We are on the cusp of another equinox. Leaving the longer, darker nights of the winter´s season. The phase of our cycle that had us going in. Into our more darkened corners. It was a time in many cultures when not much could happen externally due to the cold weather. So it was a time of reflection. It was also a time of destruction. Life itself was taking a long slumber. Letting go of all that had been alive and returning it to the earth. Much was dying in order to be reborn.
But now after much darkness and stillness, the light itself is finding its way back to a fuller state. It brings with it more awareness and a warming balm. That which was uncovered in the shadows becomes the seeds for new growth, new possibilities. The days are longer in radiance and there is a renewal and clarity in the air. Rains may come and go to bring the love needed for the integration and sowing to take hold. You are being born again, and this time the roots are bigger and stronger. More closely aligned with your truest nature.
These inner cycles can occur at any moment and at many times. They occur in an hour or over the course of a year. With each passing turn of the wheel, something deeper arises in you. Some more determined. You are done with what used to be considered ¨usual¨ and are moving into a new season of authentic. Or another layer of authentic. A more You than you ever thought you possible because you now hold the key. The willingness to see where you have been compromising and permitting. To not hold judgement but compassion for why, but now no longer need or desire.
You see the 3rd dimension in the rear-view, the sun setting on this old way of seeing and BEing. The old connections and patterns that no longer serve. It was the winter of your unconscious heart and now the birth of new life inside sees a new vision of how it could be, how it was always meant to be, and currently IS. New life is blooming inside and the rains give way to the freshness of air, the clarity of sight, and the magic of rainbows. There is a kNOWing that all will never be the same. There is a birthing of new relationships, new geographies, and new sense of inner fullness and peace. Storms come and go but the roots are firmly in the ground.
The High Summer of our New Earth lives inside you. Being showered with LoveLight daily as you clear that which has blocked your leaves from its sustenance. Your RISE higher, with each influx of saying NO to that which no longer serves, and YES to that which fuels desire and dreams. It is the Love that you are made of that now imbibes you with the will to BE HERE NOW. Flowing with the winds of your lover´s heart the tune of your galactic symphony. The cycle will soon no longer be for you will have entered a new river of existence. A previously forgotten world of divine inspiration and circulation. The time of No Time and the swirl of pastel colors among the sea of a starlit stage. A time of Love´s eternal grace that recognizes it never began and can never end. It the dawn of a new season of the Sea of Sun.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
On a Saturday night, I gaze among the busy social streets and walkways, humming with activity and energy and alcohol and friendship… sometimes coupled with drama and pain and backed-up emotional outbursts. During these party times, you can feel the buzz in the air that will soon be in every body, not just from substances taken in, but from the high of socializing, being among peers, perhaps finding love, sex or making new friends. There are grounds here that are healthy to explore and some that aren’t really in a sense, and yet it’s all sacred and it’s all ultimately a path to self-discovery and remembrance, even if this isn’t made conscious in the moments these selves, these individuals, these human BEings are in.
While young, being spiritual can find its place in you if this is what you’ve signed up for… exploring consciousness can sometimes happen with your peers, while at other times it won’t or just can’t. For a phase this journey with them can only go so deep and that’s fine with you for a while, but beyond that phase when that was enough, it’s not quite enough anymore. This is when values shift along with ideas of life and how to live it consciously and more fully. This is where certain areas of focus, ways to find pleasure, and paths to feeling a togetherness with others all rumble beneath your feet and in front of your eyes. This is where your life begins to turn itself upside down in countless ways as you begin to feel the need to push away, sometimes dramatically, sometimes subtly, but always in a way that reminds you, you are your own person and you have your own sense of what energies you need and want to be around as your self love heals and deepens.
There can be a fear arising then, for some… that no one will ever really “get” them or may judge them for walking away from the relationship. Parts of them form and begin to strategize to either stay alone out of fear of having and then losing intimacy at any level, or choose to merge in with whatever group of people they are around or whatever situation they are in, becoming one with all around them and not much of an individual in most ways. There is tension and yet also relief as you find your ways to take care of and love YOU as your number one priority. There is sometimes also flatness, as managing these ups and downs (that are hormonal, sure, but also a genuine awakening to soul and heart pain) can be a challenging crucible to hold and handle and be with. So much depends on who you choose to be around and talk to and lean into for support. This shopping around, seeking, searching experience is one that can be incredibly mind and heart-opening, fascinating, and ever-arising too, as resonance moves in and out in very necessary growth phases. This again changes the social circle you choose to be part of and certainly affects the one you currently have as you continue to awaken to the love you are and the love you want to experience between yourself and others. There are so many different dynamics that are possible here and that play out in different ways, with many possible outcomes… yet the risk is always the same – if I don’t stay the same and they do, I will be friendless again or even for the first time…
The strong soul-pull to discover and remember our purposes is something that is happening more and more with people of all ages and soul groups, especially right now with ascension processes accelerating for everyone, yet when it comes to indigo, crystal and rainbow souls, for example, these social awakenings can come very early in our lives as we came in with a powerful, mission-based focus that is natural for us to feel, yet not so natural to “know” exactly what to do with. It can be very challenging to finds ways to fit in with others in our peer group, not because we are victims to this (though parts of us understandably feel this way sometimes) but because we chose for this to be the case… after all, if we actually DID feel as if we totally, fully, completely “belonged”, where would our sense of mission and awakening to our soul gifts have room to happen, take hold and start manifesting in our lives? To not suffer around this, means going IN and feeling ourselves with reflections from teachers and mentors who have also been there and can help us learn to navigate it, often much better than our birth parents ever could – not necessarily because they didn’t want to try, but because in some ways they weren’t actually meant to be the ones to lead you onward and into this.
Throughout the majority of my life to date, having and keeping a thriving a social world was very challenging. This is partly because I was always very much IN my emotional states and didn’t have templating for how to actually BE with them and hold them… no adult around me could help with this and my peers had a hard time relating to me most of the time, plus it eventually became a tool for parts of me to actually push and keep others away. Then there was spirituality and the deepening of THAT for me… and now I am on a very powerful and ever-expanding path that spans both my emotional AND spiritual inner realities and THAT is rare, though it seems that more and more people, as they awaken, are realizing how connected these two realities are and that they need healing in both in order to fully embrace and live into ascension. In my experience and observation both, I can see and feel how this ground of being naturally very emotional and also spiritual has been and continues to be a tough crucible for many of us… awakening does come at a cost, yet is intended to invite us out of suffering while holding the parts of us who cling to suffering as a way to be in life. One of these ways in which we seem to choose to continue suffering, is by surrounding ourselves with relationships that do not have a deeply resonant ground. Our social worlds collapse and expand as we continue to grow… but not without love leading the way and guiding us to our next places inward that then draw our next circumstances outward.
Not having a full social world to ground you can be hard for some souls, yet for others it won’t be and that poses its own challenges. Choosing the path of the lone wolf is also hard and even though parts of you may be working to bury the loneliness somehow, it is still there. These parts can be held, worked with and healed deeply, allowing us to feel how we really, genuinely feel, what it is we most deeply want and who we actually want to be around and spend time with. Our loneliness is sacred and alchemical… it is creative. It is a space where we can feel our deepest aches and desires for mateship, for companionship, for a community of people that continually arise for us as we arise for them. Being afraid of feeling our loneliness is expected and normal, but holding these parts of us who feel this way teaches us so much about ourselves and offers us much healing when it is held in our hearts FOR us and WITH love and Divine guidance and company too… we are never really alone, though this can be hard to feel and let in. Yet sometimes alone-ness can be a grace, a place to genuinely feel what we need to feel, and an oven to bake our arising desires in.
Perhaps you are part of a social world right now that may be running out of ground for you, as your awakenings are helping you feel pictures and energies of the sort of love you want to feel from you to you and flowing from you to others and vice versa… in the end, the choice is yours as to what steps to take next, and there is no wrong answer or true misstep along the way. Even our biggest messes seem to offer us many gems of learning, growth and self-discovery. Letting go can be painful and hard, yet in the end, true service to a relationship of any kind starts with feeling what you genuinely want and need, while holding all relationships with an open hand and heart. This becomes a grace to you and your parts, and them and theirs too, as everyone is then free to go along their own path, however they see and feel it unfolding for them.
I would love to serve you and help you navigate this terrain that can be so challenging and yet hopeful too. You are meant to become more of your essence, your light, your soul purpose and mission. You are meant to lead and BE a big part of ascension and we all need each other more than perhaps we ever have before!
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
The inner feminine took her space today, held HER space with the Divine Feminine coming in to provide supporting frequencies and NEW templating of what it means to be a woman. It is being open to feeling the templating we received from our birth mothers and what IS us and what is NOT. It is being open to feeling the protector aspect of us who is guarding the inner feminine, who doesn’t feel we are qualified to connect with her INSIDE us…..it is amazing in some ways how clear this energy is when we are given a bridge to it as happened today in the women’s call.
A satisfaction, a sense of serving love WITH women, together going where the soul needs and where the heart wants in the moment…guides holding the space and higher selves too. THIS group call today with women is still going into me as a nourishing experience of teaching, sharing, guiding and witnessing the beauty and gift of parts work open new possibilities for women as it has done for me for so many years. It makes me feel like a proud mama, SoulFullHeart mama even as I am NOT really the force that moves it but rather IT moves me as one way love offers itself to serve.
Thank you to the women who joined Kalayna Colibri and I, courageous souls on a journey of healing, awakening, ascending, growing……NOT an easy path, one with more ash in the air often then confetti, more sense of being your only fan at times rather than much approval or support from others, and continual venture into the unknown over and over sometimes stumbling in the dark and sometimes following a guiding inner light to reveal, eventually, something REAL.
These groups are a TASTE of what we offer through SoulFullHeart, a taste of something that if you are resonant and it is meant for you then you are urged and moved to want MORE and limitless possibilities of timelines unfold from there. Space holding sessions one-on-one, immersion visits to BE with us here in Puerto Vallarta, group process sessions (these will be offered when we have enough souls in regularly occurring session space with us), becoming a SoulFullHeart facilitator someday, coming to live near us here in community, having us come VISIT you where you are…..oh, see, so many possibilities! THESE I am very open to and eager for!
And HERE is the recording of the women’s group call. This recording is of the teachings that I did in the beginning of the call (with input from Kalayna Colibri) about the sacred feminine. Then, there is about a 40 minute guided meditation offered by me…..a journey to your inner castle, representing your essence and your inner femininity, and connects you with your inner protector. Your inner protector offers you a ‘way’ to your inner feminine yet needs to be negotiated with FIRST! Four Divine Feminine guides accompany you as you are introduced to the frequencies of a NEW template that they offer you around femininity: Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, and Dark Mother. I believe this could be beneficial for women AND men too….
The personal sharings and some facilitation by me that followed the meditation have been edited out for privacy….the real sense of what it IS to be on a SoulFullHeart call and what it FEELS like to be in a sessions space is in those, so you get even more goodness from being live, there, joining YOUR energy with ours!
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
As more news about war comes into my awareness, as I do not read much anymore, I felt a ping in my heart and a desire to write about the nature of this and its relationship to the wounded masculine. It was also inspired by an experience that Jelelle had that she will be sharing later.
In Heart of Man there wages a battle between so many different facets of himself. The need for control over the desire to surrender, the will to resist over the will to live, the self-punishment over the self-compassion. The Heart of Man is at a crossroads. A place where the Soul of Man is to be claimed or refused. So much of this inner struggle is playing out today in the Theater of the Wounded Masculine. An ever present theme of triumph and tragedy. Domination and aggression. Withdraw and hiding. This is all happening within. If we truly want to be a part of another timeline we must first be willing to go inside and face our own inner battlefield.
Those that are in a position of ¨power¨ are mere projections of what lies in our shadow. We must be willing to feel that if we are to truly change the energy that persists ¨out there¨. These wounded expressions in male form are but uninitiated boys with deadly toys. But they all have a higher self that is fully aware of this. This is why it is so important to connect with your own as they represent a fractal of the larger sacred masculine energy in the universe. When you feel your own unhealed inner boy and its reigning punisher, you can then begin to feel compassion for those who are in positions of power. If we throw our angst and hatred at them we are really only doing it to ourselves. The only power that heals is Love.
In the wounded boy lies his relationship to both the masculine and the feminine represented by his mother and father. This plays out both this life and other lives. The templating received by Dad in what masculinity is has a huge impact on his worldview. The relationship to Mom and her feminine templating determines to a large extent how the feminine lives in Man. This becomes an inner relationship inside of us that, unless becomes conscious, can have many unhealthy consequences. This relationship to the feminine that resides within is a portal into our true masculinity and continued arising soul growth.
Among the boy though, I feel a fallen King that has forgotten his true essence as a God. Something happened that collapsed this union with the Sacred. He split off from Source and there is a sense of longing, guilt, abandonment, and rage all swirled together. When I visit a sacred grove of Sequoia trees that is my personal soul space I can feel many of these fallen Kings there. They are wanting to be connected to and felt in their pain. They represent a more subconscious energy that feels to inhabit a more lower 4D frequency. They know what is up but feel powerless and even worthless to do anything about it. I felt tears for them as I have felt my own fallen king and continue to do so.
But right behind them are our High King/ Angelic presence. The bridge to our true essence as Love´s co-creative force. The rightful heir to our Throne of BEing. We ARE already that. They are watching us and aching for connection, to free ourselves from the chains of our own making. One´s that can only be shed with Love and Compassion. The more we can feel and connect with them the more of our true power we can embody. The more self-love we can manifest and send back to the collective with open hearts.
So when I hear of tidbits of news from 3D, I go into my heart and feel myself. I feel the war raging inside others and send them as much love that I have to offer from my own well. I feel each one as a sacred brother on their own journey of lesson and discovery. With each new opening of love within myself ripples itself out into the Heart of Man. Connecting to other High Kings to serve this love is my calling and purpose in whatever way that shows up, whether through my own journeys, writing, or spaceholding. I feel the true masculine is a beautiful and powerfully creative expression of Divinity. He so much more than we could ever imagine and as we go into our own hearts and face our shadow, the true essence of Man is revealed in all His glory. And a new timeline emerges….
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him atwww.soulfullheartwayoflife.com. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
The sacred feminine, the divine feminine embodied, the woman living more and more from the place of fifth dimensional (and higher) consciousness….She can be a mystery, an arising question to live into more than about clear definitions or set answers. There is a sense that her energy invites and draws others as she serves love WITH in all areas of her life and in most moments. She lives from a sense of personal integrity and authenticity, having embraced her inner shadow with love and courage, and inspires others to BE the same. She leads with vulnerability, her strength coming from bringing what is real in her heart and soul. She invites others into a possible resonant ground that reflects a mutual truth possibility rather than contending or trying to prove that she is right. She is able to take action on what is necessary to be done in order to serve love as an expression of her soul purpose and connection to Divine Source.
The sense of what it IS to be an ascending and awakening human in female form seems to be a deepening, spiraling, non-linear process. There are curves and turns, offering the next layer of discovery or another ‘round’ of experiencing a pattern or loop repeating itself and offering another piece of our puzzle. As we awaken, and especially in the 4D transition phase, we may become less polarized in our gender expression as we burn away and let go of what is not who we really ARE in feminine expression but rather what we have been conditioned to be. We are invited to feel what is NOT actually authentic femininity, what seems to come instead from a wounded masculine expression or place of BEing or aspect inside of us.
Holding space for women and my own process around embodying my sacred femininity, healing the emotional body, awakening the soul, integrating karmic aspects from other lifetimes has offered me a higher perspective on the patterns and themes that often play out in this process. The word ‘sacred’ is important as a key marker of movement in this process is from being SCARED of the inner feminine to being SACRED with it….. holding it with an increasing sense of reverence and curiosity.
A key differentiation place in this process is to become conscious about the template we received from our birth mothers, other significant female caregivers, and birth sister(s) relationships. It can be very illuminating to ask the questions: What was the templating I received from my mother around what it means to be a woman? What templating did I receive from other female caregivers and from my sister(s) around what it means to be a woman? How does the energy and messages of this templating impact me now in all areas of my life? How does this energy express in my relationships?
Connecting with your ‘inner birth mother’ can lead to great healing and separation. A simple way to do this is to write a letter (and outloud during meditation too if you want) to your inner mother telling her how you experience her energy in her life and invite her to write back. You then begin a written dialogue together with you asking her questions about herself and discovering more about this energy that lives inside of you as you ‘took it in’ like a sponge your whole life. As you connect with your inner mother, you will begin to ‘defuse’ or separate from this energy, allowing for more objectivity about it and with more arising of your authentic essence. It may not be possible for you to embody your authentic or genuine frequency of femininity while in relationship with your mother and a phase of taking space from the relationship may be necessary to experience more clarity, perspective, and growth.
Another key aspect to the sacred feminine embodiment process can be connecting with wounded masculine energies that you have taken in and embodied. This can especially present itself in an inner protector aspect, a usually masculine feeling and looking energy that expresses as a guardedness and uses weapons of protection such as energetic shields, swords to jab and pierce (internally and toward others), etc. Negotiation with the inner protector allows for more authentic gender expression of femininity as this aspect often guards the inner feminine and conscious negotiation with it can lead to deeper embodiment and access.
Connecting with energies of the Divine Feminine in different frequencies as Ethereal guides provides a new templating to replace the ones you are letting go of. I have mainly experienced connection with Divine Feminine guides showing up in the energies and forms of Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, and Kali/Dark Mother. Experiencing these guides (and however She shows up for you) during meditation allows for an infusion of multidimensional yin frequencies of comfort, nurturing, creative alchemy, sisterhood, stillness, healthy sexuality, passion, desire, and much more. These frequencies serve as healing balm to the places inside that experienced the wounded feminine and still suffer around it.
Another aspect of embodying the inner feminine is connecting with and healing karmic and archetypal wounded feminine soul themes such as non-vulnerable priestess, pious nun, matriarch/queen, warrior, medicine woman, witch, and more. Karmic playouts can express in persecution wounding experiences (both as the persecuted and the persecutor) that greatly suppress or impact your ability to express your soul gifts as a woman teacher, way-shower, and healer, for example. Or another examples is feeling how sisterhood wounding or traumatic experiences from other lifetimes may influence your relationships with women now. The push away from or the surrender to patriarchy is a big one for most of us with ways that it energizes and plays out in the now and impacts our gender expression.
Embodying the sacred feminine is holding space for the emotional reactions and previously undigested emotional frequencies that come up from the emotional body during the awakening and ascending process. It is also making space for and surrendering to the ‘rumble’ of death and rebirth of the feminine that wants to move through your life and clear out what no longer serves you or serves love. Rebirth can only happen with death or with letting go. Letting go of frequencies that don’t match you anymore in all areas of your life, making changes at a rate and pace that is self loving WITH negotiation with parts of you if possible allows for the blooming of your inner feminine from a small seed to full, ever arising expression of your BEing in female form.
This is the ground that I cover with women in SoulFullHeart Group Calls (there is one on June 17th and July 15th) and through SoulFullHeart facilitation sessions (and for women around 30 with Kalayna Colibri): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
She is blooming, fertilized by a rich inner world of self discovery
She is inviting, inspired by the Divine to be a beacon of light for herself and others
She is discerning, guided to hold boundaries with love and take space when needed
She is beautifying, attuned to the exquisite possibilities around her
She is serving, called by love to share her heart and soul gifts with others
She is holding, created from a container space inside to bake on what needs to be felt
She is expanding, integrated with her multidimensional, cosmic self and star seed origins
She is arising, drawn to embody her authentic and vulnerable expression
She is BEing, energized beyond busy mind to experience life from stillness
She is the inner feminine (for both women and men)….feeling her with open heart, open mind, open soul invites her forward to play, to dance, and to LOVE….more and more, to BEcome
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This is a NEW video with Kalayna Colibri and I discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.
This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.
It’s not what you do or don’t do that makes all the difference, but rather how and why you do what you do, or don’t do, that changes the entire world…quite literally…I might add.
New science is verifying this to be fact.
One might ‘do their part’ by volunteering at a soup kitchen, making a contribution to alleviate a shortage of volunteers. That by itself could be seen as a linear kind of service. The kitchen needed 5 volunteers, and you reduced that need by one. All good. BUT, there’s something way more profound going on here while you were making soup, or thinking about making soup. What energy moved you to volunteer? What energy moved through you as you performed the act? What internal obstacles did you face as you chose the action?
What you did on an internal level is where the quantum level of service comes in.
New science is proving beyond any shadow of a doubt that we are all connected in ways more profound than we imagined. We are living in the days of what was hidden and concealed, is now being revealed. One of the aspects of new science has to do with the entire universe, (or multiverse for that matter) being a holographic projection. An aspect of this reality is the reality of ‘fractals’, that ‘any part contains the entire whole’, where the molecular structure for instance of a grain of sand is identical to the structure of a galaxy or a black hole. Both carry, or rather ARE deep intelligence, quite beyond our limited minds to comprehend. The new science confirms what so many of our personal intuitions have long been aware of. Whether it’s through intuition, or new emerging science, or a combination of both, we are left in a state of reverence and awe. The more we look, the more we see what we never saw, that we weren’t ready to see, but are now being invited into.
What the intuitions and new science are revealing to us is the profound interconnection of all things. From this it is quite clear, that what is done by one, and for one, is actually done to and for The All. This tells us that the motive ground is the quantum ground because of this interconnection.
What this means is that none of us are any less ‘consciousness evolving and learning its way to love’ than anyone else. We may esteem Jesus and Buddha for their historical example and contribution, but Jesus WAS you and you ARE him on a quantum level. If an act of love was ever imprinted on consciousness by anyone, you can find that imprint inside of THE ALL of your own personal consciousness. There is only one consciousness, and you have a lease on it, as an individuated part of it.
This is such crazy cool stuff, I find it hard to write! Being logical and present to the mind keeps collapsing into awe and reverence. And maybe, that’s the greatest contribution right there…moments spent in awe in reverence, by consciousness (you) looking at consciousness (the essence of all things) and consciousness looking back at you.
So let’s say that in order to pitch in at the soup kitchen, you had a deep personal process of feeling the part of you that holds judgment about people who ‘let themselves go down hill’ and through it all, you came to find that you had your own ‘inner derelict’ and downtrodden part of yourself buried by a more functional part of you. And in this process, you had great tears of homecoming to yourself to finally to find and feel this fear ground inside yourself, as well as this part of you working so hard in fear to avoid becoming ‘like them’ and all of this was, in large part, your real motive ground for being the hardworking and focused person you are.
Wow, now, you’ve just moved consciousness itself very much inside of yourself and made that movement available and uploaded it to the entire interconnected multiverse-wide-web of the love that we are and made it available for free download to any who are ready and willing to inhabit similar growth steps.
Now, you did something so much more than fill an empty volunteer space. You transformed consciousness.
And even cooler still, you did it before you focused outward. Your deepest and truest service to self was the quantum service to the all.
Everything you felt, that was difficult to feel moved the universe inside of you and also moved the entire universe in the process. In a fractal reality, one cannot be moved without the other, for there actually is only one ‘uni’-verse.
Then, another step is feeling the deeper reality that out beyond the projected reality of time and space, in ‘no-time’ and ‘no-space’, is where you can feel and download these movements that technically haven’t happened ‘anywhere’ ‘yet’. All the courage you need for any step that you need to take already exists on a quantum level. So, if that’s true, then any movement we make internally draws upon and replenishes this interconnected web of quantum energy in an infinite multiplication kind of way energizing it for others.
Now this feels true for those working in and on negative timelines also. They download and make negative contributions that then get energized out to others. However, because there is ONLY love, even those energizing evil are actually, and can actually, ONLY be in service of love…ultimately speaking. Only love is real, all else is love’s projected illusion or theatre to tell it’s story.
So what all of this means again, in part at least, is that everything you feel, and desire, and courageously choose in your deepest dark night of the soul kind of experience that no one sees IS the quantum service contribution to The All. What feels so private in personal healing process couldn’t actually be more public. We are fast entering the age of transparency and the end of secrecy; the age of abundance and the end of scarcity. We retain personal space and boundaries, but our ‘walls’ are turning to glass…or crystal actually, as we inhabit our own personal Ascension and light body.
All that is not love falls away to reveal the love that we are.
Here and now we don’t simply give to others through linear acts of kindness, but instead are a literal machine that multiplies and manufactures love into the infinite and abundant multiverse of love that we all are.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
“You’ve been anchored to the fifth dimension since the beginning of the year,” the voice of my guides/higher dimensional aspects/spirit ‘team’ offered to me this morning. They got my attention because they aren’t usually so specific with me, although this is not a surprise either what they told me. There was a significant shift in the degree and depth of phototonic light PURE love juice available at the beginning of the year. These light waves have activated in an even more intense way those of us signed up to be way-showers, ‘weed whackers’ as I like to say, trail blazers. This energy has created a sense of being ‘fast tracked’. Sludging through mud for years in a quiet, disinterested room has been my experience and now it is easier, smoother, with much more interest and reSOULance and the ‘room’ has expanded to feel like a vast sky of possibilities.
The start of a ‘new year’ isn’t real, on one level, yet to our linear minds and 3D selves it is VERY real and symbolic of change, transition, and growth possibilities. This is the energy of New Year’s resolutions, of wishing and wanting for MORE in life, or for life to really BEGIN. The mantra I received from my guides at the beginning of the year was “a year beyond fear”…for me, this meant acknowledging that there still IS fear (although not much anymore, I admit) and yet it is about moving BEYOND the fear in order to serve love. It was about ‘putting my voice and teachings out there’, to share my writings especially and then sort of ‘stumbling on’ the soul gift of voice transmissions, light language, guiding meditations, and video transmissions and sharing those more and more. None of this is strategic, I don’t have a ‘sales plan’ for SoulFullHeart. I am not THINKING really about any of this. It is literally just wake up and see where the Divine creative flow takes me and where responding to interest from others takes me and where LOVE takes me.
Serving love is BEING anchored in the fifth dimension or New Earth or Golden Earth (that’s what it has been called for us in SoulFullHeart and I like the feeling of it, a golden earth, a honey love Gaia experience.) Serving love IS serving self too….the two are actually NOT separate as more and more the service of love is just who you ARE. I am experiencing less and less ‘me there’ in terms of an active personality or persona and more an ENERGY of serving loveness in every moment, whether with myself, with others, with Raphael, with animals, with my house, WITH everything, WITH life. Even ‘sessions’ are becoming not any different than any other moment in the day, just maybe more a concentrated experience of serving love. In PURE service of love, there is no self in the 3D way or even 4D way of parts and personas, there just IS an I AM that is offering, being received, and being in exchange. This I Amness is without self consciousness, without personal tracking or filtering, and without self monitoring….this IS an incredibly freeing and wonderful way to BE in the self and with others.
Being anchored to the fifth dimension feels like a connection to a home frequency that cannot be broken or severed or gone back from. “There is no going back now” sounds a bit ominous but it IS actually reassuring because when you are in this place you don’t WANT to go back to lower frequencies. You dip down in moments, you learn what dips you down or pulls you down and you set different boundaries……although these are needed less and less too as you just ARE your current highest expression and you INVITE others to join you and they can feel who and where you are and stay away if they don’t want to raise UP to join you. Your energy sets the boundaries, love offers the boundaries and it dissolves ALL boundaries as well.
In those that I have served love with recently in what we’ve called ‘sessions’ I can feel how their anchoring to the fifth dimension, while still in process of deepening, is just THERE because it IS who they actually ARE as INfinite Love. AND, it’s who you just ARE too. You are ALREADY THERE on a soul level, your higher self is certainly there already and much higher too. And there is ‘no there there’, so to speak, as it is not a place but rather a consciousness frequency to be remembered and embraced more and more deeply.
So, parts of you may feel like you are NOT there, that you are dipping down or pulled down many times a day and even for days or weeks at a time. And, maybe you are still connected more to 3D and 4D reality consciousness or really parts of you are still connected on the levels that are subconscious to you (until they become conscious.) You are maybe still very in 3D consciousness at your job or way you ‘earn your livelihood’. Or you are 3D consciousness with your family, friends, and romantic partner. Or with how you relate with money. Or how you relate with body. Maybe you are MOSTLY a protective part energy a majority of the time, mostly guarding your heart, who is definitely connected in some ways to 3D reality.
Yet, STILL you are anchored to the fifth dimension and beyond as your HOME frequency, as your home bandwidth, as the tone you return to when out of the body. This is the frequency of your higher heart, your cosmic heart, the heart chakra that vibrates higher and higher and expands OUT to others and to the WORLD and to galaxies even more and more. So, yes, there are some how’s to anchoring to the fifth dimension in terms of how to EXPERIENCE that you already ARE anchored to it. The main HOW (at least in what I am here to offer) is to connect with and defuse from the energies and parts inside of you that are clinging to 3D consciousness still. AND to make life changes to transition to a higher consciousness in ALL areas of your life so that your I AMness can just BE and flow through all areas with out dips downs and back ups again. More about the seven areas of life and 3D/4D/5D selves and how they relate with them here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions
We offer support for this remembering and experiencing more and more of your higher heart and self anchoring through space holding sessions, group calls, writings etc. at soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
LOVE to YOU wherever you are currently connecting to in the moment at whatever consciousness level as ALL phases are sacred. AND, I hold out the invitation for the deeper experience and remembering of the anchoring in fifth New Golden Earth frequencies that you ALREADY ARE. ❤
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.
I AM excited to be sharing a NEW video with me and Kalayna Colibri discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else or quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.
This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)
Yesterday, while Raphael and I were out sitting at a cafe, I thought I saw a woman from my past. In the immediate sense that this MIGHT be her, I felt a knot of anxiety and tension in my third chakra or solar plexus area flare up. After confirming with Raphael that it wasn’t this woman, who I will call “Jane”, I felt the tension move out my field replaced by a sense of calm and love.
In digesting my response to seeing who I thought was Jane, I gave my solar plexus some loving energy as I felt into what the reaction had been. Jane was once a very close friend of mine, true soul family and sister. Almost ten years ago, we were both part of a spiritual and emotional healing group for close to five years together. The same group for which Raphael and I met and eventually left together. I left the group in a highly intense way, after receiving a choice from Daniel – the leader of the group and a man who was like my surrogate father – to either break up with Raphael for a year or leave the group as we were deemed too codependent to be together in a healthy way. This choice was given to me after only three weeks of dating and years of me being in the group within the inner circle and serving as a facilitator of the work for a few years too.
It was a very difficult decision on one end yet, also, my soul was guiding me that it was time to leave this setting which had brought so much love and healing to my life but for which much of it I had outgrown. I heard a strong “No more” in my head which I feel now was my higher self and my guides. I said ‘no’ to the frequencies of control, power OVER those in the group, the gossiping and competition amongst those in the facilitator circle. I said ‘yes’ to my own sovereignty and my choice to explore relationship with Raphael, a man who felt like the deepest mate of heart, soul, and body that I had been desiring for many years. When I left the group, none of the people who I felt to be soul family would or could talk with me any longer.
Jane and I were living together at the time of this dissolution with the group and it was very awkward. We tried to have a friendship ‘outside’ of the group, but she was still very much involved and wouldn’t listen to my growing clarities about the shadow frequencies within it. The separation with her and her disapproval of me was so challenging for me to digest when we had experienced so much love together. Eventually, we went our separate ways, with love, and with her choice to continue in the group. We haven’t spoken in over nine years even as the group fell apart two years ago with Daniel finally being called out for his behaviors by all those in the group.
I am sharing this story, I believe, because it was interesting to feel how even though consciously I have reconciled this experience, my emotional and energy body still held trauma from it. I connected with this energy in my solar plexus last night (and the nasal congestion that came up too) and also cut any karmic bind cords with Jane and yet sent her love too in case it was the Universe telling me that she was thinking of me. In my experience serving others, this is how our emotional and energy bodies work…they store undigested pain in this way, as pockets that release when they are triggered to release (what Carl Jung called ‘being constellated’). We can trigger them to release through consciously connecting with the part of us that holds this energy as we offer and hold space for in SouLFullHeart.
Ultimately, I feel gratitude for my experience in this group and my experience with Jane especially as I trust that our souls signed up for it and it brought me so many gifts of realization around heart-based leadership that invites others into and respects their sovereignty, which is the place I come from related to SoulFullHeart. This group also introduced me to the emotional body, parts work, and the importance of healing at this deep emotional level. Because of the dark night I experienced in leaving the group and ‘losing’ all of my soul family connections that I had at the time, I appreciate the connections that I have with others now in a much deeper way. And, my bond with Raphael was instantly solidified and strengthened by our moving through the trauma of leaving together and we really had no ‘choice’ but to be completely vulnerable with other. This experience also helped me work and heal karmic patterns around rejection, being dominated, dominating others (I connected with my inner Daniel part at some point), shadow side of spirituality, authority, etc.
If you find yourself in or are digesting having been in a relationship with some of these frequencies (and this can happen in romantic and family relationships too, usually what is called the empath and narcissist relationship), it takes time to heal and recover from them for sure and much inner strength and soul resolve to complete them. In fact, ‘time’ doesn’t really exist to these places of trauma as it is stored in the emotional body which doesn’t relate to time. The feeling and connecting with these places through negotiation with the protector part that is protecting them can lead to much movement, growth, and healing with lots of self love and care. Held in a container of love, the lessons are integrated and the tensions are moved with much transformation and deeper embodiment of the higher self.
We can offer support to those of you going through this kind of situation in personal relationship or in recovery from a group through SoulFullHeart space holding sessions. More about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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