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The FULL SHINING Of Your Inner Solstice

Published on June 21, 2017August 2, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Your inner Solstice, your inner sun ascending, yet standing still in a brief moment. You are beaming out in many more moments of LOVE flow from your shining soul, your luminous heart, your illuminating mind, and your glowing body.

Your inner Solstice offers you a picture and taste of your FULL SHINING where you are drawing more souls, more possibilities, more livelihood, more abundance on all levels, more intimacy, more LOVE. ALL of this then is coming without effort, drawn to the warmth that comes from inner tenderness, inner holding, inner care. ALL of this coming from the outside to reflect your sense of enlovened self INSIDE that connects with ALL aspects that are within you. ALL of this coming without struggle as you feel and heal the inner struggles, inner judgements, inner resistance, and inner push-pull.

Your inner Solstice invites you to feel and see what your FULL SHINING self and life is like as it is not a ‘future’ timeline, yet happening in the NOW. You can BE there and here too. More and more, both are true in the same moment. One is not lacking or higher from the other, as BOTH are equally sacred. All that you are choosing in this moment or not choosing is creating and impacting the other timeline.

Connecting with the Great Cosmic Sun that beams from the heart of Divine Source, you can feel more of this multidimensional possibility, multiple timeline experiences in one Now. Opening and activating and BEing with your upper most chakras draws in and pulls in these higher frequencies that re-spark and re-ignite your galactic consciousness. You can more remember that time is not linear; timelines are not singular; selves are not just one expression at a time either.

Take this moment of marker of inner Solstice, to feel your FULL SHINING even as you feel gratitude for the Now moment and all it is offering of lessons, challenges, crucibles, opportunities, possibilities. The FULL SHINING of your soul here, of your heart here, of your sacred humanity here IS the invitation in every moment to BE the Infinite Love that you ARE.

Join us for a group call this Saturday at 11:11am CST as we feel into the FULL SHINING ascension process and much more:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Desire To Mate And Create As Sacred Humans

Published on June 21, 2017June 25, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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We are wired for creation it seems, as human BEings, and especially as Sacred Humans arising more and more through ascension… CREATE-ures, who have been created and yet also co-created, constantly, consistently, without end. We are moving more and more into a state of CONSCIOUS co-creation with each other, the Divine, and even ourselves as we engage in processes that allow us to get to know ourselves as we heal on deeper and deeper levels.

Our desire to create comes from our god-ness, for the Divine is always creating, recreating, co-creating too and we are intrinsically connected to all of that and the ALL. Multiple timelines appear on our radars, wanting us to feel more, become more, feel where we are in the moment, yet also see what we are energizing as the truest truth of who we are and the life we’re living. To acknowledge our creativity in every moment is to claim and inhabit our power again, to acknowledge ourselves as high-beaming BEings again. We are the writers of our own stories, we are bringing in energy to support or neglect our deepest desires. We are given gateways to walk through that want to bring us more outward into the harvest of our inward glances and journeys. We are brought into new territories via the vehicle of ‘I want’ and the sidecar of ‘I need’, ever-connected to quantum will, quantum desires, quantum needs that over-arch everything, everyone, every other CREATE-ure imaginable.

There’s a dance here, with self and the Divine and with each other too. We are partnered in creation, as we are all ONE anyways, yet find our individual expressions of this too. We are inclined to find dance partners through different waves and ways of relationships. We are romantic in our hearts, always imagining something (though parts of us may dismiss this for different phases), always wanting (though again, parts may be burying this for different phases), always needing something, though this can ultimately be boiled down to a much deeper need for LOVE… how could this love dance, this wanting dance, not turn into a mating dance too? First with self, then with other? How could our beautifully filling-up hearts and ever-glowing, growing souls not want to collaborate and co-create with another in sacred union, creating from an ‘usness’ of beauty and ever-purifying love and self-discovery? This collaborative sort of relationship is what could be difficult to accept into our lives, especially for those who feel they have only begun to get themselves sorted out, let alone let in a sacred union romance that will scramble their worlds up again. Yet, THIS is what creativity feels like to me… a creating and then a dismantling, only to create something new and perhaps better or more fulfilling than before!

There is a sacredness to every single desire and ache in our hearts for more or less or even something completely different than we’ve experienced so far. We are creating this sacredness from our own sacredness that can never die or be abandoned though it can certainly be buried. We are being tuned back into these frequencies that remind us of our aliveness, our need to align truly with our hearts and want we want to create, while illuminating what we’ve been creating instead. We are given this illumination as a powerful opportunity and it is entirely our own creative choice as to whether or not we step into it. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Body Calibrations And Detoxifications Happening On ALL Levels

Published on June 20, 2017June 20, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

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Our bodies, these vessels that hold our human experience, are going through a calibration process. Ongoingly…. it seems as they make the transition from carbon based to light body. Our bodies are calibrating to match the increasingly high frequencies of love and light waves coming into Gaia’s atmosphere and our atmospheres too! There seems to be a NEW level of intensity around this too, depending on where you are in your awakening and ascension process.

You could also call this a ‘purging’ and ‘detoxification’ process as well, happening on the physical level and the emotional and spiritual as well. Every cell of our bodies has been the receiver and receptor of MUCH toxicity in the foods that we eat, the water we drink, the air we breathe. The 3D world running on toxicities that remain untouched and unhealed in our collective unconscious and so manifest in what is offered as collective and global food options. The unhealed woundings in our emotional bodies and the parts that seek comfort then gravitate toward the toxic foods to actually keep our vibrational frequency low in order to ‘fit in’. It seems to be a survival mechanism that our 3D self develops to BE here.

As our consciousness awakens and expands, moving from 3D to 4D (awakening phase) and beyond, the cells in our bodies also have to adjust as well. Shifts in the vibrational spin and colorations of our chakral bodies happens too, with more blurring and merging, and more crystal feeling and look to them. These shifts and adjustments (at all levels) leads to detoxification, it is a letting go and shedding and releasing of the lower frequencies that we have taken in and indigested (again, on all levels.)

Detoxification can be intense, for sure, with many physical symptoms of body pain, sleepiness, nausea, hot/cold flashes. As you are guided to let go of certain foods and shift your diet, more detoxification may temporarily come up too as the old leaves to make room for more love and light to come in. You also may feel emotional reactions to not eating certain foods anymore as parts of you associated them with comfort (especially connected to childhood if ‘love was food’ in your birth family.) You can BE with and feel the parts of you and their reactions, holding space for the transition as you also hold with love the movements. This isn’t about intense vigilance or discipline, but rather feeling it out in every moment as to what supports your body during this process and what doesn’t.

One of main things you may be feeling guided and drawn to give up is eating meat, and dairy as well. You may be becoming much more sensitive to the energy of the animals that you are eating, what they suffered when they died, and the energy for which they were killed. I do feel that not eating animals, shifting to vegetarian and eventually vegan, IS an important aspect of ascension and awakening that speaks to the connection that we feel to ALL in which digesting anything that has been killed (the lowest vibrational frequency that can be experienced it seems) just doesn’t resonate for us anymore. I have heard for some people that eating meat ‘grounds’ them, yet I feel that connecting energetically to Gaia (walking barefoot outside especially) does this as well and no sentient beings were killed in order for the grounded to happen. Star BEing family and Angelic guides have told me and helped me remember that no higher vibrational BEings would or do eat animals as they are considered equals in consciousness, communicated with telepathically, and offer many gifts in exchange with us as we deepen our consciousness about them.

I have been vegetarian/vegan for many years and it has just fit my heart and soul awakenings and the opening of my cosmic higher christ heart. I have also been eating only fruit and smoothies the last few days and am moving into a fasting phase too with more openness and experience of living on love and light frequencies (often called living on prana.) For many months, I have offered the sense that digestion of food takes up much energy and to ‘lighten the self and the load’ is helpful. I am not feeling any kind of regimen around this, just trust and connection with my body (and my guides) to see what feels right to me in every moment. I have not felt hungry so far (although have experienced some other symptoms of detox) and we will see how it unfolds as I go. I am also open to eating whenever I want as, again, this is being held with a loving energy, not an Inner Punisher that is going into a forceful regimen of some kind.

Wherever you are in your body calibration process, if you can hold with trust and love that a HIGHER reason and purpose is manifesting for you, it can help with the body symptoms and transition. Staying connected with your body, your chakras, your emotional body, and your spiritual body allows the process to offer you some sense of what is happening. You can connect through journaling directly with your body, connect with (and even talk to!) your chakras during meditation, beginning to get to know the parts of you that connect to your emotional body, and check in with/stay close with your Guides. ALL of these shifts are being held with love and BY love as we move into places beyond biology and into the embodiment of our sacred humanity!

Here is more about sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator to provide support, connection, and a process: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This is a soothing meditation that I did to connect with Mother Mary to ease the body symptoms and connect with Divine Guidance, high frequency love vibrations: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

Here are other articles that I have written about body changes during ascension: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/body-consciousness-2/

We’ll be talking about the changes and shifts on the emotional, body, soul levels and our SoulFullHeart process and community during a group call this Saturday at 11:11am CST: https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

Published on June 20, 2017June 20, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

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The Unsolvable, Yet Discoverable Mystery Of You

Published on June 20, 2017June 20, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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It is wonderful to be such a mystery! To have so many unknown depths of self, of soul self, of heart self, to discover and uncover as you awaken, as you grow, as you go!

Parts of you may be afraid for you to feel and to know yourself at these deeper levels, concerned that you cannot handle it or will be overwhelmed or will go crazy….there are many of these concerns when and as you go deeper into yourself.

When these guarding and protective energies of you can FEEL that YOU(awakening you, authentic self you) are there….when there is a growing sense of your curiosity and your desire to truly feel and know yourself…so the guardedness can begin to relax, contribute and even HELP you with the process of self discovery rather than block it. Inner resistance and push-pull lessens SO much when this inner negotiation can consciously happen, held and supported by Divine frequencies too.

You are a mystery that ever unfolds, not really solvable, yet discoverable in tender moments of increasing self intimacy and self love!

Women’s Group Call – Emotional Body And Inner Feminine Connection, Guided Meditation, Sharings With Jelelle Awen

Published on June 20, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Here is the recording of our wonderful, touching AND powerful women’s SoulFullHeart call on Saturday! I offer (with contributions from SFH FacilitatorKalayna Colibri) about how masculine frequencies become ingrained and solidified into stuck energies (or what we call ‘parts’ or aspects’) of self as an adaptation to our environment, our families (esp. our birth mothers), our culture, etc. These masculine energies then protect our inner feminine from arising in full expression and bloom until it is ‘safe’ to do so through negotiation and healing with the Inner Protector part esp. Also, our soul gift expression and sense of soul purpose can be blocked or overly inhabited by masculine energies. Connection and surrogacies with Divine Feminine guides helps to open up this access for us and to our soul legacy or Metasoul line.

I also lead a guided meditation in this call to connect with your Emotional Body, symbolized by a river. You experience this river however you are meant to and are invited to submerge in it as well, feeling whatever feelings come up, visions, images, messages, etc. You also connect with your Inner Protector, the guard of your emotional body and inner feminine, to begin the negotiation with this energy that allows more access to both.

There are also personal sharings from two women who are currently engaged in the SoulFullHeart process through regular sessions with me, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. I feel so grateful to include their sharings as they offer so vulnerably and genuinely what their experience is with their emotional bodies and their Inner Protectors from a place of deepening into the process.

If you would like to join us for our next group call, we are hosting one on saturday with ALL of us and for women AND men. Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the SoulFullHeart perspective, process, community, and way of life as it connects to the overall ascension process, emotional body awakening and healing, sacred union, sacred masculine and feminine expression, body health, etc. We will be coleading a guided meditation as well to connect with Divine Guides and your Inner Protector – to start that connection or to deepen it. Go here for more information about joining us after offering at $11 min. donation:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

The next women’s call is July 15th, if you would like to join us! Go to soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls or https://www.facebook.com/events/470353563318653

Trusting What You Are BEcoming

Published on June 18, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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To trust what you are BEcoming, to let go of what isn’t YOU and never really WAS in order to return to and remember who you REALLY are……this is the unfolding, arising surrendering process that the Divine energies all around you are supporting.

To let go of others that can’t see you, can’t let in your love, your light or ALL of what awakens as your soul comes through….and yet to invite them to come along, BOTH, yet without settling, shrinking, grabbing at them. Your energy of open, ready, desiring, yet not compromising or playing games invites them to BE the same or to move on.

To no longer need of convincing, contending, or proving to others even as you teach, lead, respond, offer them your soul gifts, healing heart, growing sense of Infinite Possibilities. As you SHARE what you are here to offer as a soul from a place of authenticity, so you become a mirror for those who are ready and meant to see and BE this as well.

To FEEL what is real INside of your heart and soul, what has been contained, restrained, reframed, conditioned and now wants to leak, peak, burst, purge, open, reveal AND heal. This revealing gives others the space and inspiration to be REAL too and NEW deeper intimacy can flow then between you.

This is the personal disclosure process INside that leads to a life experienced as transparent and OPEN with nothing to hide, no compartments, no bubbles that need bursting……as you are loving ALL that you are and so experience a life that is reflecting the same.

Feeling What Is Real On Father’s Day

Published on June 18, 2017June 17, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

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It is father’s day. I didn’t really track this as I haven’t had a father figure in my life for many years by choice. Yet, I know that many ‘celebrate’ this day and their fathers and dads. I put celebrate in quotes because perhaps, on many levels, there may not be much to celebrate about your relationship with your father. It can be a sticky thing often, as it is with mothers too, to perhaps ‘show up for mom or dad’ out of obligation rather than based on what you most authentically want and desire.

Even if you want to celebrate your birth father today, the questions you could ask are to illuminate the relationship are, “What is my emotional truth about my relationship with my father?” “What do I (and parts of me) really FEEL about being with him?” “Is it a part of me which is ‘doing’ the role of son or daughter?” “Does my spirituality and my truths about reality get put aside when I spend time with my dad and how does this make me feel?”

Even if you consciously feel that your relationship with your father is a good and healthy one, I offer that unless you BOTH have done personal healing work plus awakening soul frequencies to connect around, healing the karmic frequencies of your soul legacy together…..it is a bond that is probably mostly based on lower frequencies, codependence, usually buried deep in the subconscious and emotional body. To be REAL about this relationship and how it has impacted you is the start of awakening beyond it.

For women who are desiring to embody their sacred femininity, deconditioning from the templating of their birth fathers can be important to the process. Deconditioning looks like feeling inside yourself how his templating around how he responded to you AS a woman, LIVES inside of you and influences parts of you. Also, feeling the ‘ideas’ that he modeled to you about what it means to be a man responding to a woman, your sexuality (either over or under energized) and especially his relationship with your mother and how he treats her. ALL of this goes into you energetically and parts of you are impacted by it. How you feel and relate with men is impacted by this relationship with father. Distant or overly involved….push/pull or energetically ‘mating’….these frequencies create textures inside, energies inside, that play out then in relationships.

For men, the way that they currently relate to men and within relationships with women too can be connected to their relationships with their birth father and how HE relates to both. This can play out in parts that are pushing away from the disconnected father or the overly involved father or the critical father energies, which then get internalized inside, or have BEcome an internal father with similar tones. Your originally ideas and sense of ‘what it means to be a man’ come from the source of your father.

On Father’s Day, I feel appreciation for the crucible of growth and reflection of my shadow side (and some leading edge sides although not much) that my fathers offered to me. I had one birth father who left my life when I was very young and two stepfathers after that with very mixed experiences and emotional abuse frequencies with one of them. It has been my healthiest and highest choice not to be in relationship with them for many years as we went on different paths around emotional body healing and soul awakening (which I chose deeply, following my soul purpose here.) I feel love for them all on the soul level and can connect there with their higher selves in moments even as we are not in relationship here.

I feel appreciation mostly though for myself and my commitment to HEAL what was wounded and harmed (all my choice on a soul level) by the dysfunction and toxicity represented in these relationships with fathers. I became a sort of father to all parts of me (and mother too) who so needed nurturing and support and comfort and so was able to hold space for my own healing. I held my inner child especially around this, until her wounded and hurt frequencies transmuted into magical 4D and eventually 5D crystal light energies.

My gratitude and appreciation also goes toward the Divine Father (which I experience primarily through the energies of Archangel Metatron and Christiel/Yeshua too) and all the frequencies for which He offers His heart and comfort to heal these woundings within us around these relationships. It has been the loving Divine Father frequencies (not like the patriarchal punishing God of religions) that come through that has provided and templated for me what it means to be fathered as a sacred feminine woman here during this intense time of transition and invitation into our sacred humanity. And it is this energy for which my deepest sense of daughter extends….

The invitation here is to feel what is real within your relationship with your father and to lead with this realness and vulnerability to see what can unfold and arise and what cannot between you. To feel into perhaps taking space from the relationship in order to BE with the parts of you that need to receive a NEW template of fatherly energies from you and with the Divine to go deeper into your own growth, your own BEing, and your sacred humanity.

Here is an article I wrote on Mother’s Day that inspired this one: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/05/14/feeling-what-is-real-on-mothers-day/

On ‘Father’s Day’: The Process Of Letting In Sacred Masculine Frequencies

Published on June 18, 2017June 17, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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I feel Him offering me His arms when my heart aches for a mate connection. I feel Him offering me His heart when parts of me need healthy ‘dad’ energy. I feel Him energizing healthy sexuality and beholding of me as woman. I feel Him in my beloved male friends and teachers in SoulFullHeart, offering me connections with men who aren’t afraid to go INward, seeking and finding parts and soul aspects of them that need healing, with an undying curiosity and love that then gets to overflow to me in connection with them. I have experienced so much healing and softening because of the love I get to share with these men who look at their shadows and bring love to me that is clean.

Yet it wasn’t always this way for me.

In 2011, my birth father passed away. His passing was a year before I started my SoulFullHeart process, and yet even then I had a sense of reality around my relationship with my father… that many tones and frequencies that I needed as a growing, budding woman were missing in my relationship with him. I experienced a lot of intense grief when he died, and over time I began to realize that some of this grief wasn’t really about losing ‘him’ but about lost opportunities in our relationship. Parts of me were actually quite angry with him for having ‘bailed’ before he ever became the father to me that he could have been. I’ve had process too around how he could never really see me, especially as a woman, and how he hadn’t been able to energize anything healthily towards me about my budding sexuality, offering me no healthy template for what I was looking for in a mate. I don’t hold my father in contempt around any of this anymore, as this was clearly a contract we both signed up for and quite frankly it feels like without these and many other voids and gaps in our relationship this life, maybe I wouldn’t have been as compelled towards the growth trajectories I’ve now been on that have made me who I am today.

Letting in the Sacred Masculine in the form of guides and as I mentioned, sacred friendship, vulnerable teacher/student, (and soon!) a sacred union relationship, has been a deep process for me of feeling through these ways in which my own father couldn’t ‘show up’, feeling how this relates for parts of me to the Divine Father and also to mates, and working with ‘inner father’ frequencies of patriarch and also masculine protectors. I’ve had blocks to truly being able to see, feel and experience the sacred masculine in its beautiful willingness to get messy and tangle with whatever it needs to in order to discover itself anew, its ability to feel and embrace the sacred feminine without wounded frequencies of control, belittling, distancing, or abuse of any kind, and its embracement of the mirror that allows it to go back into itself, finding the shadow pieces it needs and wants to work, coming out the other side with even more sense of personal power and potency. The sort of masculine frequencies that make you go ‘RAWR!’ in response to its lovingly penetrative energy and melt into its open-hearted desire for you to be the woman you are meant to be, in all of your curves and softness and self-discovery and healing of your own, in response, in an exquisite partnered dance, through leaning into the organic (and orgasmic) leadership of the authentic and vulnerable King…

It does feel as if we can miss out on letting in these incredible energies, even as they knock on our heart doors, wanting to come into us, to love up our entire being, if we aren’t willing to look at our relationship with our birth fathers. It’s a brave journey and one that can be quite hard too, yet with the right support from those who have been there, like those of us in SoulFullHeart, it is held in the sacredest of spaces and at a rate and pace that you and your parts are ready for. The yumminess of what I am able to let in more and more now, only lights me up more as I continue to feel it and feel the unfolding mystery of its unfolding in my life. There is no single definition that describes it and in its ever arising love and creativity, I feel so much warmth and comfort for my healing woman’s heart and my ever-deepening femininity. I feel how this could be true for all women who embrace the process of feeling the mark of their birth fathers and also other masculine influences in their lives, but I also feel this for men, who so feel to be aching for something missing inside of themselves that they long to experience, that is so different than how their own fathers were or are.

The sacred masculine wants to offer you space to explore yourself within it, providing a dock for your self-made container for all of the YOU-ventures that await you. And if it’s truly ‘time’ for you to do so, you won’t be able to ignore the clarion call of the fire and love it wants to gift you with to help you illuminate and be with your personal process of opening your ever-healing heart. ❤

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Trusting The Gravity Of Our Emotions

Published on June 16, 2017June 16, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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“To fall,
patiently to trust our heaviness.
Even a bird has to do that
before he can fly.” – Rilke

To fall… a tall order for some, a tip over the next pending edge for others. To trust the weight of it ALL… to be in the surrender of, ‘okay, I guess this is my next place to go’, without any denial of the clues from Love itself and the invitation into the next layer that needs healing. There are many of these next and next and next places. Trusting in them is the key and the challenge. Trusting that no matter what it feels like in these moments of letting in feeling, there is a shore we will wash up on, renewed, letting in so much more than we once could – wow, this can be the hardest piece of it all, can’t it?

There is a lot to learn to love about our emotional reality, even though the heaviness can sometimes feel as if it invades what would otherwise be a fairly smooth existence. Emotional waves passing through and over us need our attention, our love, our passion for finding purpose and meaning. In the deadest seeming desert there is still movement underneath, around and behind its stillness and winds waiting to sweep through and shake it all up. In the calmest waters, there is abundant life finding its way through inner space beneath the glassy surface, winding its way through shifting currents, being brought to different depths below. Our hearts, our souls, our bodies, our minds, are all teeming with life, with reactions, with weight, with movement, and it all wants to bring us to the next juncture on our paths. All of this wants to bring us more love and be IN more love itself.

There are so many layers of letting go, of letting in more trust, of being in more Love, of flying higher and higher still, but sometimes… sometimes there’s a crash landing needed first. Sometimes there is just that unavoidable trip down into the darkness, where our tallest, farthest reaching gardens can live and thrive. The darkness isn’t ‘dark’ at all, just a void, avoiding love, and with all good reasons for wanting to do so, yet the cost of staying in this lack place is often paid in years spent only dwelling here and not realizing there is another side to this cave.

We must feel our full-weight before we can leave gravity behind.

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