Ending The Inner Wars: Connecting With Your Protector/Inner Masculine

By Jelelle Awen

The suffering so often comes from the inner polarization, the inner wars between one part of you to another. It can feel as if this suffering is being caused by others outside of you….what they are doing or not doing, how they are behaving or not behaving, what they are giving or not giving. It feels as if the war is happening outside of you and so much calling parts of you to ‘go to battle’ over and over again.
Yet, actually, the wars are happening inside of you and showing up on the outside as a mirror. The wars happen inside because of the templating you received of them in 3D life and what your soul experiences in other lifetime/timelines. The collective 3D culture so wrapped up in defending and battling…….and YOUR intimate cult-ure of birth family engaged in its own battlefields too. What were the warring frequencies that you took in from your parent’s relationship? From the way their masculine and feminine (inside of BOTH of them) related with each other? What did they teach you about fighting, about resisting, about pushing and pulling?
You sponged in this templating as necessary for survival and parts of you formed in response to it. Masculine and feminine polarized parts of you took on ‘roles’ and frequencies of woundedness AND goodnesses too. Parts of you both rejected and accepted your parent’s templating….some of this inherited energy was put in shadow, some was consciously rejected, some was adapted.
The inner dynamic of polarized masculine and feminine leads to SO MUCH of the less than, lack, settling, codependence, and suffering that people experience in relationships and in their lives and in their souls too. It leads to SO MUCH of the patterns and cycles of loneliness/isolation on one end of the spectrum and clinging/overstaying/settling on the other end of it.
I have seen this so many times in sessions with people recently and over the years….and in my own process too. The inner masculine is often waiting in weary vigilance. The Protector (inner masculine) part of you desires for a release to the amped up state of seeing so much as a threat and for so long anticipating or being in battle. He waits to put down the weapons, to take off the armor, to let down his guard. He doesn’t want to be a ‘warrior’ anymore (not for love or light either). He doesn’t want to be the voice of judgement and criticism anymore.
Your Protector wants to be forgiven for ALL that he feels that he has done ‘wrong’ when he wasn’t able to protect you. He has lost the sense of Divine purpose in it ALL, the choices that you make/made on a Higher Self level to experience all that you have. He feels that so much of what you have experienced in this-life and other lifetimes is HIS fault. He is heavy with this fault and the guilt of it…and the shame too. This heaviness anchors him to 3D timelines and other lifetimes/timelines too.
He is the reluctant babysitter to your sensitive, vulnerable feminine, your Inner Child and Inner Teenager. He has so often been disempowered and disconnected from his authentic voice and capacity to set healthy boundaries for these parts of you. Instead, he is caught up in cycles of perpetuator and victimhood and stuck in traumatic, undigested scenes from your childhood unable to actually help feel and heal the parts of you that are still in trauma.
Healing the inner war is about bringing compassionate love to ALL these parts of you. To feel how it has been for your Protector and to be an energy of forgiveness toward him. To listen to his war battle stories and respond when he tells you about other parts of you that need your love. Giving him something to DO that is healthy and active and brings purpose to your life. Being with the younger parts of you so that he doesn’t have to hold them anymore. Being bigger than him in energy so that he can finally rest from being the guard/warrior and become the guide to you that he is meant to BE.
More about the Protector and other parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Here is a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Protector and begin this empowering negotiation and with this vital part of you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ciJIvrn0xA&t=1170s
This is the moving into frequencies of inner sacred union and balance. This is what leads to the draw of an outer sacred union with a mate of resonant soul/heart/mind/body energies. Experiencing this primarily from INside of yourself as you understand and feel and heal what had become warlike. Bringing ambassadorship and Divine Mother’s love to even the most polarized of frequencies so that you no longer have to draw and experience them with others as a mirror.
Inner transmutation of polarized gender frequencies is a really vital and important aspect of Ascension. This is what the process looks like on an emotional body, intimate level. This is relational Ascension that allows for experiencing a fulfilling and empowered life in ALL areas of life (not just in the ‘spiritual’ area.) This is personal Ascension that also impacts the collective process on a quantum and archetypal level.
This is BEcoming love as you free up all energies inside of you to express as an unified field of the Infinite Love that you ARE!

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Raphael and I will be talking more about this process of connecting with your Protector during a livestream today at 4:00pm CDT, with the broadcast recording available afterwards on my Jelelle Awen facebook feed and on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel.

We support you during 1:1 bridging sessions for $55 USD min. donation with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator to connect with your Protector and heal your inner family: more info here soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

 

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Unanchoring From 3D Timelines Into Co-creation of 5D New Earth Timelines

By Jelelle Awen
The previously beloved timelines are becoming outgrown now. These timelines, mostly anchored in 3D consciousness reality, were activated by versions of you that needed them once. The specific settings and details of their environments served to support situations and experiences that you chose on a soul level to experience this life for certain phases. The people in these timelines agreed to be there and go through the duality and polarization between love and fear experiment with you.
 
You co-created these timelines together that would most allow you to heal wounds and traumas based in the emotional body of your Metasoul/Higher Self source. The density of 3D creates a viable ground to ‘land’ into these woundings and offers the opportunity to really viscerally feel them. In this way, 3D is NOT bad, just very different and denser than what our souls are mostly used to in other fractal expressions. It is actually a polarized conditioning that has us judge 3D as ‘bad’ rather than seeing that we chose it on a soul level for the opportunities that it offers to REALLY feel and heal and complete wound-based patterns and legacies.
 
As your soul essence comes IN more to your consciousness and your vibrational frequency begins to rise, these more 3D based timelines don’t resonate in the same ways anymore. You start to create 4D-based timelines through growing spiritual interests, desires to heal and be healthy, and embracing the Divine Feminine process of death and rebirth to burn off the ‘old’ and arise into the new. Rather than creating a harmonious blend, the 3D timelines vibrate with more and more dissonance when you are in them.
 
Others that are STILL anchored in these lower frequency timelines remain in synch with them….yet YOU are shifting and changing. This doesn’t make the souls who are still resonant to the 3D timelines ‘lesser’ than you, they are just choosing to remain longer in these frequencies for their own growth. Again, both the coming togethers and the completions have been agreed to on the soul level…..no one is abandoning anyone else or betraying anyone else or actually rejecting anyone else although it can feel that way to 3D-based parts of you and them.
 
Experiencing this growing dissonance can be very challenging for the parts of you that are still attached to the pervious timelines and relationships that are anchored into them. Parts of you feel the comfort of them and the safety…..the KNOWN of the exchanges and transactions that vibrate at a 3D level. And, mass consciousness is still predominately anchored here, so there is LOTS of collective support for these timelines.
 
Parts of you (and your soul) are becoming more consciously unhappy though, wanting more, dreaming of MORE, aching for love and soul resonance. Awakening experiences such as Kundalini surges, non-duality driplines, glimpses of Divine realization of Oneness are all serving to create your NEW, higher vibrationally-based timeline. You start to draw relationships that are more resonant in these higher vibe timelines…….with souls that, again, have agreed to BE with you in this next phase of the experiment.
 
Negotiation with the parts of you that are attached to these more 3D-based timelines can help with the transition into the NEW. You can connect with a Protector part of you that has just become used to being guarded, used to feeling like you are being ‘attacked’, used to being misunderstood as all aspects of 3D reality (and experiences from your Metasoul/other timelines too). You can offer this part of you compassionate love from your heart that appreciates ALL the Protector has held and responded to. You are inviting them to start to rest from being so vigilant and to trust YOU (your growing 5D Self) to set boundaries when necessary, to make self loving choices, and to be the main caregiver of all the other parts of you (such as the Inner Child). You can get to know the Punisher part of you too that has learned to judge or BE judged by others as part of 3D conditioning.
 
These parts of you can move into the NEW timelines too, bridged to it by your love and acceptance and embracement of them. Their energies become transmuted then from protection to guidance; from punishment to intuition and clarity. Read more here about parts and Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Here is a simple meditation for connecting with your Protector part: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA
 
These INtense SOULar, Lunar, and Gaian energies are supporting the creation of soul-based timelines that resonant in ALL areas of your life. These NEW timelines offer a mirror reflection of your goodness and worth in ALL of your relationships. These NEW timelines offer no longer being able to tolerate ANY patterns and playouts of abuse, either with others and within yourself. These NEW timelines activate for you if it is your soul’s choice time for them to manifest and you will be offered much support for their arising manifestation.
 
These 4D and transitioning to 5D timelines, more than anything else, offer LOVE and an experience of yourself as Infinite Love in Sacred Human Form. Make them real through your love-based choices. Create them through letting go of what previously was anchored into fear polarization. BEcome them in THIS now as you offer love to ALL parts of you and to others!
 
MUCH love to you and with you as we create the New Earth/Gaia timelines together!
 
Jelelle Awen
We offer a bridge from 3D timelines (through parts connection) to your higher timeline through a 1:1 bridging session (90 minutes for $55 USD min. donation) with me for women and with Raphael for men! soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Feeling Your Protective Layers As Downloads Rain Inward – 11/11 Gateway Invitation

by Kalayna Colibri

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NEW inspirations are downloading for you now. Sometimes they trickle in like a light rain from bloated rainclouds. It depends on what you’re ready for and what parts of you are opening up to. Your Gatekeeper, who is another layer of your Inner Protector, gages and siphons off these downpours and INpours of INspiration that want to come to you, to move you into new places in your life, to help you see and make those tough choices and take those challenging steps to reclaim, re-energize and reignite the flame of self-empowerment and love.

The energies leading up to the portal of 11/11 this weekend feel like a soft caress and rock music, all at the same time… there is understanding and love from the Divine and the Multi-verse, and there’s a strong invitation to shake off the dust and awaken to where love is flowing in your life and where it may not be. It’s not a violent shake, yet for some parts of you it may feel that way in moments, as the awakenings come in and take hold of your consciousness, or at least try to. Doorways, portals opening, yes, as they have been continuously, and the most powerful one imaginable is the one that begins to open up to a wider aperture inside of you. This is the one that truly invites in more energies, more upgrades, more loving ways to be in this world. It brings in desires to tread gently yet powerfully, acknowledging how this can seem like a paradox to those who haven’t experienced that you can hold both of these frequencies at once without violence or outrage or wounded masculine expressions of toil and strife, or battles and martyrdom.

If you feel ready for the downloads coming in, you can ask for them, but you cannot bypass what needs to be felt before they can integrate in the way they need and want to. For them to truly go in with love takes a lot of conscious and ongoing holding of the parts of you that don’t want them to or aren’t sure it’s okay. Your Gatekeeper, who I mentioned earlier, is the main aspect of you that is used to holding and blocking so many threads of your potential awakening that they haven’t deemed you to be ready for quite yet (and that they haven’t been ready to let in themselves, either).

My own Gatekeeper, who I first came to know as a defensive Inner Protector or Guardian, is offering to me that my readiness is ripening after what has now been several months of working with her, yet several years of working with parts of me that were dominant aspects of my personality. She says, “the soul and heart maturity level need to match with the maturity level of the arising, conscious Sacred Human, who is striving for spiritual consciousness, not in a mentally-based way, and is deeply exploring their heart and wanting to know more, FEEL more, about who they are and why, who/what the Divine is and why, as well as who they could be destined to become in conscious and empowered co-creation with the Divine… It is important to let in the process AND the downloads, to not simply try and open floodgates that are meant to and need to be there… for now. And too, the Gatekeeper needs to feel this relationship with you as your healing Sacred Human self, to trust the Divine through and with you, as so many (myself included at times, in some layers…) still feel very consciously and unfairly separated from the Divine and therefore, from the powerful force and trance of love that wants so much to flood into you and them too.”

It is a major process to feel into, this acceptance of what is being brought in, and there are many understandable defenses that want to keep it out or filter it in a way that is perhaps more digestible for now. There is nothing that can truly be missed out on here though, as each opening within you does create this ever-widening and expanding portal of access to YOU and to the Infinite Love that is the Uni and Multi-verse we exist in and through.

So perhaps the greatest invitation and inspiration being extended to us all with this 11/11 portal, is more of the same of what comes in with all of them… to continue to acknowledge and deepen the work within, to let it be and arise and take a stronger, more self-loving hold on your heart and soul. To invite in a reality that is heart-based, that works with the mind and not against it, and with the soul in a more sober way. There is so much still to feel and on the other side of that, so much more to just keep letting in as we continue our paths of deep inner transformation that continuously transform and upgrade our entire world as we kNOW it and rediscover it, today. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

It’s Ok Not To Be Ok: Feeling Your Emotions During Ascension Video W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

I felt to offer a video this morning in follow up to the writing I offered yesterday……It’s Ok Not To Be Ok. I speak more about the self permission to feel, to be real, to be vulnerable, to see these as sacred and supported by our spiritual processes and an important aspect of ascension too! our 3D culture doesn’t often give us permission to feel our feelings and emotions, instead medicated them or using distractions to feeling or focusing only on the positive ones (this often happens in spirituality). Someone commented yesterday that this message cannot be offered enough and that feels true to me too!

And, for info about a free intro session and a description of the SoulFullHeart process that we offer and more about the specific parts I mention in this video too, you can go here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

The Wealth Of Your Woundedness

By Jelelle Awen

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The preciousness of your vulnerability…that which is often hidden away, like a buried treasure within your emotional body. Buried to keep it safe by the part of you that protects and guards and has ALWAYS needed to since you came here to 3D life and confronted the harshness of separation and duality.

The tenderness of your pain…that which expresses in tears that you may hide behind your hands or save for private and alone times to express and still do. Learning to cry without sound as a child or teenager, preferring to let it out in the sanctuary of your bedroom or other private space.

The wealth of your woundedness…that which can feel like a curse or a burden to parts of you, yet actually contains gifts, these textures of previously undigested traumas opening up rich landscapes of feeling, inspiration, compassion for yourself and others.

All these previously hidden things are looking for the light of your day to shine on them. Inviting them out of the shadows, to be embraced, cared for, and SEEN. Your beloved and loyal protector showing you where they have been buried, so you can feel and heal together. Divine energies, Divine mama and Divine papa when needed, create the safety, offering the right timings and phases, the supportive container within to hold the emotive explorations.

Your higher self and soul coming into your body…coming in to infuse you with courage for the journey into the deeper depths of densities and suppressed feelings in your emotional body and in your Metasoul/other lifetimes. The bliss of this soul reunion allows for the downward digging that grounds in the higher frequencies into your heart.

The wealth of your woundedness…..the repeated beacon of your pain that is triggered by crashing romances, clashing relationships, conflicts and tensions, changes and transitions. Life continually bringing you ALL that you need to heal if you will just accept it as such and turn inward to see what it is offering you about you. The beacon of your pain calls you to go within; it calls you to discover the inner treasures; it calls you to return home to yourself over and over again.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.