Trusting Love’s Waves: A Poem

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by Kalayna Solais

Let go, let in, let go again…

the waves coming to the shore can be loved

but not grabbed.

Trusting the next waves to come in

teeming with life

filling the shore’s cupback up again…

this is the practice

of living and breathing with love.


To not control another

or even yourself.

To not feel tasked with the undertaking

of making anything happen

or not.

So love flows…

It ebbs and it goes

And this sense of timing

of mining every moment

is the only thing you can really hold.


Fictitious, time is a tease,

flirting with those who chase it

knowing its virtue,

nodding to its value.

Powerful Divine timings

flow like seas unkept

into hair unkempt

on the heads of those

who choose the bliss-mess stirrings.

Those who wait for the waves

and dive IN.

Those who choose to learn,

heal and grow,

even with each downturn and upswing

overrunning all that once was kept kosher.


And so it is love has its way with us

which, when chosen

gifts us so much more

than unattainable heartaches,

inner-life earthquakes,

and the shakiness of the unknown. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting In Nature’s Magic Show

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by Raphael Awen

I had a magical experience yesterday.


I had just completed a wonderful session with a facilitant, and wanted to take a nature walk and go integrate whatever had moved in me as I served.


I headed out to a nearby beautiful park that I often visit several times a week. Maybe the crow who paid me a visit the day before would also return. I had also found a painted red heart shaped rock that same day, nestled just under the bench with the words ‘Self Love’ painted on it, that I decided wanted to come home with me at least for a few days.


I also wanted to express a new mantra I had just created for myself.


The mantra I created was: ‘I let in a life of play, joy, discovery, reverence and magic along with an ever expanding consciousness with more giving and receiving of love’. It felt powerful and activating and I felt the need to just be with it to let in what is arising in my life.


I wasn’t quite prepared however for all the love that showed up next.


As I approached the bench, on the path a few feet in front was a baby bunny greeting me. She didn’t seem too startled and allowed me a moment to connect before she returned to the bushes. Then I noticed to my dismay that the bench had been used for some denser forms of meditation as there were some beer bottles, bottle caps and cigarette butts strewn about that I tidied up before getting settled.
Not long after I got out my tea and got comfortable, and began speaking my new mantra aloud, feeling it move in me, I looked out over the water, and noticed a blue heron flying out over the water in the distance, and as it glided, it’s arc came my way and came to rest, perched on the stones protruding out of the water directly in front of me, looking directly at me. He stayed a good while and offered a transmission. As I continued with my tea and mantra, I noticed in the tree beside were a whole bunch of what I assumed were chickadees, playing amongst the low branches. Then some children who were just old enough to be out of their parents direct supervision also came into my space to gain access down the slope to the beach below. More delight and exploring energy.


Next what swam right across my entire field of vision was a big white swan! ‘OK, this is getting a bit much’ I said to myself, as I continued to take in the swan’s gift of grace, beauty and solitude.


I pulled out my phone to look up rabbit, heron and swan to see what the animal totem messages were, where I found a host of timely messages for where I feel myself, my parts and metasoul aspects moving and changing in life and service.


I wondered if the magic show was over, but was kind of prepared for anything now by this point, wondering if the neighborhood eagle was gonna take a seat beside me or something! As I got up, I gathered my things and the trash, and just as I’m about to step away, sure enough, the crow returned to sit exactly where he had the day before with me standing there taking him in. He also stayed a good moment before flying away, then as I turned to leave and who was back, but the bunny in the exact spot I found her in when I arrived, kind of like the entrance greeter and exit usher!


I made my way back out of the park onto the street and guessed I may well see a deer on my way home to cap all this off as they are quite common where we are, but always still a wonder to see. As I stepped across the street, what steps in my path instead was a small raccoon making its way across the street, but because of an approaching car, it reversed course to hide out under a parked car. As I walked by the car, he retreated a bit further to hide behind a big tree out in the yard, debating whether to climb it or not. As I passed the tree, I saw his nose sticking out, so I knelt down to give him my attention. He came out fully from behind the tree, and with not more than 15 feet between us, we got to do the eye gazing thing together for a great moment until some other passerbys prompted his retreat.


I didn’t scramble to photograph it all, as it felt better to take it in, rather than capture it in that way, but the photo below is the setting and the stone is the rock I found.


Thank you for reading and feeling my magical story. I hope the moral or morsel of the story is one for you where you feel curious about and in reverence of the magic that lives in each and every one of us, that wants to transform our consciousness.

~

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with him for men/women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Solstice Eclipse Energy Update & Guided Meditation | Jelelle Awen

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Solstice Eclipse Energy Update and Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

Blessings during this powerful SOULstice and SOULar eclipse passage of June 19-22nd, 2020! I felt guided to offer this video today providing some teachings around what I am noticing is occurring during this passage on collective and personal levels for all of the bodies (emotional, spiritual, energetic, physical, mental). I talk about how as the narratives in 3D continue to clash and wounded masculine is disclosed, this is an intense frequency to be in for sensitive and awakening souls, perhaps amplified by this current passage too.

I also provide a guided meditation to clear your chakras and cells with violet light, and a journey/bridge to Stonehenge to experience the SOULstice and the Eclipse in the Quantum Field of Now where it is ongoingly occurring with your inner masculine. We tune into the energies during this meditation inside of the stone circle at Stonehenge and bridge to the hope and new possibility frequencies of the SOULstice. Then, the energies of the annular SOULar eclipse offer a ring of fire or light that temporary obscures the light of the sun with the near dominance of the moon’s shadow. We bring in your inner masculine to receive these energies in whatever ways/means are necessary for them.

The eclipse seems to be offering an illumination of the wounded masculine within and in our collective especially. This is a temporary illumination as the light moves back into beaming and broadcasting again. I could feel how these energies could create an uneasy feeling to experience them together in this current conjunction, along with a New Moon. Deeper feelings of unworthiness may be coming up as well, especially for the inner masculine around receiving and moving into the higher timeline.

Physical pain, especially in the head/neck area, and stomach digestion issues could also come up as these energies move into the cells and push up cellular memory of wounded masculine experiences. I talk about my recent initiation into deeper transition to living on more prana/light/Divine love which has facilitated more letting in of the higher frequency codes as a preparation for this SOULstice eclipse.

I so hope this assists with the integration, digestion, and letting in of whichever energies most serve you in this New Earth transition from 3D warrior to 5D love ambassador. I could feel much Divine love and even Star Family holding with humanity as we go through our temporary Dark Night to emerge into our Light Day of Sacred Human expression.

Join us this Wednesday for a group call meditation and teachings around the transition from Warrior to 5D Ambassador at 10:00am PDT by offering a donation or receive the recording. More info at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe2

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events including upcoming group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue provide free offerings such as those on this channel. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Energy Update: Solstice/Eclipse/’Father’s Day’ Sacred Masculine Codes Illuminating Shadow Masculine

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by Kalayna Solais

The Solstice/Eclipse energies coming in are super activating and A LOT to let in, especially as it feels like they are mostly coming from the Divine Father/Sacred Masculine. Plus, on top of that, we have a blend of the shadow masculine and sacred masculine energies coming in on ‘Father’s Day’. None of this is accidental, of course, and I definitely get the sense that we’ll need to ‘buckle up’ a bit for what is being illuminating and what wants to move within.

As Divine Father/Masculine energies come through, you’ll feel illuminations of your own shadow masculine expressions in this life and others. You’ll likely feel the grab at old relationships to others, to soul purpose work as well that your masculine has needed for a sense of ‘worth’ in the world. You’ll feel the outrage of your masculine and even masculinized ‘warrior feminine’ coming forward in some cases, wanting to set fire to everything in your life and to the 3D systems still collapsing.

None of this is ‘wrong’ to feel and all too often the necessary waves of rage, which is really passion when felt in its leading edge, get put down or therapized instead of heard and deeply felt. These are necessary pieces to feel as the world continues to shift and change and your parts/aspects are figuring out how to respond to it all. Do they conform to what the popular opinion or action-taking is, or do they rebel against it? Do they feel to stay in a polarized position and argue, fighting to convince others of their side… or do they choose to go inward, to drop the sword, to have their truth validated by YOU as a growing and healing ‘self’, and feel their vulnerability in it all?

When the Divine/Sacred Masculine moves through our heart spaces, it penetrates. It pierces through the din within. It creates a poultice because of the potency of its love, to draw out the parts of you that need love and that are convinced that the outside world has to change first before they can feel loved. It’s an energy that shows you its truth and helps you feel your own. It’s an energy that wants you to be empowered yet invites you to heal any need to seek power over anyone or anything else.

This weekend is going to be VERY powerful! It’s a potent time to go inward, connect with the Divine Father face/expression that most resonates for you, and to connect with your own Inner Masculine and what may be rumbling within him/them as well.

Here is a meditation led by Jelelle and Gabriel to help you connect with the Divine Father: https://youtu.be/QTWxFux2KA4

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Alignment Of Love And Light Within The Shadow

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There is no doubt we have reached a new level of awakening. More Light is coming in and we will be going through an alchemical portal the next few days. What happens during these times can be conscious and unconscious. That which we are conscious of we have the ability to meet it with courage and intention.

Light doesn’t always look or feel loving. Light is meant to show. To reveal. Activate. Awaken. Our Shadow, both collectively and individually, is being brought into more consciousness. You can run, but you cannot hide from it. You can fight it, but you cannot defeat it. It can only be confronted, embraced, and loved.

In The Shadow are all the things that have been packed away, repressed, suppressed, and forgotten for very good reason. We even pack our bigness and truth in The Shadow. Pain and Pleasure both. It is a bubbling well of death and rebirth. Destruction and Construction. You can hold the course the best you can, but this is usually a part of you that is navigating the chaos by just getting through it. Or there may be a part that thrives in chaos to the detriment to the parts of you that are not too thrilled about being on the rollercoaster.

Social relationships and body reactions are big indicators of whether Love and Light are in cahoots with each other. Love without shedding Light on what real is Transcendence. Torching the Light without Love is Violence. In the middle, is sacred humanity.

When you take time to breathe and feel yourself in the midst of the Fire, you may feel many conflicting energies that can create a multitude of emotional and physical reactions. The Heart and Body never lie. The question is, are they talking to each other?

If you feel a wobble and procession with these energies, it may be time to find a source of stability where you can grab hold of a center. This can be done by accessing the parts of you that are in pain, reaction, and dis-ease. By relating to them as a part, you increasingly become the center pole, capable of more than just weathering a storm. You are transmuting and reclaiming the Power and Lovelight that you are at your core. The weather patterns begin to calm with each movement and your outer world can’t help but to need to reflect that.

I have been through many of these deaths and rebirths in my process during very intense energetic times. I offer my heart and experience as that center pole for a time until you feel more of yours. I am a part of a community of others who are doing the same, so you are not on your own on this. You get support and recognition for who you are as an emotional, spiritual, and physical being.

If that sounds like an interesting invitation and would like to explore more, please check more about our free consult calls with myself, Raphael Awen, or Kalayna Solais at soulfullheart.org/sessions. There is also Jelelle Awen’s new book Free To Be 5D that lays out the whole paradigm and process at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. There will be a group call series about the book beginning July 15. More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Many blessings to you as we continue this continued ascension and maturation process.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gatekeeper As An Essential Part Of Our Awakening And Ascension

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The timeline gates have widened. Gaia is continuing Her ascent. Love is doing its Work. It is not pretty or neat. It is real. What has been in Shadow is coming to the Surface. It will continue to do so. There is no more ‘normal’. There only navigation, surrender, and self-love. As chaotic as it appears, it is necessary so we can find ourselves again.

The ‘past’ is finding its way to the present. That ‘past’, or other timelines, are weaving in and out of each of our fields. A great final act is underway. So how can you navigate all of this intensity and increased Love Bath at the same time?

The Gatekeeper is an aspect that holds many keys to our emotional and spiritual healing and ascension. It is the Purveyor and Guardian of your deepest traumas and gifts, both. Through access and relationship with the aspect of you, you get a wider view of what is going on inside and outside of you. How does your soul story relate to what is happening now? Where does all the pain, fear, anxiety, depression come from?

This is where your Gatekeeper can be a guide alongside your humanity. Many times we can fuse to this energy and it is INTENSE! More than our human bodies and hearts can handle at times. A deeper connection and separation from them can help to feel your sovereign self among the chaos.

I made the top image below to represent what a Gatekeeper may feel like to some. This is how he came to me in the beginning stages of my process. With much work and inner process he has changed quite a bit to a more angelic presence. They do, and can, hold many varied frequencies. For more info on this aspect you can read this great article here:https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Though Chapters Complete, Connections Remain

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by Kalayna Solais

You can complete a chapter with someone/something, but you can’t complete a soul connection… nothing ‘ends’, it just changes form.

And in that new form, something has arisen from the ashes.

I feel this in my relationship to Gabriel now that it’s been a year since we completed our marriage and sacred union bond, looking back at everything we’ve been through and feeling how connected we still are, only now in deep and genuine friendship.

I feel this in my relationship with SoulFullHeart and the necessary phases of separation that have always led me deeper into me and then, blessedly, deeper into the community and into soul and heart-based leadership.

I feel this in relationship to my parts… the ones I’ve had to set boundaries with in order to have them arise anew again for me/with me.

Soul draw and resonance cannot be truly collapsed, though our more protective parts of us may want that, as deeper soul connections are catalytic, and at times there may be phases of needing space on both sides. They will always push the necessary buttons for our growth, gently or otherwise. And, if we’re meant to experience that growth together and not only in physical separation from each other, we will.

Love wants us to have all of the growth we can imagine.

Love wants us to have as much of that growth while together in the same room, if possible. And, even though sometimes it isn’t possible, love reminds us of the connection that true soul love really IS and that it can never ‘go away’.

Photo by yours truly, of a beautiful tree I was connecting with the other day…. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Crop Circle Update: Equal-Sided Cross & Eclipse Representation Of Essence – June 17, 2020

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Crop Circle UPdate: This powerful formation was reported yesterday, June 17th in Hunt’s Down, Nr Wilton, Wiltshire, UK. I felt this one more than ‘got’ it at first as there seems to be quite a powerful activation in this one.

As I took in the video for it (which is here: https://youtu.be/VEeHagVTU3k) I could feel the transmission that it is offering more distinctly (at least for me to receive personally and for those who resonant.) The equal-sided cross at the center of the larger circle predates Christianity as an ancient symbol representing the Earth, the four elements, balance between masculine and feminine energies, and, most of all, ESSENCE.

Embodying our essence is, to me, a core aspect of the ongoing Ascension process. Our essence as expression of the Divine within our human bodies in a way of balance within our physical, mental, emotional, and energy bodies. This is the divine blueprint of the Sacred Human that lives within each of us and our DNA. Gaia is coming into this essence expression balance as well, after long ‘hosting’ the 3D party of separation, fear, duality, and domination.

The Essence transmission in the equal-sided cross is then surrounded by the bigger circle which feels like an orbital path to me signified by the four same-sized circles rotating around it. It has movement to it. I also got the sense that the smaller circle that is being overlapped by this rotation is the soon to be eclipsing sun.

The ring of fire eclipse happening on June 20/21 is a powerful cosmic event bringing together a Unity Consciousness frequency for all of humanity. This is SO MUCH needed right now in whatever ways it can be let in. Any reminders of our ultimate Oneness to offset all of the polarity and division going on is a boost to those who need it.

The eclipse coincides with the Solstice and the energies of both seem to amplify each other. A powerful portal we are in right now with much ‘more going on’ that it appears from current world events. I wrote more about the energies offered from this passage in a recent energy update: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/energy-update-eclipses-sol…/

What do you feel and see from this one?

love,
Jelelle Awen

More information about a free consultation call about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael, Kalayna, and Gabriel, my latest book Free To Be 5D and our upcoming Free To Be 5D group call series starting July 15th at soulfullheart.org.

Humanity’s Return To Innocence

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by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Connecting With Your Gatekeeper Group Call June 17

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By Jelelle Awen

I first felt the energy of my Gatekeeper aspect in 2008. It didn’t feel like a guardian angel, a guide, or any part of myself that I had contact with before. There was something so familiar in the presence though, even as I could also feel ‘his’ angst and some deep sadness too that I couldn’t understand. I was going through a Dark Night phase during that time and we were in acute need of each other, having left a spiritual community and teacher that had been very meaningful to me. My Gatekeeper revealed himself to me eventually and over the years as the guardian of my veil of amnesia, able to modulate access to other lifetimes and timelines/soul activations and more, and having awareness of ALL of my lifetimes within the fourth dimensional space for which he existed outside of linear time.

Over the years since then, I have spoken with many (probably hundreds) of Gatekeepers inside of people in sessions, and they are always fascinating, magical, mysterious, and holding deep access to soul terrains that previously have been blocked to us. They very often show up as a Wizard (like Merlin or Gandalf) and have that same frequency of magical wisdom. They often test you for a while to make sure that you are ready for the realms that they have access to open up for you. They especially need to feel that you are emotionally mature enough to process and digest the soul patterns and themes that reveal themselves.

In collaboration with your Gatekeeper, you are able to have free flow access to your soul (or Metasoul as I’ve been guided to call it.) With their cooperation, you are able to connect in a much deeper way with aspects from other lifetimes, heal each other, and exchange soul gifts together. This process of exchange activates soul unification, what had been severed is able to begin coming together. There is nothing quite like the feeling sense of your soul fragment reunions moving into more of a unified Divine Self expression!

Raphael Awen and I will explore this ground tomorrow during the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series at 10:00 am PDT. We will teach and share more about our personal process experience with our Gatekeepers and how we have experienced a transformation of them that allows open access to your soul fields. And we will co-lead a guided meditation to connect with your Gatekeeper.

You are welcome to join us live and/or you will receive the recording for ANY donation amount that you feel to offer. You will also receive the recordings from the previous calls and access to attend the remaining ones. You can offer a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Now is a time in which the veils are particularly thin as the Matrix collapses, more souls awaken, and the time for remembering deepens!

More about the Gatekeeper and a meditation to meet yours here: https://youtu.be/-IZQYBoE6Cg

love,
Jelelle Awen

I share much more about the Gatekeeper and other 4D Aspects, ongoing Ascension process, and even writings on this current global awakening process in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. More info here: soulfullheart.org/books

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.