
10/10: Offering Rebirth Coming Out Of Chaos


By Jelelle Awen
I felt to offer a video this morning in follow up to the writing I offered yesterday……It’s Ok Not To Be Ok. I speak more about the self permission to feel, to be real, to be vulnerable, to see these as sacred and supported by our spiritual processes and an important aspect of ascension too! our 3D culture doesn’t often give us permission to feel our feelings and emotions, instead medicated them or using distractions to feeling or focusing only on the positive ones (this often happens in spirituality). Someone commented yesterday that this message cannot be offered enough and that feels true to me too!
And, for info about a free intro session and a description of the SoulFullHeart process that we offer and more about the specific parts I mention in this video too, you can go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.
It’s the release of our weekly museletter, offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read or click on the image below
In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart teacher and co-creator Jelelle Awen talks about experiencing increased sensitivities as upgrades and clearings continue to happen during this process of ascension. She offers the importance of feeling and holding space for our sensitivities, which were previously covered over and suppressed by our Inner Protectors, coming back ‘online’ again on all levels:
“Honoring your sensitivity again is holding space for it, responding to it, not letting a part of you judge yourself as ‘too sensitive’ as you might have heard from others. This world transitioning from the insensitive, often VIOLENT frequencies of 3D to the increasingly sensitive and compassionate ones of 4D and higher NEEDS your sensitivity to keep coming back online. It needs your feeling sensing alive and vibrating, as do parts of you as well. Your sensitive response to yourself firstly allows an increasingly sensitive sense to ALL of life…and, ultimately, to more experience of life and yourself AS love again.”
The museletter also includes beautiful and thought provoking writings from SoulFullHeart facilitators Kalayna Colibri, Gabriel Heartman and several from SoulFullHeart co-creator/teacher/facilitator Raphael Awen.
The video recording of the livestream with Raphael and Gabriel on October 1st is included in the museletter. During the one hour plus broadcast, they talked about the 3D/4D/5D self, the SoulFullHeart process, and answered questions/responded to comments from viewers. Our next upcoming event is another livestream Q & A with Raphael and Jelelle on Sunday, October 29th at 11:11am CST.
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Our physical bodies have had to be the densest vehicles to navigate things in 3D reality, such as gravity. The physical body is also the most anchored into linear time as experienced in aging connected with ‘years’ passing. Their upgrade to light body crystalline Merkabahs is a BIG thing. Doesn’t feel like this has been done before to take our bodies WITH us into these higher vibrational frequency consciousness states as our everyday living reality AND collective reality too. This is a new timeline where the body comes along during the ascension process and is a critically important aspect of the process too. This is so much beyond the previous picture of leaving the body in order to go to a ‘heaven’ experience of higher consciousness.
To live through this cellular clearing means that what is experienced as physical symptoms is somehow different than we have in the past. I have come to feel that these are more like echoes of symptoms than the ‘real thing’ when looked at in terms of vibrational density. The echo is the sense that they are familiar, have happened before, and are somehow at a higher vibe than they have been in the past.
An example is what I experienced earlier this year of a cellular clearing that happened from years of cigarette smoking in my 20s and early 30s. The lung congestion, coughing, fever I was experiencing felt very similar to what I used to experience back then. Yet, when I checked in with my body about it (through journaling with it to find out what message it had for me, which I highly recommend) I was offered that this was more the toxicity or toxic memory of smoking that was stored in my cells moving out RATHER than an actual cold or flu in the 3D sense. If you are sensitive to energy and in tune with your own body, you’ll feel what I mean as the difference here.
This perspective helped me hold loving space for the symptoms I was experiencing and, I believe, moved the process along faster. I also checked in with my emotional body to feel the deeper emotional congestions that led to the smoking habit in the first place. This is something I’ve been feeling and healing for many years with different parts of me, yet feeling it through the cellular memory channel was interesting and brought up another layer for me to respond to.
Another way to look at this is that the body is moving from a 3D-based body to a 4D one (and eventually to more 5D or higher self IN the body). It is actually, more and more, the 4D body that is relating with your physical reality, digesting the food you eat, making love, etc. The 4D body is more porous, higher vibrational, and more multidimensional. It is more sensitive to which foods you eat and the energy that they come from, especially to ‘killing frequencies’ that comes from eating animals. I don’t think the 4D body in transition is drawn to eating animals or dairy or much processed foods either. It doesn’t seem to ‘get colds’ as the 3D body did or ‘get headaches’ or any other kind of getting or catching illnesses or injuries. Yet, rather, the 4D body is in an ongoing upgrading and clearing process…which is often happening not even in this now at all but from previous timelines (as I described) and also even other timelines and dimensions. I get the sense that the 4D body is also a conscious integration of our astral body.
Feeling these ‘ascension symptoms’ from the sense of what cellular memory toxicities may be moving through through 4D body, why they are there, and the 3D and 4D emotional wounding root cause can bring an empowerment, less resistance, less pain, and more grace to the process. It is an invitation to be more of your own love detective, loving your body’s processes of upgrading, while surrendering to the Divine align alive and at work in it ALL.

Increased sensitivities on ALL levels as the upgrades and clearings continue coming in. Experiencing ascension upgrades and the clearings that they push up at the same time WHILE becoming more and more sensitive to the process IS intense! You may be experiencing this through increased emotional sensitivity in the form of new outbursts and more intense reactions from formerly suppressed aspects and emotions that you thought that you were ‘over’ or ‘beyond.’ Activating DNA and your ascension/higher chakras opening up can lead to more sensitivity to missed or skipped time experiences; more ‘loose’ mind and non-dual moments; receiving repeating number sequences and synchs; and increased clairvoyance/vision/psychic abilities and sense of your higher timeline AS your reality in the now.
The densest aspect of our BEIng, our human body, can be the most sensitive right now as it transitions to running on more light, less carbon. The foods that previously brought ‘comfort’ can be more difficult to digest now with sensitivities kicking up toxicity clearings from all those times of previous digestion. Something like ‘lactose intolerance’ can be truly not tolerable anymore as you tune into how sensitive your body really is to the energies in foods you digest. Previous comforts like drinking alcohol or cigarette smoking may lose their appeal as the body protests whatever frequencies of self harm (and the emotional body too) and your cells try to clear the toxicities.
It feels like one of the upgrades we are being offered right now is to feel/remember how sensitive we really are. Our sensitivity is revealing itself again, coming back, and being uncovered. Sensitivity to our own hearts and what lives in them of undigested everythings from pains to goodnesses. Sensitivity to our own souls and what exists in other timelines of our fractal, Metasoul expressions, and to feel how they are happening in the now and not in the past. Sensitivity to what we can remember more and more of our multidimensionality, our links and roots to the stars, our languages of light reactivating again.
We always were sensitive. To our environments. To foods. To energy. To emotions. To metaphysical realities. To each other. To Gaia. Yet, we were taught and conditioned to be insensitive. To numb and to dull down. To cover over. To push away and deflect.
Our Inner Protectors learn to lead with this insensitivity as a main way of protecting us. Better to be insensitive than SO open to feeling and being impacted by it all which could, potentially, lead to harm and hurt. Connecting with your Protector and other aspects of your 3D self can help to navigate this sensitivity remembrance…with reassurance and compassion for what they have had to guard against.
Honoring your sensitivity again is holding space for it, responding to it, not letting a part of you judge yourself as ‘too sensitive’ as you might have heard from others. This world transitioning from the insensitive, often VIOLENT frequencies of 3D to the increasingly sensitive and compassionate ones of 4D and higher NEEDS your sensitivity to keep coming back online. It needs your feeling sensing alive and vibrating, as do parts of you as well. Your sensitive response to yourself firstly allows an increasingly sensitive sense to ALL of life…and, ultimately, to more experience of life and yourself AS love again.
By Jelelle Awen

More underbelly it seems of 3D human consciousness coming up to seen, felt, experienced…to move from and out of the shadows into the light. During this transitional phase, this death and rebirth…there is loss, there is pain, there is chaos…..as we have known this for so long and it is stored in our collective consciousness, it has to come up to purge, to move, to be reshaped and reformed with and into love.
This is when and why the choices of love over fear means so much…on a personal level, very personal, and in every moment. To love the fear that comes in response to the violence on the outside (that always stems from the inside). To offer love to the parts of you that have been baked in this violence and are just so USED to it that it has somehow become a form of love. To love the violence inside so that it will transform into love…this is the personal act of BEing that shifts the world too.
The outer terror-ism is sourced in the inner terror-ism…the emotional states inside fueled by undigested shame, trauma, self punishment; and the soul states in the Metasoul of unintegrated shadow, karmic binds, other timelines playing out of suppression, dominance, war, battles. Consciousness states of terror that can live in the most innocent of places inside of us…not causing it, yet experiencing it, and ultimately deciding to learn from it and move beyond it.
It can be hard to see in the aftermath of violence that every soul signed up to experience it and had a ‘role’ to play. Difficult to reconcile that each soul is in the process of learning and growing and, this, is their journey of ascension.
With compassionate heart, we can feel how difficult this choice is, yet, honor, that all are powerful creators of these play outs. All will return to their love essence eventually. All will return to Divine Source ultimately. All will chose love inevitably.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.
By Jelelle Awen

I feel sometimes like I am looping…saying so much “these HIGH frequency energies right now are offering us…..” When I feel into an energy update to offer, this is what always comes…there are ongoingly high frequency energies of photonic light, the Schumann Resonance is rising higher and higher, ongoing solar flares coming in from our sun and the cosmic sun that just KEEP coming in. There are high frequency waves of PURE love too…they are golden, pure white, rainbow, whichever colors you are meant to see and feel and receive that is uniquely for your soul. You may feel the reception of these energies in all your bodies…emotional purgings and detoxes, physical manifestations, social shiftings too, and chakras morphing as well.
And, these energies are ongoing because, boy, do we NEED them right now! The grip on 3D life and the matrix that is created from mainstream consciousness can seem so strong, prevailing, with sllllllooooooowwwwww progress being made in loosening it. So many millions, perhaps billions, of souls still in the process of it, needing the 3D reality as their growth and learning ground….until they don’t anymore.
I feel there is a fourth dimensional (4D) matrix too….it is less solid perhaps, less structured, with less conscious purpose or collaboration. It is more likely created, arising, from the personal UPheaval that happens when the soul starts to wake up, the veil of amnesia is lifting, the higher self connection deepens, and the aspects of your multidimensional self/fractals from your Metasoul come into your consciousness. It is triggered by ‘peak experiences’ brought on by near death, drugs, soul mate clashes and goodness, kundalini and non-dual frequencies. Souls engaged in the valley of dark nights and peaks of light days all contribute to the creation of the fourth dimensional awakening bliss mess storm.
The 4D matrix (if we could call it that and at least in the definition that we offer in SoulFullHeart) has both firestorm energy and calming/balming energy too. It is back and forth, up and down, openings and closings….chaos and finding center BOTH, sometimes in the same moments. It is made of both fear and of love, with the modulating choice points toward each represented in every moment. With the 4D matrix being such a tumultuous experience, it makes sense that parts of us would want to remain anchored to 3D reality…to the known, the safe, and the comfortable even as it feels also flat, dead, and limiting to our awakening soul.
These energies of love and light, though, they want to pull the 3D anchors out that show themselves in guardedness, defensiveness, anxiety and tension, conflict, self punishment. We feel in SoulFullHeart that these anchors are represented by primary parts and energies that we’ve identified as the Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, and Inner Mother/Father (depending on gender.) These aspects can be quite dominant in a personality or less so, depending on what our conditioning has been and stages/phases of awakening. They definitely seem to operate at some level in all of us as we all have needed for our own survival to create them. We’ve created a process to identify, connect, and differentiate from these core 3D energies (that often get bypassed or tried to be with spiritual frequencies) that we offer through weekly sessions with a SFH facilitator. I’ll be sharing the map of the process outline soon….More here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
The main frequency differences from 3D to 4D seem to have to do with the signatures of the soul coming into your awareness in 4D and that, ultimately, it WANTS to grow, change, and transform. It wants to see life differently and beyond what is offered by the 3D limited screening. It wants to be more than entertained and distracted and finding the next things to do as the 3D self is….it wants to go within, discover, BE, feel what is real, and let go of the anchors that densify reality. The 4D can be both the cocoon and the discarded carcass too….as the butterfly of YOU takes flight, finds wings, and experiences more and more the Infinite Love that you ARE.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.
By Raphael Awen

You’re feeling a lot right now.
You may not think you are, but thinking is different from feeling. It comes from a different apparatus, one being the head and the other being the heart.
If you pause in any moment (like this one), for a moment….. to feel …..you can immediately get a sense of what you, or what a part of you is feeling, or maybe rather, resisting feeling. Being on Facebook is a big world of feeling, that you, as another big world of feeling are interfacing with.
But what specifically are you feeling right now?
What are you hoping to feel by continuing to take in my words? What drew you a moment ago to ‘go online’?
If you’ve been numbing down what you are feeling then asking that question will begin to open out your awareness to the world of feeling that you haven’t been feeling. It would begin with sensing the rumble of unfelt feelings from within, admitting desire, admitting boredom, or need, and admitting the feeling of not wanting to feel.
Every last one of us are a universe of feeling. We are energy, and we are in motion, and when you put those two together, we are e-motion, and then we get to our e-motives, the deeper stuff beneath all of the who’s, why’s, where’s and what’s content of our lives, to what is really going on at a deeper contextual core level of being.
What you are feeling is running your life, and while a part of you may feel that what you feel is ruining your life, those so called negative feelings are the first portal you are being given to enter your e-motional body, the primordial awareness ground of your being.
So there you have it, no special moment per se, but yet totally pregnant and interconnected with all that is, even as, and even especially as, it doesn’t feel that way to a part of you.
You are sooo much more than you’ve consciously known, but parts of you are in touch with this, and this explains a whole lot about the suppression and management of e-motion that’s happening in the background just off the radar.
Time now, to love it all with a generous curious heart that really wants to learn, love, and feel all there is to feel.
Nothing to fix or even to heal really, just a lot backed up waiting to be noticed and felt, and then whatever shifts occur as a result just lead to new feeling and new noticing…. In a world of infinite love, you’re not broken, and you’ll never actually be fixed or even finally declared healed, as you will always hunger for more of the infinity that you are and long for.
I felt a wanting to share today after and during an unusually intense few days of ‘working’ doing an online money gig doing some data entry. I was feeling all the feelings held by a part of me fueling this energy to work, wanting to be felt more than anything, and now I feel opened out and expanded to hold this part of me as I re-engage in the work, feeling the more that there always is to feel.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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By Jelelle Awen

‘Business as usual’ is not so usual anymore. The routines and patterns that bring a sense of safety and comfort are being interrupted and shifted by all these waves of high frequency light. And, if your life IS continuing to remain exactly the same, it could be that part of your 3D self is holding onto the patterns, routines, safeties, and the knowns for dear life, not wanting to let go, wanting to remain anchored to some degree still to 3D life. It could be a part of you that is understandably afraid to be untethered, free to fly and, therefore, also susceptible to crashing and burning.
Oh, those anchors and those hooks to 3D life can be so deep and invasive! They are what you can feel as ‘business as usual’…sometimes literally a business or a job or a career, especially if it is 3D-based, a long-term source of livelihood, and not serving your passion purpose expression of love here as felt and seen by you. The security and safety of these ‘means of income’ wants to be threatened and sorted out, so that you will start to let go and step out into a more trust-based relationship, 4D and higher frequency relationship to drawing your means of supportive energy in the form of money for yourself. Or, so that you will lean into a community of other resonant souls in a sharing money picture (as we do in our closest circle in SoulFullHeart)….or, with a sacred union mate for which you can collaborate and create your livelihood together.
Sometimes, the anchor to 3D ‘business as usual’ money earning has already been let go off and severed in many ways. But, maybe it was with harshness or suddenness. Maybe it was the rejection of a steady livelihood or 3D career or business in favor of living without true means of supporting yourself in a sovereign and consistent way. This can lead to ultimately compromising situations, such as moving in with birth family to support you as you ‘find yourself’ or to receiving money from the government because you are ‘disabled’ or ‘mentally ill.’ You have let go of 3D life in one way yet, actually, are now anchoring into a birth family safety (in the form of government aid in some cases) that provides another kind of anchoring.
This can be OK and even necessary for a phase, yet, the question becomes: is this way of receiving livelihood (love in the form of money) ultimately serving your higher expression of love here or is it settling, limiting, and/or confining you? Is it based on a picture of you being broken or needing fixing or not being able to manage in life? In some cases, the best service of loving yourself could actually be to get a ‘regular job’ in order to be able to fund the things that most feed your soul, allow you to be independent from family again, and move you closer toward your soul expression being the source of your livelihood here.
‘Business as usual’ also relates hugely to relationships in your life, which can very much have this normalized and flatlined sense about them if based in 3D frequencies of duty, obligation, routine, comfort, and familiarity. This can especially be true in long-term friendships, birth family, and romantic relationships where you are awakening and others are choosing not to. Relationships can and do provide a huge anchoring to 3D reality, which is needed for survival for your childhood and yet can then become have a hampering effect, a dampening on your awakening and growth. Shrinking to fit these long-term relationships can look like pretending to be the same around them ‘on the outside’ even as you are hugely changing on the ‘inside’ and ‘in private.’ Parts of your 3D self, especially the Inner Protector, can wear this mask very well and energize suitable and conforming energies to fit in with these relationships even when you are consciously unhappy in them as a soul/5D and higher self.
It IS possible to experience life as an arising wonder. Every moment open to the surprises and mysteries that could unfold if you can let your relationship to others AND to life and to love arise anew for you. The usual and normal give way to what Infinite Possibilities might bring to each circumstance and how they might be changed into the unexpected and even magical. In this arising wonder relationship to life, you no longer experience boredom and, when you do, you can feel the part of you that is still wanting to anchor to 3D life in some way and WHY they are. These textures of arising wonder happen when your higher self consciousness can come into your body, expanding your heart and opening your mind beyond ‘business as usual’ and into the sublime magic of All That Is.
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In the SoulFullHeart Process experienced through affordable weekly sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, you get to know aspects of your 3D self and how they operate and are still anchored in all areas of your life, including financial and social. You receive support to negotiate with them as your 5D self and navigate choice points toward manifestation of your highest purpose. Read more here about our free intro session with a facilitator: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. This article identifies the 3D, 4D, and 5D self as it relates to seven areas of life: emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.
By Jelelle Awen

For my beloved mate Raphael, and for YOU too:
You and me, in our altered consciousness….we create our own galaxy of USness just by walking around in each other’s orbits.
We sit in conversation in public places, changing the energy around us, inviting ALL to feel the possibilities of union like this that already lives inside them. A seed just waiting for the water of their desire and intention.
We create these fields, these joined together merkabahs and vehicles of light and love, that transport us to other timelines, dimensions, all our soul’s counterpart pairings….Golden Earth experiences while bridged to and in 3D.
You evoke my feminine, I provoke your masculine…and they dance, as they should, to music first heard from within and then expressed together.
Creating safe heart space….we are free to bring the vulnerabilities, sensitivities, and triggers of our deepest densities to each other.
Allowing each other to remain wild, bonded but not bound…we are able to surprise each other, remain ultimately unknowable, and unfold the mysteries of our deepest essence as we go.
We serve as a lived in, loved in, reminder that the experience of sacred union CAN arise without conditions, situations, and or even a partner as it grows from within firstly and mostly…..preparing the heart, soul, and body grounds to receive and respond when it is time for an other to come along….
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.