Stewarding Your Future Self Through Feeling

‘You can have whatever you want, if you’re willing to really let the want live in you, change you, move you.’

This is the message that comes to me as I tune in my future self. It’s a lot to let in, isn’t it?

Our ability as a consciousness to host both desire and despair is one of the most unique things about our being. The life each of us has at present is very much formed of our desire and our despair, often however, without our conscious awareness. Even in our sleep we are creators.

If this is true, then getting familiar and relational with both our desire and our despair is profound life altering work. It’s also the kind of work that is so good that no aspect of it really wants to be skipped over to get to the destination. It’s the journey that our soul signed up for, because it always has had and never actually lost the destination.

If that’s true, then how do we become relational with our desire and despair to the point of being a conscious creator?

It’s kind of like the disillusioned couple sitting down to have finally have the heart to heart discussion they’ve been avoiding, previously hoping would just take care of itself somehow. Simply being honest first with oneself, then being trans-‘parent’ with another parents a new reality into being. Old completions and new beginnings are allowed to flow. Using one another to stay stuck and sequestered from life let’s go.

But all this can happen inside of you – you to you. You can feel the polarized parts of yourself each holding to different desires as well as undigested despairs. You choosing this emotional exploration inside is the true leadership you’ve been waiting and wanting to inhabit for yourself. This is high level ambassador work that truly changes the life you are currently living.

If feeling this awakens your desire and despair, then I feel you can take that as a sign that your future self is wanting your attention. Your own knower knows this is true. Now it’s just a matter of responding to it.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Feeling Your ‘Circum-Stances’ And Desires With Your Inner Masculine

The ‘circum-stances’ of your life as you know it today is literally a standing stone circle of what you know as your ‘surroundings’.

Like Stonehenge is a wonder of how it came to be, so is this personal circle – created as both a mirror and a portal by parts of you and your Metasoul aspects. A mirror that tells the honest truth of what is, how it came to be, and a portal (Merkabah vehicle) to what honestly wants to be.

When you feel and bridge to the polarity of both your desires and despair, coming from your parts and Metasoul aspects, you create sacred movement to new circumstances that you are now willing to dream as possible; that you were willing to feel the IMpossibility of; and bridge between. You make the discordant resonant.

Your Inner Masculine wants to get on with this new mandate, but may feel stuck and in need of your heart presence and awakening. Settling for a spirituality that makes desire bad, or ‘of the ego’ is one sure way to neuter your Inner Masculine, who is so deeply needed right now. Just ask your Inner Feminine is that’s true. ‘De-sire’ literally means ‘from the sire’. What is your masculine wanting to sire into your life? Is your Inner Feminine ready to dance?

Your Inner Masculine wants to get practical – wants to engage in doing, acting, effecting and accomplishing, and he wants to dance with and do it for your Inner Feminine – how do you express that as you ascend out of 3D and move towards 5D?

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@kmitchhodge

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Separation Facilitates Reconciliation

The last thing you want right now is to be perfectly centered.

Airplanes reach their destinations by continually going off course and then course correcting. It’s the wobbling through center and coming back, just like each stroke on a bicycle that affords us balance and forward propulsion.

We actually need the deviation as much as the correction – both are sacred and both are necessary. You and I are holy deviants who have deviated out from love and light even into darkness and hatred to whatever degree we needed to as a soul, on behalf of love, and as love, so that we could experience reconciliation.

Separation facilitates reconciliation. And it’s in the transaction of love being reconciled to itself that it obtains the prize it set out for in the first place.

You can feel this inside yourself and in the collective, both, especially as we prepare for the revelation phase of darkness coming to light.

Remember, love never lost, hence no need for any holy war, not inside or outside.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

‘Apocalypse’ Can Be Self Lovingly Negotiated

by Raphael Awen

Who’d have guessed that we’d have both Armageddon as well as New Earth playouts/narratives underway at the same time, all the while being collectively stuck bored at home?

Feeling the part of you that doesn’t quite know what to make of all this, even if you are on the inside track to ‘what’s really going on’, feels really important as we nurse and hold ourselves through this birth canal.

I find that the more inside knowledge I track, have or adopt, the more questions I also have, and that makes for discomfort for a part of me, understandably so.
The calls for breathing and patience are renewed every hour, in response to the impatience and ache for what wants to come.

Standing in line outside at Whole Foods yesterday, doing the 6-foot thing, I made it to the front of the line and watched a guy hurriedly walk out with a basket of groceries without paying. It felt like someone hungry and out of money who said ‘fuck it, I’m going for what I need’.

How much more of that will we witness as people check out of the game they’ve played, as they feel the game around them crumble?

How will your world fare as the world around you goes through its necessary death and rebirth pains?

Those external questions can’t really be answered, except with new questions that can be answered internally.

What parts of you are checking out of the games they’ve played and supported in 3D?

How will you support that movement in self-loving and negotiated ways?

What new games truly worth playing can you offer them?

This gets really practical and personal for each of us, and it needs to. Life, money, needs, relationships, all of it is undoubtedly changing.

Apocalypse can be self lovingly negotiated to the degree you are willing to lean into life and love and show up for the parts of you in turmoil. The turmoil is a transmutative portal.

Much love,
Raphael Awen

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Please join Jelelle Awen and myself this coming Wednesday for week two of our 6-week, by donation, Free To Be Group Call series, where we’ll be speaking about ‘navigating practical transition with your inner masculine’.

More here:
https://facebook.com/events/s/free-to-be-virtual-group-call-/1095703640763727/?ti=icl

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@peterlaster

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Co-Creating The World We Dare Dream For Ourselves

by Raphael Awen

It feels so strange to consider the possibility that there isn’t actually a dividing line between reality and imagination.

The imagination is kind of like the movie writer and director who did such a great job, that all they needed to do was remove the end credits, and the viewers seamlessly slipped into another timeline of reality.

Make no mistake, the reality you and I love in, personally, collectively, globally, galactically, is completely ‘made up’ and not at all ‘real’ in the sense of what we mean when we use that word. In other words, It’s a reality being generated from somewhere. Reality and imagination are just opposite ends of the same measuring stick, and that stick is essentially you, along with me and the rest of us.

We lean into and adopt a given reality as independently true when that reality is completely dependent upon the imagination that generated and continues to uphold the projection we call reality. The movie reel is the imagination. The movie projector is also the imagination. The viewer is also taking in the imagination and then co-creating and co-signing ‘reality’, which in turn spawns new imaginations, a bunch more layers of creative reality projections to support the first assumption that reality is just real, and then the illusion becomes quite watertight and we have the experience of losing our awareness that we are making all this shit up!

And if we are making all this shit up, then we can change the recipe and make big ol’ batches of heaven instead.

I can think of favorite foods and get a physiological response to happen in my body. You can too, right? I certainly can dream romantically and sexually and have that take me somewhere, quite exquisite actually. Right? So what else is yet untapped in our working knowledge of employing the imagination to create the new reality we might dare to dream?

If any of this is accurate, we may well ask yet an even deeper question; ‘What would then prevent us from assuming our power and getting on with creating the world we dare dream for ourselves, the world we dare dream for one another?’ I don’t believe it is simply a lacking of awareness of our creative power. We are ignorant of it, yes, but there’s something underneath that willful ignorance. We need something more, more than the message that we are the creators.

What I feel that ignorance and something more to really be about is our inability to bear joy and sorrow. Joy and sorrow are the open-ended extremes of being alive in polarity. You can’t have one without the other. You only find and know love to the degree you are willing to be vulnerable to losing that love. What’s so great about having a child, for instance, is the knowledge that you could lose that child, and if not to death, then simply to growing up. That’s the knowing that affords you the reverence you need to afford you truly ‘having’ in the moment. The dream of having a child truly comes alive when you feel the vulnerability and even guarantee of losing that child. We then enter the moment where all gain and loss occurs and we experience awe and reverence.

The universe doesn’t spare anyone of us with any guarantee of the present remaining unchanged, or that we won’t lose; only insurance policies attempt that trick, which is akin to trying to purchase something you already own but are unaware of. Instead, the universe promises you, that you will lose what you gained, and therein are you afforded the grace to really be with the joy of having, and when you’ve had all the having you can handle, you enter the grace to let it go and to allow it to return to the abundance from whence it came – and you don’t actually ‘lose’ in this process of loss, because you are this joy, you are this sorrow. To be human is to sign up for joy and sorrow, for winning and losing. What game is any fun that you are guaranteed to win every time? The only ‘real illusion’ of security is the one you create for yourself being held in the arms of infinite, unending love, come what may. You are love and only love can’t win or lose anything because love is All and always will be. The imaginations and their created realities are all expressions of this unchanging love. Love couldn’t change itself, so it chose the next best thing, to create the illusion of loss, through which to expand itself and know itself more.
We are in these throes of everything changing, and when you feel it internally, it doesn’t really matter what’s changing or not changing externally. You can dial up anything you need to be in love, to be in light, to be in love’s embrace, to be in love’s radiance.

This, in turn, makes for a pretty exciting new dance ground for your inner feminine and inner masculine to show up for. Sex and love are only reverence and awe taken to higher heights.

These are the times we created for ourselves, personally, nationally, globally and galactically. Time now to invite your dreamer forward if you haven’t already.

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Join Jelelle Awen and I for a six-week group exploration over Zoom that started this  past Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many. You can offer a donation for the entire series or just one at a time.

You can join us live and you also receive the recordings after every call and can watch them at any time after the calls if you cannot make it live.

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

We look forward to connecting deeper with you! If you have any questions, please email Kalayna Solais at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or send her a message via the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life Facebook page.

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@anniespratt

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

You Are The Insider Truly On The Inside

by Raphael Awen

In the end, what parts of us really need to know is how you are relating to the unknown, so they can settle into your holding of it.

With so much information swirling right now about what’s really going on behind the scenes; what’s coming next and when, it can get really intense for parts of you trying to track and predict, which in turn amplifies the underlying anxiety. Then, the further you get into trying to be informed, there’s all the crediting and discrediting going on about whose info is correct and whose isn’t, that you have to wade through.

The information you really want and need is that which comes from within. From within, there is a core feeling place that you can connect with and from which you can navigate sudden and even big change. Without that connection, all the knowing in the world won’t amount to much.

With this heartfelt connection, there is a palpable beauty beyond compare, that you get to feast on and radiate superabundantly to others. You get to have your Golden Earth now, amidst the shakeup, the collapses, the deaths and rebirths. You get to be right on time, in the deeper knowing. You get to be the insider truly on the inside!

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Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six- week group exploration over Zoom that started on April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW from our USness to YOU,
Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

Here is a recent livestream with Raphael and I to give a sense of what the group calls will be like: https://youtu.be/cPRr6d1pxBw

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@koullislp

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Empowering The Inner Masculine, Feeling What You Really Want

by Raphael Awen

Time now to think about everywhere you’ve given or are giving away your power.

Remaining in unaddressed anxiety over money or debt, under its suppression, is giving away your power.

Remaining loyal to an old set of values thinking that is one’s path to the good life or a better life is giving away your power.

Remaining grounded in someone else’s truth that isn’t yours (ie. all social pretense of dead relationships, compliance with others or the government’s rules or laws, that oppose your truth is giving away your power.

What do you really want?

How are you going about owning that?

Who really knows your truth? Who needs to know it? Who doesn’t?

This is the empowered masculine arising within you. He knows that in the end, you can and will have what you actually want. He just needs reassurance that you are ready to have the truer things of what you really want. He doesn’t want to be your downfall. He doesn’t really want a shitstorm of reaction either from any part of you that might well get upset about losing their comforting game of victimhood. He wants to provide and he wants to be acknowledged. That’s what he’s built for. It’s up to you to lead the show, and then he can show up for a game truly worth playing.

You host this new game by beginning to feel what’s really going on inside, awakening your Inner Masculine, and awakening a swooning Inner Feminine. From there, anything and everything will change at a pace that can be negotiated and self-loving, without needing to disown anything, without needing to deny anything.

This is the opportune time that is here now where the game isn’t only changing but being reinvented by you and I as we come to terms with what we really want.

Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six-week group exploration over Zoom starting next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

“You Are Moving Into Love’s Reply To The Darkness” – Yeshua

by Raphael Awen

Raphael – Yeshua, this is Raphael. I’d sure like to ask your take on this Corona Virus reaction around our planet.

Yeshua – Hey, Raphael. Thanks for asking, but what is your question more specifically?

R – I feel how surreal this all feels for me personally. I feel parts of me wanting to stay ahead and be in the know of what’s really going on, and I feel reality itself being changed on so many levels. I feel hope for a true new world order of things and yet, I also feel how deep the conditioning goes around living under the taken-for-granted oppression that has been here my entire lifetime. How do you see all of this from where you are?

Y – I say ‘pinch yourself’ man! This is real. It is what has been longed for, for so long. The longing is and was part of the manifestation, so was the suffering and the deep darkness – all of it is connected and vital and all of it is love’s awakening journey. Love couldn’t be known, not to itself and not to an other, were it not for fear and what is called evil. Evil itself, and harm originated when love birthed both duality and other out of its original state of oneness. Love needed both contrast and ‘other’ to know itself.

R – It was hard to type those words just now, that harm and evil originated from love. I can’t see that being very popular of a message, Yeshua. Aren’t we intended to right the wrongs, to stand for the good, and oppose hate, fear and harm?

Y – Raphael. You were birthed into duality and individuality out of oneness, but you never were separated from love in the process, it only felt like that, understandably so. The great fall was a fall in perception, yet all too real at the same time. The great awakening is equally an awakening in perception, that similarly creates a new reality.

R – But Yeshua, the pain, especially to the innocent children feels so off the charts, so evil…

Y – The children are the greatest testament and trigger to the awakening – there are so many tears that are needing to be cried and cried.

R – I recall the text where you told the disciples ‘Suffer not the little children to come unto me, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.’

Y – Heaven has registered every last price paid in this awakening journey of love itself to itself. The children, like we all were, and yet are still at heart, are heaven’s biggest debtors and creditors both. Those who have suffered the most will know the greatest fullness and all will be forgotten and forgiven. Their debt will not and does not go unacknowledged. It simply cannot. When ‘evil’ makes a stride, it invites love to meet it. You are moving into love’s reply to the darkness that has held a long and deep hold.

R – So it’s like then, the evil or harm is the agent of love, the agent that calls love forward?

Y – This is so new to feel, and even new to me, so don’t feel bad. I had a big deal investment into fighting the evil for a long time too, until I no longer did. It’s a big, big piece to awaken to, but when you do, it changes the foundation of everything. It’s all love. There is no evil in the sense of something separate from love.

R – …but there’s still big contrast…

Y – …bigger than ever…

R – …in this heightened drama of duality

Y – …where love is wanting to complete what it started, where love IS completing what it started, where love itself is suffering, where love is birthing an expansion of itself, a reconciliation to itself, and you get to watch it all, and be a part of it all….and even more, You are this unfolding. It’s all you.

R – You’re like too much sometimes, but in a good way.

Y – I’ll take that as a compliment then.

R – Thanks, Yeshua. You always help so much!

Y – Good! Stay in touch!

R – I will!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth That We Actually Are

by Raphael Awen

When the old game gets boring and no one really wants to play it anymore, the game itself wants to die, but struggles to do so because people keep showing up trying ever harder to keep it alive.

The game itself is a living thing that takes on a consciousness of its own because of all of the consciousness that is invested into it. Money is maybe one of the starkest examples of this – a game created by us, as we mutually agree to a set of rules, and as we then try to abide by those rules, that game then takes on a life of its own and becomes a mediator of life. We speak in homage to money when we say things like ‘you can’t live without money’, when in fact money and physical life have no correlation other than the one we created for it in our perceptions of the importance of money, thus giving it god-like status.

The money game we currently play is built on mountains of debt that are so far beyond repayable, no one wants to talk about it, because to talk about it is to acknowledge and look at the ending of the game, the end of us. Games are toppling all around us. The social games we play of showing up for people we don’t actually like or no longer relate to life in any kind of shared values is another game that aches for its end, but struggles to find. The spiritual games of giving our power away to an outside of us authority in some form of a guru-devotee dance is another. The emotional games of trying ever harder to stay away from what we really feel is another. One crumbling game is intertwined with another.

Something wants to die and it’s call keeps getting louder and louder. Something within also wants deeply to live and thrive at the same time.

How do we relate with both?

When we accept that the time for denial is complete, we move through the stages of grief, to feeling our anger, our fear, our need, and eventually to acceptance and even thriving in a new reality.

Nature demonstrates this process of death and rebirth over and over again. When we feel how life can’t actually ‘die’, but can only change, we accept at a deep core level our own relationship to being life itself – in movement with death and rebirth.

The ‘infestation’ of the tiny Pine Beetle in North America’s forests in recent decades is a powerful example of this. It was and still is seen through a 3D lens as a blight, a scourge, a VIRUS that is killing our precious forests and economy. Many attempts to stop its advance were made and failed. Then came along some people who were willing to look at and feel the problem from a higher place of awareness. They learned that the Pine trees in North America were and are in a state of stress brought on by the warming climate. Then they learned and proved that the trees under stress actually emit a physical sound and they recorded it. Then they realized to their utter amazement that what the Pine Beetle actually was, was likened to an agent of an assisted suicide. The Pine trees pined for their own death. The Pine Beetle heeded their call in such astonishing numbers that seemingly came out of nowhere.

I believe this so speaks for what is going on for us collectively and individually. What once felt very sustainable and comforting no longer is. Parts of us want to die and exit. Other parts of us fear death. Other parts of us so want to thrive. Only as you are willing to feel each of these parts of you are you able to navigate a truly responsible life, by your response to what now undeniably is.

The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.

You get to be in your highest calling now, even sustain your life through sharing your deepest gifts of life. Just when you couldn’t find the courage to quit your day job, life came along and killed it for you. Now you get to explore what you really want now! You get to have fun and you get to play! Your day job might return, it might not, but you will be in a new flow that you longed for more than you realized.

How did we ever think it was sustainable to exchange something less than our most passionate living and loving in exchange for money? We thought that because it seemed true enough for a long time, but that’s changing now – ‘dying’ now, as you and the parts of you that makeup ‘you’ are called to an emergency meeting to feel and explore a stark new emerging reality.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.