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From Scared to Sacred: Initiation of the Sacred Masculine

Published on by Raphael Awen4 Comments

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If there was ever a time that we needed a new template for the sacred masculine, that time is now. But where could that come from and what would that look like?

The masculine is always and forever the Sacred Masculine. Masculinity itself is out learning its way into knowing and feeling its essence; an attribute of divinity, out divining its way, through you and I.

Masculinity, like femininity is a polarity of a duality dance, but when either polarity loses its polarity, it loses its attractive energy, its power, its appeal. It is neutralized, neutered, emasculated. It moved from the sacred to the scared. Afraid. Limp. Milquetoast.

That’s where we are now….at the edge of scared trying to see a path that will take us back to Sacred.

I don’t think we need a return to some refurbished tribal hazing ritual over a sleep deprived weekend in a large auditorium gathering of men, with men dressed in fatigues yelling at you like a military sergeant. It’s quite pathetic what we came up with to address this deep hunger for a masculine template. Nature abhors a vacuum, so something will always show up as a filler until something more is ready to lead.

So where’s the arena then? Where’s the training gymnasium? Where do we go to get what we never got, or lost along the way?

True masculine energy is a sovereign energy. It is a king leading his personal kingdom. True king power originates from the heart, and if this heart is anything, it is autonomous. It does what it wants to, when it wants to, and it lives with the results, be they healthy or unhealthy. The queen is no less sovereign, no less individual, offering her portal to the Kings quest for no other reason than she wants to…IF, she wants to. Duty and obligation in this domain of heart, have long given way to desire and choice.

You are already doing this, you just can’t see it. Your life as you know it right now is the perfect gymnasium asking you to show up. So many things await your awakening? So many choices await your decree. The ground of this erection of the true King energy is none other than your life, arising from the sacral chakra…Your life as you know it right now is the true arena, the only training gymnasium…awaiting both your heart-on and your hard-on…your choice, your action, your lead, your pursuit of what YOU actually want!

And you as a man are inextricably linked to all men. Each man is a fractal of every other doing and riding life in the same gender expression vehicle. Your inhabitation of your own sacred masculinity is your greatest gift to all men…and it’s automatic. The ground you gain becomes your gift to all.

You don’t need another man to give this to you, because no man can actually give this to you, but you may find, like I have, that I need an arena of life, with other men to lead this in myself.

If these words juice you and call to you, I’d like to invite you to be a part the virtual group call for men that I am leading with Gabriel Heartman this coming Saturday.

Message me and I’ll give you the details…gotta run, I have a life to lead…. 🙂 and a queen to pursue…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

A Heart-On For Sacred Romance

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Okay. So that was a little provocative.  That´s alright.  It was meant to be.  I feel like there is something in the masculine that wants to push some boundaries.  Get a little rise…sort of speak.  So some inner teenager gets to come out and play a little bit.  That is all part of the fun of self-discovery and exploration.  On the road to the Men´s group call on Saturday I felt compelled to feel into some writing about the masculine and was guided to just write about what is in my space as a man in the moment.  

It is a time of stoking the fire of romance.  Feeling what that really means as a man.  So much is written from a female’s perspective about romance and the desire to be in deep union.  For me, it is a new way of wanting to relate to relationship and union.  In my past I can feel how there were many unfelt and unhealed energies in my emotional body that made it difficult for me to be vulnerable.  To get into the messy of what was real.  Just wanting to be in a comfort place even if it really wasn´t comfortable.  Those days are no longer as I have been on a healing path for over 5 years now and feel way more Me here than I ever have.  A self-love that is wanting to overflow to another.

I feel that deep down all men want this too.  As vibrations are raising and Love showering down on us every moment, we can´t help but to feel this draw and desire.  To leave the old conditioning and patterns behind.  There is a need in the core of our soul to want to grow and expand.  It can happen at great depth on one´s own, but there is nothing like romance to turn on the afterburners and propel us into the reflection of some of our hidden places.  Now, don´t get me wrong.  I feel resistance from a part of me around that, but it is met with more desire to be vulnerable to that and let it work itself out in relationship.  Scars and all.  

There is an experience of life and ourselves as men that we just cannot have unless we are in a romance.  I really believe there is a phase we all find ourselves in when we have been hurt and just need the solo time.  But I don´t feel we were meant to be that way for long, unless the soul signed up for it.  I still feel in our human heart we want to feel transactable love with each other on a ground that is ever expanding and never stagnant.  The resistance to it comes from a protective part of us that has a very good reason for feeling the way it does.

Romantic love turns your world upside down. We just know that on some level and that is scary.  I have been beautifully upended twice in my life that found me making changes and feeling things a part of me never thought I would.  In the words of Kalayna Colibri, it ¨rearranges your furniture¨…and then moves your house to a different country altogether.  Your inner house gets lit up and some of the things you didn´t know were there or were hiding become highlighted.

In SoulFullHeart we see ourselves working our vertical self, the me to me, first.  Then there is the transactable horizontal ground between a man and a woman that we call the Usness.  This is the juicy place of all sorts of magic, emotionally, spiritually, and sexually.  This is the Merkabah that is created between two hearts and souls that can traverse galaxies and back again.  The kind of after-glow that can leave you in a fuzz for days.

I long for this kind of relationship.  I know that it is not all honeymoon but a concerted desire to be with all that comes up personally and in response to another.  It is an alchemical ground that offers so much in way of a true aliveness of being.  I feel there are other men that long for the same and the road there is through your own heart.  Though this was written from a single man´s perspective I feel those that are in current relationships can feel this in their own dynamic with their beloveds. What is it that we truly desire in our hearts and in romance with another?  

To my Queen, wherever you may find yourself, this was dedicated to you.   

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

That Scrambled Self-Image

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Painting: “Orchids” by Jens Hesse

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The battle seeds of “that, not THIS”

are planted deep and early.

They live, embedded, unbroken

for so so long,

watered by the choices they fuel.

These choices WE make

can bring them out to the sun

to be seen, felt and brought to light.

Victims to their siren call, we are NOT

as we continue to choose to listen

instead of feel…

 

Who and what we are told to be,

those who tell us are telling themselves,

and we in turn keep telling OURselves.

We poke, pull, prod

at those aspects we painfully, straining

excessively work to change,

not letting in the beauty

we are and were ALWAYS

intended to be a part of.

 

This woven fabric of our lives

becomes a threadbare tapestry

of power-filled lies

we tell ourselves in each moment

we don’t feel ourselves deeper…

The mirror of life

shows us where to go inside

invites us to be with others

to see a reflection

for what to heal next…

to find our deeper self

who knows

just kNOWs…

who we really are,

what we are really worth,

and that no one

EVER

has had ANY real say

in what that ACTUALLY means…

 

There is so much,

too much

pain.

From us to us,

NOT just them to us…

There is a lot

buried deep

we are digging up now…

bringing forward now,

being felt in now…

if we can take that next step.

Ask for support.

Say YES to love,

starting with OURSELVES

and those seeds we’ve grown inside us

that need that love

to remember

that this is what they were made of in the first place.

 

Let that light of your inside heart-shine

glow in your deepest feeling place desires.

Those ones that don’t beckon

to your image-based ticks and jabs

but instead

show you who

what

you really, mostly deeply

ARE…

 

❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

The Ascending Man: What Is 5D Masculinity?

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

 

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We are learning so much about what we as human beings are capable of in regards to our potential and expression.  How we have so many gifts that lie dormant in our DNA and arising light bodies.  A power of creation that seems mythical in proportions to our current limited consciousness.  There is a general human frame that surrounds it and that is all true.  I have also been very interested in how this plays out in our gender expressions.  Do we just become less polarized this way and become more androgynous?  I certainly feel this when it comes to our Star Being brethren.  But does that mean we lose our humanness the way we know it now?  I suppose, like all things in this unknown and unknowable time, it all depends on where we come from and where we want to go.  

I feel we are being offered a Golden Age of Humanity.  One in which we live both in unity consciousness and individuality.  An individuation that is the Me within the We.  Being connected to Source and having an awareness of our integrated fractal expressions.  A higher vibratory dualistic experience.  So in that picture I see a New Woman and a New Man.  Or just remembering what it is we always were and even ARE currently.  I feel this Golden Earth that we are desiring to be a part of and co-create together, is lead by the return and rebalance of more feminine and yin energies.  This has been talked about for a long time and we see its need even more with the state of current affairs.  The more wounded masculine psychic overlay is seeing its consequence and demise.  Current disclosure revelations are showcasing the depths of this condition and awakenings are increasing.  

Men are scattered just as much as women among the dimensional consciousness spectrum but women are closer to the frequency of 5D, at least in my opinion and experience.  The awakening is happening mentally for most men and then as the vibration continues to raise on Gaia we are being invited to go more into our hearts, as that is what the core of 5D is. To live in the fullness of authentic BEingness.  There are no more 3D wound-based blocks that cap or prevent our access to our more crystalline nature.  So when we as men begin to heal the Heart what does that look and feel like?

Clearly we are honest with our emotions. We are vulnerable.  When a feeling arises we express it with clarity, certainty, and openness to perspective and counter emotion.  We are not afraid to get into the fray to burn away what is old and arise what is truly authentic.  We invite the shadow reflection as a gift to deeper understanding and healing.  There is a reverence for ourselves in the path of this integration.  There is no longer self-doubt and self-judgment.  We see ourselves as true Kings and proport ourselves as such.

The 5D masculine has met, wooed, and integrated his inner feminine.  This creates a self-contained and balanced male BEing.  The love and acceptance of the inner feminine reflects the reverence of the outer.  The healing of the mom wound feels vitally important as it holds the energy of our relationship to the feminine and our subsequent sense of power and sexuality. There is the need for union with Woman as an alchemical and powerful dynamic of intensely epic proportions.  This mating and integration of this inner feminine aspect brings us a more heart-open, softer, and less linear way of expression.  There is less DOing and more BEing.  Being with what arises in our desire and creative abundance.  We clearly respect Gaia in all Her splendor and weep at the sight of Her stunning beauty.  We are more connected to Her creatures and the guides and totems that they represent.  Meat eating becomes a thing of the past that no longer has a place on our plate…our diet just changes with the integration of this new consciousness.

One of the biggest pieces to me is the shift from competition to cooperation as we become more aware of our connection to All That Is.  We are One of the same so competing serves less purpose.  I can feel a healthy form of competition possibly but my jury is still out on that one. As men begin to heal their father wounds the more we begin to open our hearts to each other in beautiful male bonding that is alive with wonder, exploration, and leadership.  A cauldron of possibilities are shared and MANifested.  

No longer will men feel responsible to achieve, but rather responsive to the call of building galactic bridges and to co-creating with their feminine counterparts in sacred union.  The weight of the world and the need to control and provide are felt through and healed with love so that we can access our more authentic power that is in alignment with Source and Reverence.  The chains of our own captivity are melted away with the tears of remembering what we have always been and why we chose the density of 3D.  

This healing will open up our Galactic chakras and become more in tune with the energies of the universe.  Many men are being awoken today only to be left with the question of what it all means and what to do with it.  The grounding into Gaia and the heart feels like it will help with this feeling of uncertainty.  This connection between our humanity and our universality is what creates a powerful new conscious cosmic experience.  The heart opens up and grounds in.  The service to others becomes 5D man´s new frontier.  

I feel such a plethora of possibilities.  Our expanded heart consciousness will open new doors of  relationality among ourselves and our galactic connections.  The relationship to Gaia will be in alignment with Her consciousness and Love.  Living and breathing with and alongside her.  Setting off into unknown realms to encounter new and exciting territory with the desire to learn and spread more love.  Implementing and encountering new technologies and wisdoms.  It is a great time to be alive.  

But there is work to do on ourselves.  Some more or less than others, but needed healing just the same.  We are all in this together.  All looking for those who are resonant and can provide support, reflection, and love.  The old male collective is feeling the press of this continued flow of energy that is coming at us in Love each moment.  Following Yin is to respond to the pings that are going off inside and to meet them with a gentle curiosity that brings them out into the light.  No need to excavate or drill in the old way.  Feeling each of our desires and fears are what leads us the next choice point of healing and ascending above the what used to keep us down.  I look forward to this New 5D Man within me and within you to see what amazing experiences we can have together and with our counterpart 5D Woman.   Now THERE is something to show up for!  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

In Service Of The Vulnerable Man

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Vulnerability is the portal to our heart`s longing and truest self.  Our most prized gift.  In our `time` here in this dimension many aspects of our soul have been through many painful experiences, as well as the conscious experiences we have had in this life.  It is not a fault for us to have a shield and need to suppress something that feels scary.  All this happens many times on a subconscious and unconscious level.  We created a protection because we know how valuable we are.  How amazing we are.  It was authorized by our Higher Self.  But then the time comes when Love begins to make its way to our doorstep in whatever fashion that may be.  Through pain, challenge, pleasure, or resistance.  We begin to feel the dissonance inside us viscerally and the only really true relief is through letting your Truth be exposed.  

I had deep tears today as I am feeling Love wanting to enter my field and upend all that a part of me has been clinging onto to resist the power of its immense Blessing.  I could feel in one moment all the ways in which I, and my soul aspects, have built walls to keep me from risking and letting spirit lead me to this sacred union.  I don`t judge this.  I used to.  Today was a deluge that comes from letting that authentic feeling of remorse that comes and showers you with all the love you can possibly let in.  It is a mixture of pleasure and pain.  

There is a reason for the invulnerability and a consequence.  The longer we suppress what truly scares us the harder it can be to feel.  However, I have come to believe it happens when it is supposed to happen.  To this part of us, there is no good time to feel our vulnerability and fear.  I have been through many phases of this facing hard truths and feeling fears.  It is a spiral that continues to send us all the healing we need as we need it.  One layer of healing brings us to another layer of shadow until we are becoming more and more in tune with our most authentic self.  It is a sacred process that cannot be ignored in my heart.

I feel this area of vulnerability is a huge part of the collective male experience.  Different men have different levels and comfortability with vulnerability.  There are numerous reasons for it, but ultimately we fear our own power and the unworthiness that covers over it. This is the Age of the Vulnerable Man.  It is time for us to heal our biggest pains so we can enter this Golden Earth that is NOW.  I feel a veil lifted off of me from my tears, but I am not `done`.  I have more to continue to feel as Love continues its dance with me.  I am okay with this.  I honor this. I feel its sacred balm and alchemical manifestations.  Or WOMANifestations when it comes to drawing romance.

So in the end, I could feel the Divine telling me that ascension is not really all about what you know, but it is about what you feel.  It is simply about letting in Love in its most purest and unfettered glory.  Simply stated not so simply surrendered to.  Being vulnerable with ourselves and with each other is the only way to get to the heart of what we were truly meant to be.  To have someone you can trust to hold that space for it is one the most intimate experiences you can have outside of romance.  With each touchstone movement, a new wave of self-love comes in and expands my heart to serve those who are in a space of needing healing.  It is what I am here to BE and serve.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

When You Finally Are Tired

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Sometimes
you reach that end of a tether,
and realize,
it’s time to actually, finally
let go…
A tiredness takes over
from deep inside you.
An exhaustion creeping up
through every cell of your being,
calling out loudly,
that it is ready to collapse,
let itself breathe.
Let itself feel.
Let you feel it for what it really is…
For all the pawing and grasping
at what worked before
to keep it buried
beneath layers of trying and trials,
often self-made and maintained…
It begins to ask for you,
something bigger than it,
to help it,
this old you,
to finally rest.
Sometimes
it takes another long spin
on that favourite merry-go-round
of old beingness
to realize,
you’re finally ready
to emerge from that long,
long
long birth canal,
and see the light
of the new day awaiting you…

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

I See You, My King

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by Kalayna Colibri

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I see the way your words dance off the page you’ve composed,
In lockstep with the processes of your mind
And your lion’s heart.

I see the King you are becoming and ascending to,
As your crown shows the ages, challenges
And dimensions
You’ve faced and walked through,
To feel all you need and desire
That helps you find your worth,
Your human man
And your powerful Emperor
Of galaxies I’ve yet to remember.

I feel the space you hold with me
As you stare into my eyes’ constellations
And penetrate my heart with yours.

I feel your energy press into my space
Of heart and mind, body and soul
And though you aren’t here,
And I may not have met you yet,
I see and feel all of this
As if I have already known you for a lifetime.

I feel the ways you see me too.

I feel you taking in my words,
My poetry,
My writings of healing,
Letting them move through your being
And move us both to our next places.

I feel you seeing me
As more than a body.
As something somehow beyond a woman
And yet fully a woman in every sense.

I feel you taking me in…

Letting me in…

Staring at me from across the crowded space,
Filling and feeling me with your gaze,
Caressing my back with your blazing hot touch,
Kissing me with a breathtaking steamy-soft wanting,
And pulling me into you as if parting would be
The last, most unthinkable desire for either of us.

Love,
When I meet you,
We will have already met…
Like this.
Already having felt the energy of what passes between us
With no effort or strategy,
Just personal love, self-love, growing cosmic and Divine love
And holding the sacredness of each of our selves,
Souls and hearts.

The reverence will be unmatched,
The love will be transmuting,
The hotness between us will be indescribable,
And the crucible of changes, growth and healing,
That stand for our deepening bond,
Will undoubtedly bring us both
To the next place of newly arising love
For ourselves,
And quite possibly,
Over and over again,
For each other…

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Collapse and Disclosure As A Reflection of Our Inner World

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Disclosure is a hot topic in the 5D universe and beyond.  I have not delved as deeply as my SoulFullHeart friend and mentor, Raphael Awen, but I have taken in a bit and have wanted to feel it from a more contextual level.  It is easy for the masculine/linear side of us to go into the deep details as there is some incredibly fascinating information being unearthed.  So much has been hidden from us in regard to our contact with star beings, repression of technologies, and the influence of darker forces that have been at the helm up until now.  

In 4D consciousness there is a deep anger and resentment at all that has occurred.  Many people have been in the Disclosure game for a long time.  They are the messengers that have worked tirelessly to get this information out there.  There is a lot to react to.  For me it began with the story of Collapse.  The one that picked up speed after the 2008 financial crisis.  So much was happening before then but that feels like a pivot point.  There are other stories before then as well but that could be for a later discussion.  The time of Collapse in hindsight feels as though there was a collective internal collapse happening.  The structures that we were trying to hold up inside were no longer finding any solid ground to support it.  The thread of our collective tapestry was unraveling and the world was not behaving the same anymore.  There was a big outbreath of WTF?.  

More people began to wake to the reality that there was a charade going on.  But since as above, is below there must also have been a truth in that for each of us individually.  It feels reflective of a false world inside of us that was created in response to the false one on the outside.  We all created together because we just didn`t consciously know better.  But somewhere deeper we did.  We cannot play victim to it as then it takes away the power that is inherent us all.  We created it and we had to collapse it.  We couldn`t bare it anymore.  

Individually, this represents a time when we come to an awakening inside our emotional body.  The mental body just loses its grip.  For the wounded masculine, this is a very difficult process.  It has been so used to suppressing its emotions for the fear of feeling it.  I get that this is a general statement and not meant to cover individuals.  The power structure outside did its very best to hold up the house of cards, and so has the wounded masculine.  But this is was a great event!   It has helped to wake up even more men, and women, to the nature of our circumstance.  The realization that there is something happening inside us that was put to sleep in the control matrix.  

Now we are in the throws of the Era of Disclosure.  Another awakening into the deeper machinations of what has been going on behind the veil of deception.  But I feel it important to emphasize we have co-created it in order to learn from it.  This keeps us empowered.  We are not only hearing of a trove of information about technologies and alliances, we are learning more about the nature of our Reality.  Forget about economic collapse.  This stuff changes everything!  If we look at this time as a spiritual Disclosure, we can see that we are being shown how amazing we ARE and that we are a part of a vast experience that expands the territories of our limited consciousness.  It is more than social justice, it is social evolution on a galactic level!  So with each piece of information that is being shared, it is like a ray of light that is entering our BEing to upgrade our current operating system.  This new `information` sends up old emotional congestions that need healing for integration that opens up more space for more light and love to enter our true sacred, crystalline bodies.  

But it is not an easy process.  A  lot of this energy may not be ours personally and it can feel like we are moving mountains.  As men, we have tended to be a bit less connected to our emotions, so this back up can be a difficult one for some.  I feel it at times myself.  I have done a lot of work to clear my block and open my heart as much as I can but there are still things that come up and may still but it is all about how vulnerable we can be in each moment so we can heal all the block inside.  This is what we do daily in the SoulFullHeart community.  I don`t mean we are suffering. I mean we are feeling ourselves and what may come up for ourselves that need attention and process if needed.  There are many ways that we administer this healing to ourselves and with each other.

So for many men, Disclosure is first a mental digestion, then an emotional and spiritual one. This is the 4D Man.  The man who feels that there is inner work to be done, to embody more of his 5D or Cosmic Sacred Masculine.  As one who is on this daily path of continued healing, awakening, and embodying, I offer my heart and experience to those that are feeling that rumble inside.  That palpable discomfort and excitement  from disclosure.  The veil continues to lift each day and we will find ourselves in new territory as human men, and of course women.  More will start to surface and if you need help navigating that I would be honored to serve that.  Thank you for all the work you are doing now during these times as it helps us all to heal faster and easier.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

Reuniting With Mother Gaia: A Guided Meditation For Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls

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by Leena Colibri

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You can listen to the meditation here

This meditation is an offering from my heart and imagination to yours, to help it awaken further and in ways it may not have just yet. By the same token, it is intended to help you connect your heart and soul with Mother Gaia, the embodiment of the consciousness of our planet Earth and a sacred feminine guide for all of us who wish to connect more deeply with Her. You may feel a range of emotions throughout this offering, and I encourage you to make space for all of them as they bubble up inside you. In my experience of Mother Gaia, she is a loving space holder for any and all of what we are feeling, and she welcomes it all to surface within us as needed for our healing and thus, Hers too.

If you have access to some white sage or copal that you can light to clear your space before going in, I highly recommend that you do so, as this helps to clear out energies that may be less supportive of this inner journey you are about to embark on. I also recommend that you light some insence and/or a candle. Anything with an earthy scent may help you connect with Her more deeply. Surrounding yourself with and/or holding sacred stones or crystals that you feel resonant with at this moment, will help you ground into Her energy and also help you connect with your chakras as you move through this meditation.

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Make sure you are seated in a comfortable position with back support, or, that you are lying down in shavasana or flat on your back.

Close your sweet eyes…those eyes that have observed the world around you since the moment you were born, taking in the faces, energies, colours, and textures of all those around you. These observations are what have helped you learn all you have to this very day, and they, and your eyes, are to be honoured now. As your gaze turns inward toward the movie playing in your imagination, you may begin to remember that this inner reality is the one where it all began. In order to start walking, you had to first see yourself start walking, from this very place… to utter your first words, you had to see yourself saying them and imagine their impact…. imagine the joy on your mother or father or other caregiver’s face as your tongue and teeth and mouth shape move in tandem to create even one little sound. You may have been late to start speaking. Do you remember why that was? So much of communication is in thought form and energy, not in words as they have all taught you from an early age. No one is at fault here… it is only a conditioning and you are a unique and brave soul to have chosen to experience and adapt to it as best as you could have.

As you enter this imagination place, you begin to see an open meadow before you, surrounded by giant trees, covered in green and perhaps some flowers, grass, butterflies, anything at all… this is your landscape. This is your world you are visiting and remembering… you see off in the distance somewhere, a shadowy figure in the shape of an animal coming towards you. It could be big or small, domestic or wild. It could even be a tiny insect or a large arachnid, there are no limits here in this place of YOU! There may even be more than one…

As your animal slowly approaches you, and you calmly wait for it to arrive, you feel and might even see the big, pink heart chord that joins you two through your heart chakras. There may be a connection to other chakras as well, some upper or lower, cosmic or in the body. Your heart fills with reverence and wonder at this reunion and you may even feel tears when reuniting with this long-standing companion, as the memory washes over you that this animal guide or totem, has been with you for a very, very long time. If you don’t feel this at first, it’s okay. Just observe how you do feel, and let it be what’s real. This totem has been with you for so long and holds so much compassion and love for you, that it understands completely where you are at and regardless it is here to help you, as you have opened your heart to it today.

Your guide gestures and tells you telepathically that it is here to help you on your journey to meet Mother Gaia. It invites you to follow or, if possible, climb on its back and ride it! Immediately you begin to feel the swirl of momentum and a rumble around you as your animal guide takes off on this journey with you. Whether flying through the air on the back of a pegasus or running through the tall grass on the back of a cheetah, you feel the wind whispering to you of love and adventures to come, supporting your journey onward and inward, maybe even offering a boost of momentum and a reminder that all natural elements are here to offer you many gifts on your journey through life on this beautiful planet! You feel the sun beaming down on you like a proud father, illuminating all of the sparkling beauty of YOU, infusing you with its light rays and warming you from the outside-in. Observe what you feel when you are in this atmosphere as much as you can, for it could be moving rather quickly! Perhaps there are many things going on around you at the same time and many different creatures or pictures or objects you can see in the air or the grass or the clouds around you. They are all a part of YOU and are symbols for you to pick back up again later if you need and desire to do so.

As you arrive at your destination, you see Mother Gaia’s grove. Her ponds and clear water springs glisten and sparkle in the sunlight, with shining tiny rainbows arching over them. Lily pads laugh as tiny frogs leap from one to another. All creatures that you may see here are in bliss and happiness. You may even notice some rather tall and wide trees that feel like royalty to you in their regalness and aged wisdom. You may also see some animal species that you were told had gone extinct… for nothing can ever really die. Whatever you see here, let it in, as it is all a part of Her and also a part of YOU, undyingly, unceasingly, unendingly…

In a small clearing with giant trees covered in moss surrounding it, you see a comfortable place for sitting. The grass here seems to have formed into a meadowy couch made of soft peat moss and smiling yellow dandelions. Fireflies dance around this area, lighting it up like tiny, soft candles with the sweet glow of their flitting bodies. All seems to welcome you and your animal friend here with great warmth and love. You feel the trees inviting you to come in and sit on the mossy natural sofa. As you do so, you feel the exquisite love of the earth itself holding and warming you, reminding you that it loves you as much as you love it.

After you sit for a minute or so, you glance another pathway, separate from the one you took to get to this seat. It is a pathway of golden sand and soil that feels rich in life and lined with dancing wildflowers, the brightest and most lovely you’ve ever seen in this life! You notice the figure of a tall woman with what looks like a tall and wide headress of flowers, moss and twigs walking towards you, her heart chakra beaming so brightly at you, that you feel instantly held by a feminine power and love you are remembering you were once held by before you were born into this life you now lead. As she walks towards you, her strides are elegant and broad, yet she is in no hurry, and in some moments, she seems to almost be standing still as the ground beneath her carries her towards you, effortlessly, as if she weighs the same as a feather, though she is actually quite tall and wears robes that seem as if they would be quite heavy to bear!

She arrives at your grassy sofa, and in this canopy of trees, she feels like she is one of them as she wraps you in a slow, deep embrace. This may feel like hugging and being hugged by a tree.

She whsipers to you in a soft, yet powerful voice that seems to penetrate and soothe you on many levels of your being, “I’m glad to see you and feel you here with me, in my domain that is also YOUR domain, sweet creation… I am Mother Gaia, as some call me. I am both renewed and ancient in every moment, and I and you have a special task or two to do together, if you wish to receive a reminder of it…”

She sits down with you on the sofa and clasps your hands in hers. She beams with so much love that it is hard to even imagine looking away or wanting to fall out of her warm gaze. It is the love you feel when taking in the warm spring sun after a cold, cold winter. It is the love you feel when you lay in the grass after the snow has long melted away. It is the love you feel from your beloved pet or when you are observing any animal in its natural habitat. You realize that this love has always been connected to you for you, but also for it and for HER… and that this is the love that you too are made of… and made to express.

You may wish to leave yourself some room here to let in this reunion in all of its textures and what it may push up for you. You may feel tears of joy and reunion. You may feel fear, hurt or anger. All of it is valid and She wants you to make space for it, as this is your roadmap into more of YOU, and without YOU, your deepest collaboration with Her may not be realized… there is nothing “wrong” or “bad” here or ever… and anything you may wish to feel with Mother Gaia is all valid and she offers you much space to feel it through in Her presence, as a loving mother of All.

“Sweet creation,” She says softly, “I am pleased at this reunion. I am pleased to feel your most open heart at his very moment and in more moments to come. I am here within you, within me, within All. Whenever you desire to come back to this place, or any place you desire to meet with me directly again, I will be with you, to walk with you, to help you see the true wonder and beauty of this planet and of YOU… and to help you remember all you are ready to remember.”

You may begin the remembering process now, if these infusion from Mother Gaia begins to invoke them in you, yet, there is no rush or hurry. To even be in this place of reunion and sharing love with Her, you are taking a step inward that will carry you onward and upward as you continue your process of ascension with Mother Gaia. You may wish to stay and explore this place with her a bit longer, or, you may feel as if this meeting has you filled up for now and perhaps you will choose to return another day. Either way, you have now been imprinted by her magical heart and embrace, and are connected with Her in a way that you may only now be remembering was ever possible for you.

As you say goodbye to Mother Gaia, she extends her hand outward, and a small, porcelain-white dove lands on it. It is carrying a small piece of rolled-up parchment in its beak. She nods in your direction, and you understand that you are to extend your own hand outward for the dove to step onto. As you do this, you feel the tiny, lit-up heart chakra of this dove beaming at you with a sweet knowingness of who you are in your essence. It too remembers you! Looking up at you and blinking its sweet little eyes, you take the small piece of parchment from its beak. The bird jumps up to your shoulder and snuggles in against your cheek, to read the message along with you. You may only see one word or you may see several. But whatever message is there, you make a note to remember it, feeling that is from Mother Gaia and also from your Higher Self, who is also on this path of remembering and awakening along with you, always sending you notes, signs and messages to help you feel him/her more closely once again.

Your animal guide, still at your side, begins to lead you out of Mother Gaia’s grove and garden. He/She takes you back to your meadow, where you say goodbye, and yet, feel like goodbyes don’t really exist anymore and that you may start feeling this animal guide, and possibly other animal guides as well, with you from time to time from now on. With a great big heart beam of “Thank you!” you begin to come back into your body, landing back into yourself at whatever pace you choose. More adventures await you in the future if you choose them and all the love in the world will be there to support you in any way you choose and allow it to…

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Life Speaks To Us Of Love

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By Jelelle Awen

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Life speaks to us of love, over and over, as we become more receptive to listen, our hearts more open to receive, and our souls more embodied to remember.

This language of love is a Universal signal, broadcast by our Beloved home Gaia, amplified by the hearts and soul of every awakening being in their expression of essence. To listen, to tune in to this signal begins from Within, from INSIDE, to adjust our inside experience to experience something different on the outside.

More and more souls are hearing the language of love, responding to the signals, being awoken by the higher frequency broadcasts. Becoming in resonance with these love frequencies pushes up ALL that needs responding to from inside, ALL the places and aspects that need love and care and healing. Not all at once does this occur, as it is offered at a rate and pace that you bear as directed by your higher self and Ethereal and star being aspects.

Yet, up it comes…..the oil pushed up by the water. This oil that was hidden or stuck can gush through at times in your 3D pain body and 4D awakening self can cause disruptions of sleeping cycles, eating patterns, physical illness. And especially emotional churning, as that which has been stuck in your emotional body loosens and flows. Many people are expressing this as their reality right now…intense emotions coming up that feel ‘old’ or from previous experiences that they thought they had healed beyond. Yet, the quality of the love water coming now from the Universe, the higher frequency of it, pushes up another layer of emotional oil to be felt and healed.

Life speaks to us of love…even in the oil and especially in the emotional reactions that are offering such a visceral sense of what needs your attention. Your pains, your difficulties, your feelings that aspects of you have about being lost or being disconnected or wanting to just ‘give up and go home’…these are pushed up to receive the water of your love (first and foremost) and then receiving love with others in the forms of soul mates, soul friends, teachers and space holders, Ethereal beings and guides. MORE water of love to respond to the oil, over and over until the oil is washed out and the flow of life can move through your healing heart and soul.

SO much love to you during this experience of transitional and transformational times…please do reach out if you feel there is a service with love that we in SoulFullHeart could offer through our path of responding to the oil while offering washes of love…..as well as if you have a desire for a community experience to become part of….

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.