The Heart Stays Alive, Even Through Heartbreak: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Even in solemnity
the heart is alive with possibilities.

Even in darkness
the beacon of light that you are
shines through the cracks.

Even when you’ve bottomed out
new seedlings sprout
from the ground burned by life’s wildfires.

Even when your heart is broken
it still beats its melody of surrender
knowing that it cannot know
how the whole story is going to end…
only how this one chapter has seemed to.

The death of what could be, but isn’t
brings your heart to its knees in an instant
yet this is only for a moment
in the grand picture
of your sacred life’s journey.

~ Art by Julia Watkins ~

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Trusting The ‘Fall’ Into Feeling

by Kalayna Solais

“To fall,
patiently to trust our heaviness.
Even a bird has to do that
before he can fly.” – Rilke

To fall… a tall order for some, a tip over the next edge for others. To trust the weight of it ALL… to be in the surrender of, ‘okay, I guess this is my next place to go’, without any denial of the clues from Love itself and the invitation into the next layer that needs healing. There are many of these next and next and next places, and it doesn’t really have an end to it, just deeper and deeper to go. Trusting in each process is the key and the challenge. Trusting that no matter what it feels like in these moments of letting in feeling, there is a shore we will wash up on, renewed, letting in so much more than we once could – wow, this can be the hardest piece to trust, can’t it?

Falling, willingly, is for the maniac in you. The maniac that is so curious about yourself, your soul, your parts, that living into each layer that needs love and taking in the mirrors that show you these layers is something you look for and look forward to.

There are so many layers of letting go, of letting in more trust, of being in more Love, of flying higher and higher still as you let in all that you are, but sometimes…. sometimes there’s a crash landing. Sometimes there are those phases of saying ‘no’ to that which parts of you have clung to in order to keep life ‘just so’ and somehow known, even though you also ache to experience the unknown! The crash though is a crash into YOU and into LOVE. Your parts fall into the arising you that gets to hold them and the Metasoul Aspects too reacting to the ‘no’ experiences, the life changes, the rekindled desire for MORE coming from your strengthening, growing and opening heart.

Feeling the full weight of how your parts have experienced each ‘fall’ in life, is what brings you and them to more and more experiences of leaving gravity, as you’ve known it, behind. ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

It’s Worth It To Keep Feeling: A Message From The Divine

by Kalayna Solais

“It will be worth it,” the Divine offers, “just keep feeling”.

We dive in. We swim in the emotional waves, exploring the caves and crevices long-hidden beneath them. Parts of us feel as if they are drowning at times in the intensity, but then the wave ebbs and they surface, breathing new air.

It’s worth it because the new air is worth it. It’s fresher, cleaner, purer than what you settled for before. It reminds you that everything you feel has magic in it and revelations too that relieve so much even if the revealing is bittersweet to taste.

Each wave of feeling has its own power and place in your heart where it wants to be held.

Not bypassed.

Not fixed, nor gotten rid of.

Just held. Honoured. Loved.

“You’re worth it all,” the Divine reminds us, “and you’ll soon have it all, sooner than you think, if you keep feeling, trusting, being, and loving everything you are”.

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Painting: Divine Love by Chanchal Ganguly

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Finding Alignment Within To Align With Other (And Life)

By Kalayna Solais

The most important and powerful alignment is the one inside of you.

Aligning and (ALLYing) with your heart, body, soul, mind. Divine Align and living into your higher timeline comes from this place, actually, and brings you closer to discovering and experiencing the bigger purpose for all you’ve been through and all of the healing work you’ve taken on and gone INward with.

I’ve been in a process with my beloved, Gabriel, in the last couple of days and it’s unfolding into an ongoing process which we both need to keep being with and being real about. We’ve been feeling misaligned and disconnected… which has been so hard and sad to really let in and feel. We’ve felt to take some space from each other, even sleeping in different spaces, in order to to go inward but also come together and digest what we’re discovering and feeling through with parts of us about our bond and how they’re really feeling about themselves and other aspects of our individual lives too.

In other words, we’ve been taking space to align more inside of us so we can see where and how we can align together. ❤️

We’re already benefitting from this process in huge ways… experiencing more love on the inside that can flow more easily on the outside with less resistance to each other. We were even able to have a fun date night last night where we could feel new grounds of joy and aliveness!

Less resistance to the love that wants to flow inside helps the love flow on the outside, which helps align you with the love you truly desire to experience in all areas of your life. This I keep learning over and over again and this, I feel, is one of the most powerful ways to feel what your next steps are on your healing and Ascension path. Where the love isn’t flowing in your life is a reflection of where the love isn’t flowing within, between parts of you and you and each other too.

Much love!

This photo is from our date last night…. in new joy waves together, starting within. ❤️🔥☺️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

6 Things To Remember On 6/6

By Kalayna Solais

1) It’s just as important to take the time to breathe, integrate, INjoy, as it is to dig deep and continue to uncover/discover what it is you came here to do but more importantly, what/who you came here to BE.

2) Feeling what is true is more important than ‘truth’ based on facts. Whether or not your intuitions, gut instincts, senses of things are exactly ‘right-on’ with what science or other sources are saying is THE truth, YOUR truth is what is the most important in this Now moment and is subject to change as you do.

3) Serving the body vessel is one of the most critical things you can do for your overall well-being, especially as parts of you feel the trauma they’ve long held or hidden in a deeper way (which so often will reveal itself through the body somehow). One of the most essential ways to love yourself and them UP is to love the body. Doing yoga, even for 10-20min a day, is one way. Feeling into eating lighter, more nutrient-dense, and non-violent foods is also helpful… and eating less in general can be too as this aids detox symptoms in so many ways!

4) Every day is sacred… every day is a portal/gateway into new possibilities and alchemy, into new revelations of Love…

5) Being YOUnique is what you came here to do… to return to Oneness and Unity within so you can return to Oneness and Unity outside of you while taking everything you have learned, remembered, revealed on the inside with you.

6) You are always loved, always supported, even during those times when you feel as if the Divine is far, far away. You are, beyond any shadow of a doubt, LOVED… just for being WHO you are and WHERE you are right now, bravely walking out everything you are.

Much, much love to you on this 6/6 day! 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

About SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Teacher Kalayna Solais (Video)

This is a video I put together to introduce myself in some more detail… I already share about my journey in other videos and writings but not usually in this way. I’ve created this video to support my bio already on the SoulFullHeart website: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

I write regularly for this blog and also frequently publish videos of audio blog recordings, guided meditations, process digestions, and more along with my husband/Sacred Union mate, Gabriel Solais, and my other beloveds.

I have much intention and desire to serve love as I continue my own healing and Ascension journey and this is always being refined, purifying, and deepening.

In this video, I introduce myself and some pieces of my journey to where and who I am today. I awakened very young, around the age of 12-14, and shortly afterward I started to dream of ways to serve love and help others heal as I also sought after my own healing. I do my best in this video to summarize some of the highlights of my journey to date yet, of course, there’s always more to share and I warmly welcome any questions or comments you may have!

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Deep Human Fear Of Intimacy

by Kalayna Solais

One of the deepest fears of humanity seems to be intimacy. Relationships that deepen. These relationships are not just romantic either, though that is one of the most challenging grounds in which to work this fear. This also includes beloved friends, colleagues, the Divine… and yourself.

How intimate are you with yourself or parts of you? How intimate do you feel you are with the Divine and with others around you?

3D conditioning has created a block, a defense against intimacy. It reminds our soul too much of Oneness and our decision to separate in order to experience life here and learn through it, grow because of it, and rejoin into Oneness when it’s time to do so. It brings us back to the love we once trusted that somehow 3D life has taught us either doesn’t exist or it takes too much work to earn it.

To be intimate, starting with ourselves, is our birthright and the journey we came here to inhabit. It is the wellspring of Self Love which overflows the love that then is shared with others.

To be intimate also means being vulnerable. Being vulnerable is also scary for parts of you because of your conditioning that it somehow isn’t ok to not be ok.

And… to be vulnerable means to make space to feel and share love. It doesn’t just mean sharing your pain, it means sharing your tears of joy too, your celebration of others and yourself, your gratitude for the Divine and Its ever-loving support.

To be truly intimate with Self and others really offers us all a deepening journey of feeling every line of defense within and every case made by parts of us to keep guarding those defenses and keep them in place. To actually go inward and feel the fears is the deepest gift to offer these parts as they trust your space-holding more. They and you begin to feel naked to your own truths and bake in these opportunities for rebirth.

To begin to open your heart again after all you’ve walked out in THIS life let alone other lives, is no small feat and uncovers no small fears along the way. Yet with every tear of pain or joy or relief or anguish undoes the lock to another layer of who you’ve been and had to be until now and who parts of you have had to become in order to preserve the precious depths within you and within themselves too.

It is a deep passion of mine and my beloveds to support your unlocking and unfolding of all of these pieces… sessions with any of us are available for you and we would love to serve you:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Making Space For Healing Instead Of ‘Figuring It Out’

By Kalayna Solais

Intentions for your healing arise, often with a target or specific goal in mind, something that has been painful for a long time that parts of you so wish they could unseat and heal FINALLY. It could be something in your physical body, or a certain trigger in your emotional body, or depression, anxiety, or any sort of trauma.

I have a personal desire list or even ‘wish list’ you could say, that parts of me are attached to moving on from and deeply healing. Or rather, I feel how my Inner Masculine especially has this list that he’s holding, sometimes saying,

“OK, THAT came up again today… what is THAT reaction about and how do we get underneath it finally?”

It becomes a mining effort, a drill-down, instead of a gradual staircase that you can’t take all at once.

Does that feel familiar? 🙂

It’s so important to breathe. It’s so important to connect in with Divine love and support during these times when it feels like your healing process is more about intense effort and mental ‘figuring it out’ than about BEing with what’s coming up, even the turmoil of that part of you that wants the healing to just be done now. Why does this part of you want to just get there by now? Is there a fear that comes up about the consequences of not being there yet?

The journey of healing CAN be beautiful though it has to also be messy in moments. Often parts of you probably wish they could avoid the messes altogether… the reflections from life, from relationships, from your spiritual path and process, that don’t always feel good and are often super humbling. I have moved through so much over the years because of taking in reflections and plugging into Divine love and support in deeper and deeper ways and the journey ever continues, as does the deeper healing of the fears of life’s messes and the need sometimes to descend and feel the shadow in order to continue ascending.

The layers of healing that we all experience are worth the intensity of the deep-dive within. Every time you come back up to the surface, the air is purer and sweeter. And just when you think it can’t get any better… it does.

Trusting the journey IS actually the journey in many ways, at the end of the day. And with each step, you’re saying ‘yes’ to revealing the next layer that needs your love, that needs to remember Divine love, that you ARE love, AND… that none of this can come overnight but is actually more like watching a flower grow, unfold, and bloom. And that flower is You. ❤️

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Sometimes it’s incredibly difficult to deepen your process, healing, and connection with Divine love and support without guidance… my beloveds and I offer 1:1 sessions that you can lean into for encouragement, empowerment, and reflections. For more info, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Divine Support: A Poem

By Kalayna Solais

You are always supported

Through the pain,

Through the suffering,

Through the aches

And the joys and bliss too.

You are returning to who

You are

Through the feeling-scape

Of that beautiful,

Opening,

And healing heart.

Finding your way

Often through brambles

Sticky saps

And tugs from the past

Yet supported

You walk

Even while stumbling.

This humbling path

Of your healing

Brings the by-product

Of ascending.

Moving into frequencies

You know

More than you may remember

In this or any moment.

Flow onward loved one,

Go inward

Move forward and UPward!

Keep your gaze to the Sun!

And soon

The feelings return

To the numbed places

Where memories of your glorious light

Will shine

Once more

And perhaps

…Ever and always,

All over again. ❤️

Love,

Kalayna Solais

And ‘Sonreah’ (my Inner-Earth Lemurian aspect) ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Relationship To ‘Empowerment’ In Your Life & Healing Path

by Kalayna Solais

“Empowerment” has been a theme arising in a few sessions I’ve had with women lately.

Empowerment around really stepping up for their own healing. Empowerment around finding their independence. Empowerment around collaborating with life while holding the parts that may feel afraid of it, anxious about it, sad that it doesn’t seem to be giving them what they feel they want.

I’ve had so much anxiety myself over the years… coming into this lifetime feeling as if I “never belonged“. On the other side of that coin though, I can feel now how others in my life really genuinely tried to connect with me sometimes yet there was so much within me that was rejecting myself that I rejected others often unconsciously. Also, there’s a way that I knew I was never meant to belong in the same way others did. I had to have something to push against in order to find the true me. It’s almost like I was born more into a 4D reality rather than a 3D one, at least internally.

To find your empowerment and the healing of this anxiety/depression is a journey. It’s deeper than what medication can touch. It’s deeper than what many spiritual/therapy practices can touch too. It’s not there to be transcended because if you do this, it will fire back like a boomerang over and over again until you can really feel it and heal it through empowered steps within.

You are not your birth family. You are not your current social world. You are not your school, your grades, your upbringing.

You are a unique tapestry that needs expression in this world that also needs YOU. You are full of gifts that may actually be dormant or buried right now until you can find those steps into your independence, creating the space they need to emerge and unfold. You are a story that is yet to be discovered. A record skipping on one note until you nudge the needle in another direction. So much of what you want to heal inside of you starts with taking a step (even a cautious one) into what’s next for you, whether it feels like a small step or a big one.

You get to choose the path that feels most empowering for you, that helps you feel as if you get to heal AND have a life of goodness, stability, independence, and endless self-discovery. The one I’ve found most empowering is the one I offer, where you get to connect to and have a deepening relationship with the part(s) of you that are deeply afraid, that identify so closely with anxiety and/or depression. Once you can show up for these parts and give them all of that sweet love in your heart, they shift, they open-up to possibilities, they transmute their fear into courage.

You get to feel this gift of self-empowerment to whatever degree you’re ready to, any time you feel ready to, one step at a time. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.