What is your emerging truth? How will you consciously choose this? What choices is life asking you to consciously make now as life gives you the courage to take this step?

You definitely did not chose to endlessly suffer. This is only a projection of our darkest fears which also is a part of our ‘remembering alchemy’ intended to guide us back to the infinite love source that we all are, together and individually.

I am infinite love that chose to forget, so that I could re-member myself in awakening process back to myself, back to you and back to love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: UPgrades Of ALL Bodies, Especially Your Emotional Body (Video With Jelelle Awen)

By Jelelle Awen

 

Oh, these HIGH energies….they seem to draw out the weather metaphors! Storms, blizzards, tidal waves…..whatever you call them, they feel like electric light and love flashes of goodness from the Universe and Divine Source. Our Star Family and our Ethereal Guides/aspects are witnessing and watching the ‘show’ as we are offered ALL that we need to UPgrade and transform into what we are meant to BE, the BEST of what we can be as sacred humans. These energies offer us tastes of how it IS when we vibrate at a higher rate and with more expanded consciousness from what we have been conditioned to in 3D life.
 
I felt to offer a video today talking more about the UPgrades that are available to us right now through these energies, and related to our emotional bodies specifically. The emotive ground of our BEing is one of the most magical and amazing things about us as humans. Our capacity to FEEL is admired by Higher Dimensional BEings. Our hearts and tears are a beacon going out into the galactic realms, drawing attention and focus from around the cosmos. ‘Your tears contain so much interesting information!’ one of my Star BEing aspects/guides exclaimed to me once as I was crying. And it feels so true!
 
To turn around our 3D conditioning that our emotions are ‘bad’, ‘wrong’ or ‘need to be suppressed’ or ‘need to be drugged or numbed’ is an important aspect of embracing the UPgrades that are available to us related to our emotional bodies. To instead feel that our emotions are ‘sacred’ (whatever they are) and are offering us important information and data about our hearts, mind, souls, and bodies. It becomes then about how we RELATE with our emotions, not resisting that we have them in the first place.
 
Reacting or reactivity is when we BECOME our emotions rather than feel them. It is a charged energy that just bursts out or is trying to be suppressed by a Protector Part of us and the whole energy can feel uncomfortable and awkward too because part of us is resisting to feel AND to be felt. When we are relating WITH our emotions as parts of us (identifying specific emotional tones with certain aspects of self), then we can get objectivity, separation, and self LOVING energies can come in. We are able then to understand and relate WITH what the feelings are, where they originate from, and help them transform into higher vibrational frequencies with eventual integration into the wholeness of our BEing.
 
I experience that people are the MOST beautiful when they cry and are feeling themselves. The MOST tender, precious, vulnerable, and even magical frequencies can come up in this emotional expression when it is allowed the space to BE and come and Arise. Not to suffer over suffering, but to feel, heal, transform, and, so, BEcome love, which is what these energies seem to be supporting us to BE! ~
 
I explain more about this process in the video below and there is much more information about how we work with this through individual and couples sessions in SoulFullHeart here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess. Also, Kalayna Colibri and I will be offering teachings and facilitation, plus I will be leading a guided meditation related to the sacred feminine emotional body, and how wounded masculine aspects show up, during a woman’s group call this Saturday: https://www.facebook.com/events/398188883914916
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Bliss Mess Of Feeling Your Emotional Body During Ascension

By Jelelle Awen
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High pressure systems of energy, like what we are experiencing in the NOW and for many days/weeks/months, push up INTENSE feelings of what has been previously suppressed. Sometimes what has been judged by the part of you that judges as ‘ugly’ or ‘messy’….those often disowned tones of rage, despair, disdain, disconnect, depression, drama, self loathing….all those parts that have probably been deemed as ‘not fit for company’ or ‘put away in the inner closet.’

Explosive sometimes, these feelings can come up. Triggered by relationships, by situations, by just more moments made for them and by going within. The soul awakening can’t be bubbled off from the emotional body for long….eventually what has been let in (the frequencies of love and light) wash through and push UP reactions. Your Inner Protector may come in then and shut that process down with ‘no feelings allowed!’ messages, or certainly not any ‘negative’ ones that it thinks are NOT ok to see the light of your day.

Somehow it seems like the message has gotten highjacked by the parts of people that don’t want to feel anything difficult, messy, or ‘negative.’ When actually the HIGH frequencies of light and PURE love are what make it SAFE to feel these things. They are being provided by the Divine to ALLOW us to go into our emotional body in a way that we haven’t before as a species as THAT Is the ground that needs the MOST healing and of our attention.

We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much MORE than we have been human BEings. We are HERE to experience the bliss mess (yes BOTH) of FEELING. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in ALL its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely NEW.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy….this I have been offered over and over.

As an emoto-spiritual forecaster (like weather forecaster, yes, that fits….of inner and outer heart and soul energies), I feel it’s important to offer a bridge about what is happening OUT THERE in the cosmos, in the grids, in the galactic spaces TO what may be happening inside, in your emotional body, in your reactions and experiences. Without that bridge, it can be challenging to feel how what is happening in the galactic ascension process has much meaning to your daily life as you are living it as the human BEing that you are.

I struggle sometimes when I am reading an energy update from someone to feel how it would relate to the pain, suffering, confusion, fear that I feel coming up for so many right now (and for parts of me for so many previous years too.) Or, if the energy healer/teacher does offer something about emotions, it is usually to just ‘be with them and allow them to move’ and they will ‘release’ somehow. While, yes, holding space for emotions is important and they can ‘move’ this way, in my sense it is just the surface level off gassing frequencies that move and most likely NOT the deeper root causes and origins that live in the emotional body AND in the soul field.

The emotional body has been my playground, me ground, and service of love ground for 10+ years (almost 15, I think) and it offers SO MUCH clarity, relief, and transformation to just DIVE into it rather than ignore it, suppress it, bypass it, spiritualize it, etc. The soul legacy ground/body has been the same for me and with others…..and it offers SO much richness of integration of soul gifts, soul purpose, archetypal healing to remember, to relieve, to feel, and to go there.

Yes, but, how? How to dive in? This is an important question, it really is, because BEing needs form to follow for awhile so that it can arise, which it will eventually if you are authentically going into the emotional body and the soul body too. The how I have written about many times and ways and you can read much more about the SoulFullHeart process that we offer at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The main how is through connecting directly and with deep love to different aspects of yourself that LIVE in your emotional body and the ones that energize as ‘other lifetime’ aspects in your soul field too. SoulFullHeart Facilitators (including me for women over 30) then hold the space for this deep dive WITH you, yet it is led by you and your discoveries of SELF through journaling and meditation journeys primarily. And we offer a community of others engaged in this same process to provide support, powerful mirroring, intimacy, and connection through group calls, process groups and retreats in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, and a private online group. More of the how is here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts.

That’s my how anyway, maybe yours will be and is different. Yet, the importance of going into the emotional body seems difficult to deny when you feel the state of emotional maturity and health in our world and culture. This is like our ‘final frontier of exploration, along with our soul legacy (which was previously shrouded by a necessary veil of amnesia until we are ready). It offers a moon walk of emotional mystery, a bliss mess experience of US that unfolds in unexpected yet magical ways that ALWAYS seems to lead back to the experience of MORE love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.