Category: Awakening Process

Leaving Home

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By Raphael Awen

Home is a frequency.

Part of the ache for home is a residual homing instinct drawing you back to your true home.

You left a home, that like any other home, you, we, all had normalized and taken for granted.

We knew we were more wanting and waiting to happen. We knew our parents were silently counting on us to reach out for that more, just as they had reached for their more, the baton being passed to us.

We entered less while remaining in possession of all. The less we entered was only in regard to the awareness of our grandeur, rather than any lessening of our true essence. We needed a place that felt not-grand from which to be re-membered with our grandeur, and in that process to be transmuted yet further into new beyonds.

There wasn’t sufficient duality to provide this necessary sense of loss that we needed to experience movement in our previous domain of home.

The depression or anxiety or rage that you feel, or any other so called ‘negative’ emotion are all emissions of this home frequency drawing you back home. We’ve resisted these emotions and drugged them down in so many ways because at core, we are afraid of losing these anchors to the 3rd dimension.

We long for our ultimate home, but one of the deepest expressions of that missing and longing is to attach to a present home. We fear letting something so catastrophic as the feeling of losing home happen to us again. We are still digesting the choice we made to strike out on our own journey to leave home, venturing into more godhood. We were not willing to skip over any feeling as feeling we knew was mission critical.

If you live in the forest, you build your home out of wood. We found ourselves in the land of loss, and so we have, quite magically actually, built our home out of the abundant commodities of anxiety and depression, and fear. It’s admittedly not the greatest, but it is home, and it is familiar, and from here, we are invited to feel.

Who would have guessed though that our enduring essence would call to us from any home we crafted in any place in this domain of lesser?

We knew our essence was immutable. We knew our sovereignty was indisputable. We knew our infallibility was a given, so we chose to fall into forgetting all that. Our fall from grace was and is a fall into the grace we were, but needed to escape to have the experience of leaving and returning.

We left in order to enter.

Without this journey, we couldn’t know the deeper depths of what we were and are.

This is the true construct of the time zone; a place to have expanded out feelings of awareness, this journey, measured out in days.

Our consciousness is programmed securely to come back to full rememberance. Not only that (magical as that is), we are also programmed to return home to becoming even so much more, that we of course can’t see or know until we can.

In our previous bliss, we normalized that experience. It became old. The looks on our faces became predictable and all too familiar. This normalizing tendency is what we might call a downside of individuated consciousness. As individuated consciousness, our assignment is to experience experience itself and report back to essence on what that feels like. We’re creating a central bank (of the non corrupt variety) of these feeling deposits as a cosmic fuel tank to take us deeper into exploring the essence of what we actually are.

So now you see how your everyday familiar feelings of your life as you currently know it, having normalized the magical into the mundane, is a clarion call to awaken to deeper feelings of who and what you really are. This is tuning in your home frequency.

You feeling more expansive feelings of remembering who you really are is the mission. That mission is the great quantum gift to all. Feel that today, as deeply as you can, and then put your feet up! You’ve just changed the whole world. You’ll be ready for more tomorrow.

We are taking our time, literally using up all the time in the world, to decide if and when we are ready… ready to tune in more of this homing frequency of home, returning to not only the home we once knew, but one so much more.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Understanding Why You May Settle, Shrink And Stay Safe: Connecting With Your Inner Protector

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter, offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!  Go here to read or click on the image below:

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SoulFullHeart co-creator Jelelle Awen starts us off this week with her feature article highlighting the pattern of settling, shrinking, and staying safe in terms of working with parts of us that have polarized feelings on the matter. She describes how the Inner Protector part in particular feels perfectly satisfied with safe relationships, because keeping you safe is its job. She then goes on to outline how we would work with this part in SoulFullHeart, through feeling the fear and resistances that live within through questions, readings, sessions, and journaling:

“I am sharing about this from my own experience of my Inner Protector and how this energy shows up…and also from seeing and feeling this dynamic in many other people over the years in sessions. The key to moving this in order to DRAW the more that your Awakening Self wants is through negotiation with your Protector. To feel and hear and get WHY they are concerned, scared, and resistant to this movement. There are always good reasons for this protection, usually stemming from undigested childhood trauma yet, also, from other lifetimes. Just because you cannot consciously remember (or maybe don’t want to remember) these traumatic incidents and events doesn’t mean that don’t impact your daily life in the now. These traumas and karma dramas remain stuck there and energizing STRONGLY, even if you are not consciously as aware of them. To offer compassion to these woundings and the parts that hold them is what moves them through the increasing awareness and consciousness and separation too.”

There was more digestion this week of the 11/11 energies from SouFullHeart facilitator Kalayna Colibri, who feels the importance of taking this time to go within in order to heal these inner dark corners that these energies have given us easier access to. Co-creator Raphael Awen tenderly shares his experiences of letting go of relationships that no longer served him, and feeling how this act is a reflection of his own growing self worth and awakening. Gabriel Heartman, SoulFullHeart facilitator, reflects on 11/11 as Remembrance Day, feeling that it’s a day to remember the love we came from and to feel connected to each other through the wars we’ve all felt as we transition back into love.

Our next upcoming event is a livestream with Kalayna and Gabriel on Saturday, November 25th at 11:11am CST.

We now offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

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Anchoring Out Of 3D With Gaia: Steering Your Boat Through Transitional 4D to 5D

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By Jelelle Awen

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Gaia continues to ascend into fourth dimensional consciousness or transitional consciousness from 3D to 5D New Golden Earth with a big surge seemingly of this in the last few months particularly. The storms, earthquakes, fires, volcanic eruptions, and tornados…all matter of extreme weather are Her growing and birth pains as She labors through to let go of the anchors to 3D frequencies that exist in the very cells of Her plates and crusts. Her death and rebirth, Her churning and burning, Her grasping and releasing process, mirrors our own. The many portals opening up and making available HIGH cosmic light and PURE love energies set Her stage for the next, as they do humanities too.
 
Anchoring into consciousness states is necessary for our survival and our thrival. We anchored into Gaia’s 3D ‘Earth’ reality as it was the sea for our bodily boat. It is instinct to do this and when we are young we just ‘hook in’ this way to the consciousness around us. We acclimate to the energies around us….of our birth families, of our caregivers, of our geographies, of our educational experiences…and on and on. To NOT anchor in would be to drift and float, to have no landing place, to not be embodied here. To NOT anchor in would most likely be to leave the body and pass on again.
 
The incarnation experiment in 3D is the choice on a soul level to anchor into frequencies that are much denser, more polarized, and, therefore, fractured in certain ways from the flow of porous, unity consciousness that we are used to as a soul. Many of our other Metasoul aspects (who project off the same higher dimensional soul source as us or Higher Self Source) are still in higher consciousness frequencies. Your Arcturian Metasoul aspect, for example, is most likely in seventh dimensional consciousness or higher. These other Metasoul aspects are anchored into their consciousness as it was what that Metasoul projection choose to experience. Their choice of higher consciousness experience is not ‘better’ than yours. In fact, they are in awe of the effort, strength, bravery, and difficulty it is to BE in 3D consciousness and especially during this 4D transition to becoming sacred human (5D consciousness in the human body.)
 
This anchoring into 3D here has been SO necessary. This is important to hold as you continue the process going forward of anchoring out of it. As you are feeling and seeing with Gaia’s transition, this is a often tumultuous experience. To anchor OUT of what parts of you are used to feels, on some level, like suicide or, at least, very risky. Your 3D self (and aspects such as the Inner Protector) have invested into the solidity of 3D. They have counted on its density, even if it has often brought up suffering, lack, pain, to BE in it. Your 3D self has gotten used to this suffering ground, this flattened five sense reality processing, this focus on the externalized world rather than the internal one. It has gotten used to the games, delusions, fear-based relationality, and lack of transparency that defines 3D reality. Receiving templates of the wounded masculine in so many expressions, your 3D self internalizes these frequencies and acts them out like characters in a play.
 
As your soul awakens and your Higher Self chooses to come along with Gaia’s ascension, higher consciousness frequencies begin to drip and sometimes flood into your awareness. Often, they are compartmentalized by the 3D self, put in ‘safe’ bubbles or pockets so as not to disrupt the anchors in actual 3D living. For example, a weekend long yoga or meditation retreat is ‘allowed’, as long as the long term marriage or friendships or birth family relationships remain anchored in 3D reality. Or, surges of awakening and Kundalini energies can move and run through you brought on by peak experiences (such as with Ayahuasca or peyote), yet they may not be integrated into 3D in a way that changes your life to reflect more of your soul consciousness on an ongoing basis or even cause trauma in your emotional body with the lack of digestion of them.
 
We are seeing and hearing from more souls who are struggling with integration of the higher consciousness frequencies that are coming into their BEings. Parts of them can be living in fear, tension, and anxiety as anchors are being pulled out of 3D by the ascension process and yet still being clung to at the same time by the Inner Protector and other 3D self aspects too. This push-pull of polarization inside by different parts of you is what causes the up into heaven and then down into hell experience that some souls experience of ascension. The swing up and the going down without seemingly a middle landing place to ground in.
 
Being able to negotiate and digest this UNanchoring process out of 3D with parts of you allows you to navigate it with much less turmoil and suffering. In the SoulFullHeart process, we support you to connect with your 3D self and your Inner Protector. Through feeling the Protector and what their concerns and tensions are about continuing to anchor out of 3D reality, they begin to let go of their fear grip on the process. They start to trust that you (the awakening into 5D self) can take care of the younger parts (such as your Inner Child) that they are concerned about. They need to feel that a YOU that is grounded in growing self love and care is there to hold the process and to ensure a safe transition. You are asking them to take safety anchors out of 3D and put them into a new, unknown consciousness ground often without any or very little support from their 3D world of family and friends. Feeling deep compassion for your 3D self in this process goes a long way, rather than frustration at its resistance.
 
This process also awakens the 4D Gatekeeper, who is ‘upstream’ of the Inner Protector and is guarding access to your Metasoul. As the Gatekeeper awakens too in your consciousness through the SFH process, they start to allow you openings to connect with your Metasoul aspects and heal both the karmic patterns in those timelines, plus receive infusions and gifts of higher consciousness states from your higher vibe Metasouls. More about the Gatekeeper here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
Anchoring out of 3D reality is a process that is ongoing for Gaia and for us. Being able to negotiate and navigate this process from within, to steer your own boat in sometimes very stormy seas, allows you to ride the waves with increasing trust and surrender. Those waves are ALL made of Love, after all, and the final ‘destination’ is the experience of MORE love as your ever waking reality within your human body.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Turbocharged Awakening

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By Raphael Awen

If you pause for any moment you wish to and feel how you both will have and actually do have everything you could ever desire, this changes the you in the moment who feels the absence and longing of these things.

This is a big one!

I was offering someone in session who came to me for help with a battle with a longstanding and intense sexual addiction. I was intuitively given a fore-feeling of his total and complete liberation from this challenge, where I felt the funny feeling of him in his life without this orientation to life and I shared that with him. There was a feeling of him now very free, but faced with definite new challenges of growth in the absence of this defining life long addiction. I offered him the magic of an ongoing path to more self discovery process to live his way into that relief and the growth….he had deep tears, and then, I never heard from him again!

My sense is that, for many, actually having the conscious thing that you long for is something that other unconscious parts of us can actually resist having intensely. There’s more work to do to be able, or to be ready, to let in a next phase of experience that our Higher Self has on our agenda.

The longing and desire is very important though as it is a signpost pointing to and energizing our future, and to the work before us.

I’m currently longing for more 5D experience. I’m feeling very ready on one level for more telepathy, teleportation, telekinesis, those are all very cool for sure. I think what I’d like even more though at the moment is a deepening experience of anything that I set out to do as work being deeper and deeper play, with more reverence and wonder. Being in child’s mind state asking who?, what?, when?, why? where? and how? all looks really good to me too, as I explore new dimensions of my galactic selves, my star-being reality, new pleasures in service to others, as I get to know and connect with beings in the Now who are from my metasoul family.

Whatever you and I might be longing for, especially if it’s to be free of something, like a chronic soul pain or way of relating to life that is limiting daily life and experience, if you can dial in this vision of yourself completely free of that reality, as a bi-location exercise, you will greatly aid the movement in that direction you desire.

This takes into account that you already have it and that you don’t. Both realities are true, and thank god, because this is where all adventure and movement comes from. You didn’t come here to be stuck in the stasis of addiction, or despair, but neither did you come here to be stuck in a love and light bliss bubble either!

You came here for experience that you couldn’t have were it not for the magic of polarity. Your suffering is actually a gas tank, and the propulsion engine that draws from this gas tank is your choice and intention. Without choice and intention, we could say, you are dead in the water, but that wouldn’t be accurate as there really isn’t any death, there is only times of incubating and composting new intention and choice points. It’s always movement, even if it seems infinitesimally slow. Even the man I mentioned above not hearing back from is receiving what he needs perfectly according to his own Higher Self’s path.

The movements we seek then and the work we have to embrace is about finding and feeling the inner resistances we also have inside of us towards the consciously desired thing. These resistances are always held by parts of ourselves, in my truth, leaving the responsibility and empowerment always with us. Yes, we may have been deeply victimized in life experience, even as a dependent child, with that victimized child still being alive and well within us, but at the same time, an arising adult self is being called to show up to take full responsibility. Talk about an anti-gravity device! You are a victim and you are NOT!

The parts of ourselves that need to be felt and reached and given a digestion of the traumas they hold are very reachable, with intention, with a guide, in your life as you currently know it, with a process like the one we offer through SoulFullHeart….

SoulFullHeart is a turbocharged simulation of the process of life itself, where intention and process can unfold on a much quicker timeline for people of their Higher Selves agenda for those souls for whom it feels like a fit for.

If my offer just now feels like a choice point for you to explore, I’m ready for a next step if you are. We offer a free intro session into an ongoing weekly process that requires an intention of time and money, that templates a new way of relating to life as well as a practice ground to live that out relationally. Please read more about this at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and when you’re ready, I look forward to hearing from you.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Current Energies Remind Us That Inward Steps Come First

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Painting: Life Is A Journey by Amanda Cass

It has always been important… but now it feels more important than ever to go inward, becoming curious about the self, not in a ‘hunt and peck’ energy, but with an invitation to the parts of you that have been hidden and buried, yet possibly very reactive and consistently operating under and within the conditioning they have held as the only truth for so long.

Going inside is the most important preparation for the upcoming transition periods between timelines here on Gaia. We’ve been in one for a long time now, yet everything is ramping up with more disclosures and mind-blowing revelations happening. In a way, none of it compares to the disclosures waiting in the wings of your own heart and soul, speaking of your origins, both dark and light and everything in-between, bringing you back to the reality of the love you’re made of…

There are more opportunities to feel what’s ‘true’ now. In the moment, there are different sources of information on the outside that can help us understand in one sense what’s going on in the world and why, and yet there is another source of information, filling up the deep well inside your heart and soul. Sometimes the only ‘information’ you need to be informed by is what’s stirring in your heart, telling you where you need to go next inside of you, exploring the growth edges that are there. Sometimes it’s a healthy mix of outside information and an internal digestion that you can hold with parts of you. No matter how informed you are of what’s happening on the outside, there is a groundwork to lay inside for making the transition emotionally, allowing in those growth points that WILL lead you into a deeper experience of the service of love, which is the ultimate calling and the ultimate unifier for us all. If there is no ground inside of you to be able to digest the potential trauma and craziness as well as the beauty of what’s on the other side of it all, then there are many missed opportunities for growth and expansion.

Though focusing inward can be so challenging given our conditioning and how deep it runs within each of us and our parts, it is the most important step towards embracing what’s coming and in many ways already here. It is the FIRST step before the ‘first step’ that expresses outwardly with logistical choices, offering grounding for new choices that are based in the heart in tandem with the mind for clarity as needed. Sometimes only the heart needs to lead here, yet of course this can be the toughest process to trust.

I feel how I am with you in it all, as I am with me in my all, feeling the steps for me personally and the steps we all must embrace and surrender to, with nothing to really ‘figure out’, but a ton to feel and let in… and even more after that too. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Understanding Why You May Settle, Shrink And Stay Safe: Connecting With Your Inner Protector

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By Jelelle Awen
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That which you settle for is that which you will draw MORE of. When parts of you settle, you are telling the Universe that what you currently have and are experiencing is enough for you. Even if another part of you (your higher self coming into your consciousness) feels desires and passions for more…more love, more intimacy, more fulfillment, more soul passion expression…..if you are settling in ANY area of life for less than that, you will draw more of it until all parts of you are truly done with less and lack.

This can be confusing to navigate until you can acknowledge that there are different parts of you that want different things, have mixed feelings and resistances, and are in often direct polarity to each other. To just say that ‘you’ want something and have a desire for more is actually only half of the picture (or less as often parts make up most of our conscious personalities until they are differentiated.)

One part of you (usually what we call in SoulFullHeart the Inner Protector) is ‘in charge’ of keeping you safe and out of harm and from getting hurt. The Inner Protector has been tasked with this since you were a young child as you were too innocent, pure, and vulnerable for the 3D world and the harsh and polarizing energies here. If you also experienced abusive frequencies as a child, then the Inner Protector had to be on ‘double duty’ to protect you. This Protector is reticent and fearful for you to have MORE love in your life as you might lose it and suffer more hurt. Really, it relates to you like a reluctant, over worked teenager would, tasked with watching over a bunch of kids (you). It doesn’t much care what your desires are for change and transformation, as it’s main goal is to keep you safe (despite yourself, it would say.)

The Protector is just FINE with settling, especially in relationships, as to want more is just too risky. Another way this settling of the Protector can show up is in withdrawing from social and relationships completely and being in a lone wolf phase. This can be a sacred phase of reboot when you are pulling out of 3D relationships, especially, but lingering too long here then leads to suffering which leads to isolation, acute loneliness, despair, and even suicidal feelings from other parts of you that NEED connection with others. It seems crazy, but the Protector would rather you (and other parts of you) feel ALL these emotions then to risk you getting hurt again in relationships, especially if there is ACTUAL soul resonance in them. Even if your heart and soul are awakening and aching for more love, more intimacy, to serve love, etc., your Protector (and other parts too) can be countering these desires going out to the Universe by keeping you stuck and settling OR isolated and alone (which is still a form of settling actually.)

I am sharing about this from my own experience of my Inner Protector and how this energy shows up…and also from seeing and feeling this dynamic in many other people over the years in sessions. The key to moving this in order to DRAW the more that your Awakening Self wants is through negotiation with your Protector. To feel and hear and get WHY they are concerned, scared, and resistant to this movement. There are always good reasons for this protection, usually stemming from undigested childhood trauma yet, also, from other lifetimes. Just because you cannot consciously remember (or maybe don’t want to remember) these traumatic incidents and events doesn’t mean that don’t impact your daily life in the now. These traumas and karma dramas remain stuck there and energizing STRONGLY, even if you are not consciously as aware of them. To offer compassion to these woundings and the parts that hold them is what moves them through the increasing awareness and consciousness and separation too.

We’ve spent the last couple of months in SoulFullHeart designing and creating a specific process to navigate this ground with you through weekly sessions with one of us (me, Raphael, Gabriel or Kalayna) to get to know your 3D self that is still anchored to 3D life through these undigest emotional places to begin negotiation with them in order to shift into MORE love in all areas of your life. We also connect with your Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Punisher/Critic, and Inner Child. Plus, there is a 4D self/soul awakening path and process that opens out after that the 3D self focused one where we go into all kinds of fascinating and interesting places within your Metasoul to heal on a quantum level LIFETIMES worth while you receive the gifts of soul consciousness expansions.

We provide you with specific writing and reading processes to engage with every week, so you can lean into that with a sense for you (and parts of you) that you are being held by something and headed somewhere. I am very proud of this process as it is the result of 15 years of personal dedication to awakening and specifically emotional body healing integration with spirituality. Also, it was created out of witnessing hundreds of people engage in this kind of parts work emotional body integration process over the years. I know of no other program or process like it as it is truly unique and progressive. You can read more about the process and our free intro session here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Here is more to read about parts and Metasoul aspects too: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

To change ANYTHING on the outside first begins from the transformation on the inside. It cannot change otherwise. The strong ascension energies that are available right now are here to support and hold space for this inner journey. To make it safe and filled with lots of love to GO where it has previously felt too frightening, foggy, or unknown to go inside of ourselves….at the emotional body level AND the soul. With this inner connection with parts of yourself, you find that you are no longer settling in ANY areas of your life. A sense of MORE is how you feel inside as you feel new flows of self love open out from within.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Body Detoxification And UPgrading Using Sound; Service Of Love Next Steps

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By Jelelle Awen

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The energies activated recently in response to our unified intentions around 11:11 continue to offer downloads and activations if you are open to receive them. We were at the beach yesterday taking in some of them through sunlight and I felt the portals were ‘still open’. All day, both Raphael and I felt sleepiness and the familiar ‘here but not here’ sense. I was highly charged up and motivated on a soul level as I engaged in a new book project ‘assigned’ to me during this portal all morning, yet, my body’s energy level was low. On the beach, I felt as if I was watching a play or television show as families played on the sand and in the water. I told Raphael that it feels like surprising that people can still see us as we seem so much to be in an alternative reality to others. It feels like this may be how the dimensional shifts will eventually manifest. We will just cease to see and be in the same dimensional plane as those at different vibrations. Could be…and we will soon (ish) see!

I wanted to describe more of what you might be experiencing with these recent energies as offered to me by my Arcturian aspect, Binkh, who is assisting me (along with the rest of my Metasoul/Higher Self aspects collective and ‘team’) during this time of integration. There continues to be a strong detoxification and even, you could say, ‘realignment’ of the physical body as our ‘every living cell’ is upgraded. This requires a pretty major detoxification process to clear out what we have previously ingested all of our lives in 3D life and continue to ingest. One thing I have gotten clearly for myself this last week is that adding more toxins to my body in my everyday food choices just means that much MORE for me to clear out. The cleaner the food that I take in, the less work there is for the detoxification process. For me, this means light filled foods like fruit and occasionally nuts and vegetables. It feels like many of the body ascension symptoms connect to this detox process, in addition to the upgrading process as well that can happen once the cells are cleaned out. The less there is to detox and move out, the more can be upgraded with less resistance and pain.

Binkh has been emphasizing to me the power of sound frequencies to detox, heal, and upgrade the body. She offered that the Arcturians always have sound frequencies playing in their light ships and even have the technology to have a ‘unity consciousness’ radio station where they all listen to the same tones in their heads at the same time. I remember this from my visits to the ships as a child; there was always a hum going in the background, like a pulse or heart beat. She validated that this hum was set at the 528 HZ frequency or the higher heart/cosmic heart frequency. This means, of course, that music we listen to that is at a discordant frequency to the solfeggios (such, as it seems, all modern music) can be toxic to our bodies, especially during this phase.

Yesterday, she had me listen to this full body and immune system detox music to clear out more toxins at the cellular level. It was very powerful and I fell into a very deep sleep listening to it. When I would try to wake up before it was over, I would hear, “you are not quite done yet,” and would go right back to sleep. I could sense that I was in one of the Arcturian healing chambers (like an MRI machine without such a dense container). I do believe that this music, plus going clean in diet and getting sun codes with Gaia all help with the intense body process we are going through right now. This is the music and I recommend laying down, closing your eyes, and being open to falling asleep as well as much ‘work’ can be down when you are unconscious:

The other aspect to these energies is the offering of specific downloads for you about your next choice points, passion projects, healing processes/support, shifts in geography, etc. as connected to the manifestation of your highest timeline. These portals offer easier and deeper access to our Higher Self and all the aspects of our Higher Self that express out in other dimensions, galaxies, timelines (which we also call the Metasoul). This means that communication about next steps for you becomes more specific and clear. This communication could come through dreams, visions, synchs, resonances. You could also draw support in new forms and relationship connections that support this manifestation as well. Raphael and I co-led a guided meditation on Saturday during a group call (a definite manifestation of our highest timeline as it was our largest call yet) to connect with Divine frequencies for activation and integration of these communications, plus teachings about what you might be experiencing in the emotional, spiritual, social, and physical in this ascension process as connected to our SoulFullHeart perspective. The guided meditation starts at the 40 minute mark and we also guide in you in scrying or clairvoyantly seeing whatever these 11:11 codes are meant to show you here:

This ascension process is mostly focused on your internal integration of your Higher Self into your physical body. Yet, the reason for this integration ultimately is the service of love WITH others so that as many of us as possible can return more and more to this state. This is an invitation for mass and collective consciousness to raise their frequency and vibration as well. You may receive specific guidance and inspirations related to serving the collective or it may be much more personal at this phase of your process. The healing of self, the unanchoring of the 3D self aspects (such as the Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, etc.) that may lower your frequency is an critically important aspect of the service with others and where more overflow of love comes from. This is the ground we explore and offer in our SoulFullHeart process through sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

There is an opportunity in this now to go to your next level, whatever that means for you. Open up. Go within to receive. Feel the reactions from parts of you that come up in what is offered. Ask for the support that you need to move through these reactions. And, continue to let in the LOVE that wants to show you the way home to your sacred humanity!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Feeling Held In The Arms Of Gaia

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Staring at my Facebook app ready to type, the words “What’s on your mind?” are at the top of the text box.

“I am not sure what is ‘on’ my mind, but I did want to feel what is in my heart.”

“Ah…okay. Well, maybe that is coming in the new update.”

UPdate. Yes. That is what is happening. A date with UP. This particular one has felt a bit removed from a part of me. Like a far off mirage of glittering jewels, or a chocolate croissant. (Yeah, I don’t know. Who knows what is coming out of me today.) There are times when it can seem like you are riding the wave and other times you can’t get on the damn surfboard.

I am aware that is a part of me. However, that does not invalidate what is real. It is the truest thing in the moment. There are many changes occurring, much that is being offered to let in, digest, and integrate. To this part of me, it feels like it is more than he is capable of showing up for. It is an invitation to come out of the shadows and accept more of a role in what is occurring on a planetary level.

So I take him to the one place that I know may bring some air and connection. Nature. In the arms of Gaia. There he is held and remembered. Given a reboot. A kiss on the 6th and a massage on the 7th. She knows what to do. The spine resting on Her sandy shore while She whispers and spins stories of Now.

“Feel the flow of this moment, my son. The breeze that carries your new and releases your treasured old. The changes of the fallen vestiges of what was held so dear. Call upon your strengthening desire for more. Look UP, dear one. You are not lost, just afraid. It is okay. Just Be. Be with it, feel it, love it. That is your portal, my love.”

The moment becomes this place of preparation. A tilled ground awaiting its seed. All else is left as the mulch of its pregnant emergence. She is with me still in the Still. Absorbing Her love into my being, nourishing this part that has found a rest and going on place.

Your heart needs an open space to let in all that wants to shift and emerge inside of you. Give it the environment it needs to help that along. Deep rest. Deep connection. More IS here and in the way. Loving yourself and your parts is the best way to let that in.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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11/11 Activations & Integrations Guided Meditation And Teachings (Video) – W/Metatron & Mother Mary

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By Jelelle Awen

Feeling full and satisfied, like after eating a hearty and nourishing meal!! Thank you to ALL the souls who joined us live for the 11/11 group call today and those who donated to receive the full recording…this was our biggest group call yet! We so appreciated those of you who showed up with your intentions to learn, to share, to grow, to heal….and to BE in the space with us on this high energy day.

This is the audio recording portion of the group call below, the teachings and the guided meditation with the personal sharings edited out for privacy. Our teachings were about the 11/11 energies and how they may be impacting you on different levels – emotional, physical, spiritual/chakral, and social…from our unique SoulFullHeart perspective connecting back to parts work. The energies during the guided meditation with Raphael Awen and I (with help from Archangel Metatron and Mother Mary) were strong, yet very grounding…heart based and meaningful, at least as they moved through! Listening to it should help with activation and letting in/receiving of the codes available today and ongoingly too. We also guide you in a scrying or clairvoyantly seeing process to receive visions of your highest timeline or whatever you need to see as offered by the 11/11 portal. The guided meditation starts at 40 minutes if you want to go directly to that.

Our next group call is on Saturday, December 9th with more info. about it coming soon on Facebook and on our website.

Enjoy the rest of this ‘day’, this moment in the now, and the ongoing journey into our arising into sacred humanity!  

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Letting Go In Order To Have

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By Raphael Awen

Try as I would, quite a number of years ago now, I would often fall asleep watching movies with my ex-wife and 2 daughters. I wanted to be there for sure, but other parts of me were deep into other life content. ‘I’ had the cover of just being sleepy on a tummy full of pizza after a long day’s work, and would do the all too familiar drift off on the couch, until I heard the ‘Just go to bed, Dad’.

We are collectively at a similar place in the narrative right now, except the movie is being played out in real life, kinda like live streaming. Many are asleep and just can’t wake up, and I would say, that even though that is disappointing and even tragic to those of us who are awake, it feels like them remaining asleep is what is meant to be, by their higher selves.

Not all of consciousness needs to be awake at the same time for the awakening to occur. It feels more like some of us need to be asleep for the awakening to occur as those that are asleep anchor another polarity aspect of the collective movement. We are all in this together at a higher level achieving the same thing, for the one being that we are.

It’s distressing to us when we feel a distance creep in though between us and our loved ones when we can’t enjoy or be moved by the same movie, now finding ourselves even taking roles within a larger real life story that are ‘against’ one another.

In my awakening and the underlying anxiety of awakening first and losing connection with family and friends, I found myself trying to embody being the best example for them, which worked for a time, giving part of me a sense of mission and purpose playing the ‘being the largest soul in the room’ game. Eventually though, I reached the edges of the no-go boundaries as I pressed against the Christian fundamentals we were all apart of. Here, my friends and family were clearly faced with a loyalty to Jesus and God, vs a loyalty to me. It’s quite a pretzel for a family to go through and it was a slow moving unexpected cataclysm for all of us in many ways. They advocated for a ‘let’s just agree on what we do agree on’ kind of stance, while also being unwilling to talk openly about how they felt I was deceived. I eventually dropped my end of the rope though in this conflict realizing a couple things. One was that I could no longer be in relationships with people who held both love for me along with hidden disdain for me, as I was finding and feeling the parts of myself that had disdain for each other, and coming to deep personal self love reconciliation. The other realization was about how my tugging on friends and family when they were resistant to me was another unhealthy recapitulation of ‘making do with crumbs’ when life was offering me a full meal.

Choosing yourself at these junctures of life changes the timelines and trajectories of your life big time. It also undermines some of our deepest existential securities, or insecurities rather, about family ‘always being there for you’. I personally have sons in laws and grandchildren I haven’t met because of the playouts of these choices. The pain of that has been processed and felt at the time of the choice and it now actually lives in me as my highest love gift to myself, them and the universe to be living a separated timeline and having no contact while we are living planets apart in values and belief systems. To be shrinking in a patched together pretense of harmony, with underlying and unprocessed disdain would only be something that could work for me if it was an outer reflection of an inner reality. If you change the inside, you will naturally come to mirror that change outside in life as all of this has a one to one correlation, inviting you to choice points to be able to go on to your next growth points.

This is the real life movie, where the price of admission is your life as you currently know it, negotiated out one self loving step at a time, but costly nonetheless. It’s costly because you are, as Jesus spoke to in a parable, selling all that you have to purchase the pearl of great price, that you surprisingly stumbled upon. You are leaving one cult in favour of another. You’re switching theatres mid movie. You are choosing your higher timeline. The price of admission is now seen as small having seen what the new story is about that life and you are admitting yourself into.

If you can’t see it this way, it may well be that you aren’t meant to. None of us are until we are, and god forbid that we would arrive at any such choice point before being readied for it to ample degree to be able to walk it out. Togetherness or integrity requires for you to live in deepest conscious alignment with your deepest values and beliefs, and anyone trying to tug on you to see otherwise is either wasting their time or just being abusive from the ground of their own insecurities. ‘They’, the ones you are letting go, need this as much as you do. Peace comes when a self permission and respect extends from your own insides, the kind you have ‘you to you’ that then extends to others along with your boundary of what you cannot be a part of any longer. A new alignment of sovereignty occurs where family members go on accepting this as a co-created reality.

There isn’t any way you living into your bigness won’t present you with painful choice points, but my truth is opting for the new and larger pair of shoes, will alleviate a lot more pain in the end. Resisting your own growth is the deeper ‘suffering over suffering’. We all have unavoidable pain in growth, the key though is to find where we are in a stuck suffering loop. We are not meant to live in managed ongoing suffering. We are meant to go through a compressing birth canal into a brave new and exciting world.

I have found that alive new world socially and personally for myself, while also feeling an open heart towards those co-actors from the previous stages of my life, that we all wrote together. I can love the people in my present as gifts to my growth and learning with an open hand similarly, having found an ever deepening home in my own heart, that no loss can ever take from me.

Ultimately, we let go of every relationship we form, and every thing we obtain, except the one relationship we form with ourselves, which is a relationship with the all, wherein we are eventually remembered with all the parts of the whole.

Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/O_yK5Plf518

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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