Tag: healing process

Arising Sacred Soul Turns

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by Kasha Rokshana

We are all in the midst of an invitation to make some very courageous ‘soul turns’ as we move out of this Samhain passage and into what could be a whole new phase of claiming/reclaiming ourselves, our Divinity and Divine connection, and what we are most drawn to yet parts of us may be afraid of fully diving into. 

A ‘soul turn’ is a turn away from the suffering patterns your soul has known so well and moving into something new and unknown, yet potentially very healing. It’s a time when you know that the old and painful story is ready to truly let go, through choosing to feel it deeper and have it truly reconcile in your heart.

Soul patterns of suffering can show up in our bodies, our relationships, our service-of-love expression and draw. They also show up inside of us, in repeating cycles of reaction, push-pull, pull away, or shut down, which can sometimes even be subtle as they’ve also become so normalized.

I’ve been feeling and working a deep soul-rooted rejection wound which feels like it ultimately leads me back to separation… the feeling of having been removed from the eternal bliss bath of being truly one with the Divine, with my beloved, with soul family. One and yet also swimming together in a pool of uniqueness. Playing with just enough duality at times to truly enjoy the mirrors and play of the dance. 

But then comes the plummet to this Gaian reality of Ascension and the turmoil of trying to find each other again, trying to come back into a deeper oneness and unity within again too after experiencing the trauma of life in the Matrix. 

Perhaps at the heart of all of our suffering and pain, is this journey. And this is where we can experience our soul turning away from the suffering ground of this and into more and more of that feeling of REunion that I think deep down we all are longing for. It’s a turn away from the ‘evidence’ of rejection and into a new sense that we do get to become and also draw what it is we most want (and need).

Join us for a group call this coming Sunday, November 5th, @ 5pm GMT, about this topic of feeling our soul turns and also the life transitions we are facing. Raphael and Jelelle will be leading it and it’s going to be quite powerful! It’s by donation, as always, and you can join live or just receive the recording: Here is some more info: soulfullheart.org/events 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Choosing To Live

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By Raianna Shai

It’s a fine line to balance your healing between deep inward feeling and outward clear currency. To dive deep into emotion means to be so honest and transparent with yourself that each part of you gets to feel every single thing that comes up for them. Whether it’s fear, joy, grief, peace, sadness, relief… it’s all so sacred and needs to be felt in its full capacity.

There’s a common fear in that deep dive though that you’ll never make it out of the heavy emotions. That you’ll be stuck in this void of depression and sorrow – trapped in your own inner hell. What I’ve discovered for myself is that not going to these places also causes a hell inside. Constantly invalidating and pushing down these feelings that will always be there until they’re addressed, felt and loved. When they aren’t felt, they come out sideways through reactions that we don’t totally understand. In anger, frustration and feeling inadequate or unworthy.

This is where the other side of the line is so important. There needs to be a bigger energy in the space to hold these deeper feelings. The divine, your higher self, something that can be even just a little bit bigger than the hopelessness. Something that brings air to the container that you’re holding for these parts of yourself. As this bigger energy holds these deeper emotions, a clarity and confidence starts to arise.

From there we find sobriety, truth, transparency and a deep claim of our parts and our relationships to others. In my recent process I’ve felt a mix of my inner teenager, shadow queen and inner punisher and how they all relate to one another. I learned how much my inner punisher and shadow queen were both suppressing and being suppressed, unable to express their truth to me and others.

As I deeply felt all three of these parts I started to feel a release and relief. Clarities started coming through, more truth was allowed to come out, more air entered into my entire being and all the despair and sobbing in that process became so worth it. I’m still in progress with this but so many layers have shed already.

We can try and go under or over the feelings all we want but the ONLY way to move it is through. Allow the feelings to take you on a journey, to change you from the inside out. You end up becoming so connected to your parts that you will do whatever you can to provide them the love and relief they desperately need. Choosing this depth of feeling is choosing to finally LIVE. And each time I make that choice to live and not let my soul or heart die, I become that much more whole and connected to my soul purpose.

I hope that you decide in this moment to choose to live ♥️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Dear Inner Teenagers…

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By Raianna Shai

Dear inner teenagers,

I love you all so much for the range you can express from angry, frustrated, and misunderstood to sensitive, passionate, and caring. You have held both our deepest desires and deepest fears, keeping our hearts alive and on fire.

There may be times when other parts suppress you or judge the way you are, but that’s what we’re here for. We are here to help you heal your wounds created in adolescence and beyond. To remove you from the frontlines of life and tuck you in where it’s safe to just be you. We are here to help you mature into the creative and compassionate beings that you are in your core.

We are also here to learn from you and receive your gifts. You offer a perspective that ignites curiosity and claim of what’s real in the world. You are consistently trying to find the heart of everything. The heart of truth, love, fear, and even life itself. I have often found teenagers to be the most questioning of the status quo and the false picture of perfection that “adults” seem determined to hold together.

Then there’s the vulnerability. You wear your hearts on your sleeves without even trying which can cause pain and suffering without the true leadership that comes from our higher selves holding the space for you. We have to listen to you, feel you and help you heal so that we can help each other feel complete. And in your healing, we find our inner kings and queens that should truly be leading our relationships.

We are here to help you shine!

Love,
The souls who wish to heal you ♥️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Feeling & Healing By Allowing Grief

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by Kasha Rokshana

Healing through grief is so vastly different from coping with grief. 

Grief isn’t honoured enough. Take the space you need to go quiet, to reach within, to be with the parts of you that are hurting and to lay in the lap of the Divine as you weep or even as you rage out. The grieving process isn’t always lived into with intention, for we’re not encouraged in this matrix world to truly let it in and let it move through organically.

Grief is actually the key, you see… the key to getting back to your heart. The key to unlocking the door to the deeper corners of your soul and opening you up to more awakening experiences, especially around Divine love’s holding of you and everyone/everything on this planet. It’s more powerful than turning towards transcendence or making a concerted effort to ‘move on’, especially before you feel truly ready for that.

Grief is powerful medicine for your revival, though it feels like the darkest death. It comes in waves, can knock on (or knock down) your heart door at any time, and has lots of patience for that ongoing process. It waits with open arms for you to lean into it and truly be with it, as the opportunities open up for you to do so.

As I feel through the heart of our Oneness cord that links us all in this sacred human family, I feel tears of grief for what and who has been loved and lost in my own life as well as the loss and suffering of so many others. I feel waves like this and hold them as sacred. I feel any part of me who feels hopeless at times and know that so many parts of so many other people feel the same way. 

And then I feel how loved we are, how held we are. I feel Divine Mother and Father holding out their arms to lay in or in invitation to come to them with anger waves too. I know in my heart that this is the answer…. Just being willing to feel it, not solve it, not try to answer it with analysis or practical steps. Just feeling it and feeling it ALL as sacred.

I can feel how especially during this Samhain time of the veils being quite thin, that there is extra powerful access to grief… lifetimes of it, actually. There is access to loved ones who have passed, access to deeper digestions of past relationships of all kinds, and access to the grief that lives in your soul from losses suffered in other lifetimes as well. There’s also a lighter side to the grief, where powerful access to joy and true happiness can be lived into as the rest is truly felt through… as you slow down enough to allow love into those understandably tighter spaces within where fear of feeling can live. 

So much love to you during this time as you drop bravely into feeling whatever is calling you to feel it. My beloveds and I are here to support you through sessions if you’re drawn: soulfullheart.org/sessions 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Tipping & Turning Point In Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

This is a tipping and turning point for so many awakening souls it seems, especially as we emerge out of the 10:10 portal (“1” of new beginnings and the ‘O’ of the void space) and into the eclipse passage and then through 11:11. This is a potent time of year for death and rebirth and for tensions held at the cellular level to be revealed and resolved.

This year feels even more heightened with peaking Matrix/war/Great Reset agendas, personal sufferings/traumas, housing/survival based struggles, money tightness and scarcity, relationship issues/completions/break ups, false light/teacher community abuses and collapses, body illness/symptoms….ALL of it coming up against a place of intolerance to fear and our Divine self/sacred humanity embodiment. Anything fear based and in shadow is wanting to be transmuted by and with love.

I’ve felt an upgrading process going on for myself recently too, illuminated by a visceral and cellular trauma clearing at the physical and emotional levels triggered by a real life situation here. I really had to BE with these energies and emotions, allowing them and feeling directly the part of me who was experiencing them, using them as a portal, and offer a loving and compassionate heart space for this part to sink into.

After some necessary guttural tears (those that come from deep in the gut, deep from the womb), digestion with Raphael, and an ambassadorship to the source of the pain (in ‘other’ form yet still just a reflection of me), I feel another degree in my seat of centered self, in goodness in my life and in a current flow of increased service. A fear knot that was drawn this life yet comes from a soul source (as always) is dissolving as I respond to the tension that needs my attention.

I wanted to share some wisdoms/soul guidances that came through me and in collaboration with other bright souls in intros, sessions with me and during our community gathering in the last couple weeks…you can feel what resonates for you too:

– Sometimes you need an ‘outer home’ that represents heaven, beauty, and is a truly safe sanctuary for you. You need this for a phase of time to remind you of what is possible. And, then, sometimes this home is ‘taken away’ from you, sometimes suddenly and in a way that can leave some trauma (in this case it was during a sudden flood). This is actually a reminder and a recoding that ‘sanctuary is within you’, ‘safety is within you’, ‘beauty is within you’. Feeling the parts of you who have focused outward and feel trauma when this ‘home’ is taken away, you can invite them into the sanctuary of your heart.

– Inner masculine and Inner feminine dynamics are being illuminated in relationships that have been limiting in some way. Not necessarily abusive or outright toxic, yet rather the more subtle kinds of misalignments, outgrowing previous soul contracts, and lack of resonance in awakening that can take years to fully be ‘done’ with. The masculine feels so much pressure, tension, control, inadequacy, and protection over the growing sense of dissatisfaction, unhappiness, and hurt in the inner feminine who just wants MORE and isn’t able to get it in the bond esp as he retracts away.

His need to be needed hits her want to be wanted and a polarization occurs, collapse of vulnerability and intimacy. Inside and outside, this is a tense place to live long term and eventually it runs out of ground as mercy and compassion leads to completion on the outside and resolution on the inside.

– The cycle of suffering itself becomes the addiction, not the outward behavior of abusing food, alcohol, work or in relationships. The loop of the inner punisher (working out of a hijacked need of self protection) judging and controlling the inner child, which crushes them into a shame place, an unworthiness place, and a hurt place. Which just leads the Punisher to up the ante on the suffering loop, drawing life circumstances and relationships that amplify and reflect this. Feeling and connecting with both parts of the looping, coming in between them with compassionate self love, allows this cycle to complete on the inside and outside.

– There is increased desire coming up to offer service to others and follow soul purpose. This is meant to activate in an overflow of love as you awaken or parts of you can become too isolated, too self absorbed, too oriented to ‘self’. Service to others in a clean way (not false light/ego gratification or for money-motivation or to control/have power over others) can only arise as the inner and outer personal relationships are healing from traumas, protections, and projections. Moving from trauma bonds to resonant bonds.

True service is a reflection of the depth of intimacies in your life, not a compartment for which you ‘show up as a professional’. In the overflow of nourishing relationships (inside and out), you are able to then overflow that love to others in service WITH them as a mirror of the goodness possibilities.-

– At some point, the ‘parts work process’ has to drop away so that the Divine Self embodiment can occur and deepen. It is a temporary bridge, very helpful for a time, yet can be crutch to the degree there isn’t deeper Divine surrender and leaning in. Even beloved mentors and teachers (including me of course) can only hold a mirror, not be substitutes for deeper going into your own embodiment initiations in which your soul ‘takes over’ from there.

And I received this wonderful testimonial this week too,

“Thank you for everything Jelelle! I am feeling MUCH better and can eat again and have already put 4 pounds back on and not feeling nausea. I am so thankful for you!!! You helped me a lot and I hope my testimony will encourage others to go to you for help. – Beth

If you are drawn to a free intro call over zoom, 1:1 session over zoom or here in Portugal and ongoing mentoring support, with me, Raphael (for men), or Kasha (for women) PM me/us and there is more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

You are also invited to join us for a healing cycles of suffering group call on Sunday, October 15th in which we will dive into some of these areas, plus offer a meditation/sound transmission journey. Info about offering a donation to attend/get the recording at soulfullheart.org/events.

Pic of me was taken on the lovely cliffs at Nazare, at the central Portugal coast, a place of beloved soul activations and remembrances for me

Validate Every Part Of You (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/YzKHb8K9UXM

It’s so important to validate every feeling you have, as they lead you into such deep connection with different parts of you and into such transformation of your life inside and out as well. 

It can feel like a lot to feel sometimes, and a lot to digest, yet making space to be with what’s real for you/your parts/your heart and soul is truly where it’s at and in my experience, it leads to more openings within and with the divine as well. It can also lead to more openings with others who truly resonate… and help you sort out/let go of the relationships that don’t. 

I hold space for women who want to engage deeper in this process and it’s such an honour to do so! Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info on free intro calls and 1:1 sessions which are for a negotiated rate. 

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Equinox Codes: Healing Deep Suffering Loops (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

https://youtu.be/wMefxZdBc1c

“Am I genuinely, truly ready to let go of past suffering and move into new and unknown soul and heart bigness?” — this was a powerful question that continued to arise in different ways for all of us at our SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering this weekend.

Soul turns and healing trajectories moving us through birth canals… letting go of suffering on whatever level we feel ready for that (and to be in the genuine, deep, real, and multi-layered process of that) has been a profound theme for this Equinox passage.

In this video, I share about this theme of letting go and healing the relationship to suffering and how I relate to it personally at this time. I also share about what it means to be with it through your open and curious heart as you feel parts of you and Metasoul aspects (soul expressions in other lifetimes) too. 

I hope you’ve had a blessed and very real Equinox experience, truly moving you into a new sense of yourself, your soul, and what it feels like to be supported by the Divine through absolutely everything.

Love, 

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Lammas Message: Feeling The Harvest & The Loss Of The Awakening Journey

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by Kasha Rokshana

It’s a potent time now with Lammas (mid-summer) today, the Supermoon, and Lion’s Gate all upon us.  It feels like a day where these energies are converging and bringing up some deeper pieces to feel of desire/despair, letting in/letting go, gain/loss while we experience another big clearing and shift.

One big thing I’m digesting myself today is about our personal and collective evolution. It’s so easy some days to feel as though the personal shifts and inner work aren’t really drawing the desired outcomes. Instead, there’s a cost to our personal growth and awakening that is just as real as the highs that come from the healing and new discoveries. Our inner work brings about an outer harvest, yet in that process of harvesting there is also a need to surrender to the threshing floor – the place where the wheat is separated from the chaff. Where what you need to bring along with you on your next leg of your journey is carried with you tenderly, yet what can’t or won’t come along with you must be let go of.

So many parts of us may prefer to feel the celebrations of our awakening journeys and rightfully so… they’ve earned that next place of awakening and opening of the heart and your awareness. You as a soul have earned that next place of alchemy and depth of relationship within and without. Yet, there is usually a grieving process that comes along with all of this as awakening also means aligning more with your soul and the Divine… and not always with others around you or with your current life circumstances such as they have been. It’s all up for reevaluation on the journey of your evolution, and this is what makes it a vulnerable journey overall.

It takes great strength to be willing to feel it ALL… the textures of love and what it wants to illuminate for you. The shifting sands of your personal truth and where it wants to take you. It’s all very alive and yet, it’s truly a hero’s journey in a way with so much to let go of while also letting in.

I’ve been connecting a lot with the Divine and also my Sirian Lion galactic aspect, Ineerah, about this process and how I’ve felt personally so impacted at times by needing to follow my heart and soul and yet also be with the cost of that. Ineerah has shared with me time and time again how they have experienced the pain of this themselves as a star being race that has been through Ascension and how much they support us as we sort out our own ongoing journey.

The Divine has been supporting me to just feel my aching parts and also my opening heart as my own personal journey continues to unfold as part of a very powerful yet small community of beloveds. I feel a celebration with the Divine of my personal strength while also feeling wrapped in the warm love glow that I now know so well from being truly vulnerable and needy with the Divine. I feel soaked in love while also drenched in tears in moments and it’s truly beautiful.

So wherever you are today on the scale of letting in or letting go or everything all at once… you are loved, your heart is being felt, and your soul is undoubtedly leading you where you most need (and deserve) to be if you can gather up all that is within you, to continue to trust love itself and the path it is lighting up for you.

Blessed Lammas to you!

Love,

Kasha 

Painting by Nichol Skaggs

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Connecting With Tender Needs Within: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Sometimes it feels 

As if the void,

A feeling of something

Or someone

Being ‘missing’

Will always be there

For part of me

Who aches to let in love

So completely

That she would feel truly,

Irreversibly,

Complete herself.

I answer her questions

With one of my own,

“What is it you need

From me

Or even from the Divine

In order to truly feel loved

At all times?”

She answers me,

“Kasha, 

I just really need this time with you,

This space from every trial

That we’ve recently experienced.

I really need to feel

Divine collaboration,

Like I’ve done nothing wrong

And our Divine parents

Support us unconditionally,

Want us to truly experience

And become love…

Want us to truly embody

Our own divinity together.”

I respond,

“Ah, love…

I feel your heartache,

Those twinges

And tweaks

You so want answered

By reflections of all that you are,

The power you have,

And the love you have to give.

I feel your humble desire

To be able to open up 

And receive again

And again

And again

While surrendering deeply

To what life,

Love,

The Divine,

Is bringing you to feel into,

To inhabit,

To live into.

I love you

Right where and how you are.

I wouldn’t ever want to change you,

Just hold you,

Honour the bravery you’ve had 

All these years

To keep looking at yourself,

While learning how 

To hold, feel,

And respond to others.

I will never leave you.

Just keep letting me in.”

And together

We cry,

As we’ve done so many times before,

With needy hearts,

With a deep love exchange,

With appreciation

For this landing place we share

Within,

With the Divine,

And with beloved, resonant others.

Bringing love to every challenge,

Learning always to receive love 

Deeper,

Walking hand-in-hand

Towards the next sunrise

Where we will arise again

Anew,

In new completeness

Together.

— This is an example of the type of dialogue I had with a part of me just this morning as I checked in with her… it’s not always this easy to access a part’s needs or desires underneath their ache, angst, and protection at times, yet once they do open up to you and truly feel your heart’s intention to show up for them, be the voice and energy of the loving Divine for them, they really do respond. 

It takes so much consistency though in my experience of it, and sometimes you have to be with them through some very tough and even kicky moments as they begin to let you in. Once they do, they start to transform and truly transmute their pain.

Do get in touch with myself or Jelelle Awen if you’re a woman looking for 1:1 space-holding as you too deepen or even begin your journey of feeling parts of you. If you’re a man and drawn to this work, Raphael Awen is the King you’re looking for. 

There is more info on sessions and FREE intro calls here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Recognizing, Reconciling Our Kings & Queens Within: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

You won’t always know
A King when you meet one,
For his legacy has been buried,
Hidden,
Sometimes denied,
And sometimes disowned
Out of confusion
Of what it truly means
To bear the crown
Of sovereignty
And surrender.

If you do meet a man
And you see his King
Deep within him,
He won’t always know
Or feel
Or see
Or understand
Exactly what that means for him.

He may struggle
To hold his bejeweled crown,
His heavy, velvet robes,
His long forgotten treasures
Within his courageous heart
That are meant to be shared,
To catalyze,
To penetrate,
While coming from a Matrix world
That has told him
To suppress his truth,
To hold back his righteous passion,
To either soften too much
Or not at all.

Within that struggle,
His longing for a Queen
Also rumbles and shifts,
Pressing him into explorations
As she also longs
To be wanted by him,
Remembered by his soul,
And offered passionate declarations
By his clearing
And enlivening heart.

You won’t always know
A Queen when you meet one,
For her legacy has been buried
Beneath patriarchal influences
That tell her
What she is and isn’t,
How she must dominate
In order to be seen and heard,
And how she must be in control
Though her nature is to lean,
Surrender,
And respond.

If you do meet a woman
And you see her Queen
Deep within her,
She won’t always know
Or feel
Or understand
What becoming her
Truly involves for her.

She may struggle
To understand
How to open and soften
After so many years
And lifetimes
Of suppression
By a Matrix world
That wants to keep her power
Hidden,
And tell her instead
In forms exaggerated
That she isn’t worthy of womanhood
Unless she looks,
Acts,
Or is perceived
A certain way.

Within that struggle
Her longing for a King
Moves with a current
Of desire to be met,
Wanted,
And treasured,
Inviting her into explorations
As he also longs
To be needed by her,
Remembered by her soul,
And offered a responsive heart
To hear and feel him
As his own heart
Opens more to her.

It’s the sacred awakenings
Of both the King and Queen,
That moves the inner union
Into openings of more love
While the outer union
Is drawn
Into this space made within
For all the karmic edges,
The loving softness,
The receiving of all dimensions
Of romantic reunion
And the places
It calls you
To explore.

It’s the reseeding
Of the King and Queen seeds within
That forge a new foundation
For a renewed experience
Of life
And love
And the Divine Beloved,
Bringing all beloveds
In soul family and soulmates
Together
Through paths
Sometimes brambly and challenging,
But always meant to be fulfilling,
Worth every moment,
And alive in every way imaginable.

May you feel even a moment
Of your King or Queen today,
Stirring within you,
Waking up again,
Realizing that today
They are invited to become
All of the love they came here
To embody
And the reunion of sacred union
That they ache for.

Love,
Kasha (and her Queen, Felline)

Men’s and women’s group calls this weekend, focusing on the Inner King/Queen! More info here.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.