SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: The Great Alchemy of REALizing Ourselves

It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman starts off this museletter with a writing describing the awakening process and what it looks and feels like to say YES to some things and NO to others. He shares how this process of realization leads to accepting and loving your own bigness and everything that you are, while ending the patterns and connections that no longer serve.

Gabriel states in this writing, “You are reconstituting what it means to be alive and real. No more will you accept what had been acceptable. No more will you hold the needs of others more than the needs of your own. No more will you forget what was always meant to be re-membered back into your sacred human consciousness. Your feminine and masculine heart.”

We share our uniquely individual yet collective voice representing the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life through many beautiful digestions in writing and video this week from all the SoulFullHeart Facilitators, including Kalayna Colibri and Jelelle Awen, as well as a new blog series from Raphael Awen called “Entering The Superabundance That You Are”.

Many of these writings have been turned into audio blogs for you to either listen to or read along with our voices. These are all available on YouTube SoulFullHeart Experience.

We share about some events we have coming up to bring in frequencies of Unity Consciousness and more support for you to navigate the current energies. Join us for a free Unity Meditation call on April 14th.

Jelelle is offering private, one on one 90 minute sessions with her over zoom to bridge to your awakening process, locate where you are, and your highest timeline manifestation. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Invitation From Our Higher Self and The Divine As We Awaken

By Jelelle Awen

Invitation From Our Higher Self and The Divine As We Awaken:

To find the light in the darkest corners of the self….to trust that light MUST be in there somewhere even when the absence of it seems so real.

To bring hope to the cries of despair….to trust that the feelings of ‘this pain is never going to end’ can be answered with love.

To hold onto the bigger picture of ongoing Awakening……to understand that the personal Dark Nights and the collective Hell spaces are temporary, necessary phases of the process.

To connect with the Divine holding and purpose in it all…..to surrender control, attachment, and knowing of outcomes with trust that it is ALL coming from love.

To feel with deep compassion all that exists INside of you…..to not cast away or out, or see as ‘evil’ what only needs love and forgiveness to return to its essence of love.

To remember that you are MUCH bigger than the human body….to merge with expansive, galactic consciousness states that activate your multidimensional access.

To tap into an energy of co-creation and collaboration….to recognize that you are not a victim to your journey, the Divine, or to anyone else.

To honor your personal experience as it aligns and defines the collective one……to experience Unity Consciousness within the soul spark of your individuality.

Ultimately and inevitability……to BEcome and serve love in sacred human form.

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I feel MUCH love and support for you and me and our BRAVE choices to respond to this invitation with an ever evolving, yet consistently arising ‘YES!’

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Let Your Inner Tension BE Your Path Through 4D Ascension

Painting by Cristina Bernazzani

 

by Kalayna Colibri

There is no “wrong way”… there is only the way in front of you and inside of you. There is no way or path that is more correct, more aligned with you than what you are currently walking out. The flow you’re already in wants to bring you to your next places of growth and healing, as is inevitable on this Ascension journey where SO much is going on at all times.

It can be especially hard, as you walk out 4D-ascension specifically, to really let this in. To hold that you and parts of you are OK. 4D holds the container for so much churning, so many storms, so much turmoil inside as buried pain surfaces on heart AND soul levels. It isn’t comfortable and it often expresses as messes, conflicts, contention, feelings of being twisted around inside of you into a really uncomfortable pretzel as your Higher Self continues to try and find its way closer to your being. The Higher Self coming into the body causes reactions that aren’t just physical… the emotional reactions, oh, those intense emotional reactions, are all part and parcel of the bigger picture of what needs to be purged, felt, healed. The parts that surface can really inhabit the intensity of this. Parts represent so much of our old ways of being in the world and with ourselves, which is a result of our wounding and conditioning too from culture, birth family, friends, the education system, the medical system, the “Matrix” in general if you want to call it that. The ‘Matrix’ is a charged word and concept for all of the pushing away from it that is happening… it can be held by parts of you as another representation of their pain and anguish, what they want to push away from and forget about. Yet there is still a Matrix within, a very intricately-wired set of responses to life and above all, to love. This is what is being pressed upon the most when we feel this intense birth canal that IS 4D awakening and movement. And of course this is HARD… this is what has been so normalized, so accepted, yet so painful inside of all of us.

In the 4D scramble for answers, it can be understandably hard to find stillness and calm and a place within that is an undying oasis of infinite love… a place that truly believes in and trusts love. This oasis of self-love and worth is worth working for, is worth burning-up from the inside for… and is the passageway to our more consistent 5D moments and eventually whole lifestyle of 5D consciousness and breathing and being. And, though it can be so hard to feel this when the burning and purging is happening, there is SO much love holding it ALL, always and in ALL ways.

For more support and to gather at an oasis of self-love process and experience of infinite unified love with the world, you are welcome to join us at our Unity Meditation gathering happening virtually over Zoom tomorrow and for many other days and times to follow! Please join us and lean into the web of love that has been created and continues to be re-created by each amazing soul that joins in and leans in too. ❤ Go here for more info: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

And, if you want to go deeper, we have 2 process programs that we offer in SoulFullHeart, ranging in price from $33/mo to $222/mo. Check out www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more info! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Drawing Your Soul Tribe Reunions

By Jelelle Awen

What was once lonely….what was once isolated…..what was once feeling abandoned feeling inside of you finds communion again in resonant hearts and souls. You start drawing these souls as you awaken, as your Higher Self frequencies start coming into your consciousness, as you remember who and what you really ARE. As you activate more of your Unity consciousness from within and experience it with others.

These are resonant others that don’t feel so separate, yet more like BELONG with you somehow. They feel like fingers from the same hand as you. Pages from the same book. Rays from the same rainbow. Tones from the same song. They just ‘get you’ without being told much or offered explanations or needing justifications.

Even the conflicts feel like a sorting out in order to go back in, in order to find even MORE connection and relational ground together. The ceiling of good will doesn’t collapse during these probably rare disagreements…no insults, nothing said that leaves a permanent mark, no purposefully harmful attacks. Hurting in this way feels like hurting yourself.

Yet, you are able to be REAL with each other about what you are feeling. There isn’t any emotional hiding, or at least, not for long. You are transparent with each other because you feel soul safe together…..connected in many timeline realities through Metasoul aspects bonds that unify rather than divide.

Your tribe. Your soul family. Your counterpart sacred union mate. Your common vibrations are already in the blueprint of your DNA. Waiting for activation to move into synchronization. Waiting to find each other again. Waiting to experience reunion again.

To clear out room in your life to experience these soul family reunions is to say NO to what ISN’T this frequency. To let go of relationships that are less than this and based in old agreements of who you used to be rather than who you are becoming. To create love within your inner family and create a soul tribe feeling inside in order to draw it on the outside.

I am SO blessed to experience these kinds of soul family and sacred union mate connections on a daily basis and for several years now. This is not just being lucky though…I have drawn this to myself as I have made choices in relationships that reflect and deepen this frequency. I have let go of relationships that were less than this, as truly painful as that was at times. I have focused on my inner family and inner soul tribe above ALL too…and this has drawn this experience on the outside.

These soul family reunions are happening more and more in these times of accelerated and powerful ascension energies. The synchs and connections are moving into place as those with common soul missions find each other and move into service of love energies together. THIS coming together in bigness after so long being conditioned to be alone and to settle and to shrink in our relationships is a BIG piece of how New Golden Earth Gaia reality is coming into BEing in the Now. We NEED each other in order to create this reality together!!

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Is it time to move out of your lone wolf phase? Join us tomorrow for an experience of soul family, community, sharing, and UNITY of resonant values and tones during our FREE Unity Meditation Activation call on April 4th (4:4!) at 2:00pm CDT. The energies in our last one on the Equinox in March were quite powerful and unifying!!

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– Email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. We will send you the zoom link when we get your email.

We also offer group sessions and online group community connection along with individual sessions as part of our DEEP program offering! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Great Alchemy Of REALizing Our Selves

There is a moment in life when a realization occurs. Almost a realization of a realization. All that you have experienced has been a grand set up for a shift. A propulsion pack that is filled with charged emotional energy that is meant to rumble and crumble the ground upon which you currently walk. Really it is the ground a part of you has created in order to survive the trauma and the drama.

Your voice may feel as if it has been cut off, your lungs constricted, your truest heart and spirit kept in another room, another dimension for safe-keeping. You have known this to be true. It was always a niggle, but now it is becoming an unignorable knock on the door. Your soul, your Service of Love Self, is asking to come home. Home to your heart, your mind, and your body.

Your galactic family is reaching out. Sending dispatches in your dreams, your intuition, your activating DNA. Switches and levers are in a ready-state for you to say YES to. YES to the New. YES to the clearing. YES to firewalk of healing and remembering. You ARE that YES. An open-hearted, passion-filled, star-bound lover of light and truth. Not just truth of mind, but truth of being.

To get to the YES, there needs to be a time of NO. NO to the lying to yourself. NO to the relationships that no longer serve the YES. NO to the inner punishment and fear. It is saying YES to the parts of you that hold the fear, the protection, and the pain. It is saying YES to claiming your own power back, claiming your scattered selves back. This is not a battle to be waged but a felt-through process of sober reflection and compassion for self and others. There may need to be raised voice, a charged response, an outward stretched palm to hold the boundary.

You are reconstituting what it means to be alive and real. No more will you accept what had been acceptable. No more will you hold the needs of others more than the needs of your own. No more will you forget what was always meant to be re-membered back into your sacred human consciousness. Your feminine and masculine heart.

This is the journey of the Inner Work. The Great Alchemy. There is a family within to bring back to your heart. A family in the heavens to seek connection with as integrated equals. You are far from alone but the choices you make are yours alone. Each one held in deep sacredness with the courage of your deepest truth, even when those truths can hurt like hell. It is trusting and feeling that Love is always waiting on the other side.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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SoulFullHeart Patreon Monthly Money UPdate: March 2018

By Raphael Awen

March is Done – well done! I’m excited to share with you our Monthly Money UPdate. It’s all good news!

We’ve been doing this ‘transparentizing’ of our money picture each month wanting to live into this new world of transparency and invite others into it with us. Whatever led us to be so private about money anyways?!

We have some desires/needs this month that we’d like to share with you. The first is a new (used) computer for Jelelle. Her 2008 Macbook Pro is on its last legs, having served so faithfully. We’ve found a 2014 Macbook Pro for $750 USD that we plan to purchase soon. If you’d like to contribute to that, it will come back to you in many service of love messages over the years ahead. 🙂

Then there is the ‘UK In May’ – Glastonbury budget of $21,000 USD for the five us. We are almost ‘not here’ anymore here in Mexico, it feels like, with our hearts and desires so feeling the new timeline and change in location. Gabriel and Kalayna have both taken it on themselves to ‘turn on the afterburners’ (my words) with more english teaching each day to keep this moving forward. Raianna is also just about to be launching her own income generation with english teaching as well, being almost complete with her TESL certification.

The items in the Glastonbury budget amount are, in order from largest to smallest: airfare, first and second months rent, dentist, clothing, some debt to pay off for recently purchased computer equipment, 3 used Macbook Pros, a used Iphone, luggage, visa entry fees, and veterinary fees. We are at around 10% funded at the moment. Would you like to help us with any of these items above? We’d so gladly accept your love and gifts!

Here is the our Money UPdate for March, 2018:

(all figures in US Dollars)

Revenue breakdown as follows:

$1,708 – Gabriel and Kalayna’s English Teaching through VIPkid.

$1,112 – Donations for Sessions.

$24 – Group Call Donations for our one Group Call this month.

$79 – General Donations – People just sending money!

$2,923 – Total Revenue – that’s $584 a person!

Thank you to all of you for your interest, desire, love, and money. A very special thank you to those who are a part of weekly SoulFullHeart session space, as well as to our precious Patreons. More about our Programs here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

So from myself, Jelelle Awen , Kalayna Colibri , Gabriel Heartman , and Raianna Shai , as well as from some near and dear souls presently deepening with us, THANK YOU, for your love, for your support, and for showing us your love in the form of money. 🙂

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

In this new relationship to money and needs, I was inspired to begin a new series of writings called ‘Entering The Superabundance That You Are’. You can find the first installment here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/entering-the-superabundance…/

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Entering The Superabundance That You Are Series ~ Day One

By Raphael Awen

What would you do if you were given a truckload of ripe beautiful produce? Apples, oranges, papayas, mangoes, potatoes, carrots, you name it. Beautiful organic produce.

A dozen or two for the counter and the fridge, but then what? Maybe a some freezing, some dehydrating for the really ambitious…but you still haven’t dented the supply.

You could set up a street shop or head for the farmers market and try selling them, but you’d probably need some permit you don’t currently have, and the produce is gonna only be good for a matter of hours. At best, you’d sell a few and make some pocket money, enough to pay for the disposal fee at the dump for all the leftovers.

You can either let it go to waste, or, you can simply give it away to anyone who’s glad to have it.

I’d head for the street (a needy street) and bellar out to anyone in earshot – ‘free apples – free papayas – free carrots’. I’d get that truck emptied out and given away before anyone could come along to tell me I can’t do that here. ‘Take and dozen, take a pallet!’

I wouldn’t technically be any richer financially at the end of the day, but I would have enriched myself on some quantum levels. I would have participated in the conviction of the super abundant universe. I would have given this experience to the part of me concerned and anxious about my needs for money in our over commercialized world, and allowed this part of me to taste and sniff a new reality.

YOU are this truckload of goodies.

You may well not realize it, but you are being invited into this dawning realization. Your anxiety about money and your ties to your job, or to your pension, or to your dying mother’s inheritance, (or whatever else) as being your source of ‘livelihood’ are all being invited into a brand new world of epic proportions.

Here’s the new world order in a nutshell: Discover your deepest goodies, and give them away – for FREE. You planting this kind of super-value into a super-abundant universe can not NOT return to you with all that you most deeply need for your wellbeing. You may not want to, nor would it be advisable to drop your job overnight, but how could you begin to adapt to this new reality?

What goodies are going to waste in your current relationship to your super-value? What gifts do you have to give that are not being given? What artistry are you waiting for scarce money for as the condition of your sharing it?

A few years ago, I knew It was time to let go of a great little cash cow money machine that I’d built up in 3D over a 30 year period. I’d shifted my relationship to it in many ways, began to explore my deeper soul gifts, but now the time had come to completely let go of it. I enjoyed the self employed work and could all too easily drum up jobs that paid many times what any going rates were. It taught me a lot and It was my means to give to the world in many ways, but now its end had come. Enough money was able to be pooled to live out a year and a bit, to follow our dream of offering soul and healing work, letting that take us to Mexico, and then we arrived at our last couple hundred dollars, between three of us and two dogs. As this time approached, I had been feeling myself living deeper and deeper into the above awareness I’m offering to you. My consciousness could feel that I wasn’t going to starve and die. It may get really tight and it might get really painful adjusting, but I wouldn’t die. The locals around me in poor towns all around in Mexico were proof enough of that. In the 18 months since leaving Canada and the career behind and living frugally off of our pooled nest egg, we had received a total of $30 in income as a thank you for housing and feeding some visitors on the ranch we were living on, but that was it. There was no knowledge of where our next livelihood was coming from. What was all around us was a brimming awareness of what we did have to give… the dawning awareness that we had a very large truckload of perishable goods was weighing heavily on us. That’s why we had left the other goodies behind in the first place.

We busied ourselves with that instead of drowning in our anxiety about money. We didn’t deny our anxiety about money. We answered it by choosing our most grounded action towards financial security. Love and money began again to flow, but from a higher place inside and outside.

The greatest steps you can take towards your own superabundance is to sow and cultivate what you have to give. If no one’s buying, then give it away. The garden can’t NOT produce.  Sweep the streets if you have to.

Hanging onto scarcity is keeping-on, keeping-on in that dead end job and participating in the 3D economy that is all based in a lie of scarcity. Money may not grow on trees, but apples sure do, and you can’t eat money! Instead, use the job as a loving transition into a paced experience and acclimation into this super abundant universe that you are as you take stock and discover what you really have to give.

Money at root is nothing but love and trust, and that can grow in you tall and strong and you arrive eventually at a place of never again worrying about money. I speak this passionately, because that is how I feel it. I’ve gots lots to grow into this reality myself, but i’m done with an old world order that is fading away by the day.

Help me out here, would you? There’s truckloads of goodies that’s gonna go to waste unless we do something about it! We’ll store our food in the bellies of those around us, and we’ll never worry again about going hungry, or not having fun, for that matter!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Coming Through The Powerful March SOULar Activations Passage

It’s the release of our weekly museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

SoulFullHeart Teacher and Facilitator Jelelle Awen shares about the energies as March comes to a close, including more SOULar activities such as storms, and winds. In addition to Energy Updates, Jelelle and Raphael Awen have provided a guided meditation from our most recent Unity Meditation Call to help activate the Ascension Chakra Vortexes and to integrate more of these March energies.

As Jelelle states in the featured writing, “These activations seemed to bring in, MARCH in…. Bliss Mess experiences with ups and downs. The SOULar wind currents could take you from intense joy to acute pain to sweet surrender……all within the same day! They could offer tastes of New Gaia 5D states of self love and compassionate love for ALL sentient BEings with deeper awarenesses that we are ALL meant to come along during the Ascension process… You may have experienced a deeper embodiment of your Service of Love Self/5D Self and the next choice points that lead to MORE of this BEing state.”

We share our uniquely individual yet collective voice representing the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life through many beautiful digestions in writing and video this week from all the SoulFullHeart Facilitators, including Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, and a new blog series from Raphael Awen introducing subtle energy to beginners. In addition, SoulFullHeart facilitant Raianna Shai begins her own series about her own personal process.

Many of these writings have been turned into audio blogs for you to either listen to or read along with our voices. These are all available on YouTube SoulFullHeart Experience.

We share about some events we have coming up to bring in frequencies of Unity Consciousness and more support for you to navigate the current energies. Join us for two free Unity Meditation calls on April 4th and April 14th. We share in this museletter the recording of the guided meditation from the powerful Unity Meditation call that we did on Wednesday, March 21st for you to listen to and take in.

Jelelle is offering private, one on one 90 minute sessions with her over zoom to bridge to your awakening process, locate where you are, and your highest timeline manifestation. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Subtle Energy for Beginners Series ~ Day Three ~ Spirit And Matter Are One

By Raphael Awen

Are you starting to see how we’ve made energy experiences into something they are not; how we’ve elevated them to some false definition, a false separation of ourselves from the world of energy that then excludes us from seeing and feeling ourselves as energy? We created our own reality where we only experience the third dimension and mainstream reality perception as real.

(Go here to find all the posts in this series: https://goo.gl/WqWXXb)

My more literal conditioned mind doesn’t quite grok the ‘fish in denial of water’ analogy. I don’t deny the air around me. It’s right here. I can feel it in my lungs and in the breeze. However, when I ‘feel’ air on a far more subtle and energetic level, I feel how this vital source of energy is energizing every cell in my body, every moment of every day – most of which, I don’t usually give a second thought. I ‘take it for granted.’ I minimize it, or I’d be walking around awestruck and quite dysfunctional to any task at hand.

This points to the whole challenge of ‘reverence’ vs. ‘taking for granted’ and this challenge is at root of our ability to embrace the reality of ourselves as energy. Taking something for granted is just that, owning it as yours by right of having been granted it, rather than receiving it with gratitude. One is entitled and shut down. The other is reverential and in awe and wonder.

We have nothing that didn’t come to us by way of a gift. It wasn’t ours to begin with, so it is reverence and gratitude that acknowledges and possesses the ability to truly receive and enjoy the gift. I enter or exit the world of energy by my willingness to enter the world of gratitude and reverence. Gratitude and reverence are the keys to the portal of the world of subtle energy.

This again so puts willingness above ability as the portal to experiencing energy. We’ve made it about some kind of exotic ability as part of our resistance to change, choosing to perceive some people as unusually gifted, and ourselves, not so much.

There are credible reasons about what would incline us to exclude ourselves from the world of energy in this way, as well as to segregate ourselves into a perception of our materialistic expression being different from our spiritual expression.

We are on a deep soul level, from our original birth as souls, predisposed to an understandable ingratitude and irreverence and that has to do with a soul-birth-trauma reticence of not wanting to re-experience the pain of deep change and loss with another shape-shift into seemingly entire new worlds of being. We’re like the screaming child not wanting to leave its parent’s side to enter school or to be left in the church nursery.

Gratitude and reverence are keys that unlock more change and we’re far from sure that’s any good thing. Parts of us hold a reticence to expand while other parts of us ache to grow.

Our birth as souls out from the Divine was a huge alteration of the reality (energy) that we once were into a new one, and this required a forgetting and a veil for it to be true enough for us to receive the benefits we intended. This is the same veil we wrestle with when we try to come to terms with our reality as energy. It is a homesickness so deep in our souls that we are not ready to feel for fear that to feel it would surely cease our existence in our more familiar domain. We are caught between these two worlds, one known subconsciously in our essence, the other known experientially in physical form. We want to remember and we don’t. Both are true, and both need to be felt and honored if we are to make any real entrance into the deeper world of the subtle energy that we are.

We perceive energy as malleable and shifting, whereas the physical we perceive as solid and unchanging. So we desire to deny any other reality as an alien one, to protect the domain we have now. We know all too well, on a soul level, the pain of the deep loss of our original estate. We say we’ll believe in energy when we ‘see’ it, denying the deeper sense of vision we all innately possess as the energy beings we are. Even stranger, we say we’ll believe in energy when we see it, denying that physical sight IS energy!

If you are willing to admit that you are energy, then every experience you are having is an experience of energy and its flow or current. This sets you on the edge of new and infinite frontiers of experience. This also makes you your own authority on what’s real and what isn’t.

It’s your world and you are making it all up as you go. Accepting this, you can begin to really love the parts of you both hungry and hesitant to enter this new and unknown definition of being. You embrace and feel each part of you and the energy they hold and you introduce them to the energy of one another and the energy of your awakening heart to all that is.

Now you are forming your very own anti-gravity device that isn’t bound by time and space constraints like the world we’ve created here in the third dimension. You are opening yourself to all that is.

You are a true beginner, beginning new worlds that are way ahead of everything else! Welcome to your real world where spirit and matter have no dividing line. Spirit and matter are one. When you accept this as what is, you deconstruct a huge wall that was previously constructed between you and the world of subtle energy. Your natural capacities for clairvoyance, clairaudience, and clairsentience arise like an infant learning to walk adapting to the physical world, first toddling, then walking, then running.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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FREE PDF of Jelelle Awen’s book, Under The Bloated Banyan, available today!

Jelelle is sharing today as a FREE GIFT PDF her spiritual memoir called Under The Bloated Banyan: My Journey From Awakening To Disillusionment Within a High-Demand Spiritual Group.

“Banyan covers a six year span of time starting in December 2003 where I began my awakening journey through parts work process in earnest. It also shares my courtship and dating and eventual marriage with Raphael after we both left the group together in 2008. None of my soul family friends and teacher would talk with me after this time and I also gave up my livelihood as a facilitator of the work. This was such a bittersweet time. Falling in love while it felt like so much of my life and who I felt that I was connected to the group falling apart. I learned so much during and after this time about myself, parts of me, my Metasoul legacy, and what kind of leader/teacher/healer I wanted to be and NOT be.

The content in Banyan (I first published it for a couple of years in 2013) was once controversial and very vulnerable for parts of me to share this story as many people still in the group (and once my beloved soul family) judged and criticized me for sharing it. Now, the group has been dissolved for a few years, so there is less charged sense about sharing it again. This phase of my journey now feels like a movie, something that happened to someone else in some ways, an alternative timeline. I can feel the parts of me that have since healed from being so self conscious, anxious, drawn to dysfunctional and even abusive relationships. Yet, still, it lives in my heart as very real and, of course, my sacred union connection ground with Raphael began in these soils.

It feels timely to share this story too as the collective moves from spiritual/religious codependency models such as the guru-devotee to the sovereign “I” experiencing Unity Consciousness within a community with healthy leadership. I think you will find this story interesting if you have been curious about what it is like to be in an intense high-demand group and esp. If you have drawn this experience yourself this life or just are curious to feel and know more about my personal journey. Plus, ultimately, this is an inspiring story about love and how it prevails and is often revealed during the most dark and difficult circumstances!”

You can purchase this book in e-book and print editions too, as well as her other three books here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

You can read an excerpt here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/under-the-bloated-ban…

 

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.