Tag: healing process

Stewarding Your Future Self Through Feeling

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

‘You can have whatever you want, if you’re willing to really let the want live in you, change you, move you.’

This is the message that comes to me as I tune in my future self. It’s a lot to let in, isn’t it?

Our ability as a consciousness to host both desire and despair is one of the most unique things about our being. The life each of us has at present is very much formed of our desire and our despair, often however, without our conscious awareness. Even in our sleep we are creators.

If this is true, then getting familiar and relational with both our desire and our despair is profound life altering work. It’s also the kind of work that is so good that no aspect of it really wants to be skipped over to get to the destination. It’s the journey that our soul signed up for, because it always has had and never actually lost the destination.

If that’s true, then how do we become relational with our desire and despair to the point of being a conscious creator?

It’s kind of like the disillusioned couple sitting down to have finally have the heart to heart discussion they’ve been avoiding, previously hoping would just take care of itself somehow. Simply being honest first with oneself, then being trans-‘parent’ with another parents a new reality into being. Old completions and new beginnings are allowed to flow. Using one another to stay stuck and sequestered from life let’s go.

But all this can happen inside of you – you to you. You can feel the polarized parts of yourself each holding to different desires as well as undigested despairs. You choosing this emotional exploration inside is the true leadership you’ve been waiting and wanting to inhabit for yourself. This is high level ambassador work that truly changes the life you are currently living.

If feeling this awakens your desire and despair, then I feel you can take that as a sign that your future self is wanting your attention. Your own knower knows this is true. Now it’s just a matter of responding to it.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Unraveling And Balancing Of The Inner Masculine

Published on by Gabriel Amara1 Comment

The masculine in us all can be a complex creature even underneath what can appear to be a simplified projection. Its laser pointed directive and ability to navigate so much on the 3D plane has so many benefits and qualities that are so needed in our daily lives.

Yet when that very focus finds itself tied in knots due to overwhelm, judgement, and uncertainty it really needs the feminine to come in and hold space for its unraveling. This is where the masculine gets to feel what he has been truly been holding, and simultaneously not feeling.

Since my induction back into the SoulFullHeart world, as well as the flipping of my previous script due to the feardemic, my masculine has been on a bit of unbalanced ground. While so very grateful for being back in the orbit of soul family and choosing to stay here in Victoria during this time, my inner masculine has been trying to navigate two worlds at once.

One world, the 3D world, is represented by online teaching work and making sense of what the next timeline is going to look and feel like so he can activate the usual levers and pulleys that make it all sail with minimal discomfort and chaos.

The other world, the 4D/5D world, is one that has him on the ropes half the time. It is a world of trust, surrender, and inherent joy and he just doesn’t know how to fit into that sometimes. He says, “Just give me something to do, and I will do it!”. As I connect with myself from this world, I can feel his anxiety and his discombobulation. So I breathe with him.

When we sit in rest together, just being and feeling, the anxiety bubbles and then pops into vulnerability. Into tears. Into the feeling that he is not enough. Into a feeling that he is feeling like he is losing his ability to ‘hold it all together’ in the face of so much change, momentum, and goodness.

The feminine in me comes to his aid and just sits with him. She invites him to lean in when he has felt like he has had to be the lead all the time. She is not looking for a warrior or a soldier, she is looking for his truth. His needs. His real-ity. That is his royalty.

As the tears flowed and the energy of all that he has been holding for the past several months came to the surface, a calm came into his being. Not a cure, but a calm. He knows he still has things to feel. Things to continue to let go and let in. He so much wants to be a King to her Queen.

The first step is admitting when he doesn’t feel this way and that it is okay. This is where she comes in to hold that space for him to arise anew. To be resurrected from an old way of being in the world. For that world is dying, and he is being reborn into his sacred service of heart-centered leadership.

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Gabriel Heartman is a facilitant, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Feeling Your ‘Circum-Stances’ And Desires With Your Inner Masculine

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The ‘circum-stances’ of your life as you know it today is literally a standing stone circle of what you know as your ‘surroundings’.

Like Stonehenge is a wonder of how it came to be, so is this personal circle – created as both a mirror and a portal by parts of you and your Metasoul aspects. A mirror that tells the honest truth of what is, how it came to be, and a portal (Merkabah vehicle) to what honestly wants to be.

When you feel and bridge to the polarity of both your desires and despair, coming from your parts and Metasoul aspects, you create sacred movement to new circumstances that you are now willing to dream as possible; that you were willing to feel the IMpossibility of; and bridge between. You make the discordant resonant.

Your Inner Masculine wants to get on with this new mandate, but may feel stuck and in need of your heart presence and awakening. Settling for a spirituality that makes desire bad, or ‘of the ego’ is one sure way to neuter your Inner Masculine, who is so deeply needed right now. Just ask your Inner Feminine is that’s true. ‘De-sire’ literally means ‘from the sire’. What is your masculine wanting to sire into your life? Is your Inner Feminine ready to dance?

Your Inner Masculine wants to get practical – wants to engage in doing, acting, effecting and accomplishing, and he wants to dance with and do it for your Inner Feminine – how do you express that as you ascend out of 3D and move towards 5D?

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@kmitchhodge

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Separation Facilitates Reconciliation

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The last thing you want right now is to be perfectly centered.

Airplanes reach their destinations by continually going off course and then course correcting. It’s the wobbling through center and coming back, just like each stroke on a bicycle that affords us balance and forward propulsion.

We actually need the deviation as much as the correction – both are sacred and both are necessary. You and I are holy deviants who have deviated out from love and light even into darkness and hatred to whatever degree we needed to as a soul, on behalf of love, and as love, so that we could experience reconciliation.

Separation facilitates reconciliation. And it’s in the transaction of love being reconciled to itself that it obtains the prize it set out for in the first place.

You can feel this inside yourself and in the collective, both, especially as we prepare for the revelation phase of darkness coming to light.

Remember, love never lost, hence no need for any holy war, not inside or outside.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

444 Portal Day: We Are ALL On Our Way To The NEW

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

During my dark night experience late in 2019, I saw the number sequence 44 or 444 quite often.

I looked up the meaning and some of what I read resonated, but it wasn’t until I asked someone in person what they felt it meant based on their own sense of number sequences, that I found an explanation that truly landed…

44 as a number pattern reminds us that we are on our way, that we are doing the work necessary to fulfill our intentions, that we are ‘on track’… And that even though it’s a challenging and winding road and we may feel wedged in between timelines, the timeline we most desire to be part of IS emerging as we emerge from the inner darkness and the growthful paths we’re on now.

In other words, I could really feel 44 and 444 as an alchemy of light meets dark, of emerging from difficult situations, especially inside, with our dreams not only intact but enhanced, as we upgrade from the inside out everything within us.

When parts of me could let in this message at that time, it helped let in some Divine air that everything was flowing as it needed to, even if I felt reactions, mourning, sadness, and a ton of uncertainty. Where this whole phase of my life led me was to deeper alignment with my heart and soul purpose, a graduated and deepened sense of who I AM and what I most deeply wanted but humbly knew I was in the process of getting ready for. It lasted a couple of months and then I was reunited with soul family in a deeper way than ever before or that I was even remotely expecting, though I held the beacon of possibility very close to my heart.

444 today feels like it offers the same or similar energies of accepting a darker phase before the real alignment and real light, especially from within but also in our outer worlds, comes up and out.

The disclosure process we’re in now, seeing and feeling so much rumbling below the surface, is all so important to access the greater light available to us all. It’s a dark time but there are pockets of hope, possibility, and a very real transition to a New Earth/5D experience of life as a whole!

Much love to you on this auspicious 444 day…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Embracing Lillith: A Poem Of Feminine Self-Discovery

Published on by Kasha Rosa4 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

Easing in
To me
To Her…
The softness gathers ‘round
In flowing birthing waters
To hold and to move
To alter and to cleanse
What has been
To prepare for
What will be.

She waits in her garden
My garden within
Of inner workings
In billowing dresses
Of white satins
And lace.

She invites
And it lands deeper now
Than it ever could
When the stakes of feeling deeper
Needed more space to be felt.

With her hands
She takes mine

With her heart
She holds mine

And with Her
I stand now taller
With the grace of a thousand lifetimes
Cultivated
Both mine and never ‘mine’
Collective and personal
Feminine and Masculine.

By Her
I am supported
In all explorations
That remind me

I won’t EVER give up on love.

In the balance made
By the unknowns
Now becoming known
She awaits the phase
When our lifeblood’s
Heart muscle
Beats out the rhythm
Of new creations
From the very core
Of what has made us
Both souls and humans
With every bridge possible
In between.

Arising in Her midst
I arrive in ME
Maiden
Priestess
Magdalene
Sacred Feminine Bridge
Inviting others
Into Her dance
Of Oneness within
Extending without
Yet, always grounded
In the timelessness
Of the Higher Heart
And ever-expanding
Soul.

Embodied for now
In a dance of human-made
Female flesh
Flushed with goodness
Singing with Ascension
And breathing with the ecstasy
Of a heart healing and rediscovered
Within the softening bedrock
Of a countenance
Never really forgotten
Only set aside.

I sense the exquisite timing
Of Her rebirth
Bringing with tender lushness
The bourgeoning new Now
Of the age being born
Within the context of ever-deepening
Divinely human
Ever-galactic

Love.

A love I won’t EVER give up on.

…as if I ever even could.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Could It Be?

Published on by Raphael Awen2 Comments

By Raphael Awen

Stewing in thoughts or feelings finds movement when there is a you there who is willing to begin to feel what is stewing and why with curiosity and compassion.

Emotion and feeling are two words that speak their truth. One speaks of motion and the other of touch, or contact. Motion and touch create a ‘to and from’. Without this to and from, there isn’t a flow, and we’re back to the stasis of the stewing; stuck in a prolonged suffering over our difficulties.

Our difficulties are difficult enough. Why would parts of us choose to stay in suffering over our difficulties, rather than feel what is wanting to be felt, and thus let in the movement?

Could it be that to parts of us, the known suffering is better than the unsafe unknown?

Could it be that to parts of us, they’ve never been accustomed to an other with an open heart? Could it be that parts of us have been so long conditioned to a world without feeling that the prospect of feeling is a distant memory of an unsafe reality, that needs to be resisted for the land mine experience it was?

How could you find out what is true now for parts of you and why? Are parts of you open to a new experience of ‘flow to and from’ of whatever it is that is wanting to be felt in your sacred world?

Are you and parts of you ready to let in the next stages of your own largesse of being by feeling the most contracted and small feeling parts of you?

If these words call to you, and you feel you would like some help, I offer a free intro call intro call to talk more with you about the process we offer. Message me if you are interested.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Unplugging & Liberation of the 3D/4D Matrix & Reptilian Timelines: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan. 20, 2020)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY week!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a catalytic download from Jelelle Awen about connecting with a reptilian aspect and unplugging them from the 3D/4D matrix. She describes her personal experience with her reptilian aspect and how you can meet them with love and hold space for them in order to free them from their timeline:

“My Reptilian sisters told me that there is a dissolving happening of their One Mind Matrix and many more of their species is choosing to disconnect from humanity and Earth, to let us go….and go to the planet that has been offered to them that fits their make up better. This is significant movement for them and, therefore, for humanity as well. This process of the Matrices of control dissolving on all levels is a significant aspect of our ongoing Ascension process. In 5D, there is no need for control matrices any longer.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle Awen and Kalayna Solais. Included are personal process updates by Kalayna as well as an Energy Update and a post about Ascension pain by Jelelle.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, February 8th PDT. This group is about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes to move into becoming an ambassador of love. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/310908349856878/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

Healing Polarities Within Illuminated By The Eclipse and 1:11 Passage Energies: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan. 13, 2020)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Saturday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature an energy update by Jelelle Awen of the emotional polarities that came up with the Eclipse. She invites you to feel the parts involved in these polarities to understand where they come from and how to heal them:

“On the other side of this passage, there is a sense of calming down and more rest, more groundedness from within, and an emotional reset. There is a sense of space within to digest in a more full-hearted way the changes and choice points that may have been illuminated to you during this passage.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and timeline shifts by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, February 8th PDT. This group is about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes to move into becoming an ambassador of love. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/310908349856878/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

2019 Death/Rebirth Passage Opens Up To A 2020 New Dawn: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 30, 2019)

Published on by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Saturday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a digestion by Jelelle Awen of the death and rebirth energy coming in with the new year. Many relationships, jobs, etc are coming to and end as the new 2020 higher timeline comes in:

“Three days into 2020 already and it does feel like we are on moving to the ‘other side’ of this intense pressurization and death/rebirth passage. The other side is not completely free of angst, hurt, growth, and feeling necessary darkness/shadow. Yet, there is a sense of this ‘New Dawn of A New Decade’ energy holding the bigger space for it.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and New Year gratitiude by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Raphael Awen continues his daily video series titled “Alive” in which he shares vulnerably and on a new topic each day. You can watch these on his Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

Jelelle Awen begins her own video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, January 11th PDT. This group is about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/777180949450667/

Our next local event is our Four Day March Equinox Gathering from March 20-23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way. For more information go to: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here