Category: Change and Transformation

Mourning Dawns: The Gift Of Letting Go

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by Gabriel Heartman

You have been made Aware.  You SEE and FEEL how life is so much more than what you have been conditioned to see and protected to feel.  You cannot be made unaware.  You can choose to ignore, but it is always there.  You may not have anyone to talk to about it, or, as much as they want to, they just can’t understand.  You continue to learn more, to understand more, to feel more.  The Light presses upon what is no longer serving this new, yet stillborn, YOU.  It can be okay at times.  Just letting it unfold in its due course.  Other times it can be painful as hell.  For some it can be existential and down right scary.  What is it that can help this uncertainty?  

Going into the geography of your heart may find you are at the end of a line….a timeline.  An old way of being able to pull it all together to get through each day.  There may be a moment when you finally realize the two worlds…just…don’t…jive.  These could be relationships to people, things, behaviors, and thought patterns.  Whatever it is that is not aligning with your Highest Desire and Inner Knowing.  There is a rub between what you feel needs to be done to continue growing and how a part of you feels about that.

This can be a difficult process and the heart of what it means to live in 4D consciousness.  There is a bitter-sweet feeling about it.  There are bridges to burn, ropes to let go of, and chords to cut.  In SoulFullHeart this is held as a sacred and negotiated process in compassionate concert with a part of you being held in heart space by this arising New You and the open heart of another who has been down that road.  There are ebbs and flows.  Baby steps and great leaps.  All in the timing set by you, your Higher Self, and the parts of you so invested.  The more emotional energy invested the more negotiation needed.  

When the time eventually arises that a choice needs to be made for your greatest good, the space both before and after is big.  It is a time to take stock of all that the relationship has meant to you, whether it be a romantic partner, a family member, a friend, a suffering loop, a drug, a food, or anything else under the sun that holds this energy.  It is a time to feel what was learned, and what will be lost.  This is the Mourning Time.  This time has been held with much grace and honor across cultures.  It is a phase in which you fully enter the pain, remorse, or any other feeling that comes up in order to fully exit.  It is not a one day deal in many cases.  The mourning is a process just like the one getting to it.  But the more the mourning is inhabited, not with suffering, the more the relationship can be honored and made sacred.  

This is a time of reflection, feeling, music, writing, sleeping, crying, laughing, remembering, and a plethora of other actions that arise to honor the space.  All of it is important and beautiful.  The amount of reverence given to this period the more reverence is given to what is to come.  The rain washes away the smoke and soot of the fire to reveal the dawn of a new day. The air is fresher and the possibilities are endless.  That is the gift on the other side.  But it is one of great price to these parts of us who have held on for so long and for good reason.  These continue to happen throughout the journey in our ascension, and the more we go into them the less they will occur as we keep the spiral going IN and UP.  

I honor and admire all of us that have been through this, are going through it, and are approaching it.  This time can be the most memorable of all as markers into your New You.  It is so incredible to be able to go through it with others that have been there and feel the true courage it took to make these challenging choices.  I hope to be a witness to them in any way possible.  It is the magic of death and rebirth that fuels the propellers of Life.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

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Guided Meditation Video To Soothe Ascension Body Symptoms, Connect With Mother Mary And Metatron, Comfort The Inner Child

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By Jelelle Awen

The process of ascension, of moving from 3D frequencies and consciousness states into 4D and beyond can be challenging and intense for our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies. The body symptoms that arise as we move from carbon based to crystalline can bring up overwhelm, disruption to our usual routines, and even emotional trauma. I have been feeling the intensities off and on in my body (increasing in the last few weeks) as there is a sense of fast tracking going on for those of us called to be wayshowers and love ambassadors during this time of change and transition. I write more here about the physical body changes and needs:  https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/03/22/i-want-to-come-along-the-transition-from-3d-to-crystalline-light-5d-body/

With the great sorting through and personal choice point that is going on at a galactic level (as I write about here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/01/a-time-of-great-choosing-fear-or-love-happening-in-the-now/), those of us choosing love through the ascension process are being offered support to hold space for ourselves with self love and care. Coming out of an intense head and neck pain experience, I was led during meditation to a pool of soothing water with Mother Mary. Mary offered loving comfort as I submerged in the waters and felt them enter into all of my chakras. I could also feel a residue in my inner child who is in transition from 4D to 5D crystalline (after many years of emotional process work with this energy), who needed Mary’s love and comfort and reassurance that all was going to not only be OK but MAGICAL and wonderFULL too.

This was such a soothing experience for me that not soon after, I felt a desire and encouragement to create this guided meditation to share with others. I created a brief outline for it before recording but most of it is ‘in the moment’ as I connected with the collective experience of those souls choosing love through the ascension process. I have been leading guided meditations during several group calls and this one puts together MANY elements that have come through during those calls that people have found helpful, comforting, powerful, and moving (and me too!).

Both Mother Mary and Archangel Metatron ‘show up’ in this meditation to provide a balance of feminine and masculine frequencies. The feminine frequencies of Mary help to balance out the intense more masculine activation tones that are coming through from photonic light rays. More about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/03/30/divine-feminine-energies-coming-in-to-balance-masculine-activations-sacred-feminine-blog-series/

It is experiencing and tapping into this balance inside that helps to sooth and ease the ascension symptoms. During this meditation, we also activate, clean, and purify the ascension chakras – including others beyond the main seven ones, bringing their frequencies of galactic connection through the stellar gateway, soul memory and other lifetime connection (plus connection to your Metasoul line or soul group) through the soul star chakra, causal chakra (back of the head, helps with dissolving the reptilian brain stem and activating the pineal gland) and others. As this energy moves through all of the ascension chakras, it is grounded into Gaia and purified by the loving waters. We also activate your violet flame/sacred human/5D human column or ‘violetprint’.

Offered here too, in this meditation, is space for the inner child, its healing and reactions, and connection with your emotional body. Mary especially holds space for this healing which is an important aspect of the ascension process….to not leave the inner child or other emotional body aspects behind yet to invite them into healing and integration as you rise. The invitation is about BEing open to feeling your feelings and reactions and not bypassing them or using higher vibrational frequencies to cover them over, yet to FEEL what is REAL in your emotional body.

Hope you enjoy this meditation and it brings a sense of Divine support from within and in connection with other too!

Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about joining us for group calls (and live guided meditations, plus teachings and individual sharings), space holding sessions for individuals and couples, individual and group retreats to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, writings, and more.

Music is from the Soothing Relaxation You Tube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCjzHeG1KWoonmf9d5KBvSiw

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Living Beyond Duty And Obligation

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By Raphael Awen

Is there a new and healthier way to relate to responsibility? ….that isn’t about the old ways of duty, sacrifice and obligation?

This question came up on the Men’s call Saturday as we felt into what does a man truly ‘showing up’ in life look like.

I’ve had to give this question a lot of space this life as I set out as a young man to really ‘do it right’ with choice and commitment leading over any kind of ‘wishy washy feelings’ hindering my progress. It worked really well for me and a solid self image around it provided me a strong sense of momentum and togetherness, and life direction, until,…it no longer did.

Decades later, I became very uncomfortable with doing what was right when it was more and more becoming evident, that I was living for the approval of some part of me, or living AS this approval seeking part of me. I could feel that between the dictates of duty and my own heart was a whole new ground I was being invited to enter.

I knew the choices I was about to make would not harm anyone intentionally, but I knew many would be unavoidably hurt. I concluded a marriage bond of 23 years and let it be known to my very Christian world that I no longer held Jesus as my personal saviour. There was hardly any larger of a dynamite that could have been placed under my world as I knew it, and yet I felt held by life and the divine to declare and walk out these new choices.

I remember telling friends and family that I no longer wished to live my life by the dictates of duty and obligation. It was very evident to me that my deepest heart and greatest gifts that I had to give the world were not out of synch with the deepest gifts I had to give myself. I knew the message that ‘self is bad’ was no longer working for me. I knew I wanted to live from my heart and I knew I wanted to make my own heart a beautiful place,…the ‘hearth of my own heart.’ Instinctively, I knew I was in fact opening my heart to friends and family for the first time, but that me saying such a deep ‘no’ to a previously agreed upon way of relating together would probably and understandably end the relationships.

This new way of relating to responsibility is a key piece denoting entirely different planes of existence. And it hinges deeply on not just the idea, but the deeply held emotional feeling ground that the self is bad. While this feeling world lives intact inside of us, it works like a free energy device generating a cohesive operating system to power and navigate life. When this inner ocean of inner self-unworth begins to be felt and nurtured by one’s own maturing and arising higher self, along with their conscious and arising more authentic self, one can only expect huge rumbles that will play out in their life as they know it.

So what then would the new operating system look like, that wasn’t based in duty and obligation? “Is it just giving in to doing whatever you want, whenever you want?” Is the usual question of protest that is raised by those feeling uncomfortable with even discussing this question.

Honestly, the short answer to that question, for me is simply ‘yes.’ The longer process around that question is learning more and more about what I actually want, even through the experience of doing it wrong, or even causing harm. Only by feeling what I truly want and what others truly want can I ever harmonize the love that I am with the love that the universe is. Only through ceasing to deny myself the love that I am can I cease denying the love that I am to another.

I need not make any longer case here about the difference between operating from heart vs. operating from a moral code, or self-imposed or society-imposed ‘shoulds’.You can feel this and don’t need to be convinced of it any further if it resonates for you.

What does bear feeling further in all of this though is the difference between how a ‘leading edge’ part of you can agree wholeheartedly, while another ‘trailing edge’ part of you, at the same time, can be very attached to living in the old dynamics. Being of two minds in this way is normal for most of present day human consciousness. Finding a way to bridge between these polarized parts of ourselves is our key to sanity, rather than just living in a default war between these parts of ourselves, or a default deadness survival pattern.

In this way, real sanity is feeling how a ‘split personality’ is true for all of us to significant degree under the layer of our presented-to-the-world self image of togetherness. Our deepest sanity isn’t about a forced external pretense of unity inside of ourselves, but rather a deep commune between each part of ourselves that is led by our arising authentic self who can be heart-present to every part of ourselves in a conflict.

In SoulFullHeart, we intimately get to know and feel parts of ourselves. We feel how they live and express in us in both wounded and healed expression. We hold a space for every part of us that arises in reactivity to life and relationships. Anything less than feeling how our conflicts live in us sub-personally (in our sub-personalities) in this way is simply another trip down the self improvement aisle of the bookstore by the very part of us seeking to change itself, while our authentic self isn’t yet awoken to its calling to lead our inner family.

And with our question at hand around duty and obligation, it’s here that the question really gets answered. Parts of ourselves can smell dutiful love a mile away and don’t buy it, and won’t respond to it. It is only through genuine curiosity and desire to feel that they will open out their world and secrets to us.

Only now as our inner world is felt in this way does our draw to spirituality, or awakening, or ascension become something that isn’t suspect as a medicative kind of reality covering over unfelt inner pain.

Only now can we embrace all of our-selves, from our roots to our wings, to be included in an awakening that doesn’t leave entire domains of our being untouched.

Only now can we more fully step out of duty and into our own heart as the sacred place that it is and always was.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

A Time Of Great Choosing, Fear Or Love, Happening In The NOW

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By Jelelle Awen

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This seems to be a time of great choosing. The greatness relates to the scale of it, the collective invitation that it IS, and, also, the depth of greatness that can be chosen through this process. This process is a sorting through and a sorting UP and a sorting OUT. An individual choice……species by species….whether to choose love or to choose fear as the main process ground of each individual’s consciousness reality. Each individual choice impacts the collective WE, of course, and yet the degree of impact feels like it is going to lessen significantly as the two groups (and maybe many more) sort out and diverge and splinter off.

To choose fear is to be in a shadowed place, a place of cloak, veiled existence, and not seeing clearly. It is a choice to remain asleep or to go back to sleep. Even souls who have identified as ‘awakened’ will be brought to a personal place of choosing love from a more pure ground, beyond unaware ego, and beyond self image attachment of their 3D self. They will be invited to feel into the source of their awakening and soul growth and if it is pure…. based in love or based in fear. Many may be surprised to feel that there is still unhealed shadow and even much fear within them that needs their love and attention, especially if they have bypassed this heart healing to soar in the skies.

Some souls still need this process of fear depending on what they have ‘signed up’ for to learn and grow. They need longer to ‘bake in the dark’, longer to drift, longer to be lost in the fog. This is not wrong and we can respond with love to them, not fear them or judge them because they are needing to make this choice. It is a sacred choice to remain in fear, a difficult one, and a sovereign and sacred one. One that we have ALL made many, many times in our soul’s journey.

For those of us choosing love (and you probably ARE or you wouldn’t be open to reading these words NOW), it is our phase of going in AND stepping up. Trusting more deeply that we are HERE in this NOW to serve love and to offer a way that is based on love. Choosing our emotional healing as a priority (for which the soul awakenings hold the space) and REALLY feeling all that blocks love flow in a very conscious way. Going in to our hearts and feeling how they are……seeking help and support from those who have been focusing on the healing of the emotional body as a key aspect of ascension.

It has been a struggle for those of us awakening and choosing love……perhaps for most of this life and other lifetimes too, yet, with this transition phase, it seems like it will get easier in some ways and already is. We will draw more and more other souls who are choosing love too and fewer and fewer who are choosing fear. We will move into leadership positions that fit us and ALL that doesn’t serve the purpose of serving love will fall away, almost without effort other than to digest what comes up in emotional reaction to these changes.

This seems to be a time of diversion. Timelines diverting off based on the choosing of this primary energy processing grounds of fear or love. This diverting energy looks like one of those overlapping freeways with on and off ramps going in different directions and streams of souls going down one flow or another.

For those of you sensitive to the cosmic grids (and your own inner grids), you may be feeling this branching off, diversion, sorting through. It can feel awkward and uncomfortable. It can show up in emotional reactions that are burst outs or lash outs or damping downs. It can manifest in body symptoms as a last pull down in frequency from parts of you that might still have fear. And that’s ok, the only energy that heals fear is love, so loving the parts of you that have fear AND the manifestations in your body is important right now.

What is eaten in the body seems to be VERY important too and was emphasized to me strongly this morning during the meditation journey where all this was offered to me by my galactic guides and aspects. Sugar is toxic and lowers the frequency for those of us choosing and showing love’s way, as is white and wheat flour, as is corn oil, alcohol, and meat. You make your own choices based on your body and process, of course, yet this guidance felt and seemed true for me and to me.

You can go visit the scene of this diversion and sorting if you would like to. It seems that those of us tuned into the violet flame energy (which is a merging or union of feminine and masculine frequencies in its new arising crystalline form) are very much needed right now. I was put in a position to form an energetic love bridge between the Reptilian “One” mind (which is diverting with many of them choosing love as I have written about before ) and the human “I” mind.

Yes, there have been many contentions and ‘battles’ and perceived enslavements between our species (we cannot truly be enslaved on the soul level as we choose ALL that we experience) and yet, we ARE them and they ARE us, so this was the energy inside of me that bridged between the two. I felt much move in this space for those souls who are ready to move into a love-based picture around reptilians and out of the old battle energy. Many reptilians feel not ready to choose love (along with many human souls) and so will go into a working through fear reality. The reptilians who ARE ready to choose love seem to have a beautiful, tropical planet in another galaxy to go to. And, those of us humans choosing love, get to experience more and more Gaia as a heaven as earth as our reality shifts to higher and higher frequency timelines.

There is much more I could write about all this, yet I’ll pause for now, and let this digest and perhaps reSOULnate with you as it will and as it is meant to. The one other piece I felt was that this violet flame energy (which really seems to represent sacred humanity in the moment as an arising energy of possibility as we ascend with healing hearts, bodies, and souls) can clear whole grids of fear at a time and dissolve inner matrixes as well. Ultimately, it is just another representation of the POWER of love to heal. As we embrace our CHOICE of love deeper and deeper and surrender to where it takes us, we experience the gifts of its healing and transformative power in our lives and in the collective. And it is not just a choice made once, yet over and over, moment by moment….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Whispers Of Yin

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by Kalayna Colibri

Yin Picasso

This stunning image is an oil painting by Pablo Picasso

The free-flowing

free-to-BE feminine.

 

In ALL her curves

uncontained, untethered, unchained

a Yin fireplace with no cap

a place for energy

to locate and rumble through

before it too flows onward

through the passageway

of allowance

encouragement

empowerment without icons

of false power.

 

To be worn loosely

without control

yet with the most exquisite

movements of unknown choreography.

 

There is no plan to the Yin dance.

No prediction so correct

no way of being so learned,

so educated, so minded, and bound…

 

Only free words on a page,

and unsaid in the air

in the energy of true lovers

in the worship and reverence

of the light between soul friends

sisters

student-teachers, teacher-students

brothers

and those kin who find their way.

 

The Yin is a journey

without beginning, end or in-between.

An arisement of forever ISness

and LOVEness

Lovely and beloved

yes

but also tepid, intrepid

curious, passionate

fiery when necessary

yet soft and supple at its

coreless, corsetless

core.

 

It cannot be packed into a bottle

or locked in a cage

wild and not

tame and yet still not

but an IS that cannot un-BE

and shall forever reign

rain

living, loving and dignified

in each self that claims

an arising desire for more of IT

for more of THEM

for more of that garden

of growth

and forever softening stillness.

 

The dance’s dancer, yes.

The musician’s music, yes.

The way of the no-way

and the inward-bound traveler

of perpetual flow

movement

and onward spiraling

in a circle of circles

and never-ending cycles

that change and upend

and give unto the weary

a renewed ember

of climbing fiery light.

 

There is no kNOwing, only kNOWing

this energy of all no’s and yes’s

that bring it all together

in any way it pleases

and any way it wishes

in support of your deepest

heart

and all it holds within it.

 

I am in your music.

I am in your words.

I am the co-creator

and the unknowing, unknowable

eager experimenter

wanting to help you SEE

what you can’t…

 

I am that energy you yearn for

quite often in your own mothers…

The inspiration, the beloved love

the core of all you wish for

I hold WITH you…

 

You are the one I call

each moment of awakening

waking up to see and feel

the intangible yet very real

YOU – Arising! Claiming!

BEing!

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Ready to Launch

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Inside the heart lie the propellers of our greatest flight.  They are covered over by the weight of our deepest wounds and fears of our darkest places.  They remain scattered among the soil of our emotional terrain.  If we truly wish to bring our most prized possession, our humanity, with us on this next phase of emergence, we will need to go the places that anchor this incredible power and potential.  

Like a spring that has been compressed, we hold our own version of kinetic energy.  Stored in our emotional body, cells, and DNA.  For men, I feel many of us are in conflict with that energy.  What does that power actually look and feel like outside the unhealed domain of fear and control?  The collective shadow of that control that we share and are not totally conscious of at its roots.  We are not responsible for moving that individually but it does exist inside of us to whatever degree it does.  What rage still resides inside of our hearts that has yet to be tapped into and loved with compassion and understanding?  

Without going in and seeking to feel the answers to these questions there is something of our most impassioned essence that leaves us in a state of stillbirth.  We can try some end run around this by focusing on mental pursuits or spiritual bypassing, but the heart will always bring us back to itself.  That is a definitive statement but it just feels true to me.  It has been true for me.  No matter where you go, there you ARE.

As men, we have this inherent need for quest and journey.  For creation and manifestation.  For exploration and expression.  The fire in the hearth of the feminine.  It aches to launch out into the cosmos of the soul with reverence and also abandon.  It will apologize later if it needs to.  There is a wildness that doesn´t follow the rules and seeks to tear them down.  To make bold claims and empowered choices.  The masculine is on a path of fully embodying the sacred pyre and seeking union with its feminine counterpart.  More than twins.  Two separate yet catalytic co-creators.  

This journey begins in the heart.  Lifting and loving those anchors off the propellers so the heart can fly WITH the soul with the body as its vehicle.  It is having a relationship with this aspects of ourselves that mitigates this endeavour of the arising wonder of the sacred masculine.  Who are we in our most enlightened state as we lighten the anchors inside?  I am on this path inside myself daily through the SoulFullHeart Way of Life as the portal to my highest expression.  It has served much growth inside me and desire to serve that to others who are feeling the swirls inside them as well.  The feeling of uncertainty or desire for more heart-centered conversation and expression.  
The men´s group call is a container for Raphael Awen and I, to lead a meditation and discussion into our masculine hearts, our connection to the cosmos, and our desire for love and romance with the queens of our feminine fancy.  It aims to be a great launching pad for our growing desire for community and brotherhood of heart. Both of us so look forward to going on this journey with you.

http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

On Showing Up

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By Raphael Awen

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Never before are we being asked to show up like we are right now.

But what does it mean to ‘show up’?

The show is the show of your life, as you know it right now, as its unfolding before you. It is who and what is in your face, in your inbox. It is who has your number. It is what’s happening in public and private.

There’s a new word in our culture for the disappearing act people play when they want to exit a situation without facing a goodbye. It’s called ‘ghosting’. ‘Love bite’ is another very real scenario where a couple meet and soar to some mega heights of intimacy and sexuality, only to have one party inexplicably exit the relationship, leaving the other devastated.

Until we face and complete a situation or a relationship, we haven’t grounded the lessons life was wanting to give us through that very real drama in the show of our lives.

But what would propel us to avoid such completions? Could it be that subconsciously we are simply afraid to go on to our next lessons? Like the now quite famous saying of ‘our greatest fear is not that we are small, but rather that we are great beyond measure.’

I so believe that we are in the school of coming to terms with our own greatness, and this is what is going on in our relationship playouts. Life is ever seeking to lead us to know, feel and integrate our own bigness, the infinite love that we actually are, but have willingly forgotten, in order to be remembered into an even larger version of ourselves from the us that chose and surrendered to the forgetting.

Life is ever seeking to take us out into the deep waters beyond the fear of our own greatness into entirely new terrains that consciously we have yet to be introduced to. Life provides the path and stepping stones for us, but it only works to the degree we are willing to show up for it.

Showing up is about knowing what you really and truly want, and being willing to claim that, and then being willing to show up further for any of the fallouts and fallins that occur because of that claim.

Showing up for anything or anyone in life is only real if it begins with truly showing up for yourself in this way. Many will expound the virtues of selflessness here as a way to mask their fear of their own greatness. Showing up for others when you are not showing up for yourself is actually a form of cocreated and mutual abuse between you and the person you are supposedly helping. It’s a pact of mutuality to stay safely small known as caretaking.

Then these ghosting and love bite scenarios are the only option that’s left for people when their self worth is worn too low to sustain any more perceived loss to that meager self worth.

All of this changes intensely however when one begins choosing this new integration of showing up for themselves. Simply becoming honest with oneself reverses decades and even lifetimes of self-disintegration.

Where is life asking you to show up right now? I feel I can promise you (hopefully without sounding too parental) that if you are willing to show up for your own desires in this way, life will meet you and grace you with all that you need to navigate that choice point. Your choices are a very literal portal into the next versions of yourself that life is wanting to birth in you.

I’m showing up for a men’s group call tomorrow and I want to invite you to show up for it as well if this juice and energy calls to you. The group calls we lead most weekends are about introducing a path that we call SoulFullHeart and I invite you to check out our website as fully as it calls to you at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The men’s group link for tomorrow is below (and there is a women’s group call that Jelelle is leading on April 15th..)

https://www.facebook.com/events/1123512704444039??ti=ia

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

From Scared to Sacred: Initiation of the Sacred Masculine

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If there was ever a time that we needed a new template for the sacred masculine, that time is now. But where could that come from and what would that look like?

The masculine is always and forever the Sacred Masculine. Masculinity itself is out learning its way into knowing and feeling its essence; an attribute of divinity, out divining its way, through you and I.

Masculinity, like femininity is a polarity of a duality dance, but when either polarity loses its polarity, it loses its attractive energy, its power, its appeal. It is neutralized, neutered, emasculated. It moved from the sacred to the scared. Afraid. Limp. Milquetoast.

That’s where we are now….at the edge of scared trying to see a path that will take us back to Sacred.

I don’t think we need a return to some refurbished tribal hazing ritual over a sleep deprived weekend in a large auditorium gathering of men, with men dressed in fatigues yelling at you like a military sergeant. It’s quite pathetic what we came up with to address this deep hunger for a masculine template. Nature abhors a vacuum, so something will always show up as a filler until something more is ready to lead.

So where’s the arena then? Where’s the training gymnasium? Where do we go to get what we never got, or lost along the way?

True masculine energy is a sovereign energy. It is a king leading his personal kingdom. True king power originates from the heart, and if this heart is anything, it is autonomous. It does what it wants to, when it wants to, and it lives with the results, be they healthy or unhealthy. The queen is no less sovereign, no less individual, offering her portal to the Kings quest for no other reason than she wants to…IF, she wants to. Duty and obligation in this domain of heart, have long given way to desire and choice.

You are already doing this, you just can’t see it. Your life as you know it right now is the perfect gymnasium asking you to show up. So many things await your awakening? So many choices await your decree. The ground of this erection of the true King energy is none other than your life, arising from the sacral chakra…Your life as you know it right now is the true arena, the only training gymnasium…awaiting both your heart-on and your hard-on…your choice, your action, your lead, your pursuit of what YOU actually want!

And you as a man are inextricably linked to all men. Each man is a fractal of every other doing and riding life in the same gender expression vehicle. Your inhabitation of your own sacred masculinity is your greatest gift to all men…and it’s automatic. The ground you gain becomes your gift to all.

You don’t need another man to give this to you, because no man can actually give this to you, but you may find, like I have, that I need an arena of life, with other men to lead this in myself.

If these words juice you and call to you, I’d like to invite you to be a part the virtual group call for men that I am leading with Gabriel Heartman this coming Saturday.

Message me and I’ll give you the details…gotta run, I have a life to lead…. 🙂 and a queen to pursue…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

A Heart-On For Sacred Romance

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Okay. So that was a little provocative.  That´s alright.  It was meant to be.  I feel like there is something in the masculine that wants to push some boundaries.  Get a little rise…sort of speak.  So some inner teenager gets to come out and play a little bit.  That is all part of the fun of self-discovery and exploration.  On the road to the Men´s group call on Saturday I felt compelled to feel into some writing about the masculine and was guided to just write about what is in my space as a man in the moment.  

It is a time of stoking the fire of romance.  Feeling what that really means as a man.  So much is written from a female’s perspective about romance and the desire to be in deep union.  For me, it is a new way of wanting to relate to relationship and union.  In my past I can feel how there were many unfelt and unhealed energies in my emotional body that made it difficult for me to be vulnerable.  To get into the messy of what was real.  Just wanting to be in a comfort place even if it really wasn´t comfortable.  Those days are no longer as I have been on a healing path for over 5 years now and feel way more Me here than I ever have.  A self-love that is wanting to overflow to another.

I feel that deep down all men want this too.  As vibrations are raising and Love showering down on us every moment, we can´t help but to feel this draw and desire.  To leave the old conditioning and patterns behind.  There is a need in the core of our soul to want to grow and expand.  It can happen at great depth on one´s own, but there is nothing like romance to turn on the afterburners and propel us into the reflection of some of our hidden places.  Now, don´t get me wrong.  I feel resistance from a part of me around that, but it is met with more desire to be vulnerable to that and let it work itself out in relationship.  Scars and all.  

There is an experience of life and ourselves as men that we just cannot have unless we are in a romance.  I really believe there is a phase we all find ourselves in when we have been hurt and just need the solo time.  But I don´t feel we were meant to be that way for long, unless the soul signed up for it.  I still feel in our human heart we want to feel transactable love with each other on a ground that is ever expanding and never stagnant.  The resistance to it comes from a protective part of us that has a very good reason for feeling the way it does.

Romantic love turns your world upside down. We just know that on some level and that is scary.  I have been beautifully upended twice in my life that found me making changes and feeling things a part of me never thought I would.  In the words of Kalayna Colibri, it ¨rearranges your furniture¨…and then moves your house to a different country altogether.  Your inner house gets lit up and some of the things you didn´t know were there or were hiding become highlighted.

In SoulFullHeart we see ourselves working our vertical self, the me to me, first.  Then there is the transactable horizontal ground between a man and a woman that we call the Usness.  This is the juicy place of all sorts of magic, emotionally, spiritually, and sexually.  This is the Merkabah that is created between two hearts and souls that can traverse galaxies and back again.  The kind of after-glow that can leave you in a fuzz for days.

I long for this kind of relationship.  I know that it is not all honeymoon but a concerted desire to be with all that comes up personally and in response to another.  It is an alchemical ground that offers so much in way of a true aliveness of being.  I feel there are other men that long for the same and the road there is through your own heart.  Though this was written from a single man´s perspective I feel those that are in current relationships can feel this in their own dynamic with their beloveds. What is it that we truly desire in our hearts and in romance with another?  

To my Queen, wherever you may find yourself, this was dedicated to you.   

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

An Inner Fireplace, Going Within, BEing with Self

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By Jelelle Awen

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A day spent yesterday of being with me, relaxing, feeling mellow, being more inward than outward, moving some lower frequency/subtle toxicities through…not my usual JOY and high energy frequencies yet these are good days too actually! A ‘recharge’ of the love batteries from going inside which leads to offering more in overflow to others, especially for our group call today and right NOW in this moment of shared creativity.

There are times where self space holding is not specific or something big to process, yet just a sense and commitment and desire of BEing with self. A true desire to BE with self, not an ‘obligation’ or ‘should’, but because there is NO ONE you would rather be with than yourself. Making space for self and not ‘giving out’ too much. Feels like an incubator space created for one that we can return to over and over again!

I was an only child growing up and also a ‘latch key’ kid and my birth parents didn’t get home often until late. So, I had glorious hours to myself after school and these were my moments to BE with self, to play pretend, to dance, to sing, etc. Sometimes I played with friends or hung out with others, but mostly I cherished this time to myself as it was for and with ME and it helped me digest the intensities of the day and from the dynamics of my birth family. In this way, I believe I chose to be an only child in order to build up this container of sense of gloriousness about self time. I rarely have experienced being lonely this life because of the sense of a rich inner world that has bubbled over into my life.

In 3D, everything is outside. There isn’t an internal incubator because everything vibrates from outside of self. There is no ‘there there’ inside and the inside is like an empty chamber yet with ping pong emotional reactions clashing around (largely unconscious) and soul karmic frequencies simmering and bubbling (again, largely unconscious). There isn’t a strong self love and awareness fireplace to hold the fires that come up and so ALL of what comes up in self gets burned in the process. There is smoldering fires and ash everywhere inside of the 3D self.

The outward focus then is seeking for things to entertain constantly, to divert constantly, to control constantly, to numb constantly in the 3D self as conditioned by a 3D world. It is a constant search by the 3D self for the NEXT activity, thing, person…that will maybe even provide ALL of these aspects of entertainment, control, diversion, and numbness. So much of 3D cultural expression is based on this unground NEED and, really, obsession with outside distraction.

A big aspect of 4D awakening is the awakening to SELF and the glorious pleasure of creating and experiencing a growing self fireplace and incubator. And less and less NEED for outside distraction, numbing, and diversion. You are more just content with what is inside and going inside through meditation becomes the entertainment ground with vast rich terrains opening up inside of you. Not used for distraction though but actually in order to feel, in order to heal, in order to grow, in order to INtegrate the soul.

The 4D self has ups and downs, deaths and rebirths, discoveries and integrations, yet it is held in a CONSCIOUS and AWARE context of growth and awakening. THIS is a big difference from the 3D unconscious letting life just happen and being reactive consciousness that draws drama after drama to be victim to. The 4D self more and more feels how everything that you experience OUTSIDE of you is a reflection from INSIDE of you.

In this growing lived-in truth is empowerment, is the completion of feeling like a victim and life is happening to YOU. This is the growing sense of trust and surrender to your connection with All That Is and Divine Source. This is the transition into the frequencies of unity-yet-individual consciousness that is 5D and beyond where the self is revealed through the peeling and burning away with self love ALL the layers of persona, self image, and 3D conditioning to REVEAL and REMEMBER the soul that is a fractal from Divine Source in human expression as Infinite Love….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.