Category: Sacred Union (With Self, Other And The Divine)

The Ever-Unfolding Journey of Sacred Union

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by Kasha Rokshana

There was once a time, not long ago, when parts of me cared only about sacred romance/union. It’s still very much a priority and a profound longing, yet the sense of it being the only possible gift and reflection of my feminine, my process and progress, and my next steps in service has been healing, piece by piece, part by part, soul aspect by soul aspect. There have been times over the years when I’ve felt a near-constant ‘void’ or despair feeling, even when IN a sacred romance exploration, like an ache that couldn’t really be met and an itch that couldn’t be scratched.

As I feel into that ache and itch, I can feel how there have been some big expectations and dreams, even of how I would show up in these romantic bonds. There is such a desire to be spacious, yet passionate, real and yet also a dream-come-true for the King of my heart. The deepest ache is to be seen, felt, beheld in the full-range of my feminine Queen expression and to have the capacity to fully see, feel, and behold my mate in his counterpart King expression. 

These dreams aren’t convoluted, but they’re complicated sometimes, especially when the reality hits of having to also be (very) patient with my process and his, even just to be able to minimally let it all in and begin to live into our potential individually and as a couple. 

We need room to live into and walk out our healing from this life and other lifetimes while also healing karmic grounds between us. We need space to be able to bring reflections to each other of the impact within the intimacy, to feel safe enough to be real and receive realness too, and to love each other up in ALL ways, even if fur flies from time to time. We each need the capacity to care deeply about each other without caretaking, which is an overflow from the care and non-caretaking/enabling of our own parts that we can and will sometimes fuse to. 

I want to be able to experience the sort of love transaction that I do with my closest beloveds and with the Divine and also still feel present to them and to myself, to not lose myself and to not feel him lose himself either. There needs to be opportunities for us to feel our changing wants, needs, desires and our ongoing growth paths, whether they continue to intertwine or if the ground together is coming to sacred completion.

This PROCESS of sacred union can’t really be emphasized enough… there is no final place of ultimate arrival, though my beloveds Raphael and Jelelle have certainly been experiencing a much deeper harmony than ever before after 15 years together and experiencing the ride that sacred union is in a profound, multi-dimensional way. What I’ve witnessed in them over these last 12 years is what I’ve wanted to experience myself and have had tastes of off and on. I’ve been humbled, so say the least, by what I’ve witnessed and what I’ve experienced personally too… constantly reminded that the process of upgrading, of deepening the ground between you and within you is truly never-ending and not ever a guarantee.

Today is the first day of the Sacred Union virtual transmission circles that Raphael and Jelelle will lead once a month until June. Raphael will also be leading some circles exclusively for men and Jelelle and I will lead some for women as well. I’m so looking forward to being a part of these calls and to be tuning into my own next upgrades within that will support my draw of and deepening with my counterpart mate when it’s time for that. Plus, we’re currently celebrating a sweet sacred union/reunion coming together in our community with Raianna and Jasper, so you’ll get a sense of their journey as well! 

The circle will be held on Zoom and you can attend/receive the recording by donation. More info here: soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

I hope to see/feel you there! Who knows… you might even meet your mate! 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Make Space For Your Truth: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Find that purchase
Of space in your heart
To truly let that truth of yours IN.

The truth your parts hold back
Out of fear of loss
And the fear of the love
That could come in too.

The fear of your truth’s alchemy
And capacity
To deeply change your life,
Your heart,
Your entire being,
Is a real thing.

Resurrect that sense of love,
The knowing
Of the love that you are.

Let it guide
Your next steps
Into the unknown
And uncontrollable,
Awakening to the compassionate,
Willing,
And love-serving you
That awaits your embodiment.

Find that buy-in,
That investment
In the truth of your being,
Truly letting yourself be moved
In the way your soul
Has always intended.

Journeying To The Counterpart Pairbond In Sacred Union/Twin Flame

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By Jelelle Awen

My beloved Raphael and I have been journeying lately to our Counterpart Pairbond source field together and separately as well, asking for guidance/messages/support for deepening in our bond together and in service expression. An angelic guide Ariel came to us recently, who is the gatekeeper and bridge to our Pairbond, the original source of our masculine/feminine entwinement and separation.

We both see our Pairbond as separated from the torso upwards and yet entwined still at the lower half, wrapping like snakes around each other, like the energies of Kundalini, the dragon ley lines of the Tor (or sort of like the painting below by Lorraine Sadler). The two upper halves are undulating around each other, coming into union again and then dividing again, over and over in an infinite loop.

The Pairbond source field seems to be the dimension above the soul family monad groups and ‘under’ the Archangels. It is where the first split off of individuation happens for us as souls, where masculine and feminine expressions divide into two separate halves.

Separating out of the pairbond is the masculine half then incarnating into so many timelines/lifetimes and the feminine half incarnating as well. This separation is a source of deep, deep wounding for us. The masculine feeling inadequate to truly provide for the feminine that has helped create his new form yet aching to be ‘free’. The feminine feeling rejected by the masculine’s need for independence and yet compelled to respond to it.

I believe this is what people are tuning into when they name someone as a ‘twin flame’, yet they tend to be too literal about it, mislabeling karmic soul mates as counterparts (who actually prepare you for the counterpart), and use it to justify all means of codependent behaviors in toxic relationships. The counterpart pairbond is actually a much more subtle division that when we are reunited in the physical invites us into healthy, mature relating that is both deeply committed and unattached/surrendered at the same time.

Life change can happen suddenly and abruptly in counterpart reunion as everything that doesn’t serve the bond falls away. All transaction of the bond in terms of nourishment levels, timing to be together, purpose of coming together, etc. is surrendered to the Divine ultimately and not about ego gratification or attainment. Connecting to the Pairbond brings up deep feelings of humility and gratitude, over and over again inviting you to heal with compassion for yourself and your counterpart whatever gets in the way of its loving transaction.

Sometimes there is reunion between the counterparts in a specific lifetime; sometimes there are many reunions in different lifetimes, configurations, roles, relationships, etc. (and even switching gender expressions) in order to work out karmic patterns/clearings.

Ariel offered that EVERY soul has a counterpart at the pairbond source field level. It’s just the way the Divine wanted to play with polarities and dualities when It started to be curious about that. More counterparts are in reunion this lifetime than before in a “Matrix/3D anchored” lifetime as there is so much possibility now for healing, for reconnecting, and for service to the Divine. Counterpart reunion frequencies are also needed right now to assist humanity’s ascension out of 3D and into 5D.

Raphael and I both feel a deep validation and appreciation for our ongoing reunion this life through connecting with our Pairbond source field. And, a renewed desire for creative expression together. We’ve been guided to write the story of our sacred union journey, going back to 18 years ago when we first met, sharing about the three years before we finally got together, and our experiences during 15 years of marriage.

The book will be written from both of our perspectives, channeling the parts of us who were going through whatever phase they were then. We would love to release and publish the book on our 15th wedding anniversary, March 28th, 2024.

Writing this together is a way to celebrate the ongoing bliss mess reunion that we get to be in this life, after so many lifetimes of hiding, pining, dying, and suffering over each other. So many lifetimes of experiencing the separation between us with seemingly no hope of being together.

I hope you join us for this written journey and also what we are seeing as a new sacred union group call series launching next year as well to support our book.

You can connect with your Pairbond source field at ANY time, whether you feel that you’ve drawn your counterpart mate this life or not. Whether you are in any ache to be with them or happily single.

Tuning into it reminds you that separation has been a temporary illusion; Union is our natural state; and this may be the lifetime where reunion with your counterpart is TRULY possible.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Info about 1:1 and couples sessions with me/Raphael or us together at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Inner Masculine & Inner Feminine Dynamics

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By Jelelle Awen

He can be critical….but really, he doesn’t mean to be. He can be frustrated…but that is from so long not being heard and recognized. He can feel like a ‘task master’, but he doesn’t want to punish, yet rather to keep life on track. He can feel overly protective and distrustful, but what he really wants is to ensure that the tender parts of you are not hurt and harmed again.

What he wants, this inner masculine within, is to be honored for ALL that he has done to block negative energies, to buffer the chaos of birth family/the Matrix/dark forces. He wants to be forgiven for the times that he could not protect you from hurts, from lessons, and from traumas that you were meant to experience on a soul level. He wants collaboration with your maturing feminine essence, to feel like her beloved partner and truest soul mate. To feel like you truly need him.

She can be critical too….but really, she doesn’t intend to be. She can be immature and reactive, but what she needs is to be felt in all that she has been through with an open and curious heart space. She can be lost in her dreams and in her romantic ideals and in her fantasies, but she REALLY wants is to be met and matched by him, their deepest ethereal love grounded in daily reality.

What she really wants, this inner feminine, is to respond to his masculine leadership with openness. She wants to feel desired, cherished, appreciated, seen, respected…for the FULL range of her expression from her truth telling passionate Queen, the death/rebirth alchemical capacities of her Creatrix, the tender compassionate nurturing of her Inner Mother, and the deep primordial wisdom of her Inner Crone.

As a Divinely loved space is held for both of them by your Divine Self, your inner masculine starts showing up in his most attractive and attentive form. And your inner feminine in her most responsive and collaborative. They can go from being in charged polarity to each other (often in completely different ‘compartmentalized realities’ within you) to being in flow, in collaboration, in connection, and in negotiation.

This inner masculine and inner feminine dynamic is the one that I have felt and seen so many times over the years in myself and in others in sessions too. As this dynamic becomes conscious and the inner feminine and inner masculine are connected to and felt by you and in sessions, the sense of inner peace, inner goodness, resolution of suffering loops, healing of trauma/karmic cycles, draw to more nourishing relationships, etc. truly is profound.

The Divine holds the space for this exploration of sacred union within, which allows an overflow of a transactable and nourishing sacred union in a relationship with your counterpart mate too. So much of this inner dynamic plays out in relationships as well, and remaining unresolved, leads to codependence, suffering, emotional/physical abuse, blocked intimacy, and more.

I experience now with Raphael, my beloved mate of many years, that he is ‘my masculine’ and I am ‘his feminine’ after many years of working with these energies and parts within us. This allows for a healthy and deep transaction together that also opens up much compassion and harmony between us. It allows for a true reunion of masculine and feminine after what had been split apart at the higher levels.

Your inner masculine holds the ‘codes’ for the experience of sacred union with a mate as does your inner feminine. Now is the time to activate those codes, water those codes, and love those codes from within you to experience in a deepening way yourself as Infinite Love in a human body.

You are invited to join Kasha and I for a women’s group call tomorrow, Sunday, November 19th at 5:00pm WET/12pm EDT exploring inner sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation, and sharings. During the meditation, we will bridge to your inner feminine and inner masculine dynamic as it is in this Now…and to the ‘ideal’ higher timeline connection so you can feel that too.

There is more info to join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/1546682826077335

More info about 1:1 sessions with me (Raphael or Kasha) and couples sessions with Raphael and I at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is one of my favorite pics of Raphael and I, taken spontaneously during a glorious portal sunset by a professional photographer on the beach in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. I also ‘see’ this image representing the union of my inner feminine and masculine as well.

The Inner Sacred Union Dance

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By Raianna Shai

Her: “I’m here”
Him: “I’m on my way”

These are the words my inner masculine and feminine said to each other in a SoulFullHeart sacred union group call. In meditation, we journeyed to a ball where our feminine and masculine parts met to dance with each other and feel out their relationship. So much was illuminated for me in this simple visualization about the ways in which my own inner relationships have been projected onto my outer ones.

At first, both of these parts were quite young feeling. Like a prince and princess coming together in excitement and play. This felt very sweet but I also realized that those energies are what I feel most comfortable expressing in relationships. I can be young, playful and joyful but I struggle to go into the deeper tones of woman, lover, and passionate soul.

As they came towards each other on the dance floor they became older and more mature. A veil started to fade and all of their fears and strategies started to show more clearly. My masculine, Matthew, began to feel a flood of inadequacy and unworthiness to be able to show up for my feminine, Iris. Her tendency is to caretake him and try to overcompensate for the inadequacy that he was feeling inside. She felt the guidance to not respond this way and to wait for something different to arise in her.

Later in the meditation, they connected with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene as feminine and masculine templates that we are all capable of holding inside of ourselves. Magdalene invited Iris to just be in the room with Matthew and invite him into something new, but also to let go and allow him to find it within himself. Yeshua placed his forehead on Matthew’s to energize that they are really no different and that he is fully capable of all the compassion, openness and passion that he so admires in Yeshua.

Matthew felt so much release in that message and finally cried after many days of not being able to access much emotion. He crumbled to the floor as Iris just sat next to him, radiating love and support for this journey he will go on to find even deeper love for himself and from the divine. I feel a deep surrogacy coming for him from Yeshua, and even a merging in ways he never thought possible.

This is when they spoke –

Her: “I’m here”
Him: “I’m on my way”

I realized after this experience that so much of this dynamic was showing up in relationships on the outside. Whether my mate felt inadequacy or I felt it, that energy was always in the space. And if it was felt by my mate then I would instinctively go into caretaking, preventing them from finding it for themselves and essentially taking away their opportunity to find deep self love.

If I felt it, I couldn’t quite go into it deeply and find the source of it while in the relationship. Now that I’m single, I’ve been able to go deeper into this wound so that whatever future explorations I have, I will feel so much more centered inside of myself and will know how to hold it with them, instead of for them. I would also draw less of this dynamic as it heals within my own heart and soul.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Equinox Codes: Healing Deep Suffering Loops (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/wMefxZdBc1c

“Am I genuinely, truly ready to let go of past suffering and move into new and unknown soul and heart bigness?” — this was a powerful question that continued to arise in different ways for all of us at our SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering this weekend.

Soul turns and healing trajectories moving us through birth canals… letting go of suffering on whatever level we feel ready for that (and to be in the genuine, deep, real, and multi-layered process of that) has been a profound theme for this Equinox passage.

In this video, I share about this theme of letting go and healing the relationship to suffering and how I relate to it personally at this time. I also share about what it means to be with it through your open and curious heart as you feel parts of you and Metasoul aspects (soul expressions in other lifetimes) too. 

I hope you’ve had a blessed and very real Equinox experience, truly moving you into a new sense of yourself, your soul, and what it feels like to be supported by the Divine through absolutely everything.

Love, 

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sacred Union Dynamics: Masculine Wants To Be Needed; Feminine Needs To Be Wanted

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By Jelelle Awen

The masculine wants to be needed.

The feminine needs to be wanted.

This is a sacred journey of polarities that sometimes is a crash and sometimes is a dance. Sometimes is a bliss and sometimes is a mess.

Neither is wrong in what seems to be this common core, underlying desire nor in the wounding that results in the human experience of it not getting met consistently.

As the masculine encounters being criticized, being judged, being tugged on, being controlled, being put demands by the ‘feminine’ (which is really more of a wounded masculine energy inside a feminine), then he retracts or he fights. He ghosts or he defends himself.

He is swimming in inadequacy if he doesn’t feel that he is meeting her needs….or especially if he feels like he has failed her in some way. He becomes often unable to speak this, to share these feelings with her….as if in speaking it, he is offering the most terrible confession.

As the feminine experiences being rejected, being unclaimed, a push-pull of desire for her by the masculine, she then attacks and blames with her inner masculine coming out to fight….or she crumples into core unworthiness and feeling so hurt that she is fused to the young child, the inner teenager within her. She is drowning in this hurt yet often can’t bring this vulnerably and in a way that can be felt by him.

This dynamic is not just from this life, yet produced from the original source wound of our separation from the Divine. And, downstream from that, separation from the counterpart pairbond that exists in our soul family monad of our other half holding the opposite polarity of masculine or feminine.

Variations of reactivity from when this core wounding gets triggered by each other play out in SO many ways. Yet, at the heart of it is a feminine who has felt rejected by her masculine and is still reeling from it. And at the heart of the masculine who has both been birthed by the feminine and yet also feels how with this capacity he doubts if she could ever really need him in any way.

As we feel this dynamic within us….from an Inner Masculine with our Inner Feminine, we are healing this polarity from within FIRST and primarily. We experience huge heart chakra expansion as these parts of us come into union. She forgives him for what feels like rejection even as she starts really getting how his protection of her has been his form of claiming. How he has always wanted her, just has felt inadequate to her.

And he forgives her as he feels that she has always needed him, yet doesn’t want to be suppressed by him or protected so much that she can’t be free, experience life, dare to get hurt, dare to risk and dare to dream. She DOES need him and he is worthy to show up for this.

And the Divine Father and Mother aspects show up to support each in the experience of receiving infinite love, infinite worthiness, infinite claiming by the Divine. The empty cups that lead to lashing out, defending and protecting become filled by this Divine love. And the feminine becomes more of a reflection and an embodiment of this Divine Mother energy in her unique expression. And the masculine becomes a reflection and embodiment of Divine Father energy.

As this sacred union happens within, so you can experience this on the outside with a mate who holds the other side of this polarity for you. You can be with the parts of you, both masculine and feminine, who get triggered by the deepening intimacy, the deepening mirror, the deepening challenge that if offered by TRUE sacred union when all grounds of relational transaction are coming together.

This download came in a little while ago, especially during our sacred union group call series earlier this year (recordings available with links at soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries. Also from realizations stemming from my relationship with Raphael as well and the phases of brief separation that opened out into more union and deeper understanding of each other.

Feels like this also speaks to a collective unveiling that is happening in the masculine/feminine dynamic in relationships and within…getting to the core of the separation wound created from the experience of polarity between us in which also so much desire for reunion also exists.

Compassion for each other can arise in this space and also forgiveness for self and other.

Inner first, then outer approach allows the horizontal ground between the partners to be more clear and have more space.

In this space, resonance can move, desire can move, attraction can move, and most importantly, love can move.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is an inner sacred union meditation to connect more deeply to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/YVgEANrF6J4

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, my books at soulfullheart.org.

A Message To Gatekeepers: Unification/Forgiveness/Reconciliation/Light Codes And Yeshua/Magdalene/Christ Consciousness Available Right Now To Tap Into And Download

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By Bey Magdalene

In my last session with Jelelle we met my actual/new Gatekeeper as she wanted to bridge me to my higher dimensional Gatekeeper for support. Who came forward was an energy that in the course of the session would call himself ‘Sampson’. We found him in a scene very similar to the Matrix movie. He was staring at thousands upon thousands of those pods from the movie, all representing an incarnation into a Matrix timeline in my soul. I could see many of them actually awakening from their slumber, sitting up and becoming aware of themselves, unplugging and rinsing off the Matrix waters. My soul awakening. 

He was watching those pods and seeing and feeling all the pain, trauma and victimization all of these metasoul aspects of mine were experiencing. It was as if he was experiencing those timelines himself, through my soul aspects, just by witnessing them. He was caught in a sticky web and couldn’t see anything else. 

Jelelle asked him to take a step back and to try and project this experience onto a screen, so he could start to differentiate from them and breathe. He projected those timelines onto a screen and there were many others, showing all the traumatizing Matrix timelines. It looked like a control center with all those monitors. That gave him some distance to these experiences and he could start to differentiate from them and not feel as if they were happening to him. 

Jelelle was inviting him to turn to nature to further help him unplug from his fusion to those matrix timelines. He was dialing in a big tree with a very thick trunk with deep roots and a sizable, overarching canopy. He touched the textured bark and started to rest by the tree. Then, magically, little light sparkles came through the tree that felt like Divine inspiration coming through. He started feeling and becoming lighter and started feeling hope. Tears could stream as well through Divine love and support.

That was pretty much all he could let in at that time and then he needed to go rest and retreat again. 

I have been connecting with him since and I could feel that it was him who had already unplugged so much in my process over the past few months, plug after plug. I started to get answers to questions I’ve been having about this life.  

I’ve had many deep tears with him since, sometimes he would cry for an hour straight, when I would feel with him the Love and loyalty he has for me and my soul and how he has tried to protect me this life through some really thick veils of keeping me naive/uninformed about core issues in this world or by suppressing my awakening that tried to happen ten years ago already and still has been controlling/capping it to this day. 

There has also been a lot of shame and guilt in him and unworth too, about not being able to really do anything for me or protect my metasoul aspects from trauma.  

Initially, he would show up like light shaped in human form and he was a bit elusive. He felt he didn’t deserve a face or shape because he couldn’t protect my soul, he couldn’t help my other expressions/incarnations in other lifetimes.  

A couple of days ago then he actually took a form and represented himself as a (Roman) warrior with helmet, shield and sword. His protection had become overprotective I could feel and he could feel that too and he started to loosen his grip around it, as he started recognizing my bigness and the power of my heart and of feeling. 

Since I started awakening on a deeper level to how our world is set up and works since the beginning of this ‘pandemic’, I have felt very drawn to the mind control aspect of it all and particularly the trauma based programming that celebrities receive in order to have them fall in line with the elite agenda, whose darkest expressions include satanic rituals. After having needed a break from taking in anything related to that kind of thing and generally alternative/actual news/facts on world/current or historical events, my interest in them has been sparked again since meeting Sampson. 

I have started to take in some comprehensive articles again that are very well researched and explain in detail about all the Cabal structures, events and expressions in the entertainment industrial complex (a good site for this is The Vigilant Citizen, if you are curious yourself). I have been particularly drawn to the MK Ultra programming in the music industry and even more specifically the Beta/Sex Kitten programming that creates sex slaves for the elite. 

Two nights ago, something peaked for me in that area and I could feel that my heightened interest in this topic was actually what we call in SoulFullHeart a ‘bleed-through’… I could feel a Satanic timeline coming through. It felt like a portal was opened through taking in these articles and I could see and feel the female human sacrifice on the altar and a ceremony master whose incantations of certain words opened up a portal to the underbelly of humanity and invoked very dark spirits. I could feel that Sampson was living there too, with my metasoul aspect, trying to help her by being there as a support/to witness, and because he’s loyal and just sucked into the trauma too. 

I was realizing afterwards that this timeline/portal had already bled through in the past for me. It was about 2.5 years ago and I remember feeling completely fused to that bleed through and being terrified to death. Back then, I was living a very nomadic lifestyle, moving from workaway to workaway (a type of work exchange for food and shelter) and my Gatekeeper was drawing quite some intense drama/trauma as well, to get my attention and look on the inside where that trauma lived. My inner and outer circumstances were not providing a save space to explore this timeline in. Now, I am settling deeper into my own little 1-bedroom-apartment/sanctuary here in Central Portugal, I am in a much more loving place on the inside, having felt and moved so many parts of myself from hell to heaven, and I’m surrounded by community who can support me in my inner explorations.

Yesterday was a very powerful Yeshua/Christ Consciousness portal day and the codes were streaming in undeniably. In my check-in with him yesterday morning, I didn’t feel that it was timely to go into this timeline because he felt very beat and in despair. That is also the kind of timeline I’d want support with, so it would be perfect for session or group setting. Instead, I felt to bridge him to some Divine love and support, like I have tried in many of my connections with him, but he hadn’t been ready for it thus far. I needed to feel more of his pain with him first.  

Yesterday morning, I needed to feel with him first that trauma, the matrix and even Satan is more real to him than God. It is really interesting, I have to say at this point, that the fear of feeling something is always, always more disempowering and rendering our parts and aspects impotent than actually feeling the feeling. As soon as I felt that feeling with him, it dissipated and the hopelessness and despair that accompanied that notion, too. 

I saw a staircase made from light that was leading up to the Divine/to a higher dimension and it felt like an invitation for Sampson to move into his higher timeline and into Divine support. I could feel his reticence and him not wanting to abandon my soul and leave my soul aspects alone in their trauma.  

Then I felt next to me very clearly Yeshua and that he wanted to talk with Sampson. So I took a moment to feel into him and his message more as I really wanted to help Sampson and myself too and end this cycle of suffering inside of myself. 

When I tuned into him, he had this to offer to my Gatekeeper: ‘I feel your precious loyalty towards Bey and her soul. Thank you so much for all your love and protection for her! But you actually don’t have to hold the soul anymore, you can‘t even, really, especially if you are in so much despair over it. You have been fused to Bey’s Matrix incarnations, living them yourself, feeling they are you. That way, you haven’t been able to see Bey’s soul bigness and trust and lean into that. You are in a trauma bond with Bey‘s soul… Is that fair to say?’ 

He came through very clearly, directly and very embodied too, which was a first for me. When I took a step back and was trying to feel Sampson and how he was taking in what Yeshua was offering, I could feel him a bit confused and disoriented. He didn‘t quite know who was talking. He asked: ‘Is that you, God?’ It took a little while for him but eventually he could let the Divine in the form of Yeshua in and had tears. His tears are just so precious! He responded: ‘Yes, that’s fair to say’… Yeshua reached his hand out to him and invited him to come with him up the stairs to anchor in a higher dimension, to rest, recover and receive support and Love from the Divine. I saw the shackles around his ankles that have tied him to the Matrix opening through the light. 

Before stepping on the stairs, he looked back at me and started to cry again because he didn’t want to leave me and my soul alone. But I actually need him to go with Yeshua now, I need him to leave my body and my field as I want and need to feel myself more and become more solid in myself.  

My guides can also offer him many other things and give him the kind of support that I as a human can’t give him. There’s only so much that I can feel with him and my human heart can support him in but eventually there comes a time where he has to go off and get Divine support, support from my soul and the soul family monad.  

Gatekeepers as disincarnate beings are also not made for the human realm. It is not their environment, their natural habitat if you will, they are not relational like humans either and they just have different needs than we do. So this dimension does not suit them. They do belong to a different one, they have just forgotten. They can still come back and be the Divine muse for their humans and be in a collaborative relationship with them. So, if they decide to differentiate from their human, they won’t ‘lose’ the connection to them. On the contrary, they will have a much more nourishing one with them, or even have one to begin with. 

After reading Raphael’s Golden Nugget from yesterday (77 words of Raphael wisdom every day, here is the link to the one I‘m referring to), I am realizing that Sampson has been able to come up and out because my light as Bey has been shining onto my shadow where he had been hiding. He couldn’t come out with Bianca as he was way too fused to her and thinking he WAS her, living life AS her. 

I feel I am telling you all this and letting you in on my very intimate connection and relationship with my Gatekeeper because I feel there are SO many gatekeepers out there who are in the same position as mine had been. They are living in this dark, parallel world, that is eerie and is only made up of trauma. That world is not connected to your heart, your love and the support that you have access to. In that world, they only see a repetition of yet another lifetime in the Matrix that is the same as all the other traumatic ones and they can’t actually see that you are making different choices this life and that there’s support available this life that hasn’t been there before. 

I want to reach out to them and leave a seed of hope for them and to let them know: I see you and I feel you. And whenever you are ready to let your human go deeper with us, there is support here waiting for you. 

The place they are in is like an echo chamber of trauma and programmed consciousnesses and reactions. It’s like they have Soul PTSD. For me, it has expressed this life as being easily spooked and having deeply visceral body reactions to any situation that scared me easily. I have also been expecting punishment/persecution every corner I turned or with every e-mail I received or from certain people or in my jobs. I‘m also feeling that a LOT of body issues, especially chronic migraines for me since I was a pre-teen, has been connected to him. There has been a combination reaction going on with my Solar Plexus churning and simultaneously my Third Eye which gave me migraines. 

Their world/echo chamber also projects out into this life and filters every situation, relationship, anything really, through that PTSD filter and skews and colours your experience of life and others this way. 

Gatekeepers are also quite loyal to the matrix pain as oftentimes it is the only home they have known, for eons! So that way, it actually needs some negotiation with them to let go of pain home and experience something else. There is tears for them and deep mourning of letting go the Matrix home and they have to be ready for that. Not many Gatekeepers have done that before either! So that‘s also about creating a new template and anchor it in the grids for others to tap into and follow. 

It is also fascinating how one aspect of you (or you yourself) can be so connected to the Divine, yet another is seemingly cut off from this connection, even though that aspect, you and the Divine can be in the same room together. It just needs a little bridging from you to the Divine for that aspect and it needs your trust in your own heart and conviction of your worth and that you are worthy to connect with the Divine and that Divine connection is readily available, if we really want it. It is about trusting your ability and gift of connecting to the Divine. 

It really comes down to the Gatekeeper’s own pacing around awakening as they can be an aspect that is actually quite programmed themselves. This life, my GK was definitely plugged into the social justice warrior consciousness for a short yet intense time. I can feel him needing to recover from that and from the last few years of intense workaway experiences too, that really were all a from of False Light. But that is fodder for a whole other post! 

So, sometimes, it is just holding this energy, connecting with it intentionally and then hanging out until they let you in. Before they show themselves, they can put you through a few tests though, sometimes for years even, so they can be sure you can handle what they need you to feel with them and that you have the support this life as well, inside and out, to respond to their pain. 

Through my connection with Sampson and many other Gatekeepers over the years, they have a special place in my heart and I have so much love for them all. They are such courageous energies/beings and have seen, felt and held so much. They have seen the darkest expressions of humanity and other races. When I feel Sampson, I get teary because I love him so much and I’m so glad he finally decided to trust me, after all the testing he put me through, and the community too, to trust the community and to show himself. I’m SO glad he was feeling to put an end to being in this matrix vortex that kept him sucked in trauma and that he started to let in the possibility of something else for him. A new experience. A union and collaboration with me and with the Divine. A re-membering of his Divine essence and connection. After all, Gatekeepers are the aspects of our soul that are Divine Muses ❤️ 

Love to You and your Gatekeeper! 

Bey Magdalene

https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions 

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Feeling & Honouring The ‘Inner Masculine/King’ Within The Feminine

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by Kasha Rokshana

Kings on the outside are returning to themselves. Men are awakening to their masculine core essences. They’re playing in the polarities they need to in order to discover themselves anew and reclaim their Kingship. There’s a lot to this process for the masculine that we as feminines can’t totally understand, except we ARE afforded a portal of some understanding through feeling our own inner masculine aspects/parts, who are in a similar process at times. 

Actually, the feminine equivalent of this process for men is a reclaiming of our Queen. She is an energy of benevolence but also has deep pain and often quite the missing of an authentic masculine counterpart – a King – in order to truly experience herself AS a Queen. Yes, I AM saying that as women we do need the masculine in our lives, in our hearts, in our bodies… as beautiful and necessary as our independence also is. 

Enter now the process of feeling your inner masculine, or you could say, your inner King. This process now offers a way for your Queen to show up in relationship to a King energy, even if it’s polarized for a while as the aches and pains of want, desire, and deep hurt now surface more so than they could have before. 

Having recently been in a long term Sacred Union bond, I can say without hesitation that my Queen got to blossom because of relating to the masculine on the outside. Also though, I couldn’t have drawn this opportunity without first having had a lot of process ground with masculine energies inside of me. I’ve experienced and felt the polarized reactions in the inner world… the hesitations and hang-ups, the love and the fighting for more love. Even today I feel there’s some tension in moments between my masculine and feminine energies, yet most of the time it feels like there’s more harmony and understanding there, more feeling of each other, and more overall unity/oneness.

I so deeply welcome you to join me and Jelelle Awen as we co-lead an upcoming women’s call focused on this process of feeling your inner masculine! It’s by donation and if you can’t attend live you’ll receive the recording, though I highly recommend coming live if you can as the womb room we create together as a group is always warm and inviting!

You can donate by visiting our shop here: soulfullheart.org/shop or via PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

I’ll include the call description below so you can take in some more details about where we’re going with this one.

Love,

Kasha ♥️

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Description: 

The Inner Masculine within a woman has many different expressions as a very sacred part/energy of our inner worlds. This range of expression can move from highly protective, fatherly energies that can be punishing to more of an ‘ideal masculine mate’ in pursuit of the feminine. The inner masculine is an aspect/part that helps women navigate the patriarchal frequencies of the Matrix in whatever ways he feels are necessary. This can sometimes bring out something overbearing in him, though he can also feel quite defeated and deflated too, especially if he hasn’t been able to help or offer support in the way he’d most like to, or helped you/parts of you avoid difficult or dark situations.

Having an intimate relationship with your Inner Masculine as a woman, whether you are single or in union with a mate, helps to illuminate your relationship to the Divine Masculine/Father expressions of the Divine. You can get a sense then of why you may feel blocked to letting them in as well as why there may be a pattern of difficult or even non-existent relationships with men on the outside. Connecting deeply with the Inner Masculine offers us (and them) so many layers of healing from the impact of other men, whether mates, fathers or other authority figures, which eventually and ideally leads to a deep forgiveness that makes room for a whole NEW experience of the masculine inside and out.

In a two-hour women’s group call on Sunday, September 18th at 5:00/17:00pm WEST (Lisbon/London)/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Sacred Feminine Teachers and Facilitators Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will explore connecting with the Inner Masculine through sharing our personal journeys and also experiences in supporting women through our SoulFullHeart quantum healing process. We will share about how through a personal relationship with your Inner Masculine, you will also come to know your feminine parts/aspects in a whole new way and on a new ground of beginning or deepening your Inner Sacred Union, which moves between your masculine and feminine parts, as well.

During this call, we will co-lead a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Masculine with the support of Divine Masculine guides, who will help hold space for this exploration and invite your masculine part(s) into a nourishing and empowering energy where they can be real and even vulnerable. You will meet with your Inner Masculine however he is expressing at this time, and feel into the relationship he currently has with your feminine parts. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together to recode our relationships between us and our Inner Masculine individually and together as women.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Bliss-Mess Path Of Reconciling Our Soul’s Love For The Divine

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by Kasha Rokshana

I don’t know if there’s anything more complicated than our souls’ love for the Divine. It leads us to such intense places within and outside of us. It brings us to new highs and unfathomable lows… 

It inspires us to pick up where ‘we’ left off in other lifetimes, pursuing justice, pursuing love, pursuing some validation of our faith that’s maybe been lost or buried, for the sake of our soul aspects who just want the world to feel safe again… safe enough to actually feel the Divine again, to reclaim our Divine son or daughter-ship fully without fear of being persecuted for that devotion, love, and need of the Divine. 

I feel the truth of this for my own soul and what it’s taken in this lifetime alone to really reclaim my Divine Daughter essence who is so deeply devoted to the Divine within her and in the world around her. I feel how much my essence, my very soul, loves the Divine and lives to serve this love in a world that doesn’t always seem to want it, be ready for it, feel worthy of it, and will do anything at times but let itself feel held and loved. 

Maybe you recognize this for yourself, this sense of your own essence being so connected even in the midst of this vast and often intense experiment of duality that has led to so much painful polarity. Maybe you’ve felt this even in the ache for Diviner reunion within and in your outer world too that all parts of you feel on some level in this lifetime, let alone how your many soul aspects have perhaps suffered for this in other lifetimes. 

Last night we had a SoulFullHeart group call focused on the persecution wound and I realized that for myself, a huge aspect of this persecution experience has been this sense of always feeling so devoted and committed to the Divine and to love, that it’s led to some very dark timelines of ridicule and backlash… and, I realize I’m not alone in that. Those of us who have chosen to awaken to this desire for deep Divine alignment, even at the cost of anything that could possibly resemble a ‘normal’ life to most, have all experienced this and continue to endure it. 

The invitation, of course, is to continue to feel where this backlash lives within us from part to part and reconcile it there, while also validating our souls’ ongoing experiences of this theme on the outside. It’s only inside of us where we can always cultivate an inner Safe Haven, and inner Divine Temple, that can never ever leave us or be taken away from us. We can only make choices that either continue to cultivate this inner world of safety or that dismantle it instead.

After the call, Raianna and I went on a walk a little walk to get some air. On the walk, we came across fields of sunflowers which inspired mixed reactions in us both. So many of these sunflowers were scorched and had died from the severe lack of rain and extremely high temperatures here in central Portugal the last couple of months, yet even amongst the dead, there were a few that were vibrant and very much alive. 

You can see one of the living sunflowers in the photo I’m posting with this writing. I feel it as a symbol of how we’re invited to continue our own path of growth and devotion and Divine embodiment of love, even if/when the others around us in our outer worlds are choosing to experience the opposite. We are ALL in the middle of a field of ‘dying’ flowers, waiting to be reborn. We also all have this field inside of us, where our essence is waiting to shine through anew, growing, flowing, and facing towards the ‘sun’ of Divine love and support, despite all the death and darkness we’ve experienced on so many levels.

Your love for the Divine is an undying seed within you. Living into alignment with this is often a bliss-mess experience, yet we are all walking this out together at varying stages of readiness to be truly devoted to this path, wherever it’s meant to lead YOUR soul. I know nothing more fulfilling and enlivening, however challenging the path, than fully going into it, embracing that this is what you came here to experience and embody, and allowing the Divine surrender you actually know so well to bring up all that it’s meant to for the sake of your healing and deep, deep, DEEP self and soul rediscovery. 

Let me know if I can support you in any way through 1:1 sessions (with women): soulfullheart.org/sessions

With so much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.