Feeling Manifestation As A Birthing Process And Relieving The Inner Punisher

My last two sessions have been very powerful when it has come to feeling the Inner Punisher. This energy is very intense and heavy when fully activated. Judgement swirls inside from self-to-self (or from our point of view from part to part), and it is outward from self-to-other. The outer circumstance is a reflection of what is happening on the inside.

If this is left unfelt, manifestation works to draw this energy in even more. The Multiverse responds. This punishing/judging energy can be rooted in our early childhood relationships, our Metasoul, and/or the Gatekeeper’s relationship to life and people. When wanting to manifest a particular timeline, this part of us can really wreak chaos internally and externally.

However, when you get to truly become acquainted with it (though it has usually been a more masculine energy in my experience), you stare to get an understanding of how much of your life may have been spent in deep fusion to this part. For many of us, it is not an attractive side of us, but has a TON of gifts!

The Punisher (which sounds scary in and of itself) is really a lamb in wolve’s clothing. There is a soft underbelly to all the barbs and jabs. There is a tenderness that I have felt once we got to feel it more. So much of that judgement is being waged against itself and trying to manifest that which is sitting in your Desire Bank, as well as trying to get the hell out of 3D! That is a lot to hold and feel responsible for.

I offered a lot of compassion and love to these parts, along with my facilitants, and when that happened we could feel how hard that was to let in. They are always in a state of outward or inward judgement mode that they don’t feel safe with being vulnerable. The biggest reason is that they are the most tender and vulnerable of them all.

When this part of you gets to be in relationship, they begin to move more into a role of Discerner. It is non-charged intuitive/opinion place that just sees the forest for the trees. When the charge is removed, manifestation feels a lot less like pulling a rabbit out of a thimble, and more like a birthing process. It takes the Divine time it needs to come into this physical dimension. The Punisher almost becomes like the excited partner along the way, seeing what needs to be done next to let self-love be the mid-wife.

We manifest what we need to heal. We give birth to what we are born to share and serve.

I am giving birth to my heart and soul gift into the world with each of these words. I offer my gift with a free Intro Call into how the SoulFullHeart Process can help to heal your Inner Punisher/Judger/Critic. Check out the website link below for more information.

Together we can help to shift so much of that energy in the world into a force of loving change. First from within your heart and then into the heart of humanity.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Awakening In The Dream Of Our Lives

By Raphael Awen

Parts of me are getting really curious about time travel as well as teleportation. These parts of me, I believe are feeling the imminence of these things opening out into our consciousness. It’s what’s next for us collectively and it’s underway already.

Can you imagine what that will do to national boundaries, or to our consciousness being largely confined to a single planet to call home?

We’ve learned with our current technology to transport our voices as well as images of ourselves to any place on the planet. We’ve also learned through creative visualization to go to and experience another timeline or place with our consciousness. Most of us, however, are yet to bridge these experiences into a physical body relocation into other times future or past, or to another current location.

I’m being told that we are already in a time travel reality as well as a teleportation reality, we’re just somewhat habituated to one place on the dial. We are moving forward through time at a familiar pace. What happens when we learn to reverse the direction? I’ve learned that it’s quite easy to access your Inner Teenager or Inner Child and their reality regardless of what age one is. You find their timeline being and happening in the now. It is a form of time travel I believe to access these parts of you. This brings us how time itself is emanating from the now somehow, so by feeling the now moment that your current, past and future you is emanating from, you are given access to all of those yous. Try writing a letter to your future self and see if you get a response.

Wild, huh? To say the least! Parts of me are admittedly a little bored with the familiar, and so want to grasp the next pieces.

Your physical presence stuck in one location as you and I have become overly familiar with is similar in that you are not a physical being as you’ve thought yourself a physical being. You are a consciousness broadcast that materializes somehow – think holograph.

This all sounds wild to our current conditioning, but when you feel into it, you can feel your heart opening to it. Your desire begins to awaken and a portal is being created.

Another way of seeing these things is that they are all just unfolding phenomena of the one Infinite Creator unfolding in us. You and I are having our own localized experience, timeline and personal history – and that too is a projection or broadcast. The Divine needed the data of all of our individuated soul journeys, including through our present 3D consciousness with what now feels like limitations.

The phenomena of the confining feeling is just as magical as the breaking out of it. The Divine needs all of that data.

And here’s another thing. Do you notice how we all normalize and soon take for granted breakthroughs of consciousness? Cellphones have become quite boring to many of us, even repulsive when we feel enslaved by them, and yet they are a wonder of our current timeline. We joke about people being on or in their phones at a restaurant table instead of with the people they are with, and how true this is. The phone is a portal to take you somewhere other than you are, not a bad thing in and of itself, but something to bring our awareness to, in order to relate to its power and potential in ways that we truly desire instead of resent.

This so shows how what we give our attention (consciousness) to is a portal to that place. Less and less external technology is needed to get us somewhere.

If you really creatively visualize a favorite food, and the perfect setting to have that food in, and the people you’d like to be with or not while having that food, it’s not that difficult to get your mouth to water, right? Yet, no actual food or smell is present, right? But wait! What is food and smell, but a projection dialed up by consciousness? And so here we see the veil thinning between the quantum reality and our conditioned perception of reality.

Who over the age of fourteen hasn’t had a sexual or romantic experience that was purely in their imaginations?

Are you getting this, it’s all in the imagination. The real world is an imagined world, emanating from an imagination. You can interface with it (you actually are right now) through your imagination.

I think this will take some getting used to, yes? If I was able to travel physically anywhere in the universe to any dimension, I’d probably not be here writing about it. You’d likely not hear from me for some time. How helpful (to myself or others) would it actually be to wake up one morning having popped into the reality to be able to time travel or space travel anywhere, anytime, without being gradually attuned to it?

Possibly wading into this reality and it’s wonderworld of experiences is the more self loving approach. Quite possibly, my consciousness needs this ongoing upgrade phase to be able to be with expanded reality so that it isn’t detrimental, but rather helpful.

If you are feeling similar desires for these expansions of consciousness into time and space travel, then you are already in the process of the switchover. You are leaving one reality and entering another, the necessary sacred in between phase where certain things can only be felt and incubated so that when you are fully in the new reality, you’re not as bored or as lonely as you are now.

My god, the worst thing I can think of is that I’m fully awakened to time and space travel, have normalized it into my waking reality, and I’m not in wonder or joy or reverence.

Possibly that’s what the process of awakening is about. Our soul doesn’t want to get any higher in frequency without the ability to truly be in awe and wonder while in that higher frequency.

This then brings up a crucial ‘how to’ if part of you is looking for one to speed up the process. It seems our souls know that the point is the reverence, more than the discovery. Our soul and Metasoul has already discovered it all, it’s not about discovery, it’s about integration.

Your life as you currently know it has all the ground and grounding needed for your greatest leaps forward. The now can only be accessed from the content of what’s in your now, now.

Letting in the wonder of your being as you currently know it is what moves the current into new phases of wonder and integration.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Swapping Out The Handrails Of Your Life

By Raphael Awen

To the degree we are willing to feel that everything about our current lifestyle and life content is our own creation, whether conscious or unconscious, whether directly by our choices or indirectly by joining in with the collective choices; this is the degree we are then able to recreate a life of true recreation.

I’ve undergone some major lifestyle and life content changes, but I’m not beyond the place where a part of me no longer chafes at some of the content/lifestyle still in my life.

On a related note, I’ve watched many spiritual teachers gain popularity because of the projection by them or their followers that the leader is somehow beyond this life dilemma. This feels like a co-created bypassing strategy to not feel; an unwillingness to feel this ownership of unpleasant or unwanted lifestyle or life content. If it’s there, it’s safe to assume a part of you very much wanted it or needed it there, regardless of how much another part of you may want to disown it, or honestly change it. Denial plays a huge role in the spiritual teachers or paradigms we are drawn to. It has for me.

To feel what is uncomfortable to feel and see is to see the discomfort as a portal or an entrance into the thing or changes that we long for. We need to become ‘entranced’ at this entrance with all the feelings of what lives there. It’s only energy that is waiting, wanting and needing to be felt. The energy and emotion when it is felt provides the key to enter the change. All it takes is the heart of an ambassador who truly and curiously wants to meet with its counterparts at the furthest reaches of his or her kingdom or queendom.

Now the desired changes are inevitable because where two or more polarities were in a push pull, they are now in synch. The necessary duality has found its way to love.

What is the most uncomfortable thing in your life that feels the hardest to feel; that feels like the most unwanted thing in your life? Can you even think about it long enough to identify it, let alone feel into it? These are your true entrance points of moving from being entrenched to becoming entranced in the new life you are willing to dream of.

Maybe you are willing to start with something smaller. That’s perfect. Feel it all. Journal with it. Hold space for it. Get ready, though, because the equilibrium of your life that relied on a handrail of suffering will need to get used to the new handrail of trusting enduring goodness.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Gratitude As A Doorway To Reverence And Abundance

Today is Thanksgiving in Canada. It feels different than in the States. MUCH less collective energy to wade through. It has given me the chance this morning to really tap into Gratitude, Reverence, and Abundance. There are so many things that I felt I could right about this morning but this one felt timely. The full moon energy is wanting to open up something for all of us around these tones. 

Gratitude can be a hard one for us to fully embrace. Parts of us can feel how much there isn’t to be grateful for. To give thanks to the universe might be akin to thanking one’s abuser. Without feeling this very real part of us, the authentic gratitude we do have may be a bit shallow in its depths, if that makes any sense. 

When we can tap into that part, the tender reasons can come to the surface even after all the thrashing. It may appear to be an entitled teenage energy or a despairing Gatekeeper tired of holding all they do across dimensions. What is there to be thankful in that?! Being seen and felt in their pain is what opens the heart to that genuine gratefulness. 

It is feeling all these edges where we get to see how authentic our gratitude is. It is not about gauging the level of our appreciation, but just feeling what is real inside of us. When that has space, Gratitude becomes like a clear, gorgeous sunrise after a very long and stormy night. You see the trees, hear birds, and see the light in a much different way. 

This is what then becomes the benchmark for our authentic gratitude. After my last deep process about a month ago, I see the world through these heart eyes. I feel what I wasn’t truly grateful for. What I had taken for granted inside of me. But now the sun is shining again and I see more than I have in any time before. But I needed to go to this place first.  

I am grateful for the Love I am surrounded by, the soul family I am apart of, and the inner world inside of me that continues to grow and be cultivated. I am grateful to be a healer, a way-shower,  a light/shadow worker, a teacher, an ambassador, and a human being. From this place I am lead to Reverence and ultimately to Abundance (more on those in next posts).  

Thank you to all that have followed my heart and words these past 3 years. Many blessings and real love to each of you. 

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Introducing Free Intro Calls!

In this video, I talk about our new 30-45 minute Intro to SoulFullHeart call via Zoom. During the call, we would feel together the most presenting issue that you consider most affecting your current timeline.

As I state in the video these are varied and numerous for each of us. Either myself, Raphael, or Kalayna would clarify how the SoulFullHeart process can support you through the feeling, healing, and transformation of where you feel you need the most help.

Prior to the call you would access your Inner Protector via one of our meditations and answer a few short questions, though they may not have short answers. This helps us orient to you and your emotional and energetic bodies as well as gives us a place to go focus when on the call.

You can go to our website for more info at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com to set up a day and time.

Looking forward to meeting any of you who are seeking a different path to healing and seeing the world.

Love,

Gabriel Heartman

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Conversation With 10: The Edge Between Clarity And Uncertainty

Today for 10/10/10 I felt to connect with the number Ten as I did last year with number Nine. I always like to feel how these numbers live in me and what they want to impart to me and those that are reading this. It is a fun and more intimate way to derive meaning and personal understanding. I highly recommend it to any of you that are inspired and interested in seeing what it means for you. 

Me: Good morning Ten. I wanted to connect with you today to feel what messages or insights you could offer me and those that are reading this. 

Ten: Good morning to you Gabriel. I am honored to be here. I feel like I am on tour today. Pretty prestigious event. I forgot my coat and top hat at home. 

Me: Lol! I felt the same thing today. You have a lot of fans! 

Ten: I guess so. I try not to let it get to my digits as I have all the others inside of me to give gratitude for this occasion. 

Me: The others inside?

Ten; Yeah. All the other digits that have come before me. They paved the way here. Each one represents a part of the journey of completion and integration. 

Me: Hmmm…I like the feeling of that. I did have quite the conversation with Nine last year and It was feeling how existential being a Nine can be. On the cusp of great change from one digit to two. 

Ten. Oh, my. I can only imagine. It does feel like a lonely place yet full of possibility. I am fortunate enough to have two parts of me. It’s like I get to have sex with myself. 

Me: What?! Um…Ten, this is a family show here. 

Ten: Oh, for goodness sakes. Lighten up Gabriel. It’s all part of the fun! Look, if you look at me I have a lingham and a yoni, right?

Me: I think I just got cancelled. Yes, it certainly does. 

Ten: So I represent the balance and INtegration of all that has come before me. It is like a giant number orgy in here. 

Me: 

Ten: Gabriel?

Me: Sorry, I am just looking at the Want Ads right now. Integration, balance. Yes. Completion. Oh, this just keeps getting thicker and thicker. My agent isn’t returning my calls. Okay, so we are going rogue here now. 

Ten: Yes!!! Going rogue, man! Let’s find our way into a new dimension of possibility! Let’s move beyond the single-track consciousness of this OR that and move into this AND that. In that inclusion you see a much bigger picture and can let yourself have it all, man! I feel like I want to be like Tom Cruise and jump up and down on this sofa here.

Me: Hmmm…not sure about that reference but I get what you are saying. You are excited. You want to do things that are not predictable and yet you are very predictable as the base of our number system. We can rely on you to be constant. What about that?

Ten: You need to smoke some pot, Gabriel. Get loose. Be free, man. I can do both. I can hold the fabric of your mathematics  as well as I can get jiggy with it. 

Me: Okay, who are you and what did you do with the real number Ten?

Ten:  Lol! Look, I want to unshackle from my current role as some perfect number. Fuck that. Let’s go into the Mystic and see where this rabbit hole takes us. Close your eyes and just imagine ones and zeros. Let them rain down upon you and into you. Let them be like sperm and eggs of consciousness seeding possibility, vision, creation, meaning, direction, and completion. Let those little guys help make big changes. It’s all made up, man. All of it. The Joy and the Suffering. I know that is hard to let in but it’s true. It is all part of this crazy ride we are working out together. It’s not all good and it’s not all bad. The question becomes what is it that you truly want from this existence, for all of humanity. Imagine that and birth that baby, man! 

Me: Whoa….I think I took too big of a hit there Ten. I feel what you energizing and it is working its way through me. I can feel how I have had parts of me feeling like they can’t have what they  want because others don’t. There is still suffering in the world and I can’t be in full Joy and Abundance until others are out of it. That is a cycle that just doesn’t end. 

Ten: Now I think I am feeling that bong rip too. Whew! Yeah, there is a way that each of us need to leave an old paradigm behind in order for others to cross that Rubicon. How do you create peace when you are always preparing for war? I think I am going to cry. Seriously. I am not just being a punk. 

Me: I feel you, Ten. That went deep really fast. I want to let digest a bit. Let the smoke clear a bit. I have no idea what you just brought in the room here, but it was like a tornado. I wasn’t expecting that. 

Ten: Awesome. That is my job. To expect the unexpected. To want the unexpected. To open up to possibility through vision, heart, and guidance. Dance on the edge between Clarity and Uncertainty. The One and the Zero. 

Me: I think I need to go eat something now. You up for some granola and berries? 

Ten: Now who the hell is the Hippie here? Nah, man. I’ll take the eggs and bacon. They look like me. Lol! Don’t worry, hippie. It’s all organic and free range. Don’t get me started on factory farming. 

Me: I have no idea what planet I am on. Okay, sounds good. Thanks for being here with me and I am sure I will have network exec at my door soon. 

Ten. Don’t worry, I will handle him

Me:

Ten: Gabriel?

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Questing With Our Questions Into the Quantum

By Raphael Awen

In a quantum world of infinite possibilities, why is that we find ourselves all too often seemingly locked into one possibility? Why does that one possibility seem to persist ‘ad infinitum’ – to infinity, without end, with little hope of desired change?

How did infinite possibility get swapped out for infinite impossibility?

Could it be that this has everything to do with parts of ourselves who have so mastered the art of creating the world they actually want, albeit a small, narrow and safe world, while other parts of you so ache to break free of this pattern persistence in your life?

Has one powerful part of your being scripted your life with a scripture of its own, and you are just now awakening to it; through your feelings of confinement, through your desire to break your unquestioning allegiance to this scripture; through your desire to awaken from what feels like the bad dream that another part of you feels your life has become? And to let the chips fall where they may?

And what would you propose to alter this trajectory that you call your life? And which part of you would be in charge of alterations?

Maybe some kind of a more powerful self help kind of agenda is needed, where a campaign of mandating a new world order for yourself is the order of the day? Maybe a trip to the bookstore is in order?

Is there even enough gas in the tank to carry this whole agenda forward? And if there was plenty of gas in the tank, do you actually want to undertake that initiative and see it through to its desired end? Is there another part of you who could care less about this new initiative, and even seek to sabotage it?

If you made it through the gauntlet of all these questions, there’s still more questions. What would the desired end game even be, after you arrived at your envisioned new world, assuming you’d even know when you had in fact arrived there? Being free of an unwanted limiting dynamic in your life is great, but is that enough of a picture of a new life?

If you really did your homework and visualized what your ‘there’ would look and feel like, then the question comes about what would you do following your arrival at this desired place, once your ached and longed for bliss becomes your everyday normalized waking reality?

Maybe, a part of you, unbeknownst to the you that you think of as you has thought through all of these questions quite deeply and silently come to the conclusion that it’s just not worth the effort. Maybe this part of you reasons that a better or best life, somehow without fail, becomes normalized, taken for granted, neglected, and ends up in unfulfillment. Why not settle then for the life we have now, rather than reach for great heights, the great heights of which only to make the fall into despair that much more painful?

I believe life and love are asking us to feel all of these questions that have gone on in us somewhere, but haven’t been made conscious. We haven’t yet consciously been introduced to the parts of us who have scripted and created the life we are presently living, and then from there gone on to dream, negotiate and script a new reality based in the divine play of infinite arising possibility.

Only as we take up this deep quest consciously, with a higher self embodiment of us leading the way and playing host to all the parts of us who have been in conflict, can we sanely take our next steps into life and love, or step out of bed in the morning.

My world wants to be recreated into ongoing recreation – play, where the end game is an ever changing game without limits, where awe, reverence and wonder is a never ending arising reality, only to be overshadowed by one greater.

I believe; even more than believe, I FEEL the Divine, in its curiosity is wanting to create and play this game through you and I, inseparably with itself. We have been invited. The invitation is sitting on our desk.

If you are feeling and conceiving such a possibility, you are like the man Jesus spoke of who happened upon a field that contained a hidden pearl of great price, who went out and sold all that he had to then go and purchase that field.

The field is the quantum field of divine play in infinite possibilities! The field is your life. What are you ready to sell to raise the funds to redeem your life from the one possibility it has slipped into to restore it to the infinite possibilities that you ARE?

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I’d love to help you find and take your next steps into the infinite possibilities of your life. I can’t think of anything more rewarding. Please check out my sessions link above and be in touch when you’re ready.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Saying Hello To The Feminine Within

The one thing that feels universal about our humanity is our relationship to our masculinity and femininity. In my past and current processes I have been in an exploration of this very thing within myself. It has been one of the most illuminating parts of my journey. It has not been all of it, but has been a good portion of it. 

When I am out in the world I feel the ebbs and flows of these energies moving within and outside of me. Merging, conflicting, dancing, resisting, and hiding. Really fascinating! As humans I don’t think we can ignore this polarity that is staring at us right in the face. It has so much influence on how we relate, create, love, and hate. 

I have come in closer intimacy with the complexity and simplicity of this dynamic within me. As a man that was always in some confusion about my own masculinity I am coming to terms with what that means for me personally as I become more familiar with my feminines. Yes, plural. 

We so easily just want to make it one thing, like ‘my feminine side’. Very general and obtuse. But what if was more specific and acute. What then? What comes up to feel something inside that has its own perspective and needs? Its own voice and passion? 

The same could be said about our own Inner Child. Tapping into their voice, their needs, their passion. Now a step further. What about an Inner Feminine Child? This just goes on and on! My point is that we are much more than ‘this’ and ‘that’. We are composition of so much more than we have allowed ourselves to be open to. Of course this goes into our celestial beings as well! 

As a man, this journey is one that feels pretty important and alive. It is a journey that can help to rumble the foundations of the patriarchy by our own willingness to face what we have kept in our shadow. Our relationship to the feminine parts and aspects of us that have been sequestered for a very long time. 

Let us be like the prince that woke up Snow White and see what she has to offer us in our heart, our intuition, our sexuality, and our masculinity. She is ready to be connected to and yet fears being rejected once again. Let us feel what we fear the most about her so we can begin to heal this global dynamic once and for all.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

From Nine to Ten: Completing The Cycle Of Suffering And Moving Into Trust

Moving from 9 to 10. The end of September. The beginning of October. I felt something significant move into my body yesterday. After my past 9 year, 9 month, 9 day cycle had completed with quite a bang through the body illness, it filled with a renewed sense of being. Of purpose. Of clarity and above all…Trust. I was filled with 10. It is like I have been a 9 for so long that I can’t even remember anything else. Always on the edge of completion but never completing. Suffering over the suffering of feeling out of reach of this new world of 10. 

When I look it up, I read the characteristics as 

*Independence

*Infinite potential

*Wholeness

*Self-determination

*Exploration

That all seems to align perfectly with what is moving through me. Now these are not absolute. I still feel parts of me that have doubt, anxiety, and fear but they feel less ‘up front’ then they used to be. My Service to Other has grown over my Service to Self. A tipping point has occurred and I feel the Divine gracefully guiding me and supporting me in my next steps as a healer and a leader. 

I needed this last round of Dark Night to get me here. It may not be my last but it is getting awfully damn close. The Dark Mother has always been a gift to me, even though parts of me just couldn’t see it that way until they could. 

I feel many of us are in this phase of moving from 9 to 10. Getting swept up in the brevity of its chaos and intensity. I have traversed these waters for a reason. Not to just move on but to assist others as well to the other side that want the support and guidance. I feel clear about that as the Sun shines behind me. 

How that service and support manifests is up to the Divine but I am Here. I am continuing to love myself and to offer Love to others in any way that it is meant to land, whether by my word or through space-holding. I am excited to see what unfolds for myself, you, and the world at large as we move into this new phase of our INvolution. 

Love to you all that have been with me on this journey. Thank you for your witness and love. I offer it back to you in spades.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Navigating The Confluence Of Change

Just now recovering from one of the worst ‘flus’ in a long time. This tends to occur for me when going through lots of life changes at once. I have also recognized that it was at the confluence of the last 9 days, 9 months, and 9 years. Very catalytic and life-changing cycles all ending at one point. BOOOSH!!
 
It felt like I got hit by a Mack truck with symptoms all over the map, head to toe (including the teeth…a part of me needs to say.) I could feel how much my poor body has held this life and clearly in other lives. I have become more aware of it but this particular convergence really highlighted it.
 
I have come across so much darkness and suffering in myself and my soul over these cycles. I have also found more light & love than I ever expected to be privy to in one lifetime. This can be a challenge for the body to integrate in such a short period of time. I experienced myself differently during the past SFH Equinox gathering in a way that I haven’t fully assimilated yet. This brings up its own shadow/fear/excitement response. It needs to come up if I am going to continue to serve Love those I am meant to serve.
 
I saw my power. My gift. My desire to serve others, crossing territory that, in some ways, my soul has spent a millennia in. I felt the uniqueness of myself as a man, however I choose to define that. I have a sacred role. Not out of a duty but as a passion to create bridges into the New. I felt a growing closeness to and love for my feminine that continues to blossom everyday. I don’t know how I could do this without her.
 
I found a feminine star seed that I am just starting to tap into that I feel as a priceless gift to bestow upon me when the time is ripe. There are codes floating all around waiting for their landing pad. This is an exciting new frontier for all of me. The coming together of the Dark codes and the Light codes. They all have a role to play within us.
 
I am releasing a lot of my past relationship with Kalayna which has been a big catalyst for this rumble. So many gifts that I have been mining from the letting go. One being a revived relationship with my inner teenager and feeling his energetic bind with Mom that needed more purging.
 
On the physical level, a big detox of all the drugs, alcohol, and smoke that I consumed up until I started this journey 9 years ago.
 
Thanks for taking this in with me. I needed to unpack this a bit for myself and yet I felt to share as it may serve in its own way. It is both a personal chronicling and a shared experience.
 
We are all in a time of great change. How we are with those changes greatly influence how we move through them and where we land on the other side.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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