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Healing Inner Punishment Through Currency and Love

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By Raianna Shai

Something has been shifting deep within me to a place I haven’t quite reached yet before. I’ve always struggled to access and allow the parts of me that have opinions, reactions or feelings that are judged inside of me. They were invalidated as too much, unnecessary, unfair, harsh, immature, unimportant and anything else you can imagine.

I’ve been working with this part of me called the Ursula who is very matriarchal and has been deeply hijacked by the matrix. On the other side of the coin is my inner punisher who shows up as a dark cloud to instil this feeling of dread, foreboding and shame. Their names are Octavia and Nimbus.

I first started connecting to Octavia, many months ago but much deeper the last few weeks, and realized that she was a large source of my power, discernment and truth as a woman. She would feel opinions or reactions to things and Nimbus would shut them down immediately and go straight to the logical and more docile response. For example, if someone said something to hurt my feelings and Octavia had a reaction to it, then Nimbus would set those feelings aside and jump to the knowing that “They didn’t mean it that way” or that “It came from a certain part of them for a reason”.

Now I’ve finally let in the fact that this strategy doesn’t allow for Octavia to be felt and often she is feeling something very valid and useful for the other person to hear. Allowing her to share her reaction would bring me a greater understanding of myself and of the other person. It would bring us closer and drop any walls that might still linger between us. But this was far too intimate and could lead to hurt in Nimbus’s eyes.

Over the last few weeks I’ve finally felt ready to release Octavia from this bind and let her speak her heart and mind when she needs to. I’ve shared some (albeit small but current) reactions with some of my beloveds in this community and honestly it couldn’t have gone better.

With Bianca we were able to understand each other on a deeper level and learn more about ourselves and the ways we have operated throughout our lives. With Kasha I was able to uncover a habit of mine that kept me from connecting with others more deeply. We ended up having deep tears about how much we love each other and how much we have been through together.

Each experience allowed me to validate whatever Octavia was feeling no matter how small or “trivial” it might be judged as. Every reaction has a purpose whether it’s to understand more about yourself or to become more intimate with others. I finally understand what it feels like to be current and not hold back in the name of being polite, nice or easygoing. Those are all ideals that have kept me small and in a box of my own creation, not allowing all the flavours and colours of my being to show up and be seen.

Ever since this started I’ve felt this existential change in my being. Last night I imagined it like all my molecules have been thrown up in the air and are coming back down in a new arrangement. I am being changed by this and I can see and feel it in a way I never have before. I am claiming all that I deserve to feel inside and out and giving all the love I can give – inside and out.

Hopefully this sparks an inspiration in you to feel the parts of you that are judging any reactions you have and are preventing you from being current with those around you. Love is current and currency is love. ♥️

Raianna Shai
Soulfullheart Experience

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Year of the Sacred “Yes”

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By Raianna Shai

I woke up into this new year feeling a palpable bittersweet-ness. For me, and perhaps many others, it has been a big year of letting go and then deeply grieving those losses. In a sense it has been a year of saying “no”. To tired patterns, old versions of ourselves, relationships, environments, tensions, and anything that brings a sense of unworthiness or heaviness.

The phase of saying no is SO sacred and tells all the precious parts of you that they are worthy of love and deserve all the desires and needs that live in their hearts. Letting go and deeply feeling the grief of it is something that not many are taught to do. We are taught to let go and forget or hold on for good. But to feel every inch of sadness, relief, confusion, heartbreak, or deep despair that comes up from letting go is so much more meaningful than letting it all sit underneath the surface.

Feeling the depths of these emotions allows more room for all everything you want to say “YES” to. That’s how I feel 2023 will unfold, the year of yes.

Yes to healing
Yes to love
Yes to the divine
Yes to transformational relationships
Yes to inner growth
Yes to opening out the heart again

Saying no to so many things can feel so depleting and disheartening. It’s hard to open yourself up again to the new possibilities that can fill the void that has been left. In the meantime, we can fill the void ourselves with our own inner relationships and inner growth. But soon we can open up again and let in the magic of the new.

Everything we’ve dreamed of is on the horizon just waiting for us to be ready for it. We can hide in the shadows in fear of hurting again, or open our hearts to love and loss knowing that we’ll always find our way back to love. I feel so much honouring of all that has been let go of this year, including an old layer of myself that is ready to move out. And now I welcome in more alchemy, flow and intimacy than ever before! Wishing a REAL New Year to you all ♥️

✨ The pictures attached is an incredible creation by Kasha as a Christmas card this year!✨

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

A Message To Gatekeepers: Unification/Forgiveness/Reconciliation/Light Codes And Yeshua/Magdalene/Christ Consciousness Available Right Now To Tap Into And Download

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By Bey Magdalene

In my last session with Jelelle we met my actual/new Gatekeeper as she wanted to bridge me to my higher dimensional Gatekeeper for support. Who came forward was an energy that in the course of the session would call himself ‘Sampson’. We found him in a scene very similar to the Matrix movie. He was staring at thousands upon thousands of those pods from the movie, all representing an incarnation into a Matrix timeline in my soul. I could see many of them actually awakening from their slumber, sitting up and becoming aware of themselves, unplugging and rinsing off the Matrix waters. My soul awakening. 

He was watching those pods and seeing and feeling all the pain, trauma and victimization all of these metasoul aspects of mine were experiencing. It was as if he was experiencing those timelines himself, through my soul aspects, just by witnessing them. He was caught in a sticky web and couldn’t see anything else. 

Jelelle asked him to take a step back and to try and project this experience onto a screen, so he could start to differentiate from them and breathe. He projected those timelines onto a screen and there were many others, showing all the traumatizing Matrix timelines. It looked like a control center with all those monitors. That gave him some distance to these experiences and he could start to differentiate from them and not feel as if they were happening to him. 

Jelelle was inviting him to turn to nature to further help him unplug from his fusion to those matrix timelines. He was dialing in a big tree with a very thick trunk with deep roots and a sizable, overarching canopy. He touched the textured bark and started to rest by the tree. Then, magically, little light sparkles came through the tree that felt like Divine inspiration coming through. He started feeling and becoming lighter and started feeling hope. Tears could stream as well through Divine love and support.

That was pretty much all he could let in at that time and then he needed to go rest and retreat again. 

I have been connecting with him since and I could feel that it was him who had already unplugged so much in my process over the past few months, plug after plug. I started to get answers to questions I’ve been having about this life.  

I’ve had many deep tears with him since, sometimes he would cry for an hour straight, when I would feel with him the Love and loyalty he has for me and my soul and how he has tried to protect me this life through some really thick veils of keeping me naive/uninformed about core issues in this world or by suppressing my awakening that tried to happen ten years ago already and still has been controlling/capping it to this day. 

There has also been a lot of shame and guilt in him and unworth too, about not being able to really do anything for me or protect my metasoul aspects from trauma.  

Initially, he would show up like light shaped in human form and he was a bit elusive. He felt he didn’t deserve a face or shape because he couldn’t protect my soul, he couldn’t help my other expressions/incarnations in other lifetimes.  

A couple of days ago then he actually took a form and represented himself as a (Roman) warrior with helmet, shield and sword. His protection had become overprotective I could feel and he could feel that too and he started to loosen his grip around it, as he started recognizing my bigness and the power of my heart and of feeling. 

Since I started awakening on a deeper level to how our world is set up and works since the beginning of this ‘pandemic’, I have felt very drawn to the mind control aspect of it all and particularly the trauma based programming that celebrities receive in order to have them fall in line with the elite agenda, whose darkest expressions include satanic rituals. After having needed a break from taking in anything related to that kind of thing and generally alternative/actual news/facts on world/current or historical events, my interest in them has been sparked again since meeting Sampson. 

I have started to take in some comprehensive articles again that are very well researched and explain in detail about all the Cabal structures, events and expressions in the entertainment industrial complex (a good site for this is The Vigilant Citizen, if you are curious yourself). I have been particularly drawn to the MK Ultra programming in the music industry and even more specifically the Beta/Sex Kitten programming that creates sex slaves for the elite. 

Two nights ago, something peaked for me in that area and I could feel that my heightened interest in this topic was actually what we call in SoulFullHeart a ‘bleed-through’… I could feel a Satanic timeline coming through. It felt like a portal was opened through taking in these articles and I could see and feel the female human sacrifice on the altar and a ceremony master whose incantations of certain words opened up a portal to the underbelly of humanity and invoked very dark spirits. I could feel that Sampson was living there too, with my metasoul aspect, trying to help her by being there as a support/to witness, and because he’s loyal and just sucked into the trauma too. 

I was realizing afterwards that this timeline/portal had already bled through in the past for me. It was about 2.5 years ago and I remember feeling completely fused to that bleed through and being terrified to death. Back then, I was living a very nomadic lifestyle, moving from workaway to workaway (a type of work exchange for food and shelter) and my Gatekeeper was drawing quite some intense drama/trauma as well, to get my attention and look on the inside where that trauma lived. My inner and outer circumstances were not providing a save space to explore this timeline in. Now, I am settling deeper into my own little 1-bedroom-apartment/sanctuary here in Central Portugal, I am in a much more loving place on the inside, having felt and moved so many parts of myself from hell to heaven, and I’m surrounded by community who can support me in my inner explorations.

Yesterday was a very powerful Yeshua/Christ Consciousness portal day and the codes were streaming in undeniably. In my check-in with him yesterday morning, I didn’t feel that it was timely to go into this timeline because he felt very beat and in despair. That is also the kind of timeline I’d want support with, so it would be perfect for session or group setting. Instead, I felt to bridge him to some Divine love and support, like I have tried in many of my connections with him, but he hadn’t been ready for it thus far. I needed to feel more of his pain with him first.  

Yesterday morning, I needed to feel with him first that trauma, the matrix and even Satan is more real to him than God. It is really interesting, I have to say at this point, that the fear of feeling something is always, always more disempowering and rendering our parts and aspects impotent than actually feeling the feeling. As soon as I felt that feeling with him, it dissipated and the hopelessness and despair that accompanied that notion, too. 

I saw a staircase made from light that was leading up to the Divine/to a higher dimension and it felt like an invitation for Sampson to move into his higher timeline and into Divine support. I could feel his reticence and him not wanting to abandon my soul and leave my soul aspects alone in their trauma.  

Then I felt next to me very clearly Yeshua and that he wanted to talk with Sampson. So I took a moment to feel into him and his message more as I really wanted to help Sampson and myself too and end this cycle of suffering inside of myself. 

When I tuned into him, he had this to offer to my Gatekeeper: ‘I feel your precious loyalty towards Bey and her soul. Thank you so much for all your love and protection for her! But you actually don’t have to hold the soul anymore, you can‘t even, really, especially if you are in so much despair over it. You have been fused to Bey’s Matrix incarnations, living them yourself, feeling they are you. That way, you haven’t been able to see Bey’s soul bigness and trust and lean into that. You are in a trauma bond with Bey‘s soul… Is that fair to say?’ 

He came through very clearly, directly and very embodied too, which was a first for me. When I took a step back and was trying to feel Sampson and how he was taking in what Yeshua was offering, I could feel him a bit confused and disoriented. He didn‘t quite know who was talking. He asked: ‘Is that you, God?’ It took a little while for him but eventually he could let the Divine in the form of Yeshua in and had tears. His tears are just so precious! He responded: ‘Yes, that’s fair to say’… Yeshua reached his hand out to him and invited him to come with him up the stairs to anchor in a higher dimension, to rest, recover and receive support and Love from the Divine. I saw the shackles around his ankles that have tied him to the Matrix opening through the light. 

Before stepping on the stairs, he looked back at me and started to cry again because he didn’t want to leave me and my soul alone. But I actually need him to go with Yeshua now, I need him to leave my body and my field as I want and need to feel myself more and become more solid in myself.  

My guides can also offer him many other things and give him the kind of support that I as a human can’t give him. There’s only so much that I can feel with him and my human heart can support him in but eventually there comes a time where he has to go off and get Divine support, support from my soul and the soul family monad.  

Gatekeepers as disincarnate beings are also not made for the human realm. It is not their environment, their natural habitat if you will, they are not relational like humans either and they just have different needs than we do. So this dimension does not suit them. They do belong to a different one, they have just forgotten. They can still come back and be the Divine muse for their humans and be in a collaborative relationship with them. So, if they decide to differentiate from their human, they won’t ‘lose’ the connection to them. On the contrary, they will have a much more nourishing one with them, or even have one to begin with. 

After reading Raphael’s Golden Nugget from yesterday (77 words of Raphael wisdom every day, here is the link to the one I‘m referring to), I am realizing that Sampson has been able to come up and out because my light as Bey has been shining onto my shadow where he had been hiding. He couldn’t come out with Bianca as he was way too fused to her and thinking he WAS her, living life AS her. 

I feel I am telling you all this and letting you in on my very intimate connection and relationship with my Gatekeeper because I feel there are SO many gatekeepers out there who are in the same position as mine had been. They are living in this dark, parallel world, that is eerie and is only made up of trauma. That world is not connected to your heart, your love and the support that you have access to. In that world, they only see a repetition of yet another lifetime in the Matrix that is the same as all the other traumatic ones and they can’t actually see that you are making different choices this life and that there’s support available this life that hasn’t been there before. 

I want to reach out to them and leave a seed of hope for them and to let them know: I see you and I feel you. And whenever you are ready to let your human go deeper with us, there is support here waiting for you. 

The place they are in is like an echo chamber of trauma and programmed consciousnesses and reactions. It’s like they have Soul PTSD. For me, it has expressed this life as being easily spooked and having deeply visceral body reactions to any situation that scared me easily. I have also been expecting punishment/persecution every corner I turned or with every e-mail I received or from certain people or in my jobs. I‘m also feeling that a LOT of body issues, especially chronic migraines for me since I was a pre-teen, has been connected to him. There has been a combination reaction going on with my Solar Plexus churning and simultaneously my Third Eye which gave me migraines. 

Their world/echo chamber also projects out into this life and filters every situation, relationship, anything really, through that PTSD filter and skews and colours your experience of life and others this way. 

Gatekeepers are also quite loyal to the matrix pain as oftentimes it is the only home they have known, for eons! So that way, it actually needs some negotiation with them to let go of pain home and experience something else. There is tears for them and deep mourning of letting go the Matrix home and they have to be ready for that. Not many Gatekeepers have done that before either! So that‘s also about creating a new template and anchor it in the grids for others to tap into and follow. 

It is also fascinating how one aspect of you (or you yourself) can be so connected to the Divine, yet another is seemingly cut off from this connection, even though that aspect, you and the Divine can be in the same room together. It just needs a little bridging from you to the Divine for that aspect and it needs your trust in your own heart and conviction of your worth and that you are worthy to connect with the Divine and that Divine connection is readily available, if we really want it. It is about trusting your ability and gift of connecting to the Divine. 

It really comes down to the Gatekeeper’s own pacing around awakening as they can be an aspect that is actually quite programmed themselves. This life, my GK was definitely plugged into the social justice warrior consciousness for a short yet intense time. I can feel him needing to recover from that and from the last few years of intense workaway experiences too, that really were all a from of False Light. But that is fodder for a whole other post! 

So, sometimes, it is just holding this energy, connecting with it intentionally and then hanging out until they let you in. Before they show themselves, they can put you through a few tests though, sometimes for years even, so they can be sure you can handle what they need you to feel with them and that you have the support this life as well, inside and out, to respond to their pain. 

Through my connection with Sampson and many other Gatekeepers over the years, they have a special place in my heart and I have so much love for them all. They are such courageous energies/beings and have seen, felt and held so much. They have seen the darkest expressions of humanity and other races. When I feel Sampson, I get teary because I love him so much and I’m so glad he finally decided to trust me, after all the testing he put me through, and the community too, to trust the community and to show himself. I’m SO glad he was feeling to put an end to being in this matrix vortex that kept him sucked in trauma and that he started to let in the possibility of something else for him. A new experience. A union and collaboration with me and with the Divine. A re-membering of his Divine essence and connection. After all, Gatekeepers are the aspects of our soul that are Divine Muses ❤️ 

Love to You and your Gatekeeper! 

Bey Magdalene

https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions 

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Meet Your Gatekeeper: Multidimensional Soul Aspect & Divine Muse

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By Jelelle Awen

Yesterday, I updated our website page about Gatekeepers. This is the last page from our website soulfullheart.org that now has gotten a new update in energy through redoing the colors, text, photos and lay outs…this has taken days/weeks of my time yet also has been quite enjoyable for me! I think the Gatekeeper page was originally created in 2017, so it has been awhile in the recreation. Our analytics recently showed that it was the most popular page on our website where visitors also stayed the longest…that was interesting!

And, doing this brought me again to the Gatekeeper’s realm…the space in which this magical, mysterious, protective, shrouded and usually hidden aspect of our soul lives, who is tasked with keeping the veil down on our remembering as needed. Lost in their mission, alone and isolated, and often the only conscious witness to ALL those intense human lifetimes (esp in the 3D Matrix) of karma and trauma playing out over and over again.

I connected with my Gatekeeper Lucia just this morning and felt her download some pieces with me about the Matrix, ongoing agendas (some of them looming like dark clouds in the horizon), the Great Reconciliation going on (as we are calling it), creative work inspirations such as a new book, emotional digestion of some recent completions with people, service/purpose clarities and more. We had tears together moving some sadness and mourning even as we felt love together, Divine Mother’s love supporting us both, moving into opened out trust and surrender. Lucia (meaning light) lives now in my lighthouse, shining her light beacon out to those who are ready and resonate to see and feel it.

Having met hundreds of Gatekeepers now during sessions and connecting with mine since 2008, I truly feel their existence as very real although beyond the physical…. unique, important and essential to explore during our awakening and Ascension journey. During long-term connection with them many veils are lifted on soul purpose clarity, soul history patterns/traumas/play outs, relationship to the Divine, unplugging from the Matrix and much more.

There’s more about the Gatekeeper here if you feel a resonance soulfullheart.org/gatekeepers

This is the poem on the Gatekeepers page, written by my Gatekeeper at the time…

I am here, waiting for you to see me and feel me.

Waiting for you to get how much I have done for you.

Waiting for you to understand what I am here to offer you.

Waiting for you to remember why you are here and what your purpose is.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you.

Waiting for you to pick up on the signals and signs that I am leaving you.

Waiting for you to connect that what you feel in your body is often me causing you pain or illness to get your attention.

Waiting for you to heal your heart in order to let in love.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you.

Love,

Your Gatekeeper

If you’d like to meet yours, here is a guided meditation for doing so:

And a 1:1 session over zoom is an intimate space to open up and bridge together to their ‘world’, which is often in a cave-like setting with many tunnels going off of it, representing the many lifetimes/timelines. More info about sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Opening To Love With Every Part Of You

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By Jelelle Awen

You keep opening your heart to love. You do, because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like…..your heart is breaking into pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, saying, ‘This is me, all broken up. Will I ever come together again?’

These parts of you speak of hurt and loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually help them be FREE from these frozen in fear moments.

These parts of you cry with you their tears that often weren’t allowed, permitted, or felt in the moment the pain was caused and harm received by others. These parts of you…..sometimes so, so young, precious, and innocent….can then be held by your and the Divine Mother’s forgiveness and compassion. They can become pure again under the light of your loving sun.

You keep holding the space for this process….being with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL with ALL parts of you. You keep feeling because, on the other side of this pain, is the joy that is contained in every part of you.

On the other side of the fear…..is the love that is the essence of every part of you.

On the other side of the shame….is the innocence in every part of you.

On the other side of the judgement….is the acceptance of every part of you.

On the other side of the unworthiness….is the sense of your innate goodness as a reflection of the Divine.

Your Divine Self keeps finding support to trust this transmutational process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning.

You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so parts of you do, your previously occupied heart now empty, vacated, and ready to be filled up again by love…

You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you and these parts do too until they become more and more whole and integrated.

You keep listening as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here……waiting until you are ready to receive it.”

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Love,

Jelelle Awen

This ground of feeling, healing, and being with parts of you and soul aspects is what we explore with much tender and deep initiation in 90 minute 1:1 sessions over zoom, which range from 55 to 100 USD/Euros depending on Facilitator. For more information about a free intro and sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

This is our Deepen 2022 meditation series that I recommend for opening up access to many parts of self and soul aspects: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Unplugging From The Matrix Livestream Recording & Guided Meditation (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this video recorded live on November 23rd, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen shared about unplugging from the Matrix…a controlled and programmed 3D-based reality that has been kept in place since the ‘fall’ of human consciousness during the collapse of Atlantis/Lemuria. We shared an update on the bigger picture movements of the ongoing Matrix narrative in expression as the Great Reset agenda, False light hijack of spirituality and religion, false med narrative.

We talked about our experience of unplugging from the Matrix and how our SoulFullHeart quantum healing process/way of life supports this process. Unplugging from the Matrix conditioning and programming is a multi-layered process from the inside out in the emotional body, soul/energy field…an unplugging process that needs to occur to allow the soul’s sovereignty and autonomy to be freed up, along with the parts/aspects that are plugged in from this life and other lifetimes with our three way approach to this: unplugging from the undigested emotional trauma experiences of this life with parts of the self; unplugging from the karmic/soul pattern traumas from other lifetimes with soul aspects; unplugging from the Matrix itself including with your Reptilian Self.

We talked about the how you may experience the unplugging process, the signs that it is progressing and the areas that it is challenging such as related to money and relationships. We shared a digestion of the recent documentary about the false med narrative as well.

We offered a brief guided meditation to facilitate an unplugging in the moment for whatever part/aspect/reptilian self is ready for that with Divine support and love.

Here is the meet your Reptilian Self meditation that we mentioned in the video. https://youtu.be/TszIoQ44GIc

Raphael and Jelelle offer a weekly SoulFullHeart livestream on Facebook every Wednesday at 5:00pm Lisbon/London time/12pm EDT, which will then be shared here on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel the next day. During the livestream, we will respond to your questions/comments, plus offer a teaching, personal sharings, and a guided meditation. We will explore different topics every week related to awakening and Ascension from the SoulFullHeart perspective. You can join us live on Jelelle’s feed to ask questions and leave comments. You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org. For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Navigating The False Med Narrative Teachings & Guided Meditation (Video)w/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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In this video recorded live on November 16th, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen sharing about the false med narrative (as we are now calling it due to censors) and how it has impacted all of us, no matter what our personal choices have been around it. We share a bigger picture context around the larger agenda behind it with ambassadorship to those behind the Great Reset to offer more understanding where it is coming from.

We offered how the false med narrative as it rolls out for a longer period of time is leading to an increasing amount of sudden/unexpected deaths and severe injuries, along with genetic alteration, compromised immune system, myocarditis (many heart attacks), strokes, insertion of and merging with nano tech, altering people’s energy fields, amplifying intense emotional states/instability, and much more. And those who haven’t taken the false med shots are seemingly impacted by the transmission from it, even remotely as we talk about.

This narrative has impacted all of us including those of us who have been clear from the beginning about the control agenda around it and said no to it. Even so, you may have loved ones, mates, clients, family members, and others who have chosen it and are experiencing an ongoing digestion around that too. While it may be tempting to ignore it or bypass it or transcend it, we have chosen to awaken during this time and are here to experience this along with the rest of humanity.

We share about our experience of this narrative and the sometimes difficult personal choices it has required us to make as we digest it and how the SoulFullHeart healing process helps us to ground into ongoing surrender and trust in the Divine around it with parts/aspects/reptilian selves who need that and also are resources for us. We led a brief guided meditation to connect to whichever part/soul aspect is in the ‘false med battlefield’ as healer/warrior etc. and then brought up into a higher dimension ‘safe’ space in a lighthouse to rest and recover. In this space, you can connect with your inner ambassador/Divine Self/guides for reassurance and digestion.

Here is the meet your Reptilian Self meditation that I mentioned in the video. https://youtu.be/TszIoQ44GIc

Note: Our mics recently stopped working on our laptop, so we are using the laptop mic in the moment with some computer fan noise in the background so you may want to listen on headphones.

Raphael and Jelelle offer a weekly SoulFullHeart livestream on Facebook every Wednesday at 5:00pm Lisbon/London time/12pm EDT, which will then be shared here on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel the next day. During the livestream, we will respond to your questions/comments, plus offer a teaching, personal sharings, and a guided meditation. We will explore different topics every week related to awakening and Ascension from the SoulFullHeart perspective. You can join us live on Jelelle’s feed to ask questions and leave comments.

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Gifts Of Connecting With Your Inner Teenager

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By Jelelle Awen

Your Inner Teenager is the part of you representing the phase and stage after childhood and before adulthood, usually between 11 and 18 years old, although that can vary. This is a very important period of life as it is very often when awakening is happening on a Metasoul level with timelines starting to bleed-through into your reality. In many timelines, the teenager phase of life is honored as a sacred time of initiation. It is recognized in these other lifetimes that you are in, as the beginning stages of becoming/identifying your soul gift expressions and purpose. In many timelines, the community provided support for the teenager to mature into that expression.

However, in our 3D modern era, for teenagers, there isn’t usually initiation, honoring, and training in how to follow their soul’s purpose or any recognition of it. Instead, 3D culture overlooks teenagers and often judges them harshly. Instead of receiving initiation in all areas of life around relationships, sexuality, spirituality, and passion purpose, your Inner Teenager received, most likely, invalidation in all these areas. Deep 3D-based conditioning just serves to feed and amplify growing fears, dualities, insecurities, and polarizations inside of them.

The Inner Teenager is often hanging out in the sanctuary of their teenage bedroom and can be connected with there. Your Inner Teenager is often stuck there with strong feelings of angst, depression, even suicidal feelings of not wanting to be on this planet and in their birth families anymore. Instead of a healthy phase of individuating from birth family, there is often push-pull, over attachment, and other unhealthy dynamics experienced by our inner teens. They are hiding from the family dynamics, yet there can be both longing for connection and pushing away from the family vibe at the same time. So often the teenager is torn between the necessity of bonding with their birth family for their very survival and a growing sense of dissonance and lack of resonance.

There seem to be two kinds of ways that this expresses in an Inner Teenager during this very challenging phase of life. Either as overt rebellion and acting out in behaviors that are not approved of; or in nearly complete-seeming acceptance and conformity to the family. In the case of rebellion, more inner truth and empowerment is able to be expressed, even if it isn’t always in healthy ways. When there has been conformity, a conforming 3D Self (almost like a robot self) is created to fit in and the rebellious and angry part of the Inner Teenager is usually hidden away in the shadows.

I have discovered that the Inner Teenager is the part of us that is often responsible for our social interface in life, even as adults. They are stuck in the trauma they experienced in social interactions and haven’t been able to mature beyond it until we connect with them and help them heal. It is often the Inner Teenager’s energy that is leading in romantic relationships, which is why so many of them can be dysfunctional and not as mature in transaction. This isn’t the fault of our Inner Teenager yet rather a reflection of where they haven’t yet matured in their expression of relationality with others.

So much intense rage, depression, and anxiety can be bleeding through from other lifetimes/timelines into your Inner Teenager’s reality. Your soul is starting to awaken and there is more coming through. The veil may be thinner during this time and there is not as much protection being provided by the Inner Protector to keep it out. Later on in adulthood, the Inner Protector and the Gatekeeper are able to create a stronger veil around your 3D Self using layers of densities from undigested traumas.

Connecting with your Inner Teenager in a conscious way allows them to receive the initiations and individuation that they most need in order to mature in all areas of life. By receiving a bridge to you in your current maturity, they are able to receive a template for who they will become and what their potential is. Like a visit with their ‘future self’ in the form of a loving mentor, they finally receive what they have most been needing and longing for.

Going into the world of our Inner Teenager brings us closer to the passion, imagination, and creativity we had to set aside for various reasons as we became adults. It is about feeling the loss of innocence that led us to so much serious, repressed, and conforming expression. They are the bridge from our youth to our maturity. They are truly seers of new worlds. Healing our Inner Teenager brings a new vision of life that has technicolor rad-ness and infinite vision. It brings a joy and lightness that seeks to learn and have fun at the same time.

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Excerpt From my book Free To Be 5D about the Inner Teenager, with links to purchase as audio, print, ebook, and PDF at soulfullheart.org/books

Raphael and I will be exploring the world of the inner teenager in our group call coming up this Sunday, November 13th at 5:00pm GMT/London/Lisbon…Noon EST. We will also offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner teenager, deepen the healing between you, opening up the bond there that is just ‘waiting’ for you. More info to offer donation to attend at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions or https://www.facebook.com/events/844061516750636.

You can offer donation ($11/$15 USD/Euros is the usual amount) via our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal.me/jelelleawen. If you offer donation via paypal, please include your email.

Here is a guided meditation video to begin the connection to your inner teenager; https://youtu.be/5CMVBgzFypI

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call/in person events in Portugal, writing/videos and more at soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: Total Lunar Eclipse Offers Emotional & Cathartic Release

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Energy Update: Total lunar eclipse energies coming through NOW! We’ve been preparing for the emotional illuminations of this eclipse, the deeply feminine frequencies of it, with a focus on shadow exploration with much coming up and out into more conscious awareness now.

During these ‘blood moon’ eclipses, there is an easing up of the moon matrix to whatever degree the sacred feminine lunar energies have been hijacked in the collective and within our wombs especially. The ‘hijack’ itself is going through shifts and changes right now with ambassadorship possible to the Matrix if there has been enough unplugging in your emotional body, soul fields, and relationships. There are big shifts in the agenda and momentum of the Matrix agendas, even with a peaking in the narratives (more on this soon.)

This ‘freeing up’ of the emotional body during lunar eclipses can bring forward intense emotions, sensations of pressures building and releasing from within, even the sense of ‘break downs’ within yourself or those around you. It can be a roller coaster of the highest highs of Unity Bliss and then some unusual ‘lows’ that haven’t been experienced for awhile.

Along with the ongoing pressure, tensions and relationship challenges/completions caused by the consciousness bifurcation going on the last two years, this may be an intense time for you in relationships. It’s like what has been all right to be in shadow or to be dismissed or diverted is coming up to be dealt with and felt NOW.

These catalytic urgent energies can be a bit crazy making unless you are centered into yourself, feeling the parts/soul aspects who are in the churning and need you, discerning what energies are yours and what are other people’s, reclaiming your boundaries as needed. I find these lunar eclipses to be the most intense leading up to them and during the passage between them…and then there is an exhale and release after they are complete.

Ultimately it is cathartic to express and share (even if it needs to come out messy or tense) rather than to hold it inside and internalize, going into a caretaking or people pleasing mode. It is necessary to be current, to be truthful, to share what your heart and soul discernment is…even risking being rejected, hurting others at times (yet not actually harming/abusing). It is especially necessary during these times of death and rebirth. These eclipse energies assist in that process, inside and out.

The 11:11 codes are waiting right there and already coming in, as I shared about yesterday…offering new beginnings, wake up calls, and next movements, connection to your higher vision. 11:11 codes offer a harvesting of the churning, tilling, and planting that has been going on the last month.

You can view the lunar eclipse here from start to finish…8am to 2pm Portugal/WET/UK time….https://youtu.be/hph8JCS2w3c

Love during this intense eclipse and 11/11 passage!

Jelelle Awen

Join Raphael and I for a 11:11 portal and eclipse energies in our livestream here on FB coming up tomorrow, Wed. November 9th for our weekly SoulFullHeart livestream at 5:00pm WET Portugal/UK/ noon EDT. We will also offer a brief guided meditation to connect to these 11:11 energies. You can join us live here on my FB feed and take in the recording here too. https://www.facebook.com/events/687523919290573

And our monthly group call on Sunday, Nov 13th is focused on connecting to the inner teenager, a part that is often in shadow with much emotional intensity to be processed and soul gifts waiting to be freed up! More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/844061516750636

Here is the recording of a shadow exploration livestream and guided meditation: https://youtu.be/SKZEQbcaIUA

Energy Update: The Powerful Growth Passage From 10:10 to 11:11 to 12:12

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Energy update: I’ve been seeing 11:11 in synchronistic ways a lot lately, especially in the last two weeks….as you may have been too. Our minds can’t always track what these numbers mean, yet the codes they transmit interfaces with our DNA, our light body, our emotional bodies, our soul fields.

1 is of new beginnings, fresh starts, rebirth, and openings. 11:11 is an amplified soul wake UP call, a bridge from your Higher Self to receive what is needed to move into your higher timeline and become your higher timeline self.

The passage through 10:10 to 11:11 to 12:12 is not just about marking linear time….yet what I have experienced and seen in others is actually a three month journey through shadow, through completions, through sometimes sudden deaths and lettings go….even while the NEW is coming in.

10:10 can be uncomfortable in that way, the void is amplified, the transition space, the in-between….here and not there. Illumination CAN be painful, to see what you couldn’t before and life/your Higher Self bringing that mirror in different ways.

11:11 is more activation and sense of the New even as illumination of the ‘old’ is still moving through. Starting to integrate what was seen and felt in the 10:10 portal. Reconciling what was revealed into your heart space, self love and acceptance.

In 12:12 we come into more union, the masculine and feminine, the old and the new are resolving together. Magdalene-Christ Consciousness codes come streaming in to support this. All of this occurring inside of us, from parts of us to each other. And in our relationships as well.

The 11:11 energies we are letting in now also offer bridging to energies that previously brought up fear or resistance. Mostly from within yet also with others. To respond with love, to not defend, yet to have healthy boundary. To say ‘no’ to harm without hate or judgement in your heart. To be connected to your vision and sense of what you REALLY want in your life and speak/act/be from there.

Love to you as we move through this deep passageway of growth and learning and becoming,

Jelelle Awen

Raphael and I will share more about the 11:11 portal and eclipse energies (with my favorite full moon lunar eclipse tomorrow!) in our livestream on my FB feed coming up this Wednesday for our weekly SoulFullHeart livestream at 5:00pm WET Portugal/UK/ noon EDT. We will also offer a brief guided meditation to connect to these 11:11 energies. You can join us live on FB feed and take in the recording there or on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel.

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call/events, books/writings and more at soulfullheart.org.