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Responding With Compassionate Boundaries To Last Grasp Attempts Of Fear-based Energies

Published on August 2, 2017August 2, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

‘Last grasp attempt’…I used those words yesterday in this article to describe lower frequencies (fear-based) that may come up as the high vibe energies increase during this now passageway/corridor that we are experiencing as a collective that is moving us into more extreme choice points of love over fear. This last grasp attempt to retract into fear again, to go asleep again (at least for a phase) can be related to with love (as can everything!) It’s not really the ‘last’, of course, but it feels like a significant turning point. The energies perhaps inside of you and from outside of you that are doing this are not EVIL, yet, rather are scared and frightened to go into the new. The new is unknown and, therefore, acutely uncomfortable.

Compassion with boundaries of self protection is the energy that I’ve been encouraged to embody when experiencing these fear frequencies in myself, in others, in the astrals and in the cosmos. Compassion is the opening of your higher heart to feel WHY the fear exists and where it comes from. Compassion is being curious about this and to lead the discovery about the source of it inside yourself and with others. Compassion is the embodiment of Divine Feminine motherly energies that our 3D world has long suppressed and been afraid of actually….because it offers a powerful frequency of transmutation and transformation as love always does. When our response is compassion to anything…… ANYTHING becomes possible.

The last grasp energies inside of us, the dense frequencies, may grab at doubts, tensions, anxieties, flare up of old core wounds of abandonment, unworthiness, and rejection…..these energies are important to come up though as they anchor us in the old and the dense and 3D. Responding to them with compassion (even naming them as a part of you and having a relationship WITH them) can move them into the new. Resisting the density and even ‘using’ spiritual strategies to transcend them usually just leads to a temporary pause on the deeper healing that wants to (and will eventually) happen. The more you have been with these lower frequencies inside of yourself and embraced them with love…the less you will be impacted by these energies coming from others and then experienced as ‘attacks’ or ‘take downs.’ We can only experience from outside what we have not healed from inside as it then needs to act as a trigger and a mirror for us.

Compassion WITH boundaries means that we are feeling what works for us and what doesn’t INside and with others in relationships……we are feeling what is nourishing and what isn’t, and choosing what serves love as the expression of our soul purpose here and what doesn’t. This may mean completion with some souls that have been BEloved to you as you just can’t be at the their frequency anymore without cost to your own growth. I wrote about that yesterday too and many times as it is such a big crucible right now.

This completion may happen with Ethereal BEings too (even those you might experience as ‘guides’) or with your own energy system as you start to feel the ‘implants’ and ‘devices’ and other things you signed up as a soul to experience in your field. No else ‘did’ this to you related to implants. You chose every object and where and how you would experience it. When you are ready to ‘remove and release them and see them’, you will and your self love will dissolve them away. You may need to consciously complete with your Archon and fear-based Reptilian self, dissolve your Reptilian brain stem, etc in a very self loving way to fully ‘unhook’ and move on from these energies…

Ultimately, there is nothing to fear of fear as it can all be transformed with love and actually wants to be! The last grasp attempts are a sign of how much we are moving into the new, into love, and into light. We can see them as a sacred aspect of this process too when we respond to them with compassion.

We can support you in this self love of ALL process that then extends to compassionate boundaries with these energies through our SoulFullHeart process too as this can be very tricky ground to navigate all by yourself:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Can You Come Out To Play?

Published on August 2, 2017August 1, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

What would it take for you to come out and play again?

I know deep down, you really want to. But something has you to itself right now.

Is it a sadness that the joys you once had so much fun with are gone now?… And you don’t know how you could ever have that much fun again?

Or is it that you can’t see who would want to be with you and have your kind of fun?

I’m not trying to figure you out. You’re way too big of a being to be figured out. I just want you to come out to play again when you are ready to.

I do feel something for you, if you’d let me share it with you?

I can feel that life as you once knew it changed somehow, and you knew some really cool joys in that old life, but that life dried up and went away. You found something really, really cool, and now it’s gone. Now, you’re sad, and that’s okay.

I think I know something else too that I’d like to share with you if you’d let me. And that is that when people lose things like you lost, they don’t actually let themselves feel what they lost and how sad they actually are. They keep their tears inside. I did that for a long time. It’s like we don’t arrange and attend the funeral. I think I know something too about why we tend to do that, that it is about how we are afraid the tears will swallow us somehow, and we will be no more.

If that’s true, then it means people do actually want to come out and play again, I mean, if they are afraid of being no more, right? Because being no more, would mean never to ever play again.

What if life is trying to bring you your next kind of play that really is your kind of funnest fun, but you aren’t sure you are ready to risk losing again?,…because you haven’t seen how losing isn’t as sad as it seems, if you let yourself be sad, then the sadness moves, and you get to come out and play again…

You didn’t have to find the play that you once loved so much. It found you, and fun is trying to find you again.

I think that’s just the way it is. People are afraid to be sad because they aren’t sure they are ready just yet for their next fun, their next play.

It’s okay if you don’t think so. That’s just the way I do. I can be sad with you, if you’d like me to…., to feel what you lost and then maybe we can share tears together, which is one kind of play I like to have whenever I need to.

I’ve lost lots of things, but I always find that new things are wanting and ready to come in.

(From the beloved younger part of me called Marvin)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Cravings And Food Aversions During Ascension

Published on August 1, 2017August 1, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

This photo is of a vegan meal at a vegetarian restaurant here recently…as ‘heavy’ as it gets around here, veggie burger (with rare bun) green juice, salad….

Finding these ‘super’ foods just super for various ascension body fluxes and changes……cacao is the big one, which grows here in Mexico and is very high in anti-oxidants, magnesium, serotonin booster..what is not to like here? Look for organic Cacao that is not baked or cooked for the most boost, punch….I make raw desserts from it and drink it as tea. Another super one is turmeric….just craving it like crazy in this amazing curry powder we get here, on popcorn popped in coconut oil with sea salt (the good kind of salt) and the other big craving is for nutritional yeast and the B-12 in it as we are now vegan around here (other than organic honey from happy bees.) The body is picky right now it seems….not wanting gluten or wheat, or refined sugar (honey or stevia is OK), only unrefined coconut oil…..and that is another craving. Although it’s not like there is much hunger and hasn’t been for a month or so since we all fasted for a week, plus.

Big shiftings going on in what the moving into light body wants and the turning away from meat and dairy (been years now with no meat and mostly no dairy over the years too) is happening for more and more awakening souls. Just can’t ‘eat’ the killing energy from dying animals as you move into unity consciousness and merge with Star BEing consciousness. Turning away from fried foods (esp. in vegetable oil which is about as healthy for the body as motor oil) and processed foods too. Things get simple then too, with mostly raw fruit and vegetables with occasional cooked food that is very basic, same super ingredients in everything. This is what has been true for me, anyway, and may differ for you and your process….

I shared recently about feeling into what your ascension body symptoms are trying to tell you from an emotional body place (by journaling with the symptoms, connecting in creative visualization meditation, etc.) and putting on your love detective ‘hat’ to discover it. Same can be offered for food aversions and cravings….some foods are really about comfort associations for parts of us and feeling why and how can help to discover what is going on. Light body doesn’t seem to look to or associate food with comfort as much as just wants FUEL (mostly from light and energy) yet pure food sources as much as possible too. https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/discovering-what-your-emot…/

As the energies rise, the body wants some relief from digesting heavier and denser foods (takes a lot of energy to digest then) and it wants to focus on UPgrading. If you need a food reboot, you might try just having fruit smoothies for a few days or with light fruit or with just juice….see what you actually want and don’t want on the other side of it and feel it through from an ascension/energy output and input perspective. Love in the form of food ….

Everything Waits To Be Noticed

Published on August 1, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

Everything waits to be noticed, as everything also wants to be caught up in noticing.

I’m here with my words wanting to be noticed, as well as wanting to be carried away in the gift of noticing.

As I tumbled into the kitchen the other day, having slept in, Jelelle said ‘Man, you can be soo cute when you wake up in the morning!’. The words and feeling tones of that noticing are still going into a part of me.

The real current and currency underneath life is this give and take of reverence. Nothing and no one can escape this economy of noticing.

People will say that money makes the world go around, but money is merely one form of the reverence I speak to. And if you revere money over reverence itself, you are sure to diminish it in quality if not also in quantity.

Nothing can take the place of this reverence. People will say or energize that they don’t need anything, but even this act is a request to be noticed for something.

Every revered thing only gets its value by the value we imbue it with, for this is what we are… ones who have the power to impute worth, and thereby meaning.

We create our own worlds by that which we give our attention to.

Whether it’s deep meditation, or a walk in the forest, or attending a monster truck event, we are all out desiring to be caught up in notice, in both giving and receiving it.

If you’ve never tried it before, try giving the gift of your attention for several minutes to something, like an insect, or a plant, or even a so called ‘inanimate’ object like a stone, or a coveted and well crafted object, like a smartphone, or a piece of furniture. Feel the object taking in your attention. Feel the object as it feels you feeling it. If you can feel this, you are truly the hottest stuff that the universe is made up of! Everything comes from Gaia and everything returns to Gaia. How cool to feel that! Now go one step more and feel the object noticing you, noticing your noticing. Feels its curiosity about you? Feel how you are changed by receiving the gift of reverence directed back at you.

Another way we can receive this gift we crave so deeply is feeling how when we do give reverence out to what we call an other, that there is, on a deeper level, no other, for we are all one. Reverence given is reverence received. We are always the first partakers of the gardens we cultivate in this way.

But what about the parts of us who don’t yet get much juice out of the we-are-all-one picture? Can we feel a part of ourselves AS a sacred part of ourselves, with uniquenesses that are wanting to be felt and noticed?

I get to feel how ‘I am you’ as I feel how and in what ways ‘I am not you’. This is true for parts of ourselves in the same way. We are a makeup of distinct beings living their separate timelines and realities inside of us awaiting our notice.

It’s in that noticing of separateness that we are afforded a return to wholeness.

Collapsing And Awakening Into Deeper Spiritual Consciousness

Published on August 1, 2017August 2, 2017 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

Painting: The Awakening by Anato Finnstark

“Am I real?”

I laid in my twin bed in a room temporarily shared with my soul friend Gabriel, around this time last year, sobbing. This question rang inside of me as I wept uncontrollable, deep tears. I couldn’t track if it was a part of me and in that moment and the moments that followed, it really didn’t matter. I was crying and shedding layers of persona that came pouring off and out of me. Something was moving, though I wasn’t sure what.

It felt so strange to hold this question… it was a true, ‘wow, I feel so f*cked!’ kind of feeling. The ground that had been established for 29 years of my life, many years of spiritual seeking and emotional exploration, was suddenly in deep question. Who was I? Who AM I? Why did I suddenly feel as if I ‘knew’ so little when it came to spirituality, even after so many years of studying this and intuiting that, and listening to this teacher and that teacher?

This work in SoulFullHeart is deconstructive. It brings you to the point where the parts of you that have been shouldering your life and also your spirituality like Atlas shoulders the Earth decide they can’t do ‘it’ anymore. They let in that they aren’t now and perhaps have never been who they thought they were – meaning that now, you can begin to feel that YOU are not who you thought you were. Wow. Even after years of process and doing this piece by piece, part by part, these moments of pure tears of awakening within are not something that can be predicted, they just need to be given the space to happen.

As my tears continued, I thought about Jelelle and Raphael sleeping in a nearby room. I saw them as light beams in their essences. I could feel the identities we each have and need to have to some extent as a costume we sign up for and wear throughout our lives. As humans, we wear our stories like cloaks around our shoulders, and some of us have zippers in these cloaks to bring them in tighter to us. Either way, it’s a costume and it’s temporary. This washed over me, especially while connecting with Gabriel who heard my tears and felt to come over to check on me. I could feel his heart and the heart of Raphael and Jelelle too. I could feel the purifying work we’ve been doing, and I could feel how this is what allows us to go into these spaces when necessary, to fill back up with love again and a deeper sense of our essence.

This experience was visceral for me. It cannot be dissected or analyzed. It was a precious new beginning and recognition of what real spirituality is… it is not something that lives in the mind, though the mind is needed to help us understand somehow, even though our consciousness can never fully reach out and ‘know’ or understand everything. The mind is also here to help us picture, envision, plan what’s next for us (as much as we even CAN plan these days!). My own mind was collapsing in these moments last year, telling me it was tired. My heart was collapsing and yet strengthening too, telling me it was tired of trying to go beyond itself and into territory that doesn’t resonate or make sense to it in an experiential way.

This was an awakening. This was and is a place where many of us are heading in different strata of our being and the layers of awakening are going to move through us, as they need to and as we ask for them to.

We are dismantling and collapsing and we have MUCH to feel in the process. Our worlds, inner and outer, are in question in poignant moments of disclosure and revelation. We are all awakening, we are all letting go to let in, even if we aren’t fully aware of it. We are not here to criticize one another for wherever it is we choose to go or not go. We are not here to condemn, ridicule or cast aside. We are here to feel ourselves first, to begin entering this process of self-disclosure and discovery, with help, with mirrors, with advocacy, with tears, and with joy too. If we serve love, we are not always positive or optimistic, but we are real, only becoming realer and realer, until the overflow of a heart that wants and receives from self can then serve love to other, assisting them in their own journey of finding this flow within. It is becoming harder and harder to NOT be real now. We are no longer able to spend the currency of the false, at least not for much longer.

How amazing it is, to be able to go here and come out the other side with a deeper sense of love and what it truly offers us… when I look back on this last year of my life since this process, I can see the ways in which it helped to fuel some big shifts inside of me, some of which are still landing deeper and deeper in my soul.

All awakenings we have, no matter how intense, are here to help conduct us through a necessary birth canal that leads us to our most desired outcomes and a deep sense of spirituality that humbles and loves us beyond anything we can begin to fathom – until we collapse into the capacity to do so…

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Listening To The Lion: Time To Lead With Feeling

Published on August 1, 2017August 1, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

Painting by Gabriel Heartman

The last few nights have been super intense emotionally for me. I have had waves of doubt, self-punishment, and anxiety arise in my field that began to overwhelm me. Hard to fall asleep with the intense energies and I needed to connect with the Divine energy to move through some of it. Through my SoulFullHeart process I know they are not mine but coming from something within me that needs to be felt.

It has taken form of a MetaSoul aspect of mine that is living an Atlantean lifetime. I had a beautiful group session with the help of Jelelle to feel this aspect and begin a more balanced relationship with him and his intensity. Last night I began to feel energies that didn’t feel connected to him and could be another aspect of my soul coming through around anxiety.

What the heck is going on?

I felt to tap into my guides and intuition since I couldn’t sleep and was told that this is a very intense time for many. I have known about the current lead up to the Lion’s Gate portal for a while now, and I am starting to piece some things together for myself around it. What I received is that this is a time of great confluence. Many energies are coming together that may feel like a squeeze to some. It is thinning out veils and the gap between what is authentic and not. It is bringing in codes that feel to be bubbling up old unhealed lower frequencies that are preventing us from moving into our next growth places. These frequencies are held by parts of us as well as Metasoul aspects that are bleeding in at this Thinning. It can be a crazy-making time if there isn’t a larger container to hold all of it in.

It may be advised to just ride out the wave and be kind and gentle to yourself. I agree with being self-loving to yourself is key right now. But I also feel there is great opportunity for growth and letting in more of the love we came here to experience. It all brings up the unloved energies within us that are needing to be held and felt to make room for more. It is like the altitude is changing and the old denser energies are needing to fall away. But there is an invitation to actively participate in this process, and not just passively let it go by. This is the leading edge of consciousness we are stepping into!

I feel that this is the message of the Lion. He is inviting us to lead ourselves into a new relationship with our experience of life and Gaia as we have known it. He is about finding our courage and strength and feeling all that we need to feel during this highly transformative time. What wounds and pains, both this and other lives, are looking to be heard and felt at this time? What resistance is showing up inside of us that keeps us from fully inhabiting the largess and love sponges we are? This is not an easy choice to make going INto the pain, not to suffer, but to heal. To reveal. To discover. It leads us into our jungle and arise as the king and queen of our truest dreams and inner knowing.

You may be pressed to make some difficult choices along the way. We can not have things stay the same and expect them to be different. Leading your way into your next emotional and spiritual growth terrain is what Leo is offering and guiding us toward. Healing your way to passion, purpose, and the remembrance of magic. From denser energy to higher vibration. From care-taking to self-actualization. From being alone to being in community and sacred passionate romance!

SoulFullHeart offers a pathway and a community that serves this growth and expansion of love. We are here to lead this way of life into the world to those that it resonates with. The Lion is a huge totem for us and what we came here to do and be. I am listening closely myself and feeling what it is that needs my attention to enter into more expression of Love and Serviceship. We invite you to do the same. Be kind and gentle with yourself during these days and months to come. And we are here to serve all that is arising in you should you feel the call of the wild of heart and soul.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Narrowing Energetic Corridor Offers Movement Into The New

Published on August 1, 2017August 7, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

All night long during my brief conscious moments and during sleep too, I was walking down this corridor….a long hallway. The ceiling was getting tighter and the floor rising up to meet it. Not a pleasant feeling…this ‘narrowing’ passageway feeling. Yet, also, I could feel there was LOVE in this movement somehow and that at the ‘end’ of the hallway were wide, OPEN spaces filled with Infinite Possibilities.

As I digest this in the now moment, it feels like a pretty good metaphor for what is happening energetically on the inner and outer cosmic levels. In this now called “August 2017” is a ‘mega month’ of energy activities…eclipses and the lion’s gate opening that peaks in a week on August 8th. There are many writings about this cosmic activity and its impact, messages, and what it is offering us during the ascension process on sites such as Lovehaswon.org. My focus and soul purpose service of love is about bridging the emotional body with the spiritual and soul awakening process while being aware of how what is happening in the cosmos may be impacting this ongoing process, specifically from a parts work and Metasoul aspect perspective. I am actually surprised that so many souls seem to resonate with this perspective as it is certainly different, yet perhaps also deeply needed and been a ‘missing’ piece in the ascension picture.

The narrowing corridor I was shown feels like the old life and the previous versions, the 3D self versions and masks and personas, are being ‘pressed down’ in order to move them along. It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and cramped to be less than who you are and you are feeling it more acutely now on all levels. The physical body is releasing pain and resistance in the form of ascension body symptoms such as ringing in the ears, changing sleeping patterns, dizzyness, nausea, appetite changes, body aches, hot flashes, etc. Some of this is resistance and some of this is just transition and adjustment to so much more light coming into every cell and igniting previously sleepy DNA.

It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable too within relationships where previously you were the ‘big fish in the little pond’ or the ‘tall one in the rooms with shorter ceilings.’ What this means is that the settings, relationships, and careers where parts of you feel VERY comfortable within your comfort zone are now feeling cramped and confining. Your soul self (higher self coming into the body and healthy emotional body) wants to fly, wants growth, wants to be challenged, wants mirrors to see yourself, wants to stand tall, and is ok to be the big fish in the big pond with other big fish.

There could be a feeling of crawling right now as you travel down the corridor of this old, feeling your way through as previously suppressed pains and wounds from your emotional body and Metasoul greet you and come up. Crawling is ok though, as is pausing and just sitting still and BEing with the discomfort. Crying the tears that need to come up. BEing with the fears too. All this is temporary….a pressure cooker, compression point, narrowing corridor reality that invites you to keep choosing love in every moment in order to keep moving through it.

Some souls will become immobilized, stuck, or choose to leave their bodies. Even those who are more awakened or newly awakened may lash out with fear and retreat….going back down their hallway and into their comfort zone and safety again. In this case, all you can really do and BE is compassionate love for them, invite them to come with you and keep going forward yourself. If you try to ‘go back’ for them or stay with them, you will lower your vibrational frequency to fear and potentially ‘fuse’ to parts of you that will put you back to sleep again. There is heightened temptation to do this as the fear-based energies reach out in a ‘last grasp attempt’ at our trailing edges of BEing.

There is actually something at stake and at risk in relationships right now. It is probably the stickiest ground when it comes to the ascension process. ‘Going down’ with someone in order to ‘save them’ is a trap that could keep you looping in suffering and co-dependent patterns. Clinging on to ‘capacity’ rather than being real about transactability can keep you hanging on to others, staying stuck, and even parts of you in delusion, such as what happens often in the Twin Flame paradigm. Really asking yourself what you want in relationships of all kinds, what is healthy and nourishing for you, who is a healthy mirror of you and being open to feel all that comes up in parts of you that cling and why can help you navigate this sticky ground.

Better to mourn the completion of these lower frequency relationships, let go, and keep BEing the light that you are, feeling yourself and your own healing as your first priority. This choosing of yourself and your own heart creates a beacon that draws the souls that are in your soul family tribe to join you and your TRUE sacred union mate as well. You may be walking, crawling, and BEing alone for a phase though as you truly leave behind your previous life to enter your new one.

It is a time of choosing love over fear in every moment in ways both subtle and perhaps very dramatic and profound. It is a time of change…both on a very personal level and as a collective. It is a time of a waking up on a grander scale then we have seen before since choosing our collective slumber and amnesia. At the end of each of our hallways is VAST, open space filled with Infinite Love and Infinite Possibilities. The Divine waits there to embrace us in Love again even as It is with us always in every moment as we crawl and find and arise into the love that we ARE.

Pausing On ‘Doing’ To Feel And ‘BEcome’

Published on July 31, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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Sometimes you need a break to reevaluate, to take stock, to go IN. The ‘charging ahead’ is too often fuelled by something that can ultimately leave you feeling unfulfilled, like all you do is put out energy and get what can feel like ‘nothing’ in return. And then sometimes you feel this consciously and other times you don’t… your conditioning may run so deep in relationship to ‘doing’ and ‘productivity’ in one way or another, that the ‘time’ and space to actually feel into how this is affecting you and those around you is challenging to find.

It can be so subtle too, this drive to ‘forge onward’ even though you feel tired and the need to recuperate can become buried by parts of you that are addicted somehow to the race of it all, the adrenaline, and the way in which it keeps you from feeling them. Overriding the need for rest is an act of violence towards the self, with suppression as the priority. Also, without the time for you, the time put out for others can be in-genuine and fuelled by something other than authentic love, care, and reverence.

The hardest part in this, is feeling the vulnerability underneath the desire to ‘keep going’… for parts of me and Metasoul aspects of mine too, it has been a fear of becoming invisible, irrelevant, like suddenly I won’t exist in people’s worlds if I don’t keep showing up despite needing time just for me, to become more visible to myself first.

How can someone else take me in if I am not taking myself in?

I get that in some ways, this is easy to manufacture… that is, until it isn’t. There are plenty of strategies out there for us to learn and adopt for ourselves, to make sure we are seen, heard, noticed. Yet, if this is all really about just a sincere ache for love deep within us, then why is the external still so leaned on as something more important than the internal, which is really the only place where we can find the love we MOST need? This is an ongoing question that I hold for myself and the answers are always unfolding, sometimes into deeper process around the core wounding underneath it.

I feel that somewhere inside of each of us, there is likely a core wound that is similar to this one, where parts of us don’t feel qualified to receive love unless we have a certain amount of output and engagement happening outside of ourselves. There seem to be so many layers to this and it’s intense to feel through, but the other side of it ultimately means more love than we have imagined so far, all coming from a place within that cannot run dry.

This writing today is a form of output, yet coming from a place inside of me that needs to share and wants to share… that wants to serve the love that I’m being served too, to keep the flow going. I can see and feel the difference inside of myself now, more and more. In some ways, I can still feel how there is a layer here of ‘I want to write something so that I don’t get forgotten about’ and yet even sharing that feels important for me and for you. I get to see this reflection as I write and share and you get to see and feel into it for yourself too. Ultimately my intention is to help create a world with more open-hearted love flow. A universe with more transparent, vulnerable leadership that can feel itself while also feeling and guiding others from its own well-spring of self-love first. I want to co-create with you, a world where wounded layers like this can be brought out to receive the ointment they need, without them staying buried in a place deep inside where they can’t be touched and can’t be reached by the love that wants to reach them…

There is a lot to do, a lot to show up for, but ultimately there is – even more – to be and become… and the ultimate ‘becoming’ is LOVE…

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Finding And Feeling The Rage Part Of Ourselves

Published on July 30, 2017 by Raphael Awen2 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

For those of us who survived on being nice, relatable and kind, finding and feeling our rage can be a long time in the making, as well as an ongoing journey beyond that too.

Rage just isn’t welcome or seen as productive in any way. Parts of us had to form to cap our rage in order to survive. Part of us, or a whole cast of varied parts of us, had to form in cooperation to bury our rage, to somehow channel it, yet never interface with its raw killer energy.

I just experienced a surprising reconnection with my own rage after years of consciously working with it, where I needed to welcome anew the part of me who feels that its rage will implode my life and relationships as I know it/them now.

When I channel the raw rage feeling of particularly what it was like as a child to let parents win a tantrum battle, I feel the intense feelings of ‘I’d kill you right now if I wasn’t smaller than you.’ As an adult, I haven’t killed anyone, let alone my parents, or even truly blasted someone with my rage, so where then does this go?

(And if you claim not to have any rage, please move along and make room for those of us who do!)

Even the part of us who holds the rage can so try to mute or edit itself. This leaves YOU muted and edited in some degree shape or form. Until we can integrate our rage, we are left living someone else’s life, by someone else’s rules, for scraps of love.

Trying to access this energy without feeling it as a subpersonality within us is actually just the part of us trying to hold space for itself, without a me or you there. It leaves the original wound in place, which is not the rage, but rather the suppression and inability to digest the rage. The rage needs to be felt by an ‘other’, rather than stewed in. Feeling by an other allows for movement. We can be this other if we are willing to feel our parts.

Until we can show up as an adult like parent energy of an authentic self and feel our rage, as a living being part of us, we are left disconnected from key aspects of our power and safety and love in the world.

Rage is not the source of our conflicts. The source of our conflicts is found in the inability to digest our rage. That’s a huge difference.

If this resonates for you and you’d like help finding and feeling your own rage part, I’d like to invite you check out SoulFullHeart and personal session space with me. I would be delighted to serve your genuine interest and desire.

Timelines Merging And Veil Is Thinning So We Can BE With Aspects From Other Lifetimes

Published on July 30, 2017August 2, 2017 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Timelines merging, veil is SO thin, and what has been called ‘past lives’ is NOT past, yet these energies are in the now. There is so much bleed through of other lifetimes that then triggers our emotional body reactivity and ‘hidden’ woundings. It creates a ricochet effect that can be confusing and intense. These eras and legacies and civilizations (Atlantis, Lemuria, Avalon, etc.) are energizing and ALIVE in the now. The mind (and part of you) might want to make them the ‘past’ so that they don’t have as much impact and influence as they actually seem to on your experience of reality and your emotional reactivity and outward manifestation.

Our definition of what is ‘real’ and ‘reality’ is being hugely altered, shifted, and turning upside down from what 3D has said and taught that it is. Our hearts ‘get’ it as they are not linear and they feel every moment as the now….they get stuck sometimes in a moment or scene and need us to help them move beyond it again, to become fluid again…to free up the flow of love, compassion, gratitude, and goodness. Our hearts are what is needed in this now, with so much crazy making (this is a TRUE mind fu*k! reality) realigning of our realities.

Energies of Atlantis are coming in and offering us a storyline to go down that comes alive with our openness to feel and heal it with the aspects of us that are living it out. The ‘fall of Atlantis’ is a wound in our personal and collective consciousness. We are experiencing this in deeply personal ways in our processes in SoulFullHeart, and Raphael and I too in our relationship. There is the Raphael-Jelelle timeline of usness experience and there is the others, the counterpart matings and pair bondings that span planets, species, and timelines. The Atlantis ones seems to be the most intense with themes of sovereignty, separation, power struggles, matriarchy vs. patriarchy playing out. Sorting through what is what through the terrain of the heart with the higher mind helping too (yes, I believe there is a higher vibrational frequency of thought and that the mind is not bad, just can vibrate at different levels of consciousness). This can be a tricky process with self love and compassion AND for other needed to hold the space.

This can feel like a ‘soup’ to navigate yet the process of parts work and metasoul aspects helps in such a huge way. It provides a life line and a heart line too….and a soul line too actually. It is the way we live our lives and what we offer others too, and how we led yesterday during an all day group session with some very touching and important and DEEP process happening for all that were there!

Be open right now to what has previously been labeled as ‘impossible.’ Be open to letting in energies of what you may have felt were not ‘relevant’ or ‘in the past’. Open your heart to all the aspects that need you…..even if (and especially if) they exist in another timeline. As you are open to this and curious, you become more able to ride the waves, experience the gift of them, and integrate it ALL into your wholeness expression.

Read more about parts work process and metasoul aspects here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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