Category: Ascension

The Grail Pursuit Of Soul Tribe

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by Raphael Awen

The desire to find and be a part of Soul Tribe feels like it is increasing exponentially for many of us in the times we are moving through. 

It’s a feeling for me that has always been there in my life. At times, it has expressed in really applying myself to the tribe at hand, be it my birth family, my current circle of friends, my church family, a spiritual group, etc. What I found for myself personally was that the deeper I pressed into the family at hand, the sooner I found myself uncomfortably at the exit door to the relationship. While the exit door was usually an exit of my own choosing, as I was always welcome to drop what I was advocating for and needing, stop rocking the boat, and instead settle in for the life-long haul, I seemingly couldn’t stop myself from moving on.

Something has always felt at stake. Something has always felt that I needed to choose, to pursue, to desire, and to need. Something has always also felt that I wanted to be needed, to be chosen, to be desired, and to be needed. What has changed is the frequency bandwidth that I am broadcasting at in all of that wanting and needing. This then, in turn, led to natural moving on points, that I was being invited to step into.

Some people work hard to quell these feelings, and though there have been times that a part of me could envy living that way too, I keep coming back to a ‘search for the holy grail’ kind of living, and to do that with Soul Tribe.

My Soul Tribe is about the wanting, the needing, the desiring, the rocking the boat when the boat is needing to be rocked or even capsized. It is about the entering and the leaving. It is about completing one context of life so to be able and energized to enter the next context of life. It is about the endless curiosity expansion into the unknown. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling all the losses along the way, to mourn them, to grieve them, to allow the next phase of Soul Tribe to arise and overflow into my life as I currently know it. 

My Soul Tribe is about feeling my truth resonate inside the tribe, where even a natural and healthy ‘conformity for love’ can breathe that isn’t a codependent grasping for love. I get to conform when I want to and need to. I also get to be uniquely different when I want to and need to. I get to do it all and be it all inside of community. I get to need and want love. I get to be loved. I get to feel all the parts of me who are in different stages of their own relationship to love and community. 

What is your Soul Tribe about? Are you in a ‘lone-wolf’ between phase that is preparing the courage to pursue again? Are their past tribe wounds that are wanting to be felt by you? Are there parts of you who refuse to ever risk again, while at the same time, other parts of you aching for real resonant heart and soul frequency community? 

SoulFullHeart is one such tribe. I belong to it and co-lead it. Session space is offered as the clear doorway into it. If it calls to you, I’d so love to host your inquiry further, all the way to the deeper and richer unknown that your soul can’t resist pursuing. 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Meet Your Inner Mother Guided Meditation – DAY 24: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/ Jelelle Awen (VIDEO)

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DAY TWENTY-FOUR: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Meet Your Inner Mother Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day twenty-four of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I talk about and introduce you to another part that seems to develop in response to 3D life. Your Inner Mother is the energy inside that represents the templating you received from your birth mother (or other important female caregiver.) If your relationship with your birth mother is and has been challenging, difficult, conflictual, etc., this relationship LIVES inside you as well between your Inner Mother and other parts of you (usually the Inner Teenager and Inner Child.)

For women, getting to know and connect with their Inner Mothers allows for more compassionate flow and forgiveness INside….and also in relationships with other women and their birth mothers as well. It allows for understanding and healing of the trauma experienced in this relationship. Integration of your Inner Mother allows the healing of matriarchal 3D energies and arising into your sacred Venus Queen expression.

For men, getting to know their Inner Mother allows for more complete differentiation and individuation from their birth mothers. This frees up the transaction grounds with their female mate from mother projection tones and reactions to embrace a woman as a Venus Queen.

In the meditation today, Mother Mary holds the space for you to meet your Inner Mother. You first connect with your Inner Protector, who expresses to you about how the relationship with this part expresses with other parts of you. Your Inner Protector leads the way to your Inner Mother, who you meet and connect with….starting to get a sense of her world and experience.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-four day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

 

Energy Update: HIGH Speed SOULar Winds Streaming IN

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By Jelelle Awen
Energy update: We are in the middle of a SOULar wind stream with wind speeds up to 600 k/sec (‘normal’ is around 300)!! This high speed wind is bringing in geomagnetic storms in the higher to mid-altitudes with accompanying beautiful aurora codes to take in, according to spaceweather.com.
As usual with HIGH SOULar winds, you may feel aches/pains in the head and neck area (causal and crown chakras) as YOUR magnetic field responds to the influx of magnetics. Polarizations inside (such as victim ‘versus’ perpetuator; patriarchal/wounded masculine aspects and matriarchal/wounded feminine ones, etc.) are amplified during these streams of geomagnetics. These are the trailing sacred masculine activations after the receiving of Divine Mother/Feminine lunar codes during the recent eclipse passage.
Feeling these aspects of yourself and the dynamics between them can help significantly with healing the polarizations to move into more inner unity. I introduce the main parts that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process in my video series here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
This video offers a guided meditation to relate with, activate, and integrate ascension energies specifically: https://youtu.be/59PdVsp0TGw
The magnetic pole shifting that is happening (including the need to update the model for it) shows the alignment that is ongoing for Gaia as She ascends into fifth dimensional consciousness. I’ll share more about the pole shifting process as it downloads more for me. So far, my Star Family has offered that the process of pole shifting will be orchestrated and held by Star BEings so as not to cause life-altering conditions for us. They are reassuring that there is no need to be fearful or concerned about the pole shifting as it coincides with the ongoing disclosure process.
As always, practice much self love on the emotional, physical, and social body levels during these higher frequency influxes. As you align within with MUCH love, so you can align to these cosmic energies as well to receive them AS love.
Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available to feel, digest, and integrate parts of you from this life and other lifetimes/timelines too! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Photo is by Markus Varik from Tromsø, Norway.

Sacred Union & Sacred Sexuality Guided Meditation – DAY 23: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen (VIDEO)

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DAY TWENTY-THREE: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Sacred Union & Sacred Sexuality Guided Meditation W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

 

This is day twenty-three of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Co-creator and my husband Raphael Awen joins me as we talk about sacred union and sacred sexuality. We have been in the exploration of sacred union grounds together for over ten years and share what we feel a sacred union is and isn’t. Transactability in ALL grounds of heart, body, mind, and soul is one of our definitions for a sacred union, rather than an over reliance on capacity potential as a compensation for areas that aren’t transacting in a nourishing way on a regular basis.

Raphael and Jelelle share about how sacred sexuality combines the second chakra WITH the fourth chakra in a heart-based sexuality that is held by the soul. A key aspect to healing your sacred sexual expression is through connection with your Inner Teenager, who holds the seeds of sexuality, just waiting for initiation into a more mature expression of it. Also, key to sacred sexual expression with a mate and with yourself is negotiation with your Inner Protector in order to feel and heal sexual trauma experiences.

In the meditation today, Raphael leads you on an experience of sacred union through attending a dance ball at your inner castle/essence. He invites the Divine Masculine (esp. Yeshua) and Divine Feminine (in the form of Magdalene) to hold space for you to meet your sacred union partner. They may be someone you already know or not, yet you are invited to feel what desires and fears come up in response to them.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-third day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Aligning To Presence And Joy Through Feeling

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Where would you rather be today? What would you rather feel today?

If you have a ready answer then you may not be in alignment with Presence and Joy. I don’t think many, if any of us, can honestly say they are in that space all the time. It is like an airplane that is on course to its destination is never on a straight line path. It needs to self-correct and readjust. These questions are just reminders to be conscious of what we really want and need in any given moment.

So many things bring us out of this sweet spot of Presence and Joy that seem nearly impossible to parts of us that can ever change. A physical condition, a social relationship, a job, financial concerns, or emotional trauma. These are the things that can feel like an infinite wall to climb, to conquer, or to master. Even using those words put you in a power struggle with the only thing that can move it….deep and honest feeling.

We are hard-wired for Presence and Joy, yet we have the software to take us out of it. Maybe it is our freeware as it is our Free Will. We do choose this life, these circumstances. These choices are a response to so much experience both this and other lives. You are not a simple switch, but a powerful tapestry of wounding and reaction. Whether expressed or suppressed. These woundings are your story and your script if you allow them to continue.

The healing of them is not a simple shift of perspective but a courageous dive into the deep end of your heart and soul. The process of healing leads you to more Presence and more Joy as these energies inside of you get their time to be felt, held, and healed with support. This has been a daily process for me over the last six years that continue to offer the fruit of this divine experience. I am never totally in that space all the time. I am progressing toward More. It is in that progress that I continue to feel what it is I need to feel as it arises in my heart.

That is the hallmark of transformation and ascension. Claim it and courageously walk it out. I am here to walk with you if you need it.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Energy Update: Eclipse And SOULar Winds Provide Deep Purging & Clearing

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Energy Update: Many souls are STILL feeling the impact and effects of the total lunar eclipse on Sunday/Monday. This is a lingering, ongoing, powerful gateway and passageway to your NEW, higher timeline life. This lunar gateway seems to be about clearing out the denser, toxic, not-going-to-come-along, in the shadow energies that can keep you anchored to 3D timelines….so that you ultimately can arise into the NEW ones.
 
I’ve been honored to be more full lately with serving love during 1:1 sessions with women. What I am seeing during sessions is that this eclipse is bringing in purging and clearing on the emotional body level as connected to Metasoul timelines/lifetimes that hold heavier karmic, archetypal energies. Sexual abuse frequencies are being activated from this life (if you bravely signed up to experience and then transmute them) AND also from other lifetimes. Veils of amnesia are being lifted to remember these experiences, even from early childhood, so that they may be healed.
 
Betrayal themes and patterns with women, men, in romantic relationships (again from this life and other lifetimes) are also being illuminated for digesting, self love/compassion, and ultimately forgiveness on all sides at the higher self level. A clearer sense of where victimization experience needs your compassionate love is being revealed too.
 
Divine Mother doesn’t ‘judge’ if you are playing a victim of not. She offers love to what NEEDS love and this moves whatever it is into empowerment again. During intense experiences of trauma and abuse (esp as a young child), part of you IS a victim to this experience. Loving this part of you and Metasoul aspects with compassion allows them to remember their power again to CHOOSE to forgive and move beyond it. Suppressing these feelings with judgements of not wanting to be a victim doesn’t actually provide the loving healing energies most needed to move beyond it.
 
On another energy note….SOULar winds are starting to rise UP with geomagnetic storms very possible tomorrow. According to spaceweather.com, “NOAA forecasters say there is a 60% chance of G1-class geomagnetic storms on Jan. 24th when a stream of solar wind is expected to hit Earth’s magnetic field. The gaseous material is flowing ~600 km/s from a hole in the sun’s atmosphere. Arctic auroras are likely this Thursday.”
 
These SOULar winds may amplify whatever the full moon eclipse has pushed up for your digestion and illumination. Continue self love practices and connection with Divine Mother as the Sacred Masculine energies come in. Here is a guided meditation with Kalayna and I to connect with five beloved faces of Divine Mother: Mother Mary, Kuan Yin, Magdalene, Sophia, and Dark Mother https://youtu.be/buMlCNQp24c
 
Here also is a guided meditation I did on eclipse day to connect with the codes and energies of it and flow them through the body: https://youtu.be/UioyKPHYKMY
 
BE as loving as you can during these more intense energies…listening and feeling into what your body/heart/mind/soul needs. I am providing the gift of this daily video series Deepen for 33 days to illuminate your inner worlds and the support that is available there for you as you connect to the Divine within.
 
Here is a playlist to watch all the videos in the series: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3
 
MUCH love to you as we ride the bliss mess waves of awakening together!
 
Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Digesting After The Lunar Eclipse

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Digesting after the POWERFUL blood moon total lunar eclipse last night….you may had quite a purging and cleansing yesterday and still moving into today as well. Up and out and through were the Divine Mother Lunar energies that are holding space for this clearing.

Letting go, shedding, mourning, releasing, feeling, and BEing real about what needs to be shed. This is tears; this is sometimes aches and pains; this is a feeling sense of ‘no more’; this is NEW desires emerging like flickering flames now.

MUCH self love and self care of your body, heart and soul right now and ongoingly too! Salt baths, light stretching and yoga, energy flow, connecting with MUCH love with parts of yourself too. Drawing support and space holding when needed too.

Here is a guided meditation I did to connect with and flow through the blood moon energies:

Jelelle Awen

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1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

A Celebration Of Your Rebirthing Guided Meditation – DAY 22: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN & Gabriel Heartman (VIDEO)

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DAY TWENTY-TWO: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – A Celebration Of Your Rebirthing! Guided Meditation W/Gabriel Heartman & Jelelle Awen

This is day twenty-two of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me. Gabriel is joining us on his birthday!! He shares about how that feels for him and parts of him. He talks about a significant birthday six years ago when he was letting go of many 3D timelines and moving more into his higher one.

Gabriel and Jelelle share about how awakening and the SoulFullHeart process invites a series of deaths and rebirths/renewals as aspects/parts of you ‘die’ to certain denser frequencies and rebirth into higher ones. Every moment is a birthing in this way as your soul frequencies become more of who you are and parts of you integrate into your 4D/5D self.

In the meditation today, Gabriel leads you into a celebration hosted by your parts, Metasoul aspects, Divine Masculine and Feminine guides, and Star Family. Your family celebrates YOU in a courtyard in your inner castle/essence. You receive their appreciation and gratitude and extend it in return. You also lit and blow out candles to represent the death and rebirth phases of your awakening and make wishes and desires for your new timeline.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-second day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Meet Your Star Seed Child/Star Family Guided Meditation – DAY 21: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN (VIDEO)

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DAY TWENTY-ONE: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – Meet Your Star Seed Child/Star Family Guided Meditation W/Jelelle Awen

This is day twenty-one of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, I talk about the Star Seed child part of you. The Star Seed Child energy arises out of the healing and transformation of the Inner Child. The Inner Child is often anchoring and ‘stuck’ in 3D trauma digestion from childhood experiences, leading to deep feelings of sadness, hurt, shyness, etc. As your Inner Child is felt and connected to, they express more of their Star Seed Child essence and Galactic DNA expression.

Feeling portals to connect with your Star Seed child are through the feelings of isolation, abandonment, alienation, not feeling like you belong ‘here’ on Earth and sometimes even intense panic and terror states. Rather than bypass or avoid going into these feeling states, being with them as you connect with your Star Seed Child allows recall of star family visitations and the subsequent feelings that came up after them. The veil of amnesia starts to lift and you experience Unity Consciousness again with your star family through your Star Seed.

In the meditation today, you connect with your Star Seed Child through the help, support, and permission of your Inner Protector. Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia (in an Arcturian ‘form) join you for this exploration. You feel the world of feeling and sensation that your Star Seed lives in. You also begin to connect to your Star Family through a light ship exploration.

Thank you for joining me on this twenty-first day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

A Reflection Of You

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Taking in the lunar eclipse last night I could feel its magic, its uniqueness, and its significance. These are rare occurrences in the span of our lives and the way we take them in says a lot about how we take in ourselves. Do we see ourselves as magical, unique, and significant? There is this awe and wonder that come up inside the collective as these celestial events happen. Many of us take the time to really feel what is being offered to us at this time and we integrate that into our next going on places.

It is easy for us then the next day to go back into the “normalcy” of our daily lives and that feeling of awe and wonder go back into their subterranean holding cells for the next reflection of our grandeur to come around and be reflected to us…maybe in the next 75 years.

But what if you could take that with you? What if that awe and wonder were a daily occurrence and not just predicated on external circumstances? That to me feels like the birthing of a new relationship to ourselves and each other. When you see yourself in the mirror this morning, do you see and feel the beauty, the awesome, and the divine within you? If you don’t, and this holds true for almost all of us to some degree or another, then there is your own eclipse happening inside. It is a sacred eclipse.

This is the part or parts of you that are seeking your attention and love so that they, and you, can start to let in more of this perfection and glory that you really Are. It is the protected places, the hurt places, the unworthy places that cast a shadow of great importance. They are the celestial bodies of your inner galaxy. They are your childhood, your growing years, your relationships, and the karmic timelines of your Metasoul. They are all coming around to be seen and felt once more as a gift and not a burden.

When these start to heal in the warmth or your courageous and compassionate heart, you begin to see that glory and grandeur again. The true you behind the wounded you. Yeah, there you are…power-full, meaning-full, beauty-full.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.