Category: Parts / Subpersonalities

The Doorways IN To Your Highest Heart

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The questions resound.  “Why am I the way I am? Why do I feel the way I feel?” There are just certain things that we just can’t really put a mental finger on.  It is swirling curiosity that is wrapped in sometimes serious tones of frustration and depression.  This feeling that something is just “off” inside and you are just not totally You.  But what the hell does that mean?

Relief and discovery are your doorways IN….

Maybe there IS a clear sense of who you are but still can’t seem to get that You to align with what it going on around you. Either no one or very few around you can fully grasp what it is you are going through. This need to go deeper, to understand and feel more deeply as to what it is that you were meant to BE this life.

Alignment and deepening are your doorways IN…

You have all that you felt like you wanted but still feel dissatisfied. What once made you complete and happy just isn’t working its magic anymore.  There is the growing awareness that that there is so much more to experience and not necessarily “learn” or achieve.   The magic is wanting to come from the inside out and not the other way around. There is a niggle to set fire to it all and get to the heart of what it is that sets your passion ablaze.

Curiosity and desire are your doorways IN….

You see the writing on the wall.  What used to hold all the pieces of society together are in a state of collapse.  The game on the outside is quickly finding its demise and the transition may be rough for some.  But that is for those who have given over their power. Their choice. The fight and the rage are getting exhausting and the time for something new is so wanting fresh air.  There is a need to feel a sense of a bigger vision and opportunity into the future.

Empowerment and disillusionment are your doorways IN….

You are tired of doing this life all on your own.  You so much want to be in collaboration with others with like-heart and soul resonance.  You ache for a partner that can match and meet you in your need for passion and purpose. To set you ablaze with aliveness and challenge you with compassionate honesty.  No more playing in the wounded arena.  You are aching for relationship beyond the usual and normal.

Community and sacred romance are your doorways IN….

There is something we all came here to walk out.  An experience to have based on a theme or calling that our souls signed up for.  Your current life experience is all perfectly laid out specifically for you, by you.  They create crisis and uncomfortability as a means of opportunity to learn and grow along the path we have chosen that serves our Highest calling.  The nest that we consciously created is now getting prickly.  Even if the nest wasn’t all that bad to begin with! You are getting prickly. Nudged. Poked.

The doorways are in front of you.  They are held by parts of us that were created in order to “survive” life. Even our spirituality has been used as a survival tactic in many ways. The road back to our very thrival essence is a process of exiting and entering many of these doorways, just like the proverbial layers of an onion.  But these doorways often look like walls if we are fused to the fear of what it means to walk through them.

The first step is to be honest there is a wall. A fear. A resistance. From there the door presents itself and the choice points begin.  Feeling the fear inside and where they come from helps us to make that next step down the path we know we were meant to walk. But you are not alone in this. There are those who have walked through many of those doors. They very ones you see in front of you if you can see them.  The ones that you have heard a knock on. Let us answer that call together and see what is discovered and experienced on the way to what it is you were ultimately destined to Be and feel.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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I Want To Shake Men

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

I want to shake men.

I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.

I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.

I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.

As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.

There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.

You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.

It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?

Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.

I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.

It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.

This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.

I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.

But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.

So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.

Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.

No pressure, and all that! 🙂

I love you and I need you and I want you!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We are currently offering a free intro session (to men and women) for those considering entering regular session space with us. If you are interested, let us know and we’ll send you some things we’ll ask you to read and a few questions to respond to, to further help you see if this is or isn’t what is calling you. More details on that are here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Uniting Without Diminishing – The Masculine And The Feminine

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By Raphael Awen

I’m finding myself wanting to blend the masculine energies of choice, intention and action with the feminine energies of intuition, resonance and inspiration as Jelelle Awen and I feel through (feminine) and sort out (masculine) some new directional pieces for SoulFullHeart.

We are finding people being drawn to us who feel a huge resonance factor with us, our writings etc, along with all kinds of intuitions about a deeper connection with us, yet often not taking a next grounded step towards what we offer.

It felt really important to not make this about ‘them’ as that just puts us in a victim/defensive/reaction place, but to instead feel into what is the universe asking us to feel and choose in the midst of this….as an opportunity.

This week, we felt guided to offer a free ½ hour intro as a way to bridge interest, and already this is proving to be a really informative exercise, that several people are choosing. On the one hand, I don’t really want to be ‘inundated’ with doing free intros where we simply just hang out in some good vibes together that don’t really amount to anything. But on the other hand, really helping people bridge their interest and intuition to some further choice points would be really rewarding, and I can feel myself loving it.

This highlighted the need to ask deeper questions about what we want and why, and how only from such an inquiry could we come to structure some guidelines about what we want with people, how to lead with that and how to be in that.

We know, through our own personal years of work, that we have opened our hearts deeply, and offered session space to others along with naturally arising community around that, but we are also feeling the opportunity and desire to take that to new places of structure and increased numbers where the masculine and feminine both get to come out and play in a way they couldn’t before; where the pure service of love is served by the ingenuity and balance of system and clear objective; feeling what’s working and what isn’t, and asking why.

We’re in some brand new places and it feels important to be transparent about it (as we trans-’parent’ a new way of life into being for people) as well as invite those who are feeling their choice points to contact us and enter this space of alchemy together, being really clear about what we want.

If this movement rhymes with a heart and soul movement you are having, you might want to check this out deeply and you can do just that at the link below.

Much love,

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Amplification Of Unity Desires And Following Your Heart: Archangel Metatron Weighs In On The Eclipse

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“That’s actually the bigger deal here, Raphael, is the wave of desire and ache for change that gets occasion to move through the collective. It’s always there, but today, it gets a unity amplification to go to some serious next levels. We don’t actually want a tidal wave that wipes out everything, we want one that surgically achieves everything you as a species are ready for to let in. This is a huge earth party that others in the multiverse are attending and very excitedly so. Soon, you will all know and see so much more of your role as a planet, as one among so many more and be overcome for years in wonder and awe and reverence that will bring the deeper levels of this change that you know awaits you personally and collectively. It will come in stages. It will come while some won’t see or feel it consciously, but none will not be changed by it. The universe is throwing this party and you don’t wanna miss it.” – AA Metatron with Raphael Awen

This week was another incredible week for the ascension of our species and each of us individually who have signed up for this amazing journey.  Raphael tunes into AA Metatron to feel the gift and epicness of the celestial movements that have been occurring culminating in the total solar eclipse.  The energies coming in are meant to effect us both collectively and individually.  Bringing us to our greatest heights in expressing our greatest desires.  Energizing us with the codes to take us to our very next steps if we are willing to feel and heal all we need to on our way there.

We have a lot of fantastic writings from Jelelle, Kalayna, and Gabriel as well that digests all of the emerging codes and arising timelines that are wanting to be made manifest in our Highest possibilities.  Jelelle explores integrating our lower and shadow aspects during ascension, Kalayna explores sacred masculinity messages and its importance in the emerging New Earth, and Gabriel tunes into pre- and post-eclipse transmissions from the withIN.  We are also excited to include another amazing writing by our newest member Raianna Shai who is discovery the gifts of going in and connecting with her soul guardian.  It is a must read for sure!

Don’t miss information on our upcoming group call this Sunday at 11:11am CST.  PLUS, new recordings and information on our new 30 minute free intro calls!  We love to share our love to you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation you feel that resonates with our offering.  You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate.

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Thank you so much for your interest and support for SoulFullHeart Way of Life!

Here is the link to this week’s museletter:

http://mailchi.mp/3880caddb3ae/soulfullheart-weekly-museletter-amplification-of-unity-desires-and-following-your-heart-archangel-metatron-weighs-in-on-the-eclipse

Healing Your ‘Parts’, Embodying Your Spirituality Through SoulFullHeart

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Every day, we enter another portal into the unknown. What will this day bring, look like, feel like? What will I experience today? What will I learn? Who will I meet? Will I realize another layer inside of my heart and soul that needs my love and attention? Will parts of me feel like they need something that they’re not quite getting in the moment?

I realize those last two questions may feel a bit foreign to you. No problem! I’m here to bridge and teach and serve love with you, and part of that is by leading something new and different, alongside my community of beloveds who are doing and embodying the same.

The reality of ‘parts’ was something that simply felt true to me from the beginning, which was about 5 years ago now. It was something that made sense. It explained the polarizations inside of me, my push-pull feelings toward this or that, how I could be immature and mature at the same time, and it unearthed so much about me – in the form of gifts and pain, both – that I wouldn’t have realized was there otherwise.

In SoulFullHeart, we work with ‘parts’ of us or subpersonalities that formed from trauma, from needing to find ways to blend in and survive in our surroundings and cultures. They are the result of abuse in many different ways, shapes, and forms, including from culture, from birth family, from spouses or significant others, and even from ourselves to ourselves… they are our coping mechanisms, our self-deprecating habits, our need to diminish others so we can feel bigger than we are in those moments. This is the key to healing the emotional body, a huge part of what makes us human and what I truly feel we are here to go into and heal through. The emotional body becomes an incredible portal and healing space. It holds the doorways into deeper places within that are waiting to be rediscovered, cultivated, loved. It also houses the means to experience spirituality beyond the mental learning of concepts, theories, and practices. Through our emotions and loving parts of ourselves, we can begin to feel what’s real for us about spirituality and consciousness, what could be blocking our access, and where it is we’d like to go next. It humbles us to this place of being able to let in what spirituality really is and what spiritual experiences and awakenings more deeply offer us – something far more visceral and heart-opening than we could have imagined or even theorized about before. It is an experience of pure love and the places where it brings us.

It’s sort of like a bridge appears after working with the emotional body for long enough and at a deep enough level, that shows us the passageway to higher consciousness. In this place, we can feel a trust in the bridge that maybe we couldn’t have felt before and we realize with each step across it, all of the ways in which this very bridge would have been impassable before.

From here the explorations are exponential, though tying it all back into the emotional body and parts of you is still important. This process never really ends, and in some ways just gets exponentiated over different phases, in different ways. Your newly inhabited capacity to FEEL is what leads to healing of different lives in your Metasoul line. Your heart is the place you can come back to, to bring these aspects of you back to, to rest, recharge, regroup, and heal.

As I mentioned before, my beloveds and I in SoulFullHeart offer this very thorough and deep work as a way to serve love. My heart is excited to welcome more of you into this process and community too.

For more information, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Post-Eclipse Activations Of Our Highest Timelines Continuing To Integrate Into Our Emotional And Physical Bodies

Published on by Jelelle Awen5 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Photo of the eclipse was taken by Ted Hesser Photography

So much collective attention being focused on the recent total solar eclipse INcreased the energies that were available during it. All souls were offered the codes/information/memories of their highest timelines, highest expression lives in their human body that are ALREADY happening. Your highest timeline is your service of love life for which you are aligned to your Divine self expressing as a human. For some, this highest timeline reality would just ‘bounce’ off their unawakened 3D self, yet WOULD go into their 4D transitional self and their higher self…..even if not consciously being connected to yet.

This ‘seed’ of higher dimensional consciousness experience is within all human BEings and is receiving a BIG flush of love light water (especially during this mega month of August energies) to help it sprout, grow, and bloom. This might have led to sudden upswells of emotional sensitivity or feelings of acute frustration or unhappiness in some 3D selves. AND rare joy and bliss as the eclipse ‘event’ penetrated their usual defensive filtering which normalizes and flatlines experience of experience. The 3D self might put these sensations into a five sense reality ‘box’ and file them away as connected somehow to the eclipse but not sure how.

The 4D self, however, would be staying up at night, reliving the event, searching on the internet for meaning and explanations beyond the obvious, beyond the 5 senses, beyond the mind. The 4D self would be continuing to move out of numbness, their emotional body coming to LIFE and their soul beginning to remember. The 4D astral self expression may be activating with more intense and meaningful dreams too. This could bring up feelings of depression at how life has been and more acute awareness of how the daily routine impacts you. It’s like you are looking around AT your life and can suddenly ‘see’ it much more clearly, more objectively, and also with an increasing sense of what you REALLY want more acutely. The 4D self is looking for resources to help support their choices of their highest timeline and trusting their intuitions and resonance that guides them to these resources.

The eclipse energies have also activated NEW surges of creative expression and passion connected to the bigger picture. As the new timeline comes into focus for us as individuals AND as a collective, opportunities to make choices (both small and BIG) toward manifestation are offered to us on an increasing basis. Moment by moment, you become more aware of what you are choosing and why. What are you putting your energy toward and why? What is your choice and what is it based on? Is it based in fear and clinging to the 3D, previous, ‘lower’ timeline? Is it connected to love, service of love and the 4D and higher timeline?

Post eclipse integration of these higher timeline realities has been intense and can be felt on ALL the bodies: physical, emotional, social, astral, chakral/energetic, mental. The physical body is the vibrationally densest expression of our BEing and is often ‘catching up’ with the high frequency surges. Amplification of WHATEVER physical stuff you might have going on is happening now. Activation of hormones turned UP, increasing PMS and menstrual symptoms for some of us women. I’ve certainly been experiencing that myself since the eclipse and been just surrendering into it as I feel MORE feminine frequencies being offered to me in all areas of my life, including moving into more co-leadership of SoulFullHeart with Raphael and more balance of feminine and masculine expression related to it.

You may be feeling an increase in ‘ascension symptoms’ such as headaches, neck pain, ringing in the ears, dizziness, interrupted sleep patterns. I do recommend connecting with these ‘symptoms’ directly to ask them what they are trying to tell you about your ongoing ascension process as connected to your physical and emotional bodies, as I wrote about here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/discovering-what-your-emot…/

Your emotional body may be engaging in an ongoing purging out process with what has been previously suppressed and put in shadow coming UP and out now to be felt. The collective shadow is being illuminated and seen by many more souls….and the inner shadow too. The 3D self may be grasping at anything it can to numb this purging process and you may find yourself engaging in ‘lower frequency’ activities that feel comforting for the moment. Urges to eat ‘comfort foods’ can accompany this too and in some cases you’ll want to follow these urges and other times to feel what emotional need is ‘underneath’ the craving.

There seem to be energetic shifts connected to the eclipse energies too, with the continual sense growing in me of activation of our personal sacred geometric gridlines, 5D violentprint chakral grid. This makes ‘energy work’ a much more fluid experience, more multidimensional and not so rigidly connected to the old systems of chakra healing, such as reiki and others. They have been and are effective at activation of the 4D self’s awareness of the chakras and their soul’s essence AS energy. To remain ‘parked’ in the reiki system, however, is to remain in a limiting comfort zone…rather than to see that our energy bodies are actually infinite, fluid, and complex. I don’t feel ‘answers’ around this, just a door opening of exploration into these new grounds that I am excited as an energy healer of many years to continue going through with those souls engaged in the SoulFullHeart process.

The eclipse energies activated Unity consciousness too, in a big way, as the event itself brought together so many in witness of it. Ongoing unity consciousness remembrance and activation/integration of our Metasoul/other lifetime aspects continues with stronger urges toward soul family connection and resonance. Relationships based on 3D frequencies of separation, lack, comfort are continuing to be strained, with some just running out of ground in sudden ways. The social body (as we could call it) is being activated to discover the ‘me within the we’, to go through a letting go phase of the old identity hookups, a lone wolf phase, and to move eventually into healthy We-ness of New Earth commUNITY. Sacred union codes continue to be supplied to water the heart, soul, and body ache for counterpart soul mateship, whose ultimate purpose of coming together is to serve LOVE.

ALL of our bodies are being infused with our highest timeline realities. It’s like our dreams have been switched on yet are feeling ever more REAL. Our visions are becoming clearer. Our journeys and the choice points along the way toward those visions becoming illuminated. Our worthiness to receive and BE these visions being watered with self love and love with the Divine. As we come into Divine alignment INside, so does our outside reality reflect this more and more as the Infinite Love that we ARE continues to find its ultimate highest expression in our lives.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc. 

 

Message From The Stars: Tuning Into Your Inner Symphony

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Something on the horizon? Eclipse energies are in full force and this latest crop circle has a LOT going on! We are being asked to tune in to our heart minds and galactic consciousness and feel the messaging of the codes that are wanting to be downloaded. Yet these codes have a ton of energy attached to them which can create a bit of turbulence in our unhealed emotional bodies. I feel I have been moving through my own personal eclipse of the heart and soul to heal the blocks to letting in these high frequency energies that are another expression of love.

Our emotional bodies do create blocks that do eclipse the fullness of our soulfullhearted essence. It does so as a message back to YOU the conscious sacred human, that there is something to be felt. The light language in this picture is like the emotive language of our parts and metasoul aspsects. What is it they are trying to offer us, like the beings who created this are? I can choose to take this in in multiple layers that really open up a whole landscape of information and possibility.

I can feel my emotional body speaking to me along with my spiritual and galactic body. It is my, your, and our Higher Self that is messaging to us. If we tune our consciousness into those, a beautifully choreographed storyline emerges. However you are currently experiencing these energies, there is something that is being communicated to you. In SoulFullHeart we separate these energies out into different subpersonal and subspiritual tones, like the layered frequencies of of chord, one string at a time. When it is off tune, then you feel the dis-chord. The dis-ease. When you focus on each string within the chord, you can tune that one into alignment of your most authentic being. As each one tunes and integrates, the hum of your unique music is felt throughout the cosmic heart.

Maybe that is the message I am getting in the moment. It looks like a guitar! Hmmmm…intereting. It is also speaker. Amplifying the resonance or dissonance. The universe is calling for our resounding hearts to be strummed. This is a time to take stock of where you are in your current inner state and consider what aligns or doesn’t align with your authentic tune. It is not an overnight transformation. It is a process and anything less is railroading over something else to get to a finish line. SoulFullHeart offers that conscious tuning that brings all aspects of you into the orchestral pit. You are a symphony of High means and purpose! Unearthing and remembering that is what we came here to do, and not just alone. We are meant to do this together. It is in our DNA and part of our galactic heritage. I am here to continue that journey and serve it at the same time.

I am personally feeling to respond to serious inquiry about this community and way of life called SoulFullHeart. It is an invitation and an offer of something extraordinary in my personal, and very biased opinion. I am okay with that. I wouldn’t be a leader if I didn’t have that passion about it. I have always appreciated all the wonderful comments of resonance and gratitude. They fill my heart. Now is the time for something more in me that wants to be outed. The vision of the passion work that I am a part of and the desire to serve and be in community. That is my heart song being strummed into the galaxy. Let it resound where it is meant to with open heart and arms.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Passion, Power and Purpose: Gifts From Pandora’s Box

Published on by Raianna Shai3 Comments

by Raianna Shai

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Passion.

Floods through me like a river rushing to feel the freedom of an ocean. Carries me through highs and lows, through desire and anger, through love and loss. Fills the untouched and dusty attics of my emotional ceiling. Transforms blank walls into colourful reflections of my soul. Holds my deepest wants and needs with intention and clarity. Gives me the fuel I need to fly.

Power.

Energizes a deluge of self love. Lays down the shield and raises the heart. Turns on the light to reveal the shadows. Lights up from the inside out. Radiates from body to heart to soul to others. Supports the lover to love, the teacher to teach and the leader to lead. Provides the strength to let go of that which no longer serves. Becomes the wind beneath my wings.

Purpose.

Wakes me up in the morning in realness and truth. Wraps up gifts until they’re ready to be opened. Spreads love like a wildfire sparked by truth. Waits to be noticed, watered, and cared for. Remains rooted in the ground, waiting to bloom anew. Supports the human experience. Gives reasons and answers to questions of doubt. Holds me up when I start to fall.   

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These are the three “P’s” that I’ve been working to unlock. My darkest shadow aspect has been revealed to me as my soul guardian, Pandora. And with her box she keeps my deepest pain, my most intense desires, and my greatest gifts. Up until now, opening that box would mean chaos, horror, loss, and ultimately hell. But with love and growing trust, she’s gained faith in my ability to handle these soul pieces more and more. I’ve felt the fear of dying, the unpredictability of passion, the potential tumultuousness of truth, the strength of power and the nourishment of purpose. I have refused to transcend my fear, but instead to feel its depths and my need for it in the 3D world I chose to inhabit for so long.

I have felt these effects already transmuting into love in its place, giving way to passion, power and purpose. I lived so long in neutrality, acquiescence, and invisibility that was gifted to me by Pandora and my parts in order to avoid the pain that feeling my fear inevitably leads to. Feeling this as a gift has not only fast tracked this process, but it has also nourished the self love inside of me. Of course I want to love every aspect of myself, even those in shadow, because if I can’t do that, how can I truly love others?

My desire for purpose has never felt quite so strong. I feel how even before this process I had a huge desire to heal anyone I could. To give them whatever they needed to feel better or to hopefully feel their pain. After starting this process I tried to give “advice” as best I could but without their desire to go as deeply in as I knew it could go, I struggled to say what they wanted to hear. I took on these energies without feeling myself and had no more room for my own growth. So I stayed stuck in a cycle of needing to be needed. Working with Pandora renewed my sense of excitement in something that helps me grow in order to use my overflowing love to help others in an ever deepening way. I’m so grateful for all that she’s done for me these past 22 years, but we both feel fed up and ready to grow up. Ready to dive into the depths of my soul and catapult into an endless sky of that love that we are.

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You Are Being Lifted UP Out Of Inner Violent Frequencies Inside And With Others

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By Jelelle Awen

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“You are being lifted,” the familiar, wise voice inside said to me. This familiar voice could belong to any number of guides/Metasoul aspects that have been revealing themselves over the last years. It is becoming more of a conglomerate these days…less definable as a specific energy and more like a council or alliance or ‘board’ made up of frequencies of my Metasoul expressions that have come forward to support and help me during this intense transition time from 3D to NEW Earth.

 
“You are being lifted.” I heard this when I was woken up in the middle of the night by my beloved mate Raphael Awen suddenly gasping out loud and sitting upright in bed. He fell back down immediately and went back to sleep. I knew intuitively that he wasn’t fully conscious, yet in that ‘in between’ place of floating and drifting consciousness where the astral self likes to travel and much downloading is going on.
 
I was awake, lying in bed, then, feeling how something had activated for Raphael that was strong enough to jolt him out of deeper slumber and almost awake. We are deeply connected to each other, especially lately as more of our old timeline experience and past relationship moved out during the recent Lion’s Gate opening…….more of the old flushing out and we are inhabiting more of our NEW together as co-leaders and counter part sacred union mates. I didn’t feel a need to wake him up to digest as I felt trust that we already were connected in the higher realms where verbal communication isn’t really necessary.
 
Being lifted. Yes, that seems like a good way to describe what is happening to ALL of us on some level with these continual influxes and waves of HIGH frequency love light. We are experiencing all these life altering cosmic and celestial ‘events’ that are providing concentrated doses of the sensational stuff of which our sacred humanity is seeding and birthing from. How much we can consciously let in these love manifestation energies depends on what we signed up for here as souls; what our 3D conditioning has been and how deep our wounding goes and how deeply we have healed it; what our Metasoul is experiencing and what karmic patterns it is moving through for the collective.
 
“I want you to remember this,” said the voice again, which felt like Archangel Metatron, as he is the angelic aspect that is most invested in soul scribing communication and bridging to the ascension process. Plus, he can also be quite bossy….in a good way. “Lifting is important to communicate. It helps for more surrender, more trust, and less fear as this lifting process continues on.”
 
Fear can live in our bones, in our emotional bodies, in our DNA, in parts of us connected to our emotional bodies, in our Metasoul. And it comes out in ALL kinds of ways and expressions. It brings our frequencies lower. Parts of us shiver and quiver with it, sinking to a place where things seem untrustworthy, hurtful and harmful, non-vulnerable, dark and shadowy. We are ancient with it, beyond time ingrained and trained. We are gestating embryos in our mother’s womb swimming in fear fluids. The 3D matrix has been built and run on fear fuel, fed and maintained by violence – both within and outward – the lowest vibrational frequency of fear. Violence has become entertainment, so many souls on an IV drip of violence coming in, numbing them or eliciting outrage at the INjustice, which is just more violence in a shifted form.
 
Lifting UP beyond violence begins from withIN. It starts with becoming aware of the battles within, the harm done from one part of you to another, one punisher/critical energy beating up until shame floods your BEing with the suffering patterns and loops this creates. Loving the Inner Punisher energy and learning WHY it is like this….you weep, then, at how this punishing-shame frequency is just learned and necessary and NOT really who you ARE. You feel how it has served to make you small, to help you fit in, to keep you ‘capped’ and plugged in to 3D life. You are ready to be lifted out of it to transmute the punishment to discernment and intuition WITH love. To heal the shame into innocence again.
 
As this inner violence heals, you can come, more and more, from non-violent frequencies in response to others. You become less tolerant to violence in any form…..even sensitive to the subtle frequencies found in comparison, contention, judgement. You lift UP, then, as you stop eating, watching, BEing violence and become MORE love. You shift your focus from violence outside of you and discover, find, and feel where it lives inside. I am surprised where this message went today, yet, this is a repeating point that I’ve felt many times inside myself and in session space with others too.
 
BEcoming a beacon of peace is the openness to feel the violence, the battles, the clashes inside. Trusting that the lifting UP from the Divine will come in the process of this as more space clears in your emotional body to make room for your higher heart, Christ Consciousness heart….made of Infinite Kindness, Infinite Peace, and no fear.
 
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Raphael and I will be offering lifting UP energies related to sacred union within and with a mate during a group call this Sunday, August 27th at 11:11amPST, for which we’d love for you to join us: facebook.com/events/254241058395276
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being Re-Membered To The All You Already Are

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you desire in this dimension you already have on another dimension.

Any longing or ache or desire that lives in you aches because it is a remembrance in some way, shape or form of the essence of your being.

If you are journeying through poverty or lack and you are willing to feel your desire for nicer things, what you are actually feeling is your connection to the essence of all there is that you actually are.

If you are longing for a heart and soul mate, and the inhabitation of your sacred sensuality and sexuality, it is because you are wanting on a deeper soul level to experience fully what you already are. Sex is simply and so unsimply the edge of deep reverence.

You were only willing to take this epic journey into this land of comparative difference and contrast to this essence that you are because you were assured and felt this essence that you are could never be lost from your possession. You possess it now and you always have. Feel this present possession inside of your being.

But wait, where’s the gain possibility in that you ask…if I didn’t give up anything, didn’t invest anything into the equation? If I already have it all, to what purpose is the human experience?

The human experience is the land of seemingly not having it all.

What you gave up and had to give up, as the price of admission was the conscious knowledge of what you were and are, in order to reawaken to this essence. You see, you always were this essence, and even as this essence, you were not actually awakened to it. You just were it, but without reverence for it, and without experience of it. You couldn’t get outside of it to see it or feel it or value it.

So you agreed to enter a contractual binding agreement that made perfect sense that you would forget in order to be re-membered to and with what you actually are. You are like an adult that agreed to a de-maturation process. You surrendered to early onset alzheimers dis-ease as a portal into an awakening that you never had. You agreed to re-enter the birth canal and womb in reverse direction in order to be born again into a much deeper dimension of that all that you never actually lost, but also never actually experienced yet. You agreed as the god you are to take on human flesh.

You ‘had’ this essence, you still ‘are’ this essence, but you just now for the first time are awakening to this essence. You entered the time zone to have a timeless experience, where the magic of your being could play out in front of you to be seen and felt, into a very real story, and a very true story.

Can you see and feel in all of this that the only attainment here is a reverence awakening to what already is and NOT the material attainment of any thing, be it a spiritual thing, an emotional thing, or a thing of physical matter. The ‘matter’ of it is already manifested material that exists now. The only thing wanting to yet be attained or enlightened or awakened to is the reverence for what already is!

What is materializing now is not the material itself, but the actual awe and reverence that undergirds and creates all matter. It is in being the observer and in being the observed that life is profoundly changed, where we are reparented into a new reality.

So get out your curiosity….get out your sacred QUESTions….get out your hunger for the more that you are. Give yourself the gift of your sacred desires.

You came here to experience every ounce of what is already under your feet.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We’re ( Jelelle, Kalayna, Gabriel, Raianna, Angela, Toni Woods) getting on the phone for some deep reverence this coming weekend again with another of our group calls if you’re ready to take a step closer to our energy, which is actually the energy of your own higher self calling you out to play. It’s a great place to meet and feel together. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276

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