The Sacred Sexuality Exploration Of Soul, Body, AND Heart

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by Kasha Rokshana

Sex has never been quite ‘simple’ for me as a highly creative soul with many Priestess/Oracle lifetimes, where sexuality was used in certain ways, often taking the ‘human woman’ out of the equation. I was a ‘late bloomer’ in this lifetime and that felt like a sacred self-protection provided by my Inner Protector and also my Gatekeeper, the aspect of my soul that guards/watches over the portals to other lifetimes alive in me, in order to keep me from gravitating towards to my sexuality’s power from too early of an age. I’m grateful to them for that, as then I didn’t need to walk out the trauma that many other courageous feminine souls have walked out.

A phase of promiscuity in my early twenties was enough to ‘run out’ something around physical body-based sexuality. It was a confusing time, where I was exploring spirituality and finding myself while also exploring my sexual expression. Parts of me ached to be seen and to feel beautiful, all the while I had other lifetimes bleeding through where sexuality was related to in a certain way, often as a portal for others to walk through to access the Divine Feminine. 

It got to a point where I was able to dissociate from my body during intercourse, even when I didn’t consciously mean to. I was detached from my sexuality/sensuality in this way, feeling almost afraid of the power in it, and becoming more and more dissatisfied in my experience of it as it expressed in this way without a bigger awareness of what was happening.

I’ve realized since then, that what I truly needed and what my woman’s heart truly wanted, I didn’t yet possess the maturity to ask for from myself and from others. What my parts/Priestess aspects truly wanted was love and beholding. They wanted to heal, not just be a ‘portal’ they knew so well how to become. This precious gift of offering healing to others needs and wants to be expressed in other ways other than physical sexuality. It now gets to express through my creativity, through my space-holding in sessions, through my ever-healing and opening heart that is but one expression of the Divine Mother in this world, and, in my collaborations and sexual explorations with my beloved.

I have experienced profound healing through sexuality with my beloved and also solo while I waited for him. I’ve now had experiences where in sexual expression of any kind, I can feel my heart open and even burst into tears as pain comes up to be held and felt. I’ve been blessed with a partnership in which we can BOTH do this and feel all that we need to feel, together and apart. I feel our deep healing love exploration together taking us to new heights and new relationships to our physical, emotional, and spiritual bodies as we go. 

Since coming back together, Aurius and I have let our sexual explorations take us wherever they need to… to the depth of some pain and to the height of feeling higher-dimensional soul aspects come through, bursting through with light language bellowing in moments and reminding us as well of ‘old-world’ rituals we are now transmuting together. 

It’s been an opportunity for heart and soul awakening on both sides. It’s been a journey for me personally to keep letting this all in with him and to feel how the Divine is forever in the mix with us… our sexuality becomes then a sacred exploration of our inner worlds and the sacred US-ness world we share in our coupleship. We’ve felt the tears in our US-ness from our separation phases and our souls’ separation from each other when we incarnated too. It’s been very emotional and it’s been very awe-inspiring and an overflow into service for both of us too. 

Amazing how when we wait for what’s right… and when we are willing to enter the vulnerability of our sexual expression, whether in literal sexuality or in creativity, alchemy, service, etc, we get to truly SEE and experience ourselves in a wholeness that connects so deeply to the Divine within and the Divine in others. It’s beautiful, worth every step and tear of the journey, and I LOVE where it takes me/us! ❤ 

Sunday’s group meditation call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will focus on Sacred Sexuality. It’s by donation to attend live and/or receive the recording. They’ll offer some teaching and a powerful guided meditation to connect you to your own sacred sexuality exploration, however that looks/feels/is unfolding for YOU right now. More info here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Photo is of Aurius and I visiting the Yoni Stone at Ebbor Gorge ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Moving From Practice To Embodiment Of Your Spirituality

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by Kasha Rokshana

“It’s time to move from practice to embodiment.” ~

I felt this multi-layered message come through yesterday, just before holding a session with a sweet soul who is definitely on a new leg of her journey with this very thing. I feel the truth of it still moving through me too and the different resistances that parts of us can have to truly embodying whatever our spiritual, healing, Ascension ‘practice’ is.

In this session, she and I felt together how there’s a new chapter opening up now for her, where it’s not so much about going in and seeking pain or even about waiting for a trigger to happen in order for an inner portal to open. Instead, it’s more about seeking the next initiations on a soul level, letting those bring up the grist that’s needed WHEN needed, but also choose to be with the celebration of what HAS moved and healed and what’s now emerging inside on the other side of that.

For her, what’s emerging is a new sense of her womanhood, seeded deeply in her cleaning-out and activating womb, integrating the work she’s been doing and everything she has felt with her parts and Metasoul aspects over the years, yet especially the last few months, of her process. It’s been an intense ride for her with much darkness to steep in at times, yet her innate soul and heart goodness and ongoing sessions have been her guiding light to this new place within.

This is what it means to move from practice to embodiment on a deeper level… when your practice, whatever it is, becomes less and less compartmentalized from the rest of your life. You start feeling the need to advocate and truth-tell from your burgeoning, heart-centered clarity, and you feel the rumbles of what you want to create and become in your life, even if/when there is a cost of some kind. Your passion ignites in ways that may surprise you.

Your emotional and spiritual maturity begins to catch up to and even surpass your physical age. Your King/Queen energy starts to feel more genuinely empowered and capable of moving into deep resonance within and in your life as a whole, with so much trust in and respect for who you’ve already healed to become. You can take grounded ‘risks’ then, socially, financially, etc, that feel less ‘scary’ and more doable, even in the potential for loss and needing to make some more challenging choices.

This invitation to embody your ‘practice’ is a constant one. It’s becoming required, actually, as we enter into higher states of consciousness and Divine Self embodiment. As we ascend, love blows out all compartments and floods them with love. We are flooded with as much love as we can physically and emotionally handle and it’s up to us how we embody that love and to claim the space we need with our parts in resistance to it as we do so.

And it can be surprising the edges that surface as this embodiment happens! Yet, it’s all sacred, even if there is loss and a need to be in a void space somehow in order to sort through it and find your way. Sobriety and realness are your companions on this journey and along with them, you’ll feel the love that’s always been there with you and within you, as you open up and keep healing…

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Are You Up For Some Sex Talk?

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By  Raphael Awen

Jelelle and I have our next group call coming up on Sunday the 14th entitled Sacred Sexuality, and I want to invite you.

Okay, that was a bit of a ploy. Pardon the grabby come on, but the purpose of this writing is to draw people who might be interested in the call, so I thought it best to be in full disclosure right from the get go.

Can I ask you, how has life been for you as a sexual being? How do you at present relate to your sexuality?

Whether your experiences have been deeply negative or out of this world positive, both are a lot to bear in this mystery of our sexuality.

That you and I came into this life with this awakening need and desire of sexuality along with its potential for both the deepest fulfillments and the deepest disappointments really points to the vulnerability of our souls choosing to be in human incarnation. 

For me, my teenage awakening into my sexuality was marked with fears and hiding that I effectively suppressed by taming it alongside a Christian dedication to God and Christian service. I embraced the no sex before marriage advice, partly out of my fear of my own sexuality and partly of wanting God’s blessing and sense of safety on something I felt to be so potentially unknown, destructive and harmful. I managed to enter my first marriage as a virgin and experienced a bandwidth of sexuality that felt right for where I was at and what I could handle. From a soul perspective, I can see where this muting of my sexuality was motivated from other timelines of sexual regrets and remorse. 

When I left Christianity, and that marriage of 23 years, I was surprised to find a very ripe and ready unexplored teenage sexual energy that was alive and well coming back into my life with me now in my mid 40’s. I knew I needed and wanted to explore and mature this sexual energy and life and the Divine opened out a couple of rich and rewarding relationships that surprised me by discovering whole new layers of the lover in me. 

This laid a whole new groundwork sexually and emotionally to be in relationship with Jelelle. I was given and continue to be given experiences that feel like such deep treasures and even trophies to me and parts of me. I’d like to support you to create your own heaven of sexuality. 

The journey of vulnerability, desire and beautiful experiences continued for me over the past 13 years together with Jelelle. Now, however, I especially feel another whole layer of sexual energy expanding out into an invitation into a much wider place that is beyond both the teenagers and the adult relationship with sexuality. 

I especially feel how the masculine’s relationship with adequacy and sexual prowess on one hand and then the strange behaviour of needing to get to orgasm, and to effectively close the sexual space are both energies that are rooted in our fears of our sexuality. We can shy away from our sexuality, or put it out there and bury it under a performance, but in both of these polarities we see and feel our uninitiated relationship with our own sexuality. 

I’m convinced now that I’m only scratching the surface of a much deeper terrain that wants to continue to reform and inform my life with this sexual energy in a way that relates to all areas of my life. Compartmentalized and contained sexuality is a safety measure that we maybe all needed while we did or do, but the invitation is for this sexual energy of mateship with all of life and love itself to overflow into this deep sexual union where there is no difference between the love of God, the love of other and the love of self. 

Every person you meet along with yourself was portaled into this world by sexual energy and they each contain vital sexual energy as a common denominator of aliveness, with shared fears, desires and for some of us trophy experiences – but all of it is wanting to take us yet much deeper into something so much more. Can I turn in my trophies and admit I want to keep going into more?

I’m horny for that more, more than just talk, but ongoing flow into the infinite more that we each are. I hope you are too. Any and all sexual traumas, desires, fears, yearnings, trophies, sorrows, are all a portal into this deep going on place in your soul’s journey this life. 

I hope you will consider joining us for the upcoming group call this Sunday at 5pm London time, that will be tailored to individuals and couples. We ask for a donation of any amount to join. Details below.  This call is also free to all members of our SoulFullHeart Portal private network which you can join for $14.99 USD per month, which also helps support our work.

Here is the link to the Facebook event if you’d like further info or to invite a friend: https://www.facebook.com/events/109338231107311

Here is the event on our website where you can reserve your spot by making a donation: https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You are Not Alone: Message From Your Soul & Star Family W/Jelelle Awen

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During the hardest hours,

The deepest densities,

The most difficult moments….

THIS is when we will MOST be there for you.

Awakening you to your bigness,

and your capacity for love.

Answering the doubting questions

from parts of you that have

such strong fear and resistance.

When you feel like you have failed,

made mistakes, allowed and even done harm,

cannot ever be forgiven…

we will remind you that

you are succeeding in your mission,

are learning valuable lessons,

AND are already forgiven.

During the hardest struggles,

the darkest nights,

the most painful moments,

we will help you remember that

you have so bravely chosen

to seed the light into

the deepest of shadow lifetime after lifetime.

When you feel most alone,

in the void of social space

between 3D and 5D,

losing relationships,

setting boundaries, bringing your truth…..

we are here to BE with you

and support you unconditionally.

Reach out to us as your soul family,

as your safe haven,

as your tribe

and we will respond immediately.

Return to us and

you will find home here

with us and with the Divine

Always….

We Love You,

Your Divine Soul & Star Family w/Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

Preface To ‘The Quest: A Men’s Healing And Ascension Journey’

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I started working on a book about the quest of the sacred masculine and its healing journey about this time last year when I was apart from my soul fam in SoulFullHeart. Of course, it couldn’t help itself from being anything less than what I had learned. It was a way for me to see myself, feel myself, and hopefully help other men in the process.

I have gone back to it recently and felt a pride in what I started and feel drawn and guided to continue on. I may share excerpts along the way as they highlight themselves. Today, I felt to share the Preface as it has relevance to our current collective situation and how are huMANity and masculinity relate to it. I look forward to where this journey takes me in my leadership and service of love to the men (and women!) it is meant to land in.

“IT IS CURRENTLY 2021 and I find myself, along with all of humanity, in a very tumultuous time in history. A global pandemic of fear, psychological and informational warfare, disclosure, and governmental authoritarianism is reigning supreme in our collective drama. Those that have been ‘elected’ or determined to be the leaders of the glorious mothership we call Earth/Gaia, are showing themselves to be ‘emperors with no clothes’.

I started to write this book about the awakening, sacred masculine right around the time the world went into a frenzy of lockdowns and an ever-mounting case load of information showing that we are being hooped and reigned in by a consciousness that is dystopian, dysfunctional, and dis-integrated. There are cries that the Old Guard of the Patriarchy be taken down and dis-membered (many times expressed literally!). There is the disclosure of the ‘Deep State’ as well as the hidden hand that is its ‘Luciferian’ influencer.

I put words in quotes not to dismiss them, but to highlight that these words are portals into something more contextual and less exact. This is not a book about evidence, data, or convincing this or that. It is about feeling within the current circumstance we find ourselves in as human beings, and more specifically as the masculine side of that equation (more on what I mean by that in the following Introduction.)

The male/wounded masculine dominance of the past few thousand years is being brought to trial and exposure by the collective arising feminine as well as the awakening, healing masculine. This is not an anti-man exploration. My journey has been to find the roots of our collective wounding through my own personal healing and introspection/integration process. In my heart it is very PRO-masculine, the healed transmutation of what has not been working and the honoring and cultivation of what has.

As men on a quest for our authentic expression and embodiment in this drama, we are being called to initiate ourselves into something new that brings us face-to-face with the Shadow that is appearing right in front of our very eyes these days. We are being invited to seek our calling and purpose in this death and rebirth process known as ‘Ascension’.

We all have a huge part to play in the years to come. Yet to recreate and rebuild I feel we need to do that from a more healed and honest place within us. Who we truly are is a result of seeing and feeling what we have been through with a courageous and compassionate heart as well as passionate conviction to be the change we want to see in the world.”

Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a Men’s Group Call on Saturday, March 27 via Zoom at 5pm GMT. The topic will be Power, Adequecy, and Vulnerability. We will be doing a video conversation and meditation soon to bring this into clarity. But until then you can visit our page at: www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more info and donations for the link.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The New Frontier Of Sacred Sexuality

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This coming Sunday, Jelelle and Raphael will be hosting a group call over Zoom on Sacred Sexuality (www.soulfullheart.org/events). This topic has a lot of energy to it in a variety of ways.

So much of our human story is wrapped up in our sexuality. What it is or isn’t. What it has been used for or used as. What we have been affected by or traumtized by. We all have a different relationship to it.

From an early age, sexuality was seen as a means to some kind of validation. I was shown a Playboy magazine when I was 7 years old in the basement of a neighbors house. I was told to do things that felt weird in order to be given the luxury of seeing it and bearing witness to it.

From that point on, sex was also seen as something taboo and mysterious. It became an obsession in my teenage years and fomented a consciousness that became quite a suffering ground. I took to pornography as a means to satiate this need for power, adequacy, and intimacy (without actually being intimate).

When I met Kasha in the beginning of my SoulFullHeart healing journey, I got to see how my sexuality was out of synch with my emotionality. My heart and my ligham were not necessarily in the same room at the same time. Shame would come up at times in response to this which led me down the Freudian mother wounding path that I needed to address in order to fully embody my more healthy sexuality.

I can’t tell you how much suffering was embedded in my relationship to sex. Through much deep-diving and connecting to my parts and Metasoul around it, I feel like I am just starting to begin a new journey with sexuality in a sacred way in my reunion with Kasha.

It is more about the sexuality inside of me first. What is THAT all about?! This feeling of my own inner sex is tantalizing and curious. It is rooted in creativity and Love. It is wanting to have sex with the World and the Yoniverse. It wants to produce works of art, writing, music, and dance.

The sexuality between Kasha and myself wants to head into more of the energetic heart and soul exchange rather than just the standard-bearer of genital sex (not that I don’t enjoy that too!😊🔥). There are portals and merkabas to explore and discover. There is deep passion and Love that are meant to be birthed into the world through our union of energies.

I feel a more grounded and mature relationship to sexuality now. One that is embodied and through a healing heart and clear soul. It is a new frontier that is beyond pleasure yet includes it in a much more healthy way that I feel I have always longed for since the day in that basement.

If you feel a draw to this healing and renewed relationship to sexuality with Self, Other, and the Divine please join the call this coming Sunday at 5pm GMT. More information at www.soulfullheart.org/events. There you will also find information on our upcoming Men’s Group call on Power, Adequecy, and Vulnerability on March 27th.

Much love and hot sex. 🔥❤️🕺🏼💃

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Sacred Sexuality Group Meditation Call March 14 |Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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Oh this should be a GOOD group call! Our sexual energy is probably the most misunderstood force in existence. One way of attempting to describe sexual energy is seeing it and feeling it as liquid love and light, the invisible force that threads all of us to each other. Sexual energy is so much more than the physical act of sexual intercourse between partners.

It is the living essence of life, creative power and the Divine embodied. And it is innocent with a strong desire to be ALIVE. It takes a lot of energy to keep it suppressed and blocked, yet we do because of traumas, shame, judgement, sexual abuse, etc. and cultural/Matrix conditioning. Whether in a sacred sexuality exploration with a partner or currently single, this group call will provide an initiation into the deeper waters of healing your sacred sexual energy that brings life to LIFE.

Raphael and I are co-hosting this group call for women and men over Zoom to provide a transmission of sacred sexuality codes from Avalon. The focus of this group on Sunday, March 14th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be opening up your sacred sexuality flow through connecting to any part to of you that may be blocking it, and from there to begin a relationship with this part of you to curiously discover what may be wanting to come next for you.

We will talk about how sacred sexuality is first and primarily accessed from within you through the healing of feminine and masculine parts/soul aspects who relate to it, which is often your Inner Teenager who didn’t receive empowering initiation into your sexual energy expression. This allows for healing of the punishing and shaming frequencies from birth family, 3D cultural conditioning and the Matrix karmic soul programs. We will share our personal journeys with this sacred sexuality healing process individually and together in long-term, monogamous sacred sexual exploration together. Kasha and Aurius will be sharing about their experiences of sacred sexuality with each other and personally as well.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing, higher dimensional space we call the Bridal Chamber to allow for connection to your sacred sexuality and whichever part/soul aspect needs healing around it. Yeshua Christ and Mary Magdalene will join us as a template of sacred sexual energies for us to template from. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together as a group that assist in this healing.

You can receive these Divine Union frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shopOr you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the March 14th group and check that your email is current.You can also join this call for free if you are member of our online community Portal on Mighty Networks where we also provide a safe online digestion and sharing space after the call. Membership is $14.99 USD a month with info at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/109338231107311 or https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Testimonials from our last group call on Sacred Union on Valentine’s Day:

“Thank you for opening this group up to anyone feeling to come, really glad I came today. Sweet, beautiful and tender space and so much resonance for me. Feel myself opening more and more toward meeting my Beloved in life so my soul can keep growing. Blessings to you all and thanks for the sharings. Precious way to spend some time together on Valentines!” February 14th Group Call Participant

“I’m new to this community but it’s pretty obvious at this point that I’ve found myself exactly where I’m meant to be in Divine timing. Thank you so much for this beautiful experience. My relationship ended a year ago. This call has helped bring so much clarity to the experience. Much gratitude to all.” – February 14th Group Call Participant

“Thank you Jelelle, Raphael, Aurius, Kasha and all here who shared and participated in this bountiful opening of hearts and vulnerabilities expressed. I am grateful for this sharing of all of your journeys in process. I look forward to connecting within this group and joining along with all of you in support and community. Thank you for this beautiful opening today. Much love!” February 14th Group Call Participant

My Heart Is Here To Serve

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My heart is here to serve.

It was not a pretty sight about 10-12 years ago. I found myself in situations that felt like bottoms of barrels. A merry-go-round of anxiety, depression, and inner-punishment all while having the exterior of ‘having it all together’.

I found myself using alcohol, speed, and pornography as some sort of escape only to find myself deeper in the mud of Unworth. The maintenance of a ‘normal’ life was wearing thin and cracks were forming. I felt myself losing grip of a life of passion and joy. A part of me resigning to suffering as a way of life.

When I began my own journey with SoulFullHeart I was just looking for a means to find inner peace and a way to support myself doing something meaningful. What it turned out to be was much more. It was a calling back to Self and Service. And there I have found my roots.

The process of meeting and feeling the parts of me, stuck in what felt like a never-ending pattern of unworth and suffering, was a huge heart-opening as well as eye-opener. I started to see the ways in which I was creating a bifurcated world inside of myself. Love was some novel concept that you could see or read about, but not fully feel in my being.

As I have continued down this path of selves-discovery through parts work, and soul-awakening through Metasoul work, I have come to a new frontier in my life previously held in the shadow of my consciousness. We don’t always hide the ‘ugly’, but many times the beauty.

It has been through all my deep movements and initiations (that I didn’t realize were initiations), that I have found myself in sacred desire to serve. Serve those that feel connected my words, my heart, and my past. I may not have had quite the traumas others have had but my journey has taught me that I have a well of compassion, care, and curiosity…the three elements for this work.

Now, don’t get me wrong. There are hard places to go. There are challenges and difficulties. If we are called to heal and grow, this is the real and true path. Some of our parts weren’t baked from a Holly Hobby Oven, but rather from the grist of karma. This is the nature of our individual human story.

In all of that, there needs to be a sense of safety and trust. This is why we meet the Inner Protector first so that we get to feel and heal these places with permission and grace. I work WITH you, not for you. Ultimately, you are the sovereign in any session, I just open my heart and ask questions, offering intuitions along the way. Well, not JUST. Opening the heart is part of what I have worked so hard to get to. It is the fruit of my own inner labour. Now I want to share that fruit.

I have worked mostly with women and have had so many amazing experiences. Lots of growth for both of us. I have an affinity to work with the feminine as I have a close relationship with my own. I am guided by the Magdalene lineage of service.

I desire to serve men as well in their ache to find their own mark in the world through a sensitive and caring heart. I have been through my own sacred masculine journey and continue to do so. I am working with Raphael Awen monthly and will be offering Men’s Group calls and videos talking about men, healing, and spirituality. It is a deep calling to serve men into their Highest Heart and SoulFire Self.

I offer a free 45-minute introductory call to see how I may serve you in your healing into self-love and SoulFire. It is also to see if it is even a fit for both of us at this time. SoulFullHeart is a specific paradigm that is more than just a therapy or healing modality. It is a way of life in the end. Yet, that can be discovered and felt one session at a time.

I look forward to this landing in the heart or hearts that it is meant to. If you know someone in need, please send them this contact. I am blessed to be a part of this community of journeyers, healers, and leaders. I am honored to be a part of your journey and healing as well.

Much love to you whether we work together or not. We are all in this together. 🙂

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

A Common Challenge For Awakening Men

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By  Raphael Awen

I had the pleasure of holding space for a man yesterday in session space over zoom and we encountered something together that feels really common for awakening men.

As he described some precious and powerful awakenings with Yeshua and many new places of openings recently, I couldn’t help but feel an anxious undertone in his sharing, so I just asked if he could feel a part of him that is vigilant about keeping up with awakening, and that opened out a whole portal to go into together where we felt and saw that the efforting and vigilance about awakening was being used to avoid an inner well of ‘persistent hollowness’. We were able to see and feel the part of him who lives in this hollowness and begin to see him as the one who holds vast access to creativity, as well as the men’s version of the womb, what’s known as the Hara.

This all felt so familiar to my own process of being out of touch with my own grief over the years, and with that of course, my own depression. I didn’t have any depression as near as I could tell, for decades actually, but truth was, part of me had just done an outstanding job of keeping it buried. I was quite a stellar human then, liked by many, but the treadmill of the efforting was starting to wear the benefits thin and the costs were tabulating.

I don’t think anything would have changed for me were it not for a crisis, and in some ways, an ongoing series of manageable mini crisis’ if you will.

Together in session with this man yesterday, we began to feel the call to really begin to bridge to this part of him, curiously and with open heart, get to know his reality. Negotiate with him to return out to play, not as another item on the to do list or the to be list of awakening, but just as a natural longing and appetite to get to know.

Then we felt THAT to be the ending of the efforting, as the efforting was actually being used to keep this part’s world and reality suppressed inside, when life is actually ripening this part’s reality to the surface.

I so don’t feel I could have bridged these realities inside of myself and my own healing/awakening process without ‘parts work’ as it is known. Without parts work, we just leave the part of us to pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, without them feeling a you there to be with them, to bridge and support them in the changes they wish to make, kind of like the physically present, but all too often emotionally absent parents we experienced in growing up.

When the bridging occurs between you and a part of you, the perception of what both the problem and the solutions are also shift and change and whole new worlds emerge that were not seen before.

This is the magical portal that our wounding is, offering us sacred entry into dimensions not seen or known yet. Spiritual fixes for depression or anxiety aren’t much better than the pharmaceutical fixes are as both are about the fear and avoidance of this portal.

Being ready to enter this portal is quite organic, and you simply know when you are there. The call and question about sufficient courage is outweighed by the growing inability to hold up the old way any longer.

Whatever needs to be surrendered in order to enter the portal is kind of like shrinking your life into a 2 suitcase limit on a one way overseas airplane flight. You only have 23 kilos per bag, so the question becomes about what’s coming or not. Really, you can only take yourself, and a few most necessary items. The life you’ve created and accumulated needs to be largely or completely let go of. Socially, this is probably the hardest as our underlying and unconscious social agreements are about each of us promising to remain proximal in both geography and within a certain consciousness bandwidth with one another. You could say that we co-sign one another’s agreements to stay in resonant around remaining small, that is until we default on the agreement.

Some around us understandably get pissed, and rightfully so. We were the best exemplars to the agreement, maybe even better than the others in the picture were. And now, you’re the one pulling the pin. You also have some apologies to make, but the crazy thing is, no one wants the apologies, they want you to return, but crazier still is that you’ve already morphed beyond the place where that could even be possible. There’s nothing left but to honour that with grief and sorrow and goodbyes.

‘You’re the one who changed’ my best friend once told me while out on a hiking trail trying to bridge a conversation about the growing differences between us. He was right. Our unspoken agreement had been about remaining true to a code of values, purpose and meaning. My emerging  values, purpose and meaning we’re leaving the parameters of our agreement. My old me simply couldn’t fit in the suitcase any longer and my departure date was fast approaching.

It wasn’t but a couple years later that I sat across from this friend at breakfast, with tears, and said goodbye to him, to our friendship, as where I was going was only going to leave both of us strained in a very unreal friendship, something neither of us were really capable of.

Life, real life, always brings up new enterings and leavings in this way. All of life could be summed up as a series of beginnings and endings in this way, and the most adapted to this reality, in their ability to feel grief and sorrow are truly the happiest campers. Joy comes in the morning and through the mourning.

What is it in life that is shifting and rumbling for you? What are you being asked to grieve and let go? How could you do that in a way that doesn’t leave you more wounded, withdrawn and reserved?

Could I help you make that transition? Could I help you embrace your bigger you? Could I help you find your soul family and passion purpose calling expression?

I moved into a new and brave world as a beginner, and have made some discoveries that may one day bear my name, but for now they are just here being offered to you, as these discoveries need more bold souls to test drive the living, loving and learning. Then it can be our discovery, and not just mine.

I would so welcome hearing from you, more about me and sessions at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can email me at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. Sessions are for 90 minutes and cost $100 usd. You may also be drawn to one of the three other current SoulFullHeart facilitators, my wife, Jelelle Awen, Aurius Amara, Kasha Rokshana, whose info is also at the link above and who can be reached at the same email address above.

The pic above is from a recent group day with six of us here in Glastonbury/Avalon. We look shiny and lovely because we are most of the time, but also not without some serious mess in the playful bliss, both as couples and as a community.

Love,

Raphael 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

Our next group call:

taking place on March 14th @ 5pm GMT (London, UK) with Raphael and Jelelle, which will focus on Sacred Sexuality. More info on that call can be found here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 9

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Our latest Avalon Update shares about the big shift in humanity out of 3D and into Lower 4D/Dark Night. This is the current experience as we continue on our Ascension journey and there’s a lot we can lean into around this process. In our featured article this week, Jelelle writes about this and offers a guiding light through the darkness coming forward.

Also, today, March 7th @ 5pm GMT (London, UK) there will be a women’s group call on Zoom, hosted by Jelelle and Kasha, focused on the womb. More info can be found here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You’ll also find an announcement about the next group call, taking place on March 14th @ 5pm GMT (London, UK) with Raphael and Jelelle, which will focus on Sacred Sexuality. More info on that call can be found here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

There are many new writings to take in from everyone, as well as two brand NEW guided meditations from Raphael and Jelelle as they launch their Bridal Chamber meditation series.

You can take in the latest Update here:https://mailchi.mp/…/humanity-shifts-out-of-3d-and-into…

MUCH love from all of us in Avalon!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community