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Choosing The Path Of Love And Growth

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by Raianna Shai

I’ve been in Portugal for over a month now and with so much changing for me in this transition, I felt like it was time to digest it all through writing. We’re currently in a timeline that has caused so many of us to rethink where we are in our lives. Life as we’ve known it is coming to a close and it has come time to reevaluate what is truly and deeply important to each of us as unique souls.

For those who don’t know, I left Canada last month to be with my soul family and community, SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I spent a year physically away from them exploring my own independent journey of relationship, growth, maturation and self discovery. I had gotten to the point where doing emotional healing work was so hard for me to do alone and remain consistent with. Parts of me wanted the easy way out – to just live life and use various mediums to distract and medicate any sadness or loss of purpose I felt inside of myself.

I’m more than grateful for this phase of my life though as it taught me how to deeply love another, advocate for my needs, re-sparked my desire for independence and also led me to discovering what was really most important for me and my soul.

Healing with the soulfullheart process is not easy, healing trauma and pain never is. It’s so much easier to stay in what’s comfortable and already well known. But what brought me back to it stronger than ever is the idea that any ounce of love that I am able to give to myself is another ounce of love that exists in the world. Every time we heal something deep inside of ourselves it affects the collective in a big way. The way my community can really see and feel me is something that I wish everyone on the planet could experience. And it’s something that everyone deserves.

So as hard as it is for parts of me to feel like I deserve this love or that I’m big enough to show up for this process, I remind myself of the bigger purpose here. We aren’t just healing for ourselves, we’re healing for the world.

Love,

Raianna Shai

Energy Update: 11/11 Portal Offers Codes, Downloads & Upgrades

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Energy Update: Blessings and Love to you as we deepen into and receive this 11/11 portal today! The codes, downloads, upgrades/activations available on these powerful days provide a boost to awaken, to support, to clarify, to motivate, to inspire, to enliven, to encourage, and to catalyze.

The degree and depth you let them in is….as always…UP to you and what you (and parts of you) are ready for and wanting.

You may be feeling today a lightening UP in your heart space, in your physical body, and in your overall energy as well. Prepping to go through this portal felt similar to preparing to giving birth for the several days before it. There was some uncomfortableness, tension, purging, and feeling ‘taken over’ by the process at times. There was also deep diving into the shadow in order to heal and reconcile whatever energies were there.

Giving ‘birth’ to the NEW you during 11:11, you can now BE with the higher frequencies coming in, receiving them into your heart, letting them enliven you.

There were timeline collapses in relationships, in jobs, in money situations prior to this 11:11 portal…starting even a month or more before it as well. This is also being amplified by the great bifurcation that is ongoing with the V. narrative and clear ‘sides’ needing to be chosen even as love for ALL is held in the higher realms. For some souls (and esp. teachers/healers/guides) there are physical body collapses/illnesses, etc. manifesting in order to bring a clear choice point of staying to serve in an embodied way through this dark night transition into the light or returning to a higher dimension with their mission here ‘completed’.

The aftermath of these collapses, the ‘ash in the air’ reality experience of it, is something you may still be going through. Mourning and grieving ARE important, yet too is moving into more trust and joy that ALL loss right now is serving your higher timeline.

Your purpose of serving love is probably becoming clearer. This is meant to clarify with this 11/11 portal as MANY souls will be needed to support those newly awakening and those already awakening and those even leading too! The most important service of love right now could be to yourself and your own healing, so that you can eventually overflow to others from a place of self love and goodness. You are serving then from a place of genuine and embodied overflow, rather than self sacrifice or burden or over responsibility.

Here is a NEW guided meditation with me to 528HZ music providing a prep and then bridge to this 11:11 portal activation and assistance to let in the codes:

Take the space during these 11:11 portal days to go within. To be with the inhale of Gaia and the outflow of the Universe. The inhale of OM and the exhale of Ma (the Divine Mother) is my favorite mantra to feel connected to All That Is and my own heart too. Take the time and space to FEEL yourself, your emotional body flowing like a river, and the deeper emotions that rumble and flow that can be harder to get to.

Reach BEyond your mind and the content and details of everyday to connect with the Divine as the source of YOU and of ALL.

Let in what is offered JUST to you with so much love from your higher self, guides, the Divine……..and feel yourself AS Infinite Love!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group call events, and books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

The Reconciliation Of All Darkness

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By  Raphael Awen

The third dimension of consciousness, like any dimension in consciousness, is created and maintained by the co-creative power of the participants in that consciousness.

Each phase of consciousness has a useful lifespan of you will, for those participants. When it’s time for a phase of consciousness to conclude its useful service to those participants, the consciousness itself will create its own demise, in a death and rebirth cycle allowing the next phase that wants to come, to come.

What by all accounts looks like World War 3 upon us now, marked by the darkest agendas and manipulations we have ever witnessed in our lifetimes, mandating the alterations of our very DNA for a supposed threat to our wellbeing is actually something being mandated by consciousness itself. Yes, darkness is being deployed like never before, but by whom and to what end is the larger question?

3D has been in deep suffering long before the darkness we are seeing unfold. And it’s seemingly making its way so largely unhindered, where even the mass demonstrations in the streets only make for more massaged rollouts of darkness.

Could it be that the awakening we are all a part of isn’t meant to resurrect 3D, to ’restore our rights’ as 3D has called for the death doulas to assist it as it puts its affairs in order in hospice?

We are invited into a consciousness phase now of learning that our rights can never be granted, protected or taken away by any outside authority, but only can live in us as we no longer project our own internal shadows and darkness onto those outside authorities, giving up the very power that we are at core of our being.

Trouble is though that to face our shadow involves meeting, feeling and healing the parts of us that feel no power whatsoever, who feel worthless and purposeless due the traumas of this life and other lifetimes of experience. Most are not ready just now to go there yet. Hence the souls call for the demise of 3D in order to upgrade our learning environment to one more conducive to what we ache to learn and feel.

Every ounce of the darkest darkness, whether in you, or me, or the Illuminati or whatever other secret society along with their off planet handlers will eventually be restored to a full return and reconciliation to love. Positionally, no one or no thing is currently separated from love, while consciousness explores the simulated experience of separation from love, in order to serve our consciousness evolution.

So then, if that’s true, then fighting the demise of something that is sacredly in hospice and dying is a distraction from facing the bigger conspiracies within, where we are equally afraid of our own power and our own powerlessness, held in egoic parts of ourselves, awaiting our ambassadorship to them, allowing them and our very souls to reconcile what has been irreconcilable for as long as it has.

You are greater than the 3rd World War and the bioweapon agendas. You are greater than the fear porn. You are greater than the dystopian hells that many are warning, short of our protesting, is what is next for us to suffer and flounder in.

Choosing to go inward, to reconcile there more and more, to radiate the results of that outwardly in your choices of what to be a part of, and what not to be a part of – is your personal heaven unfolding.

Who really wants a perfect world without while our fears, anxieties and unworth rage unabated within?

This is a portal like none you’ve seen before to everything you’ve longed for at the deepest levels, that the very divine is longing to manifest through you.

As we participate in that consciousness, we create the grids and transponders necessary for that, to our own benefit and the benefit of others. Don’t let anyone convince you that you are passive or irrelevant when you are demonstrating the courage to face what they are not yet ready to; when you are a part of creating the very real new world on the other side of this one whose time to complete has come. Likewise don’t look down upon them for their present alignment with the darkness, for in so doing, we cut off and bury deeper the parts of ourselves that await our love.

Much Love,

Raphael Awen

(The Pic above is from inside of our tent where we’ve been camping for the past months in Geres Park in Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Joys Of Not Knowing

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By  Raphael Awen

Have you ever noticed that those who claim to not know how to pray offer the best prayers?

So often, it’s our experience and familiarity with something that hampers our arising and new direct interaction with that something.

How could we return to a state of not knowing in order to have a first time experience?

Even asking this question is using experience and knowing as an attempt to return to the innocence not knowing. Isn’t it maddening when the mind gets in the way, even when it’s wanting and willing to get out of the way, but just doesn’t know how?

Wait! I think we solved it, no?

You want to get out of your own way, but don’t know how. Now, you enter the womb of surrender.

You have a desire for something that you have no power or knowledge whatsoever on how you are going to achieve that something. All you have is what you don’t have.

I feel this place where my assets of past experience don’t seem to add up to anything of salvageable value towards entering a new unknown, except for the one asset of not knowing. If I don’t know, then I get to admit that, lead with that, toddle out my first steps into the new thing, laugh goodheartedly at myself along with the others I’m entertaining in the process.

I believe you also, not too far down inside, can feel the place where you don’t know what you are doing.

What if this could be admitted, owned, and cherished instead of a thing of shame and resistance and hiding? Your not knowing is the real gold you came here to share and explore.

You enter the God-zone where even God gets to not know through you.And it makes you really interesting, fun and sexy, if you ask me. Know it alls are boring and dry.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

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By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

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By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

New Chapter, New Name

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If we live in Story, then I have begun a new chapter. Or maybe I am the beginning of a whole new book! Either way something is ending as it is beginning.

I have gone by Gabriel Heartman for 4 years. It has become almost a branding to me in some ways. I love seeing people call me Heart-Man. That has been a deep encoding in me. I feel Gabriel as my King of Hearts, more Water and Air. He was the one married to Kalayna, the former name of my beloved Kasha Rokshana.

I am now desiring to move into more Fire with compassion. More Mr. Real Guy and less Mr. Nice Guy. A King of Swords and a King of Wands wants to become more embodied. A King to this beautiful Queen that has re-emerged in my life.

So on that note, I have been playing with a name change. It signifies something for me. A marker of transformation. I could keep Gabriel and just feel like a new me, but there is a truth to the spell-ing that casts a spell. It transmits and energizes.

In my meditations, I have come to hear Aurius (ar-ri-us) many times. It came to me as the name of a guide years ago. It feels historical and galactic. I have asked my beloveds to call me it for a week now and it is going into me deeper.

As a last name, I am going by a more feminine Amara. The name means ‘Grace’ in an African language. It is also the name of my first feminine guide/aspect. It’s roots stem from Mary and Mariam of Magdalene lineage which appeals to me.

Aurius Amara.

Nothing legal being done, cuz who knows who I become next! If anything, Life is about Play. We knew this once and then ‘grew up’. So now I am going back to play and I choose to change my name, or maybe I let the name choose me! Either way, I will do it officially tomorrow.

Thanks to everyone who has followed Gabriel Heartman the last four years. It has been an initiation and a joy to be of service under that name. I hope you will continue to stick around and be inspired by Aurius Amara.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

My Long List Of Spiritual Attainments!

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By Taliesin Awen

I’d like to share with you some of my more attained spiritual practices, not to brag or anything like that, but more to be a good example if it’s helpful.

Now, just to be clear and full disclosure and all, there are a few attainments that I haven’t quite realized, that I’m still working on, things like teleportation or levitation and the like. But that doesn’t take away really from what I have, through a lot of fucking hard work been able to achieve.

Let me see, where to begin?

I am able to watch the ‘watch’ thing on Facebook of late and scroll through endless videos of people doing stupid things, sometimes for like a full hour, quite effortlessly actually. I had no idea that table tennis got that advanced since I was into it. That Ozzy guy is a bit rough around the edges with his voice over reviews, but kudos to him for just being himself. The odd scantily clad beach babe inevitably comes up and I usually try to not linger too long, as she doesn’t feel that exciting really, taunting me with her non-offer, except maybe for a titillating moment. Between getting bored and a bit sore from laying around doing nothing really, I then check my Facebook posts for likes and accolades, before passing out.

Then I’m also quite well versed on a Tetris like iPad game, a teenage obsession that crept back into my life recently, nothing too complicated with too many levels and such, but yet in that vortex another half hour or more can pass into oblivion.

It’s also on my list to be able to pass through walls, which isn’t going too well, just yet, but I am really good at consistently banging into walls. If that doesn’t feel like too attained of a thing, just ask the angels, they have the through walls thing going on, but most of them can’t bump into a wall if their life depended on it. I’ve bumped into so much shit, I fear going bald for all the scars and war wounds that will be revealed. I’ll just be sure and wear one of my favorite spiritual teacher hats when the time for that comes.

What else? Right, I’m really good at early morning meditation, but just in my own developed style or dharma if you will. My mind can go in six directions at once, and remain busy as hell, talk about ‘multidimensionality’! I usually drink tea and sit up in bed while I do meditation though as that lotus position twisty thing is as uncomfortable as hell, believe me. I maintain some really good focus until it’s time to write a post or again, as I said, check on Facebook for likes or accolades, or to break my fast on some chocolate or cacao ceremony as some call it, a perfect excuse for chocolate being the first thing I eat on a day with nothing better to do.

Prior to my enlightenment, I was stuck in relentless daily regular consistent practices like yoga and exercise and such, but now, I’m settling naturally into being able to slough off those things easily for another day,… or month. Breaking these nasty addictions has been a major game changer.

Forgive me if any of this sounds like bragging, but it just felt important to not be afraid to toot my own horn. How else can anyone else truly learn if those of us who have gone before are not willing to say it like it is?

What else? Sometimes, I can say or write some pretty brilliant things that people seem to like and be touched by. Where it all comes from, I’m still trying to figure out, really. But what I am getting figured out is that the one thing that really pisses a part of me off is pretending to be something I’m not, so that’s another one I’m still working on, after way the hell too much time spent posturing and pretending, which I’m discovering more and more to be maybe thee root of all stress in my life. That pattern comes up now big time in trying digest where and why a treasured romance recently suddenly came apart at the seams.

I want to get back to play, to really learning, or unlearning maybe more like, how to really be in the abandonment of play. The young kids I see more and more just don’t give a fuck somehow in this really delicious way, and God, I’d love to get more like that. So don’t think for a moment that I’ve got absolutely everything figured out just because I’m admittedly ahead of you in these ways I’m describing.

One more thing while I’m on a roll, I’ve gotten quite expert at reading any room and showing up with what’s expected and hiding away things that I guess wouldn’t score me too many points, or worse, get me kicked out of the game. All that has done me a lot of good, or so I thought, even made me plenty of money over the years, even if it hollowed out most of the deeper meaning in many of my relationships. When I say meaning, I think I’m speaking to the freedom of finding the self permission to just fucking being real in an ever deepening way. If it ain’t real; warts, language, offense and the like, what the hell good is it? Maybe you and I both could use some offense!?

I’m pretty good too at overeating. Why eat just the right amount of all the right things when you can bloat yourself out for the rest of the day and night? Nothing you can’t fix with some dessert thrown on top for good measure to assuage the disconnect of eating about twice what I actually needed.

Anyway, I’m running out of more examples just now, but it felt important to at least give you the high points and set the record straight, for my self worth, to not be afraid to say it straight. And it shouldn’t take you as long as it’s taken me, with me blazing the way for you, a true exemplary wayshower.

Now that I said all that, I feel ready to get going on the next challenges. After all, as they say, if you’re not going forward, you’re going backward. So here’s to fully ass-ending or ascending or whatever that’s called that everyone’s gotten their knickers in a knot over. I’m kind of sure we’ll all end up at the finish line sooner or later, on our asses maybe, but there nonetheless, so not to worry if you’re a bit slower than me. I look forward to being in that moment with each of you and debriefing this whole thing, what we got figured out, and what we didn’t.

You may even be having a better time at all this than I did. I’d be happy to pass the baton and you get to be the shining example, and I get to be a follower for a change.

We’re all different and all God’s children, don’t forget. Hopefully I’m not too far ahead and you’ll still be able to relate. I don’t want to be so heavenly minded as to not be of any earthly good. And of course, I need to make a living at this while I’m at it, so if you care to send money, I’ll be sure to spend that on ice cream and the like.

Yours in sacred service,

Raphael

As you may have seen in a recent post, I’m in process of changing my first name to Taliesin. This writing felt like Raphael, who I’m now relating to as a part of me, and him wanting to part with a layer, a role, that he doesn’t want to take with him as he retires from the lead and heads out for some very well deserved and needed time away in Golden Earth. Thank you to each of you witnessing and feeling with me. 💚🙏🏻🏄🏻‍♂️🌹 Taliesin

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Raphael Has Changed His First Name To Taliesin

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By Taliesin Awen

Dearly Beloveds known and to be known,

Well, I did it! I’ve changed my name in the annals of my own heart and with those closest to me and it’s time to announce that here after sharing deeply about the intention here in a recent FB post recently, hoping that it doesn’t come up for you as too weird or abrupt.

Allow me to say a couple more important things first…

I decided NOT to start a whole new FB page, contrary to what I said I was going to do – thank god! That was said in a moment of de-spiration from within the deeply polarized vortex I went through last week. I’m really relieved to remain here and bring the new energies of what’s unfolding for me to share with those here.

I’d really love to be on your ‘see first’ list here on FB because I feel deeply called to be joined with those who’d like to share a resonance flow together and deepening ongoing journey together.

If you don’t feel drawn to have that together and by chance find it hard to relate to my energy, it’s okay if you need to unfriend too or just choose a safer distance. I trust that life is taking both of us where we need to go. I just want to increase the intention of being together at the orbit that feels right.

Thank you for who you are and what you add to my life.

Okay, that was the really important stuff, but there’s still more stuff to share.

In case you’re wondering, my new name is pronounced Tal-ee-ES-in. It may be a bit of a stumble for a while, but that’s all part of it. If you call me Raphael out of habit, that’s quite okay too. I’m relating to Raphael as a very beloved part of me, giving him the opportunity to receive my heart, instead of the long journey of being my heart that he now gets to rest from if that makes sense.

I feel like I recently went through the biggest death and rebirth canal of my life recently, I’m sure there’s more to go, but I do feel to be finding some handrails and seeing some light of a bright new and glorious day in the moment. This has been about going through my biggest heartbreak this life in completing my romance with Jelelle and worse, even fearing not having her and close feminine beloveds in my life in some way, shape or form that I’ve known and come to treasure so deeply. I’m on the higher side at the moment of what has felt like quite a manic ride of the lowest lows and the highest highs. I’d check myself in if I didn’t have some sense of deep trust and surrender to the process. My heart has been and is being broken open in a new way to receive love and to serve love, and dang, it feels so fucking alive!

I feel called to gather a round table of men to share in this aliveness of heart and soul. The beloved women in our lives and the feminine within will not be unwelcome in any way, quite the opposite actually. We just need private space to process and feel and heal together with what’s real now. I see this round table as like a gathering of Arthur’s knights where we are each arising kings and equals, each with unique gifts and contributions, where each man participates with his sovereignty intact and present, rather than something you give up at the door and have hung before you like a carrot that you can then earn back in exchange for your conformity and good behaviour. I know that last sentence is saying a lot, but I believe it has much to do with why men in general (as compared to women) are more distant to deep inner work, emotionally and spiritually – because they don’t want to be emasculated or dominated as they surrender vulnerably to love and let go to find their true power.

I’m deeply sharing this calling with my beloved closest friend and deepest heart and soul brother, Gabriel Heartman who I have known and lived in deep community with for nearly a decade, lived in 3 countries with, but now am actually living together with, sharing dreams, desires, heartbreaks and heart openings. The inspiration is rising and there are some sweet announcements to make soon, just after we share them and feel them and shape them with our closest beloveds first. Please stay tuned – hence the request above to be on your ‘see first’ list.

Okay, I guess I can’t tell you everything in one post, but let me say for now that you will be seeing more of Gabriel and I, expanding out with more and more men, live streams, Conversations With Men videos, ‘courses’ are definitely in the picture, too.

We’re just looking for ways to channel and share in a calling, to nourish and be nourished. Much of this content we are feeling to make by donation or to charge for as opposed to creating free content, as that doesn’t seem to really work for any of us. We definitely need the money and those we share with need to put some skin in the game for the game to be engaging and come alive.

We are just about to share, (and ask a donation for) a video we recorded as a guided meditation to meet your grief directed to men. This feels like the biggest portal for men to enter their sacred calling. It also deeply thrusts them into communication with the parts of themselves they haven’t yet bridged contact with. And it also thrusts them into the world of their own soul, their own Metasoul brothers and sisters in the most grounded and relational way. So please stay tuned for that.

Both Gabriel and I offer one on one sessions for men and if you’d like to explore that, we’d love to hear from you, serve you and receive your financial support in exchange for. The cost is $100 USD for a 90 minute session together and they are transformational beyond words!

We’re both feeling to put out our tip jars as we go on our stuff. Again, we need and want the exchange of your energy, love in the form of money. You can share some here: paypal.me/awentaliesin. I would be so grateful and tickled to receive your love in this form and allow it to be part of a deepening sacred bond together.

Thank you also to each of you who share my stuff with your FB circle of friends! Precious introductions.

Let’s do this and let’s do it together,

Taliesin (and Raphael)

Tal-ee-ES-in 🙂

Tons of love!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The Depth Of Our Soul Cry

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Soul cry….

Tender tears. Feeling loss. Feeling change. Feeling what could have been… if only. Feeling the suffering and pain of so many timelines and other souls in the Now.

It is personal. It is global. It is collective. It is the longing and the ache of harmony. The longing for communication between hearts and souls that may be unresolved for fear of seeing and feeling our hidden pain and shadow.

Soul Cry runs deep. This time last year I was alone for my upcoming birthday. It was a grueling experience to feel that complete alone-ness from a part of me. Yet all I could do is create space for it. Call out to the Divine for holding and Grace. It was a loss of family to my parts that led me to my Inner Orphan. The separated God-baby within. The connection through the flood of pain was a life-line over the days and weeks that followed. I tapped into the separation wound that helped me begin my way back Home by bringing my Orphan back into my Heart.

This year I will not be alone, but it will be different. Family/community is sorting and shifting. There is sadness, yet there is a trust and a grace that will never go away from that experience last year. There is Grand Sorting out underway for us all. Between the masculine and the feminine, good and evil, us and them. It is duality seeking harmony, but that is a messy business.

I feel SoulCry leads us to our most profound experience of Life. It is the rain that clears the sky so that we can see the depth of our true nature as Love Itself. We are not Alone because we are All-one. So the experience I had last year was a personal yet collective aching and calling out to Love. To feel loved. To be loved. To become Love.

When we hear about men, women, and children being abused and treated like commodities in a most Unholy way, underneath the Rage is SoulCry. It is the realization that there is a deep rift in Love’s ocean floor. A place where we dare not tread for it encapsulates our deepest ache and fear of separation from the Holy. To go into the cry is to not get lost in it or to suffer in it, but to feel the textures of it when it does come. It can be lost or tortured soul aspects that are seeking the light of your Essence and the warmth of your heart.

It is usually after the resting of the SoulTire that SoulCry may come into the space. Your soul may have been busy in fighting and searching for so long that it has glossed over the deeper pain. That is understandable and even self-loving. Yet there are times we are brought to SoulCry when it just runs out of steam for anything else. It is like letting a tap open on a reservoir, it doesn’t have to be knocked down completely. Though sometimes it just happens that way. Your life preserver is the feeling and the crying.

On the other side of the SoulCry is a new land. There is clarity. There is a new relationship to Life. There is a new awareness of the Power of Love and how we can be an ambassador of it to the Dark, for the Darkness is what gives Love its purpose. Your SoulCry is a part of your SoulFire. How we relate to it, permit it, and hold it changes us and the world profoundly.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.