9/9 Cycle Completions & New Beginnings

by Kalayna Solais

No matter the portal that’s open or ‘time of year’, we get to look at ourselves, reflect on what we’ve walked out, and choose to see the next steps into who, where, and even WITH whom we would like to be. By this I mean, we get to choose if we’re ready to embrace the steps in front of us toward our next romantic soulmate bond, a new depth of soul community experience, new approaches to money/livelihood alchemy, and above all, new ways in which we can BE with ourselves.

Sometimes as we complete one cycle we begin another one right away. Endings breed beginnings, always, as life moves through us in these cycles. These can include karmic cycles where we’re being reflected the same themes over and over again even as we reach and go into the next layers of completing these patterns. These can include patterns of how we’ve been in relationships of all kinds too, romantic, friendship, even at work. Cycles exist everywhere and they include the many patterns we’ve lived out both consciously and unconsciously. It feels as if this 9/9 day is another significant opportunity to SEE patterns and where they’ve originated and we get to choose if/when we’re ready to deeply feel them.

I always get a sense especially of ‘karma’ around the number 9. It’s a number that is both an open and closed shape in one. It’s a number that to me shows a cycle that isn’t quite complete but may be in the process of completing. This is so true on a collective and personal level, where we’re feeling and seeing some pieces heating up but there IS a sense of completion coming too. Or at least more opportunities to become complete with something, some cycle or pattern, if we’re truly ready to show up for that.

9 reminds us somehow that we do have an array of choices before us, that we do get to find our power and act from there, but also that we need surrender too. We do have to show up at least halfway for life to truly respond to us and our deepest needs, but the real work sometimes is in the surrendering to life at the same time, and to a much bigger picture that we can’t possibly fathom just yet.

I feel this for myself as I continue to explore my alchemy and what I’ve drawn socially too. I continue to be challenged to feel my parts in their resistances and defenses but also see my progress and just how open my heart is these days, whereas even just a couple of years ago that would have been much harder to really see or feel as true.

In my process now, I can feel my parts in the midst of completing a cycle of taking things personally that has felt ENDLESS and so heartbreaking over and over again for many years. This has helped me feel my heart even more open and compassionate toward others and where they’re at right now that may not be in resonance with where I am, but that doesn’t take away from my care for them. This has drawn some interesting interactions, ranging from going deep very quickly to being kicked by parts of them that are in reaction. The reality of an open heart is that we can draw either extreme… at least until parts of us no longer need that reflection from life. This is where I’m going with this now, to feel why these extremes are what’s happening versus a more mellow and easily digestible experience of connection with others.

On this 9/9 day, whatever you may be feeling as a completion or a new beginning, there’s plenty of alchemy to go around in either direction and sometimes in both ways at the same time. And, as always, there is SO much love with you that wants to support you through all of it. ❤

My beloveds and I are ready to serve should you desire a session with us to help you find your next places to go on your own personal path: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

On September 14th, join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for their next group transmission: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/ on 4D Matrix/Karmic Healing! This is another opportunity to feel your next steps in healing your own karmic cycles and pain. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Arising Anew From Grief And Remorse

By Raphael Awen

From the still place of having felt your grief and your remorse, incubates an unmistakable new energy of desire.

Arising in its own time, and in its own way, desire and appetite for an entirely new way of being comes.

Though you have been known by a name and a story, so much of that name and story is complete, and a new story and new name arises. You are in the nursery being looked at now through the big windows by many guides and beings who wish to support you and hold you into your next phase of your sacred journey.

This sacred new beginning, like all beginnings is encoded with its completion, which is what makes way for deep reverence for the present moment.

With this reverence in place, and the feelings of remorse and grief having had their full place, you cannot but move with grace and reverence, with deep support and guidance into the next phase of your sacred and most purposeful journey.

These are the words and feeling space that come to me as I had opportunity recently to be a big part of a Metasoul of mine in process with his grief and remorse for the suppression of feminine.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Creating Space For Love & Truth Within: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

Find that purchase of space in your heart
To truly let that truth of yours in.

The truth your parts hold back
Out of fear of losing
And the fear of the love that could come in.

It’s a process of feeling
The spaces and places that have been hard to feel.

It’s a phase of awakening
To what has been avoided
Even with the sense that the collapse
Leads inevitably to a rebuilding
And a letting in of more than you’ve ever imagined.

It’s time in this sacred Now
To go where parts of you don’t feel they can go.
To feel the pain of the trauma
That hasn’t been safe to feel. 
The fear of your pain’s alchemy
And capacity to deeply change your life,
Your heart,
Your entire being
Is a real thing
And unfolds the rarity
And uniqueness
Of the heart you most deeply have.

Resurrect that sense of love
The knowing of the love that you are
And let it guide your next journey’s steps
Into the unknown and uncontrollable
Awakening to the more compassionate,
Willing,
And love-serving you
That no one can give you
Except you.

Find that buy-in, that investment
In the truth of your being
To truly let yourself be moved
In the way your soul 
Has always intended.

❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Divine Rebirth From Within: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

What once slumbered

Now arises…

 

A fear of choking

of not surviving

the molten movement underneath,

bubbles up

to lay in waiting arms

of the forward invite.

 

Pressing through and into

the chambers once shutter-closed,

the fiery heat of new burnings

birth into the hearth

of the awakening heart

with quaking parts.

 

Passion rises from the ashes

of a red-hot flame

meant to leave the false,

the no-longer tolerable,

behind

with NO-MORE-OF-THIS-ness

leading and loving

its way into the new.

 

The NOW of the NEW

arises

with the dawning silver crescent

in the heart-sun’s moon

leading

lighting the way

to the re-birthing place

of the reborn Sacred Human

you always somehow

knew…

and grew…

INto. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Current Energies Empower Us To Feel Our Choices Within

by Kalayna Colibri

At any time, you get to push the ‘reset’ button. You get to start again. You get to wake up in the morning and realize that life can become new, can arise for you anew. That the people in your life can too. And that there are many choice points along the way that make this come alive and help YOU come alive again, too.

The only thing that seems to keep us from doing this, letting this in, is what we have still to feel inside of ourselves that really doesn’t trust these choices or see the possibilities in our daily reality. Parts of us that want a quick-fix, get frustrated when everything they’ve tried hasn’t worked or seemed to work (or at least not with any staying power), and then the bottom falls out of our motivation to be IN life… to be a vital part of each relationship we have, especially to ourselves. Or, parts of us get frustrated with simply not finding the solution, not feeling genuinely guided or templated for, not feeling comfortable to be in this skin we’ve chosen as a vessel for our 3D come 4D experience here on Gaia. And THEN the bottom falls out and we are left with quite a bit of inner flatness and apathy.

We get to choose. We get to choose to do and be something different, to have a new approach, to try a new way, a new lens too. We get to do all of this and perhaps that is the very essence of free will. We also get to choose NOT to choose, which is still very much a choice. We can opt-in to our inner power and do the work we need to within, or we can let parts of us continue to opt-out of this invitation to heal and continue on in the same patterns we and they have been used to.

We get to decide our approach to life and to healing. What we don’t really get to choose is how and why our pain surfaces, as this is a collaboration with life and the Divine that we cannot shake off, no matter how hard parts of us may work to keep activity and positivity in place. We get to choose our healing paths and whether or not we fully show up for whatever place we’re at in our lives. We get to lead or follow as much as we want to, as much as parts of us want to… for in the beginning of feeling your parts, you begin to realize how much of your life has actually been a result of the choices parts of you have made, and not necessarily choices the most authentic and raw YOU would make.

Whatever the array of choices are that you make in one day let alone one lifetime, the deepest choices are often the ones that help us look, feel, notice, and heal. These are the choices that don’t ever flatten us out but bring us closer to ourselves and the lives we have truly, most deeply been wanting to live and LOVE. To feel where and how these choices show up for you and within you today feels like the most important revelation you could take in and the biggest, most magical experience you could ever have. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Letting In Arising Feminine Leadership, Letting Go Into The Unknown

by Kalayna Colibri

 

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Didn’t take in many light codes today, at least not deliberately, yet the brief visit I had with the sun late this afternoon DID offer me much for what’s moving through me now… powerful frequencies of Divine Father, sacred masculinity penetrating and offering support for my ongoing birth into whatever arising leadership is now unfolding in my life, coming straight up and out from inside me as I continue to heal and serve love too, without construction of a self image around it and just allowing it to arise and arise. I feel how the sun offers this to so many of us right now, whenever we are ready to let it in and bake in it. 

As tears briefly surfaced and fell as I let in this love and support, I felt love and appreciation for where I’ve been and where I have yet to go. Many humbling moments of realization today, especially as I soon reach my ’30th’ ‘birthday’. What life phases will I be heading into? Will they look or feel or BE anything like what others have passed through? It doesn’t feel likely… and in fact, there is something SO different being offered to every single one of us, if we can begin to let that in. Ascension with Gaia may only be one part of that picture of why things will be different and actually ARE different already…

At the end of the ‘day’… I don’t know what’s next, I can’t know what’s next, and I don’t really want to know either. Do any of us, really, except maybe for those parts of us that are yet still afraid to let go and surrender to so much unknown? Life continues to humble us and offer us Infinite Possibilities and it so feels like our power-filled choice whether or not we choose to be with that or swim upstream in spite of it…

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.