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Your Gatekeeper: Guardian Of Your Metasoul/Other Timeline Aspects – Day 24: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 24, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 24 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about the 4D (and higher) energy and Metasoul aspect called the Gatekeeper. The Gatekeeper is the upstream expression of the 3D Protector. As your 3D protector is connected with and begins to rest more from this life experiences and traumas, your Gatekeeper can begin to reveal themselves. The Gatekeeper is the aspect of our Metasoul that keeps the veil of amnesia in place, guarding the ‘doors’ and portals of access to all of your Metasoul sisters and/or brothers (fractals off of the same individuated soul sources that express out in many timelines).

The Gatekeeper is often overwhelmed by this ‘duty’ and feels disconnected from Divine Source, other Gatekeepers, Angels, and higher dimensional frequencies. Bleed throughs from different Metasoul timelines (particularly those with a lot of karma) come through and ‘fuse’ into the Gatekeeper’s energy. They often first present to you as one of these timelines.

I talk about my process with my Gatekeepers over the years and how they have shifted to strongly masculine warrior frequencies to eventually feminine bridging energies. The Gatekeeper shifts from guard to guide; they become a more and more pure channel of Divine love, access to Higher Dimensional Frequencies, Akashic Records (which are ‘contained’ in your Metasoul line), and more.

This is the piece that I read from the Gatekeepers and the article that it came from: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

I am here, waiting for you to see me and feel me.
Waiting for you to get how much I have done for you.
Waiting for you to understand what I am here to offer you.
Waiting for you to remember why you are here and what your purpose is.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you.
Waiting for you to pick up on the signals and signs that I am leaving you.
Waiting for you to connect that what you feel in your body is often me causing you pain or illness to get your attention.
Waiting for you to heal your heart in order to let in love.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you
Here is an article to read about the Gatekeeper:

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Thank you for joining me on this twenty fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

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Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

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Integrating 5D Consciousness States Into Everyday Living: Day 23: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 24, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 23 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I respond to some questions that I’ve been asked lately in beginning sessions with people. I talk about integrating higher consciousness states in 5D with everyday ‘walking around’ life. I describe examples from my daily live in which I have experienced these ‘altered states’, which become more and more normal states. States such as kundalini surges, non-dual drip lines, and general ‘loose brain’ mode.

I offer that it has been intimacy with Raphael; intimacy with my Metasoul sisters with access to these frequencies; intimacy within community that offers these altered states as well. Your Protector can keep you from experiencing these states in a flowing way because there may not be ‘room’ in your life, i.e. related to your jobs, your family, your relationships, etc.

I make a connection to what you are choosing in your life in every single moment in every day directly connects to the consciousness state that you experience. What you are saying ‘yes’ to and what you are saying, ‘no’ to.

Thank you for joining me on this twenty three day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here’s more information about having a free intro session with one of us as a facilitator: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Teleportation Through Third Eye, Imagination, Emotional Body Healing

Published on January 23, 2018January 23, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Where do you want to go? Your consciousness can take you there, wherever, whenever. Connecting with higher dimensional aspects of your Metasoul/Higher Self can take you there. Feeling the parts of you that are anchored to 3D reality and helping them let go can take you there. Activating your Ascension Chakras to open UP to galactic and cosmic energies can take you there. Letting go of your 3D conditioned mind’s tight, tight grip on reality, overlaying grid that makes it challenging for wonder to flow through can take you there. Healing your emotional body and the undigested traumas can take you there. Kundalini and Non-dual frequencies coming into your BEing can take you there as parts of you allow for these to come in more.

This is teleportation. Teleporting to other dimensions, other galaxies, other realities, beginning in the super conscious mind, in the ‘imagination’, in the third eye. Someday we will take our bodies too as Star BEing technology is offered to us that allows us to do this. For now, we have the gifts of our soul that kNOW how to do this and BE this teleportation.

It helps to be in the Now moment, close your eyes, use Solfeggios or other music, dedicate the time without outside distractions…..go within. The practice of this going within opens up the inner landscapes. It turns on your personal teleportation ‘device’ from within. It fires up your Merkabah – light body vehicle anchored to 5D and higher – that can take you ANYWHERE you wish to go.

During teleportation visits and shamanic journeys during meditation, I travel many places and to many dimensions. Once I was teleported to a room made of stars…not really a room as there were no walls. A place made of stars where higher selves were hanging out. I had conversations with some of them, souls that I needed to connect with and understand where they were coming from beyond what their conscious personality would tell me. I have been doing this since I was a very small child and, back then, I called it ‘make believe’ or ‘play pretend’.

My ‘make believe’ world has always been very rich….it continued into my adulthood and only stopped when it transferred from ‘fantasy’ to multidimensional travel. I feel that I was born with my third eye quite activated and Divine love awakened/realized, although it took me until my early 30s to really own and see this. Some people would say and have said (those fused to 3D reality) that I still make it all up or it is all fantasy what I am offering about the ascension process and my personal experiences. I am ok with feeling that I ‘make it all up’ as what a wonderful thing THAT IS! I certainly hope that we all make up our reality as that is where our POWER Is.

In the star room (and other super conscious landscapes) I feel like I can breathe. This is my home frequency. The rest of the time I am bridging 3D with this more natural reality that my soul has experienced more than the 3D one.

Where do you want to go? Back to the womb? To other lifetimes and timelines? To the akashic records? To what we call ‘Golden Earth’/5D frequencies? To Inner Earth? To other planets? It is a relief from 3D reality, the density, the earthboundness, the five senses, to go away on adventures in the etherics, to have conversations beyond what the conscious personality or 3D self can track and understand. You can remain grounded to the earth and go on these adventures. Gaia likes to hold space for them it seems.

Dare to be ‘deluded’. Dare to ‘make it all up’. Dare to be in what feels like fantasy for awhile. The rewards are ongoing integration of these realities into your walking around one. The gifts are a return to the frequency where you feel like home, where you feel love, where you feel the Infinite Possibilities that exist in every moment to BEcome sacred human!

This is a photo taken of a rainbow ring around the sun that came out during a group energy healing session on Sunday. It seemed to offer a support to our growing commUNITY and the GOOD work of healing the heart, soul, energy field that we were engaged with that day and ongoingly.

Lone Wolf Phase, Drawing Soul Family – Day 20: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 20, 2018January 20, 2018 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 20 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about healing abandonment wounding, conscious community, moving out of the lone wolf phase, and drawing your soul and star family. Conscious community is the reality that I have lived in for many years now and it is precious to me to offer and invite others to feel what this means for them as well. I talk about the SoulFullHeart group session experience that is a two day process group with energy healing here monthly in Puerto Vallarta, which I co-led with Raphael after filming this video.

I talk about how as we are being invited to move into soul family connections and conscious community and what comes up with this is often our ‘mixed bag’ birth family experience. Most of us were the ‘black sheep’ of our families and just felt like we didn’t fit in or were resonant with family values around spirituality, religion, etc. Parts of us can just feel like we ‘don’t belong’ in our families and with friends as well. This is the place to go to and feel in order to open up to soul family and very resonant ground with other people. We need to feel what wasn’t resonant to us and parts of us and validate it. You can draw your soul tribe as you draw your tribe from within, your heart draws your parts out as your 5D self broadcasts openness and compassion to feel those painful scenes from childhood and teenagehood of not belonging.

The other aspect that impacts our capacity to draw and let in soul family connections is abandonment wounding. One level comes from parts feeling like “I don’t belong in this family”, this if often from our 3D Inner Child and Inner Teenager. And the other level comes from being disconnected from our star family, which needed to happen in order to fully come into 3D life here. Although we chose it on a soul level, parts of us feel this disconnection deeply, especially what we call our Star Seed Child. This is the magical child that comes from the stars, yet it feels really lost and really abandoned until being connected to.

Here is a writing about the lone wolf phase and moving out of it:http://in5d.com/is-it-time-to-stop-being-the-lone-wolf-in-…/

Here is a writing about conscious community: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/coming-together-living-in-…/

Thank you for joining me on this twentieth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

Going Yin: The Quest Of The Inner Grail

Published on January 20, 2018January 20, 2018 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Painting by Eduardo Rodriguez Calzado

“Coming home to your Self is the reunification of your Selves. It is the Holy Grail of the inner quest.”

Enjoyed some much needed Me time yesterday. Being in intimate romance and community, there are times when it is so important to have a space to ‘catch up’ with my Self and my selves. Without some dedicated Me space, I can feel parts of me get a little ornery and start to poke at me. It has come up as a recurring theme inside me about sovereignty and having my own unique expression and journey. It felt like a masculine rumble inside me being in such a feminine offering. However, it is the desire of the feminine for the masculine to rise into his authentic power and healed expression into a co-creative endeavour.

From the masculine in me there is this need for a quest. This has expressed itself in an outward fashion for soul aspects of me. The need to go in search of a Holy Grail that would be the catch all for what is lacking on the inside. As I felt into this with my metasoul brethren, it was clear that what has been needed is a reuniting of these aspects into one place and to join together in an inner quest of self-discovery of the depths of my BEing and the fear places that hold my own Inner Grail.

Over the years I have met many metasoul aspects from different timelines. They have been mostly human in form and have had some galactic self awarenesses over the past few months. I can feel how the entry into a deeper connection with these aspects will come as I have integrated more fully the aspects I have already met. This was the intention that set for myself for the day.

It started by going to a creative visual place and calling these souls to a sacred place that I have created inside myself as MY place. It is a sacred grove of sequoia trees that has a round table in the center of exquisite design. It was there that I met them all for the first time in one place. It is a magical experience to feel the multidimensionality in reunion. Tears fell from joy and not pain. I could feel myself in them as they in me. We are beginning to connect in deeper conversation and feel the merkaba that it is creating inside. They include a Roman soldier, a Scottish King, Lancelot from Camelot, a Native American Shaman and warrior, as well as a Reptilian commander and a Sirian aspect among emerging others.

This is looking to form as a band of brotherhood that seeks communion with the inner feminine. To explore the depths of the deeper fear places and enter into the realms of the forgotten ‘other’ realms that exist beyond the 3D mind. Extending the beacon to my Star Being and Angelic selves and feeling the veil that has been thinning between us. This is the ‘real’ journey to my parts. The kind of thing that gives new life to the process of Going Yin, as I have referred to it.

I share this because it is something that is so magical to me and is meant to be shared. It is a beacon to others as an example of the power and beauty of the process of selves discovery and reunification. The expansive nature of embracing our humanity as we embody our divinity and galactic ancestry. SoulFullHeart is a container and a reflector for this ongoing descension that lights our ascension. A cosmology of the heart. I look forward to sharing more of my personal process as it arises and feels important to do so.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Your Demons Are Your Angels Unheard – Day 19: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Gabriel Heartman (Video)

Published on January 19, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 19 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me to read from and talk about a writing and topic that feels so relevant and timely to the ongoing collective and personal ascension process.

This is an excerpt from his writing: “In this moment I feel you. I feel you because I have been you. There are voices, or intense energies, that just don’t seem to leave you alone. They permeate your BEing, making themselves at home with your mental body and wreaking havoc with your emotional body. You are becoming aware of so much around you. Being as sensitive as you are you pick up on it and it just finds its way INside. Sticking to the stuck places that have yet to be felt and unravel. It can be literally overwhelming. You may be even experiencing intense anxiety over what is going on inside. Wondering how you will ever get any peace of ¨mind¨. It is a daily life of maintaining your sanity in what feels like an insane world.

The thinning of the veil is elucidating your most hidden places. The ones you thought you had under control or weren’t even aware of. The contentedness is slowly losing its hold on your emotional reality. What I want to offer here is that there is a life-line. It is to actually go INsane. Which in this way means to go “into the healthy”. In our fear-sided consciousness, we have turned away from going into the deep emotional as the Holy Grail of our greatest gift to ourselves.

These energies have been called our inner Demons. They have felt like a haunting to some. An intense barrage of thought and emotion that have medicated by all sorts of prescriptions, whether drugs, or sex, or anything else that has aided as a distraction. Some may just be living with it trying to “get by” as best they can. I want to give a voice to these “demons”, for they are actually your unheard and unfelt angels. They have a message to deliver to you and you just haven’t had the means to be able to actually hear without being overwhelmed.”

Here is a link to read Gabriel’s entire writing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/05/01/your-demons-are-angels-unheard/

Gabriel and I then talk about going into deeper feeling states or ‘shadow’ sides of depression, pain, anxiety, and those called our ‘inner demons’. We feel a connection with these energies as parts of ourselves and forming a relationship ‘with’ them is what allows these energies to heal, integrate, and share their gifts. Gabriel shares from his personal, many year process to be with these parts of himself and his process through spaceholding support with me and my mate Raphael.

We talk about how if you don’t have a means to have a relationship with these energies and parts, then you will seek anything to try to cope, divert, and relieve the feelings – such as through alcohol, drugs, sex, habits, suffering loops, even through spiritual practices, etc.

There is more to read here about the Metasoul and parts process: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
About the gatekeeper: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

Here is a playlist of my guided meditations:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Thank you for joining me on this nineteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

Connecting With Archangels, Metasoul, And Divine Love – Day 18: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 18, 2018January 18, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 18 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about Archangels and how to feel and relate with them, with help from Archangel Metatron of course. I encourage a heart and intuitive guidance, feeling for a sense of resonance or not, led by you and what you experience with them, the Divine, and with any path or process that you are presented with. Metatron especially seems to want to collaborate with us, to share what he has to teach, and yet also offers an invitation for us to join in together.

I feel this invitation from the Divine as well, yet this can be hard for parts of us to let in due to unhealed unworthiness. What heals that unworthiness is feeling how the Divine loves you, not just you loving the Divine in a devotional way, yet rather letting in in a transactional way to experience infinite love. This is about having ‘with’ relationships to everything rather than ‘against’ or ‘to’ or ‘from’….love with yourself, your parts, others, and with the Divine.

I also talk about the Metasoul, our individuated soul source or what you could call your ‘higher self’ soul source, which I illustrate using the sacred geometric symbol of the Flower Of Life. In the SoulFullHeart process, we connect with Metasoul sisters and brothers directly, which are fragments or projections from the same soul source as yours. This is different than how past lives are usually related to, because these aspects are not past and yet are rather overlaying onto your timeline and ‘bleeding through.’ You get to know and connect with the Metasoul aspect in order to get into a gift exchange with more objectivity possible through this. And there seems to be exponential and quantum healing possible through Metasoul processing! There is more to read here about the Metasoul and parts process: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here is a playlist of my guided meditations:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Thank you for joining me on this eighteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

Navigating Relationships From The Inside Out – Day 17: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 18, 2018January 18, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 17 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk a bit about why parts of us form initially as we feel the emotional and energectic dissonance of 3D reality, plus not being felt by our caregivers. It is the lack of digestion of what we were feeling in the moment that creates a more structured energy to form, plus masks, personas, walls.

The main thing I talk about today is relationships and how your inner relationship between your parts determines what you experience in outer relationships with others. As the soul wakes up and comes into the body, your relationships may shift as you do. This is a situation where you are awakening and those around you are not in the same way. I write more about that situation here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/11/05/inviting-others-to-come-along-with-you-navigating-relationships-during-awakening/
The partner who is not awakening and maybe ‘doesn’t want to change’ represents a part of you that doesn’t want to change either.

As you heal the polarization inside from one part of you to another, this changes the projection you put on others and the conflictual dynamics that you are drawn to. More compassion is happening from within which heals the polarized frequencies and you no longer need to draw it as a mirror in others.

The other dynamic I talk about is when two sacred union mates come together and have the capacity to be in union, yet don’t have the transactability from an emotionally mature place. The union is limited by the capacity of each partner to show up for it in terms of self love overflow from each of them providing the ground for it

Go here to read more about the Protector and other parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining me on this seventeenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Feeling Self Love Inside To Experience It In Relationships

Published on January 17, 2018January 17, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

ambassadorship

This push and pull, this ‘tug of war’. You can wear out your hands and hearts engaging this way with each other. This energy puts you on one side and them on the other. This energy creates division lines and walled up fortresses. It creates stances and lock downs. It can only be ‘against’ rather than ‘with’.

Moving into a ‘with’ in relationships of all kinds brings you into love together rather than polarizing each other with fear.

This can only happen on the outside, with other people…..as it is happening on the INside within you. Where there is a tug of war from one part of you to another…your Inner Punisher and your Inner Teenager (for example) or your Inner Protector and your Inner Mother/Father…..so, it will manifest on the outside.

How can you be different in a relationship with someone else than you have been in relationship with parts of yourself? Where would this new and spacious and healthy way of relating with others come from if it is struggling to happen inside of you? Why would others draw a healthier way of relating if the putting down, self punishing, guarding, suppressing energies are occurring from one part of you to another?

INside is where the empowerment is. INside is where the ambassadorship of offering love to ALL parts of you has the most traction and can go in the deepest. INside is where the gifts of your empathy, your healing, your compassion can be received the most fully.

AS that ambassadorship happens deeply, offering love to ALL parts of yourself, so then, it overflows outwards and DRAWS those who can resonate with these frequencies as well. Their self love resonance overflows to mingle and mix with yours. This then is healthy relating. This becomes less co-dependence based on parts grabbing and pushing on each other and is more interdependence….two healthy ‘I’s’ dancing to the music of their healing hearts and souls.

Moving Out Of The Void Space – Day 16: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 16, 2018January 16, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

We are halfway through the series!! In today’s video, Day 16 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about some possible shifts in perspective that you may be feeling at this point based on what I’ve been offering about the parts reality especially. I also invite you to engage with the videos in whatever order based on the subject that draws you, rather than feeling that you need to ‘catch up’ on them or ‘stay current.’ I give you a sense about what is coming up next in the series too.

I talk today about the void space, which I describe in this writing: “Then, there is the void. It feels like many souls will be in this as consciousness continues to shift and change. Maybe you are in this now or, at least, in moments? The void is the space in between the dips of necessary purgings and clearings and the peaks of feeling connected to Divine love, All That Is, the sense of your Higher Self kNOWingness. The void is the place that is the ‘during’…….the AFTER of the old and yet BEFORE the new has fully come in.”

I share about my experience of a deep void space living off-grid on a remote ranch, without much money, going into a cocoon of deeper soul awakenings especially……..to emerge out eventually to serve and share about one and a half years ago now. I needed this void space to be with myself, heal my parts, and deepen my connection with nature as well. Yet, it was important to move out of that space as well to come into my service of love self.

The invitation is to let love come into the void space through community, intimacy, and connection. To move out of that void and into letting love in and trusting love again. It can be challenging for parts of us to trust love again, such as the Protector who feels protective of our Inner Teenager, who feels like it will be rejected to trust relationships again. You can get into suffering over suffering if you stay ‘overlong’ in the void space.

Go here to read the full writing that I shared today – Moving From The Isolation Of The Void Space: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/10/28/moving-from-the-isolation-of-the-void-space-and-into-being-filled-up-with-love/

Go here to read more about the Protector and other parts of you that we connect with in our process: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The book I mention sharing my experiences in my void space at the ranch called Keep Waking Up! is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Thank you for joining me on this sixteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

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