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Tipping & Turning Point In Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

This is a tipping and turning point for so many awakening souls it seems, especially as we emerge out of the 10:10 portal (“1” of new beginnings and the ‘O’ of the void space) and into the eclipse passage and then through 11:11. This is a potent time of year for death and rebirth and for tensions held at the cellular level to be revealed and resolved.

This year feels even more heightened with peaking Matrix/war/Great Reset agendas, personal sufferings/traumas, housing/survival based struggles, money tightness and scarcity, relationship issues/completions/break ups, false light/teacher community abuses and collapses, body illness/symptoms….ALL of it coming up against a place of intolerance to fear and our Divine self/sacred humanity embodiment. Anything fear based and in shadow is wanting to be transmuted by and with love.

I’ve felt an upgrading process going on for myself recently too, illuminated by a visceral and cellular trauma clearing at the physical and emotional levels triggered by a real life situation here. I really had to BE with these energies and emotions, allowing them and feeling directly the part of me who was experiencing them, using them as a portal, and offer a loving and compassionate heart space for this part to sink into.

After some necessary guttural tears (those that come from deep in the gut, deep from the womb), digestion with Raphael, and an ambassadorship to the source of the pain (in ‘other’ form yet still just a reflection of me), I feel another degree in my seat of centered self, in goodness in my life and in a current flow of increased service. A fear knot that was drawn this life yet comes from a soul source (as always) is dissolving as I respond to the tension that needs my attention.

I wanted to share some wisdoms/soul guidances that came through me and in collaboration with other bright souls in intros, sessions with me and during our community gathering in the last couple weeks…you can feel what resonates for you too:

– Sometimes you need an ‘outer home’ that represents heaven, beauty, and is a truly safe sanctuary for you. You need this for a phase of time to remind you of what is possible. And, then, sometimes this home is ‘taken away’ from you, sometimes suddenly and in a way that can leave some trauma (in this case it was during a sudden flood). This is actually a reminder and a recoding that ‘sanctuary is within you’, ‘safety is within you’, ‘beauty is within you’. Feeling the parts of you who have focused outward and feel trauma when this ‘home’ is taken away, you can invite them into the sanctuary of your heart.

– Inner masculine and Inner feminine dynamics are being illuminated in relationships that have been limiting in some way. Not necessarily abusive or outright toxic, yet rather the more subtle kinds of misalignments, outgrowing previous soul contracts, and lack of resonance in awakening that can take years to fully be ‘done’ with. The masculine feels so much pressure, tension, control, inadequacy, and protection over the growing sense of dissatisfaction, unhappiness, and hurt in the inner feminine who just wants MORE and isn’t able to get it in the bond esp as he retracts away.

His need to be needed hits her want to be wanted and a polarization occurs, collapse of vulnerability and intimacy. Inside and outside, this is a tense place to live long term and eventually it runs out of ground as mercy and compassion leads to completion on the outside and resolution on the inside.

– The cycle of suffering itself becomes the addiction, not the outward behavior of abusing food, alcohol, work or in relationships. The loop of the inner punisher (working out of a hijacked need of self protection) judging and controlling the inner child, which crushes them into a shame place, an unworthiness place, and a hurt place. Which just leads the Punisher to up the ante on the suffering loop, drawing life circumstances and relationships that amplify and reflect this. Feeling and connecting with both parts of the looping, coming in between them with compassionate self love, allows this cycle to complete on the inside and outside.

– There is increased desire coming up to offer service to others and follow soul purpose. This is meant to activate in an overflow of love as you awaken or parts of you can become too isolated, too self absorbed, too oriented to ‘self’. Service to others in a clean way (not false light/ego gratification or for money-motivation or to control/have power over others) can only arise as the inner and outer personal relationships are healing from traumas, protections, and projections. Moving from trauma bonds to resonant bonds.

True service is a reflection of the depth of intimacies in your life, not a compartment for which you ‘show up as a professional’. In the overflow of nourishing relationships (inside and out), you are able to then overflow that love to others in service WITH them as a mirror of the goodness possibilities.-

– At some point, the ‘parts work process’ has to drop away so that the Divine Self embodiment can occur and deepen. It is a temporary bridge, very helpful for a time, yet can be crutch to the degree there isn’t deeper Divine surrender and leaning in. Even beloved mentors and teachers (including me of course) can only hold a mirror, not be substitutes for deeper going into your own embodiment initiations in which your soul ‘takes over’ from there.

And I received this wonderful testimonial this week too,

“Thank you for everything Jelelle! I am feeling MUCH better and can eat again and have already put 4 pounds back on and not feeling nausea. I am so thankful for you!!! You helped me a lot and I hope my testimony will encourage others to go to you for help. – Beth

If you are drawn to a free intro call over zoom, 1:1 session over zoom or here in Portugal and ongoing mentoring support, with me, Raphael (for men), or Kasha (for women) PM me/us and there is more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

You are also invited to join us for a healing cycles of suffering group call on Sunday, October 15th in which we will dive into some of these areas, plus offer a meditation/sound transmission journey. Info about offering a donation to attend/get the recording at soulfullheart.org/events.

Pic of me was taken on the lovely cliffs at Nazare, at the central Portugal coast, a place of beloved soul activations and remembrances for me

A Message To Gatekeepers: Unification/Forgiveness/Reconciliation/Light Codes And Yeshua/Magdalene/Christ Consciousness Available Right Now To Tap Into And Download

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By Bey Magdalene

In my last session with Jelelle we met my actual/new Gatekeeper as she wanted to bridge me to my higher dimensional Gatekeeper for support. Who came forward was an energy that in the course of the session would call himself ‘Sampson’. We found him in a scene very similar to the Matrix movie. He was staring at thousands upon thousands of those pods from the movie, all representing an incarnation into a Matrix timeline in my soul. I could see many of them actually awakening from their slumber, sitting up and becoming aware of themselves, unplugging and rinsing off the Matrix waters. My soul awakening. 

He was watching those pods and seeing and feeling all the pain, trauma and victimization all of these metasoul aspects of mine were experiencing. It was as if he was experiencing those timelines himself, through my soul aspects, just by witnessing them. He was caught in a sticky web and couldn’t see anything else. 

Jelelle asked him to take a step back and to try and project this experience onto a screen, so he could start to differentiate from them and breathe. He projected those timelines onto a screen and there were many others, showing all the traumatizing Matrix timelines. It looked like a control center with all those monitors. That gave him some distance to these experiences and he could start to differentiate from them and not feel as if they were happening to him. 

Jelelle was inviting him to turn to nature to further help him unplug from his fusion to those matrix timelines. He was dialing in a big tree with a very thick trunk with deep roots and a sizable, overarching canopy. He touched the textured bark and started to rest by the tree. Then, magically, little light sparkles came through the tree that felt like Divine inspiration coming through. He started feeling and becoming lighter and started feeling hope. Tears could stream as well through Divine love and support.

That was pretty much all he could let in at that time and then he needed to go rest and retreat again. 

I have been connecting with him since and I could feel that it was him who had already unplugged so much in my process over the past few months, plug after plug. I started to get answers to questions I’ve been having about this life.  

I’ve had many deep tears with him since, sometimes he would cry for an hour straight, when I would feel with him the Love and loyalty he has for me and my soul and how he has tried to protect me this life through some really thick veils of keeping me naive/uninformed about core issues in this world or by suppressing my awakening that tried to happen ten years ago already and still has been controlling/capping it to this day. 

There has also been a lot of shame and guilt in him and unworth too, about not being able to really do anything for me or protect my metasoul aspects from trauma.  

Initially, he would show up like light shaped in human form and he was a bit elusive. He felt he didn’t deserve a face or shape because he couldn’t protect my soul, he couldn’t help my other expressions/incarnations in other lifetimes.  

A couple of days ago then he actually took a form and represented himself as a (Roman) warrior with helmet, shield and sword. His protection had become overprotective I could feel and he could feel that too and he started to loosen his grip around it, as he started recognizing my bigness and the power of my heart and of feeling. 

Since I started awakening on a deeper level to how our world is set up and works since the beginning of this ‘pandemic’, I have felt very drawn to the mind control aspect of it all and particularly the trauma based programming that celebrities receive in order to have them fall in line with the elite agenda, whose darkest expressions include satanic rituals. After having needed a break from taking in anything related to that kind of thing and generally alternative/actual news/facts on world/current or historical events, my interest in them has been sparked again since meeting Sampson. 

I have started to take in some comprehensive articles again that are very well researched and explain in detail about all the Cabal structures, events and expressions in the entertainment industrial complex (a good site for this is The Vigilant Citizen, if you are curious yourself). I have been particularly drawn to the MK Ultra programming in the music industry and even more specifically the Beta/Sex Kitten programming that creates sex slaves for the elite. 

Two nights ago, something peaked for me in that area and I could feel that my heightened interest in this topic was actually what we call in SoulFullHeart a ‘bleed-through’… I could feel a Satanic timeline coming through. It felt like a portal was opened through taking in these articles and I could see and feel the female human sacrifice on the altar and a ceremony master whose incantations of certain words opened up a portal to the underbelly of humanity and invoked very dark spirits. I could feel that Sampson was living there too, with my metasoul aspect, trying to help her by being there as a support/to witness, and because he’s loyal and just sucked into the trauma too. 

I was realizing afterwards that this timeline/portal had already bled through in the past for me. It was about 2.5 years ago and I remember feeling completely fused to that bleed through and being terrified to death. Back then, I was living a very nomadic lifestyle, moving from workaway to workaway (a type of work exchange for food and shelter) and my Gatekeeper was drawing quite some intense drama/trauma as well, to get my attention and look on the inside where that trauma lived. My inner and outer circumstances were not providing a save space to explore this timeline in. Now, I am settling deeper into my own little 1-bedroom-apartment/sanctuary here in Central Portugal, I am in a much more loving place on the inside, having felt and moved so many parts of myself from hell to heaven, and I’m surrounded by community who can support me in my inner explorations.

Yesterday was a very powerful Yeshua/Christ Consciousness portal day and the codes were streaming in undeniably. In my check-in with him yesterday morning, I didn’t feel that it was timely to go into this timeline because he felt very beat and in despair. That is also the kind of timeline I’d want support with, so it would be perfect for session or group setting. Instead, I felt to bridge him to some Divine love and support, like I have tried in many of my connections with him, but he hadn’t been ready for it thus far. I needed to feel more of his pain with him first.  

Yesterday morning, I needed to feel with him first that trauma, the matrix and even Satan is more real to him than God. It is really interesting, I have to say at this point, that the fear of feeling something is always, always more disempowering and rendering our parts and aspects impotent than actually feeling the feeling. As soon as I felt that feeling with him, it dissipated and the hopelessness and despair that accompanied that notion, too. 

I saw a staircase made from light that was leading up to the Divine/to a higher dimension and it felt like an invitation for Sampson to move into his higher timeline and into Divine support. I could feel his reticence and him not wanting to abandon my soul and leave my soul aspects alone in their trauma.  

Then I felt next to me very clearly Yeshua and that he wanted to talk with Sampson. So I took a moment to feel into him and his message more as I really wanted to help Sampson and myself too and end this cycle of suffering inside of myself. 

When I tuned into him, he had this to offer to my Gatekeeper: ‘I feel your precious loyalty towards Bey and her soul. Thank you so much for all your love and protection for her! But you actually don’t have to hold the soul anymore, you can‘t even, really, especially if you are in so much despair over it. You have been fused to Bey’s Matrix incarnations, living them yourself, feeling they are you. That way, you haven’t been able to see Bey’s soul bigness and trust and lean into that. You are in a trauma bond with Bey‘s soul… Is that fair to say?’ 

He came through very clearly, directly and very embodied too, which was a first for me. When I took a step back and was trying to feel Sampson and how he was taking in what Yeshua was offering, I could feel him a bit confused and disoriented. He didn‘t quite know who was talking. He asked: ‘Is that you, God?’ It took a little while for him but eventually he could let the Divine in the form of Yeshua in and had tears. His tears are just so precious! He responded: ‘Yes, that’s fair to say’… Yeshua reached his hand out to him and invited him to come with him up the stairs to anchor in a higher dimension, to rest, recover and receive support and Love from the Divine. I saw the shackles around his ankles that have tied him to the Matrix opening through the light. 

Before stepping on the stairs, he looked back at me and started to cry again because he didn’t want to leave me and my soul alone. But I actually need him to go with Yeshua now, I need him to leave my body and my field as I want and need to feel myself more and become more solid in myself.  

My guides can also offer him many other things and give him the kind of support that I as a human can’t give him. There’s only so much that I can feel with him and my human heart can support him in but eventually there comes a time where he has to go off and get Divine support, support from my soul and the soul family monad.  

Gatekeepers as disincarnate beings are also not made for the human realm. It is not their environment, their natural habitat if you will, they are not relational like humans either and they just have different needs than we do. So this dimension does not suit them. They do belong to a different one, they have just forgotten. They can still come back and be the Divine muse for their humans and be in a collaborative relationship with them. So, if they decide to differentiate from their human, they won’t ‘lose’ the connection to them. On the contrary, they will have a much more nourishing one with them, or even have one to begin with. 

After reading Raphael’s Golden Nugget from yesterday (77 words of Raphael wisdom every day, here is the link to the one I‘m referring to), I am realizing that Sampson has been able to come up and out because my light as Bey has been shining onto my shadow where he had been hiding. He couldn’t come out with Bianca as he was way too fused to her and thinking he WAS her, living life AS her. 

I feel I am telling you all this and letting you in on my very intimate connection and relationship with my Gatekeeper because I feel there are SO many gatekeepers out there who are in the same position as mine had been. They are living in this dark, parallel world, that is eerie and is only made up of trauma. That world is not connected to your heart, your love and the support that you have access to. In that world, they only see a repetition of yet another lifetime in the Matrix that is the same as all the other traumatic ones and they can’t actually see that you are making different choices this life and that there’s support available this life that hasn’t been there before. 

I want to reach out to them and leave a seed of hope for them and to let them know: I see you and I feel you. And whenever you are ready to let your human go deeper with us, there is support here waiting for you. 

The place they are in is like an echo chamber of trauma and programmed consciousnesses and reactions. It’s like they have Soul PTSD. For me, it has expressed this life as being easily spooked and having deeply visceral body reactions to any situation that scared me easily. I have also been expecting punishment/persecution every corner I turned or with every e-mail I received or from certain people or in my jobs. I‘m also feeling that a LOT of body issues, especially chronic migraines for me since I was a pre-teen, has been connected to him. There has been a combination reaction going on with my Solar Plexus churning and simultaneously my Third Eye which gave me migraines. 

Their world/echo chamber also projects out into this life and filters every situation, relationship, anything really, through that PTSD filter and skews and colours your experience of life and others this way. 

Gatekeepers are also quite loyal to the matrix pain as oftentimes it is the only home they have known, for eons! So that way, it actually needs some negotiation with them to let go of pain home and experience something else. There is tears for them and deep mourning of letting go the Matrix home and they have to be ready for that. Not many Gatekeepers have done that before either! So that‘s also about creating a new template and anchor it in the grids for others to tap into and follow. 

It is also fascinating how one aspect of you (or you yourself) can be so connected to the Divine, yet another is seemingly cut off from this connection, even though that aspect, you and the Divine can be in the same room together. It just needs a little bridging from you to the Divine for that aspect and it needs your trust in your own heart and conviction of your worth and that you are worthy to connect with the Divine and that Divine connection is readily available, if we really want it. It is about trusting your ability and gift of connecting to the Divine. 

It really comes down to the Gatekeeper’s own pacing around awakening as they can be an aspect that is actually quite programmed themselves. This life, my GK was definitely plugged into the social justice warrior consciousness for a short yet intense time. I can feel him needing to recover from that and from the last few years of intense workaway experiences too, that really were all a from of False Light. But that is fodder for a whole other post! 

So, sometimes, it is just holding this energy, connecting with it intentionally and then hanging out until they let you in. Before they show themselves, they can put you through a few tests though, sometimes for years even, so they can be sure you can handle what they need you to feel with them and that you have the support this life as well, inside and out, to respond to their pain. 

Through my connection with Sampson and many other Gatekeepers over the years, they have a special place in my heart and I have so much love for them all. They are such courageous energies/beings and have seen, felt and held so much. They have seen the darkest expressions of humanity and other races. When I feel Sampson, I get teary because I love him so much and I’m so glad he finally decided to trust me, after all the testing he put me through, and the community too, to trust the community and to show himself. I’m SO glad he was feeling to put an end to being in this matrix vortex that kept him sucked in trauma and that he started to let in the possibility of something else for him. A new experience. A union and collaboration with me and with the Divine. A re-membering of his Divine essence and connection. After all, Gatekeepers are the aspects of our soul that are Divine Muses ❤️ 

Love to You and your Gatekeeper! 

Bey Magdalene

https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions 

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Healing The Inner Punisher-Shame Dynamic Within You

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By Jelelle Awen

In sessions with women recently, the Punisher-shame dynamic has been coming up for feeling and healing as it is illuminated in the loving and safe healing field that we create together. It can be SUCH an ingrained and deep dynamic that is largely unconscious and ‘off the radar’ for most people, even those awakening for quite awhile. It can create an ongoing sense that life is hopeless, heavy, confusing, bleak, and without consistent inner/outer movement.

There is ongoing suffering looping that happens when the Inner Punisher part of you is continually criticizing/putting down/creating doubt in other parts of you that respond in shame reactions, usually the Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This punishment/shame loop is an effective way of keeping you safe from moving into your soul bigness, risking hurt/rejection, and is a way to ‘match’ the punishing frequencies around you so that they do less harm. Many Inner Punishers over the years have confessed to me that creating this inner punishment/shame dynamic is the only way to survive it happening on the outside with others (usually caregivers/parents.)

I have discovered that it is one of the MAIN ways that Protector and Punisher parts keep us safe and is actually done out of an intense love for you (even though it can feel anything but loving). It is also a necessary acclimation to the Matrix reality, which runs hugely on polarized energies of judgement of self and others. The Matrix is about division, separation, and push-pull frequencies, so we are programmed and conditioned to them from birth, in addition to our social, educational, and family systems often energizing these frequencies as well.

In the SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we connect with your Inner Protector and eventually your Inner Punisher to create a feeling-based compassionate bridge to them. As you more deeply embody your Divine Self through the process, you are able to truly come to love this part of yourself and understand/feel WHY it has been creating this punishment-shame cycles within you. This allows the Punisher to relax into its TRUE essence of humble discernment and truth telling with love. Also, your Divine Self becomes loving parent to your inner child/teenager, and the Inner Punisher can relax into that as well and stop shaming them, allowing their natural joy, magic, and innocence to express more.

Many healers/teachers also operate from an unconscious ‘fusion’ with their Inner Punisher, which can create ongoing shame loops in their clients/followers. They are sharing truths yet there is a shaming frequency in them that leaves a residue for those receiving them. Usually they have not worked with and connected to the punisher/shame energies within them in a conscious way or unplugged from the judgement Matrix either. This is part of the False Light Matrix in spirituality that can keep it ‘capped’ in polarized energies and abuse cycles between teachers and followers.

I had a very strong Punisher-shame dynamic within me that took a conscious focus over the years to heal, including working with an Inner Mother/Punisher aspect for awhile. I was very self conscious with large amounts of self doubt and ‘drew’ Punishers on the outside to be in relationship with and as my teachers. I now experience little to no self judgement of myself and others in the charged frequencies that I once did, can share my truth/gifts without self consciousness, plus I am surrounded by others and in relationship with a mate who lovingly accept/see/get me. It can be challenging to love these Punishing parts of ourselves, yet with support and some necessary separation/differientation, they can transform to become very beloved aspects of ourselves.

Another Punisher/Shame dynamic can be from the False feminine punisher aspect that we call “Ursula”, named after the evil sea witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is hugely plugged into the Matrix, energizing hijacked false feminine/evil queen energies, competitive, jealous, possessive, and very difficult to separate from unless consciously connected to. Through more Divine Self embodiment and connection with Divine Mother, she is able to unplug from the Matrix and express her unique and powerful energies of the Divine Feminine, plus open up more soul access/activation for you.

If you’d like to dive into these grounds in a deep yet gentle way, 1:1 sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator are 90 minutes over zoom and start at $77 USD, yet we are open to negotiation around that rate, especially if you are wanting to meet more regularly (which we recommend.) We offer a free 30-45 minute intro session beforehand to discuss with you about the process, answer any questions you may have, and give you a sense of who to meet with and where we would go in a session. I meet with women, as does Kasha….Gabriel and Raphael meet with women and men. There is more info about sessions and each of us at soulfullheart.org/sessions. PM me if interested or email through soulfullfullheart.org.

Here is a meditation to connect with the Punisher-Shame dynamic within you:

Here is a meditation and more teaching about your Inner Ursula with Kasha and I:

I share much more about the False Light Matrix and Inner Punisher in my book Free To Be 5D, available as an audio, ebook, print and PDF editions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

With much love and direct/conscious connection with these aspects, you can experience much more love and compassion for yourself and others….along with healthy discernment, passionate truth telling, soul gift embodiment/expression and loving boundary setting.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Reflecting On My Past Decade With SoulFullHeart

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by Kasha Rokshana

Now that I can actually say it’s been 10 years since my deeper healing, awakening, and remembering journey truly began in this lifetime, I’m realizing how little time 10 years actually is. It’s been a very FULL decade though with a lot that I’ve moved through and arisen into, with many waves of deep diving within. It’s been a real and humbling art form to then let the love cultivated flow outwardly to others in intimate relationship, service, and seed-planting.

The pictures of who I thought I would be have dissolved and transformed into something different, with the same essence at heart. These pictures began when my first awakening experiences happened around 20 years ago. Before my SoulFullHeart journey began, parts of me held onto a dream of becoming a well-known actress/performer while also holding space for others and hopefully making bank while doing so.

The ‘sage on a stage’ dream was quickly humbled by the recognition of how much the ‘work’ that I needed to do wasn’t on development and maintenance of a self-image that I could commoditize, or on quick fixes that promised I would overcome all of my doubts and fears with only some effort. Instead, it turned out that the work was inward. VERY inward. So inward in fact, that for a few phases I had to let go of everything that once was a sacred dream in order to let in what the real dream was… a dream of becoming a love so deep and vast and connected to the Divine, that no one and nothing on the outside could touch or taint it, even if this didn’t turn out to make me/parts of me look or seem like the well-known ‘teachers’ of our time, didn’t draw thousands of social media followers or fans, and also didn’t draw a six-figure income.

I also came to realize that even though parts of me could be quite social at times, I was actually more naturally inward and introverted. How many layers I would have had to put on to become what I originally thought I wanted to be! If it was all about love anyways and feeling on some level that I had to ‘earn’ love, then I would have become quite burned out… and I think this is what happens to many souls and the parts that had to form in order to conform to these outward-based needs and this picture of success.

In these last ten years, I’ve learned what service and empathy really mean and where they really seems to come from as both an inherent gift that lies in your heart from birth that’s meant to be shared, but also something that needs to be watered, developed, and made safe to come out. I also learned that being empathic AND compassionate is an art form in and of itself and a humbling one at that…

I’ve learned that what I thought “Sacred Union” was was really only a small picture of what it actually is… and what it actually is needs to be discovered so personally, starting from deep within you between parts of you and in your soul journey too, not simply with another on the outside. It’s taken me so much longer than parts of me thought it would to truly be ready for it and for the growth, mirrors, and depth of love it offers.

I am learning so much more, every day, about Divine feminine embodiment and what it means to be me as an energy expression of Divine Mother and a Divine Daughter. I am continually humbled by what this journey asks of me, the seeds it plants and waters in my heart, and by just how much I love the Divine in my soul… a love that more and more needs less and less from others in a certain way, though some needs remain that are fulfilled by my beloved soul family in the flesh and in the formless. It’s actually been the depth of intimacy I’ve experienced within this community that has done the most to inspire and support my inner shifts, and it’s the openings within me toward the Divine that has also inspired me so deeply and always keeps me going even through the toughest challenges.

These last ten years have been so deeply healing, even when I had to leave the SoulFullHeart room (in one sense of it) and let life be my facilitator/space holder during different phases, or when I had to leave the room of my Sacred Union relationship with Gabriel. I feel grateful for every up and down, every wobble, every triumph.

It was in every doubt and question about myself and my path, especially maybe in those times when I wasn’t been directly supported by the community and had to be ‘on my own’ for a while, that I could quite deeply recognize who I had been and the soul themes I had been working. It was during the times of ‘going without’ that I truly found how to go within, apply what I had learned, and re-enter the SoulFullHeart and Sacred Union rooms as a truly changed woman.

Truthfully, I probably spent 1-2 years out of this last decade processing on the ‘outside’ of this community, my beloved romance, and sessions. And though heartbreaking, it really did break me open.

I feel I’m digesting all of this as a way to let it in, but also to extend the invitation to your own sovereign soul, to feel into if this journey may also be for you. If you’re curious, Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls where we can feel this with you with lots of honesty: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Thank you for taking in this piece of my journey and feeling whatever resonance is real for you too!

Love,
Kasha

P.S… here’s the first article I ever wrote for the SoulFullHeart Blog, called “Heart-To-Heart Knowing”, signed off on by a now precious part of me named “Katie”: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2012/09/19/heart-to-heart-knowing/

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

About Our Personal Journeys & The Process (Video)| Gabriel Amara & Kasha Rokshana

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Join SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Teachers and Sacred Union Mates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, as they share about their own personal journeys with the SoulFullHeart process/way of life and community over the last decade.

They have both been deeply devoted to their own paths of healing and inward journeying, which continues to lead them into deeper territories within their hearts and souls, deeper embodiment as sacred humans, more access to the frequencies of their Sacred Union bond, and into the waters of service to others which starts always within.

They both have many writings about their personal journeys, their own Divine channellings, and digestions about what’s moving in the collective during this time of Matrix peak and collapse which can be found at http://www.soulfullheartblog.com

If you’d like to join the FREE online SoulFullHeart community, The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, go here: http://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

The Deepen 2022 video series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be released on Youtube yet also on the SoulFullHeart website/blog, and the SoulFullHeart Portal. For more information on the series, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

More information on 1:1 and couple’s sessions and FREE 45min intro calls with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Video: FREE 45min SoulFullHeart Intro Calls | Gabriel Amara & Kasha Rokshana

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by Kasha Rokshana

A year ago on this day, Gabriel and I recorded this video on FREE 45min Intro Sessions for the SoulFullHeart process/way of life.

We were just getting back in the saddle and offering them again as a bridge into the process for those who have been interested but perhaps still on the fence. Meeting with one of us is an opportunity to learn more about how this process might apply to you at this time, and you’ll be able to ask any questions you might have about it all too! We really do enjoy being open books and honestly, sharing about this process which has been our passion for nearly a decade now is one of our most favourite things to do. 😃

Here are the questions you would be answering if you wanted to have an intro call with one of us:

* What drew you to SoulFullHeart and to request a session/intro call and how do you feel the process could help you?

* What is your biggest pain/suffering about in your life?

* What is your biggest desire for yourself in your life?

* Tell me something about your awakening journey and how it has been for you.

You can message one of us with your answers or email soulfullhearts@gmail.com and we will respond to you! ❤

For me, this process has been truly life-changing from the inside out. I sometimes try and imagine who I would be if I had chosen something else other than to follow the soul and heart call to this work and community. Even during my ‘breaks’ from it all, the work itself still held me and it helped to answer so many questions over time and with growing gentleness and compassion towards myself and my parts/soul aspects.

I’ve found that this work truly offers the same to many other souls, whether or not you choose to keep going deeper with it and eventually in community/intimate relationship with all of us, or not. The seeds of your Divine Self keep growing, no matter how you choose to water them and it’s unmistakable what this process can offer you in terms of truly embracing your humanity and embodying your Divinity.

Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info on what sessions involve. You can also take in a recent video from Raphael and Jelelle where they talk some more about sessions and their personal journeys (Gabriel and I will make one together soon too!):

Here is the link to the video on Intro Calls:

https://youtu.be/dzw-rRQk7Tg

Also in this video, we mention our online community, The SoulFullHeart Portal. At the time of this video, the membership had a monthly fee yet now it is FREE. Visit soulfullheartportal.mn.co to answer a few questions and we will approve you as a member.

Exploring within in ways perhaps yet untried could be the greatest gift to yourself this New Year. ❤

Looking forward to connecting with you!

Love,

Kasha & Gabriel ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Introducing Bey Magdalene: SoulFullHeart Community Member and Facilitant

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A fun and joyful day out in Coimbra, a sweet and lively university town near us

I have been in the orbit and a part of SoulFullHeart for three years now, though I initially calibrated for six months before I had my first session with Jelelle. One day she just showed up on my Facebook and taking in one post after the other, I quickly became convinced she was speaking directly about me and to me at the same time. Over the years I’ve had the unique opportunity and experience of being facilitated by every single Facilitator in SoulFullHeart. It was very clear from the beginning that “this” was “it” for me. I finally found what I had been looking for all my life. In just how many ways that is true, I’m learning now every day as a part of the community in the physical.

Raianna dressed up at Halloween

I joined Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kasha to live with them on a campground in northern Portugal at the beginning of August this year. About a month and a half ago, we moved to central Portugal, to quite a remote little village called Folques. While the campground was sort of a ‘honeymoon phase’ and sniffing each other out, the new phase brought a lot of intense initiations for me, inner and outer, which I bravely walked out and am now getting to the other side of. A week and a half ago, Raianna, who has been connected to SoulFullHeart for many years, joined us all here in Portugal too after completing her life in Canada. For Halloween, we dressed up and had a little gathering.

Gabriel & Kasha dressed up for Halloween

The veils are thin right now and for me personally, I particularly feel that in my ongoing process of differentiating from my persona-based ‘Bianca part’, as the current energies push up so much illumination of her and support for me to keep differentiating. For a number of years now I have been doing ‘parts work’ with SoulFullHeart and working with parts of the self. Over the years I have discovered and felt many parts of myself, differentiated from them and integrated them. This has led me to a new and deeper layer of this work, held by the soul family container and the relationship with myself. It has led me to recognize that ‘Bianca’, my birth name, had become a part herself, and a corresponding new energy had been discovered and cultured through all this inner work. This new energy/being is able to hold all parts of myself, soul explorations/metasoul aspects, soul family community, and life choices. I have decided to call this new arising energy, ‘Bey Magdalene’. One version of the name ‘Bianca’, which is Italian and means white/pure/bright light, is ‘Beyonca’ (same pronunciation) and I am feeling to go with the short version of it, Bey (pronounced like ‘bee’) for now and claim it as a transitory name until a soul name comes through. The surname ‘Magdalene’ I have chosen in honor of my soul family origins and connection to the Magdalene/Essene lineage in honor and humble claim of my connection to my beloved Soul Family in SoulFullHeart. It feels important to let go of the entire waveform of my former name as it holds all of the birth family relationships/biography/woundings, social and romantic relationships, job navigations, and life as I have known it really, in order to keep arising into the New.

Priestess energies coming through for Halloween

Differentiating from this persona-based part and everything she has been holding, including her relationship to this life, the process itself, and others, is a deep service to and honoring of me, her, and others too who feel drawn to this work and community as well.

It REALLY is NOT easy to feel everything that is going on inside in every moment, move through it, and come out the other side of it. And sometimes, all we can do is fuse to the emotional world of our parts. Yet ALL of this process is sacred and held, supported and guided by the Soul and the Divine Self, if you choose this path of utmost soul growth and deeply nourishing and resonant soul family community. I am feeling, after all these years of dedicated inner work, a deep trust in this process and myself and that it all is truly perfect as it unfolds and keeps unfolding. And to me, trust in oneself is the hottest currency out there, especially right now in these volatile and intense times.

Much Love,

Bey Magdalene

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Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

The Physical Body As A Tuning Fork | SoulFullHeart Session Testimonial

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I received a wonderful email from a woman I currently facilitated in the SoulFullHeart parts work process and how it helped her move through a current emotional trigger. This is one aspect of the work that can really open up context and innerstanding as well as personal, self-to-self intimacy.

The physical body is like a tuning fork. It tells us when something is not quite humming in our natural frequency. In session space, I like to feel the body and see where the messages are. In that place there is a part of the emotional body that is attached to it. Using it as a direct line to your heart and soul awareness. Like an alarm bell asking for help and attention.

This part of you can assume a plethora of roles inside of you. Initially, it is generally an Inner Protector. Other times it can be and Inner Child or Inner Teenager. They also have there own relationship to each other that creates vibratory dynamics in your physical body.

When these parts are met and felt where they are at, it creates a going on place for you and them. It is just the beginning and not just a one-time catch and release. It is a relationship just like any other. It needs attention, consistency, and cultivation.

This part of the work may not be the sexiest when it comes to healing work but it is essential when ascending ALL of you. This life experience offers each of us a variety of experiences that are portals into the heart and the soul. It all eventually brings us back to the what has felt like the loss of Love. The Separation Wound.

So there is not one part of our healing that is better or small. It is all important and all sacred. If you are experiencing continued triggers or emotional/physical unrest, please get in touch for a free 45 minute introduction call to see if and how the SoulFullHeart process can bring in some much needed context and a going on place for continued growth and healing.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

“…incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational” | Testimonial For 1:1 Sessions For Women w/ Kasha

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by Kasha Rokshana

There are many different influences that impact us on our awakening and Ascension journey, all with bigger purposes to that end. Some are easier for parts of us to trust than others while others need us to calibrate to them more before we can let them in. Some are necessary for a phase until we feel ready to move onto something else, still seeking out ‘THE’ path or process or way of life that will offer us the most alignment with our soul and our deepest growth, along with a sense of being so sincerely cared for that our deepest wounds can come forward to be felt and healed.

I’ve found that the relationship to/embodiment of SoulFullHeart really is unique to every being who comes in the door through sessions, group calls, etc, yet also has a thread of resonance that brings us all together, no matter how close you feel to come to the fire of the essence of this process which really IS a ‘way of life’ that can align with you in the ways you’ve been needing (though this isn’t true for everyone, of course). It’s triggering, it’s gentle, and it’s very alive. The energy of care from all of us who offer this work in service of love to others AND ourselves/each other really can work quickly depending on what’s ripe to be felt in you and what’s ready, with breathing, to finally be seen.

This particular soul whose testimonial I’m sharing today had been ‘seeking’ for some time for a process that would meet her where she is and offer her a sense of being felt in a very personal way. This work goes far beyond being a ‘healing method’ and even being a ‘process’ in some ways as it’s about deep self-to-self intimacy that expands far beyond ‘parts work’ and goes into soul territory as well. It’s been sweet to feel this particular soul on her journey coming in through the ‘SoulFullHeart door’ and discovering so much about herself and her own soul along the way, with her sovereignty intact.

These sessions are really ‘initiations’, as are the group calls we hold for the public and those in the process in their own ways! It’s all a part of a sacred soul discovery and healing journey that has a flow to it that is catalytic and dynamic yet also honours, always, your choice and the choice of your parts as to where you are genuinely ‘ready to go’ inside of you.

Here is Punya’s full testimonial about the process and sessions, as she has experienced them so far:

“Working with Kasha has been one of the biggest blessings in my life. For the last 6 months, I’d been looking to work with someone to get more emotional and physical support with the phase I was at in my life. I met with many counselors, therapists, spiritual coaches, energy healers, and more. I always left these sessions feeling a bit empty, feeling like I still wasn’t getting the support or help I needed. But I also couldn’t pinpoint or put into words exactly what I was looking for. That is until I met Kasha. From the very first interaction with her, I felt such a strong energetic connection to her. Although I didn’t fully understand what ‘bridging sessions’ were or the approach that Soulful Heart took, I did feel really safe and comfortable opening up to Kasha about my life and what I was going through. She held space for me to share, validated my experiences, and deep down I felt like I was truly being seen and heard for the first time by someone. I trusted my gut instincts and signed up for weekly sessions with her…

I like to think of my sessions with Kasha as ‘therapy on steroids’ – they’re incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational. Kasha listens to what you’re going through, asks clarifying questions to better understand your inner world, and then leads you into a meditation where you learn and visit the deeper parts of yourself that may been ignored/suppressed….I highly recommend Kasha and Soulful Heart to anyone who is looking for support and guidance in their spiritual journey/awakening, wanting to change their life, wanting to heal from their past, and/or wanting to improve their relationship with themselves. Their work and what they do is truly unlike anything I’ve ever seen before, yet it’s had the most healing and impact in my life in the short time I’ve been doing it ❤“

~ Punya G, USA

For more info on sessions and even FREE 45min intro calls with me for women, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Moving From Practice To Embodiment Of Your Spirituality

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by Kasha Rokshana

“It’s time to move from practice to embodiment.” ~

I felt this multi-layered message come through yesterday, just before holding a session with a sweet soul who is definitely on a new leg of her journey with this very thing. I feel the truth of it still moving through me too and the different resistances that parts of us can have to truly embodying whatever our spiritual, healing, Ascension ‘practice’ is.

In this session, she and I felt together how there’s a new chapter opening up now for her, where it’s not so much about going in and seeking pain or even about waiting for a trigger to happen in order for an inner portal to open. Instead, it’s more about seeking the next initiations on a soul level, letting those bring up the grist that’s needed WHEN needed, but also choose to be with the celebration of what HAS moved and healed and what’s now emerging inside on the other side of that.

For her, what’s emerging is a new sense of her womanhood, seeded deeply in her cleaning-out and activating womb, integrating the work she’s been doing and everything she has felt with her parts and Metasoul aspects over the years, yet especially the last few months, of her process. It’s been an intense ride for her with much darkness to steep in at times, yet her innate soul and heart goodness and ongoing sessions have been her guiding light to this new place within.

This is what it means to move from practice to embodiment on a deeper level… when your practice, whatever it is, becomes less and less compartmentalized from the rest of your life. You start feeling the need to advocate and truth-tell from your burgeoning, heart-centered clarity, and you feel the rumbles of what you want to create and become in your life, even if/when there is a cost of some kind. Your passion ignites in ways that may surprise you.

Your emotional and spiritual maturity begins to catch up to and even surpass your physical age. Your King/Queen energy starts to feel more genuinely empowered and capable of moving into deep resonance within and in your life as a whole, with so much trust in and respect for who you’ve already healed to become. You can take grounded ‘risks’ then, socially, financially, etc, that feel less ‘scary’ and more doable, even in the potential for loss and needing to make some more challenging choices.

This invitation to embody your ‘practice’ is a constant one. It’s becoming required, actually, as we enter into higher states of consciousness and Divine Self embodiment. As we ascend, love blows out all compartments and floods them with love. We are flooded with as much love as we can physically and emotionally handle and it’s up to us how we embody that love and to claim the space we need with our parts in resistance to it as we do so.

And it can be surprising the edges that surface as this embodiment happens! Yet, it’s all sacred, even if there is loss and a need to be in a void space somehow in order to sort through it and find your way. Sobriety and realness are your companions on this journey and along with them, you’ll feel the love that’s always been there with you and within you, as you open up and keep healing…

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.