Physical And Emotional Tensions Are Invited Into Feeling And Healing

by Kalayna Colibri

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There is so much within you that may be on edge now, consciously or unconsciously. There is tension being called up in the physical and emotional bodies, ready to defend and even offend when necessary in order to preserve something that is being ‘threatened’ by what now wants to move into you through you too. There is much waiting to be expressed, but the conditioning against it must be felt first. Each challenge of BEing, wants to be lived into instead of avoided altogether. Synchronicities are leading you to your next steps and it takes sometimes only an ounce more of awareness before you can fully arrive there.

Your arrival at a place of less conditioning, of unlearning, of new and unknown territory leading to wonder and letting in more so then reacting and defending… this comes from a journey inside. This comes from letting it seep into you. Inspiration in-spiriting, seeding inside of you. The experiences parts of you have had in this life have been trying, difficult, challenging. This doesn’t change and they need to be felt in why they are the way they are. And as the arising sacred human learning to hold and be with them, you are being invited into a room of reflections, which can only happen in relationship.

The Divine offers us much when we are on our own, yet relationships are what truly bring us to our next inward places. To fully inhabit, appreciate and love your own growth this life requires the witnessing from others who are ALSO journeying with resonant values. They may not be who is with you your whole life, yet they are here now and they are exactly who you need, until it is complete… or until this present ground is complete, bringing your relationship and you both to the next level, where there is more ground to travel, more edges to explore. This could be unending or it could end, yet there will always be more who need to be in this territory with you. This is where love lives… in the exchanges of hearts on a journey.

To truly feel the tension of letting this in, is to let the parts of you in that have held case after case against this possibility of being around and with others. These parts have good reasons for this, so it is not about interrogating and trying to ‘release’ them from these roles or this conditioning, but feeling them and simply being in the muck with them… showing them how to build castles with it all, alongside you. Showing up to be with them instead of them showing up to BE you. They have done nothing ‘wrong’… they have only ever done what they felt was the most ‘right’ thing.

My beloveds and I in SoulFullHeart are here and we are eager to help you feel your tensions and parts… to be able to let in more love, to remember the love you are made of in a non-transcendent way that holds ALL of you and loves ALL of you. There are whole universes inside of you to discover through every single doorway of resistance and deep-seated/seeded conditioning that have never truly been YOU. For more information on what we offer, please visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess and feel if there may be a synchronicity in taking this in right now, for you. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Current Energies Illuminate 3D Heaviness, Attachments, Pain

by Kalayna Colibri

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The density of this 3D reality… the density of the body, of the toxic foods and practices parts of us have held on to for so long… this is what’s being highlighted now, brought to our attention in visceral ways. There is cellular clearing, yes, physically and astrally too.

When you dream at night, it’s common to perhaps not wake up remembering what you dreamt about but to still feel yourself holding onto and recalling the feeling experience of it all. It can stay with you like that for a portion of your day, flowing into your life with you.

What was once considered important to be and stay attached to by parts of you, is also being highlighted now and you may feel just plain ‘tired’ of it all. Tired of the grind, of daily life scenarios that are less than fulfilling on a heart and soul level, of taking in life’s challenges without much sense of a bigger picture or intention holding it all.

These bubbles are all popping now. Energies coming in and moving through are waking up, shaking up your being and your consciousness level, first by showing you where your heart hasn’t yet been able to flow in concert with all it intends and holds to be true in line with your soul. Irritation, anger, dis-ease, discomfort, depression, heaviness, all signal that there is something that has been rigidly clung to up ’til now, that needs and wants and is asking to be looked at soberly yet with a renewed sense of love for YOU in your heart. Most of what has been held as so important, no longer feels so important… somewhat without an explanation, at least for the mind to grasp, for now.

This is a new reality that wants to birth you and the parts of you still in 3D pain and motivations, into 4D reality and higher. Moving into 4D reality can feel like careening through a dark corridor at times. Passing through 4D consciousness means inhabiting your questions and being open to answers that you can only feel and may not be able to ‘know’ just yet, as it all opens up for you again. It’s an awakening journey that needs more than a simple one-off healing session in order to move so fully into it that you can pop out of it again and into even higher frequencies where love can truly be an ally to every pore, every facet of your being.

As you feel the tension of this new birth canal, you can let in the message that ‘there is MORE!’ to let in. There is MORE to this life, to these challenges, to this tension you have felt. There is more than transcendence as a means to rise above it. There is a deep-dive inside, that brings out the old, over-inhabited conditioning that is getting ready to let go now, that is moving into a place of letting MORE flow into you – more love, more awareness of a bigger picture, more desire for health and healthy habits, emotionally and physically. More lightness and less density and the journey to finding and feeling this, one step at a time.

Your burgeoning and beckoning heart and soul maturation want so much to be held in a process that offers this MORE at and around every single corner. It isn’t a matter of being overly sober or shadow-hunting, but being aware, being open, feeling the immature places, holding them with love, and encouraging yourself, through getting to know and feel parts of you, to keep going IN and growing UP. There is much to feel as the more moves in, for there needs to be room made for it. SoulFullHeart may not be THE answer for everyone, yet it is AN answer and a powerful process bringing many new frequencies and feeling tones along with it. The scariest thing is the newness of what this path offers, that doesn’t look like anything you’ve likely yet experienced…

Riding these waves of energies right now, leading up to this gate opening on 11:11… there is love with you and flowing to you, as all is illuminated and brought up to be felt. It’s up to you, what choice you make, to go into the invitation to more process and deeper feeling spaces. And somehow, no matter what you choose, the goodness of it all is still there and you will never, ever be loved any less than you are right now.  ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

How The 3D/4D/5D Self Experiences Love

by Kalayna Colibri

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Each dimension of our ‘self’ feels and experiences love in different ways. The many parts of us that have formed in order to navigate and be in life as we’ve known it so far, each have their own relationship to love. As we continue to awaken and heal, their perspectives shift and heal too, especially as the growing authentic you that holds and feels them, lets in more and more real, pure love and learns to trust it and what it wants to offer you in every sacred moment of your life.

The 3D self, says, “Love, I don’t trust you and I want to control you, though I also feel you get the better of me and we are constantly at odds. I feel like I will never get what I want, though sometimes I can’t even feel what I truly want… and am pretty afraid to find out. I don’t feel I deserve you in any form and I conspire to push you away. What I have known to be ‘love’ is not something I find very appealing or gratifying in any way.”

The 4D self, says, “Love, I want to trust you more and don’t always get how. I feel you offer more than I have ever thought or felt possible. I feel I want to serve you and be with you and flow more easily with you, though sometimes this feels so frustrating and hard too… this world I live in mostly seems not to have caught up to the reality of YOU yet and what YOU really offer all of us and beyond… I get somehow, or am starting to let in, that you are something very different than what I’ve been conditioned to think you are. I feel something different about you, though I’m not sure what that is exactly.”

The 5D ‘self’, says, “Love… this is what ‘I’ am. And as ‘I am’, ‘I’ serve love in constant, unending flow. The container is ‘me’ as the container is NOT ‘me’… the ‘me’ of before, that related to love as not my very substance, has been healing and tastes of higher dimensions where it all simply is in is-ness… this is REALity. Love is the only real. Life-giving, ever-flowing, always showing us the way inward and back out again. Love melts all ‘I’s’ into oblivion and heat-warmth, in the sweetest way, though the storms of love’s lightning flashes of where it cannot flow within must also be weathered. Love dies not, withers away not… only IS, only ever loves. ‘I’ trust love above all else. ‘I’ can hold the truth of this unendingly, without the need to transcend any doubts of this in parts of ‘me’ that remain in lower dimensional frequencies still. ‘I’ can’t always see the bigger picture, as ‘I’ also control none of it, but ‘I’ can feel it, hold it, tap into it. ‘I’ AM it, ultimately, as ‘I’ AM part of the love that makes up all aspects of it, dark and light…”

As you heal the parts that make up each of these ‘selves’ within you, the level and depth of love you are able to experience shifts in a big way. To actually feel and own that there is something very real about swinging between sometimes all three of these perspectives in a short period of time, is to humbly let in that there is more to go into, inside of yourself… and that there is no ‘perfect’ way to be with love or to be love itself, especially as we grow and learn as sacred humans arising.

To take in more about the 3D/4D/5D selves and how we hold and feel them in SoulFullHeart, you can take in this piece about how each ‘self’ relates to each area of life: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

4D Corridors/Birth Canals And Our Awakening Alchemy

by Kalayna Colibri

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4D is a dimension of alchemy, of creation, of discovery. In some cases, it is a rediscovery, a recreation, a rebuilding, yet in many ways, it is a time of envisioning and offering NEW creations. There are many ‘4D corridors’ a.k.a. ‘birth canals’ that we are asked to pass through in our Ascension. This is not something we can transcend, yet it is something we can experience in different ways as we access higher frequencies more regularly.

This is what I have been offered this morning, and what I feel to share with you now…

“You are in a 4D corridor or ‘birth canal’, personally and globally right now.

“It means, there may be an experience of wrestling to find higher frequencies, while awakening to the fact that they are always available. During this alchemical time, there are many visions and ideas that are baking and finding their way within and around you. There can be feelings that surface, that show places of distrust in the big picture…. that all abundance is meant to come in and integrate at different stages and levels. There is no way to avoid the abundance rain… it is coming into you now.

“This is part of the journey of healing through the 4D corridor. There are many of these coming and they can feel like compression, like a time when the visionary within you struggles with the naysayers within you, that don’t believe in what’s possible, partly because it isn’t what’s been known to materialize in your current life and perhaps the other lives in your Metasoul line.

“The alchemist and the visionary are alive in your 4D self, where yes, there is much tension at times and also turmoil as your soul and heart bodies learn to integrate the downloads that often come into you on waves of grief for what is going on in your world as you know it right now and with the people in it… much is collapsing, and this is a hard thing to let in while also letting in what is possible and what you are here to help envision and create. You who are alive at this time on the planet, are here to create anew, all that once was and is no longer working.

“This 4D birth canal into the NEW is the passageway to embodying more your 5D Sacred Human self. A self that is connected to the ALL and continues to hold space for all parts that may need to surface in the human self and in those it has been asked to serve in this life and in the Metasoul too. As you continue healing, the experience of these 4D corridors shifts into something that is not as intense in terms of an emotional experience. If you are feeling emotional surges, this is good, and this is the chance to feel, heal and clear what has been buried or been recurring in cycles within you for so long. Parts of you that need you still are pushed up during these phases. They are there to fuel the higher/5D sacred human self that is birthing more and more in every moment. As the healing cycles continue, higher frequencies reach you easier. Sometimes a heaviness is still felt inside of the emotional body, for with each NEW alchemical project or vision, comes mourning for what is being let go of to make room for it. As the emotional body rests and heals more and at deeper levels, so the trust in the processes of change come easier and are walked out with more grace.

We, the guides in form of star beings who are here to help you find your way without much direct interference, for now, want to offer that you are not alone. And the heart that can truly feel and trust this, is a deeply healing heart indeed…

Much, much LOVE!” ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Ways Our 3D/4D/5D ‘Selves’ Experience The World

by Kalayna Colibri

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“I want to focus on how I look to others and try and control what they think of me. I want success and I want peace. The world is mostly black and white to me… ugly or beautiful, full or empty, alive or dead. What I want more than anything else is to be satisfied with life just as it is. And if I’m never quite ‘satisfied’, well, that’s okay. No one else seems to be living the life they really want to anyway! Why ‘take the road less travelled’ when this road is so paved and comfortable?” Says the 3D self that doesn’t think much about dreaming of more for itself, though the longing may be there for a different way to see itself and to experience life in a more expansive way. Yet, it finds contentment sometimes in simple content that doesn’t necessarily satisfy but does keep basic needs met at least. It is a simpler approach to life and one that less and less people are able to inhabit anymore these days.

“I want to fix and focus on the world outside of me… everything is falling apart or needs to fall apart. I can see the possibilities for the future and it all pretty much looks and feels like Hell. The world is anything but simple and it seems to be getting more complicated every day, with the lies that are told and the awful stances that most are taking! Wake up, world!!!” Says the 4D self, awakening more and more into an awareness of the turmoil, angst and outrageous circumstances in this world of ours. Feeling that everything happening on the outside is what needs addressing and that doing and battling is how to ‘win’. It is hard to feel satisfied by life in any way… or that there is much hope left for this world of ours.

“I want to keep going in, to find the parts that still need integrating. An act that changes the world within and can’t help but change the world with-out too! I have so much energy for it all… from where I am, the world does need help, and it IS moving toward something much better, much bigger, all on its own and also in tandem with all of those who are willing to go within. To me, there is not only hope available, but love has already won.” Says the ever-present (somewhere) 5D self that acts as more than a cheerleader for our growth and expansion, but also as a beacon, a reminder that life really can be good, that we really can heal, and that in the end, there is a much brighter way for us all to shine.

Multi-dimensional you, reading this… I’m willing to bet that you resonate with all three of these points of view, that each ‘self’ of your own is standing up, saying, ‘I totally get this!’. Every stage of awakening is sacred, and yes, you do likely move between these 3 ‘selves’ quite often, depending on triggers or what’s happening in your inner and outer worlds. The ways in which you see and feel the world is expanding, contracting, moving… sometimes from simple pleasures to hope, to despair, to grief, and then maybe back to joy and bliss again. There is so much to trust and feel in each moment of this. It is all finding its way… YOU are finding your way!

Some days it can feel like there is something intense going on within… different ‘selves’ trying to edge each other out to take centre stage and to get your attention, let alone the attention of those around you. Much is being shaken up within. Much is wanting air, breathing, movement. You’re on your way, even with each intense wave of feeling, doubting, hoping, loving.

There’s a way that the world outside of you wants to press on you to feel each of these ‘selves’ and the parts of you that they’re made of. The 5D self is more like a ‘no-self’ in a way, actually, with no parts, yet it is eager to create a greater, more loving container for the other parts of you. Sometimes it can feel like such a stretch to reach for these energies of expansive holding and high-vibe breathing that somehow gets to this place of loving and Divine frequencies without transcending or losing touch with the parts that need to be felt. To be able to live more in 5D is the dream for the near future and the invitation in the NOW too!

There is so much going on within you… and it is all somehow feeling its way, learning its way., finding its way to a greater centre inside of you that feels, trusts, knows that love has already won and so have YOU… ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: Ongoing Digestion Of The Intense, Mirroring, Highest-Timeline-Activating August Energies

By Jelelle Awen

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Last ‘day’ of August and WHAT a month of intense energies it has been for all of us it feels like, especially those of us sensitive to and tuned into celestial energies from within and in the cosmos. Two mega eclipses, the Lion’s/Lioness’ gateway portal opening, timelines collapsing and merging and overlapping more consciously. The degree to which you experienced the intensity of these energies seems to depend on where you are at in your ascension/awakening process and inner negotiation with 3D/4D aspects that can block or receive these energies. How you experienced these energies also can reflect what still needed to be purged up in your emotional body to be felt and if you were open to being with this process or suppressing it.

Those souls being ‘fast-tracked’ to be waySHOWers and teachers may have felt this quite acutely as we are needed to be as clear and open hearted, souled, and minded as possible going forward to serve others to steer through the intense transitional terrain coming up. I have shared transparently this month quite a bit about my own process of experiencing this sudden triggering of emotional body core wounds and reconnection with my 4D aspect in order to more fully feel, BE with, and integrate these energies into my 5D self. I also experienced beautiful and profound soul awakenings and visions for my highest timeline and for SoulFullHeart during this month, plus deeper collaboration with my mate Raphael Awen. These awakenings are the water that brings up the oil that still lives in the emotional body and the Metasoul of doubt, fear, trauma, woundedness. This water in, oil up process is one that I trust very much is being held with Divine love and, also, I lean into the SoulFullHeart parts process to navigate it, plus my beloveds to navigate it with me.

Life brings these triggers as we claim more leadership that is connected to the manifestation of our highest timeline service of love here…which was HUGELY activated during the total solar eclipse on August 21. This activation was available to all souls, whether they could ‘let it in’ consciously or not. If you COULD let it in, you may have been quite shaken up by it, mostly INside of you, where new clarities would be pushed up around what you have just lived with and settled for. So much soul love juice infusion this month to clarify what serves love and what does not. You may have gone down many rabbit holes looking for and searching out the next steps toward this higher timeline…….your next place to live or healing path or spiritual group or job/career or training or soul family or sacred union romance. It feels like it was a time of more ‘researching’ than actual action taking and that actions that were taken may not have led to fulfillment, yet definitely informed what you really want and what unfolds next.

You may have experienced an intense push up this month of frustration and pain, suffering too, that is no longer able to be suppressed and needed to come more in your awareness. Acute loneliness from being in a necessary lone wolf phase for awhile and no longer wanting to be. Frustrations at your money/livelihood situation and wanting more to provide support and connect to your service of love expression. More tears, more fears, more body pains/ascension symptoms…all meant to SHAKE UP the parts of you that still resist, live in fear, operate from victimhood, cling to self abuse patterns and habits, use lack of money as an excuse to not claim your soul bigness and deepest desires….

It seems that each soul is being assessed of their ‘readiness’ to move from 3D self expression in ALL areas of life more deeply in 4D transitional/awakening consciousness with ultimate 5D higher self IN the body expression. This assessment is held with much love by your higher self and 5D (and higher) Metasoul aspects/guides. Sometimes this is a very conscious process with you and sometimes less so. The readiness also relates to taking action and making life changes based on the higher timeline clarities, both those based on desires and those based on wanting to end suffering. If you ARE more ready to move into 4D (and higher) in all areas of your life, life will bring you the support that you most need to keep moving into that higher timeline, although parts of you can continue to resist it or say ‘no’.

These August energies held up a BIG mirror for us to see ourselves and we were ALL given the opportunity to see what we most needed to see and choose from there. What you saw in this mirror was up to you and how you digested it too. Whether you experienced that this revealing mirror was held by love or experienced it as ‘hurting’ you was also up to you and how parts of you filter the experience of awakening, whether from disempowered victim or empowered collaborator. Ongoing digestion and integration of these energies allows for the clarities to arise and the actions to be taken from there in an accelerated way.

 

I’m going to end this writing today with this paragraph from a writing I shared recently about post-eclipse integration of our highest timeline activations, which I recommend taking in as a compliment to this one:

ALL of our bodies are being infused with our highest timeline realities. It’s like our dreams have been switched ON, yet are feeling ever more REAL. Our visions are becoming clearer. Our journeys and the choice points along the way toward those visions becoming illuminated. Our worthiness to receive and BE these visions being watered with self love and love with the Divine. As we come into Divine alignment INside, so does our outside reality reflect this more and more as the Infinite Love that we ARE continues to find its ultimate highest expression in our lives!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc. 

The Pearl Of Great Price

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By Raphael Awen

All I need and want is found inside of me?

Who’d have guessed it was so stunningly simple?

Who’d have guessed all that external searching would have returned me to me in a great and tearful and fearful homecoming to my own heart?

All the gods and Gods of your own searching will only and ever bring you back to you to reclaim the majesty and sovereignty of your own heart.

Contrary to what you’ve heard, this actually IS a journey for the faint of heart. The universe of you had to wait for you to tire of other lovers who held your mesmerized attention intact until it could be safely returned to the unutterable greatness of you. Only as you come to this precipice of complete failure and exhaustion would you ever find what is needed to choose yourself. Only now will you find the courage to be truly and authentically no longer ‘faint of heart.’

Jesus spoke of the parable of a man who discovered a field in which was hidden a pearl of great price, who when he discovered that field, he went out and sold all that he had in order to purchase that field. That field is you. But in order to obtain you, you must sell all that stands between you and this ‘pearl of great price’ new version of you.

This means that all that exists in your current expression of your life is malleable (expendable) to what you really and truly want…you only and ever give away something lesser to obtain something greater, and you don’t need to do business with any other to obtain what is your birthright. Ultimately, you only will need to do business with yourself. This is because the universe, divine source has already completed its side of the equation. All of you is accessible to you now.

Truly astounding inner experiences that powerfully reshape your life as you’ve known it are available to you if you are ready to claim the power of your desire and your choice. None of this which Jesus spoke is available to the ambivalent. Desire and choice always offers you a going on point that your inner guidance confirms to you is your next step into your pearl of great price. Movement occurs when grounded choice answers grounded desire. All the experience that led to this moment of choice was only intended to garner desire and choice. It may be a small choice, but that choice inevitably guides and opens out the next one, and the one after that.

Our lives as we currently know them are built on the choices we’ve made up till now. New growth in the infinite depths of self love await us, but again, these new vistas wait for new choice to form new expressions of our utterly magical lives.

Here, in desire and choice and ongoing returning and homecoming is where all that was lost is returned to you. No matter how great the darkness or fear, or self loathing that currently lives in you, no matter how far it feels like you have wandered, you are offered this sacred path of acting upon these ‘homing’ desires that live in you.

If you need a glimpse of what your future might look like, look to those who have raised your desire, who have stirred a longing in you, who have mirrored to you powerful glimpses of your own essence. The hero that lives in you recognizes the true heroism that lives in others.

Who’d have guessed! Who’d have guessed that I can drink of this deeply nourishing stream in any moment, in any circumstance? Who’d have guessed all the paths and saviors who sought my allegiance to something outside of my own heart were actually just afraid of their own greatness and sought to have some misery and company in their need to control? Who’d have guessed that this love that I live and breathe IS me now? …simply awaiting my deeper discovery? Who’d have guessed that my safe place, my ark to sail through the most painful times currently upon us as a species, is this ‘pearl of great price’ me offering me not only safe passage into new births, but also the most exquisite of experiences imaginable?

Who’d have guessed that this mission to rediscover my own heart is actually my deepest super abundant contribution to others? Who’d have guessed that my true selflessness is actually found in this true heart based return to self?

So what choice is love and life infusing you with the clarity and power to actually act upon? Are you ready to move? The universe is watching YOU at the edge of its front row seat!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

 

Collapse and Disclosure As A Reflection of Our Inner World

 

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Disclosure is a hot topic in the 5D universe and beyond.  I have not delved as deeply as my SoulFullHeart friend and mentor, Raphael Awen, but I have taken in a bit and have wanted to feel it from a more contextual level.  It is easy for the masculine/linear side of us to go into the deep details as there is some incredibly fascinating information being unearthed.  So much has been hidden from us in regard to our contact with star beings, repression of technologies, and the influence of darker forces that have been at the helm up until now.  

In 4D consciousness there is a deep anger and resentment at all that has occurred.  Many people have been in the Disclosure game for a long time.  They are the messengers that have worked tirelessly to get this information out there.  There is a lot to react to.  For me it began with the story of Collapse.  The one that picked up speed after the 2008 financial crisis.  So much was happening before then but that feels like a pivot point.  There are other stories before then as well but that could be for a later discussion.  The time of Collapse in hindsight feels as though there was a collective internal collapse happening.  The structures that we were trying to hold up inside were no longer finding any solid ground to support it.  The thread of our collective tapestry was unraveling and the world was not behaving the same anymore.  There was a big outbreath of WTF?.  

More people began to wake to the reality that there was a charade going on.  But since as above, is below there must also have been a truth in that for each of us individually.  It feels reflective of a false world inside of us that was created in response to the false one on the outside.  We all created together because we just didn`t consciously know better.  But somewhere deeper we did.  We cannot play victim to it as then it takes away the power that is inherent us all.  We created it and we had to collapse it.  We couldn`t bare it anymore.  

Individually, this represents a time when we come to an awakening inside our emotional body.  The mental body just loses its grip.  For the wounded masculine, this is a very difficult process.  It has been so used to suppressing its emotions for the fear of feeling it.  I get that this is a general statement and not meant to cover individuals.  The power structure outside did its very best to hold up the house of cards, and so has the wounded masculine.  But this is was a great event!   It has helped to wake up even more men, and women, to the nature of our circumstance.  The realization that there is something happening inside us that was put to sleep in the control matrix.  

Now we are in the throws of the Era of Disclosure.  Another awakening into the deeper machinations of what has been going on behind the veil of deception.  But I feel it important to emphasize we have co-created it in order to learn from it.  This keeps us empowered.  We are not only hearing of a trove of information about technologies and alliances, we are learning more about the nature of our Reality.  Forget about economic collapse.  This stuff changes everything!  If we look at this time as a spiritual Disclosure, we can see that we are being shown how amazing we ARE and that we are a part of a vast experience that expands the territories of our limited consciousness.  It is more than social justice, it is social evolution on a galactic level!  So with each piece of information that is being shared, it is like a ray of light that is entering our BEing to upgrade our current operating system.  This new `information` sends up old emotional congestions that need healing for integration that opens up more space for more light and love to enter our true sacred, crystalline bodies.  

But it is not an easy process.  A  lot of this energy may not be ours personally and it can feel like we are moving mountains.  As men, we have tended to be a bit less connected to our emotions, so this back up can be a difficult one for some.  I feel it at times myself.  I have done a lot of work to clear my block and open my heart as much as I can but there are still things that come up and may still but it is all about how vulnerable we can be in each moment so we can heal all the block inside.  This is what we do daily in the SoulFullHeart community.  I don`t mean we are suffering. I mean we are feeling ourselves and what may come up for ourselves that need attention and process if needed.  There are many ways that we administer this healing to ourselves and with each other.

So for many men, Disclosure is first a mental digestion, then an emotional and spiritual one. This is the 4D Man.  The man who feels that there is inner work to be done, to embody more of his 5D or Cosmic Sacred Masculine.  As one who is on this daily path of continued healing, awakening, and embodying, I offer my heart and experience to those that are feeling that rumble inside.  That palpable discomfort and excitement  from disclosure.  The veil continues to lift each day and we will find ourselves in new territory as human men, and of course women.  More will start to surface and if you need help navigating that I would be honored to serve that.  Thank you for all the work you are doing now during these times as it helps us all to heal faster and easier.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Honouring Our Necessary Doubts In 4D Consciousness

by Leena Colibri

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Though our souls feel drawn to the light and to the most exquisite colours and textures of love imaginable, there can still be a bubbling up of necessary doubts. Necessary in the sense that this is an aspect of us that needs our center to feel, hold and guide it and also, there are plenty of ways in which love actually pushes up these doubts within us, asking us to discern for ourselves what it feels like it is in our lives. Feeling ourselves in this way can really open up a whole other experience of love (and the light of illumination that comes with it) and land it deeper within us. In terms of ascension, we can talk about this as being in 4D consciousness, where there are many questions on our way to our own inner truth and certainty.

Those times of wanting proof, desiring something tangible to land in, looking for a concrete playout of love in our lives and in the world, is something we seem wired up for and it also feels like an invitation to eventually come to a place within ourselves where love can express deeper and more fully, first within us and then outside of us. Sometimes the most incredible and grounded hearts and souls who become spiritual teachers are the ones who have undergone awakenings on many different levels – and I can almost guarantee you that they weren’t afraid to have their doubts along the way.

What is a quest but a journey filled with questions and many different corners to turn and paths to draw and take? Some souls are so big and ancient, that they need those very intense periods of doubt and density in order to find their way through it and into the love polarization again, but this tme, in a much bigger, brighter way than ever before. They are just another expression of love finding its way back to itself through hardships, abuses, and other numerous and often very challenging life circumstances. None of us who are living into embodying ascension are souls who have “had it easy”. Letting this in, we can feel so much more compassion and also reverence for all souls everywhere, no matter what they have chosen. No matter the ways in which timelines shift, we are infinite and we are playing something out for our own growth and the growth of the collective consciousness we are intrinsically connected to.

Doubting is just as sacred as believing. Sometimes these doubts bring us back into the conditioning that many of us were raised with (by culture and birth family), that the more negative outcomes are the ones more real than the positive outcomes. This is also sacred, though that may feel a bit thorny and hard to swallow. For those souls who find it easier to trust that the worst case scenario is always the most likely, that is something that often needs to be walked out and is just as sincere an expression of their power as those souls who choose optimism. There is a thought pattern of “what goes up, must come down” that feels so central to 3D belief systems and is not only about the law of gravity, but also the feeling that being in a higher in vibration and more IN love will ultimately have a big come down and even a crash. There is a way that yes, this has to be true for us at times on our growth paths, as going upward also means coming back down and going inward when necessary, that is, until we don’t need this anymore, which I like to hold that someday will be true for all of us and that for some of us, this is already what’s true! If we can claim that those “crashes”, often signifying some wounding that we need to be with, is just as important as the high of healing, then we offer ourselves and those wounded parts of our hearts and souls a big pillow to land it.

So at the end of the day, as real as “days” are ;), there is nothing to really keep us down and in doubt but ourselves and what we’ve signed up to experience and learn from. In my experience, it feels like as we heal, we can feel more and more a growing center that wants to stay in the more natural “highs” of healing and love flow. If we exclude our doubts from our inner worlds, we could be denying ourselves some healthy discernment and also some more doorways into a deepening experience of what it truly means to be Infinite Love embodied. It seems also, that these doubts can then surface as self-sabotage and more negative play outs if they aren’t felt and negotiated with in the moment. I also feel the Archangels offering me in the moment, that not feeling even these feelings of ours, can actually block them from accessing and truly knowing us, more so than the feelings themselves might! THAT feels like real Divine love to me… a willingness to help us be with what we are feeling and arise with it, rather than bury and rise above it.

You are goodness and love embodied, carving out its way through this world through moment-by-moment choices. Your chosen expression of it is yours alone and every single thing you are feeling through is just as important for your personal growth and ascension as any books you may read or teachers you may lean into. ❤

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Pure Love Wants You As You

 

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By Jelelle Awen

PURE love wants to fill the vacancies made by your awakening, your claiming, your ascending, your arising into your essence.

PURE love wants to claim the spaces created by your letting go of what didn’t resonate or feel like the NEW you or reflect your soul.

PURE love wants to create bonds from the places left from the heart chord binds that you so courageously are cutting, the karmic binds that you are so boldly feeling and letting go.

PURE love wants to act as a balm to the healing wounds that you so tenderly love, allowing healing at the root cause and therefore release of the causal energy.

PURE love wants to remind you of your birthright to experience it as it is YOUR essence and your expression as a fractal from Divine Source.

PURE love wants to invite you into a world of magical experience of multidimensional experience, arising wonder and goodness, both inside and outside.

PURE love wants to come to you in the form of nourishing relationships with souls who are resonant, who support you, who share their soul gifts with you and you with them, who form a commUNITY through mutual embracement and values resonance.

PURE love wants to embrace you in the form of Archangels, angels, spirit guides, ascended teachers, Unicorns, Dragons, Elementals, star family, to bring in the higher dimensional frequencies of your soul and provide a container for your arising.

PURE love wants you AS you, in your uniqueness, your sensitivity, your emotionality, your soul bigness, your essence, your arising, and your becoming…..

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.