SoulFullHeart Museletter: March 5, 2022

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During such times as these, when division and separation seem to be intensifying, it’s so refreshing to be with soul family as you all dig deeply inward and also celebrate simply BEING together. This is what we recently experienced during a two-day group circle here in Portugal and Jelelle Awen shares more about that in our featured writing this week.

Jelelle’s writing is not only a digestion of her experience in co-leading this group with Raphael. It’s also an invitation for you to feel into your own resonance with us and see if it may fit for you to come a little closer through 1:1 sessions, joining our online Portal, and perhaps someday joining us in person to become a part of these groups as well!

This week we also have a couple of brand new videos from Raphael Awen, where he shares his unique heart and soul digestions of different topics such as the separation wound which we all know so well on different levels of our being.

There are several new writings and audio blogs this week, sharing some bits and pieces of our personal processes and how they connect to the current waves moving through the collective, as well as some potent transmissions from the Divine and the Magdalenes.

You can find our current Museletter here: https://mailchi.mp/592ad7be0a92/soulfullheart-museletter-digestions-of-our-two-day-group-circle-goodness

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Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

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By Raianna Shai

This part of my “love story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Seeking To Understand Rather Than To Fight

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By Jelelle Awen

“When you seek to fight that which you don’t understand or fear inside yourself and with others, it will come back again with each new form worse. If you seek instead to compassionately understand, you can mutually discover your truer purpose of serving love,” Yeshua and the Magdalenes

This message came through two years ago, when I was just initially exploring my Christ/Magdalene lineage. In their lifetime, the Magdalenes could have felt highly persecuted, heavy with revenge and hatred in their hearts towards those that harmed them, especially with the crucifixion of Yeshua and murder of others. Yet, repeatedly and ongoingly, they (including Yeshua in light body form) held forgiveness in their hearts and saw every ‘player’ serving a part in the Divine unfolding to seed Ascension consciousness.

They sought to understand rather than judge. They felt ALL were serving love in the form chosen by them and the Divine. This allowed them to forgive eventually and even appreciate those who served the necessary and difficult darker roles.

I feel the truth and invitation in each word….both inside and out. Becoming a love ambassador to ANY and ALL energies within us, helping create a bridge to invite those aspects in shadow (often stuck in shame and blame cycles) plus karmic loops, this IS the embodiment of Christ consciousness within us. This is how the true Divine loves us and how we can receive that love.

These words feel even more true now with our ongoing experience of the Matrix narrative taking us into increasingly polarized places.

We can become more divisive, taking sides, resisting and judging both inside of us and outside of us. Or, we can seek to compassionately understand ALL through the Divine’s heart. Inner peace is experienced from this state.

Outer peace is seeded from it too. ❤️🌹

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is a teaching and a guided meditation video from our Deepen 2022 series with Raphael and I to move from the warrior to the 5D love ambassador:

Soulfullheart.org/sessions

Living Between The Time And No-time Dimensions

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By  Raphael Awen

I live in a village where church bells chime on the hour, every hour, reminding us of the dimension of time.

In time, there are many urgencies of what should and shouldn’t be. What would our lives be if it wasn’t for such urgencies? How could we maintain a sense of what life is and who we are without such parameters?

Outside of time, there are no urgencies, for all is both waiting to happen and has already happened. Both are equally true outside of time where all potentialities and outcomes equally exist.

If that’s true, and if it’s also true that you and I span the time and the no-time dimensions in the larger sense of who and what we are, then that opens up a whole other way of seeing and feeling our lives than we normally do in the more familiar time dimension.

Maybe the point of the things I want to do today in the time dimension, as well as the pretzel of sorting out what best deserves my time, and then sorting the next pretzel of finding the time and energy for such worthy doings; maybe all of that wants to be informed by the no-time dimension where it’s already all done, where doing doesn’t happen.

What we’d be left with would I imagine be something resembling play, like kids building forts with tea sets inside. It wouldn’t be a ‘real’ grown up house and a real grown up tea time, but as I recall, I never quite found something in all my adult years as simply fun and engaging as true play to the tune of what I did in childhood.

Maybe your and my inner child hasn’t actually become adapted to all these hourly reminders all around everywhere, the ones on our wrists, and the devices in our hands, keeping us here in the not so fun territory, in a world that feels overdosed on real.

Maybe it’s our inner children that hold the portal back to our essence and are inviting us into what they actually never lost, thank God, but only forgot, in our rush to grow up.

I recall the hour spent in church strangely as the most imprisoned and boring hour growing up, where time surely could not move any slower, like we needed to suffer in the time dimension, like we needed to shed a whole essence of our being and conform to something we were not.

Maybe we did need that. Maybe the church, like all of our institutions are still reminding us of how boring time is, when play is lost, how boredom is like a drill that bores vacuums in our lives that create space for new things to come in, which things are aching something out in us like a kid attempting to to sit still in church, an ache that precedes new creation.

How did we expect to find what we want if we didn’t encounter what we don’t want? Both are equally sacred and both took a lot of courage to choose. You are this courageous, for you chose to be here in both, both the longing and the realization of remembering and expanding on the divinity that you are, even through the comparison of discovering what it isn’t.

You and I are so surrounded by so much divinity on all sides that the things that don’t feel or look very divine are just dimmer switches and moderators allowing for the stuff we are learning and unlearning. This is all happening in the gap that is created in our perception between what is seen as divine and what isn’t.

I’m going to see if I can breathe in a whole big breath of no-time love from the no-time dimension side of my being in order to be with the time pretzels I feel around me in the time dimension, let the two of them get to know each other more.

Maybe as you and I figure this out, we solve this conundrum and deposit the answer/download somewhere in the no-time databank where it’s actually already solved somehow.

And here is where not only you and I get to be part of the deposit and the withdrawal from the time side of our experience, but so does everyone else get to be part of it. There is only one of us after all for whom all of this is and is being sorted out for.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The Fogginess & Unknown Of Now

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by Kasha Rokshana

We’ve had many beautiful, sunny, warm, and clear days here in Portugal all winter long. We’ve not been experiencing the amount of rain that the land needs, though. I’ve felt quite nourished by the sun codes but also the relief of the rain codes that offer much permission to stay indoors, warm and cozy, while the storm moves through and the thirsty land starts getting its fill.

The fog here, though, is like nothing else I’ve ever experienced. In this land that feels so Divinely maternal, so motherly, and so Magdalene too, I feel embraced by the fog even though it makes it impossible to see very far ahead. The mystical quality speaks to my Mystic within and feels familiar.

This fog this morning represents so much to me at this time… what is still working towards clearing on a physical level as I continue to heal from a UTI which has been helping me clear old energies, especially in relationship to the masculine through my yoni, but also in relationship to service on this planet at this time. I also feel the fog of not being sure what’s next on this planet or how to serve into the deafening lies, the beckoning out of anger, the sadness of people whose lives are not being considered or cared for. This isn’t only about the current war but also about the ongoing battle ground of the Matrix push and pull on the consciousness of so many still freeing themselves, one choice at a time, that has been intensifying over the last few years especially.

We are shrouded in a dense fog as we move past what hasn’t been true and start to let in what is. It’s like moving through molasses at times as we feel all the stages of grief which come with every deep awakening, and reunite with the Divine as our parts, Metasoul aspects/soul themes, Gatekeepers, etc all begin to feel more ready for that experience.

We don’t have concrete answers but we do have the invitation to continue trusting the Divine and looking inward too. We are invited to become love from the inside out, which doesn’t often result in a fireworks show of love and virtue-signaling. This process is often messy, foggy, painful, but hopeful, and above all, it’s very humble.

I’ve had rounds of anger and sadness both stirred in my heart recently. I’m feeling my inner process and the process of the planet and human collective I’m a part of yet also individualized from. The anger in my soul needs to vent at times and then the sadness comes up too. To me, there’s no hiding behind a veil of pretending that events in the world aren’t real while so many are being impacted. Yet there’s also no hiding behind conclusions made by those who choose to only see and experience one possible reason for things. I feel a nuanced sense about what’s really going on and surrender to the unknown more and more.

And then, I feel so humbled by that and somehow so held too, as I surrender my understandable feelings and invite in my own deep Divine connection to help me hold space for the movements.

The fog is clearing already here now. Maybe that’s another sign of the clearing to come. Not knowing or understanding the way forward or how and when it moves is as sacred as working hard to know or understand as much as we can. Parts of us can truly struggle with letting go of knowing and simply being in the NOW. They can feel restless while sitting in the mess as long as necessary until more understanding comes and the way forward becomes clearer. But the mess and fog is as necessary as the experience of clarity and opening of the hardened, sad, confused heart.

Much love to you and any parts/soul aspects of you that may be struggling while they experience this fog in their own sacred ways.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Sacred Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Founder/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with Kasha for women or Jelelle for women over 35 and with Raphael or Gabriel for men/women, free 45min intro calls with Kasha or Gabriel, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Reflecting On My Past Decade With SoulFullHeart

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by Kasha Rokshana

Now that I can actually say it’s been 10 years since my deeper healing, awakening, and remembering journey truly began in this lifetime, I’m realizing how little time 10 years actually is. It’s been a very FULL decade though with a lot that I’ve moved through and arisen into, with many waves of deep diving within. It’s been a real and humbling art form to then let the love cultivated flow outwardly to others in intimate relationship, service, and seed-planting.

The pictures of who I thought I would be have dissolved and transformed into something different, with the same essence at heart. These pictures began when my first awakening experiences happened around 20 years ago. Before my SoulFullHeart journey began, parts of me held onto a dream of becoming a well-known actress/performer while also holding space for others and hopefully making bank while doing so.

The ‘sage on a stage’ dream was quickly humbled by the recognition of how much the ‘work’ that I needed to do wasn’t on development and maintenance of a self-image that I could commoditize, or on quick fixes that promised I would overcome all of my doubts and fears with only some effort. Instead, it turned out that the work was inward. VERY inward. So inward in fact, that for a few phases I had to let go of everything that once was a sacred dream in order to let in what the real dream was… a dream of becoming a love so deep and vast and connected to the Divine, that no one and nothing on the outside could touch or taint it, even if this didn’t turn out to make me/parts of me look or seem like the well-known ‘teachers’ of our time, didn’t draw thousands of social media followers or fans, and also didn’t draw a six-figure income.

I also came to realize that even though parts of me could be quite social at times, I was actually more naturally inward and introverted. How many layers I would have had to put on to become what I originally thought I wanted to be! If it was all about love anyways and feeling on some level that I had to ‘earn’ love, then I would have become quite burned out… and I think this is what happens to many souls and the parts that had to form in order to conform to these outward-based needs and this picture of success.

In these last ten years, I’ve learned what service and empathy really mean and where they really seems to come from as both an inherent gift that lies in your heart from birth that’s meant to be shared, but also something that needs to be watered, developed, and made safe to come out. I also learned that being empathic AND compassionate is an art form in and of itself and a humbling one at that…

I’ve learned that what I thought “Sacred Union” was was really only a small picture of what it actually is… and what it actually is needs to be discovered so personally, starting from deep within you between parts of you and in your soul journey too, not simply with another on the outside. It’s taken me so much longer than parts of me thought it would to truly be ready for it and for the growth, mirrors, and depth of love it offers.

I am learning so much more, every day, about Divine feminine embodiment and what it means to be me as an energy expression of Divine Mother and a Divine Daughter. I am continually humbled by what this journey asks of me, the seeds it plants and waters in my heart, and by just how much I love the Divine in my soul… a love that more and more needs less and less from others in a certain way, though some needs remain that are fulfilled by my beloved soul family in the flesh and in the formless. It’s actually been the depth of intimacy I’ve experienced within this community that has done the most to inspire and support my inner shifts, and it’s the openings within me toward the Divine that has also inspired me so deeply and always keeps me going even through the toughest challenges.

These last ten years have been so deeply healing, even when I had to leave the SoulFullHeart room (in one sense of it) and let life be my facilitator/space holder during different phases, or when I had to leave the room of my Sacred Union relationship with Gabriel. I feel grateful for every up and down, every wobble, every triumph.

It was in every doubt and question about myself and my path, especially maybe in those times when I wasn’t been directly supported by the community and had to be ‘on my own’ for a while, that I could quite deeply recognize who I had been and the soul themes I had been working. It was during the times of ‘going without’ that I truly found how to go within, apply what I had learned, and re-enter the SoulFullHeart and Sacred Union rooms as a truly changed woman.

Truthfully, I probably spent 1-2 years out of this last decade processing on the ‘outside’ of this community, my beloved romance, and sessions. And though heartbreaking, it really did break me open.

I feel I’m digesting all of this as a way to let it in, but also to extend the invitation to your own sovereign soul, to feel into if this journey may also be for you. If you’re curious, Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls where we can feel this with you with lots of honesty: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Thank you for taking in this piece of my journey and feeling whatever resonance is real for you too!

Love,
Kasha

P.S… here’s the first article I ever wrote for the SoulFullHeart Blog, called “Heart-To-Heart Knowing”, signed off on by a now precious part of me named “Katie”: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2012/09/19/heart-to-heart-knowing/

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Powerful 22:02:2022 Portal!

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By Jelelle Awen

A powerful day today 22:02:2022 (if the day of the month comes first)…a palindrome (same backwards as forwards) and an ambigram (reads the same upside down as well) AND it is TUESday as well. ALL of these ‘2’s provide a potent activation of union codes from within, with others, with your soul aspects/Metasoul, collectively, and with the Divine.

In meditation today, I went into the multiples 2s portal and my Inner Earth Lemurian Guide/Aspect Ruma came forward to connect with me. She met me in etheric space at Fraga Da Pena, the heavenly natural gorge with waterfalls near us that I shared about a few days ago. I felt this place as a portal between our surface world and Inner Earth Lemuria.

They are many such portals on the surface to Inner Earth, usually near or on Mountain ranges such as ones here in Central Portugal where several ranges converge, Mount Shasta, the Rocky Mountains, Mount Bacharach in France, Andes mountains, the Himalayas and many others. There are usually Inner Earth cities within these mountains with much galactic activity coming and going from the peaks and summits of them.

We mostly engage with these portals during meditation, through etheric and astral visits, although sometimes in the physical body as well. I felt the invitation from Ruma to open up the portal to Inner Earth Lemurian today for those drawn to go there to feel the possibilities they hold for us to some day experience Lemuria again on the surface. The Inner Earth Lemurians who went into

‘hiding’ during the fall of Lemuria can return to the surface when the frequency of humanity is high enough to support their 5D consciousness.

Ruma’s message today was one of opportunity to heal the separation consciousness within us as we connect to the places/parts/aspects that feel and experience it in often deeply profound ways that can lead to ongoing suffering and pain. Being in the Matrix reality since the Fall has amplified the emotional trauma from fragmenting out of the Divine, out of our Soul Family Monad, out of our pairbond/twin flame, out of our Metasoul, and even within us as parts of us form to reflect this fragmentation. All this fragmentation has been a necessary aspect of Divine Play and experiment, yet has left undigested wounding in our emotional and soul fields.

All these 2 codes feel like an invitation into wholeness again, into unity, into completion and to remember what it FEELS like to be in these Unity Consciousness states. Being willing to FEEL the separation is what allows it to heal, being a bridge to the parts/aspect that feels separate over and over again as needed. until they no longer do.

Raphael and I shared much more about this in our recent group call and a meditation to connect with Union consciousness, your bridging self (what we call your Divine Self) and with your separated self. We created a bridge to allow space for this energies to connect with each other. You can purchase the recording via offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

I also highly recommend any video that draws you today from our recent 31 day Deepen guided meditation series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

This TWO day invites us to bring whatever energies are feeling separate (and the tension and fear that creates) INTO Union again. Perhaps your Inner Earth Lemurian is waiting to connect with you to assist in that movement from within you!

Happy TWOsday!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This photo was taken yesterday while we were exploring the nearby town of Coja, near an ‘idyllic’ feeling creek and park. It’s amazing what Gaia and the sun can transmit to us when we are open to receive!

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Energy Update: 2/20 to 2/22 Offering Unification, Union & Feminine Codes

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By Jelelle Awen

The energies this month have been INtense! They have been Inviting us into deeper inner spaces of our heart and soul for quantum healing at levels not possible before while still remaining connected to the body. All this “2” energy of unification, union, feminine frequencies and the portal of 2/20 to 2/22 feels especially powerful and important for this inner healing and transmutation.

You may be experiencing some body detox symptoms as these sacred feminine frequencies flush out whatever is needed, especially in the yoni and womb spaces for women. Period cycles can be heightened, yoni irritation/UTI like symptoms coming in and clearing as the feminine power centers are cleared and reclaimed. Men may experience these energies in their hara with digestive issues and not being able to eat what you usually can.

I SO needed some Divine Mother/Gaia codes as I’ve been in an intense ongoing karmic process with my medicine woman Metasoul aspect Ingrit from a middle ages timeline. She was both ostracized and ‘needed’ by the townspeople and eventually betrayed by them as well. These kind of persecution wounds are coming up now too for healing as the feminine empowerment activations occur.

We are blessed to live in a beautiful natural area in Central, Portugal surrounded by mountain ranges and rivers. Raphael and I went to a truly magical place today Fraga da Pena about 25 minutes drive from where we live…..a small gorge carved into one of the mountainsides here with beautiful, pristine waters flowing through it creating many natural waterfalls.

Waterfalls are always magical as the force of the water reminds us of the power within us that can also be given up to and surrendered to the Divine. These pictures capture the truly amazing light codes coming off these waters filtering through sunlight. These waters are full of quartz crystal rocks…very common here and why we spent three months camping right next to a river here last summer. I haven’t seen codes like these before in photos and the video in nature and it shows the high frequencies that are available to us in these magical places.

The energies were Pixie/Devic, Lemurian, Galactic/Arcturian…a heady mix of very ancient and cutting edge. Enjoy the transmission from them!

Oh, and you are invited to join Raphael and I today for our monthly group call transmission at 5:00pm GMT, exploring the separate wound and bridging to Unity codes from within…you can join us live and receive the recording! More info at soulfullheart.org to offer a donation of any amount to attend at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Feb 18, 2022

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The waves of humanity’s death and rebirth process continue to ripple through, sometimes leading us to openings and at other times into even more intensity. Without question, there’s much to digest nearly every day at this time, as shadows reveal themselves globally and personally.

This week we have a featured piece by Gabriel Amara, where he illuminates the context of what’s rumbling through humanity at this time and what the shake-ups are offering us as choice points and portals to enter for deep healing and reconciliation, especially within each of us.

This coming Sunday, February 20th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-leading a group meditation call based on healing the separation wound and everything that process entails. For each of us, this healing process is ongoing and worth every single layer we feel inside with parts of us/Metasoul aspects and the Divine, and experience on the outside with beloveds. You can find more info on this upcoming, by-donation call here: soulfullheart.org/events

There are several new writings and audio blogs this week, outlining and digesting current energy waves moving through and the processes they invite us into, as well as digestions of the separation wound and what it means to embrace it and begin to move through it.

You can find our current Museletter here: https://mailchi.mp/d97e01571852/soulfullheart-museletter-the-adams-eves-of-new-earth

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”. 

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

The Sacred, Ever-Unfolding Process Of Healing The Separation Wound

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by Kasha Rokshana

If you’ve been in or around a ‘spiritual circle’ or offering of any kind for a while, you’ve probably heard about how ‘separation is an illusion’ quite often, yet perhaps it hasn’t really felt relevant or comforting to parts of you to hear that… and, you may have also felt a subtle (or not so subtle) rumble in your belly in response, a sense of being ‘wrong’ for buying into the ‘illusion’ or somehow not quite getting how separation isn’t real.

Separation IS an illusion, yet for parts of us, it isn’t… and for certain soul aspects of ours in other lifetimes, it also isn’t. There’s the theory that separation isn’t real, but sometimes it FEELS like the realest thing there is, especially with how much MORE separation in the physical is happening now between yourself and others. The Great Awakening has a cost to it and that cost is that you may start to feel closer to the Divine again, yet your relationships are crumbling along with your job prospects, your means of ‘making ends meet’, and perhaps even your whole way of seeing and experiencing life in your home country.

In some ways, with human division ripening and dissonance sometimes feeling much more real than any possible resonance with one another, how could separation NOT feel like the realest thing there is?

In my own experience of healing the separation wound to the depth I have already (with more layers to go, of course), I feel like the greatest reason for any part/soul aspect to feel ‘separate’ from the Divine, always comes down to the deepest feelings of unworthiness… of having been ‘cast out’ of the Divine Garden, of having been pressed back into the density of a human body (again), of not experiencing ‘love’ in the same way our souls know we so easily CAN when in our soul’s home dimension.

To make up for this unworthiness, parts of us reach for anything that can bring them back into the arms of the love they feel they’re missing, even at the detriment of the physical body or the numbing/transcendence of the deeply feeling human heart. There’s a throbbing ache inside the gap between the consciousness you have, the lacklustre relationships you’ve said ‘yes’ to, and perhaps even the spiritual practices you continue to do even if they aren’t quite answering the pain.

I’ve experienced at times triumphant, celebratory (and often VERY tearful) waves of reunion with the Divine in different forms, faces, and energies… within meditation and in my inner world, yet also in intimate reunion experiences with soul family and Sacred Union in the physical that open the once bruised heart back up again. And still, even with all of this, there are moments, processes, deep-dive experiences within, where I find yet another layer of shame and pain that creates feelings of not always being Divine let alone always being WITH the Divine.

I feel the Divine offering that these states of feeling separate are not only understandable, but expected… so deep are the layers of separation that reciting affirmations may help parts of you, yet not quite do all of the ‘work’ for you. It’s the bittersweet remembering that inside of you is a well of complicated soul and this-life experiences to keep wading into and exploring which brings you much closer to the Divine than trying so hard to move into a reality where separation no longer feels real without even glancing at the map before you, let alone traversing the actual terrain of the process of reunion.

This coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will co-host a group meditation call on Zoom at 5pm GMT, focused on healing the separation wound. They have been such profound models for me personally of how to enter into this territory of feeling aspects of you like the Divine Orphan, for example, and letting in the gifts of experiencing even deeper reunion and oneness frequencies with the Divine and even other souls too. You can attend the call live and/or receive the recording by offering any donation that feels good to you. You can find more info on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Lots of love from my journey of reunion to yours,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.