Message from Mary Magdalene on her feast celebration day:
To my sisters of the rose,
your harvest time has come
to open your bud, to bloom and to release
your unique scent of femininity
into sacred humanity’s bouquet.
To my sisters of the womb,
your depths of creation
are ready to be explored,
to be opened out, to be healed,
to birth humanity’s New dawn.
To my sisters of the heart,
your pain and breaks and sorrows,
your most tender desires and heartaches
are ready now to be released, to be forgiven,
and grounded into
ongoing experience of intimacy,
reunion, joy, goodness, and the most pure love.
To my sisters of the soul,
your karmic veils of sleepiness and fog
your karmic binds of persecution and wounds
are ready to be healed, lifted, loved,
initiated into the gifts
and soul purpose expression of Divine service of love
Open your rose…the essence of Divine Mother
that you can embody
Open your womb…the essence of Divine Mother
that you can birth
Open your heart…the essence of Divine Mother
that you can feel
Open your soul…the essence of Divine Mother
that you can become
I am here to guide you, support you, and initiate you on this path of remembrance. Open to receive and so you shall. Your resources, your teachers, your sisters, your soul family, your initiations, your masculine Divine Counterpart…ALL that you need to move into deeper embodiment of She who Births and Holds and Creates ALL of life is ready to come to you and has been in various forms.
Whatever blocks or fogs of resistances that have currently made you feel small, stuck, or lost….these are only temporary and a necessary phase of your remembrance. Now it is time to move out this smallness and into your bigness.
Ultimately, you came to the Earth Plane to remember, to arise, and to serve love AS your expression and your embodiment of the Divine Feminine.
This, you are remembering. This, you are embracing. This, you are becoming.
Please join Raphael and I for a sacred union activation group call this Sunday June 24th at 5:00pm GMT/noon EDT for more messages and transmissions from Mary Magdalene and her beloved counterpart Yeshua, channeled through our hearts and divine union together. It feels like Mary has much more to offer and share in the moment! More information to join us at soulfullheart.org/events
In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing, and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.
Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul.
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Womenβs Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
In this video filmed live on FB on Thursday, April 14th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen are talking about the Easter energies that are coming in now, how you may be experiencing them, and the death/resurrection cycles they are inviting us into. We discuss how important it is to sacredly feel the part of you that may still be in the ‘ashes’ of intensely traumatic experiences in order to heal from them and move on.
We also talk about how these Easter energies fit into the bigger process of Ascension that is going on as mainstream consciousness shifts from 3D to lower 4D, inviting many more souls into significant completion of karmic soul patterns and trauma experiences. We offer a channeling of Yeshua as well during the later portion of the recording.
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As so many souls worship during this day of Good Friday with fasting and prayer, I was not surprised to be brought during meditation into the etheric space today that ‘holds’ the crucifixion of Yeshua. It felt like this was in order to see, feel, and offer a channel to the higher consciousness reality going on during it.
It can be important to feel the distortion of what was actually going on this day and the subsequent hijacking of it by the Matrix to feed a control, suffering, and self sacrificial programming/messaging…especially if you have previously had a connection to Christianity.
I felt Yeshua’s beautiful heart today offer this message for those needing to receive it:
“On this day in my physical lifetime, my soul family and I undertook a powerful light working. This light working was to plant the seeds of Ascension that are now blooming in YOUR lifetime. We were guided to do this by the Divine. Indeed, born to do this as our purpose here in physical bodies on the Earth Plane.
This was not a crucifixion. I was not a victim. I was not betrayed. I did not suffer for the sins of all. I did not get ‘caught’ or ‘trapped’. I did not sacrifice my body for all of humanity. And, most importantly, I did not die on that day.
For those with the heart to FEEL the truth in those moments, they would feel that my heart was wide open. They would feel the choice that I made to leave one form of my physical body in order to ascend into my light body, yet still remaining on the Earth Plane for many years after. They would feel the grief and sadness within me was a necessary one to hold space for humanity’s ongoing dark night. Yet, also they would feel the hope in my heart for humanity, along with forgiveness and compassion that our Divine Mother flowed through me to ALL of those in my auric field, even those who did bodily harm to me.
For those with eyes to see the truth, they would see how I was hugely supported by the Divine and my beloved soul family by powerful waves of healing energies and photonic light. They would see that my beloved twin flame Mary Magdalene was heart and chakra cord connected to me the entire time, offering me some of her life force and vitality….as were the other blessed sacred feminine Magdalenes with her. They would see how my Higher Self remained unharmed and embraced my physical body in an energetic buffer the entire time.
My resurrection was inevitable, as I didn’t really die yet rather went into a deep out of body state until I could return in a less dense state to the Earth Plane. My resurrection out of perceived death and suffering and into a much lighter form IS my deeper message to you.
My message is to trust BOTH the deaths and the rebirths within your life and in your experience. To feel BOTH as sacred and the purification process that results as you arise from the ashes of your previous versions into the new.
The invitation today is to feel your experience of crucifixion within your own life and to let forgiveness fill your heart toward those who seemed to do you harm. To recognize the soul agreements that you made together for which they are offering a sacred ground of healing for you.
Surrendering ALL outcomes to the Divine and following guidance can lead to temporary pain, yet also offers a resolution of that pain as you ascend beyond it.
My consciousness is available to you on this day and ALL days in whatever ways you need. And, most importantly, as it dwells within you AS your embodiment of Christ Consciousness.
Raphael and I offered teachings and more channelings related to the death/rebirth cycles offered during this Easter Passage through a recording of our livestream yesterday on my FB feed and here on our you tube channel:
This channeling today was inspired by the touching and VERY powerful account of the crucifixion in the book Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong….highly recommend it!
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βEasterβ Energy Update: The anxiety, the uncertainty, the doubts that surface at this time are as sacred as the moments of clarity, of surefooted-ness, and of deepening trust in the flow of whatβs happening inside and out. Rebirth is sometimes glorious to be in, sometimes messy, and oftentimes not what parts of us expect.
To trust the βdeathβ processes and everything they come with is just as sacred as trusting the βrebirthβ that comes on the other side. We know in our souls that itβs inevitable that we WILL emerge from the darkness and the unknown and land somewhere necessary and even desirable, yet that doesnβt always help all parts of us or soul aspects to feel their trust in that in their own ways. Theyβve witnessed too much of what they feel is the opposite experience and even timelines/lifetimes of persecution, of being condemned, of being alone, of being in an all-time low that seems to last forever.
The darkness has its work to do in all of this, especially as the times weβre in truly support us to feel how unsupported parts/aspects of us feel toward the Divine. The Divine doesnβt expect us to transcend any of this and instead offers us a place to land it allβ¦ every last worry, hope, doubt, fear, and desire.
I would love to say that we will absolutely land in the New/Golden Earth reality we all dream of in the next few years at least, yet the truth is, we canβt attach to that outcome and anything miraculous suddenly placing us there. Not while there are still parts within us and Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes struggling to let in the possibilities, struggling to let in even feeling their mistrust, fears, anxieties, and allowing it all to move and be answered. The Golden future we all desire is a resurrection that takes root within, that flowers in resonance shared in our inner and outer worlds. Only then does it really feel possible to experience it in deeper and deeper ways, while acknowledging and flowing with the birth pangs that come with that ongoing process.
What I feel from the Divine is support to not look for a magic, silver bullet solution, but instead to feel the grief of the ideals of what was once good in our lives to whatever degree it truly was good, and to let go into this Great Unknown as we move deeper into this phase of Great Death. The tears of this process water the seeds of whatβs becoming possible, even though the death sometimes feel far more real.
The darkness around the world seems to be getting darkerβ¦ yet I feel a trust that everything we endure is somehow necessary for all of our individual awakenings, let alone the global one that is also ongoing. Even in that trust, however, I have to make space for my own doubts to surface that weβll ever be truly ready in my own lifetime to embrace what could be. When I feel this, I feel grief like a lump in my throat. I feel the need to keep letting go of any pictures of whatβs possible and be with what ISβ¦ the death and pain needs a lot of space to be felt, with no agenda, with no pushing to move beyond it, and no need to be ahead of it, while also trusting desires for what could be like a beacon leading me homeward.
The answers are unknown as to how this all resolved itself, yet there is an answer in the path of crying with those who cry around us, feeling love for those who are also remembering how to love themselves and others, remembering that our souls have not chosen by accident to be here now. We all have a purpose, even if itβs just to feel these waves of grief and letting go, in order to surrender deeper to what is and let in what could be along the way.
As we head rapidly towards βEaster weekendβ now, itβs the perfect time to feel the Death and Rebirth of our selves, parts of us, and all of humanity. Itβs a powerful time to feel the Divine with us, in the forms/faces that work for each of us individually, such as Yeshua and Magdalene, who I can feel in their union holding us all so deeply.
I feel them offering, as I conclude this writing today, βMay your sense of personal and global arising feel as real as the death and grief you also feel.
May your alignment with your soulβs heart deepen in surrender to the Divine that holds it all.
May your desires ripen, your heart open, and your love expand and fill every cell of your being, only to overflow in concert and transaction with those around you who also care so much.
Feel how much you are loved, even when love feels scarce.
In all of this and your sacred doubts too, the Divine is with you, always.β
Love, Kasha
P.S. I would so love to hold 1:1 space for you, if youβre a woman, in your inner explorations of what was once true for you, whatβs true now, and what you desire to be true in the future. My beloveds hold space as well in 1:1 sessions, for women with Jelelle and for men and women with Raphael and Gabriel. For more info, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions
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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Womenβs Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
For all your brilliance, Are you willing to also live it out?
For all your wittiness, Are you willing to be in the unknown?
For all your fire, Are you willing to soak in still waters?
For all your empathy, Are you willing to also have compassion?
For all your mistrust, Are you willing to feel what trust may offer?
For all your compliance, Are you willing to dig deeper and ask βwhyβ?
For all your belonging, Are you willing to risk standing alone?
β¦these questions we ask without judgement To serve and bolster your deeper awakenings, Your Divine Selfβs deeper embodiment, And the discovery of who you are, Who you always were, Yet chose to forget.
Here to serve your upliftment, we are. As we also hold you in your downtrodden states.
Here to love you, always, we are. Even in those questioning moments Where it feels like love cannot possibly exist.
You are embraced Held Loved beyond measure of fame, fortune or wisdom.
Loved even in your compliance to the structures that lay dying,
Loved even in the foggy times of unknown choices,
Loved as much in your dying times as your alive times.
With so much of your truest essence in our hearts⦠Love,
Your Soul Family/The Magdalenes
(W/ Kasha Rokshana)
I feel this landing in my own heart as a way to remember compassion for myself and all souls at all times. Weβre walking out what we came to walk out, and itβs truly up to all of us to choose what we are ready to embody nextβ¦ with no judgement from those who came before us and support us through it all.
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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Womenβs Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Iβve needed a couple of days to digest our recent visit to the sacred sites in nearby Fatima, Portugal as quite a bit was activated within my soul by going there. Nearby the town of Fatima is where one of the most famous Marian apparition visits occurred in 1917 when three rural children Lucia Santos and her cousins Francisco and Jacinta Marto experienced several visits with Mother Mary.
Many pilgrims flocked to Fatima and Aljustrel (the nearby village where they lived) to witness the visits as word of them spread, which occurred for six months on the 13th of the month. They culminated with the Miracle of the Sun event on October 13th, 1917, in which over 70,000 people reported significant shifts in the location, light quality, and intensity of the sun during this visit.
Only the three children could actually see Mother Mary and only the two girls could see AND hear her, yet many people reported being able to feel a sacred presence during her visits. Some pilgrims reported healings of disease and disabilities as well.
You can feel from the photos Iβve shared the massive scale and size of the group of Catholic religious buildings and structures in Cova da Iria that honors these visits. These sacred sites, including the nearby preserved houses of the children, draws several million pilgrims/tourists every year and thousands during the main processional days on the 13th of May and October.
The Basilica of Our Lady of the Rosary built in the 1950s is a massive church with beautiful marble columns and tombs containing the remains of the childrenβs bodies, stunning stain glass images depicting the stations of the cross, and vivid paintings and exquisitely detailed sculptures of the Marian visits.
While we were standing in the main area near the Chapel of the Apparitions, a tiny chapel that Mother Mary commissioned for them to build to honor the site of the visits, a processional began at noon with a long line of pilgrims following behind priests holding up a rose laden platform with a statue of Our Lady. As a priest with a beautiful voice sang a song to honor the Fatima visits, the whole group walked right past us and through the church area. This was a special surprise as we did not plan to see it, although it was the 13th of the month. Witnessing this processional was a moving experience for all of us as we felt devotional energies move through toward Mother Mary and the Divine Feminine. We also lit candles in honor of Divine Mother and offered prayers/blessings as well (I lit one in honor of Jacinta.)
I was previously aware somewhat of the Marian apparitions in Fatima and definitely the ones in Lourdes and Guadalupe, Mexico, yet had not connected to any in an exploratory way that could open up deeper healing. This exploration is served by being able to actually visit and take in the sacred site, as I repeatedly discovered when we were in Avalon/Glastonbury, UK and also when we went to the stone circles in the UK. I am now understanding more about why we were guided to settle here in Central Portugal where so much devout Marian energies are centered.
I started connecting in my Metasoul to a lifetime as the youngest seer and supposedly the most fervently devout child, Jacinta, a few weeks ago. Iβve been in healing spaces with her and Mother Mary, first visiting with her in the hospital where she died alone of the Spanish Flu in 1920 while in great pain and personal sacrifice (as did her brother Francisco in 1919). Mother Mary bridged to Jacinta patiently, repeatedly offering a reframe of the self condemning message of sacrificial suffering for all sinners that Jacinta had internalized during the visits.
Mother Mary shared with us that while the first visit with the children was genuine as it was only the three of them (which was Jacintaβs favorite one), the visits after that were somewhat hijacked by the Matrix False Light frequencies. The purity of Maryβs message of peace, an end to wars, and hope/love/support for ALL of humanity was distorted by this hijack and used to convert even more souls into the religious trap of self condemnation, seeking salvation outside of themselves, and False God Worship of the Papal ‘corporation’. Mother Mary offered that the Miracle of the Sun event witnessed by so many souls was also a Matrix hijack and tweak of the Matrix hologram in that moment.
Even with this hijacking and the eventual amusement park spectacle made of the events by the Catholic Church, there was still a genuine and sacred purpose to Mary coming to deliver messages to the children at this time. These children are Magdalene souls with high levels of mastery related to psychic access to higher realms. Before incarnation, there was an agreement between them and Mary Anna (as she is known as a Magdalene) for her to return and seed into them a message of peace just as the first world war was ending and before the second one. The hope was that these messages would usher in a new paradigm of peaceful resolution and diplomacy that might help avoid the second world war.
These seeds of peaceful resolution were planted by the Magdalenes into Gaiaβs grids during their most important incarnational lifetime of Yeshuaβs crucifixion and ascension. This seeding is beautifully and viscerally described in the Anna, Grandmother of Jesus book by Claire Heartsong that I highly recommend if you are drawn to connect to the Yeshua-Magdalene soul family lineage.
As Mother Maryβs TRUE message landed in the heart of Jacinta, her childlike innocence could return and transmute the self punishing shame that had led her to sacrifice herself. Jacinta became like the sun then, vibrantly curious and wanting to connect to other aspects of our Metasoul from other timelines and learn from themβ¦..such as Lorna my high priestess of Avalon, and Ingrit, my witch/medicine woman. Jacinta didnβt like the βrulesβ of the Church, so much emphasis on Hell and being condemned, the patriarchal energies of the Church, so she was fairly able to let the programming go when offered another option that was more resonant to her soul.
As with all modern visits to sacred sites and especially those so blatantly and commercially leveraged by the Church, there is a mix of both inspiration and frustration when you visit them. By going inward after the visit there in the physical, I was able to discover the core purity of the message and help free it from the hijack of the churchβ¦.at least within my own soul and in whatever ways that could ripple out to the Collective.
I am so grateful for the SoulFullHeart process that I have leaned into myself for so many years as a means to lift the veils, transmute karma with love, end the suffering/self sacrificial energies within my relationship to the Divine Mother, and connect directly with these soul aspects so deeply on an ongoing basis. The richness of what our soul has experienced becomes once again accessible and also purified.
This morning, I got to host a reunion between soul sisters and cousins Jacinta and Louisa, who died in 2005 after devoting her life to being a nun in devout worship to Mother Mary. Their reunion was touching and we could connect to their bond together in Yeshuaβs lifetime as two of his beloved Marys. Louisaβs healing digestion of the apparition visits was more integrated over her long lifetime, yet, also she tended to move into much self recrimination and unworthiness around being a chosen messenger of Maryβs. Connection with Jacinta now and with the TRUE frequencies of Mary Anna feel like they will offer her deep healing around this.
I am honored to be an ambassador of love to help heal and free up the message offered by the Divine Mother. All of us have a Divine Child within us that is pure, innocent, and a spark from the heart of the Divine. As our Divine Child heals from their separation wound and pain and reunites with our Divine Mother and Father, they arise into their embodiment as the bright, bright light of the Divine.
As Mother Mary keeps offering, βYou cannot be unworthy of my love as it is always yours. You cannot be outside of my grace as it is always within you. You cannot be condemned by me as my acceptance of you is always there.β
If you feel a soul resonance with these events, I recommend watching the recent film Fatima as it recaptures a lot of the sacred experiences that the children went through yet also the challenges for them in facing the fear and skepticism it brought up in others.
The codes that activate your inner Christ Light are coming in now and my sense is that they will intensify throughout this corridor of 11/11 to 12/12. They are tender, loving, yet bear an intensity in their illumination.
They invite you, with so much care, into feeling and processing on deeper levels that will support you to clear karmic binds to other souls, arise more and more into your bigness/vastness, and truly experience unity within and outside of you. At the same time, the access to pure joy is also available and supportive, like bliss waves moving through every chakra, especially as you free up the access to them from deep inside of you.
You may feel these Christ Codes emotionally and spiritually especially, as if a portal is opening up within you and thereβs an uptick in your porosity and sensitivity, yet you may also feel them on a physical level as love comes in to permeate and cleanse every cell. How you relate to and hold yourself on all of these levels is being illuminated and invited to shift into a new depth of self-love and acceptance.
Christ Codes are an opportunity for deep healing and reconciliation within, yet also with others. The process of forgiveness is potent and very real⦠one that happens in layers, with taking the space to feel all parts of you in their triggers, by feeling all Metasoul aspects who have been persecuted, harmed, or worse, in other lifetimes and helping them reconcile what has happened to them. True forgiveness is a high frequency not easily achieved or conjured, yet it can be felt into when you feel ready and guided by your Divine Self to go deeper.
Christ Codes are very much a βcome as you areβ invitation into the lap of the Divine, where everything you feel is welcome and every part of you is safe and held. They are here to help you feel whatever is REAL even when you feel waves of genuine rage, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, or even fear. They support you to fully inhabit, not diminish, the power of your depth of feeling, all the while guiding you toward those choices that will awaken and enliven you and everything within you that youβre here to do, become, and offer.
Christ Codes activate and nourish the seeds planted in us by our experiences of being a part of the Magdalene/Essene lineage which you may resonate with deeply. They are constantly being watered, even through adversity, conflict, and the challenges of living in this day and age, through this messy phase of our Ascension. This time of year, especially around 12/12, you will likely feel them even more so, perhaps steering you in a new direction, opening your heart (especially to yourself), piquing your curiosity about yourself and others, and bringing you a new sense of context and the reasons WHY you are facing all you are.
Christ Codes remind us of our humanity AND our divinity and how they are not mutually exclusive or ever completely aligned, enlightened, and perfect. They are an invitation deeper into your own Christ lineage and unique Christ Light within. Your soul valiantly chose to be here, to experience all it has and bring that to the fore, and to find ways to express and inhabit your soul gifts.
Christ Codes are a reminder of the love you came here to embody, and the love that is supporting you always to embrace everything you are, feel, and desire too.
May the love of these powerful Christ Codes be felt within you today and ongoingly⦠as you feel your unique process of letting them in, of allowing them to guide you inward and live into more soul-led, love-based choices during this next phase of your sacred journey.
Love,
Kasha β₯οΈπΉ
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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Womenβs Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
This guided meditation with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator/Facilitator Jelelle Awen offers a bridge to soothing and relaxing, yet very catalytic and powerful, healing energies during a time when they are very much needed. During this meditation, you access a high frequency of Infinitely abundant White Light from Divine Source through your Crown Chakra.
This energy is for the clearing and healing of physical body pain, ailments and diseases as needed, including a boosting of your immune system, internal organs, and every living cell. You also connect in this meditation to your emotional body and offer soothing white light and Divine love to any reactions, tensions, resistances or charged emotions that you may be experiencing.
Jelelle also offers a bridge to any part of you that comes forward into your awareness that needs your love and attention, especially your Inner Child. Divine Mother shows up in the form of Mother Mary, who offers comforting and soothing reminders of your essence as Divine love. You repeat powerful “I am” mantras for a higher frequency Ascension recoding. The music then continues for some more time to allow a deeper immersion into the experience.
You may get quite sleepy, relaxed, drifty and even fall asleep during this meditation, so it is best to be in a comfortable position with your eyes closed while listening to it. We recommend listening with headphones. Remember that whatever happens during it within you is perfect.
The music gratefully used in this video is from a channel with the best sleep music that we have found on YouTube, the Nu Meditation Music Channel. This music has supportive ocean wave sounds and binaural beats as well to drop you into a Theta/Delta brainwave space for ultimate relaxation: https://youtu.be/ISgfqlMwSrk
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This has been a very rumbly week leading up to Easter. There has been a churning of death and rebirth going on inside and out. My sacred union with my beloved Kasha has been put to the ‘test’, so to speak, with so much new ground needing an old ground to burn away in order to come into our next level of conscious romance and leadership.
I have needed to be ‘off’ social media to let all of this digest and find its way inside of me. It has been about continuing to find my voice, speak my truth and needs, as well as feeling the fear of doing so. It is this truth that can change so much. It creates and it destroys, but not necessarily in the way that a part of us may feel like it will. It is this fire that is meant to be alchemical and not necessarily harmful.
I was starting to feel the ways in which this fear is more about embodying our true power in the world and what that can actually create. If power and truth in our soul history has been experienced or judged as a ‘negative’, then we will inevitably find a way to suppress said power. We will remain in a push-pull around it. Deeply wanting and needing it, while hiding it at the same time. This creates suffering rather than movement.
This power has been held as a control mechanism inside of me. A way to manage and maintain a particular consciousness while my soul and the Divine are strongly, yet lovely, inviting me into something more essential, more real. Something long forgotten or buried. This is where a tight grip has formed or an anxious fear of surrender. I realized how much a part of me has still clung to this control structure.
In meditation I saw a sand castle on top of a stream. The foundation of this sand castle was collapsing into the stream. The castle was starting to crumble and I could feel parts of me trying to build it back up with more sand in order to keep it up. There was a tiredness in that. A readiness to let go while fearing the unknown of it all. I felt the stream as the Divine Itself, as Love, as the Tao. It just wants me to be the stream. Be in active surrender to where it is meant to take me even if I can’t see around the bend or it winds up in rapids.
It is my vulnerability and truth that keeps me afloat. It is what allows me to flow with my currency and is my true power. That stored up power in the castle just changed form and into embodiment. As the castle fully collapsed, I shed tears. I felt myself collapse into the flow of Love. I felt baptized and renewed. I felt a new connection with Kasha and myself.
As a result, I found myself realizing I needed to go back to my previous name of Gabriel. A lot has moved for me since trying on Aurius, but Gabriel is the essence of who I am in my soul. It is my Divine name. I just needed to flush some things out and reboot it. My beloveds also have an affinity for Gabriel and so that was enough for me to choose to go back. I will keep Amara as my last name, however. It has a frequency I love. It represents my inner feminine.
Thank you for being a part of this journey with me, and I hope that it has a service to you in all that you may be going through at this time. I am always here to facilitate and hold-space for this process that has taken me to new worlds and embodied awarenesses inside of myself in deep terrain. It is alchemical and transformative.
Much love to you this Easter weekend and may you meet your next death and rebirth cycle with grace, compassion, and courage.
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