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12:12 Portal Offering Dynamic Access To Parts/Soul Aspects & Body Upgrades

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By Jelele Awen

It is SUCH a dynamic time in relationships with others and within as we enter the 12:12 portal energies of unification and healing separation! Lots of access to feel these separations, fear stuck places and karmic binds. I’m experiencing a vast range of places to go of discovery in the emotional body, soul field and physical body/light body upgrades.

I’ve been honored to hold space with women in a fuller way in sessions lately, and also to be in ongoing connection with Raphael to our Pairbond Source Field, collaboration on our (what is now feeling like) a three book series sharing our sacred union journey together (pic below is us in our daily conversation/check in together with our cats Ravyn and Leo), and we’ve been hosting/facilitating our daughter Raianna the last few days as well.

These are some themes/places/parts dynamics that have come up recently in sessions that I’d like to share here as it can helpful for resonance and inspiration:

– Focused bonding and ongoing connection/differentiation with parts of the self/soul aspects really offers such a powerful way to digest traumas/triggers/reactions and negotiate life choices, creating a centered Divine Self that can hold and respond to self and others. Relationships, esp those with heartbreak/betrayal/non-resonance tones and false twin flame, are providing a rich ground of exploration into these parts of self such as the Inner teenager, Inner protector/Punisher, Inner Mother or Fierce Feminine/Inner Kali, Inner son/daughter and the dynamics between them that are being mirrored there.

– The Gatekeeper, as the keeper of the veils/guardian of the all the soul’s timelines, is going through a time of increased sense of loneliness and isolation, tiredness of being alone in it all and wanting to experience being a bridge to the Divine again rather than lost in the False God frequencies. I’m seeing them coming forward to be felt and seen, wanting to upgrade out of the old programs of the karmic field and into the Metasoul Field (higher level unity consciousness.) and soul family.

– Shame pockets that are kept in place by ongoing Punisher/shame looping (often about the two most triggering areas of money and sexuality) are coming up to be felt, offered love, compassion and forgiveness. Feeling the part that is doing the punishing/judging and the part that is receiving the shame allows this to resolve and come out of hiding.

– Orion aspects are coming through right now, to heal the will-based/warrior energies that these Earth seeders have been trapped in with the Matrix hijack. These aspects feel very ancient, shamanic, and have deep, primordial wisdoms to share. I’ve been connecting to mine the last few weeks and in a session too.

– 3D body detoxes/purges/clearings are needed now as light body upgrades come in. Detox includes from toxic foods, C and the V shots, hormonal imbalances, somatic/body storing of trauma, and more. Fasting, urotherapy, juicing, super food plant supplements, yoga/body movement, grounding with Gaia, and sound healing help detox the 3D body and support the light body.

There’s much more I could elaborate on with all of these so let me know if you have questions about any of them and I can share additional resources from our SoulFullHeart library and other places as well. I am finding there is such a wide range of things coming up as this Ascension process goes on and awakening occurs on deepening levels for so many souls!

The overall coding is to BE a love presence, without judgement, as a bridge to any parts of you and soul aspects who are needing you….so many gifts open out from this connection!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

12/12 Energy Update: Unity Codes Incoming (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/OtFqM66g07E

Unity and reunion codes are all around, this time of year especially. They invite us into a deep heart warmth of love and connection within and with others, while they also highlight for us where truly transactable love can flow and where it can’t. In other words, these codes show us where there is still an experience of separation going on both inside and outside of us. They also show us where there may be a deepening desire for intimacy and where there may be hesitancy and fear too.

In this video, Raianna and I talk about these 12/12 unity codes and what they maybe supporting you to feel. We speak about the different ways you may be experiencing them, whether you may be feeling alone in a crowd while surrounded by more dissonance than resonance, or if you’re actually choosing the void space of aloneness so that you can truly reboot socially and feel into your desires for true soul family (as well as any despair that may come up for you as you do so). 

We also share about the β€˜how’ – the process – which has brought us both into more unity inside and with the divine, as well as into deeper intimacy with those around us in our soul family experience in SoulFullHeart. This process we talk about is the one we hold so sacredly in sessions yet also in our overall way of life. It involves feeling parts of you, yet also feeling soul and galactic aspects and so many dimensions that make you YOU and bringing yourself into a deepening experience of divine reunion within while opening to the experience of reunion with soul family. 

We hope that this video supports your journey, wherever you find yourself at this time and whatever you may be feeling.

Love,

Kasha & Raianna

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Raianna Shai is a member of the SoulFullHeart Healing community.

The Experience of Soul Family | Kasha Rokshana & Raianna Shai (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/rFWB_Dou1KM

It’s a time of year when desires for new kinds of bonds and relationships can arise while you β€˜deal with’ the toxicity and non-resonance of your current ones. Parts of you may feel truly obligated to stay connected to these bonds (which can feel/be more like β€˜binds’) and also hold fear about what would happen if they were to be let go of.

The invitation of Christ/Magdalene consciousness, this time of year especially with the codes coming in, is to feel into these dynamics and also feel into your desires to experience true soul family.

In this video, Raianna and I share about and digest our personal experiences of being a part of this soul family of SoulFullHeart, along with what we’ve experienced with others who have come and gone from our midst. We also share about what we personally want to experience more of with others. We talk about the mirrors we hold for each other and where the intimacy of our bonds here take us both within and together.

We hope you enjoy this insider’s view on our very small (for now!) soul family community and some of the ins and outs we’ve experienced so deeply!

Love,

Kasha & Raianna

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a member of the SoulFullHeart Healing community.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β 

“Does working with parts of the self and soul aspects cause even more fragmentation?”

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By Jelelle Awen

A common question that comes up in intros with me for those interested in 1:1 sessions is, “Does working with parts of the self and soul aspects cause even more fragmentation?”

It’s a reasonable question that I find is usually coming from the Inner Protector part, who can be resistant to opening up access to the parts and eventually the soul field. The resistance comes from them usually feeling overwhelmed from the reality of fragmentation ALREADY within us. They are often tired from the vigilance of protecting from perceived and ongoing threats, from trying to prevent any more harms and hurts to the younger parts of you, and also from feeling like there may not be enough YOU there (as a Divine Self) to hold what would come up and out of these parts and soul aspects if allowed space to express.

We are already living in a fragmented reality, first out of the Divine and then out of our soul family monads and eventually fragmenting out of our own individuated soul source (which we call the Metasoul) into so many different soul aspects/timelines/lifetimes. And in 3D, we are born into a fragmented reality, and the fragmentation in parts of our self and personality is a result and reflection of this.

We don’t create the fragmentation in our SoulFullHeart work, we acknowledge it and relate with it. We name it, get to know it and work it in. We cry together, we laugh together, we are challenged together and we heal together.

Eventually, through the process of engaging in group calls and sessions, the fragmented reality of the 3D self comes into more integration and wholeness as each part just naturally moves into more of their leading edge expression and out of wounding, hurt, lower dense frequencies of trauma anchoring (usually kept there by the Inner Protector’s overprotection and projection of wounding/immaturity onto them!)

As the 3D self truly unanchors from this traumatized reality then the Gatekeeper (the soul’s protector) can open up access to the lower 4D karmic field (where the traumatized soul patterns live out over and over) and eventually your consciousness becomes anchored into the 5D Metasoul field, where these patterns are resolved and healed.

All of this leads to more and more feelings of WHOLENESS, even as you are being with these parts of yours and soul aspects in dialogue, in heart space holding, in shared tears together. I have experienced this myself so many times over the years…that truly being with and feeling a part of myself or soul aspect allows for more return to my centered self.

In SoulFullHeart sessions, we create a safe, compassionate and curious space to allow the reality, feelings, truth, and voice of these parts to come out….and we start FIRST with the Inner Protector who gets to share about what their resistance to accessing the parts/soul aspects, although also they are VERY ready to rest as well. I as the facilitator asks them questions and draw their energies out from you….and you feel your Divine Self able to respond to them and other parts of you too, for perhaps the first time being separate from them. Your Divine Self becomes much more clear and present to you as well in your energy, as the bridge to them eventually becomes the essence that you embody.

There are def. some people who are not stable enough inside to go on this deeper dive into the parts/soul aspect reality so, for them, the process could be destabilizing. They usually aren’t guided to reach out to us in that case, finding other ways and means of healing. And this is also why we check in with the Inner Protector to make sure that there is a readiness of stability within for this.

Yet, if you are drawn to what I am describing here, then you have probably created enough base of center, enough Divine Self essence access, that your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper feel you ARE ready for this next step and upgrade for yourself and soul.

As I am doing more intros and sessions with souls new to the process lately, this is really reawakened my heart to the goodness of this SoulFullHeart way of being with the self and soul. It is MY way too of responding and living and being in relationship with Raphael all these years too. I am happy to share this with my soul family who are drawn as well.

I am seeing that some souls who have been long awakening this life (and have often done so much work, wow!) are really ready for a tipping over into deeper expression of their soul purpose expression, soul family/mate reunion experiences, moving beyond scarcity/stuckness/lack/body pains…and into goodness, abundance of love, nourishing relationships and more.

It is really is time to move out of trauma being the growth ground and goodness being the way of experiencing life (while still growing in response to it!)

It is my honor to support this process within you and grow/learn from it myself every time as well.

Info about free intros and 1:1 sessions (which are 55 euros for 90 minutes) over zoom with me, Raphael or Kasha at soulfullheart.org/sessions. Send me a PM, email soulfullhearts@gmail.com or via our contact form on the website. I have openings next week.

Many guided meditation videos in this Deepen 2022 series if you want to start the journey of discovery within: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

There is much more about this in my book Free To Be 5D in print/ebook/audio/PDF versions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Pic is from a recent group process together, digesting some completions and offering comfort and love to parts of us as soul family.

The Multidimensionality Of Being A Woman

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By Raianna Shai

There are so many buried emotions that live within the feminine. So many lifetimes of suppression, persecution and judgement have colored our souls leading us now to either feel small and unworthy or constantly fighting against feeling this way again. Both of these frequencies keep us from being in our full bigness and empowerment as women – and instead allow these pains to keep us from embodying peace and divine love within.

I’ve noticed a theme in the collective lately, even in the last few years of hating men. Ranging from a distaste to true disgust. This always bothered a part of me as I have known so many wonderful and caring men in my life. Yet in a recent process of mine I was looking back on my teenage years and remembered a time that the boys in my high school acted in a way that made the girls feel belittled, judged and truly demeaned as if the only thing we had to offer were our looks. When going back to this time I felt more rage than I have ever felt in my life. It was coursing through my veins to the point of shaking and cursing.

It was a feeling I haven’t allowed myself to feel often in my life, for fear of hurting others or being judged for the intensity of it. But after so many years of this anger being suppressed I finally had a safe enough container inside to let it all out toward this specific memory. What came after was a realization that much of this energy came from the β€œkiller queen” who feels like an archetype that many women have within them to some degree. She has formed from lifetimes of the feminine being treated as lesser than the masculine and not being able to express our gifts. Not even coming close to being cherished and honoured for them.

And yet, we chose this for a reason. We chose to live out and express this feminine/masculine dance and to hopefully heal from it and move into something brand new. I feel the need for humanity to go through this cycle of a pendulum swing from the masculine being in power, to the feminine reclaiming it’s power. Both extremes come at a cost yet I can see the other side of it. What comes next is true collaboration, respect and care between the masculine and feminine. A bond so yearned for and desired that it can’t help but unfold exponentially within each of us and then collectively. I feel this is something all of our souls have been waiting for.

Jelelle led a group call about the inner mother/matriarch that I feel really ties into this theme. As Kasha mentioned in her recent post, the inner mother has had to express as more masculine because of the lack of true masculine support on the outside. In her heart she wants to be able to lean in and discover who she really is as a woman. I feel the more shadowy matriarch energy too in the anger towards the masculine, often drawing more of that wounded masculine energy in her frustration and anger.

As we feel and heal the inner mother/matriarch we begin to understand more of who we are as women and the frequencies we’ve chosen to live in – inside and out. We’ve inherited so much from our birth mothers and mother figures in our lives that getting to know this part of us is key in unlocking what is truly ours to hold. And eventually, we can move through the anger and into a place of forgiveness for self and the masculines we’ve experienced in our lives. Coming back into peace and self love, only to draw more of that on the outside.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Letting Go of Hell To Let In Heaven

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By Raianna Shai

Eeeee! This is the first time I’ve ever filmed a video like this, sharing my process spontaneously through video but it felt so good and natural in the end. We’ve been talking a lot recently as a community about sharing like this more and trying to show what this process is like in a more intimate way, as well as how we relate to each other.

In this video, I talk about a process I had over our group weekend with a gatekeeper of mine. What I discovered is that he was gatekeeping not my own soul, but a whole dimension of masculine sufferring that my soul seemed to have tapped into. This has led to a feeling in myself of needing to save the masculine and pull these aspects out of their own hell. But ultimately, that’s their journey to take and not mine to hold.

This has led to so much relief and unanchoring inside of me that I am finally feeling a fluid and easy connection with the divine in a way that I’ve always heard about and wanted.

I hope this resonates with you or however it lands and thank you again for taking it in β™₯️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Choosing To Live

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By Raianna Shai

It’s a fine line to balance your healing between deep inward feeling and outward clear currency. To dive deep into emotion means to be so honest and transparent with yourself that each part of you gets to feel every single thing that comes up for them. Whether it’s fear, joy, grief, peace, sadness, relief… it’s all so sacred and needs to be felt in its full capacity.

There’s a common fear in that deep dive though that you’ll never make it out of the heavy emotions. That you’ll be stuck in this void of depression and sorrow – trapped in your own inner hell. What I’ve discovered for myself is that not going to these places also causes a hell inside. Constantly invalidating and pushing down these feelings that will always be there until they’re addressed, felt and loved. When they aren’t felt, they come out sideways through reactions that we don’t totally understand. In anger, frustration and feeling inadequate or unworthy.

This is where the other side of the line is so important. There needs to be a bigger energy in the space to hold these deeper feelings. The divine, your higher self, something that can be even just a little bit bigger than the hopelessness. Something that brings air to the container that you’re holding for these parts of yourself. As this bigger energy holds these deeper emotions, a clarity and confidence starts to arise.

From there we find sobriety, truth, transparency and a deep claim of our parts and our relationships to others. In my recent process I’ve felt a mix of my inner teenager, shadow queen and inner punisher and how they all relate to one another. I learned how much my inner punisher and shadow queen were both suppressing and being suppressed, unable to express their truth to me and others.

As I deeply felt all three of these parts I started to feel a release and relief. Clarities started coming through, more truth was allowed to come out, more air entered into my entire being and all the despair and sobbing in that process became so worth it. I’m still in progress with this but so many layers have shed already.

We can try and go under or over the feelings all we want but the ONLY way to move it is through. Allow the feelings to take you on a journey, to change you from the inside out. You end up becoming so connected to your parts that you will do whatever you can to provide them the love and relief they desperately need. Choosing this depth of feeling is choosing to finally LIVE. And each time I make that choice to live and not let my soul or heart die, I become that much more whole and connected to my soul purpose.

I hope that you decide in this moment to choose to live β™₯️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Dear Inner Teenagers…

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By Raianna Shai

Dear inner teenagers,

I love you all so much for the range you can express from angry, frustrated, and misunderstood to sensitive, passionate, and caring. You have held both our deepest desires and deepest fears, keeping our hearts alive and on fire.

There may be times when other parts suppress you or judge the way you are, but that’s what we’re here for. We are here to help you heal your wounds created in adolescence and beyond. To remove you from the frontlines of life and tuck you in where it’s safe to just be you. We are here to help you mature into the creative and compassionate beings that you are in your core.

We are also here to learn from you and receive your gifts. You offer a perspective that ignites curiosity and claim of what’s real in the world. You are consistently trying to find the heart of everything. The heart of truth, love, fear, and even life itself. I have often found teenagers to be the most questioning of the status quo and the false picture of perfection that β€œadults” seem determined to hold together.

Then there’s the vulnerability. You wear your hearts on your sleeves without even trying which can cause pain and suffering without the true leadership that comes from our higher selves holding the space for you. We have to listen to you, feel you and help you heal so that we can help each other feel complete. And in your healing, we find our inner kings and queens that should truly be leading our relationships.

We are here to help you shine!

Love,
The souls who wish to heal you β™₯️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Inner Sacred Union Dance

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By Raianna Shai

Her: β€œI’m here”
Him: β€œI’m on my way”

These are the words my inner masculine and feminine said to each other in a SoulFullHeart sacred union group call. In meditation, we journeyed to a ball where our feminine and masculine parts met to dance with each other and feel out their relationship. So much was illuminated for me in this simple visualization about the ways in which my own inner relationships have been projected onto my outer ones.

At first, both of these parts were quite young feeling. Like a prince and princess coming together in excitement and play. This felt very sweet but I also realized that those energies are what I feel most comfortable expressing in relationships. I can be young, playful and joyful but I struggle to go into the deeper tones of woman, lover, and passionate soul.

As they came towards each other on the dance floor they became older and more mature. A veil started to fade and all of their fears and strategies started to show more clearly. My masculine, Matthew, began to feel a flood of inadequacy and unworthiness to be able to show up for my feminine, Iris. Her tendency is to caretake him and try to overcompensate for the inadequacy that he was feeling inside. She felt the guidance to not respond this way and to wait for something different to arise in her.

Later in the meditation, they connected with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene as feminine and masculine templates that we are all capable of holding inside of ourselves. Magdalene invited Iris to just be in the room with Matthew and invite him into something new, but also to let go and allow him to find it within himself. Yeshua placed his forehead on Matthew’s to energize that they are really no different and that he is fully capable of all the compassion, openness and passion that he so admires in Yeshua.

Matthew felt so much release in that message and finally cried after many days of not being able to access much emotion. He crumbled to the floor as Iris just sat next to him, radiating love and support for this journey he will go on to find even deeper love for himself and from the divine. I feel a deep surrogacy coming for him from Yeshua, and even a merging in ways he never thought possible.

This is when they spoke –

Her: β€œI’m here”
Him: β€œI’m on my way”

I realized after this experience that so much of this dynamic was showing up in relationships on the outside. Whether my mate felt inadequacy or I felt it, that energy was always in the space. And if it was felt by my mate then I would instinctively go into caretaking, preventing them from finding it for themselves and essentially taking away their opportunity to find deep self love.

If I felt it, I couldn’t quite go into it deeply and find the source of it while in the relationship. Now that I’m single, I’ve been able to go deeper into this wound so that whatever future explorations I have, I will feel so much more centered inside of myself and will know how to hold it with them, instead of for them. I would also draw less of this dynamic as it heals within my own heart and soul.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Validate Every Part Of You (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/YzKHb8K9UXM

It’s so important to validate every feeling you have, as they lead you into such deep connection with different parts of you and into such transformation of your life inside and out as well. 

It can feel like a lot to feel sometimes, and a lot to digest, yet making space to be with what’s real for you/your parts/your heart and soul is truly where it’s at and in my experience, it leads to more openings within and with the divine as well. It can also lead to more openings with others who truly resonate… and help you sort out/let go of the relationships that don’t. 

I hold space for women who want to engage deeper in this process and it’s such an honour to do so! Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info on free intro calls and 1:1 sessions which are for a negotiated rate. 

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.