Category: Conscious Community

I Want To Shake Men

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By Raphael Awen

I want to shake men.

I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.

I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.

I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.

As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.

There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.

You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.

It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?

Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.

I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.

It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.

This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.

I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.

But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.

So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.

Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.

No pressure, and all that! 🙂

I love you and I need you and I want you!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We are currently offering a free intro session (to men and women) for those considering entering regular session space with us. If you are interested, let us know and we’ll send you some things we’ll ask you to read and a few questions to respond to, to further help you see if this is or isn’t what is calling you. More details on that are here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Uniting Without Diminishing – The Masculine And The Feminine

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By Raphael Awen

I’m finding myself wanting to blend the masculine energies of choice, intention and action with the feminine energies of intuition, resonance and inspiration as Jelelle Awen and I feel through (feminine) and sort out (masculine) some new directional pieces for SoulFullHeart.

We are finding people being drawn to us who feel a huge resonance factor with us, our writings etc, along with all kinds of intuitions about a deeper connection with us, yet often not taking a next grounded step towards what we offer.

It felt really important to not make this about ‘them’ as that just puts us in a victim/defensive/reaction place, but to instead feel into what is the universe asking us to feel and choose in the midst of this….as an opportunity.

This week, we felt guided to offer a free ½ hour intro as a way to bridge interest, and already this is proving to be a really informative exercise, that several people are choosing. On the one hand, I don’t really want to be ‘inundated’ with doing free intros where we simply just hang out in some good vibes together that don’t really amount to anything. But on the other hand, really helping people bridge their interest and intuition to some further choice points would be really rewarding, and I can feel myself loving it.

This highlighted the need to ask deeper questions about what we want and why, and how only from such an inquiry could we come to structure some guidelines about what we want with people, how to lead with that and how to be in that.

We know, through our own personal years of work, that we have opened our hearts deeply, and offered session space to others along with naturally arising community around that, but we are also feeling the opportunity and desire to take that to new places of structure and increased numbers where the masculine and feminine both get to come out and play in a way they couldn’t before; where the pure service of love is served by the ingenuity and balance of system and clear objective; feeling what’s working and what isn’t, and asking why.

We’re in some brand new places and it feels important to be transparent about it (as we trans-’parent’ a new way of life into being for people) as well as invite those who are feeling their choice points to contact us and enter this space of alchemy together, being really clear about what we want.

If this movement rhymes with a heart and soul movement you are having, you might want to check this out deeply and you can do just that at the link below.

Much love,

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Declaring Your “I AM”, Letting Go Of The Past To Let In The New: Ceremonies During The Eclipse Energies And BEyond

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By Jelelle Awen
We are gathered together at 1:11pm in our small circle while others come together in private and public circles all over the world during the height of the solar eclipse energies yesterday. We create a grid on the floor of our most BEloved crystal and stone friends, plus sacred geometric shapes that ‘speak’ to us without words. Letting our intuitions guide us, we open our hearts and souls to whatever moves through us as we tap into the growing collective desire for illumination, awakening, disclosure, peace, abundance, and unity. The growing manifestation of NEW Gaia…..
 
Our hearts and souls aligned in tones and frequencies that go beyond words and five sensing reality……we feel our individual desires and BEings even as we connect as ONE…the ‘me’ in the ‘we’, we come together in this now to declare, to advocate, to tap into our highest timeline as individuals AND as a commUNITY. Light language pours from our mouths and we understand each other beyond reason…..our bodies move in unison…we taste in these moments the unity consciousness of which we already ARE.
 
The pasts we’ve shared together…the couplings and the pairings, are fading away as we arise into the NEW. BEloved histories we honor…….all the shared moments that form bonds, ties, and connections between us. We say out loud what we want to let go of in order to let in the New and what the New means for us and as a community too. We feel the hearts and souls of others ‘in the room’ with us even if they are not physically present….their passions and desires to join us aligning to create a brand new alchemy and possibilities.
 
Powerful “I AM” statements move from our lips into the frequencies of All That Is and so they BEcome in the naming. Eventually, we complete our ‘formal’ circle to go into our days again, feeling the sacredness in ALL moments where we get to share life together with so much love holding every interaction. ~
 
This was our ‘ceremony’ yesterday during the eclipse energies. I feel honored to have been part of it, to lead in whatever ways felt right, and to lean into the group energy too! This is New Earth leadership….to take responsibility for the vision, for care and harm, to energize the NEW and honor the old WHILE supporting, empowering, sharing, inviting, responding, and collaborating WITH every soul joining WITH yours.
 
The eclipse energies continue today and for awhile it feels like….creating a sense that ANYTHING is possible if claimed, named, energized, and choice points followed through. Clarities gained through self discovery and going in feel like they are now leading to more sense of next steps and action toward manifestation of your highest timelines…..maybe not action until September but things are bubbling up more.
 
What has felt overwhelming starts to feel possible…one step at a time, feeling the fears of parts of you and the desires too. You can feel the support of the Universe, your galactic aspects, the BIGGER picture that puts into perspective the choices that can feel daunting otherwise. You can feel too the letting go that leads to the letting IN….this helps with the mourning, the deep feelings of loss….so trust can come in, surrender and love too!
 
Now is a wonderful and powerful time to declare your “I AM” statements of bigger personal embodiment. Name what you want to continue letting go of in order to let in the NEW. Claim what the NEW is so the Universe can hear you, feel you, and respond to you…..and so IT IS and will BEcome!
 
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We are now offering a 30 minute free intro session with SoulFullHeart Facilitators who are working with new people (both men and women)…with my BEloveds Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. You can read more about sessions here and contact them via the website or on FB if you’d like to find out more! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Arising Sacred Masculine Within A Sacred Feminine Offering

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This is what is means to be in SoulFullHeart community.  I am inspired, awed, and amazed at what I get to be a part of.  What I have chosen to surround myself with in order to heal, grow, and create.  I see the world through a lens that is so unlike anything out there and is constantly shifting and evolving.  I get to see myself in a way that is unlike what I have seen or felt myself to be in the old dimension of consciousness.  There is not a day that goes by that some thing alive is happening to others that sparks a corroborating energy in me. It is community on HIGH and is just keeps its dedication to more, to real, and to love.  To More Real Love.

But this Love is not just bliss and sparklers.  It is about feeling the edges and depths of what is next up on the healing docket.  This is not shadow hunting but a real time bubbling up of emotion that is not supported to be repressed, but lovingly guided to arise in its own time.  As one person is feeling something there is an effect among the group as we are all connected.  As my good friend Raphael is moving through arising layers of suppressed truth-telling, it begins to activate mine.  This one entry way then opens itself up to a greater QUESTion of what it means to be masculine in a very feminine offering. It brings up some angst and curiosity along the way.  It rumbles and shakes something in to uncertainty, of which the unhealed masculine is not native to.  It has chosen certainty in the name of control.

But underneath that maintenance lies a caged animal.  A fire that is wanting to make shit happen and blow things up in an attempt to get to a bedrock of something real.  There is a violence in that when not tempered by the feminine within and without.  Hence being in community with the sacred feminine is what brings a clarity to it as well as the hashing out.  I had personally sent my animal into a quarantine when my daughter was a young age so as to not have that energy in my field as a father.  Before that I had a very huge temper and was pissed off a lot.  As a child it was an embarrassment to my family when it came up in very immature ways.  It was a soul angst and a learned behavior from my father, who had the legacy of it from his father.

The essence of this energy is passion and truth-telling.  It is about alchemizing and manifesting.  It is about being in union with the feminine to light up the Love Shack we call Gaia.  But the suppression is wounded and angry.  I chose to find a more Zen part of me to assuage the energy so that I could be more acceptable to another part of me seeking something nice and normal.  Well, as this part of Raphael has been done with this dynamic, I feel it rumbling this part of me too. It exists in many men I believe as well.  I know there are many that are more outed than others, but I feel this reverberates through all masculine hearts, both in men and women.  What we experience in community is also happening in the collective heart of humanity.

So this is a post about the arising sacred masculine, that is in a continuing birthing state in us all.  It is a journey from an old way of doing life to a new way of being in life.  It does scare some parts of me as the unleashing of the animal within does bring an concern of what will come out, but this is all held in a heart that has been working the shadow for the sake of love, so what does come out will be felt in its entirety and hold itself accountable.  It will not harm but it may just hurt.  Hurt is mendable with an sincere and open heart.  This is the reminder I give to this part of me.

This is also about community and relationship where all of this gets to be played out and realized in its fullest breadth.  I get to engage in romance that brings out different tones that go deeper that just soul friendship, as powerful as that is.  I feel like I am showcasing what it means to be in this SoulFullHeart community.  It is what is possible for all humanity.  There is a huge desire among us all for more hearts and souls to add to this incredible wealth of healing and loving.  It is why we continue to write and offer to others. We want more tribe members that just feel what it is that is possible even if there is uncertainty on what it all means.  Others are doing the same taking their questions and fears with them.  We want the passion of others who want to serve it to the world first from within and then out.

In this new era of letting in more of what I want, I want to serve this love to you.  I want to invite you experience what I experience everyday because it is out of this world…literally! I want others to reflect to me and inspire me to be more than a part of me thought I could ever be.  New hearts bring new vision that we didn’t otherwise see or feel before.  We get to play in a safe container that allows for real growth and real love, even if it may not feel that way to parts of us.  The vulnerability of that is the safety.

Okay, so that is what was in my heart today.  It is what comes through being in this incredible union of heart and souls.  It is the energy of the eclipse making its way through my veins and into my heart.  I claim me as I claim you to be a part of this epic ride called SoulFullHeart.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Embracing Our Multi-dimensionality

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By Raphael Awen

When we put a cap on what we think we know, we reveal ourselves to be the fools that we are.

For we have been fooled, mesmerized by the one dimension at hand to the exclusion of the infinite other dimensions that are.

Herein lies our ennui, or complete lack of awe, wonder and reverence. Truly, in a single dimensional world, there is little to revere for creatures as multidimensional as us.

Our human expression in the 3d reality is real, but only as far as one reality among many, many more.

Doesn’t this want to make you cry for how we have been hoodwinked as long as we have? Doesn’t this want to make you cry for the masses that are not yet ready to see and feel this?

Before I get too depressed about this state of affairs, I hear my guides saying that this was the way it needed to be. There is all the time in the world actually for as long as we need to be mesmerized by a single dimensional ‘reality’. This can’t help but run out of gas for us in time, and when we do awaken, we will awaken fully, having invested so fully, that we are ready to divest and let in our next ‘realities’.

I am at present being introduced to a metasoul aspect of mine from Sirius, named Ceylon, a counterpart mate to Jelelle’s metasoul aspect named Sela, both of whom feel feline, a lion and lioness. They both embody an attainment of being that feels so much ahead of my experience this life, that now wants to integrate with my conscious ‘reality’.

As I write these words publicly, I feel a hesitation from a part of me to sound this ‘out there’. This so highlights our hesitation to go to any of our multidimensional capacities…in that we fear no longer belonging to the world around us that we made our beloved home in for as long as we have.

Of course we fear that! Did you think embracing our multidimensionality would be a walk in the park? It’s not so much a spiritual attainment of some guru like status at all. We’ve made it out to be that in order to obscure our real fear…our fear of no longer belonging.

We all have a bunch of strange experiences to have and then to find others to share them with. Choosing to embrace all of our selves, whether a metasoul aspect, or really getting intimate with an inner emotional aspect of ourselves will have repercussions in our social world, beginning of course with our most intimates.

Here we come to see how deeply all of us are en-cult-urated and how those pointing fingers and crying ‘cult’ are the ones deepest in their own cult. We get to be multi-cult-ural!

I’m liking my cult, and I’m admitting it’s a cult (just not a harmful one), what about you and your cult?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Lion’s Gate: The ‘Roar’ Of Your Intention Comes Alive Now

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by Kalayna Colibri

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When you can set your intention like a beacon love for yourself, and hold that it IS possible though for parts of you it may feel impossible, this is what brings about the changes that you are asking for and holding out for. It is not an accident, that conversation you’re having with another about what you most want deep inside of you. It is a care-filled conjuring of what is right for you, what needs to come to and through you next…

For me, it is about embodying adulthood in a deeper way than I have been able to before, though I have technically been an ‘adult’ for many years now. It is not age that matures you or offers you wisdom, it is your willingness to go inward, to find and feel your heart even when it is in shadows and seems covered in infinite brambles and sharp vines. Your protector has worked hard to keep parts of you in a sort of stasis, to keep you in a level of heart-immaturity and with good reason too… how can a heart, like a beautiful, tropical fruit or flower, ripen or open in conditions where it isn’t being nourished?

I feel like the seed of my truest heart was planted many years ago and transplanted over different phases of seeking and healing. Finding the SoulFullHeart soil has helped me in countless ways, to bring my soul and gifts to fruition and deep awakening. It does feel like this Lion’s Gate portal opening today and all month, is here to help us plant and cultivate, reaping rewards while feeling ourselves and our needs on all levels. It is a maturation process that is ultimately about our Ascension and is also about reconciling who we have been, who we are now and who we most want to be.

Today feels like it could be a day where some feel the need for an outbound ROAR! that comes up from the bowels of everything they’ve long held and no longer wish to. It is the ROAR! of an inner protector that is DONE or wants to be done, it is the ROAR! of your precious inner teenager who has held so many years of rebellion or perhaps an avoidance of rebellion in order to conform and find safety or find ways to buck the system. It is the ROAR! of a deeper awakening on the inside that gets to come outward, finally.

Today also feels like for some it will be a day of a quiet roar inside, of a sweeter inner collapse that means parts of you are ready to be stiller now, to let you in more now, to lay on the soft grass of healing, snuggling with the rest of the inner lions in your Pride. This is the softer ‘roar’ of arrival into a higher place where the battles are done and the much needed rest time can happen… this is the roar of your long awaited healing and maturation process, where you can play more and feel more of your belovedness, though sometimes the roar of boundary setting with others or even with parts of you may still need to happen from this place.

No matter what the blessed ‘roar’ of inner change you are embodying today, it is ALL sacred, and you ARE arriving at a new place in yourself and in your life. Your intentions are ringing clearer and your drive to continue healing and loving is what is setting your sails now for new horizons of self and connection with others.

LOVE to you on this glorioUS day… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Loving The Less To Know The More

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By Raphael Awen

The secret to letting-in the more we desire is about feeling and even loving the less we presently have. I can’t healthily embrace more without owning the less.

Without a relationship with more AND less, I am left polarized and stuck to more, and unable to move in flow with true abundance.

In my life, I have known a decades long relationship with having stuff, and accumulating more stuff on top of that stuff, along with all the stress and ingrained push-pull fear of losing that stuff. Then, in the last number of years, I chose to embrace a conscious relationship with how I was relating to my stuff, which led to a number of natural and guided choices to let it go, including leaving behind a 30 year ‘lucrative’ career. I remember and even miss at times many of the material goodies of the old life, but what I am really feeling is how they were taken for granted and couldn’t be let in for the love that they were. In a very real way, you could say that I was immune to abundance while living in it. Now, at present coming to know less, and even love this less, I am afforded a previously missing piece to truly coming to know abundance intimately.

Over holding material or non-material forms of love can be likened to resisting breathing trying to keep our lungs full of air for fear of not finding our next breath. We are left in stasis and unable to move.

The secret of so called ‘anti gravity’ devices that can ‘defy’ gravity actually is found in that they embrace gravity so deeply that they feel it’s counterpart of levity and in marrying the two, a way to do what we call ‘defying gravity’ occurs. Holding both energies of levity and gravity is what allows for ascension, descension, and maneuverability. If we want to ‘defy lack’, we will have to get past our resistance to lack and instead marry ‘having’ and ‘not-having’ in a similar way.

In this similar kind of way, I AM both more AND less. I possess both. Both want to live in me and be able to be dialled ‘up’ or ‘down’, as need be through my supple emotional body and expanded energy body.

You and I are being invited into the place where the concept of ‘working for a living’ is coming to truly be a part of our antiquity past, a relic of a previous inability to find our lungs of true abundance, letting in, letting out, as need be.

If I am abundance, then any experience of lack must only be occurring for me as part of the super-abundant and super-intelligent abundance that I AM. My mind no doubt wrestles with the paradox of this and even aches for the new timeline beyond the lack, and to be in the manifest abundance that I desire, but as I feel how the present manifestation of less is actually a manifestation of the more that I am, I am growing in my ability to manifest the life I desire, filled with true super-abundant pleasure and love in all of its forms.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Following The Call Of Soul Family And CommUNITY

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By Jelelle Awen

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Divine love and light is bringing soul family members together in the Now, coming together to serve love, to serve the ascension process, to serve healing, to serve sacred union in expression of romance, friendship, and service-based networks. These energies bridge geographic distance, lending courage to your life change choices that allow for sharing everyday living in the physical together, living closer to each other or with each other.

Risking it all, risking that it could collapse or not work out, more souls are ‘giving up everything they have and have known’ to follow the clarion call of soul family community and sacred union romance. You are discovering that what you give up is often of the old versions of yourself, the old life structures, the previous scenes….already packing itself away, to allow the NEW to come in. The internal work, the going within, has led to this phase of externally shedding the skin that no longer fits you anymore. You can negotiate with the anxiety and navigate the doubts that come up with growing trust and surrender as your higher self leads the way embodied more and more.

The previously solitary and private compartments are flooding with loving light. This may be motivating those of you who have been in a lone wolf phase to leave your previously necessary (and cozy) caves to find and join your pack. That cave held the self love realizations, the death and rebirths, all the beautifully painful and alchemical moments of cracking open your heart and waking up your soul. You look back with fondness at the cave and what it held of your previously hidden secrets of soul gifts and soul expression passion purpose that now want to express outwardly with the loving support of your soul family community.

The desire for that running in the pack feeling runs deep in our DNA, in our soul’s essence of Unity Consciousness, in our Star BEing and angelic aspects that know telepathy and One Mind and don’t experience any separation. That desire to BE in that consciousness again simmers below the surface of our 3D experiment experience of ‘dense duality’, of lack, of isolation, of fear-based polarization. This is often why parts of us settle for so little in relationships, for dysfunction and the familiar over the growthful…because ANY experience of family reminds of us where we come from.

We are being invited to explore healthy conscious duality within ourselves and within conscious community. This is an important aspect of ascension and bringing our physical AND our maturing emotional bodies ‘with us’ into higher vibe realities in a way that we haven’t before as a species. Conscious duality offers us to run as a unified force pack, even as we are still seeing out of our own eyes, our own individual consciousnesses, feeling with healing and healthy hearts……taking it all in through the group AND as individuals too.

For those who have awakened while remaining in many relationships, the ascension energies are revealing to you soul family connections in existing, long-term bonds……shedding layers of falsity to illuminate what is real in the bond, what is true, and what sustains. Love also reveals illusions and delusions in relationships and supports the completing of what cannot transact at a high frequency of nourishment and growth into the NEW. What has previously been called ‘family’ seems to fall apart with nothing of substance left to sustain it.

‘Does this relationship serve me to grow? Does this relationship serve love as its highest purpose of expression?’ These are the pressing questions and the subsequent answers that our souls are faced with when making choices and decisions, setting boundaries, moving on or moving in. This may be a very painful aspect of what is given up in order to let in the NEW. The previous shrinking and settling that you have known in relationships just is ‘outgrown’ as you stretch your wings and claim your higher heart service. This is an article I wrote about navigating relationships within transition from 3D to 5D consciousness: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2016/12/23/navigating-relationships-within-transition-from-3d-to-5d-consciousness/

Sacred is every moment we join together as family and it actually ALWAYS serves a higher purpose of transformation and healing for ourselves and each other. Even the moments where we smash against each others’ rocks, we hurt each other, and we trigger the deepest stuff that is in need of healing. There are also the moments where we inspire each other to tears of joy as we remember what our higher vibrational aspects know and live in the NOW together as ONE. We feel blessed, then, to be seen and kNOWn by another soul like this. We feel grateful for the mirror of our bigness, our capacities, our purposes, and our essence as Infinite Love as it is reflected back to us by them.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Redefining Family From The Heart Up

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me and Shai

Today is the day that my daughter, Shai, comes to join us in SoulFullHeart community.  It is almost surreal, to be honest, even though she was here in February and we have been in contact quite a bit.  It is surreal because it will be her coming in her full authority and self-choice to be a part of this healing path and community.  Admittedly, she knows all of us and that makes it an easier choice but this was not always the case.

When we all decided to leave Canada nearly 3 years ago, Shai was firmly planted in her Vancouver world.  She had no desire to join us and go into the healing journey.  She was in a construction phase.  A time to individuate herself from us.  It is actually the way it really needs to be for someone in their late teens.  The difference is that we would not be in contact because the energy of our worlds would be so different and nearly impossible to relate to.  We both needed to go all into our worlds and lives and trust that if we were meant to be in healing and community together we would.  It was a very difficult process to be with as it is so not the norm in terms what is “normal” from our societal and familial conditioning.

My inner Dad had so many concerns and judgments about “leaving her behind”.  All the voices of my personal family and the collective family.  It was a codependency to self-image and also soul legacies of abandoning and being abandoned.  This provided a HUGE growth ground for both us.  She learned to navigate life on her own terms and being with her own challenges.  I got to feel very wounded aspects of myself that would be medicated with care-taking.  I got to feel myself as “not Dad”, but as a man on a journey to self-discovery.

Through our space apart we eventually got back in touch with each other sometime last year, but I couldn’t tell you how.  If we are all meant to be together in a soul family, the hows and whens just seem to arise.  We had touching and tear-laden conversations of reconnection and she began a process with Kalayna as she had been feeling a fairly empty emotional and spiritual life in Canada.  Being raised in SoulFullHeart like she was, makes it hard to really relate to a world that has a hard time feeling its own emotions, and she admitted it was hard for her to feel hers.

She eventually began to feel parts and was opening up a whole new world inside her that was not based on pleasing Mom or Dad, but about her own growth and bigness. Now, there are undoubtedly mom and dad pieces that we will be feeling together, but this is something she is taking on in  her own right.  It is a truly remarkable choice for someone at her age of 22.  She is a leader of a generation, along with Kalayna, and that is such a gift to us and the world.

Now we get to reinvent ourselves as father and adult daughter.  We get to heal the old dynamic to make way for a new more genuine one that is between two souls on a path together.  It is about teacher/student (of which she will be my teacher on many occasions), being mirrors to each other, and being in close intimacy as two human beings in reverence and soul bond.  We get to explore metasoul places together and I get to be a recipient of all her gifts, and she mine.  None of these were possible in the old ground as we were both capped in roles that we placed on each other.

This is a grand experiment as she will be reunited with her birth mother and father in a totally new dimension of experience.  Where does this happen on this planet?  It is so damn compelling and one that I am really excited to see where it leads.  There will be much to feel between us and that is what we are ready for.  Shai represents a new start for the SoulFullHeart community even as it too is all unknown how it will all develop. This is about redefining family from the heart up.   This a template for what could be for all birth families as each individual finds their own way and trusts the bond that exists to bring each back into more authentic heart and soul space if that is what is meant to be.

Much more to come in this new chapter of SoulFullHeart! Stay heart tuned.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Growing Into More Is What We Signed Up For

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Growing into More is what we signed up for.

Just like a seed that is sitting in the soil, we have this untapped yet preset potential. The seed can only see itself a seed until the right conditions come in to alter its reality. The water of real love comes pouring in and around. It begins to shift inside and make changes. It does not resist its ultimate destiny but it must push through some dark and difficult terrain. It has become something new. Its outer shell has popped and it is more genuine nature comes through.

Our 3D persona could be seen as this shell. Our protected layer. The seed of our sacred humanity. It is as if we consciously placed our essence into this seed and placed ourselves in the soil of this dimension in order to grow into more. What we thought we were, a seed, is turning out to be way more.

As this new growth begins to make its way through the soil, it is having to make some serious adjustments and recalibrations. This feels like our 4D awakening. Moving through so much turmoil and redefining what we had been used to accepting as real love. What we were so used to and comfortable with in our cozy shell. This alchemical growth phase is a very sacred yet trying time. It can be hard to feel we will ever see the light.

Yet there are moments of breakthrough. We pierce through old veils and conditionings. We begin to make difficult and challenging choices that are more aligned with our path outside the soil of turmoil. We begin to see what we were meant to be and really ARE as new leaves form to receive more of the love we have needed all along.

When we begin to feel fruits of our inner work, a new awareness sets in. You are meant to rise. To blosssom. To reach to the heights of your greatest desires and dreams. To get there though was not small feat. It took tremendous courage and following the inner truth that you were more than just that seed. It took feeling your way, all the way, through the messy and prickly.

As humans we have the conscious free will choice to shut it all down if we want to and need to. That is all part of the growth. But you will always grow, and it all depends on the rate and pace you choose. SoulFullHeart offers a super-charged nutrition for your desired growth into More. If you are feeling the grist of the soil and are looking for some sunlight, we are here to serve that with you in sacred space. We continue to grow in our own ways and are looking for more flowers and trees in our garden of Love and Discovery.