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by Kasha Rosa

This second part of this Dark Mother series takes us into the poetic truth of darkness, which is not punishment or absence of anything, really… but is rather the birthing place of everything we’ve ever truly needed to face, feel, and become.

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There has always been darkness.

It is the birth canal that moves you into this world.

It is the sacredness of nighttime before a new day dawns.

It is the exploration of shadow, of suffering, of carnage.

It is the womb of Divine Mother…holding, nurturing, offering life unconditionally.

It is the burying of a seed so that it can spring forth with everything that’s been encoded within it.

Darkness is not the absence of light.

It is the birthing of it.

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Our souls all have a relationship with the dark.

It’s the void of loss,

the experience of rupture,

the feelings of shame and blame,

the doubts,

the witnessing of β€œevils” that beg to be understood.

It’s also the feeling of letting go with willingness and need…

the trust fall into the waiting arms of the Divine

when all else seems to fade away.

It’s the feeling of long-suppressed truths finally coming forward,

sometimes with charge,

sometimes in fragments,

and the digesting that follows.

It’s the pull of necessary life experiences that crack us open and shape us…

that bring us to our knees

not to break us,

but to reveal what was always meant to be born.

There is nothing that Dark Mother, in all of her vastness, cannot hold.

No shadow too great.

No sorrow too deep.

No part of you unlovable.

To Her, there is no evil that cannot ultimately be loved.

There is no transgression that is unforgivable.

There is no fragment of your soul beyond her grace.

And that is what makes Her so hard to let in.

Because Her love will see everything.

This is what,

For parts of you,

(Especially the protective ones)

Feels like the end of life…

Because it is.

It’s the end of strategy

And the beginning of authenticity.

When Dark Mother lights her match,

When her candle is shone at just the right angle,

That’s when life as you’ve known it

Starts to rumble

And old ties, patterns, and relationship grounds

Begin to crumble.

Beloved, 

Though this is scary for parts of you

And soul aspects who have known the ending of golden times,

This is part of love’s journey…

Dissolution leading to rebirth.

Taking something apart

To put it back together

With more wisdom,

More healing,

And more love leading. 

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She does not walk away from your pain. 

She holds space for it, knowing that it will always lead you to your rebirth.

And as a result, she templates for you how to hold space for yourself as that process deepens within and in your life. If you are experiencing a time of transition now, you can feel into what wisdom she may be waiting to offer you and which parts of you may feel afraid of her presence…

I’ll be recording a guided meditation in the next couple of days which will support you in that process, especially honouring and feeling the inner masculine protector energies which may especially be in reaction to her. 

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Arising Sacred Soul Turns

by Kasha Rokshana

We are all in the midst of an invitation to make some very courageous β€˜soul turns’ as we move out of this Samhain passage and into what could be a whole new phase of claiming/reclaiming ourselves, our Divinity and Divine connection, and what we are most drawn to yet parts of us may be afraid of fully diving into. 

A β€˜soul turn’ is a turn away from the suffering patterns your soul has known so well and moving into something new and unknown, yet potentially very healing. It’s a time when you know that the old and painful story is ready to truly let go, through choosing to feel it deeper and have it truly reconcile in your heart.

Soul patterns of suffering can show up in our bodies, our relationships, our service-of-love expression and draw. They also show up inside of us, in repeating cycles of reaction, push-pull, pull away, or shut down, which can sometimes even be subtle as they’ve also become so normalized.

I’ve been feeling and working a deep soul-rooted rejection wound which feels like it ultimately leads me back to separation… the feeling of having been removed from the eternal bliss bath of being truly one with the Divine, with my beloved, with soul family. One and yet also swimming together in a pool of uniqueness. Playing with just enough duality at times to truly enjoy the mirrors and play of the dance. 

But then comes the plummet to this Gaian reality of Ascension and the turmoil of trying to find each other again, trying to come back into a deeper oneness and unity within again too after experiencing the trauma of life in the Matrix. 

Perhaps at the heart of all of our suffering and pain, is this journey. And this is where we can experience our soul turning away from the suffering ground of this and into more and more of that feeling of REunion that I think deep down we all are longing for. It’s a turn away from the β€˜evidence’ of rejection and into a new sense that we do get to become and also draw what it is we most want (and need).

Join us for a group call this coming Sunday, November 5th, @ 5pm GMT, about this topic of feeling our soul turns and also the life transitions we are facing. Raphael and Jelelle will be leading it and it’s going to be quite powerful! It’s by donation, as always, and you can join live or just receive the recording: Here is some more info: soulfullheart.org/events 

Love,

KashaΒ 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Total Solar Eclipse Supporting Digestion Of Life Changing Desires and Decisions

By Jelelle Awen

The New Moon (sacred cosmic feminine) blocks the sun (sacred cosmic masculine) in a total solar eclipse today, December 14th. This is the planetary dance that can reflect the movements going on in our inner cosmos too. With the strong activations coming in during this 12/12 to 12/21 portal before the significant masculine planetary conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn on the 21st, this eclipse feels like it offers us a breather to feel, digest, and integrate.

The eclipse will only be visible across the southern end of South America, in Chile and Argentina. That is a narrow window to view it with physical eyes, yet eclipses are most powerfully connected to in a meditative visualization state. As you tune into them, slipping into an altered consciousness/light Theta brain wave place, your Divine Self is able to download the frequencies offered by the eclipse as codes moving into your crown chakra/light body, physical cells and emotional bodies.

The energies of this total solar eclipse are expansive and stimulating….you may feel inspired to try something completely different and new in your life. You may feel drawn suddenly to adventure and journeys, either in the physical as in a shift in geography or travel….or just inner journeys going to your next level of expanded consciousness.

Solar eclipses are often turning points in our lives for which major, life changing decisions are made that can have long-lasting effects. The eclipse energies support our clarity, vision, and veils of illusion lifting to see and feel what changes need to happen. The sacred masculine energies this month assist with the how….the actual following through and implementation of these changes. I am experiencing all of this myself in my own life, which I will be sharing more about soon when it feels like the right timing.

Timelines are collapsing and even long-term relationships are completing during this powerful last portal of this bliss mess year of 2020. With what feels like the Ascension acceleration occurring on the winter solstice December 21st, there is a sense that what ‘cannot come with you’ into the New is dissolving away both within and in outer manifestation experience.

Accompanying these completions is a sense of hope and new possibilities for the future. There is a closer and more potent sense of what you most want and need, plus who you really ARE and the life that would most support that expression as you move into New Earth/5D consciousness.

Emotional digestion of these completions, plus feeling stronger desires for your new timeline, can push up lots to emotions for parts of you. The Inner Protector needs negotiation with your Divine Self to feel held and supported by love, and to move through resistances that may come up to change and going into the unknown. The Inner Child can lead here too, with their natural essence expressing in joy, curiousity, and desire for adventure and Star Seed essence providing connection to galactic support. And the Inner Feminine can hold the space for feeling it ALL and responding to whatever is needing love and attention.

Guided meditations to connect with these aspects of self and soul are available in my Deepen video series with a NEW series coming up on January 1, 2021 (more info about that coming soon!): https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

It is a powerful and magical time no doubt…filled with a sense of infinite possibilities once what was previously limiting can be released, mourned, and let go!

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

Join Raphael Awen and I live and/or receive the recording for a winter solstice transmission group call by donation for the great conjunction on Monday, December 21 at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST! It is a powerful time to be in group meditation space and support the worldwide Ascension Acceleration! More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/204407741239050 or https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

More information about powerful/transformative 1:1 sessions, group call events, our online community Portal, writings/books, video series at soulfullheart.org.

Life Phase Completions From The Inside, Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Sincere ‘goodbyes’ and epic ‘hellos’…

We don’t really ever ‘complete’ phases of life or relationships with others unless the cycles of reaction to the completion and the relationship or phase itself completes with parts of you.


This only really happens when we INvest in relationship to them, which is a deep love relationship with ourselves. It’s the end of suffering loops and telling the same stories over and over again to try and digest what happened. Looping tells us that parts of us haven’t moved on yet. And from there we get to ask ‘why?’ and feel their reasons for hanging on so tight.

For a ‘goodbye’ to be sincere, to a geography, relationship, job, etc, there’s a need to feel the ‘goodbye’. This is what lets in the next ‘hello’. This is what sets the tone for the next phase of truly letting in the new. That doesn’t mean that old reactions or stories won’t come up. But it does renew our commitment to continuing to show up for ourselves and our parts in all of that.


Feeling this as I continue to complete with my geography and householding life phase here in Canada, as well as complete some loops that parts of me are still going into in moments with souls I’ve recently completed my relationship with. It’s all a deep journey and even in the emotional waves, my god, I wouldn’t want to be doing, being, or feeling anything else!


Much, much love to you during this epic time on this epic planet, where suffering within all of us is invited to come to deep completion and new waves of the realization of the love we all ARE can come in anew!


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Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Following My Soul’s Call To New Geographies!

by Kalayna Solais

For years now, traveling to Europe has been in my heart, ignited by a soul ache for frequencies that feel more like ‘home’. I don’t just mean on the level of feeling like my Metasoul aspects from many different ‘priestess’ lifetimes and the like get to return to their cherished sacred sites and monumental megaliths, but I’m also talking about the powerful galactic connections that live in that part of the world, where the veil between the ‘ancient’ and the ‘NOW’ is very thin.

It’s an indefinite ‘goodbye’ to Canada for now, though I can’t know when/if I’ll feel called to return here. I am leaning into the long-felt call of a nomadic soul journey which actually feels much more organic to who I am and always has!

I’ll be flying to the UK with my beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, to initiate the journey, but after we land we’ll have one night together and then I’m off to Scotland, a place that has been calling me relentlessly for a long time now! I do have ties in this life there, having the legal birth name “Calder” from my dad’s side where there’s definitely some Scottish heritage passed down, but in my soul, I’ve always felt connected to the energy and beauty of the land and have yet to discover on a higher-dimensional level, WHY I’m so drawn there.

After spending May in Scotland (in the Glasgow/Edinburgh area) I’m not sure what’s next. My Avalonian priestess heart feels the call of Avalon/Glastonbury and always has. My Celtic soul longs for the rich countryside of Ireland and the stunning natural beauty of Wales. My woman’s heart leans towards the feminine energies of South of France. I’m beyond excited to let in that I get to see and BE in these places and all of the European countries I’ve wanted to visit for so long. It’s all unfolding and quickly too!

When I reunited with my beloveds in SoulFullHeart after being separated from them, I didn’t think I would be making this journey so soon. I knew I wanted it, but also that I wanted it to be connected to them and to service somehow. I trust my soul on this one, that there’s going to be deep processes coming up for me in these ‘new’ geographies that I can’t access here, and that this all deepens my level of leadership and service in this world. What I heal within for myself I also heal in order to serve love… that is my deepest intention. And if the service of love IS my biggest desire, then there’s nothing to feel ‘afraid of’ on this journey but a whole lot to keep trusting, with every step that unfolds and every new direction I’m asked to take by the Divine.

Can’t wait to share more about this as it flows and moves me onward and into my Higher Timeline more and more! ❀

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Much love,
Kalayna Solais

Energy Update: Full ‘Harvest’ Moon Supports Recovery/Moving On Process

by Kalayna Solais

Energy update: DEEP tears last night before going to bed… Felt so fully held in the arms of the Divine, especially Divine Mother, bringing more waves of them to feel and help clear the cluttered heart. Tears of purging and detoxing, rebirth and renewal, they were. Body shaking, quaking, sobbing. This is the state I so willingly went to as I returned last night to my tenderness, femininity, woman’s heart after an intense journey interfacing with this new life phase that seems to be opening up wider this week… and had my masculine activated in a more defensive or protective way than a way that lets my femininity BE and be vulnerable and breathe more too.

Today’s Full Moon is bringing something to full illumination inside. Sometimes these moons bring these tides of tears that aren’t always about pain but simply about rising again for yourself, to yourself. Sometimes parts of us get so backed up in our busyness throughout our work weeks, explorations of connections with others (especially any new connections where parts will likely feel especially self-conscious and reactive), that once the more feminine space within can be accessed, they can burst open again like a broken water pipe, sharing everything they’ve been feeling this whole time, and the Divine is there holding the bucket that catches it all.

Friday the 13th energies feel like a wrap-up and renewal opportunity that also comes with the Full Moon energies bringing pieces to full circle. It’s definitely a time of rebooting. Of completing one phase and beginning another, even just internally. It could be a time for you of ‘harvest’ as this is the Harvest Moon, which brings in energies of encouragement and support to feel who you truly ARE right now after the journey you’ve been on so far.

In all of this deep feeling release that’s possible right now, there is an opportunity to continue to move on, to move UP in frequency and upgrade your desires for more love in all areas of your life too, especially within, because without that harvest, that cultivation of deepening inner love, the deepest and most healing movements cannot be what they most need to be.

RaphaelΒ andΒ Jelelle AwenΒ will be co-hosting a very powerful group transmission over Zoom tomorrow. I highly recommend checking it out, especially as a way to explore deeper what could be moving for you now. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Support To Breathe & Digest Through Lion’s Gate Momentum

By Kalayna Solais

It’s good to sleep/rest as much as you can right now to help ease the activations in… taking space for yourself feels so necessary and IS so necessary to give you space to feel and BE even if your life is typically ‘busy’. This breathing and feeling space is meant to give you the opportunity to heal AS the activations continue, because what they are activating is not meant to make you or parts of you suffer, though the ‘pressure cooker’ feeling of these activations that can spark some sense of urgency about your next steps is very real too.

This urgency though, is not about something outside of you giving you an ultimatum (though that may manifest if necessary to help you move into something new). Rather, this urgency is coming up from inside of your heart and soul. It’s showing you that what you’re living right now is not enough in many ways. Parts of you may feel guilty that their loyalty to different things, jobs, people is being challenged by new desires arising and being REALized too.

The arising of the truth of what you’ve come here to do and become is not something easily ignored, especially during such activating portal phases as Lion’s Gate. What feelings about your life have parts of you been working so hard to bury or put aside? Reactions of anxiety and depression, if they’re coming up rather strongly right now, are also pointing you in a direction of feeling the GOODNESS of feeling these emotions! They are such spectacular markers of what’s not going the way your soul needs and wants it to go in your life. These feelings are from the rumble within and the fears of parts of you that either things are always just going to be the same, or change will come too quickly. The best thing you can offer them is space to feel with you, to be loved by you, in all they’re feeling… every ounce of fear and disdain, resentment and hope.

There’s always deeper to dig and more layers to feel.

A lion’s ROAR cuts through the din and exposes the truth. And the roar of our Sirian beloveds is here to encourage us to keep going inward to find the truthiest truth within.

Your truth of heart and soul longing and needs is being brought forward, supported, amplified in ways unexpected. There’s so much support available to bridge you to your new timeline. All of the grieving and potential loss is worth the discovery of your vulnerable strength and resilience that comes from deep within… places that have often not yet been explored or felt.

MUCH love to you on your journey… my beloveds and I are here should you desire support for the continued illumination and living out of all of these pieces (and parts): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Will Rise: A Poem For Life’s Changes, Especially When Led By You

By Kalayna Solais

Withered petals

Punctured leaves

Evidence of weathered growth

In soils not fit for your inner garden.

Drained of life force

The life you’ve led

Now taxes the nutrients

That once flowed

To all aspects of your BEing.

To transplant your beautiful Self

To flower once more

And MORE

Brings sometimes dark processes

And NEW ways to relate

To what was once β€˜good’

Yet now isn’t enough.

Yet…

All anguish of the unknown

Soon moves into certainty

Courage

And strength

To keep planting in new soils

Until the one that most nurtures

Heart, body and soul

Is the one you’re planted in.

You will rise…

When the darkness feels

As if it never leads to light.

When the tunnel is tight

And the way through is foggy.

The sun rises still

The moon rises too.

There are beacons

And lighthouses

Offering a way

Offering an β€˜other side’

As your boat is rowed

Through the din of the old

Letting go.

You will rise

And rise again.

You will arise anew

From the YOU you once knew.

And you will find new ways

To make it through

Moving into

What is truly

Most sincerely

Aligned with YOU. ❀

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For more info on sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator, I invite you from my own ever-shifting and evolving heart and soul to check out: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❀

Love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Arising Opportunities For Connection Through Deep Life Change

By Kalayna Solais

Earlier this week, Raianna Shai and I ventured out to Salt Spring Island for a couple of days’ journey… Salt Spring is very easy to get to from here in Victoria, yet I hadn’t been yet and this trip ended up having the most perfect timing with some deep personal changes being navigated recently in my life (more details on that in a future post).

It was wonderful to BE with Raianna in this emerging sense of sisterhood goodness… we have had a bond for quite a while now with her having been a Facilitant of mine in SoulFullHeart, yet we’ve also always had a clear connection on a soul and heart level that goes beyond physical age and even current life experience. Each moment together arose in a new way and we were able to arise in a new way for each other too. I have so much MORE love and appreciation for this feminine being that I get to be in relationship with right now and that feels so good! πŸ˜€

Together on this trip we felt a connection on a Metasoul level as we felt our First Nations Metasoul sisters and their own sisterly connection. They danced and chanted and sang and hugged trees while exploring the beautiful, super-natural landscapes of this stunning island and reuniting with us and with each other too.

There’s something about letting go into life changes and feeling the parts of you that are having a hard time trusting them deeply (or at all) that allows for this sort of newly arising set of circumstances and opportunities to really be let in… the bittersweetness of letting go of what was DOES make room for what IS and what will be. Opportunities do come as we continue to feel our hearts and the parts of us that live there, that hurt there, that need healing there.

There’s much to look forward to, but there’s also much to be with in this very moment too, being real about the pain surfacing and being with the parts that are feeling the losses, the cost, the retrospect, the sentimentality. There’s much to take stock of and digest about the past through big life changes yet there’s also much to hold out for, to envision as possible, to see as imminent and to let in as much as you can in each moment.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Loving Your Self & Parts Through Timeline Collapses

by Kalayna Solais

When a once beloved timeline shatters in our world, there is much to be with inside. Parts of us sometimes scramble to find the answer, a solution, a way to patch up what is coming apart or breaking. They do this in moments of knowing how much there is to feel about it all and they react in understandable fear and feelings of, β€˜what NOW then?’

When life takes a sudden shift, we can’t see the forest for the trees. We can’t see the bigger picture right away, nor are we meant to. We can’t actually understand with deep clarity yet about why this is happening right now or what will happen next as a result of it. In the eye of a storm or the middle of an earthquake, all you can really do is surrender… and that takes the most courage of all. Surrender and feel… and just keep feeling.

More timelines will shatter and scatter… more aspects of our lives as we’ve known them so far will come apart. This is one of those shadowy aspects of our Ascension but it’s not as dark as it seems in moments… the heart has to break to break open sometimes and the goodness that comes from this process is actually quite deep and far-reaching.

This is what I’m leaning into personally right now as more shifts unfold in my life. I’ve been through many, many big timeline shifts already, some that have felt more devastating and been quite a bit harder than others. This latest one is about my β€˜community’ as I’ve known and experienced it starting to go through a kind of diaspora. Gabriel and I are making new choices as they all do, feeling in every moment what our next desires are, individually first and then seeing if and how it aligns together.

I’m also witnessing the touching and deep ways in which beloveds of mine are navigating their own big shifts and changes. It’s a lot to process yet the courage it takes to make each new decision while putting self-love first, is something you don’t soon forget as it stays with you always. πŸ’™

With big changes come big realizations and opportunity for awakenings… invitations to feel your alchemy deeper and trust in it more too, while you discover more about who you are, who you’ve been, and who you most want to be.

No part of us can stay in devastated reactions if we can hold them and their pain, take this time as a phase of discovering something new about ourselves and our life’s patterns to date, and make conscious decisions from the heart and soul both that will unfold in the name of and in alignment with, Love.

If you need support, I am available to serve women under 30 through a Bridging Session and we can feel together what’s unfolding for you. More info here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Much, much love… ❀️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.