Author: Gabriel Heartman

I am a facilitator with the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. I am called to serve love by sharing my emotional process and lessons I have learned, to help others see and feel a different way of relating to the reality that we currently subscribe to. I hope you feel my heart and soul in all I express. Thank you for joining me on my journey and desire for you to come with me.

The Time Is Only Ever Now (A 1/11 Portal Poem)

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Timelines may fall like ribbons in a parade of Divine goodness
Or they may burn up like rolls of film
In the darkroom of what we had been afraid to feel
Each one holding its own significance of grace and reverence
What is felt like an apocalypse one day is a graduation the next

The tired wrappings of your heart and soul’s protection
Are withering in the glow of the New Dawn arising in your direction
Turn and face the shadows
In order to see where the light is coming from
It is not an issue of too late, but a choice of ‘not at all’
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There is no time
There is only now.
Only the moment to decide even if you chose not to
Until the next moment you do

The myriad landscape of what lies right in front of us
Can only be hidden by our fear to see it
For to walk into that magical world is to say goodbye to that which denies it,confines it, and fantasizes it.

Walk into that new world with the soft yet powerful determination of the Elk or Gazelle
The soaring grace of the Eagle
Or the multidimensional majesty of the Dolphin
You are in the birth canal of your new beginnings
That only come from endings
A life that is born of death.

Your Infinite You is ready
When the size of the womb you have created is getting much too small
And the only thing you can do is move this way or that
Until it bears on you once again
You can not stay the same and expect to change
See that portal of light in front of you

Go to it. Burn in it. Be loved in it. Die in it.
One held step at a time
In you
By you
With others
For All

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Practical Ascension Vlog Series: Emotional Area Introduction

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In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, invite you into feeling the SoulFullHeart perspective on the emotional area of life.This is an area that undergirds all other areas in the sense that your emotional reality is alive in every moment. Kalayna and Gabriel talk about what they mean when they say ‘undigested emotional trauma’ and what a ‘part’ essentially is. In their experience and as offered through SoulFullHeart, parts work process is a foundation for healing and Ascension.

We signed up to be human in this lifetime and therefore we have much to work, feel and heal in terms of our emotional realities, which tend to be stuck in an understandable immaturity until parts of us can be deeply felt in their realities, which are often traumatic situations from our ‘past’ in this or other lifetimes. Having an awareness of parts provides much new ground for mutual nourishment and profound intimacy in relationships of all kinds, as Kalayna and Gabriel experience together as a couple and as part of a conscious community. They talk about how conflicts and clashes can help you go deeper within and find more love flow inside that can then transact MORE love between you and another person who is doing the same work inside of them.

In many spiritual offerings, the emotional area of life is typically either bypassed or quickly ‘released’ instead of actually forming a relationship within. In SoulFullHeart, we form this relationship to our pain and wounding by relating with parts or subpersonalities that are alive within us. This offers much ground of inner nourishment, healing, and growing self love and worth as well as many more openings for spirituality and consciousness to broaden and deepen. This makes emotional work an essential aspect of our Ascension as a species in 4D and higher frequencies and realities.  

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Mindfulness Of Our HeartFULLness

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“Leave your heart above your head and your eyes wide open.”- Zack Brown Band

These are words form a  country band that I used to listen to in my ‘past’ life. Or the life a part of me lived years ago. These words popped into my head as I was feeling into mindfulness with my guide Aris, who has a mix of greek philosopher and buddhist monk with angelic wings. The practice of mindfulness was a part of my spiritual journey earlier in my life that lead me to become aware of what was clearly an emotional disillusionment with my life at that time.

I had built a life on the foundations of what was reasonable and sensible for the typical citizen. A good career with a finger on the political pulse of the times. I was a well-loved member of a family and had close relationships to fill my days. But undergirding it all was a depression and a frustration. A need for something that I couldn’t quite put my finger on other than I was ‘off-center” and misaligned in my passion and purpose.

This awareness led me to seek some form of help to change the course of what I was feeling but they were all mainly temporary band-aids. I could feel that there was something else I wanted access to inside myself. What was at the root of this underground well of heaviness?

The mindfulness practice turned into ‘heartfulness’ practice when I began this journey with teh SoulFullHeart process. It led me to a fuller awareness of what was occurring in my emotional body through a multi-lensed frame of parts. This new mindfulness set in motion a slide into E-motion. I had so much backed up feeling that I had almost forgotten what feeling even was outside of anger, frustration, and depression.

From this actual real-time feeling space could I begin to access the core of my pain which became like a new sunset on my life’s possibilities. I began to see the ways in which I had kept myself small and hidden out of fear. Fear of actually being that which I was truly meant to be even in its uncertainty. I just knew what I was feeling wasn’t me. Mindfulness leading to heartfulness.

The rest of the story is one negotiated step at a time that continues to this day just on a different frequency and relational ground. It was the act of taking stock of WHAT I was feeling, WHY I was feeling it, and then actually feeling it in all its textures with the parts of me that held it. It was becoming aware of the conflict between one part to another that created a chaotic stasis. I was seeing and feeling myself in a ways that were both amazing and difficult. Truly a bliss mess. The becomes so much more understood once you journey into heartfulness.

I am grateful for the mindfulness that lead me to this new world of ‘feeling what you are feeling as you are feeling it’. The next step beyond the awareness into the land of vulnerability and deep healing. It is the bridge between our humanity and our divinity. It is the clearing of our carbon into translucent crystal. It is the portal that connects us to the power of real love and soul expression. This is the way of SoulFullHeart.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Discernment and Self-Care During Divine Energy Shake-UPs

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Feeling like I am finally myself again after an up and down first 3 days of this year. So much coalescing at one juncture. INtention setting for the new year, outing more of my personal leadership and desire to serve love through this new vlog series with beloved Kalayna, and the now passing supermoon energies that seemed to highlight some old frequencies in me that came in like a weather pattern that swirled around in and out of my field during the days. I was able to show up in heart for this new project and then a funky blah and irritation afterward.

I am being offered a picture of a mixture that has some of the contents settled to the bottom and a big ol’ Divine spoon comes into stir it up. The mass of the energy can be collective in nature. When the UPtick in frequency is moving with celestial support, that which is in resistance to it has a reaction to it. It senses change and can wreak a necessary havoc inside us that we may or may not be conscious of. For those of us that tend to be more sensitive to collective energies, it can enter us sometimes without an apparent evidence of entry point. You are just in a damn funk.

Much of this can be negotiated with what we call our Gatekeeper to feel the root of the temporal downshift, but at times a merging can just be what is real in the moment. If you can feel that is what is happening then you have some holding of the rumblings inside even if you don’t have a clear idea of what it is. More on the Gatekeeper here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

This collective energy can feel like an entity attachment, though it can only attach if there is something to attach to inside of us. Moving through these phases with self-love and curiosity can help to both move the energy and feel its relative source inside. Watching what we take in through media and interactions with others is very critical at these times. Closing portals that are opened in these interactions through creative visualization is an important part of this process.  

As we continue on this trajectory, I am feeling the increasing call for self-love and discernment. Connecting with the inner landscape of your emotional and spiritual bodies are essential in maintaining your guidance system and upward journey. This is where the parts work differentiation process is so key to this discernment. Taking the time needed to be with whatever is arising in you and taking in supportive and higher frequency vibrations. Taking in Jelelle Awen’s 33 Day Metamorphosis series is a great place to start. You can find it here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Much is and will be stirring up in the months to follow and the winds of deep personal movement and change are upon us. The turbulence underground is making its way to the surface of the collective consciousness and we are being called to be in our highest heart in service of love, the most important being from you to you. This is where the journey begins and beacons. Love yourself always and in all ways.

In honor of this arising invitation, all five of us in SoulFullHeart are inhabiting more of our purpose and intention to serve through writing, video blogging, healing, exploring, and creating. Kalayna and I are continuing our Practical Ascension vlog series with another episode about the Social Area of life. We so desire to hear you personal stories and questions along the way so please feel free to engage through comments, messaging or email.    

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Practical Ascension Vlog Series: Social Area Of Life Introduction

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SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer a new perspective and lens for the social area of life. This is the first video of several where they will be exploring this topic through the SoulFullHeart lens and their personal experiences of Ascension and deep healing in this area.

In this video, they give an overview of social reality from a 3D/4D/5D perspective and they touch on topics such as: relationships based in duty and obligation or ‘binds’ instead of heart and soul ‘bonds’; the process of awakening and the impact on relationships plus the need to be willing to let go of relationships that aren’t awakening with you; the impact of leaving relationships and the grace it offers to all parties involved; the overall benefit to you and your parts as you let in more self love and Divine love while letting go of non-resonant relationships… among so many others, which is really just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to this area, that runs so deep and is such a potent source of wounding and healing, both.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on Youtube or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

These are the questions for this area of life that you can go into on your own, as they appear in the 3D/4D/5D Selves and The 7 Key Areas Of Life article (http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com…):

How did you locate yourself related to the social area of life – as primarily a 3D, 4D or 5D consciousness and why?

What are your frustrations in the social area?

What are your desires in the social area?

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Practical Ascension: The 7 Key Areas Of Life Vlog Series

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In the course of living into the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, we have felt that there are certain areas of our personal and practical lives that can be compartmentalized, or not brought into alignment with our highest timeline. These areas are ways that we can assess where you may be feeling some frustrations and desires for more. Each area has its own unique dynamic depending on the conditioning and wounding that is associated with it. Each area is looked at through a 3D, 4D, 5D lens.

Where one tends to have the most anchoring in 3D is where we would want to feel the part that is holding on, which is usually well-guarded by what we call the Inner Protector. To fully embody and experience our higher 5D energy and frequency, healing and letting go of these anchors is a vital part of the ascsension process in our personal experiences and of those that we serve.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman are offering a brand new SoulFullHeart vlog series based on the 7 Key Areas Of Life related to your own personal Ascension process! We will be talking about the ways in which Ascension expresses in each area as you continue your healing inside, as well as how you can work with your parts and Metasoul Aspects through the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life healing path and process with regard to each one.

Join us on our Youtube channel or here on Facebook! Have a conversation with us, ask questions, etc. We would love to engage with you along the way, in whatever way fits for you and your parts at this time. You can comment on the blog or on our You Tube channel, as well as send us an email to soulfullhearts@gmail.com. This will be an ongoing series over the course of the next couple of months.

Here is our first video in the series introducing the 7 Key areas and what they mean to us in relationship to what we call Practical Ascension. This new day of a new year felt like a great day to embark on this journey with you. We look forward to an open-hearted connection with you around this very personal process.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Making Of A New Year Is Up To You

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“But what is ascension but growth, and what is growth but a series of deaths and rebirths.”

Our relationship to time is a fickle thing looking at it through a different lens. We create an ‘other’ out of a year and tell it what we thought of it as it walks out of the door of the home we built together 365 days ago. Sometimes, I feel 2017 getting a collective kick in the ass and I feel for it. I feel for every year that gets wrapped up in expectation and then withers into discontent by March. (Yeah, that bully March. Just doesn’t know when it has something good.)

So much projection onto our time capsules. That which we have created to give us direction and a viewfinder for measurement. I have no ill will toward 2017. It was a noble servant of Love as it brought up so much of our collective shadow, and maybe that is what some of the reactions may be about. We are responding to what is unconsciously percolating on the inside. A disclosure of our enclosure.

We have our own personal relationship to 2017, each that was a story created by our individual and collective consciousnesses. There were some bumps in the road for me emotionally that were all perfectly laid for this new lift into leadership, romantic relationship, and inner ambassadorship. A part of me has looked back at moments with some questioning and remorse, but in hindsight it couldn’t have been any other way as I now find myself in a beautiful vantage point.

Each new year gets to be as we choose it to be, even as those choices create tension, reaction, and conflict. It is all a part of the ascension process. But what is ascension but growth, and what is growth but a series of deaths and rebirths. It is also reunion. A re-unit-ing of all our suppressed and unfelt parts of us still in trauma or dischord as well as our soul aspects spread across time and space dimensions. The balm of this growth and the connective tissue of this reunion is Love.

Love is the guiding light of all our choices even when they don’t feel like love to a part of us. There is a way in which we have care-taken parts of us and others in the name of Love. When we get to the core of what we are truly feeling in our emotional body and compare it to where we want and need to be, the sacred path reveals itself. Holding space for those choices is what we are here to offer.

2018 feels like an epic year personally and collectively. How we relate to it is truly up to us in all the ups and downs it may bring, which is what we subscribed to even before it has hung up its clothes on its side of our closet. In this moment you can choose the INtention, breathe in the desire that is baking in the oven, and then let go of what actually comes out of the oven one year from now, “cuz it ain’t gonna be what you thought it might be”. None of us do.

What we can choose is to feel all of the edges of what we truly want and the fears that come up in response. We can walk through these together and create a New Earth Consciousness and authentic heart and soul resonance with transparency and vulnerability as the fuel of this merkabah we call SoulFullHeart.  Many heartfelt wishes to you in this arising New You Year.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Year We Loved Our Fear

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“It is not freedom from fear you seek, but rather a relationship to it.”

I am in a new conversation with a soul aspect of mine that feels more closely aligned to my Higher Self. More polarized to love and light than the fear and darkness of so many of my other aspects I have had relationships with. His name is Aris and it is a shortened version of Aristotle. He has a Buddhist and Greek philosophers mind with an angelic aura. Very balanced in his guidance and does not seem to judge much about what is or isn’t true. It is all a quest of feeling and curiosity.

This has started as I have been continuing to feel an increased desire and call to out more of my leadership, authority, and embodiment as a healer, teacher, and creator. As a part of a community of healers, teachers, and creators, it can bring up some old frequencies of doubt, comparison, and unworth. “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?” as the famous quote goes. Yes….it is our deepest fear to face our Bigness. But more so our deepest fear is to feel that we are loved beyond infinite measure. That we ARE Inifinite Love. Right now, parts of me are still digesting the “I am loved” part. From me to me first, which lets in the beauty of the love from others and the Divine.

So I have this love flow that is arising INside, overflowing and circulating with my beloved soul family and beautiful sacred union mate. It is a good place to be with so many desires for more arising in all of us. Connecting with new worlds inside of us, growing the intention of vast travel and service of love to all BEings. “So what is the problem with that?!” I hear a voice in me asking.

It is not really a ‘problem’, I would say, but there does come a responsive arising of antithetical feelings that are based in fear, no matter the names I give them. I used to want to feel a freedom from my fear. To extinguish them. To live in a state of fearlessness. But I have come to learn from my experience and my guidance with Aris that Fear is a valuable and essential part of our existence. It is what we move through to feel the Love on the other side. It protects the preciousness of Love and those that are willing to feel the fear and heal it receive the gift in exchange. It is lessing the impact that our relationship to Fear has on parts of us that transmutes us into embodying more Love frequencies. This is the alchemical and transitional 4D consciousness we are going to all be moving into this coming year.

There will be many awarenesses that will come into focus as we move through these next months. Each one asking you to deeply feel your honest truth about your relationship with others, yourself, and daily life. There will be big reactions to those relationships inside of you and what the choice points are for you to feel in regards to what you are truly here to inhabit and how you get there. Feeling the fear undergirding it all is what moves you to the next places. This is where having a relationship with your fear and the parts of you that hold it come into play. Very sacred play. Your Highest Self is there holding space for it all as long as you are willing to feel it.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Mourning Dove’s Song: An Ode To Your Arising Flight

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Listen to the breeze for in it speaks your heart

The angelic voice of your heavenly home

And the breath of the passion that stokes your wayward climb

In the silence of the air there is a stillness

A pregnant pause to feel what is about to be released

What needs to let go of in order to fly

In the vastness of your forgotten essence

There is a pin drop moment that sends the mourning dove song

Throughout the reaches of the tender roots

Of your once anchored life within the sacred soil of your past

The burning embers of what used to fuel your days

Are but dying out and falling down

As the tears of your inner world’s broken heart

This daybreak light now shines in the hallowed places

Of the love-hidden parts of your pain

That are finding their safety in the wings of your new found power

The reality of your own necessary choices

Offer a reflection of what was needed to survive

But now imbibe the very reason for this most glorious deliverance

Into the next phase of your soul-embodied remembrance

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Healing Toward Soul Family Relationships In The New Year

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So much to let in on this post-Christmas day. It can be so easy for a part of us to get “back on the horse” of our daily lives and go through the motions of our routines and ‘to do’ list. When in reality so much happened! The words that were said or hadn’t been said. The moments of joy or frustration. The pings of loneliness or the wealth of good company. When we enter these celebrations, especially one as energy packed as Christmas, there is a lot that happens unconsciously that can leave us an energetic, unconscious hangover.

I was so fortunate to be in a time/space continuum yesterday that was light years ahead of what I used to inhabit. Having that multidimensional access to my past that still lives on in some echo of my emotional body, I could almost feel that ‘past’ in the Now and get a huge reflection of what parts of me were really feeling during those times. For me it was the consumption of a lot of alcohol, meat, and sweets, as well as taking in all sorts of dissonant vibrations that I wasn’t totally aware of inside myself.

Once I became aware of what was going on with parts of myself through conscious connection via journaling and meditation, there were a mountain of reactions happening inside that had no place to go. No depository of heart that felt safe enough to have it land in. Once I found that source inside myself through much reflection by my facilitators, Raphael and Jelelle, I could hold those with much compassion and find the courage to bring more truth and draw tighter boundaries.

These led to taking communicative space from my family that allowed me to really feel me. What was authentically me and what was a role I was playing to fit into the cast of characters that I did have much love for. But there came a moment in which the energetic and path differences between us became too great and I said a temporal goodbye until such time life found us in similar desires for deep healing and soul purpose.

This allowed for deep healing for my parts as well as advocating for something new and more aligned to what my soul and heart needed to grow and embody. No longer would I accept anything less than what I felt I needed and deserved as both a heart and a soul. I could feel the love for my birth family and wished them all well in there lives and journeys. They have an open invitation to the way of life that has brought me to places inside myself I can only have dreamed of not that long ago.
I felt the space between us and honored all of it. It was a deep reflection of what it may even feel like even just a short year from now with sights on expanded community, passion purpose, and geography. This is a result of deep healing and deep desire for more. I invite all of you to feel your deepest desires and calling for this next year and make it a mantra to not allow yourself, and your parts, to accept anything less than the love that you ARE no matter who it is you are in relationship to.

Your choices are the rudders to new worlds of unfathomable adventure, beauty, and purpose. Each one sends ripples into your YOUniverse and alters the very fabric of it. SoulFullHeart is here to guide you along those choice points with your sovereignty fully in tact as it can never be taken from you. Make this coming year, and more importantly this coming moment, the most real of them all.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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