The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.
Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…
This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.
You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.
During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…
Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
There is a path that has been worn down. Worn out. It leads and you follow. But you begin to realize it keeps taking you to the same location that you have seen a hundred times. Feels like this path is just running in circles. A numbness settles in…maybe a frustration…a growing need to veer off into another direction. To see some new territory that you never knew existed. To respond in ways you never knew you had in you. But it has all been such a conditioned response to do the same thing over and over and hope for different results.
You realize the path can’t change unless you do. Unless you make a conscious effort to do something you never imagined you could do…until you found the courage and desire to do so for the sake of feeling alive and new. But it is not an easy decision for the part of you that is used to the path, regardless of the cost to your soul. The fear and judgment set in and it makes it difficult to really FEEL where YOU are in all of this.
But there is one there. A YOU that holds the blueprint of your greatness and joyful delight. So gifted to you by YOU. Yeah, man! You are the creator, the chooser. Not the victim or the loser. It is feeling all these reactions from within as we take a step outside the path. Maybe just outside the old one but a new one nonetheless. Saying something true, seeing what is hard to see, feeling what hurts to feel. Building a fence made of compassion that keeps you from drawing back into the old, and forgiving yourself if it does.
The more and more you feel and heal all that has kept you from YOU, a new path is created. A new set of circumstances come your way that were not a part of the old scenery. You can’t respond to them in the same way for the game has changed, the physics have been altered and you are on a trajectory toward a new planet. A new NEW that keeps renewing itself if you keep letting it. You may wear another path and that is okay. You will remember what that is like and readjust, refeel. Recalibrate to all that is coming your way.
Each shift brings a rearranging of your inner program to let in the one program that you can never quite know or control. Love builds you a spiral staircase for you to climb, to ascend. To discover and remember. The greatest fear is the fear of falling and the only safety is your willingness to feel it to its deepest core. The willingness to descend is what permits us to ascend. Gives us the courage to make that next step UP and IN. A spiral stairway to heaven.
This is not a solo journey but one that is supported and guided by a universe of all the help and love you can possibly let in. This is probably the hardest part to accept for the part of us that has been so used to doing it alone. It is not just our ethereal support but the ones provided by our human soul family that can be the very thing we have been looking for all along.
If you are feeling the desire for more of YOU and to be a part of others who are desiring the same I am available for space holding sessions for both men and women. It is a hero’s and heroine’s journey and I would love to feel it all with you as you ascend to greater heights within yourself through feeling parts of yourself. The stairways to your personal and universal heaven.
Please visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more.
Much love to you on your journey and unfolding
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Today I am in process with a part of me that I have worked with before, but not for a long time now. She has been resurfacing lately and today has been a big day for her. On a wave of love for her and for our process together, this is the writing that came out. It feels like it offers a bridge and a picture of what it’s like to reach into your heart to be with a part of you, no matter how unworthy of your love and attention that part may feel. ❤
Hello, you… you in my heart. You who have been hiding and waiting and feeling cautious about coming out. Yes, you! I have been feeling you. I have been feeling your reactions, your triggers, your need for more love. I have been feeling your self-assumed ‘wrong’-ness, ugliness, ‘hard-to-be-with’-ness. I feel that you’re scared, that you feel separate, that you feel abandoned. I feel it all as I feel your tears. Even though, as a part of me that I met long ago, I have felt you before… your reality has shifted since then. You have seen more, witnessed more, sponged more. Now you’re ready to come out again, showing me the same patterns of reactions you’ve always had, but now you’re ready to be felt more, to be honest about things maybe you weren’t honest about before, to ask for me to help you, be with you, love you up. It’s time now. It’s time to start coming up and out to sit next to me, to lean into me, to not feel you have to do it all alone as you’ve done before. You aren’t alone, you never were alone, and you will never really be alone either. It’s not your destiny if you and I can be together now without you BEING me. That’s really the only time you might be ‘alone’ – when you can’t let me in and let me be separate from you so I can hold you and be that best friend you ache for.
I feel you, sweet inner princess, with so many gifts and dreams and hopes. I feel the pain you’re feeling about wanting to just be these things again, to not feel the weight of life that you’ve taken on anymore. You’re ready to ask for me now, and for you, sweet one, that is a big step.
Welcome home, beloved part of me… together we’ll feel it all and together we’ll heal even more…
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
In the heart of the woman is the daughter, waiting to be adored by parents who feel and WANT her. This inner daughter sits often in shyness, cast into the shadows to remain ‘safe’, not able to come out and play. She is freeze framed in her sadness, ‘stuck’ in the scenes that bring pain every time they are replayed by her mind, which is just trying to ‘clear’ them out.
Her voice is suppressed; her innocence is buried under shame; and her self consciousness leaves her unable to break free from the protective energies that judge and criticize her. She is a child without direct access to the JOY and magic that lives inside her as a seed that needs the water of LOVE to grow and bloom.
In the heart of the man is the son, waiting to be initiated by parents who feel and ADMIRE him. This inner son has masks to wear that play at ‘being a man’, even as he feels very small and insecure inside. He pretends to be a super hero, although protective and critical energies judge him as a coward.
This inner son learns to hide his vulnerabilities and his tears and, eventually, his heart behind shields and walls. He is trapped in the mind; in compensations and addictions; in reaction to inner energies that bully and criticism him. His WILDness is tamed by a world that wants him to conform, to wear a suit of conventional life, to ‘play by the rules’. He is a child without access to his childlike essence and the goodness and magic that lives inside of him.
Feel with tenderness this daughter or son inside of you. Invite them out to play with you, to leap with JOY again in every bound. Hold their hands as they cross the inner streets of busy mind and activities. Pass tissues to them as you FEEL their tears and sadness and their fears. Be interested as they tell you their stories. Bridge their hidden world with your outer one, making it safe for them to grow and learn.
Feel with openness where this youngness lives inside of you and the ways that it shows up in your ‘adult’ life. BEfriend this BEloved aspect of yourself as you BEcome what you have needed the most and didn’t have. Bring in Divine Frequencies of Mother and Father to provide Infinite Love energies to help re-parent them. Let Divine Mother wrap them in Her arms. Let Divine Father hold them in his protective embrace.
As you ARE the loving parental energy that these parts of you didn’t have in the way that they needed IN the painful moments that they MOST needed it during your childhood, the energies of your wounded child transform to health. Shame becomes innocence. Anxiety becomes trust. Shyness becomes humble confidence. Depression becomes creativity. Disillusion becomes purity. The wounded 3D Inner Child frequencies vibrate higher and higher, transmuting into the Magical, Star Seed 4D child and eventually into your 5D Crystalline child, who occupies the seat of your Merkabah or light vehicle.
Places of immaturity in your gender expression are then able to mature INTO the mature Queen and the mature King. As the child energies vibrate higher and you show up as an adult more and more to SEPARATE from these energies, you mature in your emotional body, your sexuality, your capacity to transact intimacy in all relationships. BEing with the youngness inside and loving it is what frees UP your mature feminine and masculine, along with letting in frequencies from the Divine to template how to embody and BE this.
Feel the Inner Protector who guards your Inner Child. With fierce loyalty, this protective part of you had to show up probably very early in your life when life was deemed ‘not safe’ for the innocence and purity of your heart. Negotiate with this Inner Protector, get to know them, form a bond and invite them to rest eventually. As they feel and see YOU there being with your Inner Child in a NEW way, your Inner Protector will start to trust and let go more, drop the guards and the walls, allow more LOVE into your BEing and life. Here is a guided meditation and teachings from us to connect with Your Inner Protector, which is necessary before accessing the DEEPER frequencies of the Inner Child: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc
This inner family of yours is waiting for your connection and for your attention. As you embrace this INNER union with different aspects of yourself, you are more able to BE in your authenticity, open heartedness, open mindedness, feel Divine Love and love with others. As you open YOUR own heart, so does this opening flow out to and WITH others. It is from this overflow of SELF love with ALL aspects that allows for TRUE service of love that comes from humble and surrendered desire!
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This writing is inspired by my OWN inner child, once named Evie then Aurora and now an integrated aspect of my higher vibrational BEing. It is also inspired by the BEAUTIFUL (although often initially very sad) inner children that I had the honor to connect with during session space over the years. Here is more to read about the parts that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process during sessions and more about our process as well:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Our conditioning living deep within, gives us overlays of meaning to grasp at, applied to all circumstances and relationships. We assume much based on our older experiences, our other experiences. We bring it all forward to be projected onto the new and emerging, not because we are lost or wrong, but because we need to. We need to see this day as grey, that romance as doomed, this woman as ‘mom’. We need to feel patterns re-emerging, reinstating themselves in an effort to wake us up to something – but what? Layers of wounding on a soul level, on a heart level, on a human level, compound and break us into new-old scenarios so that we can feel their roots and begin to apply new lenses, no framework, allowing old scaffolding to heal. These known structures of life, familiar ways to see and experience all around us, have been necessary and now, with our ascending selves and no-selves, it is all being brought out to the light. An invitation to wake up, yes. To what has been and what could be now if that timeline is chosen.
There is much to heal, but even more to feel… gifting us with polished wings meant to fly us to new heights, new vistas, many changes through rumbles and shifts. Feeling ourselves, feeling each other, feeling LOVE. We are here to keep working and anchoring those grids girded within an ever-expanding and healing ‘I’ space in the temple of the Sacred Human individual spark of the Whole. Then the sense of what is ‘real’ beyond and yet within the imagination, can become the Golden Earth of relationship to ALL that our souls know and our hearts long for. New, honey-golden, sparkling overlays are possible now, with much more tangibility in the Love Field of us, that joins our hearts and holds each arising moment as precious, sacred, and unique.
Our projections become maps for us to find out more about who we are now, who we have been and who we may become. They gift us with the opportunity to see things differently once the attachment to these overlayed realities begins to heal and move. There is a need within us to find our way through the deepest woods within by following the beacon of projected reality, for this reality IS what’s ‘real’ until it isn’t, until it doesn’t need to be in the same way anymore. And then, yes THEN, we can become more of who are in this new ‘now’, who we came here to become, who we signed up to remember that we always were underneath our needed stories, our life’s slideshows of memories, and our wounds that will soon heal as we show up for them to. This is the terrain to travel when feeling and healing the inner matrices, the falling apart inner grids, the ‘old’ ways of being, doing, experiencing life and our relationships with others. This awareness of even having ‘projections’ to work with is a first step to the awareness and the exit out of the cave, the fall down a new rabbit hole, the entrance to a birth canal. This is some of the more challenging territory to heal and yet, it is so possible, if we can say ‘yes’ to the need for a mirror that helps us see more of it within us and follow the golden thread of Love wherever it wants to lead us to inside and outside of us.
In SoulFullHeart, we offer ongoing sessions, group calls, and plenty of online support through writings, videos, recordings, etc that lead you deeper into your own awareness of your overlays and projections that colour your life and create the patterns you’ve lived into. Through the connection to parts of you that we offer, support and facilitate, you will find more of your shadow, your light, your reasons for having become the way you are now, claiming the life you are now. If you would like to know more about us, our community and the healing gifts we are here to offer you, please visit www,soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Conscious Community…I have said, written, taught about this more in the last couple of months then I have in many years. Although I was living in it myself and offering it to others, the interest level to hear about conscious community didn’t seem to be there, or at least I wasn’t drawing it. Many souls seemed comfortable in their own separate lives, sometimes living in insolation with often buried deep feelings of loneliness. This seems to be a necessary and sacred lone wolf phase for some souls, as they let go of birth family conditioning, 3D-based relationships, and find then that they ARE alone when the dust clears. In this, they would rather be alone then experience a sense of shrinking or conforming to others. And, they perhaps need the space and time to discover themselves again, who they are and who they aren’t with their soul frequencies returning to help them remember.
The DESIRE for commUNITY seems to be growing though, which is also fueled by the UNITY energies available to us that are thinning the veils as we remember more what it is like to BE in unity consciousness as souls, Star BEing aspects, Angelic aspects, etc. Our connection to the Web Of Life and ALLness with each other is becoming more visceral to our consciousness in this density, where we chose as souls to forget it so we could experience what it is truly like to be individual consciousnesses.
I realized as I was teaching yesterday about this during our group call (recording above) is that the KEY piece to experiencing the higher vibrational frequencies of love and intimacy that are possible in community is through healing, awakening, and transformation of your INNER community through the maturation and healing of the emotional body. How can you have a NEW experience with others until you have had a NEW one with yourself with whole NEW levels of healthy heart frequencies becoming freed up in the process? We feel the inner community (in our SoulFullHeart way of life and process) to be aspects of parts of ourselves that are formed through undigested and unmoved energies in our emotional bodies. Personas, masks, layers are formed, consisting of tones of protection, performance, control, anxiety and many other frequencies that were modeled to us.
As you connect with your INNER community, so do you find yourself drawn to share with more self love overflow in community with others. There is more available inside you, less lack, fewer places of scarcity, and you want to SHARE this with others. At some point in your journey too, you realize that you need the mirror offered by others in soul resonant intimacy in order to SEE yourself and FEEL yourself. The opportunities for healing within community are exponential, along with the potential to serve love.
It feels like so many spiritual communities ‘fail’ or have many conflicts, issues, as the emotional body is not addressed directly and so wounded playouts are happening between the members. Unhealed father/mother projections, shame and unworthiness, control and manipulation from the leaders….all these dynamics can be present along with outright sexual, physical, and emotional abuse. Communities (just as sacred unions and relationships of ALL kinds) can SO push up our deepest shadow frequencies for healing, as they are MEANT to. If we haven’t engaged in our own process of connecting and healing these shadow places, then they come out in community in many ways as we don’t have the ability to transact in an emotionally conscious way.
Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman have been my BEloved commUNITY for a few years now and I am so grateful and blessed for the mirror of ME that they offer of both leading and trailing edges. As I’ve mentioned before, we don’t experience conflicts, gossip, power plays, abuses or other shadow expressions playing out with each other as we are consciously connecting in ourselves to these frequencies, healing them, and also clearing these dynamics consciously as a group. We have ‘taken space’ from each other too when needed to heal any codependent grabs and also just to allow for more ‘me’ space. This feels idealistic perhaps, yet it IS our reality on an everyday basis and really does become the NEW normal. We are growing now as a community, drawing two others in the next few weeks to come live and BE with us, so NOW we get to feel what it is like to expand out in our love offerings with others and the whole new things that will be pushed up by this are exciting to feel.
Above is the recording of the group call from yesterday where I teach and share about conscious community, moving from codependence to interdependence, inner community healing, and my experience of conscious community. The others share as well about their experience in SoulFullHeart community, along with sharings from two other souls who are joining us here soon, and the process they went through in coming to that decision, letting go of birth family, relationships, geographies to follow their desires for community.
Also, at about 34 minutes, I lead a guided meditation with Archangel Metatron to introduce you to your 13 ascension chakras and your 5D sacred human ‘violetprint’ (higher frequency blueprint). You also journey to Gaia’s orbit to take in the NEW 5D grids over Gaia and to experience swimming in the Web of Life and Oneness AS you connect to your individuality as well. This is to help you create a bridge from your ‘I’ consciousness to the collective one.
Our next group call is on Sunday, July 9th at 11:11am and is focused on Sacred Union, with Raphael and I offering teachings and a guided meditation about Sacred Union with self AND with a mate. Here’s more info if you would like to join us:https://www.facebook.com/events/275463096260878
Here is more about the process of awakening and healing that we offer in SoulFullHeart through private sessions, group calls, and BEing in community together: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess
I feel Him offering me His arms when my heart aches for a mate connection. I feel Him offering me His heart when parts of me need healthy ‘dad’ energy. I feel Him energizing healthy sexuality and beholding of me as woman. I feel Him in my beloved male friends and teachers in SoulFullHeart, offering me connections with men who aren’t afraid to go INward, seeking and finding parts and soul aspects of them that need healing, with an undying curiosity and love that then gets to overflow to me in connection with them. I have experienced so much healing and softening because of the love I get to share with these men who look at their shadows and bring love to me that is clean.
Yet it wasn’t always this way for me.
In 2011, my birth father passed away. His passing was a year before I started my SoulFullHeart process, and yet even then I had a sense of reality around my relationship with my father… that many tones and frequencies that I needed as a growing, budding woman were missing in my relationship with him. I experienced a lot of intense grief when he died, and over time I began to realize that some of this grief wasn’t really about losing ‘him’ but about lost opportunities in our relationship. Parts of me were actually quite angry with him for having ‘bailed’ before he ever became the father to me that he could have been. I’ve had process too around how he could never really see me, especially as a woman, and how he hadn’t been able to energize anything healthily towards me about my budding sexuality, offering me no healthy template for what I was looking for in a mate. I don’t hold my father in contempt around any of this anymore, as this was clearly a contract we both signed up for and quite frankly it feels like without these and many other voids and gaps in our relationship this life, maybe I wouldn’t have been as compelled towards the growth trajectories I’ve now been on that have made me who I am today.
Letting in the Sacred Masculine in the form of guides and as I mentioned, sacred friendship, vulnerable teacher/student, (and soon!) a sacred union relationship, has been a deep process for me of feeling through these ways in which my own father couldn’t ‘show up’, feeling how this relates for parts of me to the Divine Father and also to mates, and working with ‘inner father’ frequencies of patriarch and also masculine protectors. I’ve had blocks to truly being able to see, feel and experience the sacred masculine in its beautiful willingness to get messy and tangle with whatever it needs to in order to discover itself anew, its ability to feel and embrace the sacred feminine without wounded frequencies of control, belittling, distancing, or abuse of any kind, and its embracement of the mirror that allows it to go back into itself, finding the shadow pieces it needs and wants to work, coming out the other side with even more sense of personal power and potency. The sort of masculine frequencies that make you go ‘RAWR!’ in response to its lovingly penetrative energy and melt into its open-hearted desire for you to be the woman you are meant to be, in all of your curves and softness and self-discovery and healing of your own, in response, in an exquisite partnered dance, through leaning into the organic (and orgasmic) leadership of the authentic and vulnerable King…
It does feel as if we can miss out on letting in these incredible energies, even as they knock on our heart doors, wanting to come into us, to love up our entire being, if we aren’t willing to look at our relationship with our birth fathers. It’s a brave journey and one that can be quite hard too, yet with the right support from those who have been there, like those of us in SoulFullHeart, it is held in the sacredest of spaces and at a rate and pace that you and your parts are ready for. The yumminess of what I am able to let in more and more now, only lights me up more as I continue to feel it and feel the unfolding mystery of its unfolding in my life. There is no single definition that describes it and in its ever arising love and creativity, I feel so much warmth and comfort for my healing woman’s heart and my ever-deepening femininity. I feel how this could be true for all women who embrace the process of feeling the mark of their birth fathers and also other masculine influences in their lives, but I also feel this for men, who so feel to be aching for something missing inside of themselves that they long to experience, that is so different than how their own fathers were or are.
The sacred masculine wants to offer you space to explore yourself within it, providing a dock for your self-made container for all of the YOU-ventures that await you. And if it’s truly ‘time’ for you to do so, you won’t be able to ignore the clarion call of the fire and love it wants to gift you with to help you illuminate and be with your personal process of opening your ever-healing heart. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
So many intense reactions can be surfacing during these ascending times. You may be conscious of their root, and possibly not. They may live on the inside as repressed truth, or may find themselves playing out dramatically on the outside. Either way fires are being lit as Love’s match stick makes its way into our lives. It wants to burn away and spark UP. Shed and renew. Find out what is really going on in that Human heart of yours. I see an inner landscape of multiple flames that range in small bush burnings and others as 4-alarm blazes. This is the geography of our emotional body when left out of our own INtrospection and exploration.
Heaven knows how much I remember that. I could feel it viscerally and was in so much desperation to find that inner fire extinguisher. It was too smokey to see the writing on the wall that said, “In Case Of Emergency…FEEL”. Back then, to feel meant to get burned. It meant to go through some intensity that was not part of the desire of just maintaining some false sense of “this too shall pass”. Not truly understanding that this was all part of the way to get to something more peaceful and less flammable. What I really needed, and did realize it, was a fireplace to contain it all.
I am expanding on an analogy that has been used in SoulFullHeart before. Not sure where it originated but it felt like and apt reminder to all that is happening on an energetic level. The fireplace is the process of parts work and the intimate community that supports it. As these fires arise and burn, the process itself is activated. It lends a safe place for the fire to burn AS its energy is felt and released. The fireplace can be a space-holder, a sacred relationship, your authentic self, and ultimately Life and the Divine Itself.
It is having the trust ground form withIN yourself that life is not out to get you. That you are not a victim and that we are ultimately creating our circumstances to reflect what needs to be felt to make room for more. It is wrapping a context around the content of the fire itself. We suffer when we stay too long in the contents of the blaze until we become consumed by it. We will get burned. That may be unavoidable. But within this container there is a time and space for this healing. It doesn’t burn your house down. Rugs may get scared, couches get discolored but you are left intact with another lesson, and more room to let the love that you ultimately want in the door.
We have spent so long without this environment to let our parts feel the safety and importance of this alchemical burn. It was just too scary as we have hurt and been hurt in the process of forgetting and remembering. It takes time to get used to for sure. To convince the protective part of you to really feel it is safe enough to explore these fires and even light them on purpose. To feel trust enough that regardless of the hurt and pain that may arise, a healing balm of Love is right at our disposal. This happens in negotiation and making one courageous leap of faith at a time until it is just the way you live your life and the fires turn into passion, not pain.
If you feel interested in feeling into this fireplace called SoulFullHeart and what it can offer your deepest needs and passions, visit here. There are so many energies coming in that having someone to feel it with you along the way provides a sane and safe place to digest it. It is also a call to create a large community of love-hearted souls to expand this family and bring in even more frequencies that we could possibly imagine on our own. We are going to need to do some serious remodeling of our heart space, and the fireplace that lets it all in.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
The heart of a little girl, turns toward her mother and asks, “How do I get your love?”
The heart of a young woman in a new relationship, turns toward her partner and asks, “How do I keep your love?”
The heart of a young nun in her morning prayers asks, “How do I earn your love?”
The awakening heart turns to Love itself and asks, “How do I remember you, Love?”
These journeys begin with feeling as if Love is elusive, a butterfly to capture and keep, a path to master, something to make, do, take, have, possess…
These journeys continue with receiving ‘answers’ from outside, with only letting in that which can be seen or learned, until one day, the love that you simply ARE reminds you from inside of you that it was always there…
Abuses of all kinds create a struggle inside, bruised heart walls, parts that hate ourselves, push away others, trauma and drama attraction, resistance to Love and all of its tones and frequencies both challenging and comforting. To be in the heat of Love’s reawakening is to feel what’s blocking it, to feel the need for more of it, to realize the areas of life where it’s not flowing, to ask the questing questions that lead us to clarities of this step followed by that one… if you are used to crumbs, crumbs is all you’ll expect, but once you’ve allowed in a taste of the real thing, the real thing is all that can suffice and yet ironically is what stimulates the appetite for MORE.
Be insatiable. Every pore of your body, every cord of your heart song, every tone of your multi-dimensionality wants to want more, wants to BE more. The having and receiving of more comes from making room, from flowing over with love withIN, from letting it flow to others FROM you and WITH you, from feeling the parts of you that won’t let it, don’t want to trust it, have been burned, hurt, wounded by ‘love’ before, that can’t see or feel or let in just yet that within their hurt and pain lies a pearl – an exquisite gift – of experience, wisdom, heart-opening mess and the capacity to pick up the pieces and keep going on and IN as you grow and bloom and shine ever brighter. Hunger for the growth that allows in more love. Let yourself ask those questions you need to ask parts of you and soul aspects of you. And bring it all back to your appetite for more love to let in and crave for.
To live life this way turns everything on its head! It brings in a whole new way of digesting all experiences, all challenges, all processes. It gives you a home frequency to tune into during emotional phases of deeply feeling your wounding. It motivates you to keep going in and through and guides you in the same.
It’s time to remember… and it’s up to you if you decide to now or later, yet it doesn’t matter, because you will never be less love or loved than you already are in this moment. ❤
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In SoulFullHeart, the process is always about leaning back into love in the end, though the journey to do this is complicated and challenging at times. Digesting pain with a heart-open other who can reflect to you what you need to keep feeling in order to heal it, is simply what works. If you’re interested in feeling into having sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
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