Category: Sacred Masculine

Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

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Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Firing On All Cylinders: Feeling The Blocks To Passion And Purpose

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There is this deep desire to have sex with Life Itself. I don’t mean that in the physical way, of course, but energetically. This fire that wants and NEEDS to create, serve, and heal. In that, it also needs to destroy, illuminate, and transmute.

SoulFire is part of our essence, as is SoulCare. One has a masculine edge, the other a feminine one. Together they make life meaningful, purposeful, and alive. This is not to judge any state you may find yourself in as β€˜less than’ or β€˜lacking’. It is just noting what feels alive and true and what doesn’t. It is in that awareness that you can feel where the fire is and isn’t. Where the care is real and where it is hidden.

You can imagine yourself like the engine of a vehicle that has cylinders where pistons move through to create the spark by which the engine runs. Sometimes we feel like we are running on all our cylinders and others we may only feel like we have half of them online. Like a mechanic, you can β€˜go under the hood’ and see why certain cylinders aren’t firing.

It’s no so much a fixing in the 3D sense, but more of a feeling and heart presence as to what is not letting Love do its job, which is to provide you with the fuel you need to be fully alive and aware of itself.

There can be so much build-up inside your cylinders, or heart channels, that it can bog you down into states that take you into dark times. These are moments of deep rest and deep feeling. Sometimes space-holding can help move things and get clarity as well as an opening to more Love and context.

In two weeks, Raphael Awen and I will be holding a men’s group call about Power, Vulnerability, and Adequecy. These feel like big topics for men and there ongoing ascension and healing journeys. We will also be posting a video soon, with our soul brother James Elphick, having a conversation and meditation about this very thing.

We invite all of our male friends here to join us on this call as well as have a dialogue about what you feel is preventing you from full living and being your most empowered and passionate self. To all our female friends, please tell anyone you feel would be interested.

http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to meeting and connecting with other men around these topics as well as offering our space-holding services. These times are showing us our strengths as well as our challenges and needs. We hope to be a part of that ongoing awakening to our liberated, wild, and alive being in the world.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Preface To ‘The Quest: A Men’s Healing And Ascension Journey’

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I started working on a book about the quest of the sacred masculine and its healing journey about this time last year when I was apart from my soul fam in SoulFullHeart. Of course, it couldn’t help itself from being anything less than what I had learned. It was a way for me to see myself, feel myself, and hopefully help other men in the process.

I have gone back to it recently and felt a pride in what I started and feel drawn and guided to continue on. I may share excerpts along the way as they highlight themselves. Today, I felt to share the Preface as it has relevance to our current collective situation and how are huMANity and masculinity relate to it. I look forward to where this journey takes me in my leadership and service of love to the men (and women!) it is meant to land in.

“IT IS CURRENTLY 2021 and I find myself, along with all of humanity, in a very tumultuous time in history. A global pandemic of fear, psychological and informational warfare, disclosure, and governmental authoritarianism is reigning supreme in our collective drama. Those that have been β€˜elected’ or determined to be the leaders of the glorious mothership we call Earth/Gaia, are showing themselves to be β€˜emperors with no clothes’.

I started to write this book about the awakening, sacred masculine right around the time the world went into a frenzy of lockdowns and an ever-mounting case load of information showing that we are being hooped and reigned in by a consciousness that is dystopian, dysfunctional, and dis-integrated. There are cries that the Old Guard of the Patriarchy be taken down and dis-membered (many times expressed literally!). There is the disclosure of the β€˜Deep State’ as well as the hidden hand that is its β€˜Luciferian’ influencer.

I put words in quotes not to dismiss them, but to highlight that these words are portals into something more contextual and less exact. This is not a book about evidence, data, or convincing this or that. It is about feeling within the current circumstance we find ourselves in as human beings, and more specifically as the masculine side of that equation (more on what I mean by that in the following Introduction.)

The male/wounded masculine dominance of the past few thousand years is being brought to trial and exposure by the collective arising feminine as well as the awakening, healing masculine. This is not an anti-man exploration. My journey has been to find the roots of our collective wounding through my own personal healing and introspection/integration process. In my heart it is very PRO-masculine, the healed transmutation of what has not been working and the honoring and cultivation of what has.

As men on a quest for our authentic expression and embodiment in this drama, we are being called to initiate ourselves into something new that brings us face-to-face with the Shadow that is appearing right in front of our very eyes these days. We are being invited to seek our calling and purpose in this death and rebirth process known as β€˜Ascension’.

We all have a huge part to play in the years to come. Yet to recreate and rebuild I feel we need to do that from a more healed and honest place within us. Who we truly are is a result of seeing and feeling what we have been through with a courageous and compassionate heart as well as passionate conviction to be the change we want to see in the world.”

Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a Men’s Group Call on Saturday, March 27 via Zoom at 5pm GMT. The topic will be Power, Adequecy, and Vulnerability. We will be doing a video conversation and meditation soon to bring this into clarity. But until then you can visit our page at: www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more info and donations for the link.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The New Frontier Of Sacred Sexuality

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This coming Sunday, Jelelle and Raphael will be hosting a group call over Zoom on Sacred Sexuality (www.soulfullheart.org/events). This topic has a lot of energy to it in a variety of ways.

So much of our human story is wrapped up in our sexuality. What it is or isn’t. What it has been used for or used as. What we have been affected by or traumtized by. We all have a different relationship to it.

From an early age, sexuality was seen as a means to some kind of validation. I was shown a Playboy magazine when I was 7 years old in the basement of a neighbors house. I was told to do things that felt weird in order to be given the luxury of seeing it and bearing witness to it.

From that point on, sex was also seen as something taboo and mysterious. It became an obsession in my teenage years and fomented a consciousness that became quite a suffering ground. I took to pornography as a means to satiate this need for power, adequacy, and intimacy (without actually being intimate).

When I met Kasha in the beginning of my SoulFullHeart healing journey, I got to see how my sexuality was out of synch with my emotionality. My heart and my ligham were not necessarily in the same room at the same time. Shame would come up at times in response to this which led me down the Freudian mother wounding path that I needed to address in order to fully embody my more healthy sexuality.

I can’t tell you how much suffering was embedded in my relationship to sex. Through much deep-diving and connecting to my parts and Metasoul around it, I feel like I am just starting to begin a new journey with sexuality in a sacred way in my reunion with Kasha.

It is more about the sexuality inside of me first. What is THAT all about?! This feeling of my own inner sex is tantalizing and curious. It is rooted in creativity and Love. It is wanting to have sex with the World and the Yoniverse. It wants to produce works of art, writing, music, and dance.

The sexuality between Kasha and myself wants to head into more of the energetic heart and soul exchange rather than just the standard-bearer of genital sex (not that I don’t enjoy that too!😊πŸ”₯). There are portals and merkabas to explore and discover. There is deep passion and Love that are meant to be birthed into the world through our union of energies.

I feel a more grounded and mature relationship to sexuality now. One that is embodied and through a healing heart and clear soul. It is a new frontier that is beyond pleasure yet includes it in a much more healthy way that I feel I have always longed for since the day in that basement.

If you feel a draw to this healing and renewed relationship to sexuality with Self, Other, and the Divine please join the call this coming Sunday at 5pm GMT. More information at www.soulfullheart.org/events. There you will also find information on our upcoming Men’s Group call on Power, Adequecy, and Vulnerability on March 27th.

Much love and hot sex. πŸ”₯β€οΈπŸ•ΊπŸΌπŸ’ƒ

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

A Soul’s Declaration

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β€œI am a Knight and Priest of The Magdalene Order of the Rose”. Those are words that came to me this morning in meditation. This could be Metasoul brother of mine, or it could be a soul awakening. Or both. When I let those words as a code enter my being, I felt different. I felt a coming home to myself within my masculine and feminine. 

Lately, I have been listening to music that has been connecting me to multiple masculine aspects within myself in multiple timelines. A Druid priest and teacher, an Essene co-leader, a knight of Arthur’s Round Table, and a Templar monk/knight. I have felt them surrounding my feminine in a calling for reconciliation and integration. I have let that process just unfurl itself through occasional journaling, meditating, and compassionate curiosity. 

Yesterday, I spent some time with my soul brothers Raphael and James on the Abbey grounds here in Glastonbury/Avalon. I could feel multiple timelines in our connection together. In a circle with Yeshua, around a fire as knights and a king, as priests/monks pontificating on the nature of and duty toward God. All of this supported what was going on inside of me as a background process until it was ready to come into clearer view for myself. 

I am a part of a lineage of male and female Metasouls that have devoted themselves to the process of embodied death and rebirth, of the ways of the mystery schools, and of the sacred feminine/masculine and Divine Mother/Father. This lineage is encoded in my cells as it is all those that are a part of it. From this I have become more clear as to who I am and what I am here to serve. 

I am not a practitioner. I am not just a healer. I am a leader, a teacher, and a student of this initiative order of Divine and Galactic revelation. It is deeply connected to many inter-galactic β€˜races’ such as Sirian, Pleidian, Arcturian, Lyran, Orion, and others. It is a path to the embodiment and remembrance of these lineages, timelines, and families. They are seeking a greater reconciliation as well. 

I feel a renewed reverence for what I have been called to serve through this journey with Jelelle, Raphael, and Kasha (and recently, James). They have been the biggest teachers and mirrors to me as well as my Higher Self and the Divine when I was not in contact with them. It has all been an undulating path back to clarity. I am grateful for it as I can serve those undulations and see where they may lead for others. 

So in the end here, I guess this is my Mission Statement. This is what I am here to β€˜do’, Be, and embody more and more. It is a call to other men and women who feel a resonance with that clarity and declaration. Who feel guided to heal the wounds within that lead to greater revelation about who and what they are meant to be and serve within that lineage of the Magdalenes and their galactic counterparts. I look forward to the new chapter that serves me, you, and the Divine whenever and however that reveals itself.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Reunification & Reconciliation Of The Inner Masculine/Feminine

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This geography is bringing up so much around what I feel is a reunification of the masculine and feminine within. I have been working with the inner feminine for some time now and it is ticking up a notch and a half since I have been here.

But this β€˜working’ is not just some generalized notion of β€˜The Feminine’, but rather a very specific relationship with a part or aspect of me in a more intimate way. It is β€˜my feminine’. I don’t mean that possessively, but rather more personally. They have a name and a frequency just like any person I may have a relationship with.

This has taken some time for my masculine parts to let in, yet has brought with it so many gifts for them. There is something to lean into and to learn from that has been a bit out of their grasp of conditioned consciousness. There is a need and desire for reconciliation and reunification on both sides.

I feel this feminine aspect really desiring this attention and cultivation. She wants to help bridge the gap with my inner masculine aspects that have some things to clear around the repression (and fear!) of her and The Feminine in general. I feel this process actually landing me in more of a union and dance of gendered poles rather than a blending of the two in some unisexual way.

I will do this through journaling, meditation, and bringing as much of them into my waking reality as I can. As this communion deepens, I feel I will be present to my own needs for romance and service as they will each bring their own gifts and passions.

I want to thank Raphael Awen for being a model and bridge to this inner love affair that offers so much for my sacred masculine embodiment that is personal to me and not some archetypal masculine that feels inauthentic to my parts. I look forward to sharing more about this ongoing healing between these very powerful energies.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Bridging The Masculine & Feminine In Avalon

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In the Heart of Avalon the energy of the sacred feminine runs deep. As a man it can bring up many different feelings and reactions. For me it has been a toggle between feeling at home and feeling amiss, like I don’t quite fit in.

The dance of the masculine and feminine within comes to the surface to be felt and called into union. I feel these aspects inside of me vying for attention and healing. A priestess energy that has been with me for some time yet is ripe for more relationship in this geography.

Then there is the architecture of the wounded masculine exemplified by the church tower on top of the Tor. It activates a priest and Roman aspect that feel the uneasy feeling of walking these lands remembering the ways in which the dominating culture created a veil to the magic of the time.

The beauty of it all is that I get to bridge those two together into my heart rather than be caught in the space between. I can bring them together in sacred ceremony as I sit here wide awake in the middle of the night. I am on a different clock now and that is the timepiece of the soul

I am here to feel. Here to heal myself as well as the collective masculine so that I may serve those knights of heart that feel the same calling within despite all the din and distraction. The sacred masculine is rising and has a journey toward and with the feminine. It is here and cannot be stopped, only resisted.

I am blessed to be here. I want to share my journey and serve the wisdom and love that arises from it. I have a purpose and the Divine has a plan of which I am only partially privy to. My masculine is acclimating to that while my feminine is revelling.

In the middle is the flow of Life.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Masculine & Feminine Interdependence

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by Raphael Awen

An impulse to do something, to express something is a masculine kind of outbound energy. This energy needs and requires a feminine inbound energy of being and letting-in to sustain and validate its need to do and express.

The masculine doing and expressing by itself runs out of gas, and must vulnerably return to the feminine to get its needs met.

Likewise, the feminine inbound energy of letting in love and ability to BE in being wants to express and do as a natural extension of itself. The feminine however can’t disconnectedly express and do just for the sake of feeling powerful, or worthy, or right. It wants and needs a higher frequency.

In this way, the masculine and the feminine are interdependent, and in that, we see the basis for Sacred Union, within each of us, for we all possess both masculine and feminine aspects/polarities of being – each of which longs for union, for a higher way.

The incompleteness of one is the portal to the other.

Vulnerability (the ability to admit need) is the grace that permits the masculine and feminine to find Sacred Union dance.

This is true inside and outside.

Maybe the most powerful common denominator between the masculine and feminine is this shared mutual need – this wound state one remains in without the other.

This energy feels so palpable to me since arriving here in Glastonbury in the UK, a place of deep feminine energies and converging soul aspect timelines. One can feel the still unresolved lingering between the feminine and the masculine wanting to find its reunion in actual transactional grounds of real people expressions and relationships.

We are this coming together. We are the cast and crew of this production being put on by consciousness itself.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. VisitΒ soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.Β 

The Vulnerability Of The Masculine Relating To The Feminine

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by Raphael Awen

The masculine in its ability and desire to provide is a great thing in and of itself, which we all have inside of ourselves regardless of gender.

Where the masculine gets into conflict is when it needs to find, maintain and suppress a dependent feminine in order to keep his gig working. Eventually this comes to a demise and both the masculine and the feminine are afforded an opportunity to restructure – vulnerably admit their fears, needs and desires to find a new way, or at least a completion of the old to eventually allow a new way to arise.
The masculine has a particular challenge in that it was born of a feminine womb and yoni from which it wants and needs to separate, to define itself, to be different enough to create attraction in order to be afforded a partaking of that exquisite feminine while it is trying at the same time to differentiate itself from and pretend to not need.

The more the masculine leads in the world with his power, attainments and capabilities, the more he is trying and still needing/seeking feminine love, as it is only the feminine than can give all that power and attainment meaning, yet he is not quite ready, or sufficiently aware to transparently and open heartedly admit the true nature of that need.

This dynamic takes a quantum leap forward when the masculine is ready to feel, ready to vulnerably admit need and desire to himself, his innerverse, his inner feminine, and then energetically and emotionally to the feminine in his outerverse, his universe – yoniverse.

When you get that sorted a bit, all lovemaking and love getting strategies take care of themselves, effortlessly as you have it aced inside, which is a very cool feeling for the masculine – doing something really stunningly well!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Challenge To Feel (VIDEO): Conversations With Men

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“Feeling is really hard! It is really challenging!”

These were words I spoke in the third video of the Conversations With Men series with Raphael Awen. In it we talk about the challenges for many of us, especially men, to get down to deep and vulnerable feeling. To actually feel our feelings.

Raphael mentions in the beginning that we are all emotive beings in constant feeling. The question is are we really feeling the feelings and being honest and vulnerable with them? What is feeling as opposed to reactions and/or states of being?

As boys (and girls, too!) we are conditioned to suppress our more sensitive emotions, our true heart reality. This suppression tends to result in anger or depression (numbness), or both! Rage becomes an emotion that is normalized in men rather than hurt.

The inner boy’s feelings are not welcome and sequestered to the shadow where hurt foments into rage. A protection forms that pushes away or shuts down in a myriad of ways. For the more spiritually inclined man, the activation of the upper chakras in cahoots with the lower chakras can create a bypassing of the most human heart chakra.

This may form as an abusive teacher/healer/mate. A narcissism is formed as a protection against feeling the pain of the inner boy’s trauma. There may be a self-destructive path that leads to addictions, self/other-harm, or possible suicide (one of the leading causes of death among younger men).

If we could create an environment where it is safe for men to feel what they are feeling as they are feeling it, with the ability to process those feelings as parts of themselves rather than being fused to them, I believe we would see a new calvary of men that have the wear-with-all to co-create a new world with the feminine in sacred collaboration.

A tall order? Maybe. A deep desire and need? Yes. I feel the challenges, I am challenged, yet with the support of like-hearted men and women in community, I am finding my way. I believe that other men too could find their way when the desire to truly heal the heart becomes the single most important thing they feel they can offer the world.

Please check out our video for more conversation and please share with other men that you feel would be interested in this mission of deep soul and heart transformation. Comments and questions are deeply invited.

Thank you for being on this journey with us. πŸ™‚

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axuOS4xDnes

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.