Free Falling Into The Abyss Of Shifting Self Identities During Awakening: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 22, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

With Lion’s Gate swiftly approaching, we’re in some ways even more intensely in a corridor of alchemy and changes that are rocking our worlds, inner and outer. This week, SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Teacher/Healer, Jelelle Awen, illuminates some of the ways in which your personal identities in different ‘worlds’ you may be a part of are becoming more obvious, starting to shift, and moving more into healing and integration.

She writes,

“There are no straight lines to follow or linear directional paths to navigate this shifting and sorting out of your worlds. Increasing LOVE for yourself and with others and with the Divine provides heartlines that you can use to navigate in the lost moments. The heartlines disappear at times too, as they are meant to as these are the moments where you inner strength truly grows.

You are free falling into the abyss of lost self identity as the roles fall away, along with the attachments and the rules and expectations too. Yet, you begin to trust more and more that you will land on the soft soil of your own soul’s kNOWing and into the arms of the Divine.

You begin to find your home.”

The next virtual event will be an online Group Transmission on August 8th with Raphael and Jelelle Awen.

The focus of this group on Thursday, August 8, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the Lion’s Gate passageway. Lion’s Gate is also known as “Ascension Christmas” as it offers highly activating, next level gifts of activations and codes to support you to move into your higher timeline. Lion’s Gate creates a bridge to the codes that you’ve been receiving during the last months of Eclipses, SOULstice, and other cosmic/Gaia/SOULar energy fluctuations.

The next in-person event will be a guided meditation and sharing circle held at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC, Canada. This event will be held on August 6th from 6-8pm PDT and will be led by SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. The focus of this event will be on meeting your Inner Protector part of you.

Come join us in the beautiful New Lemurian grids of Victoria, BC for a four-day SoulFullHeart community gathering this September, 2019…..Gathering starts at 10:00am on Friday the 20th of September and goes through 5pm on Monday the 23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way.

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There is a new video this week from Raphael and Gabriel in their ongoing ‘Digesting Disclosure’ series.

In this third video, they deepen the discussion they had in the previous video. They touch upon the ideas of worth and forgiveness when it comes to how to move into a higher frequency when it comes to Disclosure.

The reactions that we have are invariably centered inside of us as a reflection of our own relationship to worth and forgiveness. How we respond externally is how we feel about parts of us internally. This Inner Disclosure is where the power and healing reside.

There are many new articles and several new audio blogs this week from Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna. They offer energy updates, crop circle updates, digestions of personal process, and new ways to feel into your own process from some different perspectives than perhaps you’re used to!

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Your Heaven Exists In The NOW

By Raphael Awen

In my lifetime this life, I’ve gone from fearing I wouldn’t go to heaven when I die, to being assured I’d go to heaven when I die, to now coming to a place of realizing that I no longer am that interested in going to heaven when I die.

Placing our desire for heaven or golden earth in a future hope serves to veil the very real existence of our higher self’s reality in the Now.

Everything you want, you already have. The very real seeming perception of something lacking or missing is a guidepost to help you return to the realization that what you seek was actually never lost, but only veiled from your awareness for a specific purpose of growth – growth for you and growth for love itself.

Laments about the past, and desires for your future are things that occur in your present, that obscure you from the larger Now, wherein exists all you can imagine and infinitely more.

If this is all true, or real, then what’s left is to bridge to the parts of you who are understandably not so convinced of this Now of golden earth. What’s left is to bridge to the Gatekeeper aspect of us who has worked hard to maintain the needed veil between our conscious self (and selves) and our awakening self (and selves). The need for the veil is changing every day. We’re entering a new order of things, internally and externally.

You are awakening from a dream. There’s a ton to adjust and acclimate to, but this is where the fun comes in. This is where purpose and reward comes in.

This is where fulfilling your plan ‘A’ comes in. Plan ‘B’ can take its place in our keepsake box, a sacred reminder that it’s all sacred.

Your and my heaven can only and ever exist in the Now. It’s only through the Now that you can access it. Past, present and future (and time itself) are only emanations from this deeper substance of all things reality called love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Leaving The Prickly Nest For Love

By Raphael Awen

I’m learning what feels like a kindergartners lesson on one hand, and feels like the most advanced stuff I’ve ever heard on the other:

When I’m (a part of me) living in fear of someone, or something, or the government, I’ve given away my power to that someone, that something, that authority, and it feels scary because I’m seeing my own power turned on me. It’s a me to me internal war being projected out.

In these profoundly changing times, YOU are also profoundly changing. What’s worked in the past, socially, financially, what you can and can’t eat, isn’t working the same way. New workings are trying to get in the door as old ones are completing.

These upheavals to your well-being are not signs that you are lacking in any spiritual attainment, but rather an invitation into a new attainment and ground of being.

The universe knows you’re ready to fly, and so, like the mama eagle makes the nest prickly when it’s time to get her eaglets to attempt their first launch, so the universe and love itself is bringing new and surprising challenges, cause it’s getting very close to your time to fly.

You home is the skies and the nest! You are meant to be nestled in a love you haven’t known in a very long while.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

What You Really Want Is Love

By Raphael Awen

What you really want is love.

Things we call ‘attachments’ are only placeholders that parts of us hold onto as love until something better shows up. Who can blame parts of us for doing that. We are made for love.

A child being only willing to eat french fries and chicken nuggets is because he found love and comfort in them and they landed in a place that only feels like the absence of love.

As adults, so much of our routines in habit, diet, feeling states, relationships that we keep or don’t keep, are all so full of these ‘attachments’. Another part of us that we all have until they are felt and healed is an Inner Punisher, and this part is connected to another part of us that holds deep shame. This sets up a punishment-shame cycle dynamic that is meant to protect us and keep us safe which is hard to grasp at first begging the question of ‘why would we do such barbaric things to ourselves in the name of safety?’ The simple answer is that in our subconscious we hold deep memory of feeling love’s absence and a deep culture shock from when we first landed here in the human domain, and felt how non-heart-resonant the hearts of our caregivers were.

Now, it’s up to us to feel how so much self-improvement and problem fixing energy in our lives is actually the problem, not any kind of solution. You are not a broken person needing fixing. You are a profoundly beautiful being made of love and by love and are coming to terms with the love that you are. Part of this acclimatization to love is your willingness as a soul to come to a place that feels like ‘not-love’ in order to afford you an awakening process to the love that you are as a profound soul growth. Your existence and the essence of your being is so much more than than what you and I know and feel in the 3rd dimensional reality of time and space here on Gaia.

So, instead of running yourself through the ringer with feeling and trying to change a persistent negative and harmful pattern or behaviour, what about instead feeling the part of you who needs that pattern or behaviour and why they do? What about getting to know this magical part of you stuck in their french fry and mcnuggett world? They are your portal into the more that you are and are longing to feel and be. They are ‘attached’ to what they know and feel as love. It’s up to you and I to lead with something more, rather than substituting one attachment for another.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Flow Of Joy

By Raphael Awen

Joy isn’t a state of being as much as it is a state of flow.

Flow is about what you are letting in and what you are letting out of your life.

Increased joy will mean a sped up sense of how fast you are able to be with the hello’s and goodbye’s in your life, whether that be to people, places, things, foods, etc. – life as you know it.

Being with all this means holding space for the parts of you that have very understandable reactions to the changes. They want changes just as much as you, but they each have different valid concerns about the how and what and why, as well as the timing of those changes.

It’s up to you to show up as an ambassador to these distinct parts of yourself with an open heart ready and willing to feel through their eyes, hear with their ears, and be changed in the process.

This is the process of returning to the flow state of joy.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Giving Your Inner Teenager What You Needed As A Teenager

By Kalayna Solais

Holding the Inner Teenager inside of you means having an experience of holding yourself during a time in your life when all you wanted and didn’t want, sometimes at the same time, WAS to be held. To be understood. To be felt and empathized with. Not fixed or caretaken, but to be seen in your bigness and challenged in it healthfully and heart-fully, without pushing or poking or prodding but with an arena of safety constructed for the necessary explorations and explosions.

You needed and wanted space, room to grow and feel and explore…. permission to BE in and with the angst, the sadness, the longing for something you could not even name at times, and even the joy and celebrations that wanted to come up too that almost equally could not be felt with you by those around you that you looked up to.

All of this still lives inside of you in a part of you that asks for attention and love in different ways… a part of you that still may be the dominant energy in you at work, in relationships, even in your role as ‘mom’ or ‘dad’.

Often times this part is so repressed that they become deeply depressed and anxious too. Their transition from child to adult was never honoured for the wrestling match it actually IS. This ‘wrestling’ experience is a struggle and rebellion against while also capitulating to 3D conditioning and energies. It’s also an experience sometimes of being stuck in a 4D limbo and ‘void’ space while looking for something or someone to show up enough to help you move into the higher frequency that you somehow remember yet maybe at a distance.

Your arms and heart are the bridge to this part of you that the adult you can show up to construct and hold, piece by piece, with permission granted by this part of you to begin that process. Every effort made to go IN and BE with them is one that imprints them with love. Every time you reach out your hand to hold theirs with understanding and care is an opportunity for them to lean in and be felt in the gift they are, even in their pain.

Here’s a video and meditation from Jelelle that offers some more framing around this process and the opportunity to meet this part of you: https://youtu.be/sLDoA7UXVFk

There’s also this video from Gabriel and I about connecting with this part of you: https://youtu.be/ZIG-zgEb4Mg

And this guided meditation that I created and Gabriel narrates: https://youtu.be/Vu7nRmyzu0E

Much love to you and this part of you as you deepen or even begin this process of seeing each other and experiencing profound healing together. ❤

I offer much space to feel this part of you with guidance and love through 1:1 sessions for women… soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more info ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Is An Inside Out Process: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 16, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

July has already been quite catalytic and the energies of the two recent Eclipses have brought in an extra special poignancy and power. Launching this week’s Museletter is a piece by SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, who offers a perspective on the energies that have come in from the recent Lunar Eclipse and what they have been offering.

She explains that there is an invitation to become more dedicated to the INNER process of Ascension and that this process requires that your OUTER world be supportive and ‘safe enough’ that you can explore your inner terrain and continue your deepening healing journey:

“The dedication to this inner process requires safe space to be made for it. Sometimes that means needing support on the outside whether in space holding/teaching/mirroring of how to BE in it and where you might go next. You might need bridges provided by others as modeling for where to go inside yourself, as I feel that we ALL do at certain phases in our journey.”

The next virtual event will be an online Group Transmission on August 8th with Raphael and Jelelle Awen.

The focus of this group on Thursday, August 8, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the Lion’s Gate passageway. Lion’s Gate is also known as “Ascension Christmas” as it offers highly activating, next level gifts of activations and codes to support you to move into your higher timeline. Lion’s Gate creates a bridge to the codes that you’ve been receiving during the last months of Eclipses, SOULstice, and other cosmic/Gaia/SOULar energy fluctuations.

The next in-person event will be a guided meditation and sharing circle held at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Victoria, BC, Canada. This event will be held on August 6th from 6-8pm PDT and will be led by SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. The focus of this event will be on meeting your Inner Protector part of you.

Come join us in the beautiful New Lemurian grids of Victoria, BC for a four-day SoulFullHeart community gathering this September, 2019…..Gathering starts at 10:00am on Friday the 20th of September and goes through 5pm on Monday the 23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way.

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We have two NEW videos to share this week, one from Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen, and the other from Kalayna Solais.

In this episode of Digesting Disclosure, Raphael and Gabriel talk about the deeper shadow that lurks in the disclosure world and how we are meant to feel how our reactions to it reflect our own relationship to exploring the Shadow within ourselves. If Love is the source of All then how does that reconcile with all the evil practices that are waiting to be exposed on a greater scale? 

This is meant to get to a wider context of deeper feeling and exploration for each of us individually and as a collective. An upcoming meditation in our next episode will help to begin this connection within to help bridge to this suppressed and hidden part of each of us. With Love by our side, we can offer something new into the space in our rage and/or despair. 

For Kalayna’s video, she says,

“After yesterday’s Lunar Eclipse there seems to be an influx of Divine Feminine/Mother energies available and supporting us all. She is coming in on waves of love, care, and compassion for us through all of the intensity and the processes we are in individually but also collectively.

I created this transmission and guided meditation this morning to help you feel Her frequencies that are coming in now. Even if you haven’t really felt Her before, this is a great introduction to some of her many faces/energies and to the process as well of awakening/connecting to Her deeper.

There are several new articles and audio blogs this week from Raianna Shai, Gabriel Heartman, Jelelle Awen, and Kalayna Solais. They include energy updates and digestions of the recent influx of energies from the Lunar Eclipse as well as personal process updates, and offerings of different ways to feel/digest what you may be seeing, feeling, moving through right now in your own process.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Divine Mother Transmission & Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Kalayna Solais

By Kalayna Solais

After yesterday’s Lunar Eclipse there seems to be an influx of Divine Feminine/Mother energies available and supporting us all. She is coming in on waves of love, care, and compassion for us through all of the intensity and the processes we are in individually but also collectively.

I created this transmission and guided meditation this morning to help you feel Her frequencies that are coming in now. Even if you haven’t really felt Her before, this is a great introduction to some of her many faces/energies and to the process as well of awakening/connecting to Her deeper.

I share personally about some of what I’ve been through that has helped me awaken more to Her arms. There is a bit more about this process in a video that Jelelle Awen and I did together during her Deepen series, here:

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Digesting Disclosure: Love, Shadow, & Disclosure

In this episode of Digesting Disclosure, Raphael and Gabriel talk about the deeper shadow that lurks in the disclosure world and how we are meant to feel how our reactions to it reflect our own relationship to exploring the Shadow within ourselves. If Love is the source of All then how does that reconcile with all the evil practices that are waiting to be exposed on a greater scale?

This is meant to get to a wider context of deeper feeling and exploration for each of us individually and as a collective. An upcoming meditation in our next episode will help to begin this connection within to help bridge to this suppressed and hidden part of each of us. With Love by our side, we can offer something new into the space in our rage and/or despair.

Here is a past guided mediation to meet your shadow self previously created by Jelelle Awen. https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE

For more information on SoulFullHeart Bridging Sessions visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

INtimacy over INvisibility

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t written a post in a while as a lot has been shifting and growing in my world. A couple of weeks ago Kalayna and I spent a few days on Salt Spring and just this week we all spent time camping in Goldstream.

One theme that has been popping up a lot for myself as well as my entire community is intimacy in relationships. I have always had this tendency and even desire inside of me to be invisible. I was incredibly shy as a child, I never rose my hand in class, I chose to blend in for any social interaction. I had absolutely no desire to be seen or more vulnerably, to be judged by others.

It’s easy to get into a “mode” in every relationship in your life and it doesn’t take long to establish, even with new people. We find what frequency is most comfortable and what allows us to get along with this other person. What gets hard is when something gets triggered or rubs against something inside of us.

I have found that most people either push away their reactions towards others, judging them as unfair or just not worth it, or they push their reactions on others, without feeling what the impact might be or what’s going on inside of them. Both of these strategies allow us to hide, to put away the deeper and more vulnerable parts of us that go against the already agreed upon frequency that you have established in the relationship.

Parts of me fear that my truth will either end the relationship or deepen it. Both risking being seen for more than my persona. Going against the grain of what is comfortable in relationship is exactly what intimacy is all about.

You tell your truth, as messy as it gets, until one day you are transparent in every moment. Until you have no fear locking you into place and all of your words come from love for yourself and love for other. Until you trust that losing a relationship is okay and deepening a relationship is okay too. Until you are so centred inside of yourself that no level of intimacy can scare you away. Even when fear comes up there is progress and honesty about it all. That is when community can flourish and become something new and never done before.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.