Becoming The Author Of Your Own Story

By Raphael Awen

When you are no longer controlled by outside forces, you are the author, possessing the author-ity for what your life is about.

Becoming the Sovereign of your own life in this way is a scary proposition as it leaves us completely responsible for own lives, leaving us the challenge of owning all of our lives – all that’s in our lives, and all of our lifetimes.

There’s no one to blame. There’s no circumstance to point the finger at; no lot in life, that doesn’t originate in you.

The idea of having whatever you want is only novel and exciting until you realize that’s what actually been going on this whole time. The challenge is coming to terms with your authorship, deciding the story that you actually want; deciding and negotiating between the parts of you that want different things.

You are not your circumstances. You are not your relationships. You are not your job. You are not your bank balance. You are not even your health. You created all of that, but you are not that.

You are the creator.

Maybe like me, you set your sights on healing your anxiety or your depression. You did that, only to realize this was much to small a goal for the Sovereign you actually are. No longer being in the depths of anxiety or depression is nice, but that alone can’t fill the expansive sails of your being.

You are called to experience yourself in continual curiosity and childlike wonder and learning. You are ever called to more.

What does your more look like? What is wanting to mature and manifest in your life, in your world, in your magical story?

What have parts of you been afraid of, in order to enact the changes that you know are ripening in your story?

How can you lovingly reconcile and negotiate these inner differences?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

9/9 Cycle Completions & New Beginnings

by Kalayna Solais

No matter the portal that’s open or ‘time of year’, we get to look at ourselves, reflect on what we’ve walked out, and choose to see the next steps into who, where, and even WITH whom we would like to be. By this I mean, we get to choose if we’re ready to embrace the steps in front of us toward our next romantic soulmate bond, a new depth of soul community experience, new approaches to money/livelihood alchemy, and above all, new ways in which we can BE with ourselves.

Sometimes as we complete one cycle we begin another one right away. Endings breed beginnings, always, as life moves through us in these cycles. These can include karmic cycles where we’re being reflected the same themes over and over again even as we reach and go into the next layers of completing these patterns. These can include patterns of how we’ve been in relationships of all kinds too, romantic, friendship, even at work. Cycles exist everywhere and they include the many patterns we’ve lived out both consciously and unconsciously. It feels as if this 9/9 day is another significant opportunity to SEE patterns and where they’ve originated and we get to choose if/when we’re ready to deeply feel them.

I always get a sense especially of ‘karma’ around the number 9. It’s a number that is both an open and closed shape in one. It’s a number that to me shows a cycle that isn’t quite complete but may be in the process of completing. This is so true on a collective and personal level, where we’re feeling and seeing some pieces heating up but there IS a sense of completion coming too. Or at least more opportunities to become complete with something, some cycle or pattern, if we’re truly ready to show up for that.

9 reminds us somehow that we do have an array of choices before us, that we do get to find our power and act from there, but also that we need surrender too. We do have to show up at least halfway for life to truly respond to us and our deepest needs, but the real work sometimes is in the surrendering to life at the same time, and to a much bigger picture that we can’t possibly fathom just yet.

I feel this for myself as I continue to explore my alchemy and what I’ve drawn socially too. I continue to be challenged to feel my parts in their resistances and defenses but also see my progress and just how open my heart is these days, whereas even just a couple of years ago that would have been much harder to really see or feel as true.

In my process now, I can feel my parts in the midst of completing a cycle of taking things personally that has felt ENDLESS and so heartbreaking over and over again for many years. This has helped me feel my heart even more open and compassionate toward others and where they’re at right now that may not be in resonance with where I am, but that doesn’t take away from my care for them. This has drawn some interesting interactions, ranging from going deep very quickly to being kicked by parts of them that are in reaction. The reality of an open heart is that we can draw either extreme… at least until parts of us no longer need that reflection from life. This is where I’m going with this now, to feel why these extremes are what’s happening versus a more mellow and easily digestible experience of connection with others.

On this 9/9 day, whatever you may be feeling as a completion or a new beginning, there’s plenty of alchemy to go around in either direction and sometimes in both ways at the same time. And, as always, there is SO much love with you that wants to support you through all of it. ❤

My beloveds and I are ready to serve should you desire a session with us to help you find your next places to go on your own personal path: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

On September 14th, join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for their next group transmission: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/ on 4D Matrix/Karmic Healing! This is another opportunity to feel your next steps in healing your own karmic cycles and pain. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

The Door To Our Inner Garden

By Raphael Awen

And for how long we longed after some door external to us to find our magic, our light, our sparkle, when the door was in our own inner garden all along. 

If this is true, then what seems to predispose us all to look outward or to an other?

We have been convinced that the self is ‘selfish,’ an inherently bad word and a very bad thing, when in truth until you become truly and deeply selfish, youcan in no wise inherit the kingdom of God, for this kingdom and queendom is inside you.

To be fully selfish is to do and be what brings you the fullest and deepest pleasure. How could that not be to the fullest and deepest pleasure of all of life and every living thing around you.

Shortchanging yourself is shortchanging the world and everyone around you. 

Your problem isn’t that you are self centred, it is that you are not centred in yourself enough to the true degree and depths of that which you really are and with what you really want. 

Give up the pretence that you have no self-interest for when in fact, as a self, that is all you have.

Show me your most noble self-less act, and then show me how you are not deriving a personal return from it. 

Until we reconcile this inside of ourselves, the door to our own inner garden of our magic remains sealed.

How could it be any different?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Falling IN Love

Photo by Everton Vila on Unsplash

By Raianna Shai

In the past few weeks I have been trying to find the space and time to write a blog post, finding that I have struggled to “force” something profound and meaningful out of me when sometimes just living is as profound as you need to be in any moment. I have so much desire to serve love to others and to share what I learn on my awakening journey. Even now, I have many ideas of what I could write about but the words aren’t flowing as easily as they have in the past.

So as I sit here with an open heart, energy and time, I decided just to write about where I am currently in my life. That is what’s most authentic and flows from my heart with ease.

Right now I am falling in love. With myself, with other, with my life and family. I am falling in love inside and outside. I am growing and changing and facing my fears as much as I possibly can to continue letting in all of this love.

My inner process has been focused on a feminine and masculine part of me who are also learning to fall in love. They both have desires, needs, boundaries and fears. My feminine part, who I am calling Shai, is emotional and passionate and a true romantic at heart. My masculine part, named Michael, is discerning, intelligent and has a gift of holding 3D tasks. Together, they are balanced and full of love. Apart, they are opposite forces working against one another creating fear, anxiety and projection onto others.

Because of the abundance of goodness in my life right now, I have been focusing on these two parts in order to be able to continue letting it all in. It’s easy for parts to get scared when things are going well. In a dimension where things tend to “go wrong”, we can make predictions ahead of time of what may not work or what we might lose. In that, we lose the moment. We lose what we have in the present and we don’t get everything out of it that we could.

I’m working on not expecting the worse. On not bracing myself for the impact of something bad. But first, I feel the parts that do expect the worst and discover why that is. The more that Shai and Michael vulnerably share their fears with me, the more they will fall in love and fall in tandem with one another. That’s when their gifts can shine and that love can be shared with others.

We talk about inner sacred union a lot for a reason. It’s so important to start within. To grow the glow of love so brightly that it shines through every pore and into those around you.

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I found this poem from almost two years ago that I thought was fitting for this! It’s from my masculine too my feminine:

I always thought I was different than the other men

More sensitive

More emotional

More mature

 

I thought I was protecting you from the other men

Giving you edges

Hiding your feelings

Numbing your reactions

 

I thought you’d be hurt by the other men

They would crack you into pieces

They would scratch your porcelain skin

They would break your fragile heart

 

But now I see your strength as a woman

Your compassion

Your empathetic prowess

Your stillness and energy, both

 

I thought I could hide you as a woman

Under formless clothing

Under quick-witted comebacks

Under disinterest in romance

 

Maybe now I can support you as a woman

Become the mind to your heart

Become the here to your now

Become the pot to your plant

 

I’m not meant to be your guard,

But instead your partner

Your partner in this dance

Few know the steps to

 

Where our rhythms match,

Our hearts unite

And our souls release the energy

Of every star in the nighttime sky

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Choosing To Forget

By Raphael Awen

You’ve chosen to forget.

The desire, the rate and pace, the content of what and how you remember is also a choice.

A dynamic and powerful part of you has been assigned to hold this tension of what needs to remain in the forgotten category and what is safe and timely to be remembered. We could call this part of you, your Gatekeeper, the guardian of the necessary veil who enabled and afforded you to inhabit this desired third dimensional school without imploding.

It’s been a bit of a family joke for those that know me to have a little fun with my forgetfulness around movies. I’ve tended strongly to forget titles, story lines, and often only recall a movie I’m watching for the second time part way into the movie. It’s not all movies as some story lines made profound impacts and memories. Other movies, however, who people around me found interesting enough, I often even fell asleep to while watching.

I asked my Gatekeeper whose name is Rhodes about this, this morning and immediately my awareness expanded out that this forgetfulness of story has directly to do with the strength of the veil that I chose and needed this life. Even with Rhodes himself along with stories of my Metasoul aspects and their timelines, I’ve had trouble recalling some time following after having deep and profound processes of remembering. It would simply get swallowed back up into a sea of a kind of a sea of forgetfulness.

Rhodes communicated today that the strength of other timelines stories needed to have sufficient veil in order that the purpose of this timeline be protected. As I’m awakening, however, this movie amnesia, whether it’s about movies or about my soul history, or even this life history, is making other parts of me feel self conscious. They want to get on with remembering. Remembering, they feel is the answer to what is ached for, and the answer to where parts of me feel, I and they still experience suffering.

I’m told that forgetting is a kind of suffering, a burden to bear, if you will, that we all chose, collectively and individually as a service to the goals and desires of love. Forgetting is not static however. Forgetting is for the purpose of remembering. We hid our own Easter eggs and we wrapped our own Christmas presents. We forgot in order to remember.

I’m told that remembering is ’to be returned to being a member’, after surrendering to a kind of dismemberment from love. The forgetting had its own pains as does remembering, like blood returning to a limb that fell asleep.

I’m told that the whole purpose of forgetting and remembering was to expand love from its original perfect/imperfect state. Love itself wanted to be noticed and to be revered. It birthed duality as a place to get noticed, seen and appreciated.

Getting to know and feel this magical part of you who’s been your personal Gatekeeper is now your opportunity to negotiate the rate and pace and content of your awakening as you lovingly guide yourself and other parts of yourself through this epic journey.

Story lines from other timelines in your Metasoul await you to be felt and seen and transmuted into love. Karma itself also wants to be transmuted from the expectation of pain to the expectation of bounty and love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Current Activations Help Us See, Feel, Heal Our Deep 3D/4D Matrix Conditioning

by Kalayna Solais

We have grown up in a 3D society that encourages us to stay feeling full, ‘fat’ and flat.

Over-stimulated and underfelt are the many parts of us who continue to show up in life and relationships to ingest and then digest experiences, trauma, and what we’ve been told is ‘food’ too.

We’ve been taught that compassion is only a sidedish to being empathic rather than the main course if we’re encouraged to be empathic at all growing up or to ask for others to feel us… which happens in 4D consciousness too, where being an ’empath’ is often worn as a millstone around our necks instead of deeply inhabited and responded to.

Feeling ourselves in a heart-open way, let alone feeling others, is not encouraged and is instead told to be buried and covered over by the heavy cement of our education systems, our food industries, mainstream ‘medicine’, our consumption of ‘entertainment’ and even ‘spirituality’ itself.

Parts of us have taken on the role of shaming and shunning what is new and different, what isn’t mainstream, as it blooms inside of us and around us. This is typically an Inner Punisher part, yet other parts of you can be wrapped in this too and Metasoul aspects who are afraid to feel themselves, to digest the trauma of their timelines. In this way, this very much applies to 4D consciousness as well as 3D, as there are still matrices in place, rules to follow, ideas that are more acceptable than others, and ultimately still some expectations of how it all should be and look like.

Trauma should be ‘gotten rid of as quickly as possible’ instead of steadily and heartfully investigated and loved…. this is a popular one in 4D and a meme that relates to all of this deeply seated conditioning inside. This has been detrimental to our growth and our possibilities for deepening self-love and respect as well, as parts of us then go back into hiding where they continue to feel unfelt, unheard, and ultimately unloved…

To unseat these pieces, we have to take the space to feel ourselves with deep honesty… this is the hard part, as we haven’t been shown how to do this. You may struggle with taking time for yourself due to a busy lifestyle that you’ve needed for a phase or a relationship that feels rumbly enough already. I myself have been in a phase of more busyness than normal with exploring different ‘jobs’ and a new social world too. This is what’s reflecting all of these pieces to me and is something I’m going into in my soul… what have been the over-attachments in ME that have kept parts of me reeling and spinning in conditioning that simply doesn’t fit them anymore? What timelines are my Metasoul aspects still living in that are being reflected now, where they have perpetuated this conditioning in their own ways or been victims to it?

There’s so much to glean from all of this inner exploration with parts of you and in your soul too, should the timing feel right to really go into it and INvestigate it all… you can find out more about ‘parts’ and ‘Metasoul aspects’ here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I really feel we are ALL being encouraged to SEE all of this as well as to feel it. To let the light activations coming in help it all become illuminated for us and with us, to collaborate with us individually on new ways to approach life and love… especially our sense of self-love, from which all capacity to love others stems. We CAN learn to love and appreciate the conditioning we’ve signed up for while also moving through it into something new.

Much love to you, wherever you are on your own journey with this and so much more… 

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen on September 14th for a 4D Matrix Healing Group Transmission! More details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Class Action Love Suit

By Raphael Awen

Anxiety and depression coming up are at first seen to be related to how one feels about this life.

Looking deeper and feeling deeper, one can see how these feelings also stem from the Metasoul – Mirroring aspects of our wider self, in other timelines often holding karmic binds, an expectation of things going wrong.

Karma’s whole point was to bring us to remorse and reconciliation from this polarized extremity and duality of living as if one could harm an other and reframe from harming self.

Feeling the deeper soul’s sorry, one moves the karmic binds from a kind of class action law suit arrayed against you, to a kind of class action love suit, where victim and perpetrator recreate and rewrite the story to one of deep love through the inseparable bond of karma.

I felt this while feeling my Atlantean Metasoul aspect today, who I’ve come to know as Mordecai. At first, it was simply a heightened energy of fearing outcomes. I even had a moment of ‘for no reason’, fearing the car breaking down while driving yesterday, along with other feelings of circumstances turning negative. I was able to feel into this karmic expectation backlash that this was about the reality that Mordecai created for himself, and to feel this all with him and create a new unfolding timeline of deep remorse, asking forgiveness, receiving it and now allowing for the Karmic binds to be transformed into alchemical Karmic love binds.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Healing The ‘Black Sheep’ Archetype

by Kalayna Solais

When you’re a child, you start to learn right away what is expected of you. You’re meeting expectations of when to start talking, walking, even behaving more maturely, whatever definition of ‘mature’ you’ve been taught. You learn, then, about what makes you feel like you’re on track with this and what doesn’t and you take in the impact of that.

As you get older and start to awaken more to your soul but also what your heart really feels and wants, the pain starts to set in… the pain of feeling like you don’t belong and maybe never have. A feeling like you simply cannot ‘win’ no matter what you do or don’t do. Parts of you form to deal with this and find a way to be in the world but you still can’t reconcile your differences; those aspects of who you are that seem to set you apart from everyone else.

In some cases, you may start becoming ‘therapized’ as the only way that your 3D-conditioned parents or authority figures feel they can ‘help’ you. You may be put on medication that numbs and dulls your natural ability to FEEL. Even the anxiety and depression you’ve experienced, which is held by parts of you that are hurting and also feeling on their radar a sense that they really aren’t safe in this conditioning and aren’t being loved the way they need and deserve to be.

You now see yourself as the ‘black sheep’ of the family but also of the culture you’ve been raised in. You may even feel this with your friends or co-workers. I know I have.

In my recent process, I was working with a part of me that always felt she was the ‘black sheep’. We had to go into a scene together where she could line-up her birth family members and feel the lingering judgements and criticisms, the messages of ‘you’ll never make it on your own’ which may not have been directly said but were energized.

Together, we could start to feel their Higher Selves in the room too, and their Higher Selves offered that this wasn’t actually about what it seemed to be about… it wasn’t about me or this part of me being a ‘failure’ (though in a 3D sense it’d be pretty easy to see it that way). It was actually about a wonder they have at the conditioning I’ve been able to say ‘no’ to, the risks I’ve said ‘yes’ to and the trust I now have more and more in my life, even the challenges that sometimes feel like mountains to climb.

In this, I found compassion for them even though I still hold a boundary.

In this, I found a way to truly see and honour myself and my own journey as well as seeing the sacredness of their own.

In this, I could feel how this theme of ‘not belonging’ and being looked down on somehow has played out in all of my relationships in one way or another, even with my soul family and my recent marriage too.

And, in this, I could feel how just about every single one of us who has been on an awakening and healing journey has felt like some form of the ‘black sheep’ and played out this theme countless times, often with angst and restlessness and even suicidal feelings.

On the other side of this process, I could bring this part of me into a new form other than the ‘black sheep’. She was able to shake off the black and the sheep suit came off too. She turned into a young lioness, full of power and presence, yet with heart and vulnerability. She is finding a new home inside of me where she can truly belong and be seen and loved for who she is, even in those times where she is being shown something not-so-easy to see or feel about herself.

You’ve been taught to look outside of you for validation and even for connection to Divine love.

You’ve been conditioned to believe that you’re always supposed to ‘achieve’ and ‘succeed’ even though the goalposts keep moving. This happens in 3D and also 4D in different spiritual groups too where your ‘black sheep’ feelings can become amplified instead of felt deeply, often in the form of ‘tough love’ which is really just outright abuse.

The feelings of not-belonging can be healed as the parts of you begin to unify, one by one, with each other and with you.

Love is the glue that brings your heart and soul back together again to wholeness within that can no longer be severed. Love is the juice that catalyzes the transformation from within. Yours is the love your lost and world-weary parts most need to feel, to remove their own sheep suits… for they were never meant to be ‘sheep’.

They were meant to be ‘lions’.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Lion’s Gate Completes With Many Gifts Offered

By Jelelle Awen

This Lioness Queen is going on a four day vacation to our beloved Salt Spring Island with her Lion King today….feels so appropriate on the ‘last’ night of the Lion’s Gate opening. The energies continue to download and activate from Sirius always and in all ways, I’m told, all you have to do is connect with your aspect from there as I’ve been doing with mine called Sela these last days.

I really feel that these days of the Lion’s Gate have been marked by a specialness, an acceleration of our personal processes AND the collective process….Ascension Christmas! I personally have received many gifts of rebooting, clarifying, support, validation, and huge waves of love energy as a reflection of goodness about what I am offering through SoulFullHeart as my service of love offering to the world.

And. there were raw but really good processes in there too for Raphael and me as we open up into a deeper level of co-leadership of SoulFullHeart going forward, completing a seven year cycle of its inception and seeding phase. We cleared a deeper karmic pattern between us in a specific metasoul timeline/lifetime that has been conscious between us for many years. With this clearing, there is more space for our collaboration and also individual passions to arise as we move into the next seven year cycle together.

We got to host two groups together during Lion’s Gate, one here in Victoria, BC and one on zoom…giving us more sense of our higher timeline serving love together from the overflow of our sacred union. You can purchase the recording of our powerful Lion’s Gate group transmission from 8/8 here btw if you want to take it in: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

Changes in eating patterns, changes in sleeping patterns, changes in relationship patterns, changes in passion purpose expression……perhaps you experienced some or all of these during this lion/lioness’ time. These changes all seem to support the enLIGHTenment of our hearts, souls, minds, and bodies as we continue on this path of ascension…and allow us to flow more with it as it is accelerating. What has anchored us to the old, to the 3D life..is being lifted and more let go of.

There was lots of purging and cleansing on many levels….cellular to social to emotional to physical during this passageway as well. You may have felt deep sadness at times as the collective sadness/cries of the world moved through your higher heart space as it activated next level.

I feel immensely blessed in this now for the unity in my life, the abundance in my life, and the abundant unity too! Love to you on this last eve of Lion’s gate….may you find and use and connect with both your ROAR and your PURR! ❤ ❤

We are also headed to Salt Spring to feel into places we want to go to for activations, ceremony, etc. during our one day trip here during our Equinox Gathering next month from September 20-23. There is more info here if you’d like to join us for four days of magic, activation, DEEP processing, community experience, etc. https://www.facebook.com/events/595200351002134/

Much Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: We Are Integrating Awakenings/Realizations From Lion’s Gate Portal

by Kalayna Solais

There’s a powerful integration phase happening now as we continue to move out of Lion’s Gate and into a NEW rhythm in our lives. Whatever has been stirred up by the high, catalytic energies is now settling more into our hearts and living there, even the uncomfortable pieces that we are still digesting and moving through. There will likely be uncomfortable things to keep digesting, especially as Disclosure continues to unfold and so much is being illuminated by that alone for everyone… even those who until now haven’t bought into it or resonated much with it.
On a 3D level, this has been a phase of many new awakenings. It’s like a whole new class has entered the undergraduate degree program at ‘Ascension University’. The 3D Self and the parts that make it up are having their own reactions to this ongoing process of awakening. You may be one of these souls or you may be currently supporting others in this as they try to understand what is being activated and how to relate with it. We’re being asked to have patience and compassion for these souls, as there’s no need for elitism around any of this, even though bridging to them can be challenging. There’s much we can offer, even in small doses, to see what helps them open their hearts to their own souls.
On a 4D level, much has been brought out into the open from the Metasoul and the veil has been quite thin. Parts of the 3D Self are upgrading too, realizing how NOT 3D they actually are. This is very necessary right now, as the more we are still personally anchored into 3D, the more suffering there is without context for it and parts of us do truly need this context to help move them into deeper awakening and healing experiences along with us.
My own 3D Self named ‘Katie’, which is the name I went by until my mid-twenties, is starting to see her gifts even though this has been a huge struggle for her with the bombarding messages from 3D consciousness that validate insecurities and encourage smallness. She’s starting to see how she was always meant to be a 3D ‘Bridge’, not an entire ‘Self’ that is supposed to lead life and in this way she can help orient to 3D as needed without being fully anchored there. She really has more of a 4D consciousness and awareness than she even thought until now and this is starting to activate in many other 3D Selves too.
This process with ‘Katie’ has been hugely supported by my Sirian aspect, ‘Ineerah’ throughout Lion’s Gate. She has helped me tremendously with catching this part of me up to my reality and the goodness there truly is within me and in my life too. She has been helping me move into an even deeper healing of the baseline emotional reality of this part of me, who expects the worst most of the time and can easily find reasons to feel sad or be in despair. There is a tender new unification happening within as other parts of me come together to offer her the attention and love she needs.
This is what’s possible as we integrate the illuminations of our 3D consciousness habits and our 4D ones too as we move into letting IN more 5D consciousness and re-anchoring there. We can’t skip this process of really looking at it all and feeling it all through, asking ‘why?’ relentlessly and with so much desire to love ourselves more. We can only LOVE ourselves into 5D reality being our new ‘baseline’… any other approach cannot last for long nor is it meant to.
This so applies to everything we hear in the news, everything we take in from the Disclosure world. We are being asked to feel how this impacts us and reflects us back to us again. We are being invited, constantly, to bring our hearts to it and to feel what we want to experience, starting inside of us, on the other side of the necessary mess.
MUCH love to you in this humbling and REAL integration phase, whatever this looks like for you… ❤

 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.