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The Desire For What Really Matters In The Ascending Masculine

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By  Raphael Awen

I know some things about the ascending masculine, if I could call it that.

Men who feel a conscious desire to excel and grow and matter in life, in love, in their relationships.

I know these things about you, because I’ve come to know them in myself.

There’s always much more to come to know, and one of the growth points for this ascending masculine is the challenge and willingness to feel like a beginner over and over again, to admit that there’s so much that can’t be delineated, measured or accurately described with the mental body.

It can only be felt with the heart.

My heart wants to grow beyond what feels like present limitations. I want to grow in being transparent with my world, to hide my real self less and less and less. I want to radiate that presence in the physical world around me and into all the soul connections and timelines I’m a part of.

Nothing else ‘matters’, for all that matters comes from the divine ‘Ma-ter’, from where we derive our word ‘Mother’. She Ma-ter-ializes all things that matter to me. In union with divine father, we have a template for reparenting all the parts of us who long for reunion.

What is it that is calling for your heart attention and choice? Do you have a sense of what wants to be next for you? Are you willing to be transparent with yourself and your world about what’s not working, what hurts like hell and what you do know about your calling and being?

I’d love to serve you in that. I offer a free intro call as a way for you and I to connect to feel if the work I offer, along with my heart, feel like a fit for you. More info about that here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

It is so interesting to feel how the feminine has been willing to lead in this domain of really feeling and really healing. I personally know of several women who’s eyes are on the horizon for a man who’s ready to choose himself, his calling and purpose. Mateship offers a huge growth ground, especially when it’s mutually chosen for one’s deepest growth and learning. Maybe that’s a big one for you as it has been for me.

I very much welcome hearing from you and would love to host my free intro with you to help you feel if working together ongoingly feels like a fit for you. If not, no questions asked or anything further expected.

~ Raphael

I just got back today from a few days at the ocean with my beloved, Jelelle Awen.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

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By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said β€œYou are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

From Warrior To Ambassador: The Illusion Of Good vs. Evil

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ByΒ  Raphael Awen

As more and more of us become aware and convinced that the world is not as we thought it was, we’re collectively left in a vacuum of cognitive dissonance, confusion and chaos.

Personally, I’ve been convinced for many years of the horror realities of human trafficking and the depopulation agenda, and all the surrounding phenomena, but I’m finding a new layer of emotive dissonance arising inside of me in coming to terms with what’s at hand now, energized by the tsunami of collective awakening happening underway, along with the collective’s sorrow and the v. injuries and sudden deaths coming to light.

What might the scope of all this end up looking like? How long will the darkness seem to prevail?

If you also find yourself in this restlessness, whether in moments or in largely complete endless overwhelm, know that your being has a range of expressions and parts that span 3D, 4D and 5D realities. Parts of us have totally familiarized and adapted ourselves to everyday consensus reality of linearity, lack, etc that we find in 3D. But we also have parts of us that see beyond what once felt like 3D was all that there was into the realms of the chaos and transformations of 4D. Then we also have parts of us that remember the joy and harmony of union with the All, where both sorrow and joy weave in a deep aliveness expressing as the divine beings that we are in our true heart home of 5D. No need to get hung up on the definitions and labels of these dimensions or the numbering of them, but just a way to offer a sketch of a map that your heart and soul knows.

You already are and always were a multidimensional being, even as you are becoming more conscious of and in flow with this truth that always was.

There’s one piece I’d really like to share with you today in all this that I feel lays the groundwork for some real digestion of the craziness at hand. I invite you to come with me into an exploration for a few moments.

I’ll just spit it out and then take a longer look at it:

Love is the one and only source of all that is, including the darkest horrors we can imagine or witness.

We are not in a battle of good vs. evil where we must cheer on and support the good to overcome and destroy the evil.

The battle of good vs. evil is an all too real illusory reality of 3D, but one we must come to a higher vantage point to relate with if we want to navigate the horrors we are witnessing now unfolding.

Allow me to toss in a few more points here to land in your intuition where they will…

What we are at war with externally evidences an internal war happening inside of us. If the evildoers must be punished forever, then that dynamic is alive inside of us, between our Inner Punisher and other parts of us, albeit just off our radar.

What if the whole all too real reality of good vs. evil was part of the divine’s experiment and expression into duality from an original state of oneness? Very beautiful, yes, but without duality, it couldn’t be known, felt and appreciated…

What if the ratcheting up of the tension in this good vs. evil dimension is part of the divine plan for a full circle reconciliation of this experiment where the heightening of the duality creates and is necessary for our divine awakening into the love that all of us are and always were, including the β€˜evildoers’?

Consciousness itself is sponsoring the entire show we are seeing unfold right now. Love is holding it all. Many souls chose on a soul level to be a part of the suffering in the 3D and 4D expression of their being as part of the contribution to this experiment that love undertook. Love knew that duality would entail suffering, but it knew that suffering would take us somewhere beyond where it was in oneness bliss. Love wanted to journey. Your and my suffering is part of the fuel of this journey.

Deep in our psyche is the awareness that sacrifice is necessary for movement into fullness. In the Christian faith, we have the teaching that β€˜without the shedding of blood, there is no remission of sin’. Something has to die so that same something might come alive. In our limited 3D vision, we made that about a sin filled and separated-from-God humanity needing a personal savior from the results of a β€˜fall’ into sin and God’s wrath. But what if all we actually β€˜fell’ into was this chosen experiment of duality along with the attendant and necessary forgetfulness?

If that’s accurate, then those participating in the darkness are the divine’s agents as much as are the lightworkers; then the darkest deeds in your own this-life and soul history are also all part of this divine expression from oneness into duality.

And if that’s accurate, then the trajectory we are on is into remembrance, reconciliation, restoration of the All that was β€˜lost’, and MORE.

This more is mysteriously unfolding in you and I, in this collective darkest night we’ve seen to date. Love is inviting us to hang around for the more, as an infinite unfolding of all that we can handle.

What can ease the intense discomfort of the moment is making for personal reconciliations within, with the parts of us who feel the deepest despair or shame, for harm caused, feeling how a divine amnesty and forgiveness extends over all of it.

Then from there, a natural and effortless expression of β€˜as inside, so outside’ begins to extend from us to others. The darkest darkness is also wanting reconciliation and is spring loaded by the heightened tension and the tug of war of good vs. evil drama and trauma to return fully and suddenly to the love that it is sourced in.

Both the warrior within and without are now being invited, if and when they are ready, to lay down their weapons, reconcile the harm they’ve participated in, all the while believing they were fighting for the good, and then to accept the mantle of Ambassador, with a heart broken open and vulnerable to the great sadness, sorrow and loss that is still unfolding. All self righteousness extinguished under the infinite love and forgiveness and reconciliation with the divine experiment and journey we are all a part of. Sorrows felt, rather than medicated down or avoided. Tears wept.

Now your life, exactly as it is right now, takes on the most exquisite poignancy and meaning as a place from which to transact and make real this reconciliation within and then without. Every anxiety and depression in β€˜circumstance’ a standing stone circle portal entry into this All That Is, that awaits your sovereign choice of ongoing continued awakening, at a rate and pace that allows for feeling and healing all that wants and needs to be felt and healed. Savoured, not savioured.

Jelelle’s book and audio book β€˜Free To Be 5D’ are a great exploration and attunement to this more that wants to arise in you. You can find it here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dexcerpt

And there’s two upcoming group calls to be a part of if you’d like, Sunday, the 17th and Sunday, the 24th:

https://www.soulfullheart.org/events

If we can be of assistance here at SoulFullHeart, please dig into our free resources, connect with us in whatever ways you are guided to, and if it feels like a fit, ask for a free intro into what personal one on one sessions can look like for you. More info on that here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

May you arise daily into more and more of all that you are meant to be, even amidst the moments that feel like falling.

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Sirius Gateway Energies and Importance Of Connecting To Your Gatekeeper

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By Jelelle Awen

We are beginning our alignment with our β€˜Spiritual Sun’ Sirius as we continue in the Sirius gateway this week and bridge to the Lion’s Gate 8/8 activations through this month. This is a powerful time of soul awakenings, insights, clarities, visions, lifted veils, inspired thinking and more.

With these soul awakenings also comes an intensity of karmic frequencies moving into our auric fields, chakras, physical bodies and emotional bodies. It’s important to feel how we ARE with these frequencies, how we relate with them and accept them and allow them and what our relationship is to them.

These energies can β€˜blow out’ the body in the sense of big detox reactions as some people are sharing about feeling lots of dizziness and vertigo, unable to sleep or feeling very fatigued, and even more extreme β€˜illness’ that really wipes them out for quite awhile. This detox process for the β€˜transitioning body’ is greatly served by a very clean diet or even fasting and a daily celery juice cleanse. I share more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/light-body-body…/

Your soul field can become backed up with the codes that are trying to come in right now. I see this in energy healing work where the space above the crown chakra (where the Ascension chakras of soul star, Personal Sun and casual are located) is just pulsing and full with light codes that aren’t being brought into the field. This can cause more body pain, especially head/neck pain and even severe migraines. Along with emotional pain and ongoing suffering as many awakening souls are experiencing…intense feelings of heaviness, hopelessness, and not wanting to β€˜be here’ in the Earth Plane anymore.

Connecting with your Gatekeeper, a soul aspect that we bridge to in our SoulFullHeart work, allows for much more flow and integration of these energies. As you consciously feel your Gatekeeper, this allows them to share with you their experience of guarding your soul and keeping the veil down on your awareness of other lifetimes/soul β€˜history’, etc. They are holding back often deep persecution wound experiences as they fear it would harm your β€˜human’ and be too much for you to bear.

I was connecting to my Gatekeeper this morning and I could feel a resolution to her ongoing push/pull about opening up these places for me and flowing into service with them. She has admittedly given me access to many places of remembrance and to service over the years, yet not as much to connect with her as directly, until the last year or so. She was in teary confession this morning about this and deep gratitude for my human heart and Divine Mother’s heart that has opened up HER heart and not given up on her. It is not easy for these eternal beings to let in love and care and warmth as they have not known any of that usually, choosing to be cut off from it to large degree.

Gatekeepers live in complete isolation, by choice, as they are the only conscious entity aware of the Metasoul’s (as I’ve been guided to call it) many projected versions into different lifetimes/timelines/eras. They are acutely aware of the karmic energies, the trauma and the pain being worked and experienced by EVERY lifetime, yet they are unable to do anything to relieve it. These β€˜keepers of the veil’ within our soul have taken on the often thankless task of remaining awake to track and protect us while we go into necessary sleep states to fully experience what each lifetime wants to teach us.

I have met and connected with many Gatekeepers in sessions over the years and they are universally lonely, often heavy and sad, skeptical and distrusting….at least in their β€˜trailing edge’ of expression. In their β€˜leading edge’ expression, they are wise, compassionate, and open up access to Divine channels, other lifetime access, integration of light codes and upgrades, and much more. Yet, they are often anchored to lower frequencies, especially of lower 4D β€˜False Light’ which they can get lost in for many ions (no time really.)

It feels like the Sirius frequencies are inviting the Gatekeepers to consciously come forward and make themselves known to you. I cannot describe to you how much relief and goodness can come into your life through connecting to yours and feeling them…and clair activations, access to other lifetimes, emotional healing, completion of karmic cycles FOR GOOD, openness and draw of your sacred union mate and soul family community, etc. Often what we feel as β€˜guides’ is actually the wisdom of our Gatekeeper coming through channeling our soul yet not in a direct way.

And ALL of this is opened from inside of you, not from an outside source reading you out or providing activations for you. We can only be a mirror for another, lighting the way and shining the light based on what we have journeyed. And this is my light illuminating this path of connection to soul aspects such as the Gatekeeper and parts of the self too and all the gifts it offers!

love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a guided meditation and more teaching about the Gatekeeper, really good timing to connect with yours during this Sirius gateway: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

I offer free intros and 1:1 sessions with women to open up access to your Gatekeeper and deepen this bond to allow much more of your soul consciousness to flow and move through. I am experiencing Gatekeepers coming forward in someone even during the intro recently, wanting to be seen and felt! They are def waking up now! More info about sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.

I share much more about the Gatekeeper as well in my book Free To Be 5D, with links to purchase audio book, ebook, PDF, print editions at soulfullheart.org/books

Sacred Union Activation Women’s Group Call Sunday, July 17th W/Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

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By Jelelle Awen

Kasha and I are excited to host our first women’s group call over zoom in awhile on Sunday, July 17th! And, this one couldn’t be closer to our hearts/wombs/souls then exploring the bliss mess sacred union/counterpart/twin experience as a feminine mate. And, I have been seeing in sessions lately so much of the experience I describe below for women whether in mateship, in separation, or single.

Info below:

The desire and ache for union lies deep within the feminine womb and heart space. She holds the codes for partnership, for merging, and for birthing a ripe Usness exploration space with a mate. She is often the keeper of the memory of sacred union and particularly of her Pair Bond Counterpart/Twin union and separation, which exists in the higher dimensions of the soul family monad.

Her pain comes when her partner is not available to transact with her in this union as she can easily feel the capacity that is possible between them if they have met in this life. She can then go into suffering loops related to him, allowing push-pull dynamics and struggling to set boundaries as her idealized sense of the union hits the β€˜reality’ of what isn’t transacting between them.

This can lead to frustration, anger, etc. that she doesn’t know how to be with as the soul karmic frequencies of the relationship flood her field. Also, often, her soul has also chosen to awaken ahead and β€˜lead’ the soul openings whereas he may be more anchored to 3D, adding to her feelings of being isolated from him.

The capacity for true and authentic sacred union exploring deep grounds of intimacy on ALL levels of physical, mental, spiritual and emotional connection is now more possible than ever before. For many souls, it is the MAIN ground of exploration for which they grow, learn, and serve, so it isn’t just a desire fueled by fantasy, yet a soul’s knowing coming in that sacred union is the WAY for which it can continue to ascend.

This growth happens both in phases of being single and during times of being claimed and claiming a mateship, as the inner sacred union ground is a powerful place of discovery, healing, and preparation for the outer experience of sacred union.

In a two-hour women’s group call on Sunday, July 17th at 5:00/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, Kasha and I will explore sacred union from the feminine experience. We will share our own personal journeys and process of being in sacred union with our mates for several years now, both the bliss and mess of that experience. We will also offer how the SoulFullHeart healing process of conscious access to this-life parts and other lifetime aspects/soul dynamics allows for a deeper transaction ground of intimacy starting from within you so that you can digest your experience of sacred union.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to your inner feminine mate so that you can feel, sense, and be with her desires and any pains she has about sacred union. We will also open up a bridge for you to connect with your mate (known or not) in the moment in their higher dimensional frequency. Divine Feminine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of sacred union experience within you and with your mate.

If you are currently in a relationship sacred union, this transmission will support you to deepen the intimacy within you and with your partner. It will also bridge you to a new way to process your experience and get more space from any reactive patterns that are occurring.

If you are currently single or experiencing a pairbond in conscious separation (meaning you have met your mate yet aren’t in relationship right now), this group call will give you a bigger context for which to digest sacred union. You will also bring in new codes to help any suffering grounds that have been occurring around it.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other women in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

More info about the call at https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls and https://www.facebook.com/events/1017406959143968

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into sacred union grounds from the feminine heart!

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

Note: This call is a wonderful preparation for our group call on Sunday, July 24th offering a sacred union activation ground for both women AND men that will be hosted and transmitted by Raphael and I. More info to join us for that one coming soon!

Karmic Persecution and Obligation Coming Up For Healing

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By Jelelle Awen

Karmic persecution and the flip side, karmic obligation, are coming up for healing right now! The experience of being persecuted is very familiar to those of who have spent many lifetimes awakening, being healers/teachers, leading new edges of consciousness forward and been ‘ahead of our time.’

We trip the Matrix programming, we create anomalies, we offer new codings. The response to this from the ‘mainstream Matrix’ can be fierce, unkind, painful, and even life threatening. Reconciling and healing this soul wounding can cause us to draw more of these persecution experiences this life. This usually manifests in relationship struggles and conflicts, particularly with birth family members, in romances, and in friendships where they are more anchored to 3D consciousness still.

Parts of us can feel quite hurt, rejected, abandoned by these repeated experiences of condemnation and judgement from those who claim to love us. I have felt how deep this wounding can go so many times in sessions and within myself too. The heart of our inner child is blocked by the Inner Protector in response to this, shielding them for future hurts (or so they hope.) The light of our soul bigness shining can be dimmed too, hidden ‘under a bushel’ for a time that feels safer.

Karmic obligation is another side of this dynamic where your soul aspects and parts have taken on responsibility for these family members, friends and mates even when you no longer resonate with each other and even when there is judgement and harm/abuse from them toward you. Instead of feeling the pain of this, parts of you feel responsible for them, you take care of them, you become the ‘holder’ of their pain at the cost of your own growth. Parts of you feel guilt if you experience joy and love because they cannot in the same way.

These karmic binds are important to feel and be with as there is a healing opportunity to complete them…now more than ever! To go deeper than the triggers and reactions to how people are treating you (or not treating you) and into the emotional body and soul field. To explore the dynamics going on within you from one part to another that mirrors this same persecution/victim dynamic (such as between the Inner Punisher and parts that feel shame.) To go into your soul field to discover the soul themes playing out there lifetime after lifetime with these same souls.

In these explorations lead by curiosity and an open heart, you discover forgiveness and compassion…for yourself, for your soul aspects, and for them. This is what allows for completion of these karmic binds as the polarity they create is no longer needing to be experienced for your growth. Only authentic, felt out and emotionally digested compassion allows for this completion…not affirmations or mental analysis or spiritual beliefs.

You (and parts of you) may be giving still much focus and energy to the reactive experience you have during these relationships….rather than turning inward to explore WHY these dynamics are happening. Going directly to the source of them within your soul field and emotional body is possible now, rather than just looping over and over. Gratitude for the gift these other souls have provided you in this experience arises as well from this ground.

Going into these deeper grounds is, yes, now more possible than ever. The veils are so thin, the walls around our hearts are weakening, and our defenses are getting so tired of holding up any more blocks. The ache to move back into Oneness again is getting stronger and stronger! Any frequencies within us of separation are being illuminated, brought up, and amplified….seeking wholeness by receiving and becoming LOVE.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about a free intro over zoom with me for women to talk about 1:1 sessions to explore these karmic grounds for healing and completion at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Healing The Inner Punisher-Shame Dynamic Within You

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By Jelelle Awen

In sessions with women recently, the Punisher-shame dynamic has been coming up for feeling and healing as it is illuminated in the loving and safe healing field that we create together. It can be SUCH an ingrained and deep dynamic that is largely unconscious and ‘off the radar’ for most people, even those awakening for quite awhile. It can create an ongoing sense that life is hopeless, heavy, confusing, bleak, and without consistent inner/outer movement.

There is ongoing suffering looping that happens when the Inner Punisher part of you is continually criticizing/putting down/creating doubt in other parts of you that respond in shame reactions, usually the Inner Child and Inner Teenager. This punishment/shame loop is an effective way of keeping you safe from moving into your soul bigness, risking hurt/rejection, and is a way to ‘match’ the punishing frequencies around you so that they do less harm. Many Inner Punishers over the years have confessed to me that creating this inner punishment/shame dynamic is the only way to survive it happening on the outside with others (usually caregivers/parents.)

I have discovered that it is one of the MAIN ways that Protector and Punisher parts keep us safe and is actually done out of an intense love for you (even though it can feel anything but loving). It is also a necessary acclimation to the Matrix reality, which runs hugely on polarized energies of judgement of self and others. The Matrix is about division, separation, and push-pull frequencies, so we are programmed and conditioned to them from birth, in addition to our social, educational, and family systems often energizing these frequencies as well.

In the SoulFullHeart process during sessions, we connect with your Inner Protector and eventually your Inner Punisher to create a feeling-based compassionate bridge to them. As you more deeply embody your Divine Self through the process, you are able to truly come to love this part of yourself and understand/feel WHY it has been creating this punishment-shame cycles within you. This allows the Punisher to relax into its TRUE essence of humble discernment and truth telling with love. Also, your Divine Self becomes loving parent to your inner child/teenager, and the Inner Punisher can relax into that as well and stop shaming them, allowing their natural joy, magic, and innocence to express more.

Many healers/teachers also operate from an unconscious ‘fusion’ with their Inner Punisher, which can create ongoing shame loops in their clients/followers. They are sharing truths yet there is a shaming frequency in them that leaves a residue for those receiving them. Usually they have not worked with and connected to the punisher/shame energies within them in a conscious way or unplugged from the judgement Matrix either. This is part of the False Light Matrix in spirituality that can keep it ‘capped’ in polarized energies and abuse cycles between teachers and followers.

I had a very strong Punisher-shame dynamic within me that took a conscious focus over the years to heal, including working with an Inner Mother/Punisher aspect for awhile. I was very self conscious with large amounts of self doubt and ‘drew’ Punishers on the outside to be in relationship with and as my teachers. I now experience little to no self judgement of myself and others in the charged frequencies that I once did, can share my truth/gifts without self consciousness, plus I am surrounded by others and in relationship with a mate who lovingly accept/see/get me. It can be challenging to love these Punishing parts of ourselves, yet with support and some necessary separation/differientation, they can transform to become very beloved aspects of ourselves.

Another Punisher/Shame dynamic can be from the False feminine punisher aspect that we call “Ursula”, named after the evil sea witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is hugely plugged into the Matrix, energizing hijacked false feminine/evil queen energies, competitive, jealous, possessive, and very difficult to separate from unless consciously connected to. Through more Divine Self embodiment and connection with Divine Mother, she is able to unplug from the Matrix and express her unique and powerful energies of the Divine Feminine, plus open up more soul access/activation for you.

If you’d like to dive into these grounds in a deep yet gentle way, 1:1 sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator are 90 minutes over zoom and start at $77 USD, yet we are open to negotiation around that rate, especially if you are wanting to meet more regularly (which we recommend.) We offer a free 30-45 minute intro session beforehand to discuss with you about the process, answer any questions you may have, and give you a sense of who to meet with and where we would go in a session. I meet with women, as does Kasha….Gabriel and Raphael meet with women and men. There is more info about sessions and each of us at soulfullheart.org/sessions. PM me if interested or email through soulfullfullheart.org.

Here is a meditation to connect with the Punisher-Shame dynamic within you:

Here is a meditation and more teaching about your Inner Ursula with Kasha and I:

I share much more about the False Light Matrix and Inner Punisher in my book Free To Be 5D, available as an audio, ebook, print and PDF editions with links at soulfullheart.org/books

With much love and direct/conscious connection with these aspects, you can experience much more love and compassion for yourself and others….along with healthy discernment, passionate truth telling, soul gift embodiment/expression and loving boundary setting.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

6/6/6 Energy & Personal Update: Clearing Shadows Lurking In ALL Our Bodies (Physical/Emotional/Mental/Soul)

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By Jelelle Awen

6/6/6 Energy & Personal update: The energies have been building up to the 6/6/6 portal tomorrow, which feels like it is already open. It’s been a bit challenging for me to tune into higher energies honestly with all that I’ve been going through of cleansing on a body-based level. That does feel like it is an aspect of these energies though…..clearing, purging, pushing up densities and toxicities on physical/mental/emotional/soul levels.

I get a sense of β€˜rehoming’ about the 6/6/6 energies, which have so long been hijacked by the Matrix to signify something β€˜evil’ or β€˜satanic.’ It is always interesting to feel what has been hijacked (such as Friday the 13th) by energies that truly ARE darker to suppress the light that wants to come through. There is an opportunity for Divine balancing from the 6/6/6 portal and high frequency upgrades as well. A reconciliation of shadow and light to bring into balance.

Sometimes the β€˜shadow’ is actually lurking within our physical bodies. I have focused SO MUCH on feeling, healing and being with the shadows in my emotional body and soul field consciousness for years now. That doesn’t mean there isn’t more there for me, yet my attention and initiations recently have been more about the β€˜shadows’ within the physical body that can lurk there causing ongoing health issues, chronic illness, disease, cancer, aging and more.

I did a juice/water only and no solid food fast/transition to living on more prana for nearly three and a half weeks. Overall, I found it easier than ever before with no hunger or physical food cravings, minimal detox reactions, and no emotional/comfort food desire reactions either, plus a sense of deep Divine Mother support and guidance. Yet, also, sometimes there are deeper toxicities lingering in our bodies that really NEED to come up and out that are pushed up by giving our digestive system a rest for awhile.

This happened for me over the last week, where I experienced a surge of strep bacteria along with viral symptoms moving through my body, centered on my throat area. The symptoms of very painful swallowing, low grade fever, muscle aches/cramps, fatigue, brain fog…they were intense for days especially during unfortunately our trip away to the ocean and even on my birthday last Wednesday. It was a big opportunity for surrender as I was clear right away that the fasting and bringing in more energy/prana etc. had actually brought the strep up so that it could finally leave my body after years and years of being dormant.

I had strep throat quite often as a kid/teenager and also in my 20s when I was a smoker to for many years. I’ve been clearing my smoking habit for many years out of my lungs, cells, etc. yet this recent one felt related to it as well, even my voice sounded like a deep smoker for a few days. The strep hadn’t really gone away and anti-biotics usually make it even stronger (that I took when I was younger) even though it goes into ‘hiding’ within different organs for a time.

I was guided to read every Medical Medium book by Anthony William that I could get my hands on and to immediately start drinking celery juice first thing in the morning. His downloads on our health, connection to latent viral and bacterial symptoms, and relationship to food in a very conscious way as medicine has been very supportive. I could feel the celery juice helping right away once I started it, along with salt water gargles, lemon water, and herbal tea.

I started feeling much better yesterday and today even better after a full night’s rest. All the white spots in my mouth are gone, swallowing is no problem, and other than a bit of lingering congestion in my chest, I’m good. I was also guided to start eating again lightly a few days ago so I broke my fast with miso soup broth (a good choice when you haven’t eaten for a few weeks), fruit smoothie, and eventually mashed potatoes.

I feel my next phase of transition to living on prana/energy/Divine Mother’s love, will be about continuing to deeply cleanse my body of any toxicities through the use of very select foods in a more medicinal way, including daily celery juice. Our body vessel really needs to be prepped and upgraded to hold the quota of light we need to live off and every step/phase during this is so valuable.

I do feel like the 6/6/6 portal relates to the cleansing of our homes, these various bodies that dynamically and multidimensionally provide us with the means to be here on the Earth Plane. We live in and with so much toxicity in the 3D Matrix, no matter how awakened or enlightened or high our frequency is.

We have ALL been impacted by these toxicities and being with them, feeling them and clearing them is such a sacred aspect of our Ascension journey. It can be very challenging and even painful to be WITH the experiences that these shadows hold, yet it is always worth it to feel the integration and openings afterwards.

Thank you again for the birthday love last week…for whatever I could let in, it was much needed!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Moving Beyond Fear-Based β€˜Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

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by Kasha Rokshana

β€œTolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being β€˜tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re β€˜doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of β€˜enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you β€˜don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of β€˜you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say β€˜control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being β€˜alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an β€˜ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

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by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with β€˜spiritual teachings’ and mandates around β€˜do this, not that!β€˜ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense β€˜retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling β€˜burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.