In today’s video, Day 32 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about the Inner Child, Star Seed Child, and Inner Teenager parts of us. I start with the Inner Teenager, who seems to be in your teenage bedroom, guarded by the Inner Protector. The Protector is often the guard at the door and is also very protective of the Inner Child as well.
The Inner Child part has more 3D-based frequencies of hurt and shame that come from this life trauma. It takes time, patience, and negotiation with the Protector to connect to the deeper frequencies of the Inner Child because it is highly guarded and usually very shy/suppressed.
The Star Seed is the frequency that the Inner Child transmutes too as the hurt and shame heal from 3D experiences. The Star Seed is often holding wounding and trauma from being ‘abandoned’ by star family and also pain from ‘abductions’, which were actually star family visits. The Star Seed transmutes to wonder, curiosity, connection with star family, galactic heart opening, and eventually ‘sits’ in the center of your Merkabah or Light Body Vehicle.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!
In the heart of the woman is the daughter, waiting to be adored by parents who feel and WANT her. This inner daughter sits often in shyness, cast into the shadows to remain ‘safe’, not able to come out and play. She is freeze framed in her sadness, ‘stuck’ in the scenes that bring pain every time they are replayed by her mind, which is just trying to ‘clear’ them out.
Her voice is suppressed; her innocence is buried under shame; and her self consciousness leaves her unable to break free from the protective energies that judge and criticize her. She is a child without direct access to the JOY and magic that lives inside her as a seed that needs the water of LOVE to grow and bloom.
In the heart of the man is the son, waiting to be initiated by parents who feel and ADMIRE him. This inner son has masks to wear that play at ‘being a man’, even as he feels very small and insecure inside. He pretends to be a super hero, although protective and critical energies judge him as a coward.
This inner son learns to hide his vulnerabilities and his tears and, eventually, his heart behind shields and walls. He is trapped in the mind; in compensations and addictions; in reaction to inner energies that bully and criticism him. His WILDness is tamed by a world that wants him to conform, to wear a suit of conventional life, to ‘play by the rules’. He is a child without access to his childlike essence and the goodness and magic that lives inside of him.
Feel with tenderness this daughter or son inside of you. Invite them out to play with you, to leap with JOY again in every bound. Hold their hands as they cross the inner streets of busy mind and activities. Pass tissues to them as you FEEL their tears and sadness and their fears. Be interested as they tell you their stories. Bridge their hidden world with your outer one, making it safe for them to grow and learn.
Feel with openness where this youngness lives inside of you and the ways that it shows up in your ‘adult’ life. BEfriend this BEloved aspect of yourself as you BEcome what you have needed the most and didn’t have. Bring in Divine Frequencies of Mother and Father to provide Infinite Love energies to help re-parent them. Let Divine Mother wrap them in Her arms. Let Divine Father hold them in his protective embrace.
As you ARE the loving parental energy that these parts of you didn’t have in the way that they needed IN the painful moments that they MOST needed it during your childhood, the energies of your wounded child transform to health. Shame becomes innocence. Anxiety becomes trust. Shyness becomes humble confidence. Depression becomes creativity. Disillusion becomes purity. The wounded 3D Inner Child frequencies vibrate higher and higher, transmuting into the Magical, Star Seed 4D child and eventually into your 5D Crystalline child, who occupies the seat of your Merkabah or light vehicle.
Places of immaturity in your gender expression are then able to mature INTO the mature Queen and the mature King. As the child energies vibrate higher and you show up as an adult more and more to SEPARATE from these energies, you mature in your emotional body, your sexuality, your capacity to transact intimacy in all relationships. BEing with the youngness inside and loving it is what frees UP your mature feminine and masculine, along with letting in frequencies from the Divine to template how to embody and BE this.
Feel the Inner Protector who guards your Inner Child. With fierce loyalty, this protective part of you had to show up probably very early in your life when life was deemed ‘not safe’ for the innocence and purity of your heart. Negotiate with this Inner Protector, get to know them, form a bond and invite them to rest eventually. As they feel and see YOU there being with your Inner Child in a NEW way, your Inner Protector will start to trust and let go more, drop the guards and the walls, allow more LOVE into your BEing and life. Here is a guided meditation and teachings from us to connect with Your Inner Protector, which is necessary before accessing the DEEPER frequencies of the Inner Child: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc
This inner family of yours is waiting for your connection and for your attention. As you embrace this INNER union with different aspects of yourself, you are more able to BE in your authenticity, open heartedness, open mindedness, feel Divine Love and love with others. As you open YOUR own heart, so does this opening flow out to and WITH others. It is from this overflow of SELF love with ALL aspects that allows for TRUE service of love that comes from humble and surrendered desire!
This writing is inspired by my OWN inner child, once named Evie then Aurora and now an integrated aspect of my higher vibrational BEing. It is also inspired by the BEAUTIFUL (although often initially very sad) inner children that I had the honor to connect with during session space over the years. Here is more to read about the parts that we work with in our SoulFullHeart process during sessions and more about our process as well:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
In this energetic pressure cooker turned UP to its highest ‘LOVE’ setting, your heart bakes on the aches that have been previously suppressed. Simmering now, you are BEcoming what is POSSIBLE when love is the waters you are swimming in. BEing more in the now, with others who resonate and marinate along WITH you in love’s juices.
UP come the fears. UP come the doubts. UP come the distrust. UP come the resistances held by the protective parts, the guarding parts, that have just wanted to keep life safe for you. You invite these parts of you to put down their weapons, their self judgements, their reticence. You ask them to confess to that which has before been left unsaid and so release the burdens of their concerns to YOU. You pass the tissues to collect the tears that can finally be released. You become the role of confessor to your own heart and soul, with deep compassion and genuine curiosity in response to ALL you hear and feel.
In this letting go of previous pain and traumatic story through feeling it with ALL parts of you, your emotional body becomes CURRENT. It can vibrate in the frequencies of the NOW rather than from the past. It can vibrate heart health and soul integration rather than from from ‘long ago’ wounded and ‘didn’t heal properly’ frequencies. It can become more STILL in natural rhythm with the Universe’s heart beat, tuning more and more to the galactic HUM.
THIS is what all that reading about spirituality was for. This is what all those hours of meditation sets the stage for. This is what the yoga classes were for. This is what all the letting go of the OLD life and boundary setting has been for.
ALL of it has been supporting the soul self to arise. To become BIG enough to hold all this undigested REAL reality. To become your own parent, your own BEloved, your own angel, your own spirit guide, your own God and Goddess. Your own Divine Source that can hold the space for ALL aspects of you, from your roots to your wings, from Inner Child to Ancient Inner Divine Muse and so BE whatever you are MOST needing in EVERY moment.
In this energetic pressure cooker turned UP to its highest ‘LOVE’ setting, it is finally becoming safe enough to go where it was once deemed off limits, to go where it once felt impossible. In this process of GREAT self enlovenment, you discover that you HAVE no limits yet ARE Infinite Possibilities of Infinite Love in human form returning and remembering what you have always been.
Jelelle Awen Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
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Gosh, claiming someone or something can feel like a big leap of faith. It is an agreement to fall in love. It can get to a point where even claiming the next step of the staircase can feel like a lot, like you and your parts know somehow that life as you’ve/they’ve known it is about to change. Some of us are more cautious than others. Some of us dive in head, heart or soul first, no matter the circumstance. There could be a balance here, and yet the whole point, it feels like, is to allow yourself to be ‘out’ of balance. To let something or someone new that’s arising in your life tip you completely sideways and add some new wonder to every fiber of your existence, known or unknown. Parts of us have all sorts of reactions to this and it’s important to feel every one as it arises, paving nothing over, and yet the messiness of it all, even feeling in hindsight what was buried, IS the point! Sometimes our growth edges cannot be planned or deliberately planted, yet stumbled upon. And sometimes this is the only way to find them.
As children, getting messy was easy! It was the way we learned to communicate, the way we learned to play, the way we learned how to BE with others and also with things. We shed tears over broken bones and toys and friendship bonds. Sadly too we also learned how to punish ourselves from the inside and as we learned what was ‘wrong’ and what was ‘right’ we also learned how to judge others for whether or not they followed the ‘rules’ as we learned them. Parts of us or subpersonalities began to form around these traumas, identities and ways of ‘seeing’ ourselves started to develop. We stopped being willing to get messy, sooner or later, for the consequences, which no one could feel us in at the time or offer us heart-centered guidance through, soon became things to avoid, avoid, avoid… it feels like this is when we learned how to stop falling in love, falling on our faces or bums or even our hearts when necessary, whether over a person or a butterfly or puppy, or a flower we just really wanted to run to in order to take it in deeper! We wanted to play, we wanted to learn how to fly, we wanted to experience the whole world with every sense alive in us. AND none of us were born judges or critics or even fanatics… we just WERE.
Our worlds of discovery, uncovering all we wanted to, became answered by knowledge. So many of us eventually began a path of seeking and spirituality in order to find magic in life again, and yet even this has become a place of only seeking knowledge and not actual experience. Not the same experience that falling into and sometimes on top of your heart can offer. It’s not the same as the inherent sense of spirituality we were BORN with, that got snuffed out because we had to go through phases of this. It’s been a tough road of remembrance and so it continues to be sometimes, but this innocence, this heart-centered love of everything, is still there. The healing, the difficulties, the FEELING is all worth it to find this place inside the inside of us again. We are constantly being invited back inward, back to that place where the magic has always been. We can’t return fully to that place where we were as kids, and yet we wouldn’t want to, for all that we’ve gleaned from our life experience has been a gift that’s meant to integrate with this child within, hold it and treasure it too. As we claim each piece of who we are, who we want to be, who we want to be WITH, we find our way back to the pure love we came from, bringing our full treasure chest with us that we always wanted to find as children but needed life to bring it to us.
A childlike claim of the love of discovery, of life, of love itself… the claim of another in romance, the claim of ourselves in pursuit of our deepest healing and experience of self love and reverence and worth… this is all within us and the more we allow in the possibilities of mess but still go IN, the more we seem to grow and the greater our depths of soul and heart seem to BE.
With each firewalk we endure, we find our power again, and realize we never lost it but it was our power that chose it in the first place. With each step into the wilderness, we find that getting lost only means being found in a new way. With each garden bed we till, we make friends with the bugs and learn to love the dirt under our fingernails. And with each fresh beat of our excited hearts, we learn yet again, that even the roughest seas bring us back to the shores of love and the light we’ve always had within. ❤
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The wonder of magic is available in the NOW moment….around and through and AS you. The light codes from the sun shining down and inviting the experience of wonderFULL joy and connection to the magics all around. Mother Gaia offering her PLAYground of natural magics and exploration. The PURE love waves that are all around in every moment are inviting you to experience it.
The wonder of magic can move you beyond the doing. It can move you beyond coming from the mind, the mind tracking EVERYTHING and so experience can’t come in. With the busy thoughts of the mind….usually thinking of yesterday or tomorrow and rarely in the NOW……these busy thoughts block the wonder of the moment. These busy thoughts and busy mind coming from a busy aspect of you label arising wonder and make it a name. These labels dampen wonder.
Knowing can dampen the wonder of magic too, it can kill it before it can even come into BEing. Knowing that comes from the busy mind and the 3D pain body is about numbing and making reality flat….making it KNOWN so that it can be safe. This is different than heart wisdom or soul wisdoms that are remembered and yet allow for exploration into the unknown in every moment. This knowing is lower frequency and it has layers of unworthiness underneath it and lack of trust in life, love, and the Divine.
The wonder of magic is within your inner child and is spring loaded to burst like a comet across the sky. Children feel and come from wonder yet are conditioned to suppress it and to conform and dampen it. Children are conditioned in 3D reality to DO and to KNOW first and foremost…often leaving BEing in the moment far behind as they get older. Yet, it is still inside of you, this inner child, and these frequencies of BEing in wonder that you had as a child.
Healing, feeling, connecting with your inner child moves you into more and more wonder and magic that eventually expresses as your crystalline child essence in 5D. We feel this as an important aspect of ourselves to connect with in SoulFullHeart, many frequencies of hurt and shame and unworthiness contained in the unhealed inner child expressing in our lives that through space, time, and love begin to heal and transmute.
The wonder of magic is yours to let in and experience again….it lives inside your inner child and can be revealed again as you go within, reclaim and love and embrace this energy inside until it can arise as loving wonder again.
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc