
The Gifts Of Consciously Connecting With Our 4D Self And Other ‘Lower’ Vibrational Aspects


By Jelelle Awen
This is coming up again recently, so I wanted to reshare what I’ve written about the issues of the twin flame relationship paradigm and what we offer in SoulFullHeart in contrast to this. We feel the ground of sacred union with counterpart mates as being about HEALTHY transactability in ALL areas of body, soul, mind, AND – most importantly – heart. Rather than fixate on what the soul capacity is of the bond, it is all about the nourishment, intimacy, vulnerability, and realness that is able to transact between the two partners in a MUTUAL desire for the exploration for which both are focused on their self healing….which we are offering is effectively accessed through our SoulFullHeart parts work process.
The sense that we share the same soul with someone else just doesn’t feel true to me or resonate for me nor has it been validated by any of my higher self guides/aspects….. other than the BIGGER sense that we all come ultimately from the same Divine Source. I feel there CAN be deep Metasoul connections between two souls and many counterpart pair bondings, many mateship energy expressions across dimensions, timelines, species, etc. I have experienced this with Raphael Awen and written about it many times too.
I get how this Metasoul pair bonding could feel like you ARE the same soul, yet I think there are dangers in thinking this way. The biggest issue to me is when the twin flame paradigm is used by parts of people to loop in suffering patterns, push-pull dynamics, unworthiness, stay stuck in ‘waiting’ for someone rather than healthily letting go and moving on, etc. In general, I feel that over attachment to the ‘idea’ of someone being your twin is ultimately just another expression of 3D codependence expressing itself as a grab to get needs met by another person rather than by focusing within.
Here is a video of Raphael and I talking at a Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Arising Summit about sacred unions versus scared unions:
Here are more writings about sacred union counterpart mates and Metasoul mateships.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Have you been reading a lot of our posts and blog articles for a while and have found resonance with much of what we have been expressing and teaching? Have you been drawn to the values, perspectives, and heart-open invitations of our daily writings and explorations? Sometimes it can be a LOT to take in! Believe us…we understand.
SoulFullHeart offers a very unique feel and vision about ascension from an emotional and spiritual framework. We are currently creating a major vision and heart curriculum for the process that we offer that is unlike anything we have seen. Over the next several weeks and beyond, we will be writing more specifically and clearly about what SoulFullHeart is and isn’t. We will be focusing on what we feel are the 7 Key Areas of Life that affect our transition from 3D living to 5D experience. We will also be differentiating the difference between the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and their frustrations/desires with the seven areas of emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental. Future group call will have a particular focus in these areas and how they are viewed through those lenses.
SoulFullHeart is a huge teaching and healing paradigm that bridges the practical with the emotional and spiritual. From the roots of our needs to the wings of our soaring desires and dreams. We have been on an UPward trajectory and things are getting much clearer for us in what we are offering and how we are offering it. You already have a sense of how unique we are from what we offer on Facebook, our SoulFullHeart blog, YouTube channel, and our website. But then comes the moment when you just gotta find out in real time how this might apply to you.
A free introductory session provides a bridge from your interest and resonance based on what you have read, viewed, or heard about SoulFullHeart to your personal situation, awakening journey, and life. During an intro session, a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, either Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman,will meet with you to discuss what drew you to SoulFullHeart, how you feel we could serve you, what your pain or suffering is about in your life, and offer to you where a facilitator could go with you during weekly sessions based on the SoulFullHeart awakening process. They will also get a sense of which SoulFullHeart Facilitator would best serve you in the process or identify if the process isn’t really a fit at this time. Intro sessions are 30 minutes, held over zoom messenger service, and do not require a minimum donation amount….although we would so happily and gratefully accept any donation you would like to offer for them.
We are so very excited about the days and weeks to follow and, while things are under refinement, we have a solid foundation of service experience and framework to guide you to your next growth and deepening connection to all parts of you that are waiting for your claim and arrival. It is a journey to a brand new you that is looking to be born into a brand new world. We look forward to growing and learning with you in this brave new world of Sacred Humanity.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

When you make a claim for your highest calling, the universe conspires in your favor. However, that doesn’t always mean that favor will be easy for parts of you. On the path and journey to that highest place within we will inevitably be asked to feel things we have been avoiding to feel. To let go of things that we have been afraid to let go of. And let in the love that parts of us are not used to or prepared for.
If being and serving Love is our highest calling then we are meant to be challenged in ways that doesn’t resonate with what a part of us has been attached to. We may be called to question our motivations, our habits, our relationships, and even our dreams. This is a very deconstructive process that reconditions us into a new altitude of experience that can be very hard to acclimate to. These parts of us, the energy in us that is still understandably attached to a story or picture, are being asked to let go of all that has been held sacred and comforting. There are no sacred cows left untouched in this process. It is ongoing until we have made the choices that reflect this higher calling on a consistent basis and it becomes a way of life to keep choosing, keep feeling, keep healing.
Every choice creates the life circumstances we are needing to feel, learn, and grow from. Those choices are made by the prevailing winds inside of us, be it fear or love. The question for some can be, what is the difference? That can be a muddied one if we don’t feel the differing energies inside of us and have a way to separate form them in a conscious way. This is the process of parts work and the gift that is bestowed in helping to sort out that question.
If you feel these rumblings, contortions, and differing energies inside of you, they are messages from your Higher Self to feel and heal these lower energies so that they may transmute and integrate into your most joyous and purposeful timeline on New Earth. They are birth pangs and they can hurt like hell. They can be scary and really overwhelming. This is the Quickening and you are being called to answer and choose. It is challenging but also very self-loving when we let the process take us where we are being asked to go. Only your authority will direct you there when you are ready
SoulFullHeart offers a path that is undergoing tremendous growth and renewal. It is offering a path that is grounded in a step by step process that can take you to the places only you choose to limit yourself to. It is ultimately a self-lead process where the facilitator is a guide and also a teacher of this powerful life altering experience. A free 30 minute session is available to all that feel the heart ping and curiosity to learn more. You can message me or Raphael Awen for further information. It would be an honor and a growth experience for us both to serve you.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

In these moments, on these days, there isn’t much to do but surrender to the tornado and trust that you WILL land somewhere soft and grassy… these times of upheaval actually press us upward AND onward, while encouraging us to go inward.
The preciousness of parts of you can be forgotten in the everyday shuffle and the ongoing dreamings of what you want to experience, be, have next. The emotional and spiritual pain and distrust that they hold can become buried, even in a life that is genuinely good. The gift of these ‘tornado times’ is that they can surface and be felt again, healed deeper, brought with you to that new place the Divine so wants to take you and IS taking you, even if you can’t feel the surrender or see the ground beneath your feet at the time…
This is the ongoing offer, invitation, love we are granted and flooded with. This is what is represented by intense weather patterns that do somehow shift around something inside of us and also reflect the storms inside of us.
As hard as it can be and often is in these moments of poignant and pure feeling, there is always a Divine hand being held out for us to grasp onto, that encourages the authentic YOU to hold a hand out for the parts that are struggling in their fears and suffering in their pain, seeing and feeling the worlds – their worlds – that are collapsing in so many ways, while they reach out for a ‘more’ that they need reminding is not only possible, but already here…
In this bittersweet time of movement… of upswing and downturn… we learn to shift the gears into place, taking all of our precious cargo of self and soul with us. Bringing it all to that ‘Promised Land’ within, that does want to take us to all that we most deeply want and work to feel worthy of. ![]()
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In SoulFullHeart, we are now offering a free 30min intro session where we will talk with you about the process in more detail and feel with you where we could go together. If you’re curious about that, you can visit our website for more information: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and/or contact Gabriel Heartman or Raphael Awen to schedule one with one of them. ![]()
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen

Things are sorting out faster now. More rapidly with more clarity, sometimes fueled by heart and soul vision. Sometimes fueled by frustration and wanting to end the pain and suffering. What to commit to more deeply and what to let go is becoming clearer in all areas of your life. What to go into as it serves what you most want and your service of love VISION…..and what to release as it doesn’t reflect that envisioning.
With the activation of your highest timeline during this intense energy month of August and especially during the recent eclipse, the download so freely available and gifted to you…..you are then given the choice in every moment to live it out or to retract away from it. To move it forward or to pause. ALL of this is your sacred choice, although the highest timeline choices are the ones that most serve the manifestation of New Earth reality for yourself inside and for the collective.
More overlap seems to be happening between these processes of collapsing timelines and arising timelines with less gap and pause. Meaning, you are feeling increasing desire and clarity WHILE the old is falling away. The new is coming in WHILE the old is moving out. The energies of mourning and celebration coming together, weaving, and operating in the same moment sometimes. Bittersweetness.
Parts of you may be feeling the sweetness while other parts of you are feeling the bitter. Being with the different energies AS parts can help with the overwhelm that can grow inside over these divergent frequencies. Checking in with your higher self and higher guides/aspects can be hugely helpful in this process too. Asking to reconnect with and feel your highest timeline can infuse it into your body and flush up in your emotional body the parts of you that may have fear, resistance, and doubt. Feeling and holding space for the fear and doubts too that come up as you let in the higher timeline.
Continually claiming the higher timeline and not falling back into 3D anchoring is not easy at times, as I offered yesterday. Yet, in another way, it IS what you will do eventually as the higher timeline you and your higher timeline life are ALREADY happening. And choosing the higher timeline is what love wants you to do and BE, so the more love you can feel with yourself and with your parts, the more support you will feel to live it out in the Now and NOT delay it. Bridging the gap between THIS now and THAT now is where the challenge is and feeling all that comes up in this walking out.
The higher timeline is waiting for you AND it is available in this very moment to be claimed, tasted, moved toward, lived and, most of all, loved!
Jelelle Awen
We can support you in our SoulFullHeart process to navigate toward your higher timeline, to identify and feel your 3D self that may block its manifestation, and provide support as you go. We now offer a free 30 minute intro session: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Photo taken by Raianna Shai here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico
By Jelelle Awen

It is NOT easy to move into a higher timeline. To extract from 3D life, from so much conditioning and expectation, from well worn habits and patterns and reactions……It is NOT easy and, at times, it can be very painful and hugely challenging. It can be very often saying more ‘NO’s’ to what isn’t your higher timeline than it is saying, ‘YES.’ It can feel like all you are saying is, ‘no’ as you help parts of you separate from what is no longer what you want as you embody your higher self into your body. It can be saying No to relationships that were once beloved yet are no longer supporting your highest expression and intimacy desires. It can be saying No to previously beloved habits that you now realize are self harming or destructive. This no saying is held with increasingly trust that it will open up more ‘yes’ and more possibilities of love as you are willing to claim and advocate for what you really want and most serves the love that you ARE.
It can be so challenging not to fall into victim, finger pointing AND yet to feel the harm that has occurred for parts of you AS you hold that you chose it all as a soul. This, for us, is where parts work comes in as you identify the parts of you that feel victimized and WHY they do and help them move into more mature adulthood. You set higher standards for yourself, with your parts, and raise your maturity level through this process and THIS moves you into your higher timeline taking your emotional body along with you. Without this self propulsion, it is easier to stagnant, ceiling out, remain flat and attached to 3D life and relationships.
Yes, the current love and light energy influxes are here to help us out in this very challenging ascension process. But, the degree that we can actually let them in is up to each of us and the self negotiation with the parts of us that block, stall, and are anchored in fear. Letting IN these love and light high frequencies is where our self sovereignty and choice comes in, either deflecting or receiving….either changing or resisting. The universe lets us choose and THIS is what makes the process both very magical and also seemingly very challenging at times.
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Jelelle Awen
More about our parts work process to navigate ascension and a free intro session here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

By Raphael Awen
You CAN have what you want.
If there is any catch to this, it’s this: You CAN have what you want. Yes, you read that correctly. Actually having what you want is what scares the crap out of us, and subconsciously keeps us at bay from drawing what we most deeply want.
You and I both may say “Oh, I’d drop this dump in a heartbeat if I could afford a nicer place”. But thinking and feeling that we are limited because we can’t afford a nicer place is a perception coming deeply from the 3D conditioned self. From a 5D perspective, there is nothing that doesn’t belong to you. There is nothing that is off limits to your pleasure and enjoyment. If your and my 3D experience is going through some experience of lack, that is because we dialled that up.
Lack is a very rare and precious thing from a 5D perspective. You can’t find it just anywhere. You need to dial it up in a 3D world and reality and enter a weird thing called the time, space and material reality in order to experience and learn from what it feels like to taste and be in lack.
There are things you as a soul just can’t learn, being the infinite abundance that you are, without a forgetting and remembering experience. You are actually seeking to be born into what you already are and always were.
Which is kind of cool when you think of it. Becoming a millionaire or has got be way more fun than just being a millionaire. It’s the process we are seeking, because it is in experience that we have these ‘birthing into’ experiences that make us more than we were, and even more than we infinitely at present ARE, if your mind can grok a piece of that. You already are infinite love, but in a process of forgetting and remembering that you are infinite love, you become more than infinite love. Infinite love that doesn’t know and feel that it IS infinite love, is of no felt value. It is worth everything, but it has no identity, no healthy ego yet to go about and strut its stuff.
You are the hottest stuff the universe is made of, and the fact that you are able to dial up a shitty apartment is utterly astounding to the 5D consciousness that also lives in you. Holy f*ck. It’s all so holy in fact, that no polite or impolite language can take away from it or add to it.
You already are having from a 5D perspective exactly what you want. If a better apartment on a 3D level is what your 3D self is wanting, then you have some negotiating to do with your 5D self, because YOU are the only one pulling the levers here. You’ve got some lessons to finish up.
Where this gets really interesting is to systematically and methodically open the door to getting to know and feel your 3D selves, your 4D selves and your 5D self.
We set out to do just that through SoulFullHeart process and I’d like to give you a taste of a piece of our curriculum that we work through in early session space with facilitants. It’s an awesome blend of heart opening, intuition, the imaginarium ALONG WITH a system, a method, a discipline… The feminine and the masculine blend as a vehicle to take you somewhere. Get ready though, it’s a bit of a long article and video that will only secure your heart and soul attention if you are ready for it, meaning you may well have to negotiate with your 3D aspects just to be able to get into this. It will take time and heart and It will change you, as it has and continues to change us.
The article and video offers a self guided aspect that we wanted to share with people for free to let them feel into if committing the time and money to working more directly with a facilitator and regular committed SoulFullHeart process is something that calls to them.
Here is that article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions
I am really curious to hear how it lands in you, and to digest it further with you when you are ready in a free ½ hour intro session that we offer as a bridge for people feeling into deepening process together.
Raphael Awen
…and if you’d like to connect with our energy tomorrow on our group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I are leading, here are the details for you to do that here. It’s gonna be good…, they always are when deeply interested people like you show up with heart and desire.https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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The questions resound. “Why am I the way I am? Why do I feel the way I feel?” There are just certain things that we just can’t really put a mental finger on. It is swirling curiosity that is wrapped in sometimes serious tones of frustration and depression. This feeling that something is just “off” inside and you are just not totally You. But what the hell does that mean?
Relief and discovery are your doorways IN….
Maybe there IS a clear sense of who you are but still can’t seem to get that You to align with what it going on around you. Either no one or very few around you can fully grasp what it is you are going through. This need to go deeper, to understand and feel more deeply as to what it is that you were meant to BE this life.
Alignment and deepening are your doorways IN…
You have all that you felt like you wanted but still feel dissatisfied. What once made you complete and happy just isn’t working its magic anymore. There is the growing awareness that that there is so much more to experience and not necessarily “learn” or achieve. The magic is wanting to come from the inside out and not the other way around. There is a niggle to set fire to it all and get to the heart of what it is that sets your passion ablaze.
Curiosity and desire are your doorways IN….
You see the writing on the wall. What used to hold all the pieces of society together are in a state of collapse. The game on the outside is quickly finding its demise and the transition may be rough for some. But that is for those who have given over their power. Their choice. The fight and the rage are getting exhausting and the time for something new is so wanting fresh air. There is a need to feel a sense of a bigger vision and opportunity into the future.
Empowerment and disillusionment are your doorways IN….
You are tired of doing this life all on your own. You so much want to be in collaboration with others with like-heart and soul resonance. You ache for a partner that can match and meet you in your need for passion and purpose. To set you ablaze with aliveness and challenge you with compassionate honesty. No more playing in the wounded arena. You are aching for relationship beyond the usual and normal.
Community and sacred romance are your doorways IN….
There is something we all came here to walk out. An experience to have based on a theme or calling that our souls signed up for. Your current life experience is all perfectly laid out specifically for you, by you. They create crisis and uncomfortability as a means of opportunity to learn and grow along the path we have chosen that serves our Highest calling. The nest that we consciously created is now getting prickly. Even if the nest wasn’t all that bad to begin with! You are getting prickly. Nudged. Poked.
The doorways are in front of you. They are held by parts of us that were created in order to “survive” life. Even our spirituality has been used as a survival tactic in many ways. The road back to our very thrival essence is a process of exiting and entering many of these doorways, just like the proverbial layers of an onion. But these doorways often look like walls if we are fused to the fear of what it means to walk through them.
The first step is to be honest there is a wall. A fear. A resistance. From there the door presents itself and the choice points begin. Feeling the fear inside and where they come from helps us to make that next step down the path we know we were meant to walk. But you are not alone in this. There are those who have walked through many of those doors. They very ones you see in front of you if you can see them. The ones that you have heard a knock on. Let us answer that call together and see what is discovered and experienced on the way to what it is you were ultimately destined to Be and feel.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

It’s that ‘heart click’ time. Things that can’t be explained or broken down mentally are coming in now. It’s intuition that opens out from a deeper trust and also a feeling of faith in the lessons that come. This trust is bred from within, from feeling parts that don’t trust you or themselves but want to.
Click.
These moments when something dawns in the sky of your heart hold so much meaning. It is the opening of your compassionate understanding, starting with something finally making sense inside of you. “Oh… so that’s why I’ve felt this way for so long” are words are that will sometimes come to you on these waves of new found inner wisdom and self-discovery.
Click.
Parts of you have tried so hard to live life the way they’re used to, and this isn’t as possible anymore. They are getting tired. Some persona inside of you is wearing thin, wants a break, wants to rest, and may be having a hard time dropping its sword and all its very good reasons for having been there all this time. The outrage and resistance and sometimes also transcendence that you thought was ‘yours’, you can start feeling as belonging to a part or parts of you.
Click click.
These words about ‘parts’ may be starting to ‘click’ now too. This is that ‘heart click’ again, where something just feels true. It just feels like, yes, something inside of you is done with the weight it’s been carrying and probably burying too at times. This whole universe inside of you where many different parts ping in their beautiful though sometimes shadowy constellations of reaction and reticence, is somehow starting to make heart-sense now. Self-forgiveness arises, as you feel these parts in their reality and understand why they’ve been there, why they’ve chosen what they have as YOU, why they’ve acted or felt the way they have until now.
Click.
The love you feel for these parts of you now is the love you feel deepening for yourself as a whole. This love you feel can extend towards others more so now too. You can actually start to feel others without reticence for it. Your compassionate heart is naturally opening because you are regularly giving your own parts and heart what they need. You understand the need for healthy selfishness and you trust more that what is best for you will ultimately be what’s best for others too, even though ‘hurt’ may happen along the way. ‘Hurt’ is a roadmap and part of the sacred journey within. It’s a necessary piece in order to feel the parts that are in pain and have been in pain for a long time, though they may have found some pretty powerful ways to avoid feeling it and what’s at the core of it.
Click click click.
Judgements of others begin to lose their charge and fall away as you feel why they were there in the first place and also the parts that held these judgements start to rest around it all. You are morphing and changing and shifting. More ‘heart clicks’, more Ascension. It’s all coming, it’s all happening, and it’s a lot to let in. In moments of awakening inside, the ‘clicking’ feeling can be so powerful that it rushes through the bodies… emotional, spiritual, physical, social… astral. A lot is downloading as the mind races to grasp what it actually needs the heart to understand first.
And understand, the heart does. One ‘click’ at a time.
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.