From Soldier to SOULdier: Healing Into A New Frequency Of Masculinity

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Oofff…I feel like I have an abundance hangover. So much in the way of goodness yesterday, in the physical, emotional, and spiritual dimensions. It can be a lot for our bodies and heart to let in! I needed to go in for a “tune-up” with Metatron and Co. this morning to re-calibrate to this new atmosphere of love frequency. Last week I mentioned of turbulence.  The bumpy course that occurs as we reach new layers of our essence and is in response to the unhealed parts of us that just can’t let it in.  It is feeling that turbulence while at the same time holding it with reverence and curiosity.  It has a story to tell and a gift to behold.

Mine was feeling a SOULdier aspect in my Metasoul that has responded to life with the meme of “doing what needed to be done” regardless of what was actually real for him emotionally, spiritually, and physically.  Perseverance in the name of loyalty.  But to what he was never quite sure.  Self-image? The greater “good”? Earning your “keep”? He began to feel the battleground was within himself and needed to go back into the lovefield from whence he originally came.

So in all of that there is a passion of persistence and perseverance.  Not giving up when things may get rough.  There is much to admire about it.  It is what helps us continue on this path of ascension and expansion.  But the path is not a straight line.  To a soldier, there is an objective and the means to that objective.  He learned the ability to ignore what was being felt inside that was not in line with this objective.  This is a very masculine approach that has its value, but not at the expense of what is not felt along the way.

We are striving to thrive as human family.  We have so much built-in passion for this.  It is already blueprinted in our DNA.  But the WAY we get there can assist us or hinder us. The old wounded masculine approach does not align with the more yin surrender to presence and trust.  To feeling and BEing.  It can be a hard one for parts of men, and many women, to let in.  It has been such a ingrained aspect to our collective psyche.  A more healed masculine follows his passion with reverence to the love that wants to be offered, not sold.  To penetrate the heart with care and compassion.  To lead with vulnerability and vision.

The loyalty is to Love now.  To the deep well of self-worth and inner romance.  It is to embracing the feminine is all of her sensual mystery and co-leading in a perpetual dance of individuated merging.  This new SOULdier is opening up his heart to the heaven within and paying respect to Mother Gaia that gave birth to him.  He embodies his Divine Self and allows space for his shadow self.  He speaks his truth and owns it with an authority that is willing to be wrong.  He seeks all the goodness and goodies that life and the universe want to offer and deliver.

I feel Leo in this.  The lion of our inner want and desire.  The king of our passion and purpose.  He has birthed us on the other side of something new and imaginable. It is all up to us to choose to let it in.  We don’t have to struggle or suffer anymore.  We do need to feel, but in a way that allows for grounded movement and trust that whatever it is we need to experience is for our greatest good.  This is what SoulFullHeart is leading us into. The healing and maturation of your inner SOULdier to steward a new experience of Love beyond what we have permitted ourselves to feel.

This Saturday we will be digesting, teaching about, and offering a guided meditation to active these Unity abundance frequencies during a group call if you’d like to join us (and we’ll be sharing the teaching/guided meditation portion afterwards on our You Tube SoulFullHeart Channel): http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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“Whatever You Need, You Will Be Offered”: Lion’s Gate Abundance Unity Codes And Letting Them In

By Jelelle Awen

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These are two photos taken recently here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico (no photo altering or enhancing) of the codes available during sunset and sunrise…a wonderful range of energies from FIERY FIRE alchemy to soft tranquility! All frequencies of unity abundance!
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“Whatever you most need, you will be offered.” It felt like Ascension Christmas yesterday as the Lion/Lioness gateway 8.8 aligned and opened…..bringing in cosmic and galactic support and Infinite Love that is still felt and meant to be on the personal and intimate level for awhile. The codes and their messages that I shared about yesterday seem to be primarily about unity abundance are an invitation, not necessarily a guarantee or a promise. The invitation is to increasingly trust that whatever you most need in order for your higher self/soul coming into your body and higher heart capacity to SERVE love will be offered to you.
 
How much you receive of these codes, how much you LET IN this invitation, how much you can say ‘YES’ to what your soul purpose is here….ALL that is up to you and the parts of you that may be resistant, in lack, and understandably just plain TIRED or SCARED or both. All of the reactions that come up to letting in love (which is what these codes really ARE) is sacred and the more you can BE with the reactions and the parts of you that have them is the degree that they can transmute this fear energy into receiving love.
 
Some of the GIFTS being offered in these codes are to serve you in an increasing sense, awareness, and higher heart intuition around feeling into these questions: what is abundance to you….inside and out? What is unity to you…..inside and out? What is nourishing to you? What gifts you and your soul? What gifts do YOU have to share and offer that contributes to unity abundance? And, also, what ISN’T abundance, unity, and feeling like gifts to you? What do you want MORE of and LESS of?
 
These are simple questions, yes, and maybe you feel that you are ‘beyond them’. Yet, in my experience, most people may not ask themselves even these basic questions as it is challenging to go within. To go deeper in the exploration of these questions is to connect with the part(s) of you that is resistant or protective or modulating love and then ask it WHY it feels resistant to these things. Or to connect with a Metasoul aspect/other lifetime aspect that is experiencing lack/angst/trauma and then integrate them into your world so they can feel with you into new possibilities of love.
 
This is what BEing, ascending, awakening, is about….this inquiry and seeking to understand and FEEL yourself to allow more higher love frequencies into your heart and your body. This self exploration and BEing real with self is a very important aspect of unity abundance as it creates these frequencies FROM within and then draws the experience of them from the outside in relationships. Without the deepening of this inner unity abundance, whatever comes from outside will be deflected and modulated….not able to be fully received until you are WITH the parts of you that just can’t let love in fully yet….and of course you have parts of you that can’t, we ALL do…this is our JOURNEY here, to feel and heal this…..from within and also together.
 
“Whatever you most need, you CAN receive”…..this empowers you to feel both what you most need AND what you can actually receive and what the gap might be between the two and WHY. A fascinating exploration into the inner depths of your inner onion that the Divine is eager for you participate in as It gets to come along TOO!
 
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Raphael Awen and I will be digesting, teaching about, and offering a guided meditation to active these Unity abundance frequencies during a group call this Saturday if you’d like to join us (and we’ll be sharing the teaching/guided meditation portion afterwards on our You Tube SoulFullHeart Channel): https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771
or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lion’s Gate: The ‘Roar’ Of Your Intention Comes Alive Now

by Kalayna Colibri

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When you can set your intention like a beacon love for yourself, and hold that it IS possible though for parts of you it may feel impossible, this is what brings about the changes that you are asking for and holding out for. It is not an accident, that conversation you’re having with another about what you most want deep inside of you. It is a care-filled conjuring of what is right for you, what needs to come to and through you next…

For me, it is about embodying adulthood in a deeper way than I have been able to before, though I have technically been an ‘adult’ for many years now. It is not age that matures you or offers you wisdom, it is your willingness to go inward, to find and feel your heart even when it is in shadows and seems covered in infinite brambles and sharp vines. Your protector has worked hard to keep parts of you in a sort of stasis, to keep you in a level of heart-immaturity and with good reason too… how can a heart, like a beautiful, tropical fruit or flower, ripen or open in conditions where it isn’t being nourished?

I feel like the seed of my truest heart was planted many years ago and transplanted over different phases of seeking and healing. Finding the SoulFullHeart soil has helped me in countless ways, to bring my soul and gifts to fruition and deep awakening. It does feel like this Lion’s Gate portal opening today and all month, is here to help us plant and cultivate, reaping rewards while feeling ourselves and our needs on all levels. It is a maturation process that is ultimately about our Ascension and is also about reconciling who we have been, who we are now and who we most want to be.

Today feels like it could be a day where some feel the need for an outbound ROAR! that comes up from the bowels of everything they’ve long held and no longer wish to. It is the ROAR! of an inner protector that is DONE or wants to be done, it is the ROAR! of your precious inner teenager who has held so many years of rebellion or perhaps an avoidance of rebellion in order to conform and find safety or find ways to buck the system. It is the ROAR! of a deeper awakening on the inside that gets to come outward, finally.

Today also feels like for some it will be a day of a quiet roar inside, of a sweeter inner collapse that means parts of you are ready to be stiller now, to let you in more now, to lay on the soft grass of healing, snuggling with the rest of the inner lions in your Pride. This is the softer ‘roar’ of arrival into a higher place where the battles are done and the much needed rest time can happen… this is the roar of your long awaited healing and maturation process, where you can play more and feel more of your belovedness, though sometimes the roar of boundary setting with others or even with parts of you may still need to happen from this place.

No matter what the blessed ‘roar’ of inner change you are embodying today, it is ALL sacred, and you ARE arriving at a new place in yourself and in your life. Your intentions are ringing clearer and your drive to continue healing and loving is what is setting your sails now for new horizons of self and connection with others.

LOVE to you on this glorioUS day… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lion’s Gate Offering Unity Abundance Activation With Archangel Metatron

By Jelelle Awen

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Lion’s gate opening today 8-8 and it feels, on some level, like Christmas for those of us tracking and feeling the ascension energies. Christmas in the sense that something NEW and exciting is happening in this now on both the outer and inner cosmic levels. Christmas too in the awakening and expansion and BIRTHing on a deeper level of the higher heart, Cosmic Christ Consciousness Heart, inside of us and collectively.

You may be waking up this morning with a sense of anticipation and even can’t sleep because there is this feeling of goodness and CHANGE coming in. Feelings of GIFTS coming in from the Universe to enliven, enrich, and ultimately transform us all. These gifts, it seems, are being offered to those souls who MOST need them….whether long on the awakening path or just begun or haven’t awakened yet. For ALL of us, there is a BOOST of our desires, our alchemy, our passions, our clarities in the codes coming in.

As I tuned into the energy of this gateway and asked Archangel Metatron about it, the main piece I received was that it offers a ‘Unity Abundance activation.’ The Unity activation is from within primarily…an invitation to unity between each of our aspects and parts WITH each other. The unity within of masculine and feminine healthy frequencies to move out of wounded and congested expressions of the wounded matriarch and patriarch that have played out for so long. The unity offered as we become conscious of our Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and bridge to them ourselves and WITH each other. This bridging is what heals the polarity within our soul field and our emotional body. Polarity exists between opposing energies that have not yet found or discovered the unifying energy of LOVE that unites all things together.

Unity within is offering LOVE to yourself primarily and firstly to those parts of you that most NEED you. Some examples of inner, fear-based polarity that can create push-pull and suffering experience of life are between the Inner Punisher part and a corresponding shame part/reaction. The Punisher-Shame reaction INside can then be projected outside onto others and suffering loops firmly fixed in place as this runs on unconscious cycles. Another example is between Metasoul/other lifetime aspects that are working the same soul theme/CORE wound healing yet from seemingly opposite angles. An example is a Metasoul aspect that is deeply religious, such as a Priest or Nun aspect….and a Metasoul that is deeply connected to Goddess worship such as an Avalon Priestess, etc. Being a love ambassador to these aspects and ‘getting in between them’ allows for the opposing energies to find common ground within your heart. This is the process of inner unification that we offer in our SoulFullHeart sessions and community: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services.

Activation of Unity frequencies as offered by the Lion’s Gate opening is also about connecting the ‘Me’ to the ‘We’. Even as you are engaged and focused on your own Me healing and transformation, so you are feeling the impact on the We collective. The Unity activation offers a deepening realization around the important of ‘healing the healer’ in order to serve love from overflow WITH others. Rather than offering from martyr or self sacrifice, you are serving from abundance that flows from within, self love currents and self worth flows that flood the banks of your emotional body. You are at a saturation point of love for which you will naturally turn within when something inside you needs your attention, trusting that the service outward will flow out from this when you are filled UP again.

The healing of the collective Metasoul line is coming into the now too as the veils thin and reveal more and more the fluidity of time. Timelines merging and unifying together brings in a unification of previously compartmentalized realities and civilizations such as ‘ancient Egypt’ and Lemuria….Atlantis and Egypt as well. The gifts of this integration are obvious as the ‘best’ of these civilizations can be offered and shared while the trailing edge woundings and shadow play outs can be healed.

Moving into 5D frequencies brings a sense of abundance on ALL levels…love overflow in the forms that most supports the service of love in the specific ways that we are each meant to serve it. Again, this is mainly an inner activation as love moves through and invites us to feel the lack and scarcity in our emotional bodies and in our Metasouls to come into FULLness again. It is from this fullness place that you can abundantly share with others your gifts and service of love. The angsts and frustrations move into trust and surrender.

Metatron is offering that you can bring these Unity Abundant codes into your BEing if you want to amplify the effect. Go within into meditative space. Visualize a space of pure, white light. Ask to connect with Archangel Metatron, who feels and looks like a ‘thin Santa’/father figure. Ask to receive the Lion’s Gate codes through your stellar gateway chakra/your ‘personal sun’ (about two feet above your head) from the Great Cosmic Sun/center of the Multiverses. Feel these energies move through all of your chakras, through your body’s every living cell, and ground out again into Gaia through your Earth Chakra (about a foot below your feet). Bring these energies in as many times as you feel that you want and need to. Hold space for any emotional reactions that are pushed UP from this, although, mostly you will probably feel rejuvenated, boosted, enlivened, and expanded OUT. You can draw these energies in anytime today and for the rest of the ‘month’ as it is especially strong, pulsing, available to ALL.

Metatron says also, “You are the LIGHT. You are the LOVE. You receive what feels like is from outside of you in these ‘cosmic energies’ what is actually already INside of you as your essence. These codes activate that arising of dormant love and light. You are Unity already too. It just feels like separation exists inside of you. Yet, you become unified again as you let love IN and you share love too with others. You feel how the abundance of love unifies you WITH other and you are no longer separate in those moments of love’s exchange and transaction. The more you transact in this unifying abundant energy from within, the more you can share it with others.”

INjoy your Ascension Christmas gifts from the Divine in these Lion’s Gate energies and let in the love that holds whatever comes up in response to receiving it on this blessed ‘day’ of our journey together!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Leaving Victimhood To Have All That You Really Want

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By Raphael Awen

You really can have whatever you want.

In fact, if you are ready to see it, on a profound level, you already do have whatever you want.

I know those may be fighting words for the parts of ourselves so conditioned otherwise, but if you didn’t dial up your present reality, then who did?… and are you prepared to live out your days in conflict with these powerful others arrayed against you and your wishes?

The bigger deal in preventing us from recognizing this is that we haven’t had the emotional operating system to live into this new ground of being where we truly are the creators of our own reality. We’ve simply had too much unworth and shame that hasn’t been felt in our emotional bodies leaving our hearts grounded when our souls are wanting to fly.

I have some very good news to mix in with this sobering and challenging picture, and that is that you already ARE this. You don’t need to ‘get it working in your life’. You only want to change the direction it’s working in. The only hitch is that to do this, you’ll have to find the self love to be able to take full responsibility for your present state.

As you are able to behold the phenomenon that you presently are in your present state, it creates a powerful propulsion to move you to your next desired states of being. That may be in fact the only thing holding you in a perceived stasis is that the stasis and what’s behind it just wants to be felt, like a book that wants to be read or a movie that wants to be seen. You just need to enter your own heart center, your own sacred Holy of Holy’s. Why else would you have dialled it up? This is the emotional body digestion that is likened to the secret anti-gravity device that each of us takes to our personal ‘where no man has gone before’ into the center of our own desired universe.

The victim’s cry of ‘why can’t I have what I most deeply want?’ is in itself a powerful reality creating energy creating the very deeply felt reality of being victimized. We simply are unable to step outside of our creator status, as this too was of our creation.

We can try and pawn it off on God, or try to claim others have created our pain, but each of these attempts are powerful reality-creating realities that hold us until we are ready to create a new one.

Ultimately, there are no higher or lower states, but all are part of of our equally sacred journeys where we are all equal creators, out learning how to relate to the infinite love we are and to find ourselves AS that infinite love’s expression and experience.

What new realities are you wanting to let-in into your life? I know I’ve got plenty on my list!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Your Deepest Joys Include Your Deepest Sorrows

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By Raphael Awen

If part of your definition of awakening does not include feeling how unhappy parts of you actually are, you’re not ready to awaken. You may be working your way there, but you’re not there yet.

You’re ready to go find your next drug high that is about staying asleep to what is while pretending to yourself and others around you that that isn’t so. There’s plenty others still there and so there is company and joint victimhood to be had if that is what your soul is still needing in its chosen learning curve.

The cutting edge of the whole cosmos however is a groaning in birth pang travail for the awakening of true desire, for ongoing deep journey into change and a fuller fullness into the infinite love that we all are. If you can’t come to terms with the risk involved and admitting what you really feel, what you ache for, you are very much still in the spectator seats watching life pass you by. Life at its core is unsatisfied, while it also knows the deepest satisfaction there is. Both are true. They go together and can’t actually be separated.

Your deepest joys include your deepest sorrows. This is the place where you truly come alive, and find the grace to let go of the pretend spiritualities and polite culture that has you in its servitude, to cover for what your heart and soul truly misses.

What would it take to get you to sign up for something more? What QUESTions do you have that if they were truly addressed in your life, would make it so you can no longer say ‘no’? What love and curiosity could you bring to the parts of you who are not on board yet with your readiness and ache to choose something so much more?

I speak these words as much to myself as I speak them to you. They are a waveform vibration of awakening that are offered to stir something loose in you and I, that has been wanting and is now nearing a deeper return to life and divine play. We breathe in, we breathe out.

I’m out to find more of my tribe, and to be me in that tribe. It might sound noble, and actually be noble for that matter, but it’s actually perfectly selfish at the same time! There is no difference actually between what you most deeply want and your greatest gifts to the universe are. It’s time to move that word ‘selfish’ over to the benevolent side of your lexicon.

I know something about you because I know it about myself. I don’t need any special clairvoyance per se to see it. I can see that you have in your awareness a sense of a next step on your truer path before you. It could be a long overdue epic life change that is stinking up your kitchen big time, or it could be something seemingly tiny, but yet a momentous change in your heart and soul’s relationship to life. That step, that choice is your portal to more and when you choose it, you light up the radar panel in the soularium and your tribe hones in on you and you on them.

It’s really that easy…once you do the hard part of finding the willingness to feel all there is to feel inside of you.

You might want to go shopping for a new pair of something because you are about to take a trip, to a new place that you’ve actually been in long waiting for.

It might be a journey into the heart of SoulFullHeart, and to us here. We’ve been building a while now and ‘they’ are coming. And it’s freakin’ exciting, and it will rock your world as you know it to check into really going deeper with us. We have clear intentions and clear boundaries about what that’s about to make it as deep a life giving experience for everyone drawn. Is it you? I’d love to hear from you if it is.

Raphael Awen
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You can join us this coming weekend for a group call which is a great way to take in our energies another notch and participate if you want to, listen in if you want to and then see what’s true after that. Details here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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August Lunar Eclipse Energies: A Pause With An Edge

By Jelelle Awen

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Opportunity beacons in the possibilities of serving love to yourself, with others, and for the Divine in every moment even the ‘down’ moments of emotional upheaval and purging out and UP. You are being invited to open to the possibilities that come from what has previously been unknown becoming known, seen, and felt as it emerges out from darkness and into the light of your heart.

Like the eclipse happening in the now/today, the brightness of the FULL moon temporarily/partially obscured by Gaia’s shadow and then becoming visible again, so a you to you unveiling occurs when the dark appears to partially block your light. In this blocking, you feel where you still have to go and want to go and are being invited to go inside of yourself.

A pause with an edge, that’s how these energies seem to feel. The edge is an invitation to feel the edges within and what gives them fuel and where they are sourced from…which parts of you feel them and why, which Metasoul aspects feel them and why. The pause is a taking the space, holding the space for this process lead by a deep curiosity about You by You.

The edges and instability of this now seem to also be about all this cosmic activity happening to accelerate the collective process and then integrating into that collective. Those of us on the leading edge of this all (some of us BORN awakened even) are so sensitive to these energies, although the full dose of them is ‘not meant for us’ in some ways. The full dose of these energies is for those tipping over point souls, who are about to awaken and have signed up to in now. These souls need these extra doses to give them a boost and extra motivation to wake up and begin the process of coming home to their souls again.

Tempering the energy dose may be self loving right now for you if you are long awakened. Tempering by BEing in nature, connecting to animal guides and animal pet friends, grounding the ‘extra’ energies out a grounding cord and into Gaia, maintaining boundaries around dramas that other souls just need to play out right now. Feeling intuitively what is calling for your attention and passion and what can ‘wait’ until the energies have settled down a bit (when they do.) Maybe not a time to make major life decisions and changes, even as clarities may illuminate for you during this temporarily down and dark time.

Magic can be downloaded from these energies, yet filtered through your higher chakras and higher heart and higher self coming into the body, so it lands in a frequency that works for you. My guides/aspects are offering that this tempering and filtering can be helped and supported by your guides/aspects if you just ask them. If you have quite a bit of backed up emotional body energies to feel, then it may be unavoidable to go through the life circumstances that will push this up for you to trigger, digest and heal it. As I recommend to those who are drawn, our parts work process and community can support you through this too if you feel ready to let that in: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services.

I already feel writings coming about the Lion/Lioness gateway tomorrow on August 8th (and already happening for those in the Southern Hemisphere) and have been digesting with Metatron what this portal offers related to the emotional body and Metasoul healing process. There is a sense of writing often during this intense energy month of August as I have been and connecting what is happening in the cosmos to the inner cosmos….as I have been sharing my personal process around this and also digesting with many of you what you are going through in the comments section on my FB page. You can read all my writings in August so far here.

Eclipses seem to offer a shift in the ordinary and, if that is needed, a reboot of the energy system connected to the lunar frequencies and especially if your metasoul has a legacy of moon worship. As always, these cosmic happenings illuminate the extraordinary in this process of ascension, claiming, BEcoming our higher self in sacred human form!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Reconciling Our Soul Stories As We Heal and Grow

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Being invited into more love. More goodness. More Self.  It is all right there for us to embrace and embody.  It is not some fairy tale that we live, in this moment, in abundant joy.  We ARE it.  Even when you feel less than it, you are in it.  Always. So how can that be if we feel less than that feeling of joy?

We have all been through much as souls this life and others.  We are coming to terms with all that we have experienced. For those that have chosen to partake in this grand ascension of humanity, we are being asked to balance the books, so to speak.  What in the shadow part of our ledger are we needing to reconcile? To feel? To forgive ourselves for? To let go of? Can we let in the light and love side with reverence and awe? I feel a grand accounting happening for us all.  It is not a “good” or “bad” reconciliation.  That feels too elementary to me.

We are being asked by our Divine parents to grow up and grow open. Leave the chains of suffering behind and fully inhabit our true gifts.  But to do that we need to take responsibility for what is real inside of us.  To own that we are the ultimate creators of our experience.  I have felt intense waves of thought patterns that translate into a lowered frequency.  I have felt fear and self-judgment wanting to find some way into my being.  Without having a conscious way of holding or releasing these energies, it can be so easy to project them onto something else outside of us and fuse to the din.

These energies are a part of a story.  My story.  The one that I am creating in this moment in multiple lives and dimensions.  I feel the Metasoul aspects of me that need to be integrated into my open human heart.  To be felt in their brokenness and weariness.  To change the timelines with them and invite them into greener pastures.  Into more light. This is the reconciliation.   The maturation of our hearts and souls into a new dimension of responsivity to what is moving through us in real time.  From this experience of our fractiled selves we pick up the pieces and bring them back into wholeness.  We remember the gifts that we had long forgotten were ours from the beginning.

All of this is accessed consciously through our imaginations. We have it all in our inner Akashic records.  The DNA of our souls experience.  I feel like a little pod floating around my inner galaxy ready to give love to all the carbon that has been there as a way to experience this dimension.  The crystal palaces within start to shine and glisten with new hope of a new human on a new Earth.  The joy starts to come back.  It starts to fill the empty spaces where there was once fear.  A hum starts to reemerge inside my body and I feel higher and lighter again.

The soldier of another life lets go of his orders, his need to march on, and his compulsion to strategize and  mentalize.  He is looking forward to going home.  To reunite with the love of his life in a paradisaical valley of evergreen and wildflowers.  The gift of persistence and dedication remain, but in a flow of choice and stillness.  An example of wounded masculine energy that finding his way out of the trenches and into the gentler and yet passionate lands of the sacred.  He has reconciled himself to this new life and will only come out for the pursuit and loyalty of Love.

Okay, so I had no idea where this was going and it all feels so perfect to me.  Writing from where my heart and soul is wanting to go.  This is new for me.  Not having a particular direction or certainty of what the heck I am writing about. I like that. Something arose for me and it is a beautiful example of what I experience in SoulFullHeart.  It is a magical world that has all the makings of an epic movie directed by you for an audience of you.  Oh…and you get to help heal the collective on top of that! Not bad for a day’s “work”.  🙂

 

This Saturday at 11:11am CST on Zoom there will be a virtual group call to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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BEing Real, Riding The Emotional Waves

By Jelelle Awen

 

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Raphael and I in San Sebastian, Mexico

I was feeling tiredness yesterday and today I am feeling in glow and flow….softer, surrendered, open. This is how the waves of energies seem to impact and invite us to ride our own inner waves of emotional body waters, especially in this now of August 2017 and Lion/Lioness/eclipse frequencies. I was with the tiredness that came from some recent situations (growing pains in the best way as our community grows) plus what was DEEP in the collective Metasoul (and mine too) from those of us choosing to lead in so many different expressions and ways in so many timelines and realities (as so many of you shared about yesterday too in resonance). We need to feel this bone and soul deep tiredness at times, be willing to BE with it because it is REAL and we serve ourselves immensely and the collective in our feeling of it.

It was fascinating to me yesterday that sharing from that tiredness, yet, also offering the ultimate choice of love (as being with that tiredness IS a choice of love), I then received probably the most response I have on any of my facebook posts in terms of the amount and volume of comments, likes, and sharings. I so appreciated the vulnerability in many of the comments and the PURE love and appreciation for me and what I am leading and sharing as well. It was overwhelming to be honest and I did some checking in with my guides and Metasoul aspects for support to hold it, let it in, and respond to it and to take my next steps into leadership….moving into the new for myself and away from experiences of the past with ‘crickets’ in the room and very little response. Because I have engaged in much egoic/false self deconstruction work through parts work process and many death/rebirth phases around offering my gifts, there doesn’t seem to be a self image-based version of me grabbing onto this attention, yet rather I feel a ‘beyond personality’ energy inside of me (the higher self coming into body) that responds to serving love…..AND trailing edges/echos of parts of myself that get kicked up and triggered at times too (although this is not much these days.)

It really struck me again how there is so little permission in our 3D culture to feel, to be real…and this seems to have translated to our spiritual/awakening culture as well, although I do feel there is an increasing waking up to this bypassing of emotional reality and the cost of it. The ultimate cost is in what then doesn’t get to feel the light of your love…..creating a shaky foundation for which MUCH energy is needed to keep it all intact to maintain the appearance of being shiny and bright.

I can only share and teach and lead and BE what is emotionally authentic for me…this has taken MANY years of feeling what is not authentic and the parts of me that create these not real frequencies and why. I cannot pretend to be light, high, and UP if I am not. Or spacious and kind if that is not what parts of me are feeling. That doesn’t mean that I get to kick out or abuse or project at others….I hold myself responsible for my emotional reality and its impact in a very deep way (probably more than most souls can even track and at micro levels after many years of parts work.) I don’t feel this realness disqualifies me from leading or teaching, yet, rather is the new grounds of qualification for leadership in New Earth….realness, vulnerability, self permission, NOT pretending to be strong and brave, NOT being a warrior who ‘toughs it out’ yet rather to be soft, open, and also REAL about what we are feeling when it isn’t soft and open. This New Earth leadership empowers every soul to BEcome a leader of themselves, inside, and most importantly at the emotional body level where there is often the most immaturity and unhealed woundings.

The permission I am offering here is what I feel the Divine is also offering us ALL. For so long parts of us have played in this 3D experiment of pretend and get by, worn our masks, and followed the rules. THIS is what is collapsing now as those of us in heart and soul resonance are rebelling against this control system and fake matrix. The rebellion phases can have a lot of RAGE pushed up in them, outrage and necessary advocacy as parts of you say ‘no’ to so much of what they were served and conditioned in.

Another phase seems to be surrender to the Divine yet still with DEEP commitment and sense of the New Earth vision and to living it out in the Now. Not as a future goal or when some grand event happens where everyone ascends at once….yet rather a commitment to the process of it, to the every moment of it, to the ups and downs, to the highs and lows, to the dark and the light. A commitment to the mess of it and to the beauty of it too…..the bliss mess of it. This commitment, really, is to yourself AND to the collective too and that you’ll stay with the process and ‘in the room’ as it all falls apart and is reborn again.

This commitment is to love and the ongoing service of it…NOT just in the good moments yet, rather, in ALL moments. This is a BIG commitment and I feel how so many of you take it seriously and your own processes first of all. Things ARE shifting, New Earth is here in the now, and our commitment to love is offering us the gifts of experiencing the returns of goodness more and more in our daily lives, as we are meant to.

Thank you for BEing on this journey with me and for your choice and commitment to love. I am HONORED and so appreciative that you are HERE!!!

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
The challenges of this journey of transitioning into New Earth are immense and ‘going it alone’ is an aspect of the old paradigm and lone wolf phase. We are here in SoulFullHeart for support, guidance, community, empowerment, love if you are ready to receive and give:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Raphael Awen and I are hosting one of our heart opening group calls this Saturday to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process:https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Feeling Our Way To Rose-Colored Glasses

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“You are invited to feel. Invited to let IN. Invited to choose. You cannot be convinced or forced into anything your soul hasn’t already chosen as its learning ground. It is all created by you for you. Your own special remembrance program. All the difficulties, challenges, pain, fear, anxieties, terrors, pleasures, glories, and accomplishments, et al. They have been placed before you to as a reminder of what you needed to bring love to in order to feel the love of.”

Not sure where these words are coming from. They are there for me to take in. Maybe meant for you as well. I am feeling a part of me today that is wanting to let go of an old way of relating to life and self. Seeing and feeling things through a weathered and worn out pair of fear glasses and ready to adorn those rose-colored ones that we all want to wear but were told they didn’t see the world “realistically”.

I clearly needed these 3D glasses. And you did too. They got me to realize how much more I want to inhabit and feel about this life I chose to live and create. They are like the old worn out pair of jeans that you just could see yourself getting rid of because they felt so comfortable and reliable. But they just aren’t me anymore. It is time for something new. Something bigger that comes from withIN. A choice to feel the reactions to that come up from response to that bigger, to that experience of life and love that feels so elusive to a part of me. This is an unfolding and unfurling. With each healed layer there comes a new one to feel at greater depths of wanting more love, more authentic expression.

Maybe this is you too. Tired and worn out. Ready to move on and move UP. To feel the part of you that is ready to surrender the guard, the fight, and the struggle. To lean into a fuller brighter you that this part of you sees as just a pair of those rose-colored glasses. It is not as simple as replacing the old ones. That is not how it works. It is about feeling all the ways in which we have kept ourselves from letting go of the old ones and feeling worthy enough to adorn the new ones. The ones we know are way more realistic, and way more magical!

We are approaching a time when we are all going to start feeling this more and more. This inner passion and truth that will seek out its own way to find its birth and requisite death. Yet we get to choose how this unfolds every step of the way.

I have chosen to lead myself and others through this magical portal called SoulFullHeart. It is what I came here to be a part of and experience. It is what brings me to more and more of an expanded sense of self, of Love, of community, and of a glorious new Golden Earth. It is here for you to choose as well when you feel ready and resonant.

Here’s to those rose-colored glasses and to what we have always meant to experience beyond what we have been willing to feel.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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