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On Showing Up

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By Raphael Awen

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Never before are we being asked to show up like we are right now.

But what does it mean to ‘show up’?

The show is the show of your life, as you know it right now, as its unfolding before you. It is who and what is in your face, in your inbox. It is who has your number. It is what’s happening in public and private.

There’s a new word in our culture for the disappearing act people play when they want to exit a situation without facing a goodbye. It’s called ‘ghosting’. ‘Love bite’ is another very real scenario where a couple meet and soar to some mega heights of intimacy and sexuality, only to have one party inexplicably exit the relationship, leaving the other devastated.

Until we face and complete a situation or a relationship, we haven’t grounded the lessons life was wanting to give us through that very real drama in the show of our lives.

But what would propel us to avoid such completions? Could it be that subconsciously we are simply afraid to go on to our next lessons? Like the now quite famous saying of ‘our greatest fear is not that we are small, but rather that we are great beyond measure.’

I so believe that we are in the school of coming to terms with our own greatness, and this is what is going on in our relationship playouts. Life is ever seeking to lead us to know, feel and integrate our own bigness, the infinite love that we actually are, but have willingly forgotten, in order to be remembered into an even larger version of ourselves from the us that chose and surrendered to the forgetting.

Life is ever seeking to take us out into the deep waters beyond the fear of our own greatness into entirely new terrains that consciously we have yet to be introduced to. Life provides the path and stepping stones for us, but it only works to the degree we are willing to show up for it.

Showing up is about knowing what you really and truly want, and being willing to claim that, and then being willing to show up further for any of the fallouts and fallins that occur because of that claim.

Showing up for anything or anyone in life is only real if it begins with truly showing up for yourself in this way. Many will expound the virtues of selflessness here as a way to mask their fear of their own greatness. Showing up for others when you are not showing up for yourself is actually a form of cocreated and mutual abuse between you and the person you are supposedly helping. It’s a pact of mutuality to stay safely small known as caretaking.

Then these ghosting and love bite scenarios are the only option that’s left for people when their self worth is worn too low to sustain any more perceived loss to that meager self worth.

All of this changes intensely however when one begins choosing this new integration of showing up for themselves. Simply becoming honest with oneself reverses decades and even lifetimes of self-disintegration.

Where is life asking you to show up right now? I feel I can promise you (hopefully without sounding too parental) that if you are willing to show up for your own desires in this way, life will meet you and grace you with all that you need to navigate that choice point. Your choices are a very literal portal into the next versions of yourself that life is wanting to birth in you.

I’m showing up for a men’s group call tomorrow and I want to invite you to show up for it as well if this juice and energy calls to you. The group calls we lead most weekends are about introducing a path that we call SoulFullHeart and I invite you to check out our website as fully as it calls to you at soulfullheartwayoflife.com. The men’s group link for tomorrow is below (and there is a women’s group call that Jelelle is leading on April 15th..)

https://www.facebook.com/events/1123512704444039??ti=ia

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Moving From kNOwing To kNOWing

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By Jelelle Awen

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In the awakening journey, in this process of ascension…..it becomes more and more about what you kNOW rather than what you kNOw. This is more than just playing around with capital letters. I kept getting offered this over and over and now it has become a sort of mantra to invite us beyond the mind. kNOWing comes from higher guidance, soul wisdom frequencies, reSOULance, weaving in with the higher/Christ consciousness heart openings. kNOWing is the 4D transitional self and the emerging 5D sacred human merged and embodying with higher self frequencies relating with life through exploration, through curiosity, through risking into the unkNOWn in every moment.

kNOwing is the 3D self, leading with what the mind has learned, analyzed, digested, filtered and packaged. Non-vulnerable and rigid, kNOwing caps the frequencies of joyful magic that could and can arise in ANY moment. With kNOwing, nothing can arise or surprise as it is ‘figured out’, its essence drained of possibilities through the figuring and defining.

kNOwing creates a resistive frequency relationship to life and love.

kNOWing creates an open frequency relationship to life and love.

You’ve been conditioned to kNOwing by a culture that cultivates this frequency as a safety bandwidth. Changing your frequency to kNOWing happens through negotiation with the 3D self, through letting go of what is safe and known (what has become just TOO comfortable and isn’t offering growth anymore.) Letting go of what numbs and dulls and flattens everything into the kNOwing space. Letting go of the mind more and more and moving beyond it, in relationship WITH it yet the soul and heart are leading.

Like this picture so beautifully shows, moving into the kNOW is letting go of the comfortable connections sometimes too and risking to leap, to fly, to lunge off of a cliff and into Infinite Possibilities. A deepening connection, a personal sense of the Divine Source waters the frequencies of inner kNOWing, not book kNOwledge. This HAS to happen inside FIRST, over and over, in a loving self held space (and with a spaceholder too in phases) creating safety INSIDE that also allows room for trust to arise in the unkNOWn on the outside.

This safety and trust inside makes the jumping off the cliff feeling movements on the outside bearable, enjoyable or INJOYable. It is an internal YES that then can move downstream to the external YES to the kNOWing possibilities in every moment…..

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Β Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.Β Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

On The Wings of Change

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There are times when we realize all the old ways of relating to ourselves and others no longer serves us in our deepest growth. Β When we see this reflection, whether by own perception or the mirror of another, there is no denying that something needs to shift and change. Β There is no judgement for what had been for it was all a gift to help us to our next timeline, or storyline. Β There is a time for letting go and feeling the parts of us that had their investment for reasons that are honored and felt with our expanded sense of what and who we are in our heart. Β Space is offered as a sacred balm to our wounded needs. Β This is the process ground we inhabit in SoulFullHeart. Β These words come from my own experience of letting go. Β 

On The Wings of Change

We write our story with the pen of our own choosing

Weaving the details from the well of our multi-layered experience. Β 

What themes have we chosen to continue to re-solve inside of us? Β 

Only to realize there is no solution, just resolution

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A moment when letting go of what has played out inside of us

No longer serves our highest growth and purpose. Β 

The ebb and flow of plot pirouettes

Signal a moment to step outside the text box

And feel the circular motion of our unhealed devotion

To this sacred notion that we are not worth the promotion

Of Love’s infinite ocean. Β 

The pages of our human journey

Are bound by the collection of the illusion of time. Β 

Our fractured heart splinters are seeking their way

Back to wholeness through chain-linked letters

And the smudge of a tear’s free fall. Β 

An awareness of what can no longer be upheld

by Fear’s consequential reign. Β 

The pages of this worn-thin book

Are removed from the surrender into what they were truly meant to be

…the feathers of the wings of our greatest calling. Β 

If you are in a place where you are feeling the seeds of deep inner change wanting/needing to be birthed and are not sure how that may happen you can check what we offer in SoulFullHeart as the process by which we hold space for ourselves in times of great change. Β We are all here in service of YOUR greatest calling that also reflects ours. Β 

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β You can learn more about him atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

 

Responding To ReSOULnance

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By Jelelle Awen
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From Shen Wei Dance Arts
You feel that soul β€˜yes!’, that reSOULnance, that β€˜this is ME!’ feeling….. what triggers this response, what pushes it up, what elicits it, what calls it forward….THIS is the direction to go in. This feeling of β€˜YES-ness’ is a guide, a marker, a big ARROW of….. β€˜go THIS way’!
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Your soul vibrates with this reSOULnance. Your soul allows the space and room for this vibration that ripples into your world. Your soul allows the tears and smiles of reunion, of remembrance, of longing and desire, of wishes and dreams. Your soul wants MORE of this reSOULnance and seeks for more. Your soul is activated in the process of the remembering and the feeling of reSOULnance facilitates this journey into reclaiming and re-minding.
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And, the response from other aspects of you comes often without awareness or consciousness. These aspects, vibrating in lower frequency 3D conditioned places and sometimes in 4D transitional spaces, immediately and so often without consciousness, go into β€˜quell it’ mode. These logical and rational and SCARED aspects say, β€œThat can’t work” or β€œI don’t have the money” or β€œThis is too hard” or β€œThis relationship is stopping me” or β€œIt’s not the right time” or….many, many such things and ALL with an energy of hopelessness and limited possibilities. All with the energy of fear.
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Coming from fear, these 3D selves of you don’t want to get hurt again, they don’t want to feel pain again, they don’t want to risk for fear of pain coming again, they want to keep life safe and comfortable for as long as possible. They don’t want to risk for LOVE because love feels uncertain and, often, unknown. These aspects often have β€˜good reasons’ for feeling this way and the roots of these feelings, when felt by you, CAN heal and let go into more trust and love.
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The self limiting thoughts and beliefs conditioned into these 3D aspects comes from our hugely suppressed culture, from birth families that ingrain these energies into our Beings, from relationships in which you shrink and suffer yet keep remaining, from separation and isolation, from capping and blocking the merging of higher frequencies into your consciousness.
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What have you felt reSOULnance with lately? What has pinged your soul, chiming and ringing? What has LIT you up and made your sky open up? Maybe it is these WORDS right now!
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And, then what? What happens after these words or other things which cause reSOULnance, are digested? How long does the feeling last? What feelings or thoughts come in to suppress it or shift it or close it? What aspects of 3D conditioning raise up to β€˜argue against’ the rising tide of awareness and consciousness?
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Feel this and track this inside of yourself and you might be amazed at how prevalent the quelling of your reSOULnance is. And how much energy these fearful thought forms have and how much they impact your capacity to manifest and BE the YOU that you most want to BE, living the life of your soul and heart expression.
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ReSOULnance is a gift. A gift that wants to reflect your bigness back to YOU and is NEVER about the source ultimately but about YOU. ReSOULnance speaks of LOVE. It invites LOVE. It IS LOVE…..so, this is the arrow of β€˜go THIS way’ which is ultimately the WAY OF LOVE. The ‘right’ way is the way of PURE love.
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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc

Negotiating The Soul’s Desires For Change

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By Jelelle Awen

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Your soul stirs, drawn forward by deep impulses. Like a magnet, your soul is drawn to the light, drawn to love, drawn to growth, drawn to inner transformation that arises then in external manifestation. Your soul wants to move out of suffering and into LOVE, even as the ‘suffering’ is held as a necessary ground of growth until it is time to let it go.

This soul draw is PURE and connected to your higher self, the fractal of you from Divine Source, your Divine expression, your sacred human. This draw is resonance, that vibration of “yes!” that vibrates in true tones. This draw is compelling, it invites you to return to it over and over again.

The push and pull, the openings and closings…these are reactions in your 3D self, within parts of you that have learned to modulate desire and draw. These aspects hover over the aperture of your heart and soul; opening and closing, adjusting based on their perception of safety or comfort or fear of getting hurt again. This adjusting of the aperture can be largely unconscious to you and happens in seconds in reaction to many triggers.

Your soul negotiates, feeling compassion for the push and pull aspects of you. Your soul understands and feels with compassion the fear of change, the fear of being hurt again, the fear of rejection, the fear of re-union because there might be more loss that comes, the fear of the unknown. Self love and compassion in response to the fear is what heals the fear, this your soul knows and remembers.

With loving negotiation, the parts of you that are in fear can move into love and trust. This I have witnessed in myself and others over and over…….when fear is held with connection to it, with desire to understand, with TRUE and PURE compassion for self and others then it can let go INTO love and so becomes love.

Yesterday, during a spaceholding session with a beautiful soul, we could feel together how all of the life changes she had made very quickly had moved her toward her soul and were inspired by her soul’s awakening. Yet, there was a part of her that was still ‘shifting through the rumble’ of her old life. Ah, it was so tender to see and feel this part of her who was now ‘homeless’ and in shock in response to so much abrupt change. This part was definitely oriented toward 3D life, and yet, had so many soul gifts to offer her too! I invited her to connect with and feel compassion toward this part of her, to ‘collect’ it from the rumble site and give this part love so that it could lean into trust with her (the higher self frequency that comes through when we ‘separate’ from the fusion). We also felt that any future changes and shifts in her life could be negotiated with this part of her so that less shock would occur and more acceptance.

Life, the Divine, the Universe, Gaia, your soul family, your soul mates, your own soul desires and awakenings will invite you into making changes and going into the unknown. At first, it may be primarily motivated by getting relief from suffering and yet, also it will be motivated more and more by experiencing more LOVE. To bring the push-pull aspects of yourself WITH you is to consciously connect with these energies inside of yourself. Not to make wrong resistance and fear, yet to feel it and love it is what moves it and heals it.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer space holding sessions that create beautiful room and space for this exploration. From roots to wings, integrating the ‘this life’ emotional reactions and feelings and woundings with the soul frequencies, karmic playouts, soul gifts of other lifetimes, galactic selves, higher self expression, etc. is the space that we template and create with you and that you experience on your own more and more. It’s a beautiful thing!

The soul will stir, desire, be drawn….it is ‘peeking through’ in some form of expression in ALL of us. The degree it can vibrate and express AS you is related to how you navigate its desires and longings and draws and the resistances that come up.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Shifting Your External Circumstances By Shifting Your Internal Experience

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By Jelelle Awen

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Image by Bragitta Hodgson

Being YOU no matter the context, situation, or environment is a profound invitation for growth and awakening. Being the version of you that is spacious and sees the bigger picture, feels the deeper connection to life and Divine Source. And then, slipping and dipping, going down, being triggered, being ‘fused’, feeling emotions. And then, back up again to yourself when you can find yourself again and the situation is ‘right’ and the day is set up for it and the circumstances support it…

The circumstances offered by relationships, jobs and careers, geography, money, etc. impact you in these ways of lowered frequency, of not feeling like your higher self, when you need that reflection still, when you need something to rub up against, when you need the grist that it provides. These circumstances are sacred (as pain is sacred), yet, too, there is an invitation to consciously feel what the circumstances are reflecting to you and IF this is still YOU or not. The invitation is to feel if you want to BE what the circumstances are reflecting about you or not.

This is where the Universe invites you to go within, to FEEL and LOVE and KNOW yourself. Your ‘outer circumstances’ ONLY change when your inner reality does. There is NO other way. In 3D reality, it has been presented and we’ve been conditioned the opposite to this: WHEN my circumstances change, I will be happy. WHEN the externals of my life get better, I will feel joy. WHEN the situation outside of me improves, I will feel whole. However, the deeper truth that our soul knows is that only WHEN your internal experience changes and shifts does the external reality shift to reflect it.

This is where your POWER is. This is where your responsibility lives. INside. In self intimacy. In-to-me-I-see that is intimacy. And in this seeing of self you can see what and who you REALLY are versus what you have been conditioned to feel that you are. You can lift the veil of amnesia you chose as a soul and start to remember and see who you REALLY are and your multidimensionality and how much power you have. If your external circumstances are making you consciously unhappy and you are suffering over them, then this who you ARE in this phase of your journey. Is this being of YOU as you are seeing ok with you or do you want to BE something different? If you are consciously unhappy and looking for answers to not be anymore, then you are most likely wanting to see and feel something else.

As you awake and heal your heart, your soul, your body, your mind then you raise your vibrational frequency. The wounded frequencies create a magnet inside of you, drawing more wounded experiences and circumstances which perpetuates the cycle of suffering. You need this cycle until you don’t need it anymore. Until you have experienced enough love inside to let it go and your frequencies are healing and higher so that you are drawing more higher love frequencies from the outside to reflect your inside.

In SoulFullHeart spaceholding through sessions, we serve you to go within, we template for you how it feels when the internal reality of self love and higher self is more and more embodied and expressing and so drawing more and more external circumstances that reflect this goodness back to you. We support you to make CHANGES in your life to reflect this growing sense of self love at a pace led by you. It is all generated by you and your growing intimacy with SELF in the form of re-union with your inner family, your soul family, your angelic family, your star being family….and your selves that are represented in all these frequencies.

This is a transition, this being and claiming of true self expression and then having your external reality reflect this. I feel it is ALWAYS a transition in some form or another as we are ALWAYS growing in some form or another. Yet, too, there is a tipping point in this ascension journey where you no longer draw nor desire an outer reality of suffering, unhappiness, or frustration. You still make room and hold space for pain that comes up from inside of you yet you are no longer ‘flooding the decks’ of your ship with unhappy waters triggered by current circumstances. This IS possible as you go within, seek support, DO and BE something different in how you relate to self. This IS possible as you experience more love, reach a saturation point, and feel more and more that you ARE love and deserve love.

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Note: Stunning image of a healing heart and soul is by amazing artistΒ Bragitta Hodgson

The Game Of Life Is Rigged In Your Favour

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Dissonance is simply resonance’s way of remembering where we came from, and guiding us back to essence.

Stress, anxiety, fear, or any other ‘negative’ state cannot ‘negate’ us out of the overwhelming ocean of resonance in which we live and move and have our being.

This bliss that we are only awaits our conscious acceptance and increasing awareness of it. There is no other journey, but this inward one. You ARE God millions and billions of times over, and over, and over.

Now this, I am well aware, is not most people’s felt reality, as it admittedly has not been mine for many years. It may even stir feelings of anger for some to read such a far-fetched sounding declaration. For others, who sense these words are true, about the deep underlying resonance of all things, they are able to accept the words mentally, but are left longing to feel this as a deeper lived in reality, and in turn create a state of ever deepening bliss, for themselves and their world around them.

Both of these reactions, of either accepting these words, or rejecting them, are testament to the truth of the underlying perfection of all things. War, racism, hatred, and any other ill you can name are also evidence of our deep seated longing, as well as the means, to find our way back to the bliss of our origin, our essence, and to where we are returning. Even our exploration of ‘evil’ is ultimately ever and only a coming to terms with an infinite love that has already won.

Our truest state of grounded fulfillment in this journey is simply reverence, and the stuff that flows from that, like gratitude, kindness (acknowledging that all are ‘kin’), joy, creativity, love. And all of these are more reflections and resonances of where we came from, what we actually are, and what we are also becoming.

The deck is so stacked in our favour that the game of life rides a razor’s edge of losing its legitimacy as a game. Hell, if we’ve already won the game, why set out to play? There’s only one valid and profoundly true answer to that question and it’s this: the only valid reason to play is simply for the fun of it, and for the community of it. Nothing else…(near as I can tell). The universe wants to play, and it wants to play with you.

Now, there are only a few things that the universe set out as essential ‘rules’ to this game. Bear in mind though that the only point to the rules is the preserving the whole point of the fun and the community.

Free will is the one big rule. Nothing can or will be pushed on you. The universe doesn’t offer any unsolicited advice, but yet longs for your inquiry to share what it has and what it knows. In fact, it’s all yours to begin with, only being held in trust until you are ready to claim your heir-ship.

The sovereignty of the individual is another rule (maybe just another way of restating the first rule) of the game. The universe set up this game with the deepest respect that you and I would be subjected to pain and even the loss of our awareness of our true original identity. The only way it could justify doing such a horrid thing was to make us not only reflections of itself, but also literally make-us-itself, at the outset of the journey. We are the divine out feeling anxiety, hatred, fear when we do. It was only in this way that the divine could subject us to such horrid experience of perceived loss. It was only in this way that we would never be earning our way to back to God-hood, but instead only learning and returning our way to our full birthright experience of our God-hood essence.

You are infinite wonder. You are the sacred experience of divinity out journeying and journaling its way through its own capacity and its own polarity for bliss and reverence.

Possibly this is what makes God, God, this incredible capacity for reverence. All that it knows, it knows in and through you. You need no other, for all other is you. Your mind struggles to comprehend, but this in no way excludes you from the knowing. This knowing lives in you as fully as it ever will already, now, present tense. The only thing, and this is the point of the whole game, the whole journey we are on, is your and my awakening to this that already is, and all of that, simply for the fun and the community it.

So what are we left with now? In light of all this that is (which is way more than you and I can begin to digest it seems), how then shall we enter the next moment? What will take us from our present consciousness of perceived lack, exclusion, separation, and return us to the fact of this bliss?

Those questions are the quest! Just asking them and feeling them creates longing. This longing is the propulsion that is necessary to authorize movement and rememberance. This heart open quest is what opens you to all of the guidance, strength, and healing you need.

All that is ever in front of you, regardless of the content, regardless of the time needed, can never be outside of your journey back to source, awakening to the source you already are.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Embracing Change As A Mirror, Healer And Ally

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by Leena Colibri

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We are all facing changes right now. Many of these changes are major upheavals as the veils become thinner and we are finally able to not only listen to, but hear ourselves and our guidance more. Some of these changes we choose voluntarily as our relationship with ourselves deepens and we realize more clearly what it is we truly need and/or desire to have in our lives. The poignant ache for a deeper love that we don’t necessarily know where it could come from or what it could look like is landing with a thud in each of our hearts, giving us new direction, especially in relationships, but also in our careers and geographies.

With change comes process…the pain inside our very sacredly human pain bodies becomes louder in order for us to finally hear it, feel it and heal it. It is an awakening to those ways in which we have been numbed out, “going with the flow” to a degree that has actually seen us shrink to fit circumstances and relationships, and how we have deprived ourselves of love from ourself to ourself, let alone how we have blocked it from flowing to and from others or even the Divine.

This process of learning how to be with change and especially be with ourselves when we are experiencing change, is becoming unavoidable with our global process of ascension. Too, though, our process of vibrating higher is coming in faster than ever before, and the experience of that is now able to deepen for us, the more we can move through what’s holding us down. Change is designed and brought on by love, ultimately… it pushes up what we need to feel in order to fully move into our next chapters and unveil more of who we really are at our core.

My relationship to change hasn’t always been very spacious and in moments it still isn’t. Most of the time, the changes that are being asked of us by love are not easy to embody or willingly say “yes” to, and unfortunately that can also create an experience of life happening to us and not us happening to life. We can feel at these times as if our power is in some sort of cosmic vacuum, even though it’s really just being lovingly challenged. I hold this as my truth and it does help me process through change much easier, especially during these times of intense waves of energetic frequency alterations and the life adjustments that happen accordingly.

Just like the ways in which the sun’s rays can be felt coming in much stronger as the result of weakened barriers holding it’s power back, so we are all experiencing a renewed press of love moving through us much stronger. The process of this awakening that love brings to us is most alive when we embrace the changes we’re being invited into, that aren’t simply outward but actually quite often very inward. We are learning to rearrange our inner furniture to accommodate more love in our lives and of course that translates to adjustments and, at times, all-out upheavals needing to happen outside of us too. If we can trust, somehow, that it is all held in and by love, then we can begin to let in change as the mirror, healer and ally that it actually is and always has been for us.

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Choosing From Love, To Fall In Love

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By Leena Colibri

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This mysterious thing we call “falling in love”… what is it but a letting go into the shiny bright light ahead that seems to call, seems to light up a pathway through unknown territory, seems to warm something in the far reaches of your heart that you’d forgotten were ever there?

What else can we call the following of a heart stream that starts in a moment then trickles inward and suddenly pours over every part of us before we even know what we’ve said “yes” to?

Beyond an idea of romance that has us on our knees in ecstatic joy and wonder, this is a bigger embrace of a call that beckons us onward at an as yet un-lived-in pace for in the foreground of our lives we have only settled for the crumbs of what I can only call “the real thing”. Once we have tasted that tender morsel of what truly makes our hearts beam with wonder, awe and reverence, we cannot turn away, we cannot opt out, we cannot fully return to that cave from whence we came.

It is an impossibility to behold the full intrusion of love’s infusion if we do not fall in love all at once and with a perseverance that we can only truly know from our own love lights answering to those of others up ahead of us.

This is what it means to really love and be loved. This is what it feels like to be held in and led by love. This is what it feels like to say “yes” to ourselves and our transformation. This…is where all our choices should come from, and where our choosing will always be challenged to come from. This is what it feels like to truly live – to know that love is always at your side, bellowing from the other side, and beckoning you homeward.

If you can feel all of this… welcome home, for this is where your truest heart rests even in its insatiable restlessness of always wanting more and more. If you cannot in this moment feel any of this… perhaps your heart is asking for more of you to reside inside it, to know it, revere it, honour it, remember it… once again and maybe, this time, for always.

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Embracing Changes In Your Life As Love Expressing Itself

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By Raphael Awen

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When you come out the other side, you are unalterably changed.

Life is a continual movement, yes, but I’ll bet that you are feeling change acutely right now.

All of this has to do with the fact that there is something so unexplainable about the magnitude of you, the uniqueness of you, the desires and the mysteries that live inside of you. You know it and you know it can’t be written off as ‘just all ego talking.’ Some impulses are frightening and feel dark and others are pure light. Your world wants to change and all of your being is somehow in on this desire. An unmistakeable and definite storm is brewing.

Yet so often a stasis sets in, and the past seems to want to extrude itself into the future. Storm? What storm?

Questions and aches live unanswered in you. How can I find and flow with this new me that wants to rise? Why does it feel so private? Why does it feel like there isn’t any handrails? Where will I end up if I act on these impulses? Is saying yes to change like lighting a match to a rocket strapped to your butt leaving you in a point-and-shoot without much say in where you end up? ‘So what shall I do?’ you ask.

Let’s let those questions bake a bit and feel into all this some more.

The ground you live on is like an island underneath you. It was once so large, you never even knew it was an island as the theatre of your life supported all of your life movements. But now, a rising tide has narrowed the land mass that undergirds your life. Why would, and how could a life so full,…. become so narrow? Did I do something to displease God? Am I just lacking in gratitude?

Your awareness has grown to see that the land may even be soon completely inundated by water, making the island completely uninhabitable. You’re anxiety grows exponentially with each passing season that you don’t choose and act. Inaction feels more and more like the height of insanity.

I’d like to offer you that there isn’t anything that you could have done or not done to have escaped coming to this juncture in your life. You see, your life is not separate from all of life and all life is now undergoing deep and heightened change. The entire creation is feeling what you are feeling. It shows up differently in each person’s life, but the common denominator in all of this is that love wants to find its way in. Love wants to colour your experience of life. Love wants to intone frequencies of sound and light into your heart to allow your heart to be both a pool of beauty and a re-broadcast centre.

Yeshua said ‘You are a city set on a hill, so don’t try to hide your light under a bushel basket. Let others see your radiance in how you live life and glorify the Christ-consciousness that lives in you.’ There isn’t anything cooler, not in this galaxy or the next one, or what’s considered the most distant one. Love is all in all, through all and to all.

You already know this,…as John the beloved said ‘you need not that any man should teach you, as the spirit teaches you all things.’ Change and knowing how to flow with it intimately is native to you at the core of your being. It is only unfelt parts of you that are resistant to change and seek to maintain life structures that are designed to avoid change. It is important now that you feel these parts of you, get to know them, their needs, and shed their tears. This will change you in that very process, and afford you the courage for the next step, and the next step after that.

If you don’t embrace this time of change, the coming rising tide will still inundate your shrinking island. There is no escaping the times of deep change that are upon us all.

For many, their refusal to accept change even as it sweeps over them will only be about weaving a victims claim that life screwed them over, and then being able to prove that to the world around them, as their personal apocalypse. Life doesn’t want to screw anyone or anything, or you, or any part of you,…over. It cannot in fact. Only you or I in our creative function can make that feel like and look like a reality.

The alternative prospect of instead letting in love, however, is just too much for many at this time. There is nothing wrong with this as seen from a higher level. Each soul is learning profoundly and deeply, regardless of pace. There is no time urgency that says they need to wake up sooner than they are. Each of us needs the time we need in unconsciousness. Even those of us having the deepest awakenings today will come to see these awakenings overshadowed by grander and grander awakenings. Even the soul who deeply chooses to play victim to change is in the midst of profound awakening ultimately, albeit in a longer lease on time. All that really matters to you and I, if we’re wanting to awaken is this question of ‘am I letting in what wants to flow in or am I in more of a stance of resistance?’

Granted, there will be pain to feel if others you are now close with aren’t ready to embrace what is moving for you. But how close in fact are you now, if what is arising in you can’t fit comfortably within the bond? The question ultimately becomes ‘what is the greatest expression of your love to them?’ Leaving a bond by laying down your end of the rope, or by setting others free of an unhealthy grasp is a far higher love expression than efforting keeping them in your life.

No one can ultimately escape your life as we all are so much more connected than we realize. It is because we are so intensely connected with everyone that we need new and arising boundaries (that can let in and let out) in our lives and relationship. Feeling and grieving the loss of a relationship where the ground is narrowed and can’t find a new opening is life moving you and guiding you. The tears you and parts of you have to feel in the process are some of the most alchemical life movements that your soul chose to experience in coming here. You came here to learn about both your individuality and your oneness with all– at the same time no less.

Everything, you see, is all spring loaded to love. You are spring loaded. The universe is spring loaded. It’s so spring loaded that you trying to ‘help’ it only gets in the way most of the time. Acceptance and self-love will gain you so much more mileage while any and all attempts at fixing and bettering yourself will serve only to keep you in a resistance loop to change.

Take a moment and imagine yourself in the most desirable outcome imaginable on the other side of this change that life is offering you. You’ve certainly given yourself to imagining the worst, right? See what it feels like to do the opposite. The best case scenario that you imagine may not be the outcome in terms of the physical details, but if you are feeling loved and supported within that best case imagined scenario, I can tell you that THAT assurance and knowing will be the essence of the outcome that this change wants to bring to your life. What could be better?

Feel that.

Does that feel like your truth or does it just feel like I’m doing a good job on selling you something? Your truth is what matters here, not mine. If you can let in the feeling of being loved and supported, you are finally feeling the difference between being in resonance or dissonance with life and love flow.

Any regrets about all the time it’s taken to reach this point melt away in the presence of this incredible love. If there was available all that time needed to get here, then how much more is there to bask and play in this infinitude of life and love?

Holy shit!? All the shit is holy.

There’s your new cosmology reduced to a few choice words. Tear out that statement of faith at the back of your church hymnal and replace it with this one. Don’t let any facsimile of someone else’s awe and reverence from yesterday be a fill in for your heart bursting in climax with the curiosity and visceral joy that IS you.

Does that lay to rest the questions that we let bake earlier, or at least begin to?

Everything I shared with you today, I shared with you from my side of the same veil we all share. I don’t actually know anything more than you do. If my words resonate for you, that resonance is proof that I am speaking your truth….underline ‘your.’

You just got a wave of your own divine self. Merry Christ-mas.

Let it guide you in feeling and responding to the threatening water surrounding your life island. Let these threats be changed into oceans of love and support and guidance for you in regards to how to set your sails as you let go of your island that life is coaxing you off of.

This is your greatest gift to the world around you. There is nothing passive about letting in this swell of self-love. This is your greatest and most effective activism towards the great evils that abound in our world.

You and I are love. Even if we’re quarrelling, we are this love that is already now in possession of all. I don’t quite know how to conclude this writing…because there isn’t any one fitting conclusion….there is only you letting in love…to you….through you….and back again.

I hope your holiday season is filled with as many moments of self-love as you can handle.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and writer at the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.Β