Category: Awakening Process

Covid-19/Coronavirus and Fall Of Cabal Documentaries Offer Bigger Picture About 3D and 4D Matrix Realities

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https://youtu.be/ZhQX8Sqc-kE

Fall Of The Cabal: I feel that I need to share this documentary as it offers a bridge of understanding and overview of the Cabal/Illuminati, the movement of Q, and represents the putting together of many pieces of the puzzle over the years by the creator of it Janet Ossebaard (also a decades long crop circle researcher and believer) and many people all over the world. It is a three hour investment that can change how you see the world.

It is also very timely to watch it right now as we (and many others) feel the Cabal and the 3D Matrix they created to ‘keep asleep’ so many souls is right now in the process of being taken down/collapsed. We have shared in writings and livestream videos that it feels like the coronavirus (originally created and even patented (!) by the Cabal) is being used ‘against them’ now as a cover or smokescreen for mass arrests and detainments of key Cabal figures at all levels. To be in our homes right now is less a matter of not spreading the virus (although it helps), yet also about keeping us safe from false flag activities, bombings, mass shootings, etc.

This is a challenging documentary to get through and I had waves of tears as I watched it (even as I have awakened to this information many years ago). It feels important to feel the reality of this dark, lower 4D timeline that has been running at the same time as the 3D Matrix hologram one.

This is an important aspect of our awakening and Ascension into our sacred humanity. This is the cries of the children that permeates our senses, our emotional bodies, our collective unconscious and resonates with our Inner Children inside too. To ignore or bypass these cries is to bypass an essential part of ourselves and our Divine essence.

Feel your own resonance or truth as you watch this..or not. It is difficult to accept (esp. to the 3D self and other parts still plugged into the 3D Matrix because they have had to be to survive) and does bring up cognitive and emotional dissonance. Hold space for your reactions or numbness too (that seems to be a phase of digestion around it, perhaps the Inner Protector being protective). Let parts of you cry if they need to, especially your Inner Child.

I feel the Divine Mother and esp Mother Mary offering much love and forgiveness to BOTH sides right now (as there ultimately aren’t any sides in the higher realms). This isn’t so much about anyone being an ultimate saviour here either (such as Trump and/or JFK Jr.) as we all have the capacity to ‘save’ ourselves and become the indwelling Yeshua/Christ and Divine Feminine/Magdalene energy that can rise above this darker timeline and into the New Earth 5D one.

Covid-19 Documentary Just Out March 27, 2020:

Here’s a brand NEW documentary from the same creator Janet Ossebaard about Covid-19! It is less than hour yet very powerfully lays out the origins of Covid-19, its original intentions, development of bioweapons and vaccines by the Cabal, and how what was meant to take down everything to allow a police state has been turned around by the Alliance/White Hats to be used as a cover up for mass arrests without fear of harm to the public!!!

I so appreciate her efforts here to untangle it all with not much time available to do that and to put it out as possibilities at this point. Feels like we will know much more ‘truth’ quite soon. I feel the same as her about it….this virus (originally intended to be used by the Cabal and created by them) has ended up being a gift of mass distraction and cover up. To allow the New world to arise that we have all been waiting for!

First part is here with the other two also uploaded to this channel: 

https://youtu.be/jFvCwdfoiH8

I offer so much love from my heart to yours and to ALL the precious children inside and out…..and even to the ‘dark players’ all involved in this current Divine playout,
Jelelle Awen

Here are our writings and videos about the coronavirus as a cover up for Cabal collapse: https://soulfullheartblog.com/catego…/ascension/coronavirus/

Do reach out if you need 1:1 support right now for a session over Zoom! Tender movements and processes are occurring as we digest together! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Here is an inner child meditation if yours is calling to you and needing support and love: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

Join Raphael Awen and I for a six week group call series with teachings, guided meditation and sharings over Zoom called Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix To New Earth Transition. Our plan is to start next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT. Yet if the blackout happens (that I wrote about yesterday), we will begin the Wednesday after services are back, of course, and go for five Wednesdays at 10:00am PDT after that. You can join us live or receive the recordings via whatever donation amount you can afford. More info here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

 

Coronavirus/Cabal Collapse Q & A, Unifying Guided Meditation Video March 25 | Raphael and Jelelle Awen

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https://youtu.be/cPRr6d1pxBw

SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Ascension Guides Raphael and Jelelle Awen hosted this live Q&A, energy update, and guided meditation that originally aired March 25th, 2020. They answer questions, respond to comments and digest the coronavirus/COVID-19 outbreak and the 3D Matrix dismantling that they feel is going on behind-the-scenes of it for which the virus is being used as a smokescreen or cover up for it.

The questions asked during the livestream were about this cover up, how to communicate with those who aren’t aware of the Cabal, and more. They offered many resources to connect with to get more information about the Cabal and its collapse. Raphael and Jelelle offer a process of inner and outer amnesty and ambassadorship toward these dark energies, starting with connecting with your Inner Child as a forgiveness frequency is nature in their essence.

Here are some the resources we mentioned in the video:

Fall of the Cabal documentary (part five is missing from this playlist but you can find it on youtube): https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

David Wilcock’s On The Great Pandemic Video: What’s Really Going On: https://youtu.be/2I10P5tMLlI

And others: Sacha Stone interview: Virus Is A 3D Detox: https://youtu.be/Bmg1cwxar_M

Liz Crokin video series about Coronavirus as cover for Cabal arrests: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCL5Q…

Event 201: Amazing Polly video: https://youtu.be/IRJpP83MqNs

The guided meditation during the last fifteen minutes offers a unifying energy that brings us all together, even while in ‘isolation’, and helps us open our hearts to the world and each other, in service of love and in heart and soul connection together. Yeshu and the Magdalenes emit their loving energies into the group circle and parts of you (including your Inner Child and Inner Protector) are invited to join us!

You can see the comments and questions that they were responding to here on her FB feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

Here are all of Jelelle’s and other SoulFullHearts writings about the coronavirus: https://soulfullheartblog.com/catego……

This livestream is a good preview and taste of what our six week group call series will be like with teachings, guided meditation and sharings over Zoom called Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix To New Earth Transition. It will be starting next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT and going for five Wednesdays at 10:00am PDT after that. You can join us live or receive the recordings via whatever donation amount you can afford. More info here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

There are many guided meditations on this playlist with Jelelle and others in SoulFullHeart that are a helpful bridge into connecting with different aspects and parts of you: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

Sessions with Raphael or Jelelle are helpful and immense resources for healing deeply. To feel more into if a 1:1 session could be right for you, visit: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

 

 

Feeling & Processing Current Events With The Inner Child

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by Kalayna Solais

As I went into meditation this morning, members of my Star Family were right there waiting for me and for a very precious part of me, especially.

I’ve been closest with my Star Family aspects from Sirius over the last few years. I think in some ways this is because, well, they are feline and look like “lion-people” so that makes them easier to let in for my young parts especially, but also, they are among the groups that have been working the closest with humanity. You may especially feel them nearby, energizing love and support to you around “Lion’s Gate” every August 8th. They’re also accessible because they’ve been where we are now and they understand the Ascension process well from their own experience of it and of the sacred yet often ‘bliss-messy’ steps along the way.

My Sirian-Lyran (that’s a sort of ‘star being name’ I’ve been offered to call them as it encompasses their origins) aspect named Ineerah and her masculine counterpart named Ortho wanted to connect with me and with my Inner Child, Lilly. They have been feeling her and MANY Inner Children a lot lately with everything going on. The Inner Child seems to be THE seat of sensitivity and deep reactions to what is going on right now, alongside the deep soul rumbles that everyone is feeling as the ‘collapse’ happening around us in different ways is very reminiscent of other timelines our souls all know very well (which our Inner Children are also impacted by to some degree).

Ineerah and Ortho wanted to connect with Lilly and feel her in this heightened sensitivity to the world. She is (as they always seem to be) very empathic and even a deep layer of all of us who feel we are ‘healers’ in some way.

Just yesterday I felt deep tears with her about the ‘meanness’ of others, not just towards her, but towards each other. She doesn’t like the judgements everyone has of one another and the harshness too. She doesn’t like how intense parts of people can be about ‘rules’ and ‘health regulations’, especially while she feels all of this is about SO MUCH MORE than a ‘virus’. She hasn’t felt much about what’s happening/not happening in our world right now and is actually quite happy to hear that animals are returning to places like Venice and that China’s skies are clearing. She hopes for a better future, just like all of our Inner Children do. And in that, they need presence, especially OUR presence. And, they need a voice. But, their voice cannot be heard, let alone land, in a world that remains as chaotic and out-of-touch with the real heart of things and their own individual hearts too, as has been true up ’til now.

This is what my Sirian-Lyran Star Family told her this morning, in light of this,

“Lilly,  the world is going through what it needs to right now so that you and parts like you can come out and feel safer. You WILL feel free to love and let in love in new ways as has been very unimaginable sometimes beyond your soul family connections. We know how much you ache to love and to have it be as simple as that… adult relationships, as you’ve noticed, are so complicated sometimes, but in a world where you get to be you, in all of the magic that’s within you, you get to be part of the celebration of what’s coming. You and all other parts like you are a light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel! And there’s nothing you need to DO to BE this, you just simply ARE this.”

They’re emphasizing to me now to share that our Inner Children are not a ‘solution’, but they are a ‘result’. Meaning, they are not (though sometimes this happens) meant to be actively ‘used’ as a means to an end by other parts of us to ‘solve’ issues on this planet or in our relationships, pressing on and using their hurt and pain somehow instead of healing it, which can only happen if/when we scoop them up and hold them close as us, ourselves. Their ideal alignment is with love and deep soul and heart freedom and they are freed up by the work you do with other parts of you and within your soul healing as well. They are not the labour pains of birthing the new reality, yet they ARE a new reality, especially as their essence of innocence, empathy, and trust in the Divine get to be re-discovered and unearthed.

In all of the sensitivity arising in just about everyone right now, whether it’s showing up mostly as fear, or sadness, or even excitement about what’s possible after all of this is over, it feels important to remember that this sensitivity was always there, just buried in busyness, which is now falling away. The real feelings of the heart can no longer be medicated or hidden in the same ways now that the outer world has been ‘locked down’. This can lead each of us into many deep processes yet these feelings are all meant to bring us into our truest anchoring from within of the New Earth that is in the middle of birthing into our reality.

If you feel ready to try and be with or even meet your own sweet Inner Child, you can try this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help you get in touch with them: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

And, as always, my beloveds Jelelle and Raphael are available for 1:1 sessions if you would like to receive some mega-hearted love and support at this time: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love from my heart and parts, and Star Family too, to yours!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Coronavirus & 3D Matrix Reboot Q&A, Unity Consciousness Guided Meditation Video | Jelelle Awen

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https://youtu.be/XxhCJcAAaEk

SoulFullHeart Divine Feminine Teacher/Facilitator and Ascension Guide Jelelle Awen hosted this live Q&A, energy update, and guided meditation that originally aired March 17th, 2020. She answers questions, responds to comments and digests the coronavirus/COVID-19 outbreak and the 3D Matrix dismantling that she feels is going on behind-the-scenes of it for which the virus is being used as a smokescreen.

The questions asked during the livestream were about the time frame of the ‘shut down’ and switch over from dark-based systems into New Earth systems, preparation steps to take during it, how to relate with those who are not quite yet awakening, how the coronavirus connects to the 5G rollout, and more. Jelelle shares her personal collapse experiences and offers an invitation for ALL to step into more service of love and sharing in whatever ways they are called to do. She also offers how to take care of and feel yourself, your parts, your Metasoul Aspects in other timelines/lifetimes (especially those experiencing collapse such as in Atlantis, Lemuria) in the midst of so much intensity.

The guided meditation during the last fifteen minutes offers a unifying energy that brings us all together, even while in ‘isolation’, and helps us open our hearts to the world and each other, in service of love and in heart and soul connection together. Divine Mother and Divine Father emit their loving energies into the group circle and parts of you (including your Inner Child and Inner Protector) are invited to join us!

You can see the comments and questions that Jelelle was responding to here on her FB feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

Here are all of Jelelle’s and other SoulFullHearts writings about the coronavirus: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/ascension/coronavirus/

There are many guided meditations on this playlist with Jelelle and others in SoulFullHeart that are a helpful bridge into connecting with different aspects and parts of you: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz

Sessions with Raphael or Jelelle are helpful and immense resources for healing deeply. To feel more into if a 1:1 session could be right for you, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

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by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay ‘high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. ‘Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the ‘service to self’ versus ‘service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a ‘whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@renebbernal

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Embracing Lillith: A Poem Of Feminine Self-Discovery

Published on by Kasha Rosa4 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

Easing in
To me
To Her…
The softness gathers ‘round
In flowing birthing waters
To hold and to move
To alter and to cleanse
What has been
To prepare for
What will be.

She waits in her garden
My garden within
Of inner workings
In billowing dresses
Of white satins
And lace.

She invites
And it lands deeper now
Than it ever could
When the stakes of feeling deeper
Needed more space to be felt.

With her hands
She takes mine

With her heart
She holds mine

And with Her
I stand now taller
With the grace of a thousand lifetimes
Cultivated
Both mine and never ‘mine’
Collective and personal
Feminine and Masculine.

By Her
I am supported
In all explorations
That remind me

I won’t EVER give up on love.

In the balance made
By the unknowns
Now becoming known
She awaits the phase
When our lifeblood’s
Heart muscle
Beats out the rhythm
Of new creations
From the very core
Of what has made us
Both souls and humans
With every bridge possible
In between.

Arising in Her midst
I arrive in ME
Maiden
Priestess
Magdalene
Sacred Feminine Bridge
Inviting others
Into Her dance
Of Oneness within
Extending without
Yet, always grounded
In the timelessness
Of the Higher Heart
And ever-expanding
Soul.

Embodied for now
In a dance of human-made
Female flesh
Flushed with goodness
Singing with Ascension
And breathing with the ecstasy
Of a heart healing and rediscovered
Within the softening bedrock
Of a countenance
Never really forgotten
Only set aside.

I sense the exquisite timing
Of Her rebirth
Bringing with tender lushness
The bourgeoning new Now
Of the age being born
Within the context of ever-deepening
Divinely human
Ever-galactic

Love.

A love I won’t EVER give up on.

…as if I ever even could.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming The Peaks And Valleys Of Awakening

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by Raphael Awen

You can have what you want. That’s not actually the question.

The bigger question is about being ready to have what you want.

A part of you may readily say ‘oh, believe me, I’m ready! I’m so ready, I’m getting both depressed and impatient waiting to have what I really want.’

But this is only taking into consideration one part of you. Other parts of you can be just off your radar and actively resisting you (or what we call ‘you’) as they are not interested at all in these big changes ‘you’ feel you are so ready for. This resistive part of you is not something you can control, but it is something that you are responsible for, and something that you need to become responsive to.

Then, there is also another aspect of you, that is probably also just off your radar and that is your higher self. Your higher self may have chosen a preferred path of difficulty and going without something that another part of you deeply desires in order to learn and grow through a difficulty. It wouldn’t actually be a growth crucible without this tension between what ‘you’ want and don’t want. Your higher self is also something you cannot control, but it is something you are responsible for and that you also need to become more responsive to.

You are not a victim. Your life as you know it now is shaped by you, and the life you will come to know in the future is also shaped by you.

Your life as it is right now, warts and all, is perfect in the midst of imperfection. You are perfect while growing and learning. All the angst, pain and confusion is sacred. You had so much heaven that you needed to dial up hell in order to grow. Your soul loved the heaven it knew, but it also wanted more, and it knew the path to more was though the tension of less.

Consciously letting go of reaching for peak experiences and instead welcoming your awaiting valley experiences is what your soul may be asking of you. You may have very much needed your awakening experiences that happened through the peak experiences to let you know what is possible and what awaits you. But now, your soul wants you to let go of what a part of you may be be in danger of becoming quite addicted to, in order now to more consciously connect to what you actually came here for.

Whether conscious or not, you can’t escape growth. Growth is built into the DNA of the universe that you are a part of. While you can’t escape growth, you can accept your awakening to what is, and even the need to mourn the loss of your deep night’s rest in the 3D fusion of unconsciousness.

Now, as you are awakening, you are offered a conscious choice that your path up, is a path down. The downward path is a matter of feeling all there is to feel that you were not able to feel while asleep in 3D consciousness.

This will involve feeling crappy on a regular basis for a good amount of time. If this isn’t an option for ‘you’, then you are not yet ready for this deeper more conscious path of healing, but you can be assured, all of us will be invited and re-invited to return here just as soon and we are ready to. It is what we came here for. We came here to ascend with all of us, without any ‘lesser’ parts of us left behind being punished for any insubordination, or for just not getting the program.

Time now to look at what we’ve called ‘spiritual practices’ to feel where they are actually about transcending in the name of ascending, where they are about not feeling, rather than true healing.

We all come eventually to having what we most deeply want, with the fullest and deepest bliss that we can’t quite imagine. We are living our way to being able to imagine it as we feel and heal the parts of us still in deep pain that were covered over with our positive spirituality agendas.

Time now for a negative spirituality agenda that sees it all as sacred.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

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by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Ongoing Journey Of Serving Love

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by Kalayna Solais

Service is a journey, not a destination…

When I first started awakening and paying close attention to different spiritual teachers, authors, etc, parts of me took this whole world of being a ‘leader’ in personal development, healing, etc as a place of arrival; as somewhere you land, someday, and never leave and are never really asked to leave. I didn’t know back then about the dis-integrity that often comes with these high-up places and ‘roles’ that are often not heart-inhabited or emotionally awakened though the soul may be quite ‘attained’ in many ways.

Parts of me wanted to be one of them… wanted the accolades, the spotlight, the sense of ‘arrival’ and ultimately having ‘healed’ so much. Really though, it was the feeling sense of living your truest soul purpose day-in and day-out, fully aligned with who you came here to BE and what you came here to offer others that was the shiniest asset for me.
Yet… it wasn’t exactly real.

At least not in the ways that I was thinking it was at the time.
There’s a sheen and a glamour that is starting to fade and tarnish now. There are still those who are worshipped yet the abuses they are part of toward others and ultimately themselves is starting to show through the shiny fabric. The ‘Wizard of Oz’ can no longer hide in this process of Ascension.

Even the most highly praised leaders are starting to realize that their sense of service of others, to whatever degree it’s been genuine for them, is in fact an ongoing journey and not an ultimate destination where you no longer need to grow, to look at yourself, to realize what has been hiding in the shadows of your heart and soul that now need to purge out and be seen and felt, loved and humbled.

The desire that has always been with me to get to some ‘place’ where I can serve love more directly with individuals and groups still lives in me to some degree and every day I feel it. I see it show up in others too, even many young men and women are much younger than me, who have parts of them that feel the need to aim for this ‘destination’ place, often as a way (and it was this for me too, once upon a time) to leap-frog over the necessary life experiences and deeper healing processes that come first and foremost in order to be fully embodied and feel the humility (and humanity too) that comes with being of deep service; an alignment with yourself, your soul, your own ongoing healing process that overflows to others with deep integrity and honesty.

I’ve learned over and over again to not rush myself to ‘get somewhere’ I may not be for a while. Supporting those around me that are in a flow of service feels right to my heart for now. I don’t feel that in this I am shrinking at all from my bigness, but that I’m being given space and an invitation to explore my own process deeper, trusting that all of the inward time opens out as needed into some expression of service that can only expand as my soul does.

Maybe, then, we can say that there IS an ‘arrival gate’ when it comes to service-of-love flow and one that you simply ‘know’ you’ve arrived at when you have, yet that it’s only another leg of your very individual journey of YOUR ever-deepening healing and growth process, meant to shift every ground within and outside of you, in all areas of your life and with all parts of you/aspects of your soul.

Much love to YOU on YOUR journey of ‘arriving’ where you are right now… into the invitation to just keep feeling yourself, trusting that this is what truly takes you, with the most integrity possible, into your next phase of ‘service’ to self and others. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Casket To Cradle/Death & Rebirth Guided Meditation Video Four Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

 

In this fourth video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) talk about the death/rebirth cycle that we are constantly going through in awakening…the ‘death’ of 3D conditioning and the layers of protection created from it and the ‘birth’ of our awakening, 4D/5D self with parts of us integrating into it as they heal. I share about how you might be experiencing this death/rebirth cycle in your life, on a spectrum from subtle to extreme life changes, choices, transitions, and shifts, and how tuning into Divine trust and soul context helps with it.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Dark Mother join you in a funeral service to honor and feel the part of you that wants and is ready to die, to let go, and to move on. Mother Mary then guides you to connect with the higher frequency version of yourself being born in a cradle. The meditation helps you to bridge and hold space for the death/rebirth process in a conscious way while you are connected to Divine support and trust.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

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This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.