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Accepting What You Have Already Manifested In Order To Manifest True Soul Desires

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By  Raphael Awen

The hard part of ‘becoming a manifester’ isn’t the obtaining of some magical alchemical highly-hidden esoteric ability.

It’s something much more mundane.

It’s the self responsibility to see and admit that you already are this manifester, just maybe not of the kinds of realities a part of you was hoping to manifest.

You already fully are the creator. You don’t need to work on that to get it going.

What you can work on is the willingness to assume response-ability for what’s been created already.

What are the various parts of me creating in my life as powerful manifestations?

Why? When? How? With whom?

Make a full-on quest of these questions.

Add in a bunch of love from your Divine Self as you explore these parts of you. Honour all that has been created for how it has brought you to this present moment with both its sorrows and joys.

These parts of you and soul aspects hold your present manifestation power and creativity. If you bridge to them with your opening and curious heart, you can get them on board with creating entirely new realities that never existed before.

Now, the courage you gained in your quest becomes called on in order to adapt to the challenges of the new super abundant reality. Higher timelines are not without challenge, and this is why the universe needed you to start right from where you were without skipping any grades.

I’d love to help you with this process. Check into sessions together at the link below with myself and let’s let the quest reignite.

Raphael Awen

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The pic above was from 6 years ago of Jelelle and I. Just yesterday, as Jelelle stepped out of the house to join me in the back yard for some sun and barefoot grounding, I was again struck by how I get to be in this reality with her. She is without a doubt the most major manifestation that I was surprised by and still am.

I want to find others, soul family others, who are willing to be in and to bear the calling of loves many manifold manifestations. 🌹💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Reconciling Our Needs, Appetites & Desires As A Key To Our Growth

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By  Raphael Awen

It feels so apparent to me that our appetites, needs and desires are the key factor in our growth, learning, evolution as well as our fulfillment.

But the hard part is that it is these same appetites, needs and desires are very intertwined with our pain, our suffering and our addictions.

It may well be that were it not for appetites, needs and desires, there wouldn’t be any suffering. That seems to be the conclusion of many spiritualities. Religions as well offer various ways of dealing with this dilemma and dichotomy.

I’ve been feeling this heightened in myself this past year, heightened more in recent months and weeks dealing with changing body tolerances to favored foods. A lot of life change brings on holding onto familiar comforts for a time and stretching the tension between what fulfills in the moment and what truly rewards.

I was dealing with heightened indigestion, loss of sleep due to frequent urination and came to that point of a deeper desperation. I chose to fast for the needed reset.

It wasn’t a mandated forced self discipline way of going about it. That ability of disciplining myself to do anything is one of the things that has changed for me too, to where what I deepest desire, seems only possible to move towards if it is by desire and surrender. It has been a scary thing to lose, this ability to marshall change by willpower alone.

I do feel all of this as an upgrade, but definitely finding on a deeper level how the only real way that I can navigate any upgrade is to feel it all as I go.

After 3 days of fasting and feeling everything along the way, yesterday, while out for a walk in my familiar village, walking a section without people, I spoke aloud my desires, yearnings and the fears associated with losing the opened-out edge that I feel while fasting. Will desire and appetite just return to their old groove and I’m left with more despair for being almost worse off? I felt the part of me very tenderly who holds that question. I deeply honored the tenderness and transparency of the question. I reflected back to this part of me how awesome it is for us to feel this tension together instead of allowing the unanswered tension play out in our navigation of our appetites and desires.

I’m returning to some fruit smoothie this morning, allowing my strength to return to show up for what’s next.

This is a big piece that Jelelle and I feel called to live and share, this ongoing transition to living on light. Many people have made the transition to where their bodies are sustained without eating physical food, without any loss of the quality of their health.

Many too who reached that place have also found that though they could get their body in the groove, they hadn’t felt all there was to feel along the transition and chose to return to eating in order to fill in the gaps of their transition.

It is light that we all live on. We just differ in how we source that light. That’s the journey and it’s all about our relationship to our desires, appetites and our current fulfillments. That makes for such a deep common denominator amongst us while also making for so much diversity.

To know that light itself without the need for physical food can sustain the body points to the reality that that same light is all we need for all of our needs. We ‘earn’ money as part of journey to realizing that all worth and value is freely available and attainable for all of our needs. Then deeper in the journey we realize that we are so humbly entitled to full sustenance by our birthright in a super abundant universe.

There’s still some ‘rules’ that seem to govern this super abundant universe to where we are in a symbiosis of giving and receiving, but that is a higher frequency than ‘earning’.

What if what you do to earn money could be transformed into giving more of you to love and to life while you earn that money?

Love to every part of us and to each other for holding these tensions of our journey in being born into need desire and our appetites.

Raphael 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energies Support Journey Into Deepest Wants & Needs

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by Kalayna Colibri

Feels like timelines are shifting around again now as more of what you don’t want comes to light and more of what you do actually enters your field, almost simultaneously, though this might be hard for parts of you to see. It’s not a time for over-focusing on results so much as being with the process of it all, step by step, feeling in each moment what you want and don’t want and the clarity of why and where these wants are coming from is showing up as well. Even starting to go here with parts of you may feel tense as admitting to wants, desires, and needs, especially those that aren’t being met currently, brings a rumble into every area of your life and parts of you that worked hard to keep the ground from rumbling are afraid of what the outcome could be.

It’s a lot for parts of you, especially parts that have worked diligently and tirelessly to keep you safe and protected, such as your Inner Protector, to admit that they too have wants and needs and cannot deny themselves these feelings any longer. If you’re starting to feel these sorts of rumblings, there’s an opportunity to build a heart-rail within, a fireplace for the fire that wants to create change and transformation in your inner and outer life and awareness. This is a time when you can choose to be with yourself, to give space for what’s arising and see what’s coming through, heeding the alchemy of it and the changes that are being invited into your life and healing process.

My Star Family is offering to me to share that this is all leading somewhere much more nourishing. As each intense phase of our Ascension comes through, we find ourselves in more scenarios where we need ourselves more than ever, where transcending how parts of us feel isn’t working anymore, and the new flow of love within becomes the life blood for changing our hearts, bodies, and souls over to the reality of less tolerance for anything that is not love while being willing to be in the messiness of feeling and navigating this. To continue to trust that this is all worth it is all we can ask of ourselves and work towards deepening with parts of us who feel overwhelmed by it all… this is the continued journey of maturation as a species on all levels.

There is so much support from Love to continue feeling and being, even when it’s necessary to take action and move into some further steps that often involve saying ‘no’ to some things and ‘yes’ to others while setting boundaries and feeling through what’s needed and wanted in each moment. Even moments of feeling lonely or as if something is missing or left-of-centre for you in any area of your life, there is a constant flow of alchemy that is asking you to feel this and let in this reality, to be courageous enough to be with it and have a relationship with it as it transmutes and ascends along with you into all of those desired higher-dimensional frequencies.

If you feel the need for support, you can so reach out to myself or my beloveds for Bridging Sessions. More details here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

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By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lunar Eclipse Energies: Feel/See Your Highest Timeline & Fears Of It Too

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by Kalayna Colibri

New possibilities… I feel them humming in the background of ‘everyday life’ with a frequency of soft invitation. Nothing is being forced in these moments. You may be experiencing activations, yet you can only ever be invited to step into the bigger container of soul and heart that they co-create with you, not pushed, though if parts of you have resistance to the invitation than it can feel this way to them. Awakening is growth and expansion and eventually, you become too big for the small container your parts have been used to feeling “OK” with in your relationships, job/career, healing path, etc.

‘Activations’, whether from lunar or solar energies, are awakenings into higher timelines… the highest being the one where there are no compartments needed and everything, every aspect of your life, can flow together in a beautiful (though sometimes messy) dance of integration. Maybe you can feel parts of you that are still wanting the compartments and are willing to defend the borders of each area of your life with any ammo they can find. Maybe you can also start to feel that each part who feels this way has good reason to fear the collapse of these borders that they have worked so hard to defend.

This coming full lunar eclipse on the 27th has an energy of feminine invitation… it’s a frequency that doesn’t force, yet illuminates and holds space. It’s an activation of the heart, a gentle flip of a switch on the heart-light, that helps you feel the parts of you that need to be felt through this whole process of Ascension and everything that is being brought to collapse or completion along with it, as well as everything that is being activated in the soul by SOULar energies. Along with feeling and being in relationship with these parts of you, comes the awakening to your highest timeline possibilities, the ones that have felt impossible or at least very far away before. Feeling the push-pull inside you when you feel the picture of your higher timeline opening out is important now, and the feminine helps you make room to feel all there is to feel while also taking steps toward inhabiting/embodying it.

Feeling the “I want it/I don’t want it” polarity dance inside of you is important, especially as you feel the powerful call into service of love and the call to feel your personal desires for your life too. The movement that comes from feeling your parts/Metasoul Aspects around this in a loving container held by you will go much deeper than any “quick fix” or looking only to outside sources to move it for you. The gift of finding that powerful healer within you whose ultimate superpower is the deep love of every part or aspect of you is one that WILL last and is the main ticket to that higher timeline flow you’ve been aching to truly be in.

Much love to you as these eclipse energies continue to flow in and encourage you to just feel… in this moment and every other moment that follows. ❤

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If you’re feeling drawn to asking for support on your journey to illuminating and stepping into your highest timeline(s), I would welcome you to connect with me for a 90min Bridging Session if you are a woman who is 35 or under. My beloveds, Raphael, Jelelle, and Gabriel also offering Bridging Sessions. For more information, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Wants, Desires And Needs: Essential Aspects Of Our Ascension

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by Kalayna Colibri

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My ever-healing heart and the energy of Mary Magdalene, want to share this invitation with you today…

You are so beloved…why are you afraid to desire?

You are created for adventures… why have parts of you, soul aspects of you, decided that it’s safer, cleaner, not to claim your needs and wants?

Do you, arising sacred human heart, feel how this is what keeps you from entering the processes you most need and want to, in your soul? Those sacred upheavals of emotion and soul bursts that show you what you need to feel and heal next? These feelings of ‘I will never get what I want’ are actually a shout crowding a gentler whisper that says, ‘I’m afraid I actually might get what I want…’.

Want. Desire. Need. These are loaded words, oft kept in a box, labeled ‘danger!’ and rightly so… this Pandora’s Box is a life changer, the love you eventually can’t ignore though parts of you may try so hard to do so. There is nothing wrong with the delay of feeling what you most want, for you are wired to want MORE anyways. You are in gratitude for what you have, yes, yet this gratitude needs more space for breathing too, for expanding into a bigger heart container that also holds desires for more depth of relationship, a more suitable geography, an impeccable soul and heart romance, soul friendships within conscious community, challenges to just keep going, moving, healing, diving in… Gratitude cannot really be used to suppress your desires, but can instead be used to enrich and enliven them.

Your most sacred terrain of change is in your healing heart. No true and lasting changes can be made on the outside without the inside leading the way. New wants, needs and desires rise up from process, as an aspect of feeling parts and soul fragments of you, as something to keep you heading along your path. They are meant to shift and change as you are, yet this shifting and changing need not be a dulling of your sharpness of wanting, your ability to create and co-create. If anything, it sharpens you further, clarifying with greater depth and breadth what it is you most deeply want NOW and NOW. If you are feeling yourself, if you are in a healing process, you need not worry about your desires being over-indulgent or false or harmful. As your heart heals, so do your motivations in every area of life, until life has no ‘areas’ or ‘segments’ or especially ‘compartments’ but is one life lived in and according to LOVE… where does LOVE want me to flow today? What does it want to illuminate for me in this phase, in this very moment?

The deeper fears of desiring and wanting, live under the resistance to feel them… they are the vulnerability of feeling that nothing in life is guaranteed and yet if your heart truly wants it, the path aligns to make it happen WITH you, not for or to you. The desire is the beacon, the light at the end of the sometimes long, long tunnel. It is the picture, the double-vision you can hold fast to while walking among hot coals of sometimes shadowy process grounds. It is the warm voice beckoning you to keep moving onward by turning inward, seeing for the first time that this voice is yours.

We are full-up of expectations from others that have somehow become our own. We are passed down legacies of withdrawal from life and ultimately from LOVE. We are given only the tools necessary to keep being safe and sound and secure, not loving ourselves through vows of cherishment and self-awe. This means deflecting that which doesn’t match a much duller picture, sacrificing dreams for ‘knowns’. Gratitude comes in the moments we realize that we are exactly where we need to be while on the path of the adventure to what we most deeply want. Gratitude is covered by inherited brambles when we wait alongside the path and don’t choose to step out onto it. Synchronicities send over invitations to keep walking, moving, remembering, letting more love in, yet we will only accept the invite if we are ready to recognize that this messenger is who we’ve been waiting for.

What is it that your heart most desires and needs for you and from you in this moment, on this day? Feel this, bring it inward to your heart with curiosity and love, as a parent to a growing child or a gardener to a blooming rose. Let yourself be taken, fascinated by your wants and needs. Allow in some moments of feeling all there is to feel and see what new places, on this very next step of your burgeoning, ever-ascending life, open up for you next. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.