Service Of Love As A Mirror

By Gabriel Heartman

I have been holding space for two remarkable women that have had a lot of deep processing of past pain, both this life and others. It has been such an honor to be a part of their movements and realizations that have come from their own dedications to themselves and their desire for self-love and service to others. 

During our time together there have been moments of needing to flow with a ‘passionate advocacy’ for each of them and that can get triggering to parts that have inner wounds around what may be interpreted as a ‘bullying’. This is what I wrote about in my last post. 

It felt important to share their responses of their perspective on that and how being a caring mirror and conduit of real love can be challenging yet rewarding. It also reminds me to continue to work my stuff so that I can Be and offer that to others. This is especially true between a man and a woman where there can be so much charge between the masculine and feminine in the shadow. But it is that dynamic which brings the deepest healing to the surface. 

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“Thank you so much, Gabriel. I love all your reflections and you can’t imagine how much they are helping to integrate the session, expand my consciousness, bring context to current situations and patterns as well as past ones and bring my inner family together and growing me more. I took in your last message when I was sitting down by the ocean and it was pure balm for my soul, heart and nervous system. It was an explanation for so much and I will take it in again and again because there’s so much in there that struck a chord and that facilitated big shifts. I saw and felt my inner feminine and masculine shaking hands, wanting to start to respect each other and working together ❤”- Bianca

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“Gabriel, I loved your post yesterday about “tough love.” Thank you for putting it out there. While I had parts reactions to our session, your “passionate advocacy” was exactly what I needed in order to push myself to really become my own loving presence for my inner teenager, rather than letting that part convince me that only someone else could take care of her. I could really feel the difference between your advocacy, rather than toxic tough love. Yours is the type of healthy love that all of us have needed in this life. It’s clean and safe, and doesn’t allow for enmeshment and attachment. Feels really good to learn and experience that for real! ❤”- Devon

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I am honored to be in this space with both of them as they have taught me a lot about my own heart and where I have grown and still have places to continue to grow and heal. I am so very grateful.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Processing Rage Into Passion With Care

By Kalayna Colibri

Rage sometimes pours out like volcanic lava, ready to burn and melt down, create a reset or reboot as it moves through. We’re barely into 2019, yet already we are feeling what it’s pushing up… more to look at within, more to feel rage at but then find the real hurt and vulnerability underneath it. Anger and the parts that feel it need to be validated. It’s meant to help elucidate what isn’t ok anymore, what needs boundaries set around it, and what needs shifting in any area of your life.

Rage can also become an addiction, like anything else. It can be used by parts of you to self-medicate and avoid feeling vulnerability. It can also be used to avoid feeling others and your impact on them, which, even though they may answer your anger with their own and not seem impacted in a deeper way, they have been… as have you. Your anger has impact on your parts too, especially the ones that do feel more hurt and sadness, self-consciousness, ache for love.

There’s nothing to control here, but there’s a ton to feel and keep feeling. There are so many questions to keep asking. The fire of anger and frustration is needed in phases of awakening and moving forward in your life, yet ultimately it wants to be transmuted into passion and taken in the direction of creation, not destruction. The direction of love… heart-centered and fulfilling.

We cannot skip this step of truly feeling it and getting the good stuff on the other side of it. There’s so much it needs to rumble with yet also so much it needs to shift into as the dust and ashes settle on the new ground being birthed within. The rageful warrior inside holds an invitation to move into a role of ambassador of heart and soul, dropping the sword and baring the heart. This is important to remember, even as the fire burns you up from the inside and wants to spread into your outer world too.

There is ultimately no ‘other’, even when you feel opposition. And if that’s really true… there is always a ton of reflection to take in and be with, get real about, and start loving from these increasingly passionate places within.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Divine Rebirth From Within: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

What once slumbered

Now arises…

 

A fear of choking

of not surviving

the molten movement underneath,

bubbles up

to lay in waiting arms

of the forward invite.

 

Pressing through and into

the chambers once shutter-closed,

the fiery heat of new burnings

birth into the hearth

of the awakening heart

with quaking parts.

 

Passion rises from the ashes

of a red-hot flame

meant to leave the false,

the no-longer tolerable,

behind

with NO-MORE-OF-THIS-ness

leading and loving

its way into the new.

 

The NOW of the NEW

arises

with the dawning silver crescent

in the heart-sun’s moon

leading

lighting the way

to the re-birthing place

of the reborn Sacred Human

you always somehow

knew…

and grew…

INto. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Full Moon In Scorpio Ignites Passions, Serves Purgings

by Kalayna Colibri

WOOOSH…. felt the full moon energies all day yesterday, with an up and down experience inside of myself which was incredibly UP in passion and passion-purpose desires and then also offered purgings of emotional tensions and fears coming UP with them! This is the whole package deal of Ascension. You’re invited to a huge party with lots of lights, excitement and even pure bliss, yet with the waters of love coming in with every invitation, the oil of fears and despair held by parts and Metasoul Aspects has to come out to make room for more.

It doesn’t feel possible to me to ignite your soul purpose work without being willing to feel what it is inside of you that DOESN’T want to serve love. Even if you choose to not feel into this question now, eventually it catches up to you and often in a reticence that develops over time and somehow collapses or sabotages your service-of-love practice, whatever that is for you.

I feel that the full moon always offers you a chance to feel your passions anew. Especially if you’re meant to serve love in this timeline. The full moon in Scorpio is asking you to keep it real. It’s asking you to be real about your passion and to feel the polarity inside that isn’t interested in passion too or really doesn’t buy that you can “make it”. Scorpio as an energy can support you to feel this extreme and not run away from it. Make the investigation of this a part of your passion-purpose, not a detriment to it! I feel and see so many souls trying to dismiss these parts that just don’t want it. Yet they are the most valuable players in the game of serving love, because they are the parts of you that need to be filled up with love and appreciation again. They are also the parts that offer grounding and realness inside you. And with all of this disclosure happening on the outside right now, yes, you need realness and integrity inside of you too. Nay-saying parts can offer that to you if you can let them into your heart. On a soul level, you could be feeling legitimate anxiety over persecution timelines your soul has lived out and is still living out since time is not linear. There are also timelines of being a false King/Queen, leading without integrity and heart. These are all themes that seem to emerge as you feel more and more into your special personal brand of service of love and what that means for YOU during this often intense time of Ascension.

On the other side of feeling all of this always comes more joy, bliss and love than you have experienced before… AND much MORE energy, motivation and passion for the service of love you’re meant to lead, inhabit and offer!

A good way to be with these energies is to just keep feeling them… to be in a process like what we offer through SoulFullHeart that gives you a direct heartline to the parts and Metasoul Aspects in anguish, despair, pain… and perhaps joy too! There are many ways in which you can connect to this work, including through our free Unity Meditations, one of which is coming up this week on May 2nd: https://www.facebook.com/events/1895682390725143/ . We also offer private sessions and a program where you can enter your own self-led process using processes we send to you. There are many options for ways in which to dive into your emotional body and feel all there is to feel along the way in your own sacred and very personal journey of Ascension and healing! ❤

LOTS of love to you!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Peace At The Cost Of Passion

When peace is achieved at the cost of passion, you get neither in return.

There is a bubbling, gurgling cauldron of desire that lies at the root of our Being. It is untamed and wild. It seeks to explore, experience, and express. It has curiosity and clarity both. It rages like a fire that fuels are primordial and ancient hearts. This passion has many layers of consequence in our souls infinite timeline ranging from the greatest love stories to the depths of our most difficult tragedies. This passion has created worlds majestic and inspiring, as well as destroyed them in the same turn of the page.

In your souls memory, held by what we call the Gatekeeper, there can be a bittersweet relationship to passion. It possess tremendous power and wealth of possibility. How that passion has played out in your emotional body throughout your soul’s story can have a huge impact on how your protector chooses to respond to it. This passion may have come at a cost to an inner peace. Your Protector/Gatekeeper may have experienced very traumatic experiences as a result of such passion ranging from war to intense romantic heartbreak.

It may have chosen over the course of time to seek Peace as a replacement to Passion. Due to its experiences, this was all a self-loving choice. The pain that it witnessed and felt through your heart was far too much to bear and chose a less offensive relationship to life in its defense. It may have lost its faith in something greater than itself and felt to take matters into his or her own hands by seeking emotional safety.

But as humans we are never that far removed from the fire of passion within. It is an attribute of our divine nature. It is the spark of life, love, and creativity. We can only seek to keep it at bay and find ways to cap or mute it. The peace that a part of us seeks is never truly found for the very nature of our passion is to seek expression. It knocks on our doors in ways that can be nothing short of haunting when left unchecked. Depression, anxiety, and rage may all show themselves as reactions to this suppression and distillation.

The only peace we can truly have is in the divine trust that our passion leads us to more of our authentic Self. It is in the feeling and healing of the wounded expressions of our passion, in relationship to our Inner Protector and Gatekeeper, that we can open up again to that which has been so needing to be connected with again. It is the healing of what this passion is here to offer us that can bring us to new arenas of our emotional and spiritual lives. It has the capacity to change it all on a dime when we heal the fear of what that change looks like on the other side.

The growth of your consciousness and felt reality is fueled by this passion. It is the uniqueness of You that gets to birth into the world that has been so fiercely protected in the name of Love. Beginning a relationship with this part of you is the beginning to reclaiming the gifts and joys you have always longed to embody and have just been too busy making peace to truly remember.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Doorways IN To Your Highest Heart

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The questions resound.  “Why am I the way I am? Why do I feel the way I feel?” There are just certain things that we just can’t really put a mental finger on.  It is swirling curiosity that is wrapped in sometimes serious tones of frustration and depression.  This feeling that something is just “off” inside and you are just not totally You.  But what the hell does that mean?

Relief and discovery are your doorways IN….

Maybe there IS a clear sense of who you are but still can’t seem to get that You to align with what it going on around you. Either no one or very few around you can fully grasp what it is you are going through. This need to go deeper, to understand and feel more deeply as to what it is that you were meant to BE this life.

Alignment and deepening are your doorways IN…

You have all that you felt like you wanted but still feel dissatisfied. What once made you complete and happy just isn’t working its magic anymore.  There is the growing awareness that that there is so much more to experience and not necessarily “learn” or achieve.   The magic is wanting to come from the inside out and not the other way around. There is a niggle to set fire to it all and get to the heart of what it is that sets your passion ablaze.

Curiosity and desire are your doorways IN….

You see the writing on the wall.  What used to hold all the pieces of society together are in a state of collapse.  The game on the outside is quickly finding its demise and the transition may be rough for some.  But that is for those who have given over their power. Their choice. The fight and the rage are getting exhausting and the time for something new is so wanting fresh air.  There is a need to feel a sense of a bigger vision and opportunity into the future.

Empowerment and disillusionment are your doorways IN….

You are tired of doing this life all on your own.  You so much want to be in collaboration with others with like-heart and soul resonance.  You ache for a partner that can match and meet you in your need for passion and purpose. To set you ablaze with aliveness and challenge you with compassionate honesty.  No more playing in the wounded arena.  You are aching for relationship beyond the usual and normal.

Community and sacred romance are your doorways IN….

There is something we all came here to walk out.  An experience to have based on a theme or calling that our souls signed up for.  Your current life experience is all perfectly laid out specifically for you, by you.  They create crisis and uncomfortability as a means of opportunity to learn and grow along the path we have chosen that serves our Highest calling.  The nest that we consciously created is now getting prickly.  Even if the nest wasn’t all that bad to begin with! You are getting prickly. Nudged. Poked.

The doorways are in front of you.  They are held by parts of us that were created in order to “survive” life. Even our spirituality has been used as a survival tactic in many ways. The road back to our very thrival essence is a process of exiting and entering many of these doorways, just like the proverbial layers of an onion.  But these doorways often look like walls if we are fused to the fear of what it means to walk through them.

The first step is to be honest there is a wall. A fear. A resistance. From there the door presents itself and the choice points begin.  Feeling the fear inside and where they come from helps us to make that next step down the path we know we were meant to walk. But you are not alone in this. There are those who have walked through many of those doors. They very ones you see in front of you if you can see them.  The ones that you have heard a knock on. Let us answer that call together and see what is discovered and experienced on the way to what it is you were ultimately destined to Be and feel.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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We Will Know Each Other, Love

by Leena Colibri

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We will know each other, love.
When the seas of distance
have long parted
and the winds of inner guidance
bring us closer,
we will know the scent, feel and taste
of the radiant compliment and heart echo,
that only two true lovers
can feel in each other.
The swan of my garden’s pond,
the stag of your kingdom to come
and the lushness of crystalline hearts
sends a beacon to one another
that forgoes all time
and draws the curtain
on any sense of having waited.
Across the ether
where dutiful pleasantries end
and all flowers bloom in harmonic,
perfectly imperfect growth,
that is where it begins for us
as we foresake all we’ve known
for the challenge of walking
and waking
together.
The sprint of a spring-loaded heart
wanting to explode in its body-container
brings in the steps of inventive goodness
and charges forward with each breath
of its renewed awakening.
Our inter-galactic heavens
of sweet spent moments
of movement and healing
in our dominions of the inside,
mingle altogether in a dance of dimensions,
bodies,
anticipated touches
and soaring passionate highs.
We will so know each other, love,
by the shape of smoky outlines
and bright, burning stars pointing the way,
calling out to us and to all lovers,
now and always…

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Choosing From Love, To Fall In Love

By Leena Colibri

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This mysterious thing we call “falling in love”… what is it but a letting go into the shiny bright light ahead that seems to call, seems to light up a pathway through unknown territory, seems to warm something in the far reaches of your heart that you’d forgotten were ever there?

What else can we call the following of a heart stream that starts in a moment then trickles inward and suddenly pours over every part of us before we even know what we’ve said “yes” to?

Beyond an idea of romance that has us on our knees in ecstatic joy and wonder, this is a bigger embrace of a call that beckons us onward at an as yet un-lived-in pace for in the foreground of our lives we have only settled for the crumbs of what I can only call “the real thing”. Once we have tasted that tender morsel of what truly makes our hearts beam with wonder, awe and reverence, we cannot turn away, we cannot opt out, we cannot fully return to that cave from whence we came.

It is an impossibility to behold the full intrusion of love’s infusion if we do not fall in love all at once and with a perseverance that we can only truly know from our own love lights answering to those of others up ahead of us.

This is what it means to really love and be loved. This is what it feels like to be held in and led by love. This is what it feels like to say “yes” to ourselves and our transformation. This…is where all our choices should come from, and where our choosing will always be challenged to come from. This is what it feels like to truly live – to know that love is always at your side, bellowing from the other side, and beckoning you homeward.

If you can feel all of this… welcome home, for this is where your truest heart rests even in its insatiable restlessness of always wanting more and more. If you cannot in this moment feel any of this… perhaps your heart is asking for more of you to reside inside it, to know it, revere it, honour it, remember it… once again and maybe, this time, for always.

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com