Intro & Overview 31 Day Video Series Called Deepen 2022 Starting January, 1st (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

OH this is exciting! This is a video with Raphael and I sharing an introduction and overview of our upcoming 31 day video series called Deepen 2022!

We are offering this Deepen 2022 video series experience as a bridge to those of you who are wanting to deepen your integration of your awakenings and experience yourself as becoming more aligned with your Higher (5D) Self. We invite you to join us as we guide you on an arising, spontaneous, and life-shifting journey of deepening and transformation. For 31 days starting on January 1, 2022 until January 31, 2022 we will release a daily video that arose in the moment of filming it here in our living room in Central Portugal from the spontaneous flows of our heart and soul passion for this process.

We will lead you into inner spaces with our powerful, catalytic, yet gentle and compassionate energy in guided meditations EVERY DAY for 31 days. These meditations have been fine-tuned by us over the years to get access quickly and are an opportunity to experience higher-vibrational frequencies while opening out to whatever needs to be felt, digested, and processed. We provide a bridge to you for a more visceral connection with your emotional body, Star Family, parts of yourself, Metasoul aspects, other timelines, the Divine Feminine and Masculine (especially the Magdalenes) and MUCH more. Energy healing meditations while playing our quartz crystal sound bowls allow for activation, clearing, and connection with your Ascension Chakras, which can be a huge boost to your process.

Teachings about the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life process and community that we have lived in and co-led will provide NEW and radical points of view about the awakening and ascension process. We have structured the series content to cover Emotional Body Awakening; then Navigating the Matrix & Unplugging process; followed by the Metasoul and I AM Divine Self Awakening; Sacred Masculine and Sacred Feminine Awakening; and finishing up with Sacred Relationships Awakening. SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Amara will join Raphael for a series of videos about Sacred Masculine embodiment and Kasha Rokshana will join Jelelle for a series about Sacred Feminine embodiment, plus SoulFullHeart facilitants/community members Raianna Shai and Bey Magdalene will join us for the final video of the series!

We encourage you to let in the videos at your own rate and pace… and in whatever order you feel called to follow. The meditations are designed and offered to open up deep space within you that may ask for time and self-spaceholding digestion between them.

Also, we invite you to join us for two group calls during the Deepen 2022 series on Sunday, January 16th and Sunday, January 30th at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST where we will provide teachings, digestion and sharing space connected to the Deepen series. You can join us live and receive the recordings of the group calls by offering a donation for both at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, writings, videos, and community events, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free to you, yet would be so grateful if you felt to offer an energy exchange/donation to us in exchange for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

“Come As You Are” This Solstice/Holiday Season

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by Kasha Rokshana

Deep beneath the Matrix-fuelled busyness, expenses, and stresses of the ‘holiday season’, lay the pure energies of this time of year; un-hijacked and sprouting up from underneath what feels like frozen ground at times. These energies can be difficult to access, as this ground is the rather hardened layer of social/familial obligations that no longer arise for you in joy, but arise instead in tension and frustration. 

It’s a confusing time of year in that way, isn’t it? So many inner buttons are being pressed, some of which you can track and others which you can’t because they have so long simply been ‘tolerated’ or buried. The parts of you that want to scream, others that want to cry, and still others who want to be numb, are all being pushed on and perhaps this year, with the intensity of our different realities and consciousnesses surfacing in ways that can’t be ignored or put aside any longer, it’s all feeling much, much worse. 

Yet, there’s also the purity of the inner child’s joy that feels the Christ/Magdalene frequencies of this time and wants to jump into that love pool more than anything. There’s the deep love of the Divine that lives in your soul, and the desire to align ever-deeper with that love, to truly live from it, that also can become inspired to surface this time of year, when the ‘permission’ to be more joyful can come through and reach you, however it can. 

My own inner child (who has a Christmas Elf side!) has had a mixed experience of Christmas and the holidays, even in her enthusiasm for them. This time of year has been more challenging for her and many other energies within me too as things keep ramping up in the outer world and it’s all just so sad and hard to feel. It’s also been challenging as this year my personal income has been tighter and thus I can’t shower my beloveds with many bought gifts. This has been surprisingly hard as gift-giving has been a deep love language for parts of me, yet it’s been of course a huge out-breath to remember that with my beloveds and my mate, Gabriel, physical gifts have only ever been one small way to show our love for each other and generosity towards each other too. 

So while the physical gifts have had to be let go of in some ways this year (though not totally), I actually feel the deeper gift of our shared resonance and love flow which have been so much more nourishing and fulfilling than any ‘bought gift’ could possibly be… also, I feel how much I’m letting in that the man I’ve had many rounds of relationship with and who I’m in love with yet again though now in an even deeper way, is at my side. If I could give this gift to everyone in the world… that would be more satisfying than buying anything at all.

Of all the many messages we can receive this Solstice and holiday season, perhaps the most consistent one is the invitation to ‘come as you are’ as you reach inside of you and move your heart and soul back into the room of your own innate Divine connection, for its never about adornments, baubles or tokens, but always about love flow and choosing love over anything else. This is what I think of when I hear the song ‘Little Drummer Boy’’, for he had no ‘gifts’ to bring, but he brought his song, played on his precious drum, and somehow that brought him closer in frequency to the Divine child before (and within) him. He expressed his love, honoured his resonance, and showed up in the only way he knew how. How precious this invitation is for us all!

Sending you lots of love this Solstice and holiday season. May Divine love surround and move through you, even in ways that surprise you!

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Dec 18, 2021

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We are well on our way through the Solstice corridor now and continuing to let in the Christ/Magdalene codes moving through. 12:12 offered us a download of more illumination of what to offer love to within us and outside of us too.

Featured this week is a piece by Kasha Rokshana where she shares an invitation from Divine Mother to feel ourselves as part of ‘The Great Arising’ – an opportunity to embody our Divinity in deeper ways while embracing our sacred humanity as well and everything that process brings up for each of us.

We have several new articles and audio blogs this week, offering perspective on what’s happening in the world, the process of claiming new choices, and digestion of our recent sojourn to the sacred sites at Fatima, Portugal. Also this week we have a new piece by Raianna Shai, a beloved community member who just joined us here in Portugal, where she shares a bit about her journey in making the choice to come and reunite with us.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive these Museletters and other updates from us in your inbox, visit soulfullheart.org to sign up, or scroll to the bottom of this issue and click ‘subscribe’.

You can read the latest issue here.

Much love from all of us and have a blessed Solstice!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Choosing The Path Of Love And Growth

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by Raianna Shai

I’ve been in Portugal for over a month now and with so much changing for me in this transition, I felt like it was time to digest it all through writing. We’re currently in a timeline that has caused so many of us to rethink where we are in our lives. Life as we’ve known it is coming to a close and it has come time to reevaluate what is truly and deeply important to each of us as unique souls.

For those who don’t know, I left Canada last month to be with my soul family and community, SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I spent a year physically away from them exploring my own independent journey of relationship, growth, maturation and self discovery. I had gotten to the point where doing emotional healing work was so hard for me to do alone and remain consistent with. Parts of me wanted the easy way out – to just live life and use various mediums to distract and medicate any sadness or loss of purpose I felt inside of myself.

I’m more than grateful for this phase of my life though as it taught me how to deeply love another, advocate for my needs, re-sparked my desire for independence and also led me to discovering what was really most important for me and my soul.

Healing with the soulfullheart process is not easy, healing trauma and pain never is. It’s so much easier to stay in what’s comfortable and already well known. But what brought me back to it stronger than ever is the idea that any ounce of love that I am able to give to myself is another ounce of love that exists in the world. Every time we heal something deep inside of ourselves it affects the collective in a big way. The way my community can really see and feel me is something that I wish everyone on the planet could experience. And it’s something that everyone deserves.

So as hard as it is for parts of me to feel like I deserve this love or that I’m big enough to show up for this process, I remind myself of the bigger purpose here. We aren’t just healing for ourselves, we’re healing for the world.

Love,

Raianna Shai

Being Part Of ‘The Great Arising’

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by Kasha Rokshana

“You are the Great Arising. 

It is different than the Great Awakening. 

It’s what happens as you move into the Higher Heart space as you awaken. It is the embodiment of your Divine Self (as you step through and into the process of this embodiment).

There’s nothing here to achieve. Yet, there is so much MORE to arise into, rooted always in the heart.”

~ Divine Mother

I feel this invitation and its many layers this morning in particular. This morning, that like many recent mornings and perhaps mornings throughout human history, will lead into a day which for many will feel like suffering to some degree. For such is the state of the world both inside and out… the hiding, the fighting, the pushing and pulling. 

I feel how the cries of the world can seem cinematic in moments and can feel like it’s something happening ‘out there’ rather than anything I am (or any of us who live in a more removed/remote space are) personally involved in so much. The gravitas though of feeling what’s moving through the world and what my own soul has experienced of the world is not something to put away for too long. The invitation calls and I go… and I’ll be going into it deeper still.

I feel the love and grace of the Divine reminding us all that no matter what it is we feel ready to feel in our own inner worlds or in the outer one, we are infinitely held. It’s the letting in of that holding that can truly be the challenge. And the letting in of the Divine’s tears for all of us as it feels us and holds us in its heart is the sort of stuff that blows the heart wide open.

As the sun rays float through my window in this moment as I write this, I’m reminded too of the beacons of hope and love that we all have the capacity to become. This sort of embodiment is not transcendent but deeply alchemical and alive, offering us invitation after invitation to keep feeling what needs us in our inner worlds while feeling connected still to the outer. 

I’ve not ever been able (in this lifetime) to transcend feeling. The bigger piece here for my process has always been about opening up to feeling others deeper and not only myself and my own parts/soul aspects. The compassion from myself to others is ever-deepening, especially when boosted by Divine invitation, inner movements, and holding space for others, which all remind me again and again of how important the inner work is, but also how important the overflow from that inner work is.

To truly arise as Sacred Humans, this process has its downturns and upticks, its wobbles and its straight lines. It’s a chaotic mess at times and extreme bliss at others. It’s the holding of hope and love, expanding out into true forgiveness and compassion toward self and others, and it’s the most humbling thing I’ve ever witnessed and experienced. 

We ARE the Great Arising, as Mother offers. We are expanding beyond ‘awakening’ and moving into much deeper things that in some ways haven’t been lived into by humanity yet. 

As our souls and hearts arise together as one in each of us and all together, we experience what is becoming so possible to truly embody…

Love,

Kasha & Divine Mother

Photo is of my altar which I light every morning for meditation/Divine & inner connection time!

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Digestion Of My Visit To Fatima’s Marian Apparition Sacred Sites

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By Jelelle Awen

I’ve needed a couple of days to digest our recent visit to the sacred sites in nearby Fatima, Portugal as quite a bit was activated within my soul by going there. Nearby the town of Fatima is where one of the most famous Marian apparition visits occurred in 1917 when three rural children Lucia Santos and her cousins Francisco and Jacinta Marto experienced several visits with Mother Mary.

Many pilgrims flocked to Fatima and Aljustrel (the nearby village where they lived) to witness the visits as word of them spread, which occurred for six months on the 13th of the month. They culminated with the Miracle of the Sun event on October 13th, 1917, in which over 70,000 people reported significant shifts in the location, light quality, and intensity of the sun during this visit.

Only the three children could actually see Mother Mary and only the two girls could see AND hear her, yet many people reported being able to feel a sacred presence during her visits. Some pilgrims reported healings of disease and disabilities as well.

You can feel from the photos I’ve shared the massive scale and size of the group of Catholic religious buildings and structures in Cova da Iria that honors these visits. These sacred sites, including the nearby preserved houses of the children, draws several million pilgrims/tourists every year and thousands during the main processional days on the 13th of May and October.

The Basilica of Our Lady of the Rosary built in the 1950s is a massive church with beautiful marble columns and tombs containing the remains of the children’s bodies, stunning stain glass images depicting the stations of the cross, and vivid paintings and exquisitely detailed sculptures of the Marian visits.

While we were standing in the main area near the Chapel of the Apparitions, a tiny chapel that Mother Mary commissioned for them to build to honor the site of the visits, a processional began at noon with a long line of pilgrims following behind priests holding up a rose laden platform with a statue of Our Lady. As a priest with a beautiful voice sang a song to honor the Fatima visits, the whole group walked right past us and through the church area. This was a special surprise as we did not plan to see it, although it was the 13th of the month. Witnessing this processional was a moving experience for all of us as we felt devotional energies move through toward Mother Mary and the Divine Feminine. We also lit candles in honor of Divine Mother and offered prayers/blessings as well (I lit one in honor of Jacinta.)

I was previously aware somewhat of the Marian apparitions in Fatima and definitely the ones in Lourdes and Guadalupe, Mexico, yet had not connected to any in an exploratory way that could open up deeper healing. This exploration is served by being able to actually visit and take in the sacred site, as I repeatedly discovered when we were in Avalon/Glastonbury, UK and also when we went to the stone circles in the UK. I am now understanding more about why we were guided to settle here in Central Portugal where so much devout Marian energies are centered.

I started connecting in my Metasoul to a lifetime as the youngest seer and supposedly the most fervently devout child, Jacinta, a few weeks ago. I’ve been in healing spaces with her and Mother Mary, first visiting with her in the hospital where she died alone of the Spanish Flu in 1920 while in great pain and personal sacrifice (as did her brother Francisco in 1919). Mother Mary bridged to Jacinta patiently, repeatedly offering a reframe of the self condemning message of sacrificial suffering for all sinners that Jacinta had internalized during the visits.

Mother Mary shared with us that while the first visit with the children was genuine as it was only the three of them (which was Jacinta’s favorite one), the visits after that were somewhat hijacked by the Matrix False Light frequencies. The purity of Mary’s message of peace, an end to wars, and hope/love/support for ALL of humanity was distorted by this hijack and used to convert even more souls into the religious trap of self condemnation, seeking salvation outside of themselves, and False God Worship of the Papal ‘corporation’. Mother Mary offered that the Miracle of the Sun event witnessed by so many souls was also a Matrix hijack and tweak of the Matrix hologram in that moment.

Even with this hijacking and the eventual amusement park spectacle made of the events by the Catholic Church, there was still a genuine and sacred purpose to Mary coming to deliver messages to the children at this time. These children are Magdalene souls with high levels of mastery related to psychic access to higher realms. Before incarnation, there was an agreement between them and Mary Anna (as she is known as a Magdalene) for her to return and seed into them a message of peace just as the first world war was ending and before the second one. The hope was that these messages would usher in a new paradigm of peaceful resolution and diplomacy that might help avoid the second world war.

These seeds of peaceful resolution were planted by the Magdalenes into Gaia’s grids during their most important incarnational lifetime of Yeshua’s crucifixion and ascension. This seeding is beautifully and viscerally described in the Anna, Grandmother of Jesus book by Claire Heartsong that I highly recommend if you are drawn to connect to the Yeshua-Magdalene soul family lineage.

As Mother Mary’s TRUE message landed in the heart of Jacinta, her childlike innocence could return and transmute the self punishing shame that had led her to sacrifice herself. Jacinta became like the sun then, vibrantly curious and wanting to connect to other aspects of our Metasoul from other timelines and learn from them…..such as Lorna my high priestess of Avalon, and Ingrit, my witch/medicine woman. Jacinta didn’t like the ‘rules’ of the Church, so much emphasis on Hell and being condemned, the patriarchal energies of the Church, so she was fairly able to let the programming go when offered another option that was more resonant to her soul.

As with all modern visits to sacred sites and especially those so blatantly and commercially leveraged by the Church, there is a mix of both inspiration and frustration when you visit them. By going inward after the visit there in the physical, I was able to discover the core purity of the message and help free it from the hijack of the church….at least within my own soul and in whatever ways that could ripple out to the Collective.

I am so grateful for the SoulFullHeart process that I have leaned into myself for so many years as a means to lift the veils, transmute karma with love, end the suffering/self sacrificial energies within my relationship to the Divine Mother, and connect directly with these soul aspects so deeply on an ongoing basis. The richness of what our soul has experienced becomes once again accessible and also purified.

This morning, I got to host a reunion between soul sisters and cousins Jacinta and Louisa, who died in 2005 after devoting her life to being a nun in devout worship to Mother Mary. Their reunion was touching and we could connect to their bond together in Yeshua’s lifetime as two of his beloved Marys. Louisa’s healing digestion of the apparition visits was more integrated over her long lifetime, yet, also she tended to move into much self recrimination and unworthiness around being a chosen messenger of Mary’s. Connection with Jacinta now and with the TRUE frequencies of Mary Anna feel like they will offer her deep healing around this.

I am honored to be an ambassador of love to help heal and free up the message offered by the Divine Mother. All of us have a Divine Child within us that is pure, innocent, and a spark from the heart of the Divine. As our Divine Child heals from their separation wound and pain and reunites with our Divine Mother and Father, they arise into their embodiment as the bright, bright light of the Divine.

As Mother Mary keeps offering, “You cannot be unworthy of my love as it is always yours. You cannot be outside of my grace as it is always within you. You cannot be condemned by me as my acceptance of you is always there.”

If you feel a soul resonance with these events, I recommend watching the recent film Fatima as it recaptures a lot of the sacred experiences that the children went through yet also the challenges for them in facing the fear and skepticism it brought up in others.

Love from Fatima!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions to access these soul grounds within, group calls, books/ writings at soulfullheart.org

Sacred Desires And Fears – Both Are Our Portal To Full Remembrance

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By  Raphael Awen

The thing we desire the most is also the thing we fear the most.

We want something that represents a feeling or assurance of some kind of more, but not too much more. We set our sights on attainable, reachable and manageable goals.

To shoot higher is to set ourselves up for failure, or even worse, to somehow attain that great and high thing, but then have to live with the fear of falling from such a greater height.

If all of our dreams somehow came true, how would we hold it together?

So we tend to settle for this half life of being in resistance with both our desires and our fears. They are both to blame and to be held accountable. Were it not for them, there wouldn’t be any tension. All that would be left would be bliss.

But to go and find some kind of life configuration that helps you kill both desire and fear, is to choose to not live, suicide in slow motion. Doesn’t most spiritual practices, paradigms, therapies and ways of life have at their core, this root of managing fears and desires?

Trouble is though that a human being is one of both desire and fear, and fears and desires are such great forces, that they can never really be managed. At best, they can be suppressed for a time only to emerge in your life with more strength than when you tried to disown them.

I am especially feeling this as we approach the new year, and feeling how feeling fears and desires opens us out to set an intention for the new year, seeing it for the portal that it offers us.

This is so different from the standard ‘New Years resolution’ energy, whereby you need to mount a self-discipline campaign, essentially suppressing the needs and desires of one part of you to allow another one to have its needs met. That’s about dominance, overcoming and suppression, one part of our being colonizing vast and beautiful territories of other parts of our being. The victor never feels at peace with the winnings because it doesn’t contain any peace. Possession requires constant vigilance to stay on top.

For the year to come, what can I feel within my desire body to receive as a shift in being, a shift in nourishment, a shift in getting deeper and truer needs met?

What fears can I feel inside of my heart space that are wanting to find transformation? What irritations and vibrations come up for me in whatever cycle or situations that they do? Why have I needed them up till now?

Could I truly embrace both of these fear and desire polarities within who at first seem to be holding each other at a standoff, but upon closer feeling and observation, I see that each holds the key to each other’s freedom?

I believe this is the deeper ground of truly setting an intention that has true power in it. It has power because it is able to surrender to both desire and fear, not because it overcame one at the expense of the other.

This feels like not only our great personal internal lesson of reconciliation with our divinity, but also like the great cosmic soul’s lesson before us as we watch the playouts of last year’s bifurcating events and narratives about the fears of death, carrying over into the new year at increasing levels of fear and polarization. Whether you’re afraid of the virus or it’s cure, it is the biggest monster in the room right now for so many, bringing up our personal fears within.

How could these heightened crazy times we find ourselves living in with many seemingly impossible situations be a turning point for you personally where your fears and desires are concerned?

This doula of death that showed up is here with consciousness’ permission and authority to help something transform that has wanted and needs to die and be reborn for a long time. Death isn’t ‘death’ as in an obliteration of energy. It’s always about change.

I’ve been quite taken with keeping up with news headlines a few times a day whether alternative or mainstream, for years now, seemingly scanning the horizon for evidence of this great death and rebirth, as if my personal fulfillment is dependent on the collective shifting, even while knowing the agenda in the news cycle. I’m feeling my being rising to a higher octave where the ‘news’ now needs to come from within, my own reports of what’s new from my own heart and soul domains.

I feel an intention brewing for the year to come of changing this relationship with the news, and it feels sooo inviting. Something deeply nourishing wants to replace what felt before felt nourishing, but no longer does.

What are you desiring for the year to come?

Deepen 22!

Jelelle Awen and I are releasing a daily video series beginning January 1st for the month offering daily short guided meditations and an overview of the SoulFullHeart way of life, and I’d love to have you join us if you feel drawn. It’s free to be a part of, but we’d love to receive your exchange with us in the form of donations for whatever ways it helps and assists you through where you are shifting and moving. You will find it on our YouTube channel: https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

4 days from now we have our 12:12 Portal Transmission and Guided Meditation Group Call. I hope you can join us live at 5:00pm GMT/12:00 EST/9:00am EST on Sunday, December 12th and/or receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is about $15 CAD) via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/328536115365602

Much love to you on your sacred journey,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Now Free: We are now offering for free our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Photo courtesy of Kunai Shinde: https://unsplash.com/photos/-f0YLss50Bs

Divine Mother Message Of Support During This V. Bioweapon Narrative

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By Jelelle Awen

I am continuing to digest the ongoing V. reactions/injuries/deaths and the stories that are increasingly coming out as more people are impacted by them. I spent some time taking in the FB hashtags #protectmyfamily #protectyourfamilies, #stopthemandate which now have a flow of sharings that are deeply compelling and convincing as to the true story of what is going on during this V. narrative, especially from the nurses who are quitting their long-term beloved positions rather than give in to the pressure/mandate of getting a bioweapon shot that they are seeing first hand can be lethal.

I feel alarm at times with the mounting restrictions and mandates that are taking away basic human ‘rights’ and body sovereignty choices that we have so long assumed would always be respected. There is a sense of sadness at the seeming deeper separations happening between one ‘side’ and the other as people are divided in often polarizing ways.

My heart and womb so heavily feels the cries of the world in these moments. Sometimes all I can do is weep for the suffering of so many right now, both those who know what is going on and those who remain needing to be veiled. A sense of helplessness can move through my soul in those moments, triggered by so long choosing incarnations during this Matrix phase of humanity’s process.
I am leaning into my beloved SoulFullHeart process to access the soul aspects (including a wise woman/witch, priestess, Divine Orphan, etc.) and the karmic healing that is needing feeling, negotiating and BEing with in order to feel worthy to let in MORE Divine love and support. Not eating food/fasting for the last two weeks is deepening that access, lifting the veils, activating more light body, allowing for detox/unplugging from Matrix foods.

As I tune into what I call the ‘Graceland’ or the Frequency Field of Divine Mother Love, I can access a trust around the sorting through process that is happening for each soul during this grand drama. I can feel the soul choice that all of us have signed up for with this unique experience and the pressure cooker that it offers of growth.

I understand that we needed the false womb AI Matrix and this ‘fall from Grace’ to experience another aspect of ourselves…only to return inevitably back to the Divine womb again. I feel support on ALL levels from the Divine and my soul/higher self to be here during this time, to continue to find an inner sanctuary within, and keep surrendering to Divine Trust around it ALL.


I AM a beacon of hope, possibility, and light on the other side of this darkness for all of humanity, yet, also, that is available in any moment from within. And, so Divine Mother would offer, so are YOU.

I feel then the TRUTH of our unity and infinity, both of which are being temporarily obscured by division and limitation.

Divine Mother has repeatedly offered to me this message and I share it with you now,

“Be the light.

Be the love.

Be the infinite source of the Divine that you ARE.

This is your greatest service to humanity in this moment.

This is your greatest service WITH me during this temporary darkness and death/rebirth process.

Return to me whenever you need to…..into my womb and into my unconditional embrace. Return to regroup and re-energize. Return to cry and mourn. Return to FEEL whatever you need to feel within your soul.

Remember that you are NEVER truly alone as I am always with you and I have NEVER abandoned you even when you choose to turn away from me.

Remember that separation is always a temporary illusion CHOSEN by the soul to experience.

Remember that you ARE a powerful creator of a higher timeline reality that is not victim to the current external circumstances.

And in this remembering, may you embody your essence of the Divine within you. I love you always and in ALL ways,

Your Divine Mother

Please join us this Sunday, December 12th at 5:00pm Portugal time/12:00pm EST for a two hour group call transmission for community support, Divine love, and inner access to whatever is needed for you in this Now. You can join us live and receive the recording for whatever donation you can give.

More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

And more information about supportive 1:1 sessions over zoom with me and other Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions

From Victim To Ambassador Amidst An Apocalypse

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By  Raphael Awen

Seeing stories more and more of what only looks like concentration camps 2.0 in the name of protecting people, it strikes a fear chord inside of me.

How far is this thing going to escalate? How prepared is prepared?

What shall I do? How will I know what to do and when?

I gave these feelings and questions some heart space inside of a Divine Mother and Divine Father womb space this morning and was invited to feel some larger awareness around it all.

When we see the polarity increasing between two sides of any conflict, we are antsy to find the right side, and once we feel we’ve achieved that, we tend to expound the virtues of our side over the enemy’s side. We become virtuous warriors regardless of the side we’ve chosen.

Regardless of the conflict, if you feel into the energy of both sides, a quite surprising common denominator is seen. Both the designated perpetrator and victim are feeling and acting out of a place of fear of losing something precious to them. Though they are at polar opposites as to the solution of the crisis at hand, they are totally cut from the same cloth when it comes to what is motivating them.

If that’s true, then I need only look at myself to get a window on what’s going on deep in the heart of my enemy’s camp.

Deep at core, I don’t want to lose my life. I may feel I’m higher consciousness about this than I was before, even realizing that my true being can’t actually die, but only change forms, but still I’m not outside of this deep core motivation to preserve something precious and avoid something feared in the here and now. And in those somethings, is where I was told this morning, that we find resolution, both personally and collectively.

Now, I can only possess these kinds of fears if there is still ground in me of distrust towards my outcome, without which, I could be rest assured of a good and pleasurable future.

Is this the exact same world that my enemy lives in, regardless of our perceived and chosen oppositeness?

It feels to me to be the case.

This whole polarity world is maybe no better pictured than in our relationship with money. I must have money to survive, or I can’t be of use to anyone, let alone myself, unless I survive, so getting and obtaining money comes first. Period. Me first, you second, in a world of scarcity and separation, that is in the domain of money as we know it.

This perception of the world skews our relationship so deeply with all of life, and really gets backlit when there’s a perceived active threat.

Then this week, as I’m seeing the ugliness getting uglier, I can’t help but ask, ‘who are the real lords above all this conflict’? It takes one into the science fiction realm of off-planet realities and beings who would appear to possess a consciousness level higher than ours, able to pull strings and levers to get their way.

But if these beings are not science fiction, then what might really be motivating them?

Well, what motivated all of us to create factory farms, the concentration or containment camps for the animals? I say ‘we’ because if you’ve ever eaten an animal, you have a share in the whole endeavor. That includes me and you and that’s a ‘we’. We perceived ourselves to be of a higher consciousness than animals, so we felt and found a way to obscure any arising pang of guilt towards the whole operation.

But when the Nazi’s did the same thing with humans, that was ‘wrong’?. Well, not to them it wasn’t. Then there were the people’s countrymen who turned on their neighbors turning in the lessers to the new superiors, amidst all the chaos of the deeply polarized traumas. People were forced to take a side.

But what forced them? It seems to me that what really ‘forced’ them was not any outside authorities, but rather this shared common denominator of unconscious need to preserve oneself.

When you feel that both victim and perpetrator, (regardless of which side you perceive yourself to be on), both share this identical motive ground, you step up to the table of resolution and true ambassadorship.

First owning how deeply it lives in you to survive, and where your own fears of death lay, or fears of a diminished future, live inside of you, you are now able to see your enemy for who they really are.

They are you.

Now, the judgments and polarities are able to be resolved, because the sacred purpose of those judgments and polarities are completing. Their purpose was to bring us back into remembrance with ourselves, which is one and the same with bringing us back into being re-membered with one another, and putting behind us our necessary dismembered phase of consciousness.

The whole point of the polarity that we all signed off on was to leave oneness, so we could return to it, and expand it in the process, to give love a chance to see itself that it didn’t have before. Time was needed. Space was needed. Drama and trauma was needed. But we never lost this essence of being love, and that’s what haunts our fears of loss.

We know way beyond any kind of mental knowing a deep knowledge of being divinity, and when parts of us feel like they’re stuck in anything less than divinity, it strikes this chord of fear and anxiety. Will I ever get to return to really knowing and feeling what I truly am? This is the shared ground and it is called vulnerability. No matter how protected or powerful, no matter our chosen and championed side, we can’t escape this vulnerability.

These vulnerabilities are the portal doors back to full rememberance that we all must journey through in our glorious and awaiting experience of being re-membered with love.

Love really is this big of a deal and it needed dramas this freaking large to come to know itself.

If you remember, we all remember, as we are all inextricably connected, even as we journey through a necessary phase of perceiving ourselves as a separate self.

Love this separate self, get to know it and love it, find out how and why it ticks, toks and talks. It is your personal path of full discovery, full disclosure, complete reconciliation and total revelation.

My guidance circle said to me this morning, ‘Though it contains some needful apocalypse, I assure you that nothing could be more rewarding, fulfilling, fun, than this homecoming. It is the future that is filled with good things and you are well programmed for it, quite beyond any imposed ‘enemy’ programming’ or highjacked matrix reality.

Much love, I hope this helps you in some deeply inner way, but also helps to answer the many practicalities and choice points you are feeling, just like the rest of us.

If you feel I could be a resource to you, I offer 1:1 session space and would love to hear from you. There’s also 3 more of us facilitators here at SoulFullHeart who might also be a better fit for you. More info here: SoulFullHeart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are embarking on a daily video series release come January 1 for 31 days, that I invite you to bookmark if you’d like to get acclimated to us a bit more. You’ll find that in the new year at https://youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience and a lot more is there in the meantime.

Much Love,

Raphael (and Jelelle )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Dec 3, 2021

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Since the potent portal of 11:11 we’ve been experiencing many upgrades and having realizations too of what’s been rumbling in our inner and outer worlds and why. The continued peak of the Matrix is intensifying daily now and so have the opportunities for our growth.

Our featured article from Jelelle Awen speaks to the different ways you may have been experiencing the upgrades and invitations from the Divine into higher consciousness and higher timeline embodiment, asking you to truly and deeply feel what is real for you and parts of you and make choices from there. The outside world has been grinding through its own collective version of this process. Jelelle offers some powerful yet gentle ways in which to feel through this process and be with each step that arises for you.

On Dec 12, Raphael and Jelelle will be leading an online group meditation call focused on transmitting and embodying the incoming 12:12 codes. You can find out more about this group call here.

They also created a brand new video where they share more about their own healing journeys that led them to each other and into their Sacred Union/Twin Flame bond from which they co-created SoulFullHeart as a healing process and way of life. They share about the types of souls they feel most drawn to serve as well and the overall journey this process takes you on.

There are several new articles from these last two weeks, which include some digestions of epic world events and reminders of what it means to come from love and inhabit your own ‘Love Ambassador’ energy both within and without.

You can read the latest Museletter here. If you’d like to receive these in your own email, you can subscribe on our website: soulfullheart.org, or click the ‘subscribe’ button at the bottom of this or any issue of our Museletter.

Lots of love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community