Month: June 2020

The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

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by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Space-Holding Testimonial

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Sweet testimonial from a new facilitant of mine that I felt so share for a sense of what this work, that I love, is doing for others. If you are drawn to learn more about how the process may serve you please check out soulfullheart.org/sessions. I am feeling a renewed sense of service and heart-opening to assist others in their own healing, ascension, and self-empowerment process. 🙏❤️

“Gabriel has been such a GOD-SEND! Some heavy emotions around past trauma were resurfacing and I was lead to SoulFullHeart, and to Gabriel.

Being a healer myself, I have gone through many trainings – Reiki, hypnosis, and many other modalities – and I can say, I have seen a dramatic shift in my energy in just 1-90 minute session with this Metasoul parts work.

This parts work that I’ve delved into with Gabriel has opened my eyes and heart to a whole new way of seeing my life. I’ve met parts of myself that I never knew were there and with Gabriel’s precise and powerful guidance, I’ve felt such big shifts and integration of those parts. I am just starting this miraculous journey of meeting my inner parts (Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Protector), but I can already see the huge benefits of it. The sacred space that is opened to feel into is so precious to my inner child, who just wanted to be seen, acknowledged, and felt.

I have also been receiving huge downloads related to my life’s mission as a result of this clearing…and again, it’s only been one session!

I would describe Gabriel as a sacred masculine guide who deeply feels and intuits your experience in the most beautiful way. I have felt held, safe, and as though I needed this experience with a masculine figure to recalibrate my past experiences with toxic masculine men.

I’d recommend working with Gabriel if you are being drawn to heal aspects of yourself to become more fully integrated into your authentic, 5D expression. He is a gem! As is the rest of the SoulFullHeart community!”

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Crop Circle Update: Five Pointed Star And A Message Of Unity/Flower Of Life – June 29, 2020

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By Jelelle Awen

Crop Circle UPdate: This feels like another special crop circle formation reported today, June 29th at Allan King Way, Near Cheesefoot Head, Hampshire, UK. This is a complex formation with many forms overlaid near and and intersecting with each other!

Watching the aerial view of it seems to reveal even more layers to it! Here is this formation from the air: https://youtu.be/dqGcp-L6Tic

At the center of this formation is a five pointed star with a pentagon in the middle of it. This pops out almost immediately and has a strong activation frequency to it. This star formation is nestled inside an intricate, repeating pattern of shapes that resemble the Flower of Life. The Flower of Life to me offers a feeling sense of Unity Consciousness, the web that connects all of creation, and the reminder of the connectedness of ALL beings.

I also feel there is something of a U.S. representation in this formation, symbolized by the five pointed star that is in the U.S. flag and the Pentagon shape, mirroring the government building. The United States has felt like the epi-center of the 3D/4D collapse/death/rebirth to me with much divisive and polarized energy coming into expression through the Q movement and the Cabal, in politics, and in other areas of life. The U.S. feels like it represents, leading, and is playing out (as it has for its entire history) the emerging chaos and rebellion against tyranny/corruption/violence that leads to sovereignty that comes from the disclosure process and unplugging from the 3D Matrix/hidden agenda/control systems.

Being tucked into a Flower Of Life, we can imagine that the U.S. is being embraced and moved toward an eventual Unity Consciousness expression when the divisions move into unions; the battles into resolutions; and the polarized sides into equalized balance…as are we all.

What do you feel/see from this one?

love,
Jelelle Awen

Here are all of my crop circle updates from this season and last year as well: https://soulfullheartblog.com/categ…/ascension/crop-circles/

More information about group call and in-person events, free consult calls/1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais, my new book Free To Be 5D and more at soulfullheart.org.

In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

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By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Dearest Daughter: A Loving Message From Divine Mother To Heal The False Mother

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A very catalytic week post-Solstice and Eclipse! Lots of rumbles and clarities arising in the Now. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais share about those energies and more in writings and videos from the week all gathered together in one place below in our weekly museletter.

We also share about upcoming events, including a women’s call with Jelelle on July 5th and a NEW six week group call series Free To Be 5D starting on July 15th, based on Jelelle’s new book of the same title that you can purchase at soulfullheart.org/books

You can subscribe to receive this weekly update museletter automatically every Monday via email at soulfullheart.org.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart!
You can offer a donation to SoulFullHeart via PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Check out the latest Museletter below:
https://mailchi.mp/970fe8934a38/soulfullheart-muselettera-loving-message-from-divine-mother-to-heal-the-false-mother

Reclaiming The Lost Boy Of Our In-essence

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As a sensitive boy growing up, I could feel so much around me yet had no real guidance on how to interpret, digest, and integrate it all. This is really true for most if not all of us. The biggest piece I am revisiting now is the depth of my sexual trauma as a boy moving into manhood.
Confronted with so many images, energies, and conditionings around sex and sexuality, this boy in me found himself between a rock and a hard place (pardon the pun). There was the desire for innocence to be the name of the game. To dance with the essence in both the boy and the girl. Like a journey of discovery and playfulness.

Instead it was about fitting in to the dominant culture of woundedness. Girl became an object of my need to be validated as a man in the world. Her yoni a portal back into the womb of The Mother. But Girl was wounded too. She was looking for her own needs to be filled…so to speak
Now Boy is caught between fulfilling the needs of both the wounded masculine in his power over the feminine and the wounded feminine in her need to feel some hook into the masculine. Both invulnerable and unable to really see each other in their innocence or in-essence.

I reconnected with that boy in me again and replayed those days while feeling the innocence in contrast. The pain of what this boy packed away in order to survive in that world was heart-wrenching. I could feel the toxicity and pain swelling in my cells. All of the trauma that I never categorized as trauma because men don’t do that in what is just ‘those teenage years’.
If, as men, we were to really feel where we lost our innocence, we would really get to a core of who we are as a man. Why we have done, and to some degree still do, the things that we do. If we can ‘come to Jesus’ with this Lost Boy inside of us, we would find the root and beauty of our masculine innocence. Something we packed away a long fucking time ago.

In that innocence we also find the warrior who has fiercely protected him. The warrior who has both shadow to heal and truth to tell. Between them both is the Man who has a vulnerable heart and a willingness to call bullshit when he sniffs it. He is willing put his heart on the line but not his power. He is willing to seek forgiveness but not condemnation.

There has been no greater process for me than the one I am currently in. This Lost Boy in found again in my heart. I am loving him with every once of it that I have access to. It is my current sacred bromance. It is this process that activates and unearths more of my King or Sacred Sovereign Masculine Self. It is this process that leads me to more self-love and ability to see, feel, and relate authentically to the feminine within and without.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Dearest Daughter: A Loving Message From Divine Mother To Heal The False Mother

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Dearest Daughter,

I am inviting you now

to feel your legacy, your lineage, your leanings

that lovingly bond you to ME.

Within all this potential,

all this capacity,

all this inheritence,

all this birthright

is ALL that you need to become

the embodiment of ME.

As you heal the false mother,

that you have been misled to follow

that you have been conditioned to template

that you have been required to model….

so then you can let ME into your heart,

into your soul, into your body, and into your BEing

as a nurturing, catalytic, unconditionally loving

Mother to all parts and aspects of you.

You, my daughter, have always been wanted

never actually been rejected

never truly been separated

never completely been orphaned

from the home of MY heart.

You are an expression of my likeness,

just ripe to arise

into your unique version of ME.

I am here,

in all my numerous faces and figures

holding the infinite possibilities

of your ongoing embodiment

as Infinite Love

in Sacred Womanly form.

My love awaits your reclaiming!

love,

Your Divine Mother (With Jelelle Awen)

~

Join me for a special Sacred Feminine arising women’s group call event over Zoom on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT to attend live and/or receive the recording. I’ve been in surrogacy and ongoing embodiment connection with Divine Mother for over ten years and I’ll share about my process of healing from false mother and healing the motherhood wound to let in Divine Mother. I’ll also be providing a guided meditation with Divine Mother to connect with the part of you that needs the healing and create a bridge to your Divine Self as an embodiment of Divine Mother. You’ll also have space to personally share and take in sharings by other women on the call. You can attend by offering a donation of ANY amount at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

The false mother is the wounded feminine (usually has quite a lot of wounded masculine expression) that we’ve all experienced in some form in our daughter experience. False mother can also be a distortion presented by religions from a patriarchal lens or the Goddess paradigms that distance and don’t create an intimate and personal connection to the Divine Mother that we can then feel as an embodiment of ourselves. As we experience more of Divine Mother, we feel ourselves what has been ‘false’ and what has been true.

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Divine Feminine Bridge/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical/mental levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call and in person events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Healing The Warrior Within Group Call Recording & Completion of Free To Be 2 Series (w/recordings available!)

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By Jelelle Awen

What a wonderful energy to complete our Free To Be 2 group call series on today! Our final call of the series honored the warrior within (and all the expressions of it) and invited it into more experience of Divine forgiveness/compassion to become the Ambassador.

Thank you SO MUCH to all of you who joined us for this call and for the series in whatever ways and degrees that you did. You are helping us to seed and plant SoulFullHeart into the world and the collective grids, radiating there for whomever is drawn and resonant.

BIG thank you to Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais for your contributions and sharings in every call and for holding such lovely and deep space for the Saturday follow up calls!

You can purchase ALL of the recordings in this series and in the previous ones at our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal by donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen. (please make a note of what you are donating for). We went to some powerful places during these series and laid out some foundational teachings too so I highly recommend them.

ONWARD to the next series, which starts on Wednesday July 15th through August 19th…Free To Be 5D, a group call series focused on deepening the content that is covered in my new book Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. You can purchase the book and get more information about this series at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries.

Also coming up is my Sacred Feminine Exploration women’s group call teaching about and offering a guided meditation to connect with healing the motherhood wound to let in more Divine Mother is on Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT. Open to all women over 18 by donation. More information at: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

We hope to see you for the next series and future calls!

love,

Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen

process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Loving The Spiritual Warrior Into The Spiritual Ambassador

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Since the Solstice/Eclipse I found myself flying high in the sky to then falling toward the ocean like Icarus in the Greek myth. An outer trigger that constellated another layer of my wounded masculine and feminine.

It illuminated the ways in which they are both still working out their relationship to each other. As my own ascension and maturation process continues, I reach more subtle areas of my wounded and shadow selves. Then the subtle becomes more obvious and like an elephant in the room.

The awareness I felt was that parts of me still look outbound for validation rather than inbound and from me and the Divine. Before this SoulFullHeart work, I would respond to this awareness by trying to ‘improve’ myself or take care of my ‘shit’. This only brought in more frequencies of self-judgement rather than self-compassion.

Through connecting to my inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects, I have become more clear about who I, Gabriel, is as the ‘eye of the storm’ sort of speak. I am becoming more clear of my Essential self, that Me that is the spark of the Divine.

As I connect to that energy more, I can start to see the architecture of my wounding more and be able to hold the parts of me in vibration and pain. I am the Ambassador of my own ascension. My trailing edge wounds are a part of who I am. I cannot go very far without them. Their ascension is my ascension.

So in I go. Feeling. Reflecting. Compassionating. Loving. Owning and Growing. This is the path of Spiritual Ambassador, not the Spiritual Warrior. Even the warrior is held in Love and not in spite. It has enumerable gifts that are the fuel of our devotion to Love for all humankind and for ourselves as human souls.

For more on this topic of 4D Warrior to 5D Ambassador I highly recommend today’s call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be bridging these energies through teaching and a guided meditation to bring in more compassion, forgiveness, and self-love. It will be available as a recording as well. To get the details go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

From Warrior To Love Ambassador Group Call June 24

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by Jelelle Awen

The new hero/heroines will not be those that fight, yet rather those that can be an ambassador of love in any situation.

It is time to pick up the lantern of illumination, and put down the sword.

Time to go toward peaceful solutions, rather than to battle.

Time to raise the white flags of surrender, instead of new declarations of war.

Time to seek out ceasefires on all battlegrounds, rather than new fronts to defend.

Time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love.

Time to gather parts of you that have been polarized, and sign the inner peace treaties that lead to more self worth and love.

Time to let go of being against anything and moving into being FOR LOVE in all situations.

Time to honor the strength in vulnerability, rather than only in the capacity to fight.

Time to rest the vigilance, the guarding and the defending….and rise into trusting, allowing, and flowing.

Time to let the Divine Mother into your inner feminine/masculine’s hearts, to receive Her ready forgiveness.

Time to let the Divine Father activate the transition from wounded to sacred masculine!It is time to transform from being a warrior, to being an ambassador of love…from the inside out.

~Join Raphael and I tomorrow, Wednesday June 24th at 10:00am PDT for the final group call in our Free To Be 2 series: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition where we will share about the transition from Warrior to Love Ambassador and offer a guided meditation to bridge to and feel the warrior within you AND the love ambassador energy as well. Should be powerful support in the collective for the shifting of these energies with so much going on right now. You can join live or get the recording by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call and 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kalayna Solais, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.