Category: Sacred Feminine

Bridging To Our Metasoul Aspects Through Sacred Union Within And With Our Counterpart Mate

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By Jelelle Awen

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I allow Mareeka’s energies to be in this most intimate space between my beloved mate Raphael and I during our love making together because I feel that she needs it. Her sadness and mourning over her separation from her greatest love, Maliki, have been with me for a couple of days now, flitting in and out during moments that trigger it to come up. Now, she is taking in the love, the passion, the connection, the intimacy that flows between Raphael and I. Maliki’s energies come through Raphael to meet and connect with Mareeka’s. The language of Atlantis flows from both of our mouths and creates a spiraling energy in the air between us….. feeling both familiar, foreign, and also very powerful.

Mareeka’s energies come through me because I invite them in. Mareeka is a Metasoul sister of mine who lives during the time of the last era of Atlantis before it collapses. Mareeka is what has commonly been called a ‘past life.’ I have been offered that in higher dimensional consciousness there is no linear time, so, therefore, the energies of these soul experiences and expressions live in the Now. Relating to them that way rather than in the ‘past’ recognizes the impact that their ‘bleeding through’ has on us in our current lifetimes. Our Metasoul is the higher dimensional Soul source from which we are a fractal projected out from with many expressions off of each of our Metasouls into different timelines spanning parallel universes, species, planets, and dimensions. I explain more about it and Mareeka in this article: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/06/05/healing-from-the-fall-of-atlantis-and-connecting-with-our-metasoul/.

Raphael has been connecting with Maliki, who is a Metasoul brother of his and High Priest/King in Atlantis that is initially very in love with Mareeka, yet ends up falling under the influence of shadow-based Reptilians and transforms into Mordecai. Mordecai seems to have a pivotal role in the collapse of Atlantis, has become estranged from Mareeka, and eventually spirals into madness as his inner darkness takes over. It ‘sounds’ like a fiction story, I know, yet the textures of this are very real as they ground into my heart and Raphael’s too. During some moments of conflict and tension between Raphael and I recently, we eventually identified that it had been mostly Mareeka and Mordecai coming through us to create this ‘crazy making’ kind of sense that what we are in conflict about wasn’t from or about this lifetime at all.

I wanted to share more about this process of connecting with Metasoul aspects as it unfolds in a real time process for me with Mareeka. This is the same as the process for being with subpersonalities or parts of you that originate from this life experiences that have created stuck energies within your emotional body. I hold Mareeka with tenderness and I bring her into my everyday life. She went to the beach with me yesterday, just as she joined Raphael and I in the bedroom. She was listening during my recent space holding sessions. She offered her opinions on my hair style, my clothing, my living space (which didn’t meet with her approval since she is used to fine and beautiful physical settings and I live in a very simple apartment in the moment.) I connected with her again in the early morning and she thanked me very much for bringing her into my world. She said that it is offering her peace to feel how the love between her and Maliki lives on through Raphael and I.

I cannot change the collapse of Atlantis or Mareeka’s destiny to die with it. I cannot change Maliki’s transformation into Mordecai and her loss of him. Her and I both know this and have tearfully accepted it. Yet, I can help to heal with her some of her heart pains, offer my compassion and companionship, and allow a bridge for her to her beloved through the heart of mine, Raphael. In exchange, she is sharing and infusing me with her exquisite sense of beauty, her regal Queen essence, and her very powerful access to Cosmic Divine Energies. Mareeka may be heart broken in one way, but she is also a very gifted priestess, initiate, and teacher. As our love for each other grows in this organic way through regular and committed connection, so do the gifts between us flow both ways more fluidly.

I feel that sharing about my experience with Mareeka is the most transparent way that I can teach about and offer this connection process with a Metasoul sister or brother as a clear and very effective path to heal that which has previously felt evasive, murky, and difficult to relate with.  These energies from the Metasoul can bleed into this life, pushing up intense reactions and triggers without you really understanding why or where they come from. Some of the emotions that the Metasoul coming through can push up are depression, despair, not wanting to ‘live’ or of wanting to go home, rage that doesn’t seem to connect to any present life triggers or conditions, distrust of life/others/the Divine.

This seems to be especially true during sacred union connections for which the partners are what we call, “Counterpart souls”, as I feel that Raphael and I are to each other. Counterpart souls share many timelines together with corresponding Metasoul expressions in opposite gender pairings during these lifetimes. One seems to ‘choose’ masculine expression and the other feminine. I began to notice a couple of years ago that whenever a new soul aspect would come through, there would be a corresponding masculine aspect that Raphael would feel deep resonance with or connect with first, which would then open out my connection. We have experienced this with Pleiadian Metasoul aspects (Leeza and Leviathan), Arcturian (Binkh and Pantha), ‘historical’ Boudicca and Prasutagus, ‘religious’ Martin Luther and Katharina, Avalon (Morgaine and Arthur) and others. Sometimes we are experiencing these energies in an archetypal way rather than associating that our Metasoul has necessarily been each of these.

Each connection with these Metasoul pairings infuses our this life relationship with expanding frequencies of soul connection, soul purpose clarity, healing of karmic binds and patterns, and can be linked to emotional wounding expressions from this life too. Raphael and I are starting to put together a book about Sacred Union, which will include much more about this exploration into being Counterpart Souls and how it contrasts from the Twin Flame paradigm.

Connection with Metasoul aspects becomes more possible as you deepen access to your Inner Protector or Soul Guardian (which we also call a ‘daemon). Your Soul Guardian acts as a gatekeeper to your Metasoul line, protecting and regulating what you can remember and when. Direct negotiation with this aspect of yourself and also consciously healing your emotional body allows the pipeline of access to these soul frequencies to come through. Your Soul Guardian needs to feel that you can emotionally handle it, that you are supported by Divine guides for the exploration, and that you are genuinely interested in your own healing.

Much of what we experience as suffering in our lives comes from not being consciously connected to the source of that suffering. Becoming conscious and LOVING what we discover allows for the suffering to move into frequencies of aliveness, joy, magic, intimacy, soul gift expression, and deeper inhabitation of our sacred humanity!

We hold space for the exploration of Metasoul aspects, helping you to create a conscious connection with your Inner Protector and other parts of you, and facilitating the process of bridging between your emotional body and your soul. You can read more about the SoulFullHeart process and sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheartawakeningprocess

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sacred Human, Arising Wonder – New Book By Jelelle Awen Available Now!

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You are a Sacred Human. You are an arising wonder. You are becoming a fifth dimensional (5D) Human through the process of awakening and ascension along with the planetary consciousness known as Gaia (Earth). This is a challenging time to be a Human here as so many people still live in conscious suffering even as their souls are awakening and they are having life altering spiritual experiences. The healing, awakening, and integration of our emotional bodies WITH our souls is the place we are being invited to go at the cutting edge of our consciousness evolution as Humans who chose as souls to come and BE here during this transformative time. The ultimate purpose and reason for the ascension process is remembered as the service of love WITH others as it overflows from self love and a healthy emotional body and freed up soul.
Emoto-Spiritual Teacher and Author Jelelle Awen offers the BIG picture of what is happening during this phase of ascension from a galactic, yet also personal perspective, which you can also apply to your daily life. Through her connection to her Higher Self, Ethereal Guides, and as a facilitator and teacher for others, she provides loving guidance to navigate as our hearts are invited to vibrate at higher Christ Consciousness frequencies of health from a mature emotional body; as our bodies transition from carbon-based to crystalline; as our souls bring awakening, illumination, meaning and purpose into our awareness; and as our minds let go of 3D conditioning/programming and expand into multidimensional thinking.

Sacred Human, Arising Wonder invites you into feeling how it is your emotional body and the congestions and wounding that remain there which can keep intact a third dimensional, conditioned, self-image based version of you who can block love and keep suffering patterns intact in your life. Undigested traumas from this life and from other lifetimes create fixed energies within your emotional body that form into distinct subpersonalities running on subconscious conditioning programs and fear-based defensiveness. Through connection and negotiation with these parts of you, these energies move, transform, and eventually integrate into your 5D self.

The nonlinear, explorational writings in Sacred Human are both practical and transcendent, offering you guidance as you journey through the often painful, yet ultimately magical process of ascension, awakening, and enlightenment. Each section offers Jelelle’s loving, catalytic energy to invite you into expanded consciousness around the seven main areas of life: Emotional, Spiritual, Mental, Social, Physical, Financial, and Environmental. This book also provides writings about love, sacred femininity, and sacred union with self and your sacred union mate, plus guided meditations to raise your vibrational frequency, clean your chakras, connect with your Inner Protector, and much more.

From the book:

You are invited to remember that you ARE Infinite Love and to go on a journey to remember this. It is an inner journey of awakening, feeling, healing, ascending, and loving. It is an inner journey of exploration and discovery. It is an inner journey to embody your Sacred Humanity.

It is a journey of reunion with aspects of yourself that you may have forgotten, buried, or suppressed in your psyche or emotional body. Aspects that live in the stars. Aspects that live in other dimensions and parallel universes. Aspects that live in the higher, Angelic realms.

It is a journey of remembering that which you ARE as a soul and letting go of that which you are not. It is remembering that you are Infinite Love and anything LESS in your expression is something else for which you are NOT.

This is a journey, yes, and, also, you already ARE all of this. There is nothing to be fixed or that is wrong with you as you ARE this already in your essence. This is the truth that your Higher Self knows as it remembers, as it already IS this. And so it IS.

 

Click here or above for the e-book….

Click here for the print edition….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

For Jelelle’s Birthday: To Jelelle Awen, As We Celebrate YOUR Day!

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by Kalayna Colibri

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For all that you hold and have held…

Thank you.

For all that you’ve been through, moved through, found your way to the other side through…

Thank you.

For your courage to be human AND spread your wings too…

Thank you.

For the beauty you are, that you have and that you add in every moment to this world…

Thank you.

For the realness and reality of your truest being, the messy, the light, the shadowy depths and the highest reaches of hallowed sweetness…

Thank you.

For your depths of creativity, your sacred feminine alchemy, your vulnerable, mesmerizing leadership…

Thank you.

For all those times of bringing me back in, bringing me your truth, opening your heart to more love and holding difficult though necessary boundaries that have helped both you and I grow SO much…

Thank you.

For your constant templating, your reminders of how to love and advocate for yourself…

Thank you.

For ALL of the double vision led NEWnesses of incoming rumbles that lead to sweeter lands and waters for true soul and heart substance and sustenance…

Thank you.

For all of the hugs, the reflections, the sessions, the guidance, the LOVE…

Thank you.

I feel as if I couldn’t thank you enough for all that your heart and soul have been and signed up for and walked through with me, with us, and on your own too. There’s no word beyond “thank you” in our spoken language, yet LOVE seems to be the one that surpasses it all…

So in love, with love, for love and by love… I LOVE you and LOVE that we get to share LOVE and grow in LOVE together.

Happy day of your human birth into this lifetime and this dimension, Soul, Heart and Energy BEing, Jelelle Awen! ❤

Emotional Ascension: Saying Goodbye To Say Hello

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For those that are awakening to their own soul yearnings, it can be a somewhat bitter sweet experience.  The sweet part is feeling how life is so much grander and limitless than the one you had been previously subscribing to.  Or a least a part of you was.  This part of you, your 3D self, was made necessary to interface in this density to survive and yet also grow.   Different souls have been awake or awakening a long time, while others are just now being popped into it by some special circumstance that may be still a mystery.  Either way you are here and life in 3D, and maybe even 4D, just isn’t jiving with  what you know INside to be what you want or were meant to be.

You can be involved in so many things that are meant to help open up more in your soul domain.  Yoga, meditation, retreats, reading, etc.  And they most certainly do! I know I would not have the context and tools necessary to continue my soul growth if it wasn’t for them.  But as you continue to enlighten your soul, there is also the reality of the Heart. You can only fly so far when you are tethered to an emotional pain.  As much as a part of you would love to transcend or simply release the internal struggle, the truth is it just won’t until we face it with a willingness to feel it.

This can show up mostly in our relationships, or lack thereof.  Relationship to mates, family, friends, work, community, geography, and even ourselves.  The list of our emotional connections is wide and vast.  When you desire to really go ¨all-in¨ to your spiritual ascension you will inevitably be confronted with the reality of these relationships.  If you are to really thrive and be in joy, as your soul really wants for itself and you, it becomes harder to be in the energy that once kept you down.  Kept you small.  Because now you are waking up to your bigness.

Since we are all energy, the energy you find ourselves among has a great effect on your ability to raise it…and for good.  Not just for a brief period of time to get over certain humps.  The hard part is that you may find yourself then realizing that some of those around you may have to be let go of if you are going to truly grow and feel alive.  This includes all possibilities…even your children at some point.  This is not talked about often as there is so much energy tied up in the binds that hold us together.  Whether it be conditioned, familial, or karmic.  The sacred cows of our emotional pasture.

The power of this bind is grounded in fear.  A fear that you will hurt someone irrevocably and the guilt felt by a part of you.  A fear that you will get a harsh reaction and a rejection.   A fear that your self-image will take a big hit.  I remember this all to well in my early process and can feel the same energies if I were to have to complete a relationship that no longer served my growth.  It is a difficult process to enter into but one that ultimately leads to the best for all involved.

IF what you really desire lies beyond what the state of what your current relationships offer, then it is the most integrous and loving thing to do to see where the ground between you and another can deepen or complete.  You get to honor all of what as been between you AND invite for something more.  Otherwise you are just keeping the same energetic tie in the same frequency that no longer brings you the joy you are wanting.  I say this with the knowing that it is not easy to come to these realizations, as I have had to do the same.  I advocate for feeling this as I know what lies on the other side of this most challenging of crucibles for the part of you that is so very attached.

This is a negotiated process that is held in compassion and not just lightly felt.  It is a one-felt-step-at-a-time journey.  Getting to know the part or parts of you that have their own reasons for not wanting to bridge the emotional and spiritual gaps that are currently in your space together.  This is honored and felt.  Your large heart and soul hold the space for this walking through.  As you emerge from these exchanges a freer and more authentic version of you gets to inhabit all those soul gifts you have been accessing and watering.  You begin to take flight with a more healed heart and a new timeline that will hopefully include the ones you had to cut ties with as they too see what growth you are expressing.  In that way you have just made some quantum effects.

This was inspired by all those that have been moving through these crucibles and those that are in the midst of them.  It was also inspired for those who are feeling the struggle within and can sense change is on the horizon as you can no longer stay in the status quo any longer.  I honor all of the choices as ones that are meant for this moment as they lead us to the very next one.  SoulFullHeart is here to offer the heart space to make these epic changes a bit more sane and with as much love as you can possibly let in.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Entering Conscious Intimacy

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Entering into new intimate relationship, whether romantic, soul friendship, or with a community, there is an immediate rush of excitement and healthy fear.  There is an awareness that life as you now know it will not be the same.  Our soul knows this and advocates for this as it is never meant to stay in stasis.  We may have been praying for this for a long time consciously, or sometimes it just hits us out of the blue (at least to our conscious self anyway).  When it does and when it is something that is truly meant to be a game changer, there is inevitably a rumble that enters the emotional body that brings up layers of resistance even among the excitement and curiosity.

For some this is a time to walk along the river bank, noticing its terrain, and its taking in the rivers’ waters.  Stepping on each stone with reverence and caution.  Maybe at some point one hits that certain stone and just slips right in and away they go!  For others it is a full-on dive into the unknowable and letting each twist and turn arise with what they need next for their growth.  Either way something sacred is being entered into and will assuredly change us in ways that we can never fully know.

The guide here is our own vulnerability.  That is the life vest.  It keeps us current of each step, and of each turn.  The more we are able to bring our fears and resistances, the more we are able deepen our relationship to ourselves and others.  To be in a process ground and community like SoulFullHeart, you are given handrails and heart support all along the way.  This is through both human and ethereal relationship.  It is a brand new paradigm for our protectors to let in that we are not in this alone.  That even in the fear of losing everything, the greatest gift is feeling that all the way to its core to find the You that is holding it.

This new conscious intimacy that makes way for more ground of deepening and expanding is a magic in itself.  Those that have started this process can attest the epic ways in which life has been forever shifted and changed.  Those that have just begun can tell that this is unlike anything they have ever encountered and are taking each new step as they come.  And there are those who walk along the bank waiting for that moment when it feels safe enough to enter.  All is part of the process set in motion long before we had any awareness of it.

I felt to take stock of what this conscious intimacy has been leading in my life and the life of others as we enter other unknown group call. What new depths will others become aware of?  What new connections will be made?  Who will be guided to answer the personal call for healing and community?  Or who will be enjoying the rushing waters of the SoulFullHeart energy and feel for themselves what their next steps are?

This all part of the dance of intimate relationship and how it has the power to make great changes no matter how far one ventures to walk.  It is Love that is leading the way and what ultimately happens is all in service to that Love we find ourselves so aching to feel.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Truly And Purely Serving Love

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By Jelelle Awen

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When you are coming from serving love….truly and purely coming from serving love….the questions of ‘how’ are no longer an issue. The questions of what you can ‘do’ fade away as you come from response, as you are responding to the love that is coming and being drawn to you. You can truly and purely come from serving love as you feel the aspects of you that have resistance, fear, doubts, pain, trauma around service and around sharing your gifts and around BEing your soul purpose here.

These frequencies live in the undigested places in the emotional body and in the soul field too from other lifetimes. They always have GOOD reason for being there that is based on REAL feelings that need to be felt. Bypassing them or trying to go around them or transcending them in order to serve others creates a foundation that is shaky, that feels forced, or just doesn’t lead to the fulfillment and nourishment that you most deeply want at the soul level. It usually collapses eventually, under the weight of what has gone unfelt and unaddressed or what had tried to be disowned. The parts that have been ‘holding up’ this service ‘burn out’ or ‘give up’ or ‘want to shut the whole thing down’ because they need the rest and just can’t do it anymore.

Serving love to self and all your aspects then leads to an overflow to serve love WITH others. There is no strategy to this, ultimately, as it is the opposite of strategic. It is the authentic essence of YOU meeting and dancing with the authentic essence of OTHER, bringing out the authenticity in each other, bringing out the soul, bringing out love. I am discovering this more and more lately as I am serving more love in sessions as my daily reality now. There is a joy in this service, even when the tones and textures are difficult and painful that come up to be felt in the heart and soul for the women I am holding space for. The joy comes ultimately in just BEing me, without seemingly self image around it after many years of working with parts of me that HELD edges and fear and self image. I am just serving love, and watching as it brings light to the dark, love to the fear, and possibilities to what has previously felt impossible!

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing Inner Patriarchy, Guided Meditation To Connect With Your Inner Protector/Mother Mary/Magdalena (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

This is the recording of the women’s group call yesterday with Kalayna Colibri and I. I recommend this for women AND men, as I discuss quite a bit about the patriarchy (wounded masculine expression) and how this energy LIVES inside of us as parts of us, which we come to love and embrace. This dominating energy (which we have ALL chosen on a soul level to live out its dominance as a collective) lives in our soul legacies too and the themes that we are exploring in other lifetimes. It also impacts (and can block) our experience and access of connection with Divine Mother and Divine Feminine guides in the deeply personal and visceral way that is possible. I talk about how the SoulFullHeart process and access to and healing with the emotional body allows for the healing, integration, and transmutation of these patriarchal energies in the emotional body and in the soul field to allow more inner feminine to arise and to BE.

I also offer a soothing yet powerful guided meditation to connect with the frequencies of Mother Mary (as healthy Mother) and Magdalena (as healthy Queen) to infuse you with Divine Feminine energies to replace the ones that you have let go off from 3D birth family relationships. You also connect with your Inner Protector during this meditation, the part of you that guards and protects the ‘castle’ of your essence, your inner femininity, your inner child, etc.

The personal sharings are edited out of the call recording, yet, really, THIS is the HEART of this experience of BEing on one of these calls. It is the sense that you are NOT alone in your journey to grow, to heal, to arise, to remember, to CHOOSE your soul and higher self. Each sharing brings in a different frequency, a vulnerable presentation of what is real, inviting ALL out to share too from this space. I finish these calls with a sense that not just the women IN the call have been served with love, but the collective ONE has been as well and all who are connected to us through our heart chords. I feel blessed, honored, and grateful to hold the space for this energy of vulnerable bravery to heal what is real to go out into the collective!

If you’d like to join our next group calls coming up in June (including our next women’s call on June 17th and a group call for both women and men next May 27th) please go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls.

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Looking Inward To Experience Our Sacred Feminine Essence

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by Kalayna Colibri

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This beautiful artwork is by Mara Berendt Friedman

http://www.newmoonvisions.com

 

So much effort and money spent on creating femininity on the outside…. so many messages of what to wear, how to look, how this is all going to make us feel if we do it properly, use the right products, stay with the trends. A grab bag of potential personal styles, looks to pull from, ways to feel more “feminine”, and yet… did we? In the deeper sense of what it means to be a woman, did/does this make us feel more whole?

We stitch and pull at body parts, pin back our hair, shave or wax parts of our bodies where hair grows naturally. We do this to feel more attractive. We often have no other sense of attractiveness living inside of us… until we do. Then we may enter phases of rebellion, pushing back against all of this. Or our daughters do. This is another necessary phase of the yin rediscovery, just as necessary as the stitching and pulling. It’s a journey back to who we are in our essence, putting on layers only to peel them back again, go back in again, find that stillness we’ve always had somewhere inside the inside of us, where our truest sacred femininity dwells, cradled in a nest of fire, water, earth and air.

It’s a call we feel in different life chapters, floating in and out of our consciousness. We heal from being in the shadow of our mothers and sisters. We heal from being in front of the media and mirrors. We begin to actually love what and who we are, finding the bristles and thorns we’ve been avoiding and loving them too, eventually… the process is a process inside of a process, and it’s all worth it to find that Queen who is spineful yet not spiteful. Who is still and yet moves with deliberate grace, despite the necessary mess of finding more to heal inside.

She is here, she is there, inside and beside you, waiting to be rebirthed into a reality that is becoming firmer and friendlier for her to float in and out of. She is there and she has no sword. She is a naked Queen, in all of her curves and natural essential ISness. She IS. As you and I ARE, man or woman. And there is SO MUCH love for every leg and every river of this journey back inward.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

From Filters to Wings: How Our Pictures Hold Love Back

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So much goodness.  So many possibilities of love finding its way into and through our hearts.  An endless mosaic of dreamscapes that we can inhabit and experience.  As the depths of this ‘reality` begin to show itself more and more, I can feel the parts of me that can resist that somehow with old conditioned responses that served to block all of this out of our fear and lack of worth.  

This is an epic time in my personal life as well as SoulFullHeart.  A new possibility of sacred romance has lapped upon my shores and that has stirred up all sorts of reactions that serve only to squelch desire.  One thing that has come so clear is how a part of us can use a picture of how things will feel or look like when we desire something.  I can feel an openness to All Things but when there is a shadow piece that still lies inside of my heart, Love WILL expose it to lovingly test that openness.  

This is what the process of ascension feels like to me. Yes, the vibration of Gaia is raising, our collective consciousness is doing the same, but not without exposing that which still needs to be felt and addressed that hold us in a state of rigidness or fear.  To be open to letting IN and BEing Love, we have to let some pictures go of what that means to a part of us. Love has no plan or objective other than to love.  How that expresses is up to our willingness to surrender these pictures at the door.  We may not even be aware of these pictures until it just hits us.  

This is also happening in regards to my healing and growth.  I could tell you that 5 years ago I had no idea that I would be co-leading a men’s healing offering.  It just became a clarion call that I have responded to one step at a time.  I am learning to let go of what it will look like or BE like and who will respond.  All I can do is feel the desire, passion, and call and respond to that.  Listen to my inner guidance system and see what unfolds.  It WILL take me to challenging places and need to be with the parts of me that may have some resistance or doubts.  

The Call to BE, Enjoy, and Serve Love is a truly blessed offering.  It comes with its ‘requirements’ of feeling and making conscious all the ways in which we filter and block that invitation. Unless we are able to see outside of ourselves, we can be fused to this filter and need others to reflect back to us this energy of resistance.  This can even block or filter messages from our guides.  This is where being in conscious healing community offers so much to our growth and support with our ascension.  It doesn’t have to be done in isolation but in compassionate sacred space with someone who has been working their own process for years.  
I am grateful to be a part of this beautifully unknown experiment of Love.  I am being given another opportunity to feel and heal what keeps Love from sending me to the heights of Joy and Service.  I get to be felt, feel, and give love.  The filters and blocks are all sacred and honored as portals into my next timeline of letting in MORE love.  How could I not want THAT?!  Well, that is why I need to feel these parts and turn them into wings and open arms.  

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Emerging Out Of Mother’s Shadow

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen

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Emerging out of the shadow of Mother….sometimes peeking around, sometimes bursting forth. Yet, you need to emerge at some point to claim and to BE who you are BESIDES and BEYOND her. She served as a form for you to wrap around for a phase of time. Yet, the scaffolding she provided is meant to be let go of so that your essence can stand on its own ground, so it can arise into your NEW.

Whether your mother is passed, you are very close to her, you haven’t spoken to her in many years….STILL does her influence live in your emotional body, in parts of you that absorbed her like a sponge. Just as she did with HER mother and she did with HER mother and on and on, the heritage and legacy of mothering.

Getting some space from birth mother and the merging there that parts of you did because they HAD to in order to survive…..feeling these parts of you, especially your Inner Mother, and how, even beyond genetics, you inherited her energetically, emotionally, spirituality, in your chakras. She went in to the depths and cores of you, like mortar fitting in around all your foundations.

Letting go of your birth mother to let in YOUR mothering inside, your nurturing, your comfort, your capacities to mother yourself and to care for yourself and all the aspects inside that need you. You becoming mother to your Inner Child and your Inner Teenager….loving them as you would your own children, cherished and BEloved.

To extract yourself from this birth mother template, to start letting it go is also to begin LETTING IN love with the Divine Mother. So many faces and energies and forms of Divine Feminine can come to you. Being held in the arms of Mother Mary, Dancing in joy with Magdalena, Feeling the death and rebirth cycles with Kali/Dark Mother, Exploring your Egyptian queen with Isis, Being stillness with Kuan Yin. She can BE what you need, what you missed, what you long for. Just ask, open your heart, make space, and She will come.

This process of ‘defusing’ from your birth mother may ask you to take space from your current relationship with her. To begin advocating for what you want, who you are, and to see what can arise anew between you. And sometimes the relationship is just too toxic or not nourishing for you to remain in it, especially if you are awakening and she is not. Or you just need space to feel who YOU ARE beyond her. …..and Divine Mother is ALWAYS there waiting to support you and to guide you in the process of remembering who you authentically ARE as a Sacred Human in feminine form!

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.